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happy-1 - Wednesday Apr 05, 2017
(Paleo + beans diet and a 3x a week bootcamp)
Weight: 246.2

No sleep ='s a missed workout last night and likely one tomorrow. This weekend I am hopefully headed out to go offroading in Moab with friends. 

Brought a can of protein powder and a shaker to work today to help get myself back on track diet wise today. I just couldn't face eating food yesterday and forced stuff down anyway and was miserable all day. The downside of adhd meds... Sometimes you just don't want to eat no matter how hungry your body is.

Made a Seinfeld "Don't break the chain" habit builder for tuesdays and thursdays...  Need to make them for the rest of the week. The idea is you make a chart of the habits you want to build and then color in the boxes green every day that you do them until you have a "chain" and you don't have to think about it anymore.

M1 - McDs. Hashbrown, diet coke, egg white turkey sausage bowl. I need to start remembering to order iced tea instead.


Progress as of today: 61.8 lbs lost so far, only 66.2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/05/2017:
I have been reading a book on habits, it's called "The Power of Habit" and it's quite a great read!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/05/2017:
Habits are very hard to break...they are formed in one of the oldest and least studied parts of our brain!

happy-1 on 04/05/2017:
Right? I basically made a checklist of what I habits I want to build for morning, meals, and evening routines so I can check them off. Hopefully I will rewire my brain micrometer by micrometer. How do you build new habits?

Donkey on 04/05/2017:
I find that if I do something for 3 days in a row, it becomes much easier to establish as a habit. IN A ROW is the key thing for me -- it just occurred to me that this is probably why weight training is so hard for me to make a habit -- because I don't do it consecutive days! WOW this is HUGE for me - big ol' light bulb just went on in my head!

happy-1 on 04/06/2017:
Nice!!!!! There are apps for habit building that do "don't break the chain" and some workout apps that do the same... They include weights and just rotate parts of your body. I want an all in one checklist so I'm doing a spreadsheet that includes chores, meals, exercise, water, sleep, etc.

innerpeace on 04/06/2017:
I was always told you must do something consecutively for 21 days straight to form a habit.

happy-1 on 04/06/2017:
LOL. If I could do anything for 21 days straight I could rule the world.

happy-1 - Tuesday Apr 04, 2017
(Paleo + beans diet and a 3x a week bootcamp)
Weight: 246.2

I was trying to read an article on focusing better but I got distracted. :-P

Made pulled pork sliders for the team at work to celebrate the end of my class. 

Got into a huge fight with my dad last night. I was cleaning up the pork roast I made for them at 12:30am because I had forgotten about it and gone to bed then remembered it.  He came in and wanted to know why I thought I was going to get laid off last week... and brought all my stress back up. I was like why would you ask me something like that in the middle of the night???  Why would you bring up all that stress and drama? It's the middle of the night and I need to go back to sleep. He blew up. He was basically mad at me for saying no to a request to drop him off at McDonalds when I had loaded up the car for my camping trip and had to leave right then to make it there before dark. Never mind that we don't want him going places alone. 

So tired.

Progress as of today: 61.8 lbs lost so far, only 66.2 lbs to go!

happy-1 - Monday Apr 03, 2017
(Paleo + beans diet and a 3x a week bootcamp)
Weight: 246.2

Hugs to all. Good to be human again. I am not sure what I was last week, but fully functional adult wasn't it. I am at least packaged up for a job search if I suddenly need it now. I have final copy for a personal site, polished resume, and a case study.

After final was over I ran home, grabbed my dog and went and met friends at a campsite. She does not like cold or being outside at all... but Sunday when it warmed up she was very happy to run up and down the creek looking for fish. 17 years old and still spry. Gave her a bath when we got back. She insisted on sleeping in teddy bear position for body heat and was all squishy cuddles. Some days are perfect days.


Starting the boot camp challenge over again. Grrrr.

Meal 1: 2 scrambled eggs

Meal 2: 1 packet oatmeal

Meal 3: Paleo salad

Meal 4: Brownie. Oops.

Meal 5:

Meal 6:

Meal 7:

Progress as of today: 61.8 lbs lost so far, only 66.2 lbs to go!

happy-1 - Saturday Apr 01, 2017
(Paleo + beans diet and a 3x a week bootcamp)
Weight: 246.2

 Finals are over. Back to the community. Hello and big hugs. You guys rock. We rock. We all rock together.

Progress as of today: 61.8 lbs lost so far, only 66.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 04/02/2017:
Isn't it a relief? Oh my how I remember my college days, and just the utter relief that the semester was over, so that I could resume "real life" priorities.

happy-1 on 04/03/2017:
Hugs. Yes!!! And a life

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/03/2017:
Love this entry...congrats on doing the good work, making it thru finals, and therefore decreasing the stress in your life by lots i am sure!

Tests always caused me HUGE anxiety.

Welcome back Happy Lady!

happy-1 on 04/03/2017:
Thanks!!! Brain is slowly coming back together

happy-1 - Wednesday Mar 29, 2017
(Paleo + beans diet and a 3x a week bootcamp)
Weight: 246.2

Nothing feels as good as enough sleep...

Blowing off my plans tonight and tomorrow to finish homework. Small aggravation of not having my phone with me today.

I signed up for the 60 day version of the 2 week challenge for my 60 day bootcamp. $69 but totally worth it. 

Progress as of today: 61.8 lbs lost so far, only 66.2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/30/2017:
Yes...good sleep heals the body physically, mentally & emotionally! nothing better than sleep...almost!

good idea to do homework...i always hated hw too!...there's so many distractions at home when trying to do hw.

i used to sign up for online things by Pauline Nordon weightlifter and get motivation that way, but no longer have extra money to spend this way - i learned enough.

Donkey on 04/01/2017:
Amen to sleep! How is the bootcamp coming along?

I think I would put homework as a higher priority than working out, if you are struggling to make a choice between the two. Having a group or workout class to attend must help a lot with time management. :-)

happy-1 on 04/01/2017:
Hugs! Finals was this morning. I just gave my presentation

happy-1 - Tuesday Mar 28, 2017
(Paleo + beans diet and a 3x a week bootcamp)
Weight: 246.2

 Fell off the wagon.  Long road back.

Stayed up too late making hamburgers and chilli. I swear I can't figure out how to manage my time to get it all done.

Seriously want to blow off the workout tonight to get my homeork done. Ugh. I know I will feel better after I go but I am having an "overwhelm" spin of too much to do. Last day of class is Saturday.


Did the class, no energy... Poor showing.

Half dead and getting hounded by my dog for something. No idea what. We walked, she had a big dinner. We did ear scratches and tummy rubs. I'm 2 seconds away from turning her into a hat.  Aaaaargh!

Progress as of today: 61.8 lbs lost so far, only 66.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 03/28/2017:
Get back on track as soon as you can. You can do it!

happy-1 on 03/28/2017:
Is getting back on track skipping the workout and doing the homework, or doing the workout and trying to do homework afterward? I can't tell anymore.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/29/2017:
Good Morning Happy Lady :-D

It's ok to fall off wagon. I'm a bit more off than i'd like due to sickness, so I am relaxing a bit and trying to be patient while my body gets back to it's normal self :-D

If you really need to do homework, it's ok to skip a workout...workouts are not always the end all, be all...even for me. as sickness will trump a workout pretty much any day in my book as i know that rest is what a sick body needs - not a workout which prolongs a cold / virus / unwell body / etc.

lol i have never heard of a dog fur hat too funny you Happy Girl! :)

Have a nice day, you'll be back on track. Don't worry and forgive yourself quickly!

happy-1 - Friday Mar 24, 2017
(Paleo + beans diet and a 3x a week bootcamp)
Weight: 246.2

Day off today to do will and other docs, plus retirement planning but am on the tail of weeks of no sleep and I am too punch drunk tired to do it. My brain is just rolling in my head. Went to the doc today and apparently going anerobic with exercise can cause insomnia.He gave me a prescripton for a sleep aid. Thank god.

M1 - Denver omlette, cottage cheese, tomato slices, diiet coke.

M2 - ONE PACKET of Trader Joes trail mix.

Progress as of today: 61.8 lbs lost so far, only 66.2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/24/2017:
What is a Denver omlette? with cottage cheese is that what it means?

You need to ALREADY write your will? why so early!? aren't you around my age in your 30's? just asking ;) not trying to pick on you at all! just curious. :)

I like the over the counter sleep aids. I take them occasionally at least 1x per week but not a lot during the week bc they have lasting side effects and i tend to feel very tired the next day...and if i take them two days in a row during the work week, on the second day I am completely drowsy and exhausted. The good thing about them is on weekends, like tonight - i'll be able to sleep in REALLY LATE on Saturday.

happy-1 on 03/24/2017:
HOP - I just need to update mine. Every adult needs a will, a durable power of attorney that designates someone to manage your assets while you're incapacitated, and an advance health care directive. It is something parents generally help their kids do when they turn 18 if they are savvy and on top of it.

Here's an article on it: http://abcnews.go.com/Business/PersonalFinance/story?id=5512108&page=1

happy-1 on 03/24/2017:
And now that I think about it, you probably have access to a free legal documents center as part of your employee benefits. There are always risks to using a document tool... for example you might have unique state laws or a unique situation... like if your beneficiary is under 18 you need to setup a trust. There's a bunch of stuff but a legal doc center at least helps you get organized and get the basics done as a placeholder for free and then you can budget for an attorney to hep you do another one.

happy-1 on 03/24/2017:
But I am tackling it now as part of my overall effort to backpack on the PCT in October. Things happen on the trail.

Donkey on 03/25/2017:
Hope you get some good sleep in soon!

Horn_of_plenty on 03/26/2017:
What's the PCT? sounds cool....thank you so much for the info....!

mylilsista on 03/27/2017:
Good plan, trying to be on top of things (will, etc'). My husband died abruptly, with no will. His estate was tied up in probate for years. It was a mess. Good thinking!

happy-1 - Thursday Mar 23, 2017
(Paleo + beans diet and a 3x a week bootcamp)
Weight: 246.2

Dear Trader Joes Trail Mix,

I know we have had a long history together. Any time I am a little down, you are there to pick me up again with your dark chocolate, dried cherries and pistachios... All that fruity, salty, nutty goodness.  We had to separate for a while... I couldn't control myself and you were so calorie dense that I'd consume a week of calories in a sitting. When you were released in "Just a Handful" packets I thought maybe this was the change I had been waiting for... that we could finally be together again... but no... Old habits have reemerged and instead I just eat multiple packs. Also... you looked like 100 calorie packs... but I just looked at the label and you are really 400 calorie packs. There are 10 packs in a bag. Last night after dinner I consumed an extra 1300 calories without realizing it. These 6 extra lbs I gained the past 3 weeks are my badge of shame. I will go to crossfit tonight and try to save my BMI, if not my very soul.

Goodbye. Know that I will think about you all the time and miss you terribly.

We will always have my college metabolism.




Progress as of today: 61.8 lbs lost so far, only 66.2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/23/2017:
SO SORRY you read the package wrong. Sometimes, not often, I don't even believe the package like in snack bags of chips where some are filled to the brim and others hardly filled but of course the outside says the same exact calories!? Anyways, maybe that didn't even make sense to you... but it does to me ;)

lol a 400 cal pack is def way more than a 100 cal pack...you really had me laughing at this entry...glad you will NOT be buying them anymore because that's a serious waste of calories ... i'm sure it wasn't even that big a pack!

I buy tons of almonds and got used to eating them - i do not binge on them anymore as i've been getting used to them as a steady part of my diet. All food that i eat regularly I generally don't binge on - it's only when something is new that i occasionally fall to the trap but seriously learning not to anymore and really getting quite good at not binging.

anyways, the point should be about you - i am so glad you won't be buying them anymore..the only good thing was that they were really in smaller packages already...lol...but 400 anyways is sorta big for a snack!

happy-1 on 03/23/2017:
OMG... It's as bad as any breakup with a guy!!!!!!

museumgirl on 03/24/2017:
That post made my day! Oh, don't feel ashamed, food is seductive and we are, after all, only human! Your post made me smile, but I feel you! I have that problem with nuts...any kind of nuts. We just have a dysfunctional relationship and its best we don't see each other any more :) Have a great day!

happy-1 on 03/24/2017:
LOL. Those nuts... they are all alike.

happy-1 on 03/24/2017:
I am still working my way through the stockpile I bought... Still snacking even after the breakup... I know I should make a clean break an be done with it... it would be better for both of us... But I just can't stop. Trader Joe's Trail Mix is soooooo good.

happy-1 - Thursday Mar 23, 2017
(Paleo + beans diet and a 3x a week bootcamp)
Weight: 246.2

Less than 5 hours of sleep. A little tired. After work I ran errands (kneepads for crossfit and supplements, then ice for cooler). Then I was up doing laundry (washing new gym clothes for crosfit) and trying to fix my heart rate monitor (also for crossfit) and then I took a stab at my land nav homework, and trying to fix my fitbit. Also, my mom gave my dog a BOWL OF PURE CHICKEN FAT I had been saving to mix with sweet potatoes and veggies for her dinner, so I had to get up and walk her every 20 minutes. Lots of pumpkin for that dog tonight.

Since I have hidden calories, I need to start logging every bite again:

M1 - Chia sweet potato pudding

M2 - Egg white bowl, hash brown, diet coke from McDonalds

M3 - Chicken cous cous salad frm Trader Joes. Mixed in steamed lentils and blueberries. Crazy good. Also almond milk with chia seeds

M4 - ONE PACKET of Trader Joe's trail mix.

Today I did a little internet stalking and turned up the Facebook profile for the guy off Farmersonly. Can't wipe comments you left on other people's feeds pre update from 2 years ago and I found his wife's Facebook profile. She hasn't changed her status from married and to him. LOL!  If he texts me again I'll tell him I'll drop a fb message to his wife and meet up with him if she says it's ok.


Crossfit workout


Broiled pork ribs, bbq sauce. Normal servings.

Up all night till 4AM, had TWO PACKETS of Trader Joes Trail Mix. Apparently goin anerobic creates insomnia.


Progress as of today: 61.8 lbs lost so far, only 66.2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/24/2017:
lol...i thought i wrote to you...where did my comments go!?

lol sorry your dog got what seems like diarrhea from the fat right? that's what would happen i assume?

how'd you decide on the chia sweet potato pudding? sounds cool! and filling?

egg white bowl from McD's has me intrigued...!

your meals sound tasty....maybe a lil more veggies will keep you full more...i would need to eat more veggies to be satisfied...

but those meal's to sound very TASTY!

so you are saying you caught a guy cheating on his wife?? not getting it, i'm slow!

happy-1 - Tuesday Mar 21, 2017
(Paleo + beans diet and a 3x a week bootcamp)
Weight: 246.2

My friend said he had a dream about me. It was probably dirty,so I said "Was it a dream where I get into the best shape of my life, buy a jeep, go on the pct trip, start having awesome adventures, buy a place somewhere green and start a foster family?"

Feels a million miles away right now. Having a hard time staying focused on tasks. Super tired all the time... I need to have more fun. Give myself a boost. And a hot guy to huggle.

Progress as of today: 61.8 lbs lost so far, only 66.2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/21/2017:
I feel you. Been feeling the exact same way as you.

Pretty bored although doing fun things but craving a man and the emotional connection of a man that i personally connect with on both that emotional and physical level...haven't found it yet. And really nervous thinking it doesn't exist for me out there...but know it'll come with patience.

Stay happy and always hold your head up! I've been reminding myself of this too...also, be sure to TRY to sleep when you can at least on weekends more. Let your body rest.

happy-1 on 03/21/2017:
Yeah, I couldn't sleep last night so I trolled FarmersOnly... Found a nice guy I was super interested in until he was all "and my divorce will be final soon, just a formality". Am I being too rigid? I feel like you don't touch the married ones till the ink is dry.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/21/2017:
i agree, do not touch ... there's more fish in the large sea!

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