Apparently i was super tired... slept 9.5 hours according to Fitbit. Teeth still hurt.neck
Progress as of today: 78.2 lbs lost so far, only 49.8 lbs to go!
231.2
Bedtime meditation habit.
3 things I am grateful for. My edd caseworker who really worked to help me figure out what I need to do. Sometimes government workers really work hard. That my parents are there and afterwards I could just crawl home to take a nap for the rest of the day. That my dad is feeling better. He woke up sick this morning.
Take pride in the things you did to improve your fitness today. I did not do much. I did do two meals on track but felt weird all day so not much else happened. Haven't worked out this week at all.
Think about your obstacles and how to overcome them. I felt like crap today so I just went to bed early and drank a bunch of water. Tomorrow I will get up early and get out for breakfast. Obstacles are getting sucked into drama and not feeling well enough to work out. My body is a cranky toddler that wants a snack and a nap... all the time.
Think about how you will work heroically tomorrow. I will get up early and walk my dog. I will try my simply fit board. I will go to corner bakery and work all day and then go to the debtors anonymous meeting. I don't have a ton of debt but they are all about getting your life together. Maybe it should be ****s anonymous but aa is already taken.
Progress as of today: 78.2 lbs lost so far, only 49.8 lbs to go!
Still working to raise my current levels of cardio and still planning to improve all around!
Grateful today for this community and having a place to put my struggles.
Progress as of today: 78.2 lbs lost so far, only 49.8 lbs to go!
Doggie did her job this morning and woke me up at 5am but my whole body hurt so I went back to bed and woke up at 7:30.
I hadn't done the 10 minute tidy up before bed in a few days so I stayed home and did some tidying up while I waited for my advil to kick in and let me run about today. Mistake. I clearly remember thinking... It doesn't matter how much you hurt and that the house is a wreck. Just get up and get out. You need to do your edd papers to apply for funding but I stayed home instead and got pulled into parents morning drama. Now it is 12 pm and I need to reset.
Also frustrated because my tops are all too big for me and show my bra or feel uncomfortable... Like I am trying to do hard things and having a bunch of extra cloth shifting around doesn't make that any easier. I think I am like a size 14 now. I'll just take whatever doesn't fit and put it in a bag for now. It might mean I end up with like 2 outfits... But at least they will be outfits that fit. I might also need smaller underwer which will be a shopping trip for sure because underwear that slides around always pokes out and that never looks good. I probably also need a spare pair of black sandals.
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I have figured out what to do with all the boxes of frozen waffles my dad has been bringing home. Take out 2, toast and slather in margerine.. take 1 bite and give the rest to my dog. She's the only one in the house who is allowed to eat the simple carbs he buys.
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7 pm - Head pounding all day. Gotta get paperwork done tonight.
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Alarm set. Bedtime meditation.
3 things I am grateful for today. My dad because he asked what he could do to make my daybetter. My mom for coming out when I started to panic over paperwork and asked her just to come out and keep me company. UDG for calling me and making me laugh for a couple of hours. My dog for curling up next to me when I started crying because I texted my ex and he is being a butt.
Progress as of today: 78.2 lbs lost so far, only 49.8 lbs to go!
Went to dentist. Tooth might be split laterally. Supposed to go back in 2 weeks in case I need a crown. Ow!!!!!
So tired like I ran a marathon. Sitting in corner bakery while traffic dies but too mentally wiped to do any work
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Bedtime meditation
3gs: 1) that i made it home in 1 piece. 2) that i am not a dude because my dog punched me in the nuts location when she did her happy dance tonight, 3) that she ate canned food no fuss tonight, 4) that my sink repair held one more day, 5) that dropping into bed and covering up discouraged my mom from trying to get into details about my dental thing and I can just go to bed.
Take pride in my fitness efforts: 1) i got up at 6 today with my alarm. 2) I wrote down all my meals. 3) I went through with my dental appointment and toughed it out, 3) I missed my conditioning hike tonight because I was wrecked but I will wake up early and walk my dog and workout tomorrow night.
Obstacles: plumbing, parents mess in kitchen and bath, tired, traffic, fears of dentist
Visualize how heroically you will work tomorrow: i will finish edd papers tomorrow afternoon
Progress as of today: 78.2 lbs lost so far, only 49.8 lbs to go!
What dog do you have? I adore dogs but we aren't allowed any in our building
232.6. Normal weight fluctuations.
Forgot to wear fitbit to bed last night. Got up about 9, but didn't get to my am habits because I was out last night and didn't do bedtime habits... so lesson learned.
Home today tidying up and helping my mom work on plumbing for tge bathroom because the chaos of the in omplete project is driving me up the wall.
Also aggravated with my dog because the foot scratches she gave me are infected and they hurt, so now I have to see a doctor. She does this pawing thing when she wants attention and I have two big slashes on my foot. She is currently exiled to the back patio while I do chores because I can't think clearly and that's when she escapes out the front door or destroys something... an hour on the patio will keep me sane.
Also frustrated because I think yoga dude isn't into me. Ow. I will regroup today and attempt to go on a conditioning hike this evening. Shake it off.
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Didn't regroup. Stayed home cleaning and screwing with plumbing. Lesson learned. Always leave the house for coffee as soon as my eyes pop open.
Bedtime meditation habit
3 things I am grateful for: 1) that the program molly and I picked is fundable. 2) that I am in bed early and can try again tomorrow. 3) that I pulled it together to order a replacement door mirror for my car. 4) that I can go to the dentist tomorrow for a cleaning and get my teeth looked at and maybe get an end to these headaches. 5) my parents, even though they are impossible without them I'd be screwed.
Things I did to improve my fitness today. 1) That I am in bed early so I can go see my dentist tomorrow. 2) I bought replacement and repair parts for things that are broken that steal time and energy from being on track with food and making it to my workouts... A second pair of running shoes, a valve for my camelbak, a new driver's side mirror for my car, 3) I was massively off track so I just went to bed early at 8:30. Cut my losses. Tomorrow is another day. 4) Getting ready to see my dentist tomorrow.
Obstacles. Getting sucked into plumbing drama. Mom's obstinate refusal to go to bed wen the timer turned off the TV. Splitting headache from dental problems. Tomorrow I will overcome them by leaving the house as soon as I wake up and going to the dentist. Then I will go from there.
Tomorrow I will work heroically by going to the dentist, working mo my edd paperwork, and straightening out a flea control purchase at van nuys costco on the way home.
Progress as of today: 78.2 lbs lost so far, only 49.8 lbs to go!
i hope your foot gets better...
and hopefully you'll get back to routine soon...maybe when you start a new job it will be better bc you'll be forced to be up on time :) like me!..although for the first time in my life, i'm not functioning well so early in the AM (have to be at work at 7am) and i am most often 5min late.
Weight loss!!! 229.8 lbs this morning. Just a fraction of a pound but it moved me into the 220s. Biking to services this morning. Although love and employment elude me, I am controlling the things I can control and seeing the effects.
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Omg, actually did it. Biked to services. I had the apprehension and fear gurgling somewhere in my lizard brain at the idea of doing new things... a) biking somewhere when I am old and fat and nearly dead, b) going to 9 am anything, c) going to services with religious people, d) biking back again when it would be warm out and yucky... but I guess the bedtime meditation habit kicked in because I embraced the suck and got myself out of bed and went... a little late. But I did it. There and back. And then I walked my dog in the sunshine... a nice warm sunny day and she got to say hi to doggie neighbors. And I am actually on time to meet molly for hanging out and work on edd stuff.
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Bedtime meditation habit
3 things I am grateful for 1) that the service was nice and there were two nice ladies to say hello to. 2) molly, for giving up part of her weekend when she hasn't wanted to hang out with me lately to pick an edd program that might help me and for offering her couch because the one we picked was down by her. 3) that guy drama is something that dissipate a overnight if you just delete their numbers and put them out of your head. 4) my parents because without them I would be screwed. 5) my dog, who is ancient but dances like a puppy when I come home and for walkies, and curls up next to me every night. 5) that molly is going to try a circuit training class tomorrow.
Take pride in the things I did to hel improve my fitness levels today. I went to bed on time and got enough sleep. I had packed my oatmeal for the am. I had bought gear I would be comfortable with over many years like bike shorts, a long tshirt dress, neon windbreaker, saddle bags, a cheap camp bike and a helmet so I was prepared for my bike ride. I actually went on the bike ride. I did bot cave on any of the junk food at the church breakfast. I walked my dog twice for extra steps. I had all healthy meals except for my ramen and a brownie and a beer. I am home and in bed on time so I can struggle forward tomorrow.
Overcome my obstacles. Today I didn't have many obstacles except for plumbing problems and a cut on my foot that is infected. Tomorrow I will get first aid stuff for it and make my mom help with plumbing.
Visualize how heroically I will work tomorrow. Tomorrow I will get up with my alarm at 5 and walk run my dog. I will take all my stuff down to coffee bean and work on stuff till it is time for the sierra club conditioning hike. I will work on edd papers for the training program and certify for benefits. I will work on Pete's site and try to finish the nutrition page by the end of the day.
Progress as of today: 78.2 lbs lost so far, only 49.8 lbs to go!
also like donkey says, nice job on the biking too :)
230.6
And turns...
Yoga dude was a fun hang. We had a super fun session under a gazebo in the park in the rain with my dog. Hands down the best fun I've had in years. Since he did yoga, I bought breakfast. Hopefully he'd like to see me again. I don't know yet. Fingers crossed. I hope, I hope, I hope. I don't know why this is churning me up so much except that he is a dude I could respect and I'd really like him to like me too. Even if it is just friends. Something. Anything.I would really like to have a friend who is a fun hang.
"No more bad dates" dude was a bust. This was kind of like an orgy... Nice to be asked to join his company but I don't want to go. I sat there for 4 hours listening and then had to explain to him that he doesn't have a business or a product... If he can't explain in one sentance what the value add of his service is, nobody will pay for it. Basically he wants to create a dating site where you go in and answer a few dealbreaker questions and create a profile. Later if you meet a paying member ($150), they can look you up and see what your answers to their deal breaker questions are. I asked "Why wouldn't I just ask my dealbreaker questions on a date?" he said because you might not want to ask. I said in order for me to believe that people don't ask deal breaker questions, you need to do a paid survey of 5,000 single Americans ages 25-35 and have at minimum 20% say they are uncomfortable asking dealbreaker questions within the first three dates. But that if you are in that age range and afraid to ask deal breaker questions... you don't need an app, you need therapy.
Anyway, the combination of the two hangouts has me spinning in anxiety. Maybe I'll never find a job. Maybe I'll never find love. Augh.
Texted my ex just to say hi and see how his day was. He doesn't want to communicate anymore.
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Bedtime meditation habit.
3 things I am grateful for today. 1) My parents. Without them I'd be really screwed right now. 2) That Molly picked up when I called tonight and UDG texted back. 3) That I had a good date with someone I liked a lot. It was just nice to talk and laugh with someone I liked a lot. 4) that molly went to piyo today.
Think about how you worked to advance your fitness today. I did yoga and although I succumbed to my dad's waffles, i was on track otherwise.
Think about what obstacles you need to overcome. Loneliness. Panic. Exhaustion. Procrastination. Plumbing problems.
Think about how heroically you are going to work tomorrow. I will bike to church at 8am and back again. Then I will go meet Molly and work on my EDD stuff. I will pack my oatmeal for the week and aet up coffee.
One good thing you did for someone else. I tried to help that guy with his startup but that didn't go well. I made my parents dinner. I sent pete a comp for the homepage of his site.
Progress as of today: 77.6 lbs lost so far, only 50.4 lbs to go!
Good news to hear about your friend Molly! Does she like PiYo? I love that we have these new options in exercise for people to consider - especially for those who don't like the usual exercising (walking, jogging, oof).
I think you did very well for yourself today - HUGS!!!
The world turns...
UDG says he has gone 5 days without eating fast food or splenda... I'm proud of him. He says it is day 3 of the work week and he has all his meals packed for the remainder. His mom is helping him out by making him eggs and a few other things.
The meeting with the case worker for the EDD was better than I expected. She suggested a business management program that might actually help. She also helped me figure out which programs I might be able to apply for funding for I have a lot of homework to do this weekend. Karma. I guess the only person that would have been affected by the school pulling a fast one is her... it wouldn't have been caught till the end of the year and then would have been pulled out of the budget for the agency. No more coffee or donuts... or worse.
Tomorrow AM I am meeting up with a seriously weird dude off of OKC. It'll either be a disaster or a bag of fluffy puppies. He's taking yoga teacher training and is going to give me a free lesson. Picked a park with a gazebo in case of rain. He will probably touch me inappropriately.
Went to a "No more bad dates" meetup last week and found a data quality analyst turned entrepreneur who is trying to start a dating app. I fixed his business model and tagline for ****s and giggles as Coffee Bean was closing then stood out in the rain to finish it out for him. Figured karma would do me a good turn for helping someone who really, really needs it. No normal human being understood what he was talking about because he asks data quality questions instead of talking like a normal human. He texted me today to see about making me an offer. I didn't realize he was that far along. Hanging out with him on Saturday to do a little coworking.
Making it to my fourth scheduled event this week tonight. There may be some hope for me after all.
Maybe my habit tracker is working????? Bringing me into alignment? I have made coffee almost every morning at least and have made my way through a bag of the worst Starbucks coffee ever. Vile nasty stuff. Tomorrow I get to open a fresh can of a fabulous coffee from Trader Joes called a pinon roast. I can't wait.
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Bedtime.
Meditation Habit Builder...
3 things I am grateful for... my dog ate a can of dog food I needed to use up but was saving for a night I could not keep going. That she tried to get me up at 5:40 am this morning but I couldn't do it... i think I got to bed at 3. Still she tried her doggy best and I managed to wake up in time to get to the edd with her help. I was stress-crying this morning... when there isn't anything particularly wrong but you are just so tired you can't face doing more. She normally hides or ignores me but today she came over and curled up by my side and gave me the extra good cuddles with eye contact till I felt better and could drive. I said thank you and I swear she understood me
I take pride in my efforts to improve my fitness levels today. I did not work out, but I tried to keep meals mostly healthy.
Obstacles I overcame today were fatigue and exhaustion. I stayed out and did not get sucked into home drama. I fought procrastination and did Pete's site a little. I was sad yesterday and today because my ex asked me if his card came yet and it hadn't but today I put it out of my mind.
I will fight valiantly tomorrow to continue to struggle towards a place that is green with my dog, kin, and a big garden.
Progress as of today: 77.6 lbs lost so far, only 50.4 lbs to go!
What is UDG? I forget...
I hope you have a pleasant weekend! Or at least interesting :-)
Woke up late... 9am. My doggie did her job and woke me up at 5:30am but I couldn't pull it together because according to Fitbit I didn't get to sleep till 1:12am. I went to bed about 11 but took forever to fall asleep. I think it is that I couldn't find a good angle with my toothache and my neck issues... but also that the tv was on till 11 and I need to turn it off earlier. I set the outdoor timer on the tv to turn off between 8pm and 5am... roughly. Not an exact science.
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Tried the simply fit board knockoff today. I might go and get a real one. I think the knockoff is more curved than the real one and harder to balance on. It is definitely hard with big flat feet. I bit down too hard on my bad tooth and had to stop. My dental appt can't come soon enough... I missed the track workout last night due to dental pain. I pretty much ran home after el pollo loco to apply some ambesol and a hot water bottle. Ow!!!!
It did get my heart rate up.
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Habit tracker is helping. I think I need to set up supplies for routines in the order that I need them and then have a second copy of the habit tracker at home to remind me. Like I need a reminder and tray in the bathroom with floss, wrinkle cream, eye cream, tooth bleach, and nail polish for my bed time ritual. And I need a tray with my coffeemaker, coffee, oatmeal and supplements for the morning. I might also need to split some of the habits up to be smaller to check them off.
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Parents are headed out to the doctor today. I get time at home to look at alternative training programs and call schools.
Big distraction for today will be resisting cleaning my dad's room while they are out. It's pretty geoss in there. He just throws everything on the floor and doesn't bother with his trash can.
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3pm and haven't started calling schools. I got sucked into straightening up in an effort to be better at getting to bed and getting out in the morning. Then I realized my heels were so cracked they would be a health issue so I took care of them.
Progress as of today: 77.6 lbs lost so far, only 50.4 lbs to go!
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lately i sleep like that all the time...i love it :)
TY! Hugs.
bearcountrygg on 03/09/2018:
Hope the pain issue improves.
TY! Hugs.
trishpiglet3 on 03/09/2018:
Sorry to hear you're in pain :(
Ty! hugs.
Donkey on 03/10/2018:
Not good -- I hope you feel better soon. Gotta get to the dentist. Can a numbing agent like Orajel or Sensodyne help? I often rub Sensodyne toothpaste on my teeth to help against sensitivity/pain.
Rum helped ;)