3am. Can't sleep. All packed for camping. Food is kind of gross but it is in the bear barrel and ready to go. I however am not looking forward to the drive out. 2hrs to Palm Springs... and I need to be up early for that food bank thing.
And HUNGRY. Why do I crave top ramen in the middle of the night?
My dog is super freaked because I was packing. She's worried she will be left at home. Poor pup. She is coming with me though. Annoyed I haven't bought another foam mattress topper yet. Haven't found one with a cover that isn't cooling gel. I don't want cooling gel for camping!!!!!
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They moved the camping trip and with no sleep i'm not going to be worth anything to drive.
3am snack - part of a buttered roll I shared with my dog
Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
A little flat today. Tomorrow I go scout out a food bank that runs out of someone's garage for a volunteer opportunity. Tuesday I go check out a methodist church that runs a food bank and a soup kitchen that could use help with kitchen deep cleaning for health codes so that their regular volunteers can get a leg up and do some donor work. Still no word from the church group organizers. Lame.
Got to an agreement with a guy off Fiverr to do two homepage variants with accompanying style tiles for formatting of elements for $80. See how it goes and if it works I will give him more revisions and more pages. $10 a page, $5 a revision. This works because I already did all the information architecture and photo asset organization.
Took parents to Hometown buffet as organized and planned. It is nice to do something nice for them.
------ Up: 9am. B: hotlink, 3 eggs, 2 paleo pancakes, syrup D: 4pm - hometown buffet. Spinach salad, 2 small pieces steak, bite plate of mashed potatoes, mac n cheese, cornbread dressing, gravy, inside of pumpkin pie. Bite plate of desserts S: 6:30pm another buffet plate, mexican this time.... an enchilada, taco meat, cheese, sour cream. S: up too late packing had cheese and crackers
Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
Crap. 5am. I sat down to do a couple of things on pete's site before bed and completely forgot to go to bed. At least I got through the creative block and nailed down 2 key pages. I also floated a query to a guy on Fiverr in my time zone to see what he would charge me to polish up the pages. They look like I did them with my feet.
Sigh.
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1:30pm. Have been up for an hour and a half. Actually woke up on time at 8am, but taking Vyvanse when tired had the "opposite" effect and I literally passed out. I feel pretty calm and focused though. No "Maderall" crankiness.
This video is dead on how I feel about cleaning up my parent's place.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5gcMm_aL3Cc&feature=youtu.be
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Up:12
B: 1pm oatmeal, raisins, walnuts, protein powder, margerine
S: 6:30 pm - lentil pasta, turkey bolognese, veggies, mozzarella, parmesan
L: 9pm snack fest... tried to do a little bit of different things... mix it up to eat less. Felt "snacky", 1 paleo hotlink, seaweed, hummus, gluten free pretzels, raw almonds, 1 power cookie
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Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
lately i see some key good things about being married...but still enjoy by independence...i doubt i'll ever get bored of being independent
Up on my feet, more or less. My poor old pup peed the bed this morning. No more letting her sleep in. 3x this month now.
Back on the healthy eating. Hope I feel better tomorrow and can go to bootcamp. At least I was up on time today.
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Bummed because hot guy on dating site said "I'm not looking for anything serious but...". It's really too bad I can't actually punch someone through the computer. It's basically "I'm not looking for anything serious... with you. Here, hold still." He was offended that I was offended. He was like... well not if you're not into it. I was like... why would any woman be into it after you say that? You've basically just said that you are just screwing them till you find someone you actually like. It sounds like the sex would be terrible anyway. Finally I was just like gotta go, ttyl. Augh.
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AAAAAND... trying to go through the church group and help out. But they are like slow as molasses. Tried to do a conference call to get direction etc. AND NO ONE SHOWED.
Why? Because they picked a drop date of Feb 10. Working backwards from that date I realized they need to get marketing support from the church by eod Friday and donation buckets decorated by EOD tuesday to get through the publication cycle for next weekend's services.
....And they haven't caught on to all of the realities of needing to partner with another group and be covered with liability insurance. And that if you are going to show up at another church, you need to do a donation drive first... nothing huge but something.
....And that the church's community is mostly following online via Instagram/Snapchat (even though most attendees live within a 7 mile radius according to traffic stats) and showing up intermittently so you have to plan your social media posts and trail to get people to make donations either online or in person at the church.
PLUS... the group is all chicks. The discussion is inane. They could totally use this opportunity to market a new 40+ christian singles group and pull in new blood.
I think this is why I don't go to church.
I have $100 that says the teen lifegroup will get something stupid to trend on Snapchat or Whatsapp that they spent 2 seconds on and our group will look lame.
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BUT... Today I got a call from Molly and she is feeling better. She is trying occupational therapy to help with her RA.
I have $100 that says they tell her to try a Fitbit to help with her f-ing circulation.
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For no apparent reason my parents continued their recent streak of behaving like semi-normal human beings by bringing home 3 fish tacos for me. They are nowhere near healthy... fried, tortillas, cream sauce... and blew my calorie plan for the day...
BUT OMG THEY WERE FROM THE REALLY GREAT FISH TACO PLACE AND THEY WERE STILL HOT AND A TOTAL SURPRISE AND THEY WERE SO GOOD!!!!!
And I love my dog. She is the best.
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Up: 7am
S: coffee, half n half, a scoop of chai mix (85 cal + 40 cal)
B: oatmeal with protein powder, seeds, dried apples (350 cal)
S: orange (90 cal)
L: 3 fish tacos (1,113 calories)
S: brownie at starbucks (380 cal)
D: 1 cauliflower pizza (760 cal) + 15 pepperoni (140 cal) + sprinkle of parm (100 cal)
S:
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Total: 3,058... OMFG. No wonder I am fat. Got to get back on the horse and the 7-8 cups of vegetables a day
Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
sorry about your bed, that literally STINKS!
Up on my feet. Washing bedding. Not ready to drive anywhere. Tomorrow probably.
I still am not sure what I ate today.
Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
Another lost day, Monday. I feel better a little though. Should be functional tomorrow.
Ate tons and no idea how much seltzer I drank.
Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
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Sunday was kind of a lost day. Woke up at 4am sick as a dog and had to cancel my plans. Spent most of the day looking for meds I bought last year in bulk for cheap I need to use up. Mom was mad at me for being sick, which is weird . Dog and dad were extra nice to me which was nice.
No idea what I ate but it was probably 2 or 3 times what I should have. I don't know why I get so hungry when I have a fever. I just ate too much.
Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
speaking of which, i've got old veggies with me today lol. and i didn't even cook them, my friend did...and i have no idea when he did!
Pms is finally over. I feel so much better.... augh. Also might be finally refilling my vyvanse prescription. I just feel so much better even though cramp monster is eating me alive. I woke up this morning, took meds, made coffee, ate breakfast and then tackled a present my dog left last night. second time this month. I also tackled attempts at repairing the spotbot, a miracle for old dog owners. I also took a pass at the screen door for the kitchen but may not have the right materials.
The thing about vyvanse is when I haven't taken it for a while and I take it I suddenly start cleaning and repairing things. I don't know if I just don't notice stuff is dirty and broken or I notice but skip it because whatever elses is going on steals my attention and I don't do the little stuff to clean/mend/fix and keep things in order.
Also, while Adderall helps me keep it together I wonder if the delivery system for me is really "madderall" because it gives some people rage issues but might just make me cranky. Logging everyday this month and maybe next will help me figure that out.
Glad I stuck close to home today. Lots of errands to run. Plumbing stuff, a slip for my nice dress, parts for the scrren door, bins to organize, some drug store odds. Also a good opportunity to go to sat night services again. Glad I dyed my hair and did my nails.
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More messages from friends worried about Helena. I think she's going through something and not telling people about it.
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Horrified to find my mom ate a ton of protein cookies. OMG. 450 cal, 2 servings of protein each.
She just said "no wonder my sugar's so high"
OMG
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Woke: 9:30
S: missed
B: misssd
S: coffee, half n half, lean cuisine extra mozzarella
L: 2 Paleo breakfast cookies
S: leftover turkey meatloaf, gravy, spinach, and potatoes.
D: lentil soup, cauliflower cheese pizza, sweet potato flaxseed
S: 2 hot links
Slept way too long today. 11 hours? Yikes
Parents bought deli meats and rolls yesterday... TONS OF IT. Having a hard time ignoring it. Wish it wasn't here.
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Worked on Pete's site most of the day. Got hungry early and made turkey-stuffed eggplant boats, which weere actually insanely good. Mom was watching tv with me and we couldn't settle on anything and I suddenly went stir-crazy. Went to Costco to fill meds, but it was really crowded. Kind of ran around looking for junk food on the way home and resolved to get apples. On the way to the store was a Chinese place and I succumbed to Orange chicken and egg rolls. At least I'm less restless.
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Up - 10am, but was in bed on time-ish at 11. Took a long time to fall asleep.
S: missed
B: missed
S: coffee, halfnhalf, 2 paleo breakfast cookies
L: 3 eggs, cheese, olive oil, pasta sauce, veg - too watery
S: pear, 3 cheese cubes, 4 slices deli turkey, last of the butterscotch chips
D: 1/2 eggplant, 1 cup meat sauce, mozzarella, cauliflower rice
S: orange chicken, 2 egg rolls, about a third of the fried rice and chow mein
Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
the high sweets def makes me hungrier around lunchtime, that's for sure!
1 cup coconut oil 3 eggs 1 can pumpkin puree 1 cup apple puree (in food processor, or use applesauce) 5 scoops vanilla protein powder 2 cups coconut flour 1/3 bottle pumpkin pie spice (for the properties) 2tsp baking powder chia seed meal flax seed meal maca oats pecans dark chocolate chips
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Miracle of miracles, the outdoor timer on the TV worked last night and nobody fought me on keeping the tv going till the wee hours.
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3:30 - Took care of some painful but necessary personal stuff and started repacking bags I took apart last night. Chilling on the patio in a lawn chair with my laptop now. Should do this more often.
I feel fat and stupid without adhd meds. Brain fog. Like swimming in jello. Everthing has more resistance and is kind of hazy, and for some reason I crave cigarettes. BLECH. I can go pick them up tomorrow, but today will suck.
Things I can do today to still be productive:
What I actually want to do:
Dog is insane to go for a long walk or have some fun but can't go for a long walk anymore. I should see if her dog carriage will turn back into a stroller after being in the sun for so long. I really like that as a project for tomorrow.
Bootcamp class is tonight but I don't want to drive or pay for gas when I can't run errands at the same time. I just feel so discombobulated all the time. Hopefully getting back on the vyvanse tomorrow will help that.
Things that would make me feel less "everything is everywhere":
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Planning a fun and cheap day out with my camping ladies. Going to an under $10 thai place that is well reviewed on yelp and the oc register, followed by $2 baked goods at 85c and a $9 movie.
One of the ladies sent out her list of picks from the Golden Globes. Everything on it was either about religous persecution, rape, coming out of the closet, war, disease, or poverty. I dunno if I want to sit through that without a fast forward button.
I was like, who else needs a laugh and wants to see Pitch Perfect 3? Rebel Wilson 4 ever! Got 2 seconds. Could theoretically get a second ticket and see Star Wars after.
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Woke up at 6:30, but fell back asleep till 9:30am.
S: Missed
B: Missed
S: 10 am - Coffee, half n half, oatmeal, protein powder, raisins, walnuts, margerine
L: 1pm - Leftovers - Turkey meatloaf, poatoes, gravy, spinach. yum.
S: 3pm - Vegetable soup with shredded cheese
Extra snack: 4:40 2 zucchini muffins. margerine (working on pete's site not ready to make dinner yet.
D: 2 breaded pork chops, cauliflower rice, brussel sprouts, light lemonade... should not have had the second pork chop but I skipped 1 full meal. I think that was about 350 calories each porkchop so not over for the day I don't think.
S: pumpkin oatmeal chocolate chip pecan superfood paleo cookies... ooof.
Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
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Have fun....how is the temp there?
Warm days, cool nights in LA. 30+ out there at night. They had to move the camping trip to pioneer town preserve b/c of flash flood warnings and will be camping in the parking lot of pioneer town. Not the trip I had in mind. All packed for the next one though. Wherever that may be.
bearcountrygg on 01/27/2018:
Bummer......Nah...camping in a parking lot is a bit different.....not quite the camping experience you wanted I'm sure.
Donkey on 01/27/2018:
Hopefully a proper camping trip can be rescheduled soon... I'm sorry it didn't work out :-/
Thanks. I was bummed... but all packed for the next trip, lol.
Maria7 on 01/28/2018:
Hope you have a good camping trip.