Have been slipping on the entries since I started talking to the therapist on BetterHelp. Some things are getting better, but the couple of pounds I lost are back with friends... so back to logging, at least my food.
B - Protein shake
S1 - Skipped
L - Chicke parm
S2 - Skipped
D - 5pm - Burrito bowl at Freebirds while organizing personal papers
S3 - turkey sandwich and a brownie
Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!
B - Skipped. Mistake. Talked myself out of starting the habit of ordering my favorite coffee drinks on the Starbucks mobile app which would be a black hole for my paycheck. But did not get coffee. Also a mistake.
S1 - 2 string cheeses, breakfast sandwich in cooler that was somehow unchanged by leaving it in there a couple of weeks unfrozen. I really, really need to stop buying those.
L - Plain seltzer, chicken deli sandwich from remnants of stash in work fridge. Happy day, I had stuck a homemade camping MRE in there with... a caffeine shot! Grape, and dollar store generic not a 5 hour energy, but pretty good.
S2 - Handful of choc graham crackers
D - Chicken from rotisserie chicken. 5 peanut butter cups. A couple of bites of hummus. Water
S3 - Kombucha
Augh. Only got 3 hours of sleep last night. Trying to get to bed early but wide awake and useless. So tired.
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In addition, today was the kind of day that makes me want to take up drinking. Ugh. Today was T's run to doctor in Orange County that I cover dinner for once a month. This month I planned to pick up chicken and deli stuff at Costco since I have so much homework. Got a text message at 4... can I be at the hospital at 5 and bring her sister. I of course think someone is dying and run out of work with my hair on fire.
I had completely spaced that the hospital her sister works at is next to Costco that I had already said I was going to at 5... and had said if they need anything to let me know before 5. Her sister was chilling at the Costco food court instead of the hospital just to make it that much easier on me. Aparently they had car trouble and were passing the hospital and swapped cars with her.
And this my children is the moral of the story... If you just really really want a cup of coffee in the morning so badly your eyeballs are peeling... just get the coffee and don't stress about the $4.
Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!
Food / drinks are NOT negotiable to me & i do not really "budget" food lol. If i did, I'd probably be able to save 50% of the cash I spend weekly on groceries LOL. I even buy premade jello, which, when not on sale, is DOUBLE the price of jello sold in the powdered form (not premade). And sometimes, premade jello is actually even 3-4x the price of powdered jello! I PAY for the convenience and cannot even regret it, at all, right now. However, i do see myself starting to make my own jello down the road, even adding cooked cranberries to it :-)
yes, don't fall for the starbucks app...btw, not sure if you have regular delis by your work - but by me, the neighborhood delis still charge only like $1 or $1.50 for a coffee, not $2 like Dunkin Donuts or $2.50-$3 for a cup like Starbucks. Maybe you can go to the delis for your coffee instead of starbucks???
do you get a huge high after the 5hr energy? is it all at once energy and then a crash? i forget what those are like - I used to take them a LONG time ago...when i was around 28-30yrs old (now i'm turning 34) at work when i TRULY never ever got enough sleep.
B - $tarbucks breakfast sandwich, coffee, half and half
S1 -
L -
S2 -
D -
S3 -
Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!
B - Egg scramble, cottage cheese
L - Chicken burrito, chips, salsa, diet coke
S - Chicken, Tabouli, Tzatiki
D - Chicken salad, apricots, cherries, tea
Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!
B - Skipped. No food at parents house and couldn't think of anything low carb to eat. Mistake.
S1 - Finally found an old frozen burrito while I was filling the swamp cooler with ice. Food!
L - Venti Iced coffee, Ham and cheese sandwich.
S2 -
D -
S3 -
I'm 38 and in my first relationship... I always thought that when I finally had somone there would be a "best friend" aspect where we were constantly talking and spending all our time together... Instead I have hardly heard from him the last 3 weeks and there was all the weirdness last weekend. I emailed him last night and he said to come over. I don't know that it would have made me feel closer to him.
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Weight is back on downward trend. Only 1/2 pound up from current lowest point.
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Swamp cooler is a disappointment. I think I need rubber gaskets and a stronger fan. And more ice. Maybe a PVC pipe instead of an RV hose. Left it at home for my dad but will take it on future camping trips. He can cool himself down while I work on clearing space for a real cooling unit. They need 3 feet of space on all sides and my parents don't have that right now.
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At Starbucks doing homework before going down to the campsite. They will be mad, but I will live.
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Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!
nothing is certain. I feel ya, Happy.
nothing is certain. I feel ya, Happy.
B - 9:30AM Peanut butter cups and coffee. Hormonal.
S1 - snap peas, kombucha sips
L - Skipped (bad bad)
S2 - 2:20 pm - protein burrio, sauce, 2 cheese slices, 2 eggs
D - Cajun chicken alfredo pasta from trader joes with a bag of peppers chopped up and thrown in with in and micrwaved. Not awful. Coconut water.
S3 - Skipped, which was a mistake. too hungry to do homework and at parents house and can't eat.
Successfully gave up midnight snacks last night, but it took it's toll. I didn't get to bed till 3AM. But it will pay off eventually. Just gotta retrain my body. That's what I am adding to this next 6 week push. Tiny behavorial habit changes that stick are what I am after. We are all the sum of our habits.
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Supposed to go primitive camping this weekend, but I have cramps and can't drive till all that goes away. It is distracted driving... about on the level of texting while driving.
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Miss my guy. I feel like it was good that I left last Saturday... me sticking it out when he is being a butt is what led to all the drama and bad behavior... Basically because he was deploying/deployed I would just suck it up and keep the evening going which rewarded bad behavior, but I miss the time I didn't get to spend with him.
Also the showing of the movie we wanted to see is cancelled and the nearest one is sold out. http://www.range15.com/
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Drove home and got a shocker... My parents actually kept the house clean this week... I for once did not come home to 5 hours of chores. They even did their own laundry and took out the trash.
Mom has lost 18 lbs, Dad has lost 38lbs.
WOW!!!!!
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Their good behavior lasted till 1:30 Am with a squabble over Mom's vision board... Sigh
Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!
Yes, it's about retraining yourself. I was in a really bad habit during last early fall of eating in the middle of the night. worst habit ever, yes! i have also since stopped it.
B - leftover protein burrito, cheese, sause, 2 eggs. Yum! Iced coffee with half and half
S1 - Skipped
L - Snap peas, kombucha.
S2 - Hot dogs, mustard, beans, kraut
D - Chicken salad at farmer brothers.
S3 -
Have not logged for a few days. Got stressed and overwhelmed, mostly due to my mom chewing me out. New therapist on Betterhelp wants me to distance myself from my parents a bit. She might be right.
Picking up again! At least my eating for the last several days was OK.
Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!
The little $40 desk got an upgrade with a monitor, stand and a laptop stand, trackpad, keyboard and mouse the last couple of days.
is it a protein burrito because the wrap it low carb? whats in it! sounds good!
http://www.target.com/p/sweet-earth-protein-lovers-breakfast-burrito-3pk-15oz/-/A-23974695
They are really good, but all packaged foods are really terrible for you.
Especially with some trader joe's enchilada sauce!
B - Skipped
S1 - Skipped
L - Early, 10:30 am. Kombucha and cobb salad. Protein drink
12:15 - Still hungry, S2 - Trader joes beans and grains frozen meal, chocolate milk with protein
D -
S3 -
Zero sleep.
Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!
when i don't get sleep, i'm not my best self...that's for sure!
lately, i feel I could sleep for days, probably means that i should limit my use of sleeping pills. as they seem to have a horrible cummulative effect on me where if i take them a few days in a row, i become a zombee!
and the fact i had less caffeine today. and i'll stick to it like that today. as i could use some normal sleep tonight!...can't wait.
have a great rest of the day!
Backlogging an entry for Sunday. Not sure what I ate but it was all healthy stuff and on plan.... except for spaghetti with butter and parmesan at 4am because
Did not hear from my guy. Augh.
Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!
B - Leftover enchilladas. Diet gigngerale
S1 - Skipped.
L - Vegan burrito with enchillada sauce and a slice of cheese. Kombucha. All out now. Have to get more at Costco. The one Hornofplenty likes!
S2 - wendys, diet coke, 2 grilled chicken wraps
D - yard house, steak and eggs (crazy good) skipped the sauce, iced tea with stevia
S3 -
It's date night with my guy! He said he'd take me to the Yard House. I hope we can make it to the burlesque. It is super fun and would lead to sexy rumpus!
I have finally stopped coughing. I woke up early and debeasted from tip to toes... Hair masque, exfolliation, manipedi, pixel perfect makeup... the whole thing. I put my hair in two braids so it will wave (hopefully). Not so happy with my outfit options. I have lost weight so my sexy outfits are a little disaster prone... might fall down if I am not careful! Work outfits are too worky.
I might need to get there early and run into forever21 first. Can't go home and deal with parents to grab a dress and I will be cutting it close with homework.
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Long story, too much to type at midnight, but I found a great dress (I bought on the way home from a date with him a year and a half ago in case there were more dates and hadn't even taken the tags off of because I was saving it... And it fit even better now that I lost weight) at my parents, went down to see my guy looking great, thrilled to finally get a nice photo of us where my bangs aren't sticking straight up from my head.... predictably hadn't planned ahead so no burlesque show, had dinner (which I had to chip in for), had a parting of the ways in the line waiting for dinner, so dinner was awkward... The parting of the ways was a big ice bucket on my libido (not his apparently) and it was late so I went home to my parents (i confess, really my dog).
Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!
Also, the 2 best brands (i like it strong!) of kombucha in my opinion are Kevita and Synergy / GT's! I didn't know Costco sells! I should pick it up when with my folks. Best deals i ever get is when I buy Kevita, sometimes only $2.50 each. Otherwise, everything's super $$$ at least $3.50.-$4.
So I'm happy to hear you looked great and really spent time on yourself as i'm sure it felt really goood to do so...but i'm really sorry about how it went down?
What are you going to do about your situation with him? I'm sorry about how he said it before dinner. before the night was over at all..
I honestly don't know what I will do about it. I'll probably go passive till he walks. It is always better to get dumped because then they don't show up at your house or do other random crap.
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Good to see you back, Hap.
Thanks! It is good to be back in our happy little home.
Horn_of_plenty on 07/08/2016:
Welcome back...best thing to do is what GrannyAnnie said...just to get back on that weightloss train!
Hugs! Glad to be welcomed back! I look forward to catching up on your adventures.
grannyannie on 07/08/2016:
Good luck! I'll get back on track with you!
Yay! We can re-track together, buddy!