Interview yesterday was OK. I May have f'd up... I got zero sleep and was in a super weirdly happy mood because dd is back online... Why is that such a mood booster? Really wasn't myself...
Add to my top 10 bad ideas that made my inner teenager wake up and says YES THAT! I WANT THAT!!!! I WANT THAT NOW!!! is a dude that emailed me on OKCupid... He posted shirtless photos of himself front and back... yes he is ripped... yes his torso is tattooed front and back with part that says "Long Beach" across his 6 pack. And he has a teaser butt shot up. He's 37 and says he's looking for hookups... but when I asked about it said "short term dating that leads to long term dating". How many ways is he a terrible, terrible idea? SO MANY WAYS.
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S: Cranberry juice
B: 1 pumpkin pancake
S: Skipped
L: Diet pepsi, hot dog / no bun, choc frozen yogurt
S: Chicken cesar salad, no croutons, 1/2 cesar dressing.
D: Spare ribs in pea soup (my meal planned dinner turned out really well and was crazy cheap and easy... 10 min active time.... bubbled away in the instant pot while I walked my dog... delicious and my dad ate all of what was on his plate)
S: Protein pumpkin pudding
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Didn't get everything on my list yesterday... Realized that I only have space in the fridge for breakfast and 3 dinners... Not 7. I just got chicken thighs, chuck roast, and pork spareribs. One of the meal planning bootcamp tips is to stock up on sale meats, but there's no space in the fridge and one package makes 2 meals... so 3 dinners for now. Guess I am still doin a new meal plan tonight anyway for next week :-)
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Make that tomorrow... Time to go to bed... on time!
Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 54.4 lbs to go!
Ok too many posts in the same night about meal planning... But I WILL SOLVE THIS!!!!
Just doing dinners from that list... I came up with:
Raise your hand if you think I should have gone to bed or at the very least spent the time till 2 am prepping for a job interview tomorrow... not obsessing over grocery shopping.
Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 54.4 lbs to go!
and your dinners are freaking awesome.
i'm having a shepherd's pie today, a frozen Amy's one....bc i didn't cook over the weekend!
Planning my day for tomorrow... And my shopping. Mostly shopping... because I am meal planning obsessed and cannot think about anything else till I "solve" the process.
I used MyGroceryDeals.com to kind of figure out what is on sale in my area that I should go for... Then I copied the list into a google spreadsheet and refined it till I came up with just fresh fruits, veggies, and meat on sale. The last days for some sales are tuesday and others are wednesday... So I have 2 days to go shopping for these.
I found the sales, right? So I guess the next step would be to figure out what recipes I will make and what I actually need to make them....
Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 54.4 lbs to go!
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Still up too late.
Tremendously relieved that the WTC classes happen on Wednesdays. I can still go to my park workouts with my dog regularly. A little freaked out about the class. Kind of in a panic.
Still have not prepped for the interview tomorrow. I'm super dumb. Just can't focus. Why am I so obsessed with meal planning???? Ugh. It steals my brain power. I hope this free bootcamp helps me.
Pt 2 of todays meal planning assignment was to inventory your pantry. I just searched around on the web for a pantry that looks mostly like mine and noted what I usually keep on hand. I make my parents hide anything that isn't on this list because I can't resist :(
If any of the recipes call for stuff I don't have I might add, but I'm kind of at max capacity. I cook all the meals in my house, but I am restricted to one teeny tiny cupboard and one drawer in the fridge. Thus I have several plastic boxes in the dining room with the rest of it and my mom keeps trying to get me to donate food. I'm like... Did you like the meals you ate today? 1/2 the ingredients came from those boxes!!!
In addition to the items below, I also keep:
They aren't paleo, but the fitness program I am doing says oatmeal, grains (as long as they are cold), and beans (washed 6 times) are ok. The meat products are used sparingly, tiny amounts for cooking fat and flavor.
I do want an herb garden and I think January is a great time to start one.
The comments on the pantry stuff is from the blogger I grabbed the list from.
Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 54.4 lbs to go!
Augh... a whole night without a wink of sleep and an interview I'm not ready for. Got up early and am out at breakfast just to make sure I don't nodd off and get off track even more ----- Is it lack of sleep or is this $400 12 month challenge super appealing even though it is for dudes?
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--- 4am spaghetti lean cuisine, fake meatballs, mozzarella
7am Denver omelette, cottage cheese, coffee, 4+3+3 creamers
Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 54.4 lbs to go!
Jan 1 Stats
Weight: 237
Waist: 44
Wrist: 7
Hip: 48
Forearm: 11
Bodyfat: 28% (Holy moly - I might not have not lost much in the way of pounds but I dropped 10% of my bodyfat in the past year. I was 38% in the beginning of last year, and I think my highest was 53%!!!!!)
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Pulling it back together for the New Year. Tried to get to bed on time last night, but forgot to take sleep aid on time. Call with online shrink to set goals for the new year. I might have gotten frustrated a couple of weeks ago, but the truth is she is really good and I should keep going with her.
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New challenge for the year is a meal planning bootcamp.
Day 1 was to plan when I would plan (wednesdays) and where I want to make my plans (google calendar, but more likely the wireframes for the meal planning app I want to make). Day 2 is to make a list of 14 recipes that my household will eat. This was actually really hard because my dad is the world's pickiest eater. Only iceberg lettuce, no veggies, no "noodles", no vegan substitutes, no turkey burgers, nothing spicey. I literally had to make lists and then move my ideas around to the different lists... I couldn't get 14 budget-friendly recipes in each category in one sitting that fit my bootcamp and don't require me to make a separate set of sides for my dad like a salad with iceberg lettuce, white rice, bread, etc.
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S: Skipped
B: Egg bake, 1 paleo buiscut, coffee, 4 fake creamers
S: Skipped
L: Skipped
S: Cranberry juice
D: Mac n cheese, brocolli, hot dogs, stevia coke
S: Apple, and peanut butter.
Dog is a night owl too. Ignored food till 1 am and then she had beef stew, a hotdog, 2 cookies, 4 chicken jerky strips, 2 vitamin chews.
My little yellow soulmate.
Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 54.4 lbs to go!
Yay!!!! This service is up again. I really missed you ladies. I tried out Spark People while this was down and I like this so much better. Happy new year! I can't believe how much this improved me mood.
Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 54.4 lbs to go!
No scale to weigh in on.
Online counselor says that I may have committed a faux pas but it was on Molly to say no don't do that and she didn't. That it isn't that I don't know how to fix it, it is something I can't fix... and that a friendship on thin ice that can be disrupted by an oops gift isn't really one I could have hung onto anyway. That I need to look at who I choose for friends more carefully.
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B: orange, 2 cheese sticks, sweet potato crackers. S: skipped S: skipped L: skipped S: skipped S: skipped D: hometown buffet with my parents. Stuffed myself silly. The longer I sat there the less healthy my choices were. Not doing that again anytime soon
Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 54.4 lbs to go!
No scale to weigh in on. Need more veggies to see progress anyway.
Another morning of no personal messages and a big Molly-shaped hole.
Augh.
Sucking it up today. Day 9 of the toughness challenge is to go for a run and don't let yourself walk. "Toughness is pushing through pain, it’s persistence. Running, something I’m not all that fond of, is something I now do daily. It’s not for the health or the fitness, although it’s great for the lungs, it’s for the mental test, the moments where I want to walk." Persistence of pushing through pain.
Bootcamp workout tonight with my pup. Need to leave earlier tonite at 5;15 to give her more time to poop before the workout. My dog's expectations for what her daily life should be like have been raised and she's actually working on the back gate to get out and roam the neighborhood on her own. At 18!!!!!
Doing a bunch of cooking for the week. So far an egg bake, hot dog muffins, sweet potatoes, lentil soup, falafel. Anything to hide some veggies and get more in. I just feel like only eating comfort food with lots of carbs and fat.
Trying to focus on Pete's thing but I keep thinking about the meal planning app
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B: coffee 4 creams, egg mushroom sausage bake
S: overnight oats
S: hotdog muffin, cranberry juice
L: lentil soup, falafel
S: 4 egg rolls from freezer, honey mustard dressing
S: post workout hunger... 1 slice pizza, diet lemonade
D: more lentil soup, sweet potato crackers, 1/2 cheese stick, protein cookie, hotdog muffin, mustard
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4am and I'm still up. Mostly due to forgetting to take sleep aid when I got home and my mom wanted to watch a movie then toddled off to bed at 1 am. Super, super cold tonight but no high winds. That means I will be able to get a lot of chores done tomorrow. Mostly thinking about discussions with adhd coach today. Basically they run a nanny service for adults with one focus goal setting and then 3 checkins to follow up. I kind of hate the idea of that. 1 more person to fail, plus it is kind of what online counselor and I have been doing, and it is $160 a week. I'm also not sure it will help unless I get digitally organized first.
Counting blessings since I can't sleep... warm blankets, good mattress, warm fluffy dog as a bed warmer, my parents, my extended family, my running car, my weight loss, decent hair cut, good running shoes, getting a good workout in after not feeling well the last couple of weeks. Chewable peppermint melatonin. Feeling cold after being too hot for months and months, that my ex still texts me, that my mom bought me my favorite stevia soda as a hannukah gift. Finding a really, really good recipe for lentil soup. Progress in putting kitchen together. The back patio for my dog, this service and the people on it. Hugs.
Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 54.4 lbs to go!
No personal texts, calls, or emails in my inbox this morning. Augh. Shouldn't this stuff only be happening if I was addicted to smoking crack or an alcoholic or something? I am disappointed in the DARE program of my childhood. They left out fat, tired, and disorganized.
Listened to AM news channel this morning. This Bitcoin thing is crazy. I never really understood it. I can't believe it's almost $20k.
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Biked to market today and back again. Esy peasy. Mental barrier broken. Doing it all the time from now on. Then I came home, walked my dog, washed the curtains and reorganized some things. I have boxes and boxes of paper files I can get rid of if I scan them. Now my beloved dog is curled up on my feet. She makes a great cuddle buddy. Huge storm outside and 5 huge tree branches fell. I'll have to clean up tomorrow AM.
Trying to work through Pete's site. The 1:1 personal training page is hard to do. I'm looking around on the web for pages I think are well done and I can't really find any. None of them sound like someone you want to spend any time with.
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Catching up on the toughness challenge. Picking up on Day 8.
(And I just noticed his most "catchy" sharable ideas are in his emails, not his landing pages.. so when I get through this I will have to go back and summarize it and then do the steps again.)
Today it is about faith and that people with faith are inspired to do great things. So you basically have to figure out what you have faith in. "Now, faith in what? That’s not for me to tell you. Faith in the universe, in God, in Allah, in Yeshua, in the idea that if you work hard and do the right thing that is enough. This is for you to decide, but faith in something greater, be it an idea, an ideology, a being that is greater than you allows you to give your fear up and give it to something else, something bigger and greater than you can comprehend." So the challenge is to figure out what you believe in and commit.
This is a good thing to think about because it is something I have struggled with all my life. From my upbringing I hold 3 pieces of different ideaologies (Jewish, Catholic, Universalist Unitarian "Everyone is right, it is all one story"). In college I looked around at the 5 square Christians, but it didn't really resonate. I did like Habitat for Humanity. I need to think about what it was in Habitat for Humanity that is the core idea and commit to that. It meshes with what I like about the Unitarians, but culturally I don't like going there... They are kind of weird and new age.
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Adding to this list as I think of things... Gotta celebrate our successes...
THINGS I HAVE ACHIEVED THIS YEAR: Got back into fitness, lost a bunch of weight, learned a bunch of new skills, lost and found and lost a job but at least got a good reference from it. Got my act together when it comes to taking care and providing for my dog even if she is 18 now. Reduced family friction and stopped responding to my dad baiting me. Got rid of two terrible romantic relationships. Built a network of women to go camping with that I like. Got my personal website up. Got control of my sleep (HUGE). Got the kitchen set up. Cleaned out parent's living room and dining room. WAY better hair, makeup, and clothes.
What have you achieved this year?
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9:20am - B: protein cookie
S: 1 piece of cheese and sweet potato crackers
L: burger wrap, diet pepsi, sweet potato fries
S: cheese stick, crackers
D: beef stew from freezer, 2 pieces pizza
S: cranberry juice with seltzer
S:
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Spare ribs in pea soup sounds interesting, do you precook the ribs? Is the instant pot the same thing as a slow cooker ( or crockpot?)
The instant pot is a pressure cooker that can also be a slow cooker. It is fantastic and if you don't have one, buy the biggest one. The stainless steel insert can go on the stove for browning then you stick it in the pressure cooker to finish off. If I'd thought about it I could have cut up the ribs to brown them, stuck the pot in for 15 minutes to defat, then poured off the fat annd tossed in the broth, veg and peas for 20-30... but I was tired and just did the easy way and used all the fat in the soup. It tasted fine and wasn't fatty but probably not healthy.
innerpeace on 01/04/2018:
Maybe you did better than you think. I once thought I bombed an interview and then was offered the job, so you never know what employers are looking for. I think my DH is becoming a career interviewer though! I never had much luck on dating sites, I admire your fearlessness in doing it. I even had no that didn't want to continue corresponding and just put "i'd rather not say"! So good luck, be careful, stay safe but have fun.
Yeah, it's not the best way to meet someone but I need some kind of hope.