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happy-1 - Saturday Jul 03, 2021
Weight: 216.0

Oh what a delight... yesterday the cat experimented with putting her hread on my foot... but this morning I got my first sit-on-the-human chest cuddle and love session... and doubly-good because she waited till it was time to wake up at 6 am. 

So glad I didn't get the 17lb cat I saw on the animal control website.

For yesterday, 7/2/21:

  1. BP1, yes
  2. 10cr, no. Have myself a planned rest day. I went to the grocery store, pulled together stuff to donate, and gave myself a pedicure. Oh the joy of looking down and seeing pretty fingers and toes.
  3. 4ns, no, rest day.
  4. 30pln, no... just too tired to focus.
  5. 14fs, no but set myself up to have this be a yes for saturday... I had a cheat meal of 6 hot wings and a keto ice cream bar before 5pm and was able to stop eating at 5pm and hold to it
  6. 2do, I think so... I need to check... but pretty sure this is a yes.
  7. 2.5k@5, yes!!!!! On the nose
  8. 7w, no
  9. 10Kstp, no rest day
  10. 9bed, no... stayed up till 10:45 watching netflix and doing my nails, but fell asleep right away. 

I was rewarded this morning with in range sugar overnight.


Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/03/2021:
A victorious day! I enjoy reading about your new kitty too. Sounds very promising!

happy-1 on 07/03/2021:
She’s a good kitty kat… we’re working it out.

bearcountrygg on 07/03/2021:
Sounds like mama cat has started making herself at home.....and that's a good thing.

happy-1 on 07/03/2021:
Yeah… she’s a sweetie pie.

Jacky82020 on 07/03/2021:
Yay! A good day all around!

Nice about the cat! I wouldn’t mind a 17 pd cat if it was meant to be a 17 pd cat. My 15 pd cat should be 11 pds. He lost 4 oz since I stopped free feeding. Give them kibble in the AM & wet food nights. The kibble lasts all day, but is often gone the next morning

happy-1 on 07/03/2021:
Lol… Have you tried a gatorade bottle and poking holes in it with a hot knife? Pour kibble in it… keeps him busy all day to get to the kibble and exercises him too. Had to do that with my dog when she was younger.

She was like 6lbs at the vet, but I think she’s a lot heavier now. A 17lb tom cat doing chest kneading with pointy claws would have been a deep tissue massage unexpectedly…

Horn_of_plenty on 07/03/2021:
you sound good! i love that the kitty is getting very accustomed to you!

also, i like how your progress says "101 lbs lost"....that's awesome!

happy-1 on 07/03/2021:
Eh. More like 96 right now because I gained so much weight because of stupid Nutrisense bug.

Inch by inch, better and better, one pebble at a time.

Jacky82020 on 07/04/2021:
That kibble in the bottle is a great idea! Thanks. Will definitely do.

happy-1 - Thursday Jul 01, 2021
Weight: 216.0


Each one of these I flipped yes represents a herculean effort that took all my brain power and energy. I didn't get enough sleep last night and it tanked my energy even though my sugar was good. Was up till after midnight hungry, but stuck to not eating. Then the cat woke me up too early (5am).

  1.  BP1, yes. And also after coffee and meds.
  2. 10cr, yes, yin yoga
  3. 4ns, no, and I missed PT homework. I just got so tired after yoga I couldn't keep going.
  4. 30pln, almost but not quite. Started multiple times and kept getting interrupted.
  5. 14fs, no. Ate after yoga and did it again tonight. I had green overnight sugar though. 
  6. 2do, sort of. It all went out the window but I got one critical thing done. This is more about focus and sustained energy level to complete planned work... so no. Partially because I had to take dad to get extra labs done. And also I'm running a little low on groceries.
  7. 2.5k@5, no... i was about 700 under. I ate after yoga... but I did stay within calorie goals for the first time in a while.
  8. 7w, no... 5
  9. 10Kstp, no but I went for a 40 min walk
  10. 9bed, almost... 9:15. I hit a shower after my walk... a strategic error.Dad asked me to make him a burger at 8:49. I pushed through exhaustion and did it, but I'm so tired it created drama because he kept asking me questions and trying to get me to talk and all i want to do is crawl into a hole and sleep for a decade. I got THE WORST email from Nutrisense today threatening to kick me off the service... I pushed back on their counter offer of 1 mo of free nutritionist support asking for 3 months and some kind of plan for how to get a better outcome the next couple of months... and apparently I don't belong on their service. I just want to get back up... it was helping... I can't say why this rocked me so hard... or what to reply.



Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 07/01/2021:
Ps… The cat saw I was upset and licked my feet

Donkey on 07/02/2021:
^Awww, cats just know.

Many of the "no's" were quite close (e.g. #4) or had positive outcomes anyway (e.g. #5, #7).

I'm sorry for the negative turn with Nutrisense. I hope they get some sense (no pun intended) and give you 3 months' worth. In the long run, that would be the better customer service option.

Jacky82020 on 07/02/2021:
Cute about the kitty cat!

I looked at Nutrisense out of curiosity. They seem to have a complicated fee schedule. Something about no real contacts, BUT you have to commit for 3 month blocks: 3, 6, 9 etc. And they can fine you for not notifying them per their rules. I saw something as high as $300, but as I said it was complex, so maybe I got it wrong.

Jerks! They should be nice & comp you!

bearcountrygg on 07/03/2021:
That is quite a monthly cost to have something not work.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/03/2021:
awww, thats gotta feel interesting, a cat licking your feet haha!

also, nice job getting things done despite being tired! :) go you. i had the same issue last night, but didn't get anything done once i hit the couch after getting home....i gotta work on this!

happy-1 - Wednesday Jun 30, 2021
Weight: 216.0


  1.  BP1, no, woke up late, spaced. Today is a perfect example of making a critical change (not using total calorie count in Nutrisense, calculating it outside the app, limiting calories based on a correct total) and then suddenly feeling SO MUCH BETTER... that I get a shock to my system and fall apart. Having tracked it enough times now, I know that day 1 of feeling better, I just need to let whatever happens happens and go to bed on time. Focus on just getting one more good day added to the chain.
  2. 10cr, yes. I did another yoga class. Ompractice records all classes. I almost hope they make a bloopers reel of me struggling. I did happy baby, rolled, got stuck on one side, my gut was too fat and I couldn't roll back onto my back. I just got stuck there like a turtle.
  3. 4ns, yes. I walked to the park and did most of the pt routine. I rescheduled pt tomorrow. They gave me a whole bunch of stuff to work on and it's too much to absorb twice in one week.
  4. 30pln, no. Planning went out the window today. I just followed my alexa prompts and went on auto pilot.
  5. 14fs, no but it didn't matter. It was messed up by having a pbj after yoga yesterday and I had to get my calories in again today, so I did it again today. Strangely I had all green sugar again last night.
  6. 2do, no. I just couldn't pull my brain together. I will try again tomorrow.
  7. 2.5k@5, no. Calorie totals are just too much to manage with the Nutrisense bug.  I need to make a better meal plan so I can get my 2500 by 5 and fast. I do think I was right in there with my calorie count though.
  8. 7w, no more like 4
  9. 10Kstp, no. I went for a walk to the park though. 7:15 is too late for that alexa prompt. I moved it earlier to get more steps. 
  10. 9bed, yes. A little proud of this... I cooked turkey chili in the afternoon even though I didn't feel like cooking. I had good fuel for yoga. It had time to cool while I went for a walk. When I came home, I did dishes and put it away. I restocked my cooler for tomorrow. I went to bed when Alexa told me to and did not turn on Netflix. 

Here is my overnight sugar and my body battery. Glorious what one small change can do. Domino by domino I will flip all of this around. I can do this. One foot in front of the other. One step at a time. Inch by inch. Habit by habit. Pebble by pebble. I can do this. I am doing this. I am above ground and kicking. I am getting back up. I can. I am. You will see.


Also, today the cat went into the bathroom all on her own and flopped there when I was getting ready for yoga. Good kitty. I appreciate your support and cooperation in achieving my goals. I appreciate that you did not bite or scratch me, and that you sought to be near me multiple times. I feel we may become partners. I will support you in your goals.  Tomorrow afternoon before yoga I will make progress on the cat tree.

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 07/01/2021:
Aaargh 1k calories short today. Can’t sleep. If I eat… I spike my sugar.

Donkey on 07/01/2021:
Great job on your blood sugar!!! And recharging your battery!!!

How do I ask Alexa to set up reminders for me? Do I just ask her "Alexa, set a reminder to take meds at 3pm" -- like that?

happy-1 on 07/01/2021:
Alexa remind me at 3pm everyday > what is the reminder for? Take meds > Ok I will remind you everyday at 3pm.

horn_of_plenty on 07/01/2021:
yep, no point relying on the app's calorie count if it's not right!

happy-1 on 07/01/2021:

happy-1 - Tuesday Jun 29, 2021
Weight: 216.0


UGH! Inch by inch. One foot in front of the other. One pebble at a time. 

  1. BP1, yes.
  2. 10cr, yes. I went to PT, and I also did a yoga flow class
  3. 4ns, let's say yes since they were part of PT
  4. 30pln, yes. I did my dad checkin and looked at the calendar with him... and said no or next week to everything he asked for. Still counts.
  5. 14fs, no, but weirdly I still had green sugar overnight.
  6. 2do, yes. There wasn't much on it, but I did what was on it.
  7. 2.5k@5, yes to the calories but not by 5. I ate a keto pbj after yoga at 7.
  8. 7w, no, like 3?
  9. 10Kstp, no. I got sidetracked and went for my walk too late. Just did a small one. Better to go to bed on time.
  10. 9bed, yes, with my bitey scratchy kitty kat curled up by my imperiled feet.

Today I found a bug in the Nutrisense app that caused me to gain 12 lbs. The nutritionist said it was very close and not significant. If you paid $289/mo for an app that undercalculated your daily calories by about 700 and you gained 12 lbs... would you be PO'd? I told them they should comp me 6 months of nutritionist support since that's how long it will take to lose the weight I gained in the 7 weeks that feature was affected. (They charge separately for the nutritionist... who never noticed how totally off the calories are in data that she looks at every day).

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

Donkey on 06/30/2021:
Oh yes, I think I'd be p-i-s-s-e-d in a major way, especially since you now have those extra pounds to deal with. I mean, it's not just that you received bad information (that's bad enough) BUT you also now have to suffer with consequences of that bad information. Here's hoping that they come off quickly... Makes me wonder if the nutritionist was really looking at your data at all, too. I do think some kind of rebate would be appropriate.

Quite a few "yes" in your list, and good blood sugar levels (green), so I think that should count twice, right?

Jacky82020 on 06/30/2021:
Thought you meant $289 per year, not month, but I’m seeing this is a continuous glucose monitoring system. They are pricey! Last one I looked at cost ~$300 per month for the sensors. Wow! I’d love to try it, but I’m way too frugal. They definitely should comp you!!

happy-1 on 06/30/2021:
It's expensive but has yielded radical, life-changing benefits. I'm desperate to get my health and life together and get back to work. You could try Steady. They use the US Freestyle Libre 2 sensors, have a free version of the app that works with those, and can bill your insurance company. https://blog.steady.health/what-is-your-cgm-strategy-9b796b55646

Jacky82020 on 06/30/2021:
Glad it’s working for you! Are you able to bill ykur insurance?

Horn_of_plenty on 06/30/2021:
yoga is wonderful! maybe when i have a day off this summer, i'll take a VERY slow and easy yoga class. maybe even a chair yoga. maybe there's something easy on youtube for free that i can find..

i gotta say, i agree. A shorter walk and bed on time can def be very helpful for the following day :)

very interesting that you spotted a bug in the app. if that is so, they should be thankful you did and they should soooo comp you!

happy-1 - Tuesday Jun 29, 2021
Weight: 216.0

For Mon 6/28/21:

  1. BP1, yes, and it was weirdly in range again the third day in a row.
  2. 10cr, yes, I did a yoga class, for which I gave myself a lotto ticket. i won another ticket.
  3. 4ns, yes, but forgot to do pt
  4. 30pln, yes... I even setup my day planner again, and got alexa reminders on... she now plays yoga music 30 minutes before class starts to kick me in the ass to clear the chair and desk and roll out the mat.
  5. 14fs, no. Blowing chunks on this and paying the price with my sugar
  6. 2do, no... there was a 2pm dad checkin I missed
  7. 2.5k@5, no... shockingly I had only eated 956 calories when I should have had 2500. It messed up my fast for tomorrow. Ugh.
  8. 7w, no... 5
  9. 10Kstp, no was sedentary today
  10. 9bed, no... got hooked on fixing stats when I was on my way to bed. I am craving progress because my weight is up to 226 :(

Cat has not bitten me since this morning but I am also not getting loved on.... I believe she resents her time in the bathroom last nihght so I could sleep, after biting me  this morning, after swatting me this afternoon, and during yoga. Everytime I did down dog, I saw her staring at me through the gate.

I know kitty, I would bite me too.

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/29/2021:
When Sampson is mad at me...he turns his back to me when he lays down...they are spiteful little things...basically..they are narcissists.....I can almost guarantee that she is always mad when shut up in the bathroom......

happy-1 on 06/29/2021:
I need to get this cat a cat tree. Maybe she will chill a little more... Wait... Why am I getting something that bites me a cat tree?

Jacky82020 on 06/29/2021:
My cats are the sweetest things in the world! Cute & cuddly. A little less cuddling yesterday because it was so warm.

happy-1 on 06/29/2021:
Aaaaaw… so floofy

Donkey on 06/29/2021:
My tortie loves to sit in my lap in the morning and sometimes at night, but she will fight me to get into my lap. She's such a tease.

My Boy Cat has physically attacked my arm when I trim his nails. He really doesn't like that, but it's a necessary evil, I'm afraid. I can usually save my arm from trauma if I wear a fleece jacket while trimming nails. He'll tolerate 3 paws, but I usually have to wait to do the 4th paw after a short break, where he can regroup.

happy-1 on 06/29/2021:
Why do we have cats again????

bearcountrygg on 06/29/2021:
Sampson follows me around all day and talks a lot.....sleeps next to my head at night...but not touching.....his main aim in life is to get me to scratch his head...even in the middle of the night...if he spots my hand in the dark...he will be bumping it with his wet nose.....if I don't respond...he touches my face with his wet nose.........he only sits on my lap if I'm scratching his head...otherwise he just moves a few feet away and turns his back...when he is over it...he turns around and watches me.....ready to follow again.....but no snuggling ever...he does not like restriction at all.....other cats in the past were snugglers....they do have individual personalities...but ...they are the boss...

happy-1 on 06/29/2021:
Aaaaaw. He sounds like the boss!

horn_of_plenty on 06/29/2021:
hopefully her time in the bathroom will decrease. she's doing wayyy better than my young guinea pig....it will not settle down and i've had it for like 5 months

happy-1 on 06/29/2021:
He’ll get there. Maybe prozac????

happy-1 - Monday Jun 28, 2021
Weight: 216.0

Fell asleep in the middle of posting last night. Oos. The gaba/melatonin combo must be starting to work... plus as soon as I hit my bed, the cat decided to love on me like... I don't know what... but a lot. Who wants to post when a stray cat is declaring their undying love?

(I will admit I was a little nervous about getting bit... she didn't last night but did today during the good morning cuddle... wtf kitty? Last night you were a lap cat for two minutes and didn't take my arm off. This AM you came to say good morning and two strokes in sank your fangs into my arm?)


For yesterday, 6/27/21:

  1. BP1, yes... and in zone.
  2. 10cr, no... I planned a yoga class, but was spacey due to high sugar and forgot to do it. Today I set up alexa reminders and routines to remind me then play music.
  3. 4ns, no and I didn't do pt.
    30pln, no. Was too spacey due to heat and high sugar.
    14fs, no
  4. 2do, no
  5. 2.5k@5, no and it jacked up my fast for the next day... i way underestimated my calories and then couldn't stick out the fast before bed.
  6. 7w, no. This probably impacted my ability to stick out fast before bed
  7. 10Kstp, no, and the walk at 5 helps turn off hunger.
  8. 9bed, no. More like 11.


Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 06/28/2021:
i also got distracted posting the other day, you aren't alone! ha

awww so sorry you were bit. hopefully she will learn not to do that!

i hope you get in some yoga if that's your goal for today!

bearcountrygg on 06/28/2021:
cats are very opinionated...and will bite when you aren't doing what they want you to do.....ours doesn't like new people coming into the house...once bit a friend when she went to pet him...today...repairman was here and he didn't want to stay in the bedroom...hissed at me.....fought me to get into the garage...i said know...he fought me and hissed again.....they are the boss or at least they think so...our resident boss wants to be scratched on the forehead....any other place ticks him off......

happy-1 on 06/29/2021:
Ugh. The last cat never bit or scratched me once… but peed and pooped everywhere. Tradeoffs?

Donkey on 06/29/2021:

happy-1 on 06/29/2021:

happy-1 - Sunday Jun 27, 2021
Weight: 216.0

 For yesterday... saturday 6/26/21:

  1. BP1, yes
  2. 10cr, better than yes... I signed back up for ompractice and did a 1 hour class! I think I get to scratch off one lotto ticket today just for this milestone. It helped that I used a coworking session to prep my room and I for yoga. It took the full 2 hours.
  3. 4ns, no, and I only did one pt set
  4. 30pln, no. I was brain dead yesterday. Sugar was too high overnight. I ate sunflower seeds (the ones in the shell) emotionally (upset I couldn't pull off the rugby game) thinking they were low calorie and wouldn't count. I was asleep by 11:17 and slept a full 8 hours, but sugar was high so I was just in a fog.
  5. 14fs, no, apparently sunflower seeds count
  6. 2do, no. Didn't even look at it.
  7. 2500cal, no... haven't been to the grocery store in a few days and wasn't organized about it last week, plus I need to clean out the fridge... and also dad is getting restless without his snacks and treats while we try to get the excess fluid off his heart. I'm not supposed to start cooking after 5, but that's what time yoga ended... so I started making dinner. My sugar was still too high, I had cramps, I was tired... the kitchen was a trainwreck... so I just started cooking chicken which triggered dad to try and control the outcome of the chicken cooking and me bailing halfway through, feeding him the first batch,  taking a break and going back to finish it a couple of hours later... but that meant I didn't get to eat dinner till 9pm and that triggered a lot of snacking after dinner from being too hungry, off schedule and emotional.
  8. 7w, no. I just spaced on this. Also, I think I ate a bite of raw chicken on accident so I drank a lot of seltzer.
  9. 10Kstp, no, had to wait at home all day for fedex to deliver replacement air conditioner.
  10. 9bed, no, 2am. I just got too stressed with the dad food thing and stayed up late to watch amazon video and snack.

Ugh. 2 out of 10. But better than 0.

Locked the cat in the bathroom last night because I caught her scratching my yoga bolsters. Cat figured out how to get out of the bathroom with the door shut, woke me up, and I am short on sleep this AM. 


Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 06/27/2021:
I'm sorry i've fallen behind on your entries!

Mama cat is a beautiful name! :)

In one of your entries, you talk about how inch by inch you will find the right behaviors/habits. I suggest don't beat yourself up because even with all the tricks and many things i've learned, i sometimes do not have a 10/10 day everyday. things come up, things cause me to derail. so if you can say you did as well as you could even with derailments, i'd give you a pat on the back :)

about the dialysis, so true. boy does that sound HORRIBLE. i know a couple people on it, one of them works (with a really long commute), i feel so bad that his time is spent that way. the other is unemployed as he didn't want to work and do diallysis at the same time - not everyone can balance that.

you are doing really well these few days....keep on ...love to hear all of it.

don't be upset you couldn't get to the game - it was last minute :)

have a nice day!

Donkey on 06/28/2021:
Just an FYI - many cats like to scratch yoga mats too. Just sayin'...

happy-1 on 06/28/2021:
And pee on them. Rubber has the scent that makes cats pee. Last cat killed old mats… I have all new fancy ones. She’s definitely not going anywhere near my cats while they are out. That bathroom screen door was the smartest thing I did so far.

legcramps on 06/28/2021:
You are right, 2 is better than 0. And you did the best you could, which is all you should be asking of yourself each day. Just do your best!

happy-1 on 06/29/2021:
But 10 out of 10 means I get to scratch one of my $1 lotto tickets ;)

happy-1 - Saturday Jun 26, 2021
Weight: 216.0

All I can say about today is that I am still here and kicking. Was supposed to see a friend tomorrow but she forgot and invited me to her nephews rugby game. I said thank you but let me get pt and yoga in first. I look like roadkill right now.

  1. BP1, yes
  2. 10cr, no
  3. 4ns, yes
  4. 30pln,no
  5. 14fs, yes
  6. 2do, no, cramps
  7. 2500cal, no
  8. 7w, no, 6
  9. 10Kstp, no but I walked to the store
  10. 9bed no

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

Donkey on 06/26/2021:
Cramps are a game-changer, not for the better. But you did very well with your neck stretches and fasting - especially the fasting -- WOOT WOOT! And you got a nice walk to the store, which is great.

happy-1 on 06/29/2021:

bearcountrygg on 06/26/2021:
Progress not perfection....you are getting there.

happy-1 on 06/27/2021:
Hugs. Ty.

happy-1 - Friday Jun 25, 2021
Weight: 216.0

Extra post today to announce the stray cat is using her scratch pads and out of the bathroom a third day in a row. Also, I put out extra kibble before I went to bed last night and did not get a 4am cat wakeup, stuck to my fast, and had all green sugar last night. Inch by inch, kitty. Inch by inch.

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 06/25/2021:
Hey, great news on the cat. I give mine 1/2 C kibble a day (each) in the AM and 2/3 can each wet food in the evening. Usually some kibble is left over the following day. I no longer allow unlimited kibble because one is getting fat. They should all weigh ~11 pds and one is over 15. But he did lose two ounces and has been more active since I added the former feral to the Cat Room.

Donkey on 06/26/2021:
That's wonderful! We tend to have overnight cat fights if one of the 2 supper dishes gets depleted, which is what happened at 2:36am this morning... Food is the Universal Motivator, it seems... not limited to cats only, either.

happy-1 - Thursday Jun 24, 2021
Weight: 216.0

Oh what a day...

Inch by inch, one foot in front of the other. I will build myself back up again. I will get stronger and build endurance. I will find the right combination of habits, hacks, and tricks. I will get back up again one more time. I have one more time in me. I do. I really, really do. One pebble at a time, I will move a mountain.

  1. BP1, yes
  2. 10cr, no
  3. 4ns, yes, plus PT
  4. 30pln, no
  5. 14fs, no... almost. 13 hours. the cat woke me up at 4am and I just couldn't stick it out till 7 am... I just caved at 6AM.
  6. 2do, no. It took everything i had to do the 10,000 steps and stop eating at 4:30pm. If the cat is going to wake me up at 4am everyday... ok... I'd like to be a 4am-er again... but I can't last much past 6AM and still be functional first thing without at least some hard boiled eggs and a cracker.
  7. 2500cal, probably not. I don't think I ate enough today.
  8. 7w, close... 6
  9. 10Kstp, yes
  10. 9bed, yes... on my way there shortly.

4 out of 10.

I got dad to his eye appointment and all his nightmare health issue follow ups. He breaks my heart. All the foods he just has to binge on for "quality of life" knocked out his kidney function about 20%. It's back up 5% so... 15% to go to stay off dialysis. He tried to get me to take him to McDonalds and the grocery store on the way home. I very ****ily said "If you want quality of life, try to stay off dialysis. The pain of passing up a breakfast sandwich is nothing compared to dialysis 3 times a week."

I got so worn out today, I caved and hit up a box of frozen eggrolls that was in the freezer. It's the splurge to go with the low sodium chinese food I make at home. I am struggling so hard to get my blood sugar back under control, I slapped myself in the face, took them out of the toaster oven and tossed them. A waste of food and money... but a worthwhile sacrifice if I get decent blood sugar tonight.


Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/24/2021:
Also, cat was out of bathroom all day today, except when I had to go in and out for chores... and I did not get bit or scratched.

Donkey on 06/25/2021:
"One pebble at a time..." = LOVE THIS. Going to use it as my mantra.

I'm sorry about the struggles with dad.

happy-1 on 06/26/2021:
My therapist says I have to look at it like family members of addicts. Love the addict, hate the addiction

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