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Size 10/M. Calves are 15.75... .25 from being able to buy real boots!
Will comment on everyone’s logs and catchup... but wanted to wish everyone a happy new year.
Can’t sleep... 3am... have to leave for dog sitting tomorrow
Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 10.3 lbs to go!
Back on the horse after a 3 day food and tv marathon. I just stayed up too late on fri night because my clock was pointing in the other direction and my outdoor timer was nudged to “off”... probably my mom while I was dog sitting. In any case... I got off track for three days and spent today making a checklist for my week so that everyday I can just check things off and give myself credit for the things I do pull off.
Kickboxing instructor wants to see me again on thursday. At least something is going my way. I swear the feeling of someone else being “there “ and liking me helped me get my mending done, struggle my dad’s enormous 1980s printer into the car, sort clothes for donations and storage, and otherwise kick myself in the butt to get back on track instead of losing a week to a sleep disruption- triggered self pity cycle. Need to do the things that will help me deserve him.
Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 10.3 lbs to go!
So get back on the horse and get a string of successful days going.
Looking forward to a fun date with the kickboxing instructor! But I think my meal prep tray was a little off this morning... Tummy is not happy. I swear cooked eggs last 4 days but maybe not. Hopefully some tums will help me out. I am a pile of overwhelm because my tummy is in bad shape, I’m sweating, just walked my dog and couldn’t go all the way around tjhe block before I had to come back so she is mad... it is hot and bright outside and it requires organization to get it together to get out the door... I was up at 6:30, it’s 12:30 and all I have accomplished is a pedicure, shower/dressed, eating, putting away dishes and walking my dog. I am watching a movie on amazon as background noise but I keep rewinding it... so it’s taking me 6h to watch one movie.
Breathe. You can do this!
Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 10.3 lbs to go!
let us know about how the date goes!!!!!!!!
How was Monday's movie with Mr. Kickboxer?
Hope your tummy feels better soon. Tums is a miracle worker in my home too.
Anxious. I think I botched it with the kickboxing instructor. Only time will tell. I see him Monday for a movie.
Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 10.3 lbs to go!
it can't be so bad if you still have a movie planned!
Have a case of cranky today. Just up a couple of pounds and didn’t get enough done this week and missed yoga last night because I was dehydrated and yoga today because I wasn’t getting moving fast enough. Also my hair isn’t falling into place like it was when I got it cut a month ago and my clothes feel messy.
So just need to shake it off and walk my dog. Make things better. Work harder.
This was good on realigning when you are feeling overwhelmed... https://www.thecultivatedcareer.com/blog/overwhelmed-seven-strategies-to-help-you-realign
Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 10.3 lbs to go!
Some days are just more cranky than others... Sometimes you can rescue the day, sometimes it's better to go to bed early.
DOWN ALMOST 3LBS!!!!!
Proving that it is possible to date and lose weight at the same time if you date someone who doesn't try to pull you off track... and likes to do fun, healthy things like archery and dog walks/dog park. Also, does not complain if you pull meal prep trays and some drinks out of your cooler and cheerfully eats with you... because you have health goals and this is how you plan to achieve them and running to McDonalds would mean a much later movie. And is willing to eat kale, hummus, and other chick foods. Because a kickboxing instructor is basically a walking appetite and all food is good.
There are women on much weirder diets than "I pack a cooler and eat that".
I was getting super frustrated there for a bit... because I was eating on track, burning a lot of calories and nothing on the scale was moving at all... It basically laughed at me. But now I feel validated.
Also... as graindart would point out... I am past the 100lb mark. Not at the 206 I wanted to be by January, but close is good enough and I'm not going to make myself crazy over this. The weight is just a metric of other changes I am making in my life and is a result of those overall changes... not the other way around. This time last year I was 240lbs.
Today, I buy a new thermostat, do a quick grocery run, sit at Starbucks to do job applications and personal stuff, then go to yoga at 7:30pm.
Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 10.3 lbs to go!
wow....another 3lbs down! amazing!!
YES!...regarding dating someone that lets you be YOU! this is a goal of mine...previous semi-relationship i was in, i ate what i wanted, when i wanted...it was good. he wasn't a boyfriend, but it was a relationship of some kind. ...
yes, weight comes off as it wants to and it's best not to put a timeline or due date on when it should be gone by....i agree 100%!
Congratulations on passing the 100 lb mark. For me, it's both a triumph of accomplishment and also an embarrassment that I let myself get that far out of control. Thankfully it feels like a triumph 99% of the time and only embarrassing 1% of the time.
Took measurements on Monday and crunched them... Although my weight hasn't changed I lost a bunch of bodyfat... which explains the super weird photo... Yes... compared to past photos, my legs are weirdly skinny and my middle must look bigger by comparison... BECAUSE I LOST 3" OFF MY CALVES!!!! OMG! I CAN BUY REAL BOOTS!
For anyone who does not know... shoe manufacturers do not make real outdoor or work quality knee high boots for wide calves. Even when they are leather it is still fashion quality... which means they aren't as comfortable and can't be re-soled or repaired. It also means it is harder to walk any distance in them.
So happy...
Progress as of today: 97.9 lbs lost so far, only 13.1 lbs to go!
congrats on losing so many inches on your calves!!!!!!!!! amazing!!!
Discontent today.
It may be that I slept till 10 so I am trying to get ready to meet KI (kickboxing instructor) while my parents are up which means they keep getting in the way so I am losing time and have a lot of cleanup everytime I cross paths with them. They just make messes everytime I turn around. Have had to change outfits 3x and will need to handwash them later.
It may be that I met friends of a friend for a birthday dinner and felt out of place. I don’t drink at all now and I have no flexibility for the occasional unhealthy treat and these ladies are as large as I was and it broke my heart to see them being unhealthy... but also made me feel isolated. It was also quietly terrifying... One of the ladies sitting next to me was too heavy for her chair. The metal of the chair fatigued and she took a bad fall... the kind you have to sue over because it may have really injured her. I had the feeling she’s diabetic with other health problems and I just fear for her.
It may be that I look like a barrel. I had an odd photo with a friend on friday night and it looked like I had my head, arms and legs photoshopped onto a fatter body with no boobs. I took measurements this morning and discovered this is because I have lost inches off my neck, arms, boobs, and calves... but my tummy and hips are the same. This will change over the next couple of weeks but it feels unsexy today.
It may be that the house is still a mess.
It may be that I haven’t gotten anything done this week and feel anxious.
It may be that I just very badly want a massive steak, a real mani pedi, and a hug.
Progress as of today: 97.9 lbs lost so far, only 13.1 lbs to go!
Photographs can lie, just sayin'... try to focus more on feeling good on the inside. Self-confidence is so sexy. I once met a man who was ... well, nothing to look at, if you take it a part.. but he was so self-confident that everyone wanted to be with him.
Have a good time with KI -- relax, enjoy, and live in the moment with him.
good job not drinking, i don't love it either. just once in ahwile...like this coming thursday night at the work holiday party.
It's raining! Hallelujah! Nothing lifts my mood like a rainy day. SO HAPPY. Everything that is bleak, dry, and parched is getting a drink of water... even my soul.
I was super down this morning... had to cancel my OT appointment for today. I overslept (and always feel lousy when I do that). My neck was too stiff with the rain plus I need new tires for my car. Have been deferring maintenance because I thought I needed to do $4500 in repairs. Life just seemed overwhelming.
BUT then I got a good morning text from the hot kickboxing instructor and my spirits lifted. I gave my dog a cuddle, made some coffee, put on my big girl pants, and got it together. I bought a sleeve for my laptop, worked with support to fix my voicemail, listened to all my unanswered voicemail (only missed like 57 recruiter calls... no big deal... aack)... Cleaned out some of my email... Contacted nutritionist to restart my account... Researched car repairs and it may only run me $1,700... Life is possible.
Amazing how having someone "there" makes all the difference.
Progress as of today: 97.9 lbs lost so far, only 13.1 lbs to go!
that's a major difference in total price for the better, great job!!!!
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A little emotional today. Stressed, anxious, can’t really get started. Mom is sick, throwing up and I’m a little worried. I really need a hug, but don’t have anyone I can share with and get one. Just have to keep on keeping on and see what the next wave brings.
Why I can’t share with the people in my life:
And so that leaves the Occupational Therapist tomorrow and that is where I can actually share and get some coaching... but it’s not a hug. I could use a hug.
OOMLG did have the eight idea about self-hugs. Woke up early this morning for some quiet time and dyed my roots, gave myself a conditioning treatment and blew out my hair. Then I made meal prep breakfast of spinach, eggs, and half an uncured chicken sausage. 5 of them are sitting there for the week. Next I took vitamins and read posts on markmanson.net because I like his blog and it gives me a lift to read a new article about emotions and psychology even when it doesn’t apply to me.
Working on more self-hugs. Will post some more.
Give your self a hug now if you are reading this. It really helps.
Progress as of today: 97.9 lbs lost so far, only 13.1 lbs to go!
and i'll send you a virtual hug now <> that's my arms hugging you :)
it's sounds like you like your kickboxing instructor best. I have an idea about it...let him chase you. so many people say it and i agree that men are hunters. the minute we chase them, they run the other way..
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New year, new commitment to reaching whatever goals are important to you.
Donkey on 01/01/2019:
Happy New Year Happy! Dog-sitting is a wonderful way to start the new year :)
Horn_of_plenty on 01/01/2019:
Happy New Year to you too, Ms. Happy!!
Nice job on being a size 10! You did 100% great this year. Always getting back on track and eating healthier than when you started! nicely done!
Lots of positive things you mention that are in the works for this year. and i feel you on not sleeping. i've been off and on too. !!!
innerpeace on 01/07/2019:
Where are you? I hope you are ok.