Sunday night and I am getting ready for a second round interview tomorrow. I had lovely references from past coworkers and managers. Hopefully I will kick ass and take names.
Trying to prepare for the interview, but all I can think about is emergency preparations. The 8.2 earthquake that hit Mexico usually travels north to us afterwards on that fault line... Also, Irma is about to take out my mom's condo. She's here with me so she's ok, but she left the family photos in the living room in front of the window... and they are about to be under 6 ft of water. She does not have insurance and the cleanup and repairs may be more than she can pull off. Very anxious.
Still chatting with UDG. A little conflicted because I like him a lot, but worry that if we take it to the next level, it'll give him a heart attack... And that's not sexy. He had a hard time just getting into his car the other night. It was a full on sweaty workout to get into the car seat and the seatbelt fastened. I want someone who will be around for the next 20 years and the way he's going... more than a couple of months would be a gift. Still I feel better whenever I talk to him and that is a quality I can't pass on.
I am still on the online dating sites... But not pulling in any winners. Did get some haterade for posting a current photo of myself rock climbing at REI ladies night. "What do you weigh? You must not go hiking very often judging by how fat you are!" I should have told him to go back to diddling himself in his mom's basement but I blocked him first and can't undo it to send a nastygram back.
Need to get it together and start hitting the gym every day. Read an article on http://fitwithvicki.com/ that suggested if you are over 200 lbs, you need to work on diet and small improvements first and don't worry about exercising every day. It sure feels like that's all I can manage.
Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!
Back from Catalina. Oi... real life. Was up late last night doing laundry and putting the house back together.
Woke up: 9:45 B: 4 packs of trail mix, matcha L: greek frozen yogurt bar at 3pm. Super hungry but fridge isn't organized enough to find food. Spent morning cleaning... chicken/egg problem. Must clean fridge to find food. Must find food to have will to clean fridge. Only the strong will survive S: Cleaning out fridge and snacking my way through. 2 pieces of cheese, 2 hardboiled eggs, snap peas, matcha
Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!
I see you are STILL an addict of those trail mix packets….this is probably the particular reason I do not keep any at home….but if you want to try to have only one packet, the tip is to have your matcha ready so that by the time you are finished eating the 1st packet, the match is in your hand ready to deliver to your mouth! This is literally how I do things!!!!!!!!! To stop eating, I have the drink READY so that it’s not like I stopped with the food, still putting something in my mouth, just not any more calories….
I know what you mean by wanting to eat and then do the work….i am same! If I am hungry, that’s all I think about and really don’t like to do work until I’ve satisfied my hunger either lol…
Seems you have a good mix of snacking foods in your fridge….but yeah sounds like you are ready to go shopping soon for more ! LOL….happy FRIDAY!
Ugh, didn't even realize there was no evacuation order for Houston till I read this... http://www.npr.org/sections/thetwo-way/2017/08/28/546721363/why-didn-t-officials-order-the-evacuation-of-houston
Interview today. I am a little worried because I don't really understand the company... it is a cashback rewards program that watches your credit card transactions, but if it is able to see all items purchased, that's a lot of data to give up about yourself. Scary.
Up:8:45 B: matcha, overnight oats
Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!
Evacuation order or not, couldn't one as a thinking for oneself human being take care of themselves and leave the area without being told by a city official?
I just read this morning a tropical storm could turn into a hurricane by the end of the week, headed for Florida. If I was in Florida, I would be making arrangements to leave now...and then again one could always choose not to live on a coast line.
I hope you did well on your interview...if you went. I hope they were able to explain the job and/or company to you.
Turning in the training funding application today.. I am so nervous about it and had such a hard time putting it together. Part of me assumes I am going to get turned down and another part of me slaps that part and says don't be stupid. Being afraid you will get turned down doesn't mean not doing it at all so you aren't disappointed is the right thing either. Suck it up cupcake and just show up and see what happens.
So I am at the workforce center waiting for my appointment.
29 days into 60 day challenge. With this next half I want to build on my regular 7-8 hours of sleep and elimination of simple carbs.
Missed my workout today though. I really need to move to a closer gym.
Breakfast: matcha, overnight oats
Lunch: black beans, cheese, enchilada sauce, kale, sweet potato chips.
Snack: cheese stick, 2 hardboiled eggs, carrot sticks, hummus
Snack: paleo brownie, 4 tbsp frozen yogurt
Dinner: porkchop in mushroom gravy, mashed potatoes, kale
Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!
Wow so already you are halfway into the challenge! amazing!
Yes, i like to have a gym as close as humanly possible....that's def most convenient especially if it's bad weather, my gym i can only go via local roads which is good during storms not to have to be on a highway....
with gyms, they are best when they are able to add convenience into our lives rather than too many obstacles and/or frustrating challenges!
Still PMS. Still a little crazy/cranky. Worried I'll have it while I'm supposed to be snorkeling Catalina and a shark will eat me if I go in the water. Aaaaargh!
Ate two slices of pizza today, but tomorrow is another day and the giant living room pile is No More! It is conquered. Sorted! Boxed! Dejunked!
Next step is to figure out what to do with it all and clean the carpets. I should probably buy a carpet cleaner so I can do it in small patches, but balk at spending $200 when I am unemployed and it isn't something I should buy used.
Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!
Lately instead of PMS, i'm just EXTREMELY TIRED and been craving sleep. So just taking it as easy as possible at work.
Didn't get everything done today but I didn't yesterday either so I might as well just call it a night and go to bed on time. I ate a lot of junk tonight in a hormonal meltdown... an ice cream sandwich, personal pepperoni pizza, and a chocolate chip cookie. Going to bed early is my best first step to getting back on track.
Heard from Scott today. He has new apple earphones and wanted to rub it in. I should have responded with the finger.
Sent me into a Tinder fidget widget storm. Realized it was unproductive and deleted my profile again.
Ugh. Where is the decent dude I can connect with?
Hugs kiddos. If you need to hug yourself, that's cool too.
Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!
HUGS back to you!
Feeling a bit better this morning. Delayed my camping trip by a day. Decided to stick around at home and try to work here today so I don't have to reset and recover at the coworking space. Also put my membership on pause there. There is going to be a remodel and I don't want to be there while that's going on. I have bad asthma.
Breakfast: Mixed nuts, matcha
12: Sat down to work. Started with cleaning out inbox while the Design on a Dime episodes play in background for pleasant happy sounds.
1:20 - Hungry and parents finally left. Faced the enormity of trying to deal with the mess I created there. Washed down counters, swept floor, matched up tupperware for packing cooler, dug sweet potatoes that are cooked out of fridge, ordered replacement parts for slow cooker I destroyed, then ate some food... an hour later.
2:30 - Starting work again. Looking for jobs on angel list to apply to. Realized my linked in profile and resume still say I work at my last job presently... 3 months later. *facepalm*
Digging through the gigs... Super complicated stuff that makes me want to run to a dev bootcamp so I can have a job where I get to hide a lot. *sigh*
While I tried to find 12 jobs I am qualified to apply for... I did things like:
1AM - Done with applying for 12 jobs and submitting my UI claim form like a responsible adult.
Did nighttime routine of washing dishes before bed and putting on a load of laundry. I must have used every dish in the house today making spaghetti sauce. Augh. Took 3rd shower.2:43 am in bed w/ benadryl
Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!
nice on the shirataki noodles! i didn't know you ate them! I used to, but, due to the fact that they are indigestible, i do not buy them anymore because they'd bloat me causing terrible gas and would take like 2 days for me to poop them out!
i love those shirataki noodles, but because i'm always working and at gym they caused to much problems. I may eat them a couple times in the late fall, maybe, if i get a day to myself!
i really MUST learn to use a crockpot. I'd have endless healthy dinners that are homemade. I'll learn to use one in late fall!!!!!!!! i'll be home more often on weekends and in December too.
Before NYPD academy i need to learn the crockpot so i can eat better AND MAKE food for the week each week while i study on the weekends at home! YES...i should use a crockpot on weekends in the winter so i can cook while i study!
I do not know how you handle everything, but kudos for doing it.
Have fun camping and stay safe.
Went through the application work today and discovered that it is a lot more work than I thought. Very upsetting. It is also getting hard to find roles I qualify for. When did everything I do suddenly require an engineering degree or an MBA? I wish I had done something less technical as a career. Very dismal. Ate a slice of pizza and then a personal frozen pizza and some Taro chips.
Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!
Love those taro chips!
LOL, what a weird mix of fresh pizza and then a frozen pizza....! i am SURE the fresh was better!?
Apparently my work ethic is why I survived so many layoff rounds at my last job.
Hugs. You sound like a good soul.
11 am - I woke up late which screws with the adhd meds and had to sit around for an hour and a half waiting for them to kick in.
12 - Showered
1 - Despite having everything in place to simply slide out the door in the morning and be super productive, I did not leave house till 1. Grabbed cooler.
2 - Sat at coworking space trying to get my head around tasks for the day and intermittently eating out of the coler.
Have to get the unemployment form filled out, application for certification done, and fix my bills today, desperately, and all I can think about is the perfect camping menu. There is definitely an app in this. I don't see anything that really helps. Booo.
The problem is that when you prep fod for camping, you do it in stages:
A month ahead:
A week ahead, shopping for:
A week ahead, prep steps:
2 days ahead, food shopping:
2 days ahead prep:
1 day ahead prep:
Day of:
There's Plan to Eat, Moonlight, Trail Chef... but none of them let you add phases and assign a day or break up a shopping list by trip... or print separate prep steps by phase.
There's an app in this, I tell you.
6pm: Actually starting UI form. Applying to roles in Austin, TX a place I have always wanted to check out. A contract there would be fun. Was actually recruited for one a couple of weeks ago and botched it like an idiot because I wasn't emotionally ready. UDG has really helped me put my head back together and feel good. Scott not wanting a relationship with me really hurt. ****tard.
Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!
High anxiety day. Massive PMS.
Application is due tomorrow for the class.
If I had a way, I would design a "Life Lessons" app. That way when someone asks me to dog sit and they don't have internet, and load their kitchen with pizza and junk food, it would pop up a reminder how much it sucks to be there.
It was a test of willpower but I did not eat anything.
I wish there were decent quality wide calf boots for women in size 12. These stop at size 11 :-(
http://www.thefryecompany.com/melissa-stud-back-zip-wide/d/7543601C29992?CategoryId=106
Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!
Also, good luck with your application – you’ll pull thru. Lastly, when PMS is over, your anxiety will also lessen. I also get anxiety with PMS / period. Bye!
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I'm glad to hear that your mom is safe...I know photos are important...hopefully they were spared. Sweaty guy sounds like he could use a diet buddy...do you think he would go for that? The other isn't worth your time or energy...at the rate he is going he will never find someone to put up with his mouth.....I agree hat cutting back on food should be done for people over 200...exercising is hard at this weight and toning up will be more important later...and it always amazes me how few calories are actually burned with exercise....taming the food monster makes the most sense. Of course we should be getting SOME exercise...jut not so that it is overwhelming. My husband and I both have some health issues right now that demand we lose weight...and I guess that scared us into getting really serious, yesterday he hit 200 and he hasn't been there in 20 years...he has cut back and he's eating lots of fresh raw vegetables and fruit. We are both so happy ....I just got serious a few days ago...and oddly..it is now easy...I guess the motivation is the mot important thing.
legcramps on 09/11/2017:
I think whatever changes you can make now are only going to help you later, so whatever you do - change up your diet or start an exercise routine - you rock it and you'll get to where you want to be!
Hugs. Ty!
horn_of_plenty on 09/11/2017:
Hi Happy!
I am glad to hear that the 1st round went well – good luck today!
I def do NOT think you should take if too far with this guy. Sounds to me you need somebody a little more active, Happy!
I’m glad you were proud of yourself and don’t take the hater’s comments to heart. Anyone that can send hate and nasty comments on someone’s body obviously has a lot of self-esteem issues of their own going on!
Yes – in order to lose weight it’s more about diet and less about the exercise. You don’t wanna diet too strict, but you do need a calorie deficit which is easier to achieve thru diet than exercise. I know from experience and agree with all the literature!
Take care and stay Happy, HAPPY!
biscottibody59 on 09/12/2017:
Welcome (belatedly) to DDs!
Looks like you're in the game and that's the main thing. Keep up the good work!
Good luck with the interviewing!