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happy-1 - Thursday Jun 09, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 250.0

Thurs 6-9-22 1:40

Well, I got through Mom's birthday yesterday without crying hysterically or adopting a cat, so even though we didn't get to a meal or family photos...  and I ate 1 day of things I shouldn't have (omellete, pint of keto ice cream, 2 bags of nuts, breaded shrimp, and a cheese quesedilla... Back on it today with 9h sleep and 3h of rem, no brain fog... just tired from high sugar... so far have done PT, laundry, and coworking. I repacked my overnight bag. I made another denver omelette. Eating healthy today. Dad wants me to go over bills with him, but I need to get paperwork in order first. I might pull it together faster with YNAB, but it is a paid subscription and Mint is free.

Welltory agrees... Reading this AM said I am recovering from something.  Yep. Took another one just now.

  

Progress as of today: 67 lbs lost so far, only 90 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/09/2022:
Inch by inch

happy-1 on 06/09/2022:
5:49 Ok… i finally got my sugar back down, the chiro adjustment relieved pain, and brain fog is cleared up. I cleaned my room, did laundry, pt, and made soup. Dad didn’t like his soup. Threw a fit. I had said I would go over bills with him after lunch at 2, but with the fit over the soup, I just slinked off. He wants me to go over bills, but it is after 3pm. I don’t do stress after 3pm. It is also time to go to bed. I took 3mg glycine and I am lying down again.

happy-1 on 06/09/2022:
6… went out and faced the music. Told dad we would do it tomorrow morning when cortisol can be higher. It’s just too late in the day for me to handle stress. I finally got everything under control and he is not allowed to knock me back down for another 3-6 weeks.

happy-1 on 06/09/2022:
I cut the power to my bedroom, asked him to put the soup away when it cools, and closed my door to go to bed.


bearcountrygg on 06/09/2022:
Looks good today.


horn_of_plenty on 06/10/2022:
boy do i have brain fog today. totally overtired and strung out! will be sleeping well tonight!!!!!!

nice job on getting good sleep xo. glad to see you have made it past her bday anniversary xo.



happy-1 - Wednesday Jun 08, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 250.0

Wednesday 6-8-22 8:15am

Mom's birthday today. I really miss her. This house is too quiet.

Possibly this is another case of me feeling better in time to step up. I have the energy to get through photos with my dad.  

Woke up feeling really good. Energy didn't last. Welltory nailed it.

Progress as of today: 67 lbs lost so far, only 90 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/08/2022:
Inch by inch

happy-1 on 06/08/2022:
Figured out how I screwed up my blood sugar yesterday... Coconut cashews. Delicious but full of sugar. They didn't even taste sweet.

UGH.

I would really like someone to come and make my breakfast for me. A tofu scramble. Mom would make me food sometimes. Mama Cat says she would make me breakfast if she had thumbs. Would I like a nice dead pigeon? I said it was OK. She asked that if I am going to sit in my desk chair and work, I make her a space next to me, so I pulled over my other chair and she is sitting in that. She would rather be in contact with me, but this is good enough for today.

happy-1 on 06/08/2022:
10:30 finally pulling together breakfast. Avocado toast with everything seasoning and a Denver omelette. Maybe more tea after. It's a cheat meal because of the ham and the cholesterol, but I miss mom.

happy-1 on 06/08/2022:
Looks like I stopped responding to comments after May 28. Maybe that's when my hip pain started??? Catching up. Might just be a day to be super gentle with myself and not expect too much.

happy-1 on 06/08/2022:
1 feeling low energy and struggled with tasks. Welltory says brain fog came back. Hmmm…


Jacky82020 on 06/08/2022:
Are you messing with the weight numbers or is it in error? I played with them once to see how the charts would look. LOL

happy-1 on 06/08/2022:
Ooops! typo. I fixed it.


bearcountrygg on 06/08/2022:
I miss my parents too.......I have to say....that no matter how old you get......you wtill miss them.

happy-1 on 06/08/2022:
Of course! They are special. And they miss us too.


Donkey on 06/09/2022:
(((hugs)))


legcramps on 06/09/2022:
"Take it easy cow[girl]"


horn_of_plenty on 06/09/2022:
thank you for sharing your mom's bday with us. Happy birthday to her in heaven!



happy-1 - Tuesday Jun 07, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 250.0

Tues 6-7-22 8:40 pm

Busy day... Still doing well on the NADH... I did everything I planned and stuck to my schedule and habits... without any effort. I woke up on time with enough sleep and felt great... and welltory agreed with me. I did therapy, coworking, bills, caregiver support group, and even left for the chiropractor on time. On the way home I went to two grocery stores. I came home, ate, made dad dinner, took out trash, made plans to see Bobcat. I took sleep meds and turned off the electric on time... without Alexa. 

Who is this woman? Each one of those things took me 3 days last week. I did them all in one day.

 

Progress as of today: 67 lbs lost so far, only 90 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/07/2022:
Inch by inch


Donkey on 06/08/2022:
Wow, it sounds like you had an incredible day!!!!!

happy-1 on 06/08/2022:
Like a normal person...


bearcountrygg on 06/08/2022:
Well ...LOOK AT YOU!!!!THUMBS UP!!

happy-1 on 06/08/2022:
OMG... It's like I can literally feel my synapses working better in my brain. Like someone dumped a milkshake in a computer and finally cleaned it out.



happy-1 - Monday Jun 06, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 250.0

Mon 6-6-22 8:15am

Bouncing back from not enough rem or total sleep and insomnia. Dad's 6pm rage out gave me insomnia till 11. Up on time with alarm. I didn't take glycine right after and I should have. Oops. Blah. Sugar is high. I should walk. Pinched nerve is killing me. Doing it anyway before I host coworking. Grrr get after it. 

Welltory more or less nailed it.

Roundup of my last 3 weeks...

  • Body Battery tracking doesn't show that a bunch of those greens are actually 100s!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!
  • REM should be a little better but I had one night I don't think recorded correctly, a night out last week, then I followed it with 
  • I haven't been focused enough to check hydration and blood pressure before meds in the morning. I will need to focus on that this week to start getting back on track. It takes 21 days to make a habit stick... so... UGH. It should already be stuck!!!!! But it's not! 
  • Fasting sugar continues to be a disaster... UGH!!!
  • At least I've gotten better with my bedtime. 

In theory when all of these are green, I should be more successful with weight loss. Instead I gained 4lbs back and weighed in at 250 this AM. UGH!!!!

Not on this tracker is brain fog, which started clearing on Friday/Saturday and represents a huge success. I am so much less desperate and hopeless. And I have pretty toes. Sensory joy.

 

Progress as of today: 67 lbs lost so far, only 90 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/06/2022:
Inch by inch.

happy-1 on 06/06/2022:
8:40 back from 10min walk. Found $5!

happy-1 on 06/06/2022:
4:15 pm. Holy Moly… I hust worked steadily since 8:45 am this morning on paperwork without stopping!!!! Like I used to!!! Not sure if I am hungry or just burned out for the day. Took another Nadh and popped food in the oven for myself.

Dad is passive aggressive right now… it’s a trap. “Are you talking to me?” “Sure!” “What are you doing?” “Taking the day for myself.” “How do you feel?” “Still in a lot of pain!” Do not engage, do not reward, do not fall for it.

happy-1 on 06/06/2022:
5:20... successfully just made dad a burger without an explosion. I had one too.

I am tempted to keep going... I got as far as checking which statements I'm missing and I made headway on fixing categories in budget software.... But I didn't finish because it's a big job. Plus I really should have started with making sure the account transactions imported correctly... Sigh. Live and learn.

5:45 Figured out how I will do this and quitting on time at 6pm. Forcing myself to give up for the night so I don't give myself insomnia.

happy-1 on 06/06/2022:
8 gave up for the night, turned off the electric and went to bed. Went through some reddit comments and pulled out ideas for things to try. Ordered a book called the Immunity Code that apparently will explain why glycine and NADH are really helping me turn it around. Was a little annoyed by a nurse who followed me to the biohacker sub from a diabetes sub and commented that people in the biohacker sub are using too many apps and spending too much money… I replied that it’s cheaper than not being healthy and anything covered by insurance isn’t going to be enough to actually help anyone feel better… just not be dead… immediately, anyway.

Honestly, I feel so much better on the NADH, worth it.

Started taking iron tonight.

9:30… dropping off to sleep


bearcountrygg on 06/06/2022:
Found $5....that was fun eh?

happy-1 on 06/06/2022:
Yeah... Message from God to get out and walk more!


legcramps on 06/06/2022:
I had some kind of tweaked nerve in my upper back/neck for four days last week. It was horrible and there wasn't anything I could do. Thankfully, it worked itself out. Take care!

happy-1 on 06/06/2022:
Thanks! It's been a couple of weeks now and it's really impacted my ability to get out and walk or bend for PT, do anything, so off to the Chiro tomorrow. Glad yours worked itself out on it's own!


bearcountrygg on 06/06/2022:
Could it be sciatica?

happy-1 on 06/06/2022:
It could be… but that’s basically compression on the sciatic nerve and it started with me sitting funny watching tv


Donkey on 06/07/2022:
Does the chiropractor think the source of the pain is compression or misalignment?

That was a GREAT comeback to the nurse on the biohacker & diabetes subs. BURN!

happy-1 on 06/08/2022:
Chiropractor isn't say, just cracked me. Give it a few days and if it doesn't release come back again.


horn_of_plenty on 06/07/2022:
both your sleep and a good body battery and nice. glad to see you list things you can work on as well as the positivity. xo


Jacky82020 on 06/07/2022:
Those Welltory words sound like horoscopes! Vague but meaningful, can be spun however one wants



happy-1 - Sunday Jun 05, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 246.6

Sun 6-5-22 8am

60 Bb. Light on REM last night because I had so many of my dad's snacks I drove my sugar sky high. Probably a pain reaction to the pinched nerve that I made worse with the massage gun and ice packs. Chiro on Tuesday will fix me up. I hope. I ate my dad's box of frozen breaded shrimp, an apple, dark chocolate, and a bunch of almond butter. Today is a new day, and at least I start it with freshly painted toes... a sensory pleasure I cannot deny.

Still, even though I am tired, I am not foggy... a huge improvement. Apparently NAD+ is better than NADH and glutathione will also help. 

So far Welltory agrees.


 

And Mama Cat says there is no reason for me to be in bed if I feel better. She will sleep on my pillow to make sure I don't crawl back to bed today. 
 

Progress as of today: 70.4 lbs lost so far, only 86.6 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/05/2022:
Inch by inch.

happy-1 on 06/05/2022:
5:15pm… quitting time. I cleaned up all my stuff instead of leaving it hanging out to get messed up again. I don’t know if I had actual productivity or fake productivity… I reorganized my dayplanner and made labels, then I made new financial organization worksheets to go into the checklists section. Tomorrow I will use them to go through my bills during coworking when I host. I guess we will see if I follow through. My brain just feels so much less mushy.

Also did dishes. Took me till like 2:30 to get out of pajamas and it’s almost time to put them back on.

happy-1 on 06/05/2022:
6pm tried to make dad a burger on schedule as I had told him I would earlier and triggered a nasty yelling rage session that drove me out of the kitchen. Debating going back in there to try and get food together… I’m not that hungry… but I will be. The close of my eating window is 7 and I’m low on supplies. Nothing in my bedroom because I’ve had a pinched nerve for weeks. FML.

happy-1 on 06/05/2022:
I successfully managed to sneak into the kitchen and finish making my dinner.

7pm. Done eating. Now I need to shower and turn off the electric without triggering another dad rage session. Taking 1g glycine to preemptively destroy cortisol.

happy-1 on 06/05/2022:
8pm… how did I end up in bed, lights out, all my vitamins, on time, with everything setup for tomorrow, and freshly showered? Sugar is way too high… but still.


Donkey on 06/05/2022:
My kitties - especially the older gal - find the most comfortable cushion-y place, and that's where they sit. They can have the whole bed, but if there's a pillow or a fuzzy blanket, that's where you'll find them.

I hope you get your back fixed. That is no fun to endure.


bearcountrygg on 06/05/2022:
Cats find the best places......and a little bit of sun on that super soft place really adds to it.


horn_of_plenty on 06/05/2022:
my dad has a massage gun that he doesn't use....i must take it back to my apt the next time i go to visit them!



happy-1 - Saturday Jun 04, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 246.6

Sat 6-4-22 10am

Mama Cat's sacrifice was worth it... On the XR ADHD med, 1 glipizide, Jarrow glucose optimizer, glycine, and NADH I actually got a real break away from home overnight and... this is important... Real sleep the first night back (last time it took several nights and I went without real sleep for 5 days total and was miserable. In addition to enough REM, I also had a big difference in my stats this morning. My guess is that lower cortisol and better cell energy allowed my body to reap the stress lowering and energy bostong benefits of oxytocin released from social bonding. It's awfully nice to come home from socializing and feel reinvigorated instead of worn out and half dead. Armchair biology. Maybe an OTA is in my future.

 

Progress as of today: 70.4 lbs lost so far, only 86.6 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/04/2022:
Inch by inch.

happy-1 on 06/04/2022:
2:45 what have I done with all this energy and feeling less dead? Not much. Still have a pinched nerve in my butt that doesn’t like it when I sit or stand. Apparently all I want to do is tidy things, eat dad’s junk food, and groom. Like literally all I can think about is how badly I need to dye my hair, brows, and lashes and give myself a pedicure. So far I have washed my hair with shampoo (no conditioner) so I can apply colored conditioner tomorrow, plucked my brows, exfoliated my face and taken off my nail polish. Who is this girl?

happy-1 on 06/04/2022:
I also made a chiro appointment to get my butt fixed.


bearcountrygg on 06/04/2022:
Yay for good stats.

happy-1 on 06/04/2022:
Yeah!!! And look at the body battery… It hit 100 and just kept going… Through the roof…


Donkey on 06/04/2022:
Wow, that is GREAT!!! And nothing wrong with a little self-love and grooming.


Maria7 on 06/04/2022:
Happy you are feeling better.



happy-1 - Friday Jun 03, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 246.6

 Fri 6-3-22 9pm

Home from a night out. Mama cat is distressed that I was gone so long... she has been plastered to my body ALL day. Little meows and licks imply that I should never do that again. Aaaaaaaaw.

Progress as of today: 70.4 lbs lost so far, only 86.6 lbs to go!

Donkey on 06/04/2022:
Oh that's so CUTE!!!


bearcountrygg on 06/04/2022:
She has bonded well to you.....


Maria7 on 06/04/2022:
She missed you!



happy-1 - Thursday Jun 02, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 246.6

 Thurs 6-2-22 8am

Not sure on the rem sleep last night. Had problems falling asleep so I took a shower too close to my asleep time and I don't shower with it because of the fabric band... You have to wear it continuosly for 2h before you get into bed for an accurate reading. I feel alright. 

Have been in a funk this week so I changed it up and took an xr adhd med, half my old prescription. I sat around in a daze most of yesterday. All the habits I've been working on have pretty much disintegrated on the IR meds. Getting up on time, following alexa, fasting, paying attention to meal times... All of it. I'm just this puddle of human absorbing resources, not thriving.

And not losing weight, which is supposed to help improve all this.

Welltory agrees at least, so it's not all in my head.

Progress as of today: 70.4 lbs lost so far, only 86.6 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/02/2022:
Inch by inch.


bearcountrygg on 06/02/2022:
Can you get a waterproof band for it?

happy-1 on 06/02/2022:
I have one for the beach, I just don’t like to wear it. One night of mystery data is no big deal.


Donkey on 06/03/2022:
(((hugs))) Funks are no fun.


Maria7 on 06/03/2022:
Hope you and your Dad are having a good day.



happy-1 - Wednesday Jun 01, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 246.6

Wed 6/1/22 10:50am

Bouncing back. Slept a baffling 11 hours. And got 2h rem.  I don't feel so hot due to REM hangover, high sugar, dehydration, and only a 70 body battery. Ugh. Sugar is pretty flat though... no spikes from coffee or stimulant meds. Another reason why I feel so "meh" today.

Why did I eat carrots yesterday? Why? Why? Why?

-------

12:15pm update... Slightly interesting... I avoided caffeine and stimulants this morning, went for a 15 min walk, came back, took glipizide and ate a tofu scramble (low carb). Blood sugar didn't go up, but didn't go down either. I repeated yesterday's experiment of drinking water and this time it went down faster and with less volume consumed.

Progress as of today: 70.4 lbs lost so far, only 86.6 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/01/2022:
Inch by inch.

happy-1 on 06/01/2022:
1pm. Iherb order arrived… Jarrow glucose optimizer and NADH arrived. Down the hatch!


Jacky82020 on 06/01/2022:
Yay! Bouncing back is always good. Keep on bouncing.


bearcountrygg on 06/01/2022:
At least it's ending better.


Donkey on 06/02/2022:
It's a tight pickle indeed when carrot sticks cause problems. Carrot sticks of all things... Try not to be discouraged. I'll be discouraged for you.



happy-1 - Tuesday May 31, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 246.6

 Tues 5-31-22 8am

Tired. Was super hopeful that I would get a fifth night in a row of enough REM but I didn't. It might have been sleep apnea but it is more likely the 2 loads of laundry I did at bedtime. I wasn't out of pajamas. I could have gone another day. I just had the urge to wear this one pair... ah well.

Sugar still too high. Not feeling great. Skipped therapy again to get a walk and rest. No sense burning what little focus and energy I have on it.

Today's experiments...

  • Walking 45 min before all meds reduces recory time needed to 8 hours from 23. Maybe I need to move some to PM.
  • Without glipizide, tea raises blood sugar a lot.

Interesingly, even though I ate 200 more calories a day than I should have, I was pretty on the ball with my ratios. So even though I am "blech" today, I am still winning. I just need to move more so I am not as hungry.

Progress as of today: 70.4 lbs lost so far, only 86.6 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 05/31/2022:
Inch by inch

happy-1 on 05/31/2022:
8:50 sugar still high in the 180s from the tea. Hasn’t dropped. Making eggs to cut carbs even though they are high cholesterol. And I added cheese. Sigh.

happy-1 on 05/31/2022:
2:29 after 5 bottles of water and 2h of rest sugar is coming down. I still feel like crap though. Ugh.

happy-1 on 05/31/2022:
And it’s a good thing I don’t have any almonds. I would be face down in them right now… I miss chips. Taco chips, sweet potato chips, nachos… all of them.

happy-1 on 05/31/2022:
6:30 pm got off the phone with my aunt. I was getting stressed too close to bedtime. Took 3mg glycine in the hopes that I can knock out cortisol and get quality sleep.

happy-1 on 05/31/2022:
7:30 went out to remind dad to take meds, he asked for a burger. I said yes, but remember the cutoff for dinner requests is at 6:30. He started crying. I feel like such a jerk.

7:50 took glipizide because the carrots I had after a bunch of snacks instead of dinner… needed to fill up on something low cal… SPIKED my sugar. Can I just give up yet?

8pm. Melatonin. Glycine.

I miss chips, candy, real pizza


innerpeace on 05/31/2022:
I am struggling with sugar too...I really don't want to take meds!

happy-1 on 05/31/2022:
Reddit tip just came in… a keto electrolyte cocktail in water before every meal gets more potassium into your system and allows your body to use glucose more effectively. Lowering sugar.

Hugs on the meds. They have done more damage than they have prevented.


bearcountrygg on 05/31/2022:
Yes...Best to do what you can to avoid the meds....so many scary side effects........I try to treat the cause so I don't have to take meds and get the side effects.


Donkey on 06/01/2022:
Tea raises blood sugar?? Regular ol' black tea? I know I'm allowed black coffee prior to blood work as I was told it doesn't affect whatever it is that we don't want affected. But tea -- well, I guess it's a good thing I'm not a tea drinker, then...

I have heard that about carrots raising blood sugar levels. That's why they are frowned upon by some die-hards in the keto groups. That's kind of what made me realize keto wasn't going to work for me. I rely on carrot sticks to curb the munchies.

happy-1 on 06/08/2022:
It's the caffeine... It raises cortisol... Therefore sugar. The more caffeine, the higher the cortisol, the higher the sugar.

Celery, cucumbers, jicama, and green beans for me now!



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