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happy-1 - Saturday Jan 25, 2020
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 39 on Noom

Day 6 of enforcing boundaries around time management with dad
Dad tantrum count this AM: 20

Gah... Getting back on track.

I am way behind on my noom articles. I am just too tired to read.

BUT I had a record-setting 3 days on track in a row:

  • Wednesday - Got dad out to 3 errands and home again
  • Thursday - Read mail, paid bills and filed paperwork like human beings
  • Friday - Pro organizer session and I got out for a game night at the church

The boundary setting with dad is helpful. He even used Alexa to add things to the shopping list today (because I said that was the only way I would accept grocery requests... and also because I spent 3 hours locked in my room crying yesterday). I was stunned.

I celebrated my success with a new cat bed on clearance that matches my bedding. The cat is very happy about this and purrs VERY LOUDLY as he kneads away at that, a crinkly elephant, and a baby blanket. So much better than kneading on me for hours and hours. He's really strong.

Today, I fell off track. I missed 8AM yoga because I slept 12 hours... That will cost me $20. Ow. I was supposed to go to a bike clinic after and check out the shop ride... Ha!  I couldn't even get my body moving... Everything hurt and exhaustion from Week 1 of boundary setting was crushing.

I splurged on a frozen meat slicer from BBB. It shows up sometime this week. The way my dad goes through deli meat you would think it was a food group and it's like $9-11 a lb for the low sodium options.

Tonight I am putting up meal plans on Cozi and using it to make a shopping list. Just hot lunches for now. I am trying to make it out to support groups to see other human beings at night. He can figure out his own breakfasts and dinners.

  • Sunday - Stuffed cabbage soup
  • Monday - Chicken breast, sweet potatoes, veg
  • Tuesday - Lentil soup, falaffel, pita, cucumber salad
  • Wednesday - Cajun red beans and rice with spinach
  • Thursday - Turkey meat loaf and mashed potatoes
  • Friday - Burgers
  • Saturday - Cooks day off, leftovers

A little addicted to iHerb...  I found the BEST chocolate chips and hot chocolate there... 



Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/26/2020:
You can ask your Noon leader/coach to rest your dailies if you want.

bearcountrygg on 01/26/2020:
That should have said RESET

happy-1 on 01/27/2020:
LOL. Rest is what I need though!

Donkey on 01/26/2020:
Went to www.iherb.com --- wow!!!

happy-1 on 01/27/2020:
Right? Prices are about the same as a sale price without a coupon for most of it. Some random price spikes, but overall fair enough. Enough that I don't need to make a special trek to Sprouts in addition to Sams Club pickup.

bearcountrygg on 01/26/2020:
I went to that site too...looks very interesting...I'd never heard of that one before.

happy-1 on 01/27/2020:
Me either till I was desperate for more tea and didn't want to pay $5.99 for it!!!!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/28/2020:
those meals sound thorough!

happy-1 - Saturday Jan 25, 2020
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Super tired and will write more tomorrow... but I have had 3 on track days and feel like I have leveled up like in a video game.

Go team.

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/25/2020:
Nice job staying on track for 3 days!!!

Donkey on 01/25/2020:
Cheering you on!!! WOOT!!!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/25/2020:
go team is right, to all of us! Happy Weekend :-)

happy-1 - Wednesday Jan 22, 2020
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 36 on Noom
Day 4 of enforcing boundaries around time management with dad
Dad tantrum count this AM: 8
3 night streak of controlled bedtime eating
(counting last night as controlled because I didn't eat enough during the day) 

Support group last night was helpful. I think I horrified two very well maintained older ladies who care for their husbands and are good friends. They are the type who go to book groups and drink wine. I hit it off with a lady who takes care of her 90+ year old mom, and she invited me to a shop ride and a bike clinic. I declined the shop ride... I don't think I can keep up right now, but I said yes to the bike clinic. I will be there Saturday with bells on.

The support groups are helpful but I feel bad after... Like I freaked everyone out. But at least the lady last night didn't run away screaming.

Plan for the day is to take dad on errands... Doctor, McDonald's, Ralphs... Then come home and collapse. I don't think I want to eat anything at McDonalds. They have a chicken southwest salad, but it's a lot of sodium and preservatives... and not that good. I'll bring something in from my cooler while dad eats that, see if they say anything.

Coffee: Coffee, 2% milk
Breakfast: Apple, cheddar cheese stick, 2 hard boiled eggs
4 PM Hangry Snack: 
Extra Snacks: 
1 Thing to Move Forward: 
  • Work on boundaries with dad
  • Adult loss of parent support group

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/22/2020:
Hope your errand trip went well.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/22/2020:
what's a shop ride!?

Donkey on 01/23/2020:
^Shop ride - is that where you all gather at a bike shop and then ride off together? I have a friend who does that regularly. Met a whole new set of friends!

happy-1 - Tuesday Jan 21, 2020
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 35 on Noom

Today is day 2 of enforcing boundary wih dad assignment from therapist. 2 business, 1 errand, and 1 quality time session, 2h each. If he passes, we try again at the next schedued session. He has been talked through it with the bereavement counselor, the pro organizer showed him how to use the calendar and shopping list. I reminded him of today's session last night, and managed his resulting tantrum. I went out at the appointed time and tried to get him started and he threw a tantrum and passed on the session. I went and hid in my bedroom and had breakfast and coffee in there. I spent the time woring on getting Alexa to work better for him and documented the instructions. Then I went out to get food and managed the next tantrum. Then I realized that since Thursday of last week the house has gotten gross again. I gave up, showered and I started in my bedroom and hung up clothes, vacuumed, etc. I still have piles and piles of tools and christmas ornaments in my bedroom. 


4pm and I am too exhausted to go to yoga at 5pm... probably the infection on my foot which is at least better than yesterday with the antibiotics and I can walk on it again.

I am taking a break and watching Hulu. Then I will get up and go to the caregiver support group. Tomorrow is another day.


Coffee: Coffee, Lairds Unsweetened Creamer, nonfat milk powder

Breakfast: Apple, cheddar cheese stick, 2 hard boiled eggs

Tea: Tea, milk, stevia

Lunch: Lean cuisine chicken parm, 4 cups veggies

Tea: Skipped

4 PM Hangry Snack: 1 cheese stick, tortilla chips... Would have had carrots, but tantrum.

Dinner: Skipped

Tea: Just plain decaf tea

Extra Snacks: Chicken teriyaki leftovers, tortilla chips and salsa - Hot chocolate mug cake, Protein pancake, 1/2 a pbj on wheat. Red because of bedtime eating.


1 Thing to Move Forward:

  • Set boundaries with dad
  • Worked on configuring Alexa for Dad's calendar, to do list, and shopping list 

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/21/2020:
Keep at it...you will get there.

happy-1 on 01/22/2020:
Inch by inch.

Donkey on 01/22/2020:
Are you finding the support group to be helpful?

I think you've done incredibly well. I wish you had more for yourself, but I understand that it doesn't work that way.

Noom seems to be helping!

happy-1 on 01/22/2020:
Support group... Yes... Venting to people who understand... Feeling like I am carrying fewer secrets... Being less isolated to build momentum. Referrals to needed services... Just getting out of the house... A possible new friend...

Noom actually is helping. I need the structure. Behind on the articles though.

More for myself? What do you mean?

Donkey on 01/23/2020:
Well, I meant that you could do things for you. Example: too tired to go to yoga. It's not a criticism. Energy allocation and priorities... sometimes we just run out of time in a day.

happy-1 - Monday Jan 20, 2020
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 34 on Noom

Took a couple of days off to get a break and I am back now. 

Didn't binge eat last night. Sleep cycle shows two blue nights in a row and my body battery was almost 90 this morning. I am refreshed and back at it.

Goal for tonight is to finish sorting and storing tools so I have my bedroom back.

Percolator is set up... Ordered more of my favorite tea at an online sale price... Let my 2 goals for the week begin:

  • Tea instead of binging at night
  • Sticking to schedule with dad


  • Coffee: Coffee, Lairds Unsweetened Creamer, nonfat milk powder
  • Breakfast: Apple, cheddar cheese stick
  • Exercise: Skipped
  • Tea: Skipped
  • Lunch: Part of a taco bell taco salad, water
  • Tea: Skipped
  • 4 PM Hangry Snack: Lean cuisine chicken parm, cheese, 1 slice white bread
  • Dinner: 2 hot chocolate packets, protein pancake mix, milk
  • Tea: 
  • Extra Snacks: Cherry tomatoes, hummus, multigrain pita chips, 2 hard boiled eggs, zhoug sauce, (tea, stevia, lairds creamer)x3, 1/2 a pbj on white.
  • 1 thing to move myself forward: Logged more receipts for a tally of expenses, picked up prescriptions.


Ok... this is where I get myself into trouble. I waaaaaaay missed my time to take sleep meds. I'm still hungry. The PB in the kitchen is calling my name and wants me to unite it with J and white bread for sweet harmony.

Not today satan. Not today.

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/20/2020:
you are on point today! welcome back! whats your fave tea??

happy-1 on 01/21/2020:
Decaf brewed... Egyptian Licorice Root. I could drink it by the gallon... https://www.iherb.com/pr/Yogi-Tea-Egyptian-Licorice-Caffeine-Free-16-Tea-Bags-1-27-oz-36-g/5498

Caffeinated... Any black tea with a little of this mixed in. It's probably 90% lead and cancer. I need to buy a new jar and am trying to find something without a Prop 65 warning.


Donkey on 01/21/2020:
So... if I read that correctly, Satan won the PBJ temptation.

legcramps on 01/21/2020:
Ah! LOL, I totally had PBJ for supper last night!

happy-1 - Thursday Jan 16, 2020
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 30 on Noom 

I don't want to weigh in today... I don't want to know. I made the best ever chicken teriyaki last night and had waaaaaay too much, then topped it off with an orange and 2 chocolate mug cakes. Insomniac eating. Today, my gut is busting out of the gap between my sweats and my t shirt. I feel disgusting.

Percolator shows up tomorrow so I can start tea ritual.

Dad's bereavement counselor is coming over today. I'm not looking forward to it. Family friend who used to run senior centers and the very experienced elder care consultant he referred me to both say she gave us the worst direction coaching ever. My feeling about it is "what fresh hell is this" ala Stan from the Evil Dead.

It's 8:30 AM. I have had coffee and Alleve. It is time to get my day started. Plan:

  • Do basic cleanup in living room and dining room so counselor can sit down. Too many in progress projects with the organizer... Then vacuum, spot clean rugs.
  • Shower
  • Mail run
  • Counselor visit
  • Check out another support group, this one for depression. Am I depressed because I am exhausted or exhausted because I am depressed? Let's find out

At least I made some progress yesterday... I opened and sorted my mail and read some of it. I have been doing so much of my dad's stuff, I haven't been doing mine. Time to put that on hold and work on me. I keep saying I will do that, but then I do his stuff instead because he is here pounding on me and I just want some peace. Boundaries and focus. Boundaries and focus. I need to get back to yoga.


Meal schedule I put in my calendar... Need to get back on track. Maybe I will even make a meal plan.

Coffee: Coffee, nonfat milk powder, Laird's creamer

Breakfast: Eggs, spinach, enhilada sauce, 1 tbsp black beans, 2 tbsp cheese, 1 corn tortilla, seltzer





4 PM Hangry Snack:



Extra Unplanned Meals:

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/16/2020:
Maybe your dad would respond well to a calendar where you can point out a day and time that you will do the things he wants done...and if he questions you then tell him it's on the calendar....( but you would have to be strict about doing it then). We were offered grief counseling by the funeral home...but didn't go...Thhere is a really good short and to the point book out about dealing with death of a loved one...I got one for my aunt years ago....i will see if I can find the name.

happy-1 on 01/17/2020:
LOL. You are psychic. That's the to do item for today with the organizer. I found a family organizer app last year and have been putting information into it... He has refused to learn how to use it... But today, it happens.

bearcountrygg on 01/16/2020:
Elizabeth Kubler-Ross wrote a very good book about the 5 stages of grief back in 1969.....The name of the book is ON DEATH AND DYING......and there is plenty about it online so buying the book probably isn't necessary.....but it is very good and explains a lot.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/17/2020:
i love all the mug cakes and the single serving recipes that are out....i see something i like from Heidi Powell the athlete...some kind of cinnamon mug cake, lower cals.

Donkey on 01/17/2020:
Boundaries are everything...

happy-1 - Wednesday Jan 15, 2020
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 29 on Noom 

Accidentally surprised Dad in the bathroom this morning. Neither of us will ever truly recover.

Had call with therapist in AM and then went directly out to coffee and lunch. I spent the whole day out of the house until it was time to go to the caregiver support group. I brought stuff with me to work on, but I didn't do it. All I could do was sit and stare and let my mind empty out. When I went to pick up my equine pine pellets for my tom cat, I gave the guys at the hardware store a turn... I was super enthusiastic (at a level that was a little unbalanced) about being able to order and pick up locally and not drive 40 min to get it. They asked why I was driving to get special cat litter... I said if you are not a cat person and you have a cat this stuff makes the experience of having a cat so much less horrible... I inherited the cat... I can live with everything but stepping on gravel and clay and it smells so much better. He goes through one of these a month... I'll see you next month. They just stared at me and finally the oldest guy said sometimes it's the little things... order in store by Tuesday and we'll have it on Thursday... I think he's "been there".

The caregiver support group... Those poor people look like they were hit by the bus they considered throwing themselves in front of... and I guess that includes me. When it was time for me to introduce myself, I just opened my mouth and everything came tumbling out of my mouth like emptying a bucket of legos. They were very nice about it. I think one of the guys is getting recruited by a cult... something about a 40 day program that tears down your psyche to rebuild it, daily meditation rituals at the center, and a special diet. Time will tell.

I tried having better, more satisfying meals while out yesterday (delightful discovery that the international grocery has added a persian lunch counter... the best lentil soup!!!!) but I still ended up binge eating after my bedtime snack. I was just going to have 2 corn tortillas with refred beans, cheese, and hot sauce, but instead I ended up having 2 more of those, 2 pbjs on actual white bread, and an RX bar. F****************

Up on time today. 


  1. Breakfast and coffee out
  2. Chicken kale salad
  3. 2 hard boiled eggs, cheese stick, orange
  4. Carrots and hummus
  5. Fake low sodium nachos to head off cravings: unsalted tortilla chips, black beans, cheese, soy chorizo
  6. Too much homemade best ever chicken teriyaki (orange for portion control) with rice, veggies and 1 chicken egg roll
  7. Orange
  8. Hot chocolate mug cake with cream cheese and 1 chocolate square
  9. Hot chocolate mug cake plain

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/15/2020:
Well.....all I can say about the Dad incident is that at least it was accidental......I had to flush my Dad's catheter several times a day and at first neither one of us was comfortable with that but over time....we got to the point that it was just something that had to be done.......something he said that made us both laugh...was "Linda, Linda a lovely girl at a glance....but I remember her when she wore three cornered pants"...referring to the old fashioned diapers of the 1940's....reminding me that the situation had turned around...it lightened the moment at least......

happy-1 on 01/16/2020:
I have no idea what that stage will be like with my dad. As it is he won't let me help him with anything and has shut me out of doctor's visits.

bearcountrygg on 01/15/2020:
Try not to take things too seriously...it could be worse.

happy-1 on 01/16/2020:
LOL. Right?

innerpeace on 01/15/2020:
BOOM! it is bound to happen. I've walked in on my husband a few times, but I understand how a dad is different.

happy-1 on 01/15/2020:

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/15/2020:
it's hard for me to quit at just one taco too LOL.

maybe you didn't eat enough while out and you were too hungry when you got home...try to bring a snack to eat so you don't go home ravenous, even sucking candies..i take them on the ride home if i am really hungry.

happy-1 on 01/16/2020:
I think it's the insomnia. I lay there and then I have to eat something.

happy-1 - Tuesday Jan 14, 2020
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 28 on Noom

Still binge eating at night. No idea why, except that this new behavior started when Mom passed along with falling asleep with the tv on. I made chicken teriyaki for dinner over coleslaw steamed in the pan with water. Then I had an RX bar as a bedtime snack... Which turned into 3 more RX bars, a lean cuisine and some mini pretzels. I really need to stop.

So I went shopping... also bad... but I need to stop this somehow and OA was NOT the solution and Noom is good, but not in my bedroom with me at night.

1. Electric Kettle

The behavior replacement nutritionist wanted me to do was to drink hot tea at night but the kettle is in the kitchen. Trying to keep my door closed once I go to bed for the night so I bought a small electric stainless steel coffee percolator on Amazon that will boil water for tea and can replace my plastic one cup coffee maker (I hope... plastic and hot water increases cancer risk). It was used and $10 off... Couldn't resist.


2. Black Running Shoes

I need to move more to eat less. My current running shoes are electric blue and lime green. Love them, but a) I need to save them for actual running, and b) they scream "Hey everyone! Look at my giant sasquatch feet!" These were 50% off, teenager-approved, all black, and blend for athleisure looks at the gym.

3. Yoga Coverup

The pretty white sharkbite tunic didn't work out. It was asian sizing and came nowhere near my butt. Hopefully this will cover my butt and take attention away from my gut until the yoga kicks in. It also is kind of slick so it might not gather pet fur. They had it in black, but I'm just so tired of black.

Today feels like a do over of yesterday. I have a call this AM, then I go pick up horse pine bedding for the cat boxes, then I try to get coffee and read mail. Maybe I can squeeze in yoga. 

But the critical thing I need to do today is make it to the caregiver support group tonight.

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

Donkey on 01/14/2020:
Ooo, I love the yoga cover up! Looks so comfy. I'd wear that to the office if I didn't have such big legs.

Hey, I own that coffee pot! I hope it serves you well!

happy-1 on 01/14/2020:
You could wear it to the office with leggings. Boots even.

Black https://www.sierra.com/freedom-trail-by-kyodan-woven-dress-long-sleeve-for-women~p~770mk/?filterString=womens-dresses-and-skirts~d~493%2Fsizefamily~general!xl%2Cl%2F

Green https://www.sierra.com/freedom-trail-by-kyodan-woven-dress-3and4-sleeve-for-women~p~770kr/?filterString=womens-dresses-and-skirts~d~493%2Fsizefamily~general!xl%2Cl%2F

happy-1 on 01/14/2020:
I am looking forward to hot tea at night. I am glad you can endorse the coffee pot!!!!

bearcountrygg on 01/14/2020:
Not familiar with horse pine bedding for cat boxes....

happy-1 on 01/15/2020:
It will change your life... So much cheaper and less gross than litter, especially the litter mat and their feet. Smells better too. If you google there are a ton of weird tutorials, but basically, you put 1/2 inch of the pellets in there instead of litter and as the cats pee on it, it turns to sawdust. As the cats poop you pick out the poop with a dog poop bag and put in the trash. Use your littler scooper to turn the pellets so that they get used evenly. The urine doesn't really smell. As long as you aren't leaving poop in the tray, you can use the cat litter in your compost or dispose in yard waste cans. The poop rarely ever works out in compost. It was $4 for 40lbs vs $9 to $16 for regular litter. https://glenbrookzerowaste.wordpress.com/2010/03/30/how-to-compost-your-cats-litter/

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/14/2020:
are the sneakers Mizuno Wave? i love that brand bc they are so comfortable to me!

happy-1 - Monday Jan 13, 2020
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 27 on Noom

As always the ex-ish knocks me back on track. It's not like he does anything in particular. All my Garmin biometrics just suddenly go to the blue range. We joked that I have a device that measures how awesome he is and how much easier he makes me to live with. You can also tell by looking at my dog. I relax and my ancient dog will eat something and drink water.

Today I woke up and:

  • Full 8 hrs of sleep
  • Up on time
  • Body battery is up at 70%
  • Fasting blood sugar is in normal range
  • Down 2lbs which puts me back to what I was before the Christmas debacle (although still a whopping 230.2 over my plateau of 216 last year)
  • Breakfast was healthy... Coffee, (nonfat milk powder, laird's creamer), 2 hard boiled eggs, hot sauce, orange
  • My fancy electric car cooler is packed with healthy stuff to keep me on track.
  • Everything is packed and ready for the day. 

Pets are peacefully snoozing on their beds. I'm finishing my coffee. Plan for today:

  • Finish coffee while I log here and check Noom
  • Shower, get dressed
  • Sneak binders out to car
  • Check on shoe repair
  • Get mail
  • Get lunch at Starbucks and read mail
  • Assemble more of Dad's binders from mail
  • Go to Trader Joe's for more cat litter... I only have one cat but he's a pee machine
  • Shoot for 5:45 yoga class at gym I pay for but have been MIA... Me and all the other New Year's resolutionists can elbow each other together

Can't concentrate at home. Too keyed up from being hyper vigilant to avoid drama.

What definitely worked this weekend was that I did my Sams Club haul on the way to meeting up with him. I had a whole kitchen and nearly empty fridge to use to meal prep for this week and nobody yelling at me, manipulating me, or making constant demands on my time and attention while I did it. Super tempted to get my chuckbox out of storage and bring it with me next time.

What really surprised me was that the state of the house, the cat, and my dad were just fine when I got back from being away a night. He really is doing better. No wonder he is being such a pain in the...


Didn't make it from my door to the front door fast enough (ironic because they are next to each other... maybe I need to start hopping out my bedroom window so I can get a cup of coffee and read my mail?) and got caught in helping dad... and wore myself out. My body battery shows a cliff drop from 70% to 30% with the helpful message "Pace yourself! if you keep going at this rate you will burn out." 

Ha ha ha ha ha.

I did get to the post office. One achievement on my list. My ratty old tom cat is earning his chicken dinners today. I collapsed on my bed and he came over to purr in my ear. My stress level dropped down to blue.


Why do I always forget about 800mg of advil and a cup of coffee for putting yourself back together.

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/13/2020:
That's a good omen that your Dad can spend some time alone....that sure frees your time up a lot. During the more than 7 years that I cared for my Mom......we either still had our house ( for 4 years)...or we had an apartment so that I could get a break myself.....at one point I lived in her house for 4 months and I literally thought I would lose my mind...I have never been a crier...but I got to the point I was escaping to my room and calling D and crying the entire call.....so went back out and got another apartment and improved immediately. Being a caretaker is so much harder than anyone ever imagines.......it is the type of thing that you have to experience to understand. Good for you that you found some peace.

happy-1 on 01/13/2020:
It's debilitating. I just read my bio on here and had to change it to reflect my fresher and more positive mindset. Hindsight is 20/20... I should never have moved in to "help" my parents.

Reading your comment I should probably put some hustle on finding a caregiver support group.

You really worked hard for your mom.

happy-1 on 01/13/2020:
It's shocking what no processed foods does for a health turnaround. He barely needs to be on oxygen anymore.

bearcountrygg on 01/13/2020:
The role reversal part is hard on both parent and child and after a lifetime of being the parent...he resists...and the child becomes the head of the house and makes new rules and meaning well.....ends up feeling a lot of responsibility..while the parent feels resentment. It's tough......but you have made his life a lot better with diet and rearranging the house to meet both of your needs..........it's good to hear that he is using less oxygen....that must make you feel good and him too. You are doing a good job HAP.....take breaks when you need to....because you NEED TO!!!!

happy-1 on 01/13/2020:
Augh... Thank you for the guidance.

You inspired me to search online and I found caregiver support groups sponsored by a hospital next to Costco and Sams Club... So I can put an order in, pick it up, and go to group.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/13/2020:
isn't it (sometimes) so wonderful when people contribute to our own esteem!? glad you are doing well.

you are def doing well today. thanks for posting that you are well!

happy-1 on 01/13/2020:
I think I missed something... "people contribute to our own esteem"?

horn_of_plenty on 01/13/2020:
Your guy! Being with him made you feel good :)

happy-1 on 01/14/2020:
Aaaaaaaw, yeah. That's why he's my guy. The cat on the other hand... he's the bad boyfriend that does naughty things and infuriates me but is so cute I keep letting him back into my bed.

Donkey on 01/14/2020:
I think a caregiver support group is an excellent idea.

legcramps on 01/14/2020:
You know, that looks like a pretty good day to me. I know you got stressed and some stuff didn't get done, but you let your cat cheer you up, and you let your ex-ish set you up for a good day today by making you feel good yesterday. It's not about "someone" or "something" making you happy, instead allowing them the opportunity to make you smile. Glad you let them do that for you.

What is a chuckbox?

happy-1 on 01/14/2020:
There is a lot to be said for just being open and letting happiness in. Or a bedraggled tom cat in need of a home.

A chuckbox is a big box that serves as a portable camp kitchen. Usually made of wood or plastic.


Mine is soft-sided and comes apart so it is easier to fit in a car. As I think about it, I could just pull out the bags and leave the table at home for meal prep. I like this because it leaves a little more space when packed and also works great out of the back of my car for tailgating.


happy-1 on 01/14/2020:
Solid chuckboxes fold open, making them hard to leave in the back of the car and still use... Means more work packing and unpacking... And something heavy to haul. With this I can pull all the heavy bags out and move the table, or leave it assembled and pull out a separate waist-height table to cook on.

happy-1 - Sunday Jan 12, 2020
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 26 on Noom 

Actually caught myself checking the Noom calorie distribution today when I was about to eat string cheese, saw it was part of the red group and I was over calories on, and picked chicken instead.

Got up on time this morning. One foot in front of each other.

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/13/2020:
Good job...Noom is working for you!!

happy-1 on 01/13/2020:
We shall see! I still emotionally/binge ate 2 rx bars and a small bean and cheese quesadilla last night. Less than other binge eating sessions though. Maybe not enough protein at dinner.

bearcountrygg on 01/13/2020:
Noon didn't have any impact on me at all......if you get something out of it then something is better than nothing.....sounds like it's making you think...it just made me rebel...LOL

happy-1 on 01/13/2020:
You only look mainstream on the outside, I get it.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/13/2020:
great job picking something more satisfying / filling.

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