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happy-1 - Sunday Feb 04, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Superbowl sunday... found a party off meetup in my area that I will check out. Passing on a jacuzzi with the croatia dude. I will be unlikely to keep my hands to myself. But super glad to know that part of me isn't dead and buried.

Plus I feel a uti coming on and just don't want to be messed with or go further than local Starbucks. Have been yelled at for two days straight, everything hurts from the food bank yesterday and I just want to go back to bed but that will make stress worse. Starting with washing sheets so that I can't just go nap. Still need to do my hair. Should probably shave my legs too. Bleh.

Starving this morning. Ate two enormous bowls of oatmeal.

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/04/2018:
Hope your day gets better

happy-1 on 02/04/2018:
Ty!


horn_of_plenty on 02/05/2018:
Why would it be bad to keep your hands to yourself...

but with a UTI, i could understand...be careful and lay off the yeast? or does extra yeast help?

also, lay off the sugar...i know that hurts.

happy-1 on 02/06/2018:
Because I don't want a broken heart when he goes back to croatia. He's from Chicago but works in software training in croatia. He's also not really a relationship guy. He's more of a go with the flow guy. So delicious but does not fit with my life plan. What fits is someone nearby and available regularly, and likes to go camping.


horn_of_plenty on 02/05/2018:
i mean, i know the sugar can cause a UTI...it causes inflammation in general...my face is SO inflamed due to hormones and my sh*tty eating as of late also.


horn_of_plenty on 02/05/2018:
not sure about you, but today i'm realizing i cannot be so stressed at work anymore...stressed that work is slow and i have no work, i'm just gonna read the textbook and relax before i blow up from the stress lol...


Donkey on 02/05/2018:
I hope today was a better day for you, friend!



happy-1 - Saturday Feb 03, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Having an "end of my rope" day. This is an illusion because everything is fixable... I just need to wake up tomorrow and try again. ---- Volunteered at the food bank again today. Weirdly stress and anxiety reducing.., but also daunting at the volume of cleanup for the yard sale. I kept sitting down to take breaks and having to pee. Think maybe my uti might be coming back.

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Have to remember to have a huge dinner available after the food bank so i don't binge on junk food.

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When you can't make anything go better... go to bed.

-- B: oatmeal, coffee, half and half L: mp- spinach salad S: mp-hummus and ceg S: mp-yogurt berries and granola D exhaution meal - lean cuisine spaghetti, 6 meatballs and a minni pizza extra cheese, brownie

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/04/2018:
Cranberry juice is the thing for uti's......low or no sugar if possible......hope you feel better


Donkey on 02/04/2018:
Yogurt with live cultures is supposed to help too. I hope it's not a UTI. Usually I can catch these early. I hope you can too.

Is tonight date night with Mr. Croatia?

That's very wise advice there about going to bed when the day is bad.



happy-1 - Friday Feb 02, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Eyes poppedopen at 4:30 am this morning and I couldn't get back to sleep. Might as well start my day.

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Having a hard time finding things to apply to that fulfill UI requirements... In tech it is a game of "attractant" applications. You have to have a profile and publish work online to get recruited. The jobs listed on indeed and other sites are usually there to disqualify candidates from hire... so I have to look at jobs, see what I might not totally be miserable if I got a call from a recruiter and have to pass on, then apply and list it for the EDD.

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S: 4:30 AM Coffee half and half, mocha mix, breakfast tray i tucked in freezer to experiment with freezing eggs

B: 8AM - Big bowl of oatmeal, walnuts, raisins, protein powder, coffee, mocha mix

S: Skipped 

L: 12:30 - Frozen meal prep - Chicken chili verde

S: too hungry to think, can't leave because I have to wait for bake sale goods to cool so I can cut and bag them. Nails were wet so I grabbed whatever was in front 3:30: potato salad, coleslaw hotlink

d: mini pizza

s: 7pm turkey burger, veg, cheese

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 02/02/2018:
i enjoyed your comment to my previous comment....glad to read you aren't stupid!

happy-1 on 02/02/2018:
There are so few guys I enjoy being around in any way, I just relish the company when I find one I like, even if it won't go anywhere. Water on a desert.

happy-1 on 02/02/2018:
I hadn't had a hug in almost 8 months... breakfast and some decent company sounds so amazing.


horn_of_plenty on 02/02/2018:
i have forgotten what it's like to not be able to sleep, aside from seriously like one night in the past 7 weeks, i've slept like a baby each and every night...tons of sleep...hours upon hours!


bearcountrygg on 02/02/2018:
How well did the eggs freeze? I've been wondering about that myself.

happy-1 on 02/02/2018:
They were ok. I used arrowroot not cornstarch. Cornstarch works better but it isn't paleo


Maria7 on 02/02/2018:
I love coffee, too. Hope you are having a good day.

happy-1 on 02/02/2018:
mmm coffee...


Donkey on 02/03/2018:
Does Mocha Mix taste chocolate-y? Your breakfast sounds incredible!



happy-1 - Thursday Feb 01, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Oh my... met up with a fellow off Okcupid. As close to love at first sight as I am ever likely to get. He gives one hell of a hug, I will say that. Oh my oh my oh my... seeing him Sunday. How fun is that? Too bad he goes back to work in Croatia in two weeks.

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Mom did a protein run to be kind to me. Aaaaaw.

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B: coffee, half n half, 3 eggs, 1 sausage S: yogurt, granola L: skipped S: cliff bar, water D: edamame pasta, sauce, 3 meatballs, parmesan, veggies S: 1 mini pizza stolen from my mom

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/02/2018:
Have you considered life in Croatia...?????? Too soon for that to be sure...but.....

happy-1 on 02/02/2018:
Lol. Sounds amazing, but I don't even have a passport and I'm a little down at the heels after being unemployed for a year... no international travel to kidnap ransom countries for me. He just had such an amazing profile I had to at least meet him for coffee. A little brunch and some hangout time on Sunday before the superbowl parties won't kill me. I can keep it above the waist and out of the heroin factory. It's just so nice to talk to a guy where there is no "wall".


horn_of_plenty on 02/02/2018:
wow....sounds the guy may get around!

happy-1 on 02/02/2018:
Of that I have no doubt.



happy-1 - Wednesday Jan 31, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Cranky today. Idiot church group hangover. Plus Dad always asks what our plans for dinner are and that always starts a fight unless I am making dinner. Got out to use the Internet and went to Freebirds. Was going to go to target after but I'll go tomorrow on my way home from the bootcamp.

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B: Oatmeal with Raisins and Walnuts

L: Apple and Peanut Butter

D: Burrito Bowl splurge at Freebirds to get out and use Internet.

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 02/01/2018:
Like a real hangover!? wow....your church group is...interesting! drink water.

do you have internet at home? or you like to leave home just for change of atmosphere?

happy-1 on 02/01/2018:
No, more like a bad feeling hangover.... no booze involved


bearcountrygg on 02/01/2018:
Maybe Dad likes to bring up dinner because he wants you to commit to making it...and then he knows that it's going to happen. I'm getting into the walnuts a lot lately! Apparently they are really healthy things.

happy-1 on 02/01/2018:
He wants the community of a regular dinner and the company. I was sick and didn't do much grocery shopping and I need to deep clean the kitchen so all that is on hold.


Donkey on 02/01/2018:
I've belonged to some church groups that get a little money or a little clout and they go off the deep end -- or usually, they die out. I would still encourage you to try again.

happy-1 on 02/01/2018:
Yeah I want a group that is focused on being your best self for your family and others... like a dojo but with coffee. Where can I find that?



happy-1 - Tuesday Jan 30, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Ditching the church group. Vapid.

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B: yogurt, granola

L: hummus cup, carrots, oatmeal

S: kfc

D: 2 mini pizza,

S: froyo

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 01/31/2018:
why don't you like the church group??

happy-1 on 01/31/2018:
Because they sent me on a research mission, didn't give me a heads up that they did it in error, then last night decided to change it. Plus the discussion of various topics is just dumb. It is the most inane conversations I have ever heard.


horn_of_plenty on 01/31/2018:
i didn't even know you were in a church group!

happy-1 on 01/31/2018:
for like 4 weeks


horn_of_plenty on 01/31/2018:
ohh, not long.

happy-1 on 01/31/2018:
Yeah I am looking for a peer group to help me kind of up my game and be a more together/better person. I don't think that group was it.

Still going to volunteer at the food bank. I liked them.


bearcountrygg on 01/31/2018:
Keep looking...you will find the right fit.

happy-1 on 02/02/2018:
Thanks. I'd like to find something less touchy feely, more pragmatic.


Donkey on 01/31/2018:
Yes, keep looking. If nothing else, it could be fun meeting different types of people, even if they aren't for you. I'd say 4 weeks is long enough to give the group a chance. I'm sorry this one didn't work out -- there are more groups out there. Hugs!

happy-1 on 01/31/2018:
It was a bunch of chicks in their 40s who were old before their time. They interpreted the love project as an opportunity to do a Daiso shopping spree and maybe go say hi for 30 min and deliver gift bags. Not my kind of Christian.


Donkey on 02/01/2018:
Not my kind of Christian either :-/



happy-1 - Tuesday Jan 30, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Sigh--- contacted a few people on Craigslist and Offerup to see if they would donate their tables and canopies to the food bank if they are unable to sell them. Got a bunch of angry responses that I am welcome to buy them and donate them. I responded "I am sorry to hear about your cousin and his situation. I lost my job about a year ago. I've baked some brownies and cookies for the yard sale this weekend and maybe a few rounds of baked goods will raise enough money to buy a canopy if one cannot be donated." Then I got back from the guy that he'd lost his good job of 14 years and he's working as a sub with 2 year olds and changing diapers at 50.

I can't blame them. I get irate when people offer me $5 for something I've listed for $80... but if a church, mosque, temple, or other non-profit contacted me for something I'd listed online for a yard sale, why they wanted it, and the work they do in the community, I'd probably donate the item. Mazeltov.

If I didn't want to donate it, I'd probably just ignore it. I definitely wouldn't one up them with how miserable my life was.

I don't want to buy the canopy and tables myself because I am just getting started getting to know these people and I have no idea how they manage their resources. Do they not have tables for their yard sale because they sold them? I have no idea. I'll throw in like $50 on this, time to ask for donations, maybe a little gas money to pick items up, but not $500.

Oh well. Here's to lightening my soul so I lighten my ass. Being a better person so I like myself better and come across better in job interviews. I'm trying. My 2am attack of the lonelies is going to drive me up the wall.

A bowl of top ramen would probably knock me out, but Iam too full to eat.

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/30/2018:
It will all work out, maybe the volunteers have something they can bring from home to use....I remember our garage sale days...we came up with all kinds of solutions to the table problem....hope you get some donations.


horn_of_plenty on 01/30/2018:
actually, i DO buy toilet paper in bulk! from amazon :)

hey, take a breath, feel better..



happy-1 - Monday Jan 29, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Pulled the trigger on an Amazon order that had been sitting in my cart forever. A double camping pad to satisf my dog's incessant pushing to be on the same pad as me, a half slip to make it possible to wear a nice dress I bought months ago, a map to the Angeles front country, and some stevia orange-mango drink packets.

Had such a hard time packing food for that camping trip I didn't go on out of my pantry. I need to get a few odds and ends to make that easier.

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/29/2018:
Gotta love Amazon...are you a Prime member? I just started the 30 day free trial a few days ago...but I don't think we will be going any further with it.

happy-1 on 01/29/2018:
I believe you may be better off with boxed.com for the majority of our dry goods.


horn_of_plenty on 01/29/2018:
let us know how the stevia packets taste!

and enjoy your purchases....i also go to amazon so often...it's so easy to get like anything & everything you could ever want!...so much easier than driving around store to store around my community could take hours to get all the interesting and helpful things i order!

happy-1 on 01/29/2018:
You and all the millenials... Did you know that Costco is struggling to attract millennial buyers? They don't go to stores because they don't want to drag their kids with them


horn_of_plenty on 01/29/2018:
yes, i could imagine what you are saying about costco....and, if not married, a lot of us don't want to shop bulk for just ourselves!

happy-1 on 01/29/2018:
Oh come on... with all that kombucha you must at least buy toilet paper in bulk.



happy-1 - Monday Jan 29, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

W: 234.0, after a cup of coffee, wet hair, semi-dressed.

Up: 7, but so sore I didn't get moving till 9:20pm.

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I think God rewarded me for volunteering at the food bank today. As my mom started harrassing me with her research into online dating today and why I am single (she says they must not feel like I really understand and connect with them, my response they don't feel like I connect with them becase I hate them), I was already breakfasted/coffeed, dressed with makeup, nail polish, and hair. Poof! I was out the door and on my way to starbucks. I didn't even accidentally let my dog out who was desperate to come with me.

Can't catch me, I'm the gingerbread man.

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S: 7:30 coffee, half n half,

B: 9:30 seltzer 3 eggs, olive oil, hot link, spinach. should have had 1/3 cup beans according to diet plan, but wasn't that on the ball yet.

S: 11:30 Coffee, half n half, brownie

L: skipped

S: skipped

D: 2 slices of pizza, seltzer

S: diet punch, chicken verde, rice, beans, cheese... first time freezing an f-d up recipe has ever worked out for me. That was delicious.

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

Donkey on 01/29/2018:
Good planning! I like it! Mmm, gingerbread - YUM... Did you do OK the rest of the day? (((hugs)))

happy-1 on 01/30/2018:
I did. I picked up an enormous hot black guy on Ok cupid and then got the number of the enormous hot black guy sitting behind me at Starbucks.

It's raining men! Hallelujah!


bearcountrygg on 01/30/2018:
Moms...gotta love em!



happy-1 - Sunday Jan 28, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Volunteered at that food bank yesterday. They are a little disorganized but good people. They have a yard sale every saturday from their bags and bags of donated clothes that I helped with. They weren't purging what they couldn't sell at the end of the day so they were constantly pulling things out and stuffing them back in again and again and had a storage container that had clothes and food mixed in. I got them to bag things thet wouldn't sell so it can go to Savers for sale by the pound, and separate out their donations into mens/womens/baby. I'll go pick up some smaller tarps at the dollar store this week and go back next saturday to help them set up again. Hopefully it will boost their sales. They make about $200-400 a sale and it covers gas and other fees that they have for collecting and distributing food.

It was a really good workout. 3,500 calories, 15,207 steps, 7.1 miles.

I dunno if the church group will come help. so far I am not impressed.

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Augh. Saw a mouse in the kitchen scurry under the floorboards. Have to put out traps.

Stress...

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Woke - 7, but I was in a lot of pain from yesterday so I went back to bed till 10. Spent the day picking up stuff in the living room and doing dishes. How do I keep making such a mess all the time?

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10am - coffee

1pm 3 eggs, 2 cups spinach, 1 hot link

4:30pm, chicken, rice beans, cheese, stevia soda.

5:30 - yogurt, berries, paleo granola

9pm - chocolate frozen yogurt

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

Donkey on 01/28/2018:
Sounds like a good time at the food bank! Thank you for helping :-) And you got in a great workout!

happy-1 on 01/28/2018:
Yeah I didn't see any potential buddies or dates there but I'll still go back next week and help their yard sale.


bearcountrygg on 01/29/2018:
Sounds like a good place to volunteer...I'm sure they appreciate all of your input and help.

happy-1 on 01/30/2018:
Meh, I might not be able to afford to volunteer there. Any changes to make them more effective will cost money. Like $20 this week for smaller tarps, bake sale supplies, and some trash bags.



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