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happy-1 - Wednesday Jul 15, 2020
(Just try to get back on habit and prioritize self)
Weight: 228.4

 Picking it back up again and pulling things back together... again. I missed my mom so much, I had a frozen pizza, diet coke, half a box of chocolate chip cookies, and half a bag of pita chips about it. Then got super tired but weirdly stayed up till 2am. 

Tomorrow is another day.

Progress as of today: 88.6 lbs lost so far, only 68.4 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/15/2020:
For different reasons, but with respect to food only, I'm in rather a similar spot. And all we can do, with respect to eating, is to try to do better.

You are not alone, although you may feel very lonely.

grannyannie on 07/15/2020:
Yes, tomorrow is another day. You'll get back on track.

thinkpositive on 07/15/2020:
We get it. Start again.

bearcountrygg on 07/15/2020:
Just restart...it's okay!

happy-1 - Sunday Jul 05, 2020
(Just try to get back on habit and prioritize self)
Weight: 228.4

Everyone survived July 4. It was a super hard day. Pets and fireworks don't mix, and I had a big cleanup job. It wore me out and I had zero fun. Not happy that this is how my time is going, so yesterday and today I did new checklists. They don't really do anything, but at least I feel like I did something, lol. 

Trying a new format for food logging where I use rows for days and meals, then columns for veg, protein, complex carbs, and cheats. At least see the pattern.


Chocolate protein powder, instant espresso, almond milk (Delicious)

1/2 a frozen thin crust cheese pizza + spinach + mushrooms

No sugar added, vanilla ice cream

Progress as of today: 88.6 lbs lost so far, only 68.4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 07/06/2020:
Good idea to log your food that way.

KathyBlue on 07/06/2020:
Oh yeah, pets and fireworks :( Every year, animal shelters and associations try to call attention of owners and other people to be responsible about their and others' animals... It must be the same everywhere...

bearcountrygg on 07/06/2020:
I'm switching things up again myself this week.....boredom sets in for me...or maybe I just haven't found the right fit to stay interested....not sure...but I could see it all coming right back on again again if I slack.....been there done that!

Horn_of_plenty on 07/06/2020:
if the current logging format of meals is not appealing, it's good you are trying something new :)

sorry your pets were so scared!

Maria7 on 07/07/2020:
Our neighbor did the fireworks. I guess our chickens didn't know what to think, nor our cats. Hope you have a good day.

happy-1 - Thursday Jul 02, 2020
(Just try to get back on habit and prioritize self)
Weight: 228.4

Things to get after today, in any order:

1. Just get up and face the day, despite the exish not having invited me to his birthday yet, or possibly at all - Knocked him in the head till we made plans


3. Critical errands to do today:

    3A. Pharmacy - Done
    3B. Amazon returns
           i) Pack items
           ii) USPS - Done
           iii) UPS - Tomorrow
           iv) Fedex - Done


5. 1 item of critical business

    5A. Dad business session. Filing his papers. Call to a company that is messing up - Done
    5B. My stuff. My papers.

6. 1 item of household management:

     6A. Pick up bedroom. How does this chaos keep happening? - Done
     6B. Clean out and organize fridge
     6C. Kitchen floor
     6D. Tower in Dad's bedroom
     6E. Garden (after hose washer delivery though... leak is depressing)
     6F. Flies. Where are they coming from?
     6G. Find tarps to put down for bedroom floor and dog.

7. To feel better

     7A. Another round of straight Metally to try and get rid of more black dye
     7B. Clean up the gantt plan I made for my life
     7C. Paint my toes.
     7D. Order a third summer dress in a happy pattern - Done
     7E. Try on jersey maxi dress from Shein order. Fingers crossed.

8. Prioritize getting to bed on time.


Almond milk, instant espresso

blueberries, cottage cheese


stevia soda

entire bag of potato chips (oops)

2 apricots



Progress as of today: 88.6 lbs lost so far, only 68.4 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 07/02/2020:
glad you finally tried fresh apricots! i love them a lot!

i'm glad you are getting organized...got a lot done as usual when you type your lists!

your #7 list is fun! :)

i also find that going to bed early helps a LOT for me the next morning!!!

Donkey on 07/03/2020:
I'm a big fan of lists too :-)

happy-1 - Thursday Jul 02, 2020
(Just try to get back on habit and prioritize self)
Weight: 228.4

Had a really decent day today. I even put on a pretty dress, makeup and tried to do something with my hair. The effect was decent. I ate 2 salads. I controlled other temptations.

The caregiver came today so I was able to go down and see the Ex-ish for long enought to watch a movie and hang out after. It was just to watch a dumb movie... but oh the infinite luxury of another person to sit and watch a stupid movie with when you are really down. It was more fun than a rock concert at Disneyland.

It's his birthday on Sunday. Last year, I gave him tickets to a horror convention and all it entailed to go... which bombed horribly and laid the foundation for our 60 day no-contact breakup... So this year... I dunno. I bought a Letterkenny DVD set off Amazon that gets here Friday. Not a really great, extravagent thing... but at least something to unwrap. He had his closet door open and I saw the gift bags from Christmas and Valentine's Day there, neatly folded. Seemed odd. I didn't think that meant much to him... Or maybe he's just frugal.

I wish it didn't feel like "if he doesn't invite me to his birthday, he's just not that into me." I know I turn into a puddle and want to crawl into a hole if anyone asks me what I want to do for my birthday. I would practically rather run headlong into a pole than have anyone go to any effort to do anything related to my birthday... or be expected to be happy that day in any way, shape or form.

I did not get nearly enough time with their dog though. Such a good girl.

My poor girl did not do so well with the caregiver... She has the runs and pooped the rug. I hope the caregiver comes back.


Coffee, almond milk


2 pieces pizza, 1 hot wing, 1 apple cookie, 1 piece bitter chocolate, 2 dark chocolate cherries. I left the bag of dark chocolate cherries with him. He is a walking appetite and can have the calories.

Dad's ice cream

another salad

3 apricots

In bed.. 12 AM Still hungry... hmmm


Progress as of today: 88.6 lbs lost so far, only 68.4 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 07/02/2020:
just don't base your self worth off how exish reacts to your gift :) that's nice of you to get him something !!! have fun whatever you do!

loving seeing all the apricots :)

happy-1 on 07/02/2020:
Thanks. Good reminder.

I don't think I ever had fresh apricots before this year. Delicious!

happy-1 - Tuesday Jun 30, 2020
(Just try to get back on habit and prioritize self)
Weight: 228.4

Woke up infinitely sad and lonely this morning which is not a useful emotion. Smack in the face. Onwards and upwards.

Got a lot done yesterday in spite of myself. I was up on time, roughly, also in spite of myself (ADHD Internet rathole, stayed up till 1:30am looking for birthday gift ideas for the Ex-ish, but had been trying to go to bed since 9:00pm. Ugh.) 

10AM. Need to puzzle out what will move me forward today.

1. Strand tests for hair color remover. - Done

2. Deal with a) "I miss my mom" frog in throat moments, b) horrible anxiety that Ex-ish will be off on adventures in 6mos and I will still be stuck here. I've asked him for help with a couple of things here and there and it never goes well. He freaks out in about 30 min and I need to abandon any effort in progress. c) Choke down quarantine loneliness. Focus on changing the things I can. - Work in progress, daily.

3. Focus on printing Amazon return slips - Done.

4. Shower, check strand results - Done. Didn't work.

5. Lunch - Done.

6A. Wait for UPS delivery - Done

6B. Do personal paperwork while waiting - I added too much here... Tomorrow?

6C - Do return drop offs... Post Office, UPS, FEDEX. Home Depot run and supermarket? - I added too much here... Tomorrow?

6D. Go to post office anyway - done

7. Walk dog. - Skipped. Got too bummed about my hair.

8A. Water garden. - Done

8B. See if I have the will to work the worm castings into one planter bed and plant all the potatoes that sprouted. -  I added too much here... Tomorrow?

9. Attack kitchen floor and finish the project if order arrives today. It will feel so much better to look at a finished project. - Started. 

10. Do something to feel good... A pedicure. Something. - Done. Forgot this was on here... I did another round of the Metally and added some 40v peroxide. I think I got it up to a level 4/5.

3 things are possible in a day. 5 is a stretch. 10 is impossible. But I can try


B: Coffee and almond milk, a little chocolate syrup.

B2: 1/4 of a frozen pizza

Snack: 1/4 of a frozen pizza

L: 1/4 of a frozen pizza

Snack: Chocolate

Dinner: 1/4 of a frozen pizza, spinach, hamburger patty, hummus, carrots

Extra meals: pasta with olive oil and pepper. My feelings.

Progress as of today: 88.6 lbs lost so far, only 68.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/30/2020:
Losing a parent is one of the hardest things I have ever dealt with......and the feeling still shows up often......I take comfort that they are up there, out of pain and watching over us and that I will see thm again someday....((HUGS))

happy-1 on 06/30/2020:
I swear this site is saving my sanity. I never realized how LONELY I would be without her. She was the one who made us laugh and feel good. Jumping on here when it just seems too lonely and leaving some ideas or notes just really helps.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/30/2020:
I also fall down the ADHD internet hole! so easy to waste time on it inbetween tasks and hw!

happy-1 on 06/30/2020:
Right? I need an electric shock whenever I go off task. Can someone invent that?

KathyBlue on 07/01/2020:
huh what is the ADHD internet rathole? :)

Maria7 on 07/01/2020:
Wow, Sweetheart, what a looooong list. Whatever you did get done is a plus, just remember that. Everything doesn't have to be perfect, just 'managed' as there is only so much we humans can do each day. Love ya.

happy-1 - Monday Jun 29, 2020
(Just try to get back on habit and prioritize self)
Weight: 228.4

One foot in front of the other. Meeting minimum goals for today, but not knocking it out of the park on any level.

Did manage to tackle some paperwork for dad that I had stalled out on completely. OMG. Forward momentum.



Breakfast: Last of the yogurt raisins

Snack: 1/2 the glass (Almond milk, instant espresso)

Lunch: Leftovers from last night... Pasta, sauce, chicken (oil, breadcrumbs), spinach, cheese




Progress as of today: 88.6 lbs lost so far, only 68.4 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 06/29/2020:
i'm loving all the raisins and dried fruits as of late ;) it's nice while i stay home!

happy-1 on 06/30/2020:
Right? Comfort food.

bearcountrygg on 06/30/2020:
I'm thinking craisins lately....I have some...there is something about those dried fruits that I love in the summer.....not messy...and a good snack

happy-1 on 06/30/2020:
Cranberries and dark chocolate are meant to go together.

Maria7 on 06/30/2020:
Glad you are doing well and hope you have a good day.

happy-1 on 06/30/2020:
Hugs. TY. I will adopt your positive attitude

happy-1 - Sunday Jun 28, 2020
(Just try to get back on habit and prioritize self)
Weight: 228.4

Braved the scale yesterday and it read 228.4. that's a 1.4 lb  weight fluctuation, but the right trend anyway.

Slept with earplugs in, got a full night's sleep. Dog pooped her bed again but it was a fair trade.

Went down to the Ex-ish's yesterday. Got to spend some good quality time with the malinois... So smart. She remembered me, came and showed me her toy (which means she likes me and was happy to see me), actually did sit/down/rollover all the way through this time (show off), and later when I told her I thought she was very smart and if I had a choice between sniffing bombs and sufing a family couch, I would absolutely have made the same choice. She gave me the longest, deepest eye contact. Thre was definitely the feeling of an alien intelligence with any dog, but the definite feeling of a very, very, very smart dog. I actually got embarrassed and looked away, at which point she flopped over in the grass and offered her tummy up for rubs.

It was nice to see the Ex-ish too. I dunno what our options are to continue the relationship given that we both take care of a parent and live there, my dog needs a lot of care and it is hard to be away even for more than a couple of hours... But I don't need to figure all that out right now to watch a funny movie.

It's the Ex-ish's birthday next week. Not sure what to do for it or get him.

This week, the organizer comes to help me finish 2 boxes of mom's papers and get other critical things in order.

I promised dad a Sunday breakfast but obstinately I don't want to do it... I not only have to make it and serve it, I also have to clean up from it without a dishwasher. And it's not like it's a healthy breakfast option... ham, eggs, cheese, white potatoes, pancakes... I feel like I am digging my own grave with a fork and serving him poison on a plate.

Today, I need to get stuff done. I really do. 

1. Put in another round of the dye remover - Done, although not much came out this time I think. I can check the before photos when it's dry.

2. Water the garden - Done

3. Shower and scrub out dye remover - Done. Came off in one pass with dish detergent instead of shampoo. Only need to take one shower today.

4. Move everything into my bedroom the organizer needs to work on

5. Make brunch and clean it up (sigh) - Done. Made dinner instead.

6. Help dad with his paperwork - This was the primary plan for the day and didn't happen because dad slept the entire day. He's up raring to go at 6:30pm... That's the end of my day. I go to bed at 8pm.

7. Put up the curtain rod in his room - Done. Surprisingly sweaty

8. Get to work on that kitchen floor - Done for now. Need a different blade.

9.  Make an agenda for the week - Done enough

10. Try to eke one more usage out of the vacuum - Done. Small miracles can be worked with paper clips

And 3 things in a day is realistic... 5 is a stretch and 10 is impossible.


B: Instant espresso, almond milk, protein bar

2nd breakfast: 3 eggs, cheese, 2 pieces rye toast, unsalted butter 

Lunch: Last of the homemade turkey chili, brown rice, cheese

Snack: 2 chocolate popsicles forgotten in the freezer

Dinner: Breaded chicken fried in olive oil, pasta, homemade tomato sauce, spinach. Sunday dinner for dad but he slept through it.

Snack: Yogurt raisins

Snack, 2 creese and crackers trays, split with dog.


I did not feel like cooking tonight, but did it anyway and it wasn't as hard as I had pictured. 9 things today. Yay me.

Progress as of today: 88.6 lbs lost so far, only 68.4 lbs to go!

Donkey on 06/28/2020:
Now, suddenly, I have a craving for over easy eggs...

happy-1 on 06/28/2020:
Yum. I'm all about poached.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/28/2020:
Hi! I’d say don’t spend too much on him but enjoy the quality time with ex! Maybe if he likes movies watch one he wants to see with him!?

You sound really good. If I had some more wealth to my name, I’d hire a good cleaning person - I used to have one but decided they didn’t do enough compared to how good they originally did so I got rid of them and decided I could do just as well as save my money.

One day If my fortune / job situation changes for what I want it to do, i would redo my bathroom big time :)

You sound productive as of late and I need to dye my hair soon - I want to

happy-1 on 06/28/2020:
Noooo don't do it!!!!

happy-1 on 06/28/2020:
I mean don't dye your hair.

Only doing the work on the kitchen floor because we had a flood, all the vinyl tile popped up and I had to tear it away as much as I could so dad wouldn't trip, but the vinyl self-stick tile I put down doesn't stick if it gets hot out so I need to pull it up and put down different ones...

Horn_of_plenty on 06/28/2020:
Oh my tiles lately I noticed one is also coming up prob bc the humidity they are also self stick

happy-1 on 06/28/2020:
You can glue a single tile back down with super glue but anything more than that you might have to have the landlord replace. Food and water get trapped beneath peeling tiles and grow toxic black mold and attract roaches.

legcramps on 06/29/2020:
Oh my, that story with the malinois gets me in the hearts. I used to have a black lab when I was with an ex; my ex and I didn't have a great relationship and I cried a lot. My dog would just sit beside me while I cried. Every so often, he would turn and look at me, dead in the eyes, and I would feel EXACTLY what you describe. I too was embarrassed, for me to realize that it might be possible that this dog was more emotionally intelligent than I was. LOL

happy-1 on 06/29/2020:
Aaaaaaaaaaw. They are better than most people, that's for sure.

happy-1 - Saturday Jun 27, 2020
(Just try to get back on habit and prioritize self)
Weight: 228.4

Thanks to new high rating earplugs, I slept the whole night undisturbed by pets.

Yesterday, my vacuum cleaner, toaster oven, and main oven broke. Ugh. I can add that to the Alexa microwave I still haven't cleaned out and restored to the household, the floor I need to finish replacing, the back door that needs to be repaired, the curtain rod I need to hang, the tower I need to disassemble, the rug that needs to be deep scrubbed, and the garage that needs to be messed around with so the garage door opens. And all the paperwork I need to do. And the trip to FL I need to take. And then so on, and so on, and so on.


But I got sleep. I can deal. I have massive PMS and bloating even in my fingers... but I can deal.

So the healthier baked fritters as a "Hi, mother of the guy I am sort of vaguely seeing, don't really talk to much and just trade memes, and have no future plans with... Please think well of me. I offer you this savory appetizer and dip... and a pack of seltzer?" will need to be fried and I have nothing to absorb the oil that will coat the pan at the bottom. Maybe I should bring flowers and cookies from the store instead... Ugh. Effort.


1. Caffinate, log here, put on pants. - Done

2. Water garden and unload soil and worm castings from car. - Done

3. Clean up kitchen and attempt fritters. See how bad they are. - Skipped. It wasn't going to go well. Instead, I sorted dad's mail into trays by company. Talked to my aunt. I'm overwhelmed and exhausted and I sound that way... Everything is a project.

4. Shower, makeup, real clothes, and do something with my hair. - Done

5. Call vacuum customer service and the repair shop to see if they have the part. It's just a clip to hold the canister.. Should be doable. Buff out nails while on the phone. I've given up on polish during quarantine. - Skipped

6. Go to Ex-ish's for a couple of hours. Stop for flowers and cookies. Not planning an all day thing. - Done. Fun. Long drive though.

7. Head home. Possible 99 cent store trip in his area. They have all the good stuff... but possibly all the good garden stuff there is actually sold in January. They have som 4' shepherds hooks... but I don't want to add any more complexity. - Skipped, too tired

8. Make dinner and feed dad. - Skipped. Did all the dishes and cleaned the counters... and just got too tired to cook, especially with 2 broken ovens. I offered him pizza and he said he would have a frozen dinner.

9. Curtain rod, then pick a project if there is time... Floor or rehabbing planter beds. - Skipped, wiped

10. Prioritize going to bed on time. - Done!  

I'll stop there... because only 5 things are realistic in any given day and I am already up to 10am, and I've been sluggishly waking up for an hour and a half... and now my brain is on.

Time to put on pants.


Breakfast: Almond milk, instant coffee, chocolate syrup (so bad for me but couldn't chug it down this AM. Sour somehow.)

2nd Breakfast: 2 eggs, cheese, toast, unsalted butter 

Snack: Skipped - Hard to get time and space at home to eat. The cat wants onto my plate, my dog wants out and away when I am eating but turns down food.... and then back in again before I am done. Plus I just can't think through cooking here... there's too many unfinished projects.

Lunch: Chicken cesar salad and seltzer grabbed while out picking up flowers and cookies.

Snack: water, 3 cookies with the ex-ish

Dinner: Lean cuisine and spinach

Snack: PBJ on white

Progress as of today: 88.6 lbs lost so far, only 68.4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 06/27/2020:
You all make me feel so fortunate that I stopped with the PMS 28 years ago!

happy-1 on 06/28/2020:
Augh. Let's have some really high stress days, eat a lot, and cry at Hallmark movies, then suddenly get really productive, then fall over into a mess, then strangely feel better a few days later.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/27/2020:
yeah,PMS is the worst! i wish to go back to my teens and early 20's when i had NO PMS symptoms whatsoever! now, i feel it!

happy-1 on 06/28/2020:
Ha. I wish.

bearcountrygg on 06/27/2020:
Like Annie......I don't miss that PMS at all...I never really had it too bad.....usually for about half a day...I'd warn D...he would nod knowingly......and steer clear of me...LOL

happy-1 on 06/27/2020:
I could murder a buffet right now

Donkey on 06/27/2020:
"Time to put on pants" - ha ha ha!

happy-1 on 06/28/2020:
We all do it eventually

happy-1 - Friday Jun 26, 2020
(Just try to get back on habit and prioritize self)
Weight: 229.8

One foot in front of the other. Several busy days in a row and didn't log.

Wednesday was surprisingly good. I stole my printer back from my dad and set his up so he could use it with new printer cartidges. Then the caregiver came and took my dad for an outing. I got to take a bath and scrub till I was soft and pink and new again. Ate a lot of junk.

Thursday, I tryed the Metally castor oil hair treatment and it actually removed some of my horrible black hair dye. Then the professional organizer came and got through 6 boxes of my mom's paper hoard. This was a harder day because I only had 3 hours of sleep under my belt. Ate a lot of junk.

So today, I was actually up at 6, but so groggy I accidentally fell asleep again and didn't wake up till 9:30/10. Any time I oversleep like this I really get screwed up. My head is just a mess and I want food. I need to go to the post office and Home Depot.

Tomorrow, I see the ex-ish. There's no meal "planned" but I don't want to show up empty handed at his mom's house... Thinking maybe some fritters with a spicy yogurt dip... I could do this recipe with some broccoi slaw... 


So then today...

1. Lunch - Forgot to eat.

2. Help dad - Got thrown off because dad went to sleep, and the cat was missing. Found the cat on our patio and fed him... He'll love it when it is set up to be a catio. I just need to get it to the point where I can spray it down once a week for fleas.

3. Post office - Done

4. 99cent store for garden and hair supplies - Done, too hot to be outside with a mask on. Came home to eat. Fed dad.

5. Home depot garden pickup - Done

6. Vons for fritter supplies - Skipped, came straight home because the cat was out and fireworks were starting.

7. Water garden, get ready for mixing worm castings into planter beds. - Skipped. Washed the cat, spent a couple of hours recovering. It's a lot of work.


10ish... Instant espresso, almond milk, protein bar

2:30ish... Southwest salad packet, cheese and deli meat snack pack,

Snack: Coconut cashews

5ish... Burger and fried pickles... Because there was a box at the 99 cent store and I couldn't resist.

7ish: 4 choc chip cookies

9ish: 2 small oranges

10ish: sleep meds, 1/2 a pbj, supplement pack


Doesn't feel like I did anything to move myself forward today. I hate that. I need to feel like I somehow made progress every day. Nothing of value completed today, but I am just going to bed. Get back on habit. Make it happen.

Super chill day without a demanding, bossy tom cat yowling at me all day long. Can I put him back outside?

Except he's so charming.

And there we are. This tom cat is my bad boyfriend.

Progress as of today: 87.2 lbs lost so far, only 69.8 lbs to go!

Thinkpositive on 06/26/2020:
Sleep is such an important part of the day- can definitely make or break my day. The fritters sound yummy!

happy-1 on 06/26/2020:
It's all about breakfast.

bearcountrygg on 06/26/2020:
Good list.....I'm suddenly sleepy a lot too.....life is so different now...

happy-1 on 06/26/2020:
Dog is having problems pooping outside... So she gets up, goes out, doesn't do her thing, then comes back inside and does i on my linoleum yoga floor (on top of my carpet). She did that twice Wednesday night and I couldn't get back to sleep... But if I don't get 5 hours I can't think. My brain is pudding. If I get too much sleep my brain is pudding. Everything is pudding. Now I want pudding.

Donkey on 06/27/2020:
My daughter has been recommending castor oil as a hair treatment for me for months now... So many benefits apparently!

happy-1 on 06/27/2020:
It's incredible... I thought I was going to have to cut off most of my hair... it was a chemical mess, gummy brillo pad texture that I couldn't get a comb through, and I had to just shove it in a super tight bun and put a hairband over it to deal. Now I can wear it down without styling, just finger smoothing.

The stuff I used is a little different because it is an oil-based detergent... Castor oil that has been sulfonated with sulphuric acid (chemical heat and physical process), making something called red turkey oil which is water soluble, used in bath bombs and other bath care. Then it is mixed with salicylic acid (like in tylenol) to make an oil-based detergent that removes stuff from your hair but also leaves it sooooo soft and strong. No protein filler needed... Which I am so glad about because protein filler make my hair snap off. Clairol used to make something called Metalex, but discontinued less profitable products and dumped it.

There is a black hair care product that is similar but has a different density and odor so it hasn't really caught on... also possibly a patent infringement so they probably don't put a ton of money into marketing...

B's Metally


It's harder than vaseline to get into your hair... Weirdly dense and holds together, has to be manually worked in by hand for even penetration. Planning to use clips to section off tiny sections, get a couple of travel bottles and then let them sit in a bowl of hot water to heat it up. Hoping it will be easier to get in there slightly warmed.

happy-1 on 06/27/2020:
And also then impossible to get out of your hair... Took 6 showers with clarifying shampoo, and it's still getting all over my pillowcases. I'm hoping that the hair steamer cap coming from Shein in a couple of weeks will help.. I think I need to put grapeseed oil on it after the 6th shampoo and steam it out before reapplying.

Gets black dye with a weird shiny color shift out of blonde hair though... And takes built up mineral deposits off your faucets...

Horn_of_plenty on 06/27/2020:
Now that I’m not working, even waking up by 8am seems early lol....that’s why I am starting to do it every day and will start getting up I think even earlier to get back to what my routine will be sooner or later (back to work sooner or later I mean!)

Nice job organizing ! That’s a wonderful person to have around ! I certainly could use one !

happy-1 - Thursday Jun 25, 2020
(Just try to get back on habit and prioritize self)
Weight: 229.8

Miraculously, I had a good day.

I did't gt evrything done that I wanted to but the only 2 things that I had to do I did... plus I wove up, got coffee and sat on the patio with my dog while I drank it, then got dad off with the caregiver to go to the grocery store and I took a bath. A wonderful bath where you get time to scrub and fluff everything then slather things with Vaseline so they are pink and soft and ready to be polished and painted.

I am now craving cotton gloves that I can use on my hands. Preferably touchscreen.

Progress as of today: 87.2 lbs lost so far, only 69.8 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 06/25/2020:
Good to hear!

happy-1 on 06/26/2020:

KathyBlue on 06/25/2020:
coffee with the dog on the patio sounds awesome :) And the wonderful bath sounds even better!

happy-1 on 06/26/2020:
OMG... I've never had such a total reversal from hell to heaven. I wrote a nice note about the caregiver to the owner of the agency and they are using my testimonial and featuring her on the website. I stole my printer back, created a 7hr family drama, she started her shift, took one look at me and took him for an outing. I think I love her.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/25/2020:
I’ve been sitting outside in the sun most days too! Sometimes it’s just in the shade but either way I love the breeze and not being inside all day !

legcramps on 06/25/2020:
It's finally been warm enough to sit outside on the deck in the mornings, but the rain keeps threatening so I haven't been able to put out my patio cushions! Argh, always something stopping me from enjoying that deck!!

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