223.4=normal weight fluctuation.
Finished the CERT class and it feels like a minor victory. M's friend took a photo of me and I couldn't believe it when I saw it... No wonder my yoga instructors say I look like a completely different person... I look healthy! I'm standing in a line of people and I'm the same size as everyone else, no giant beer belly, sick/sweaty color, bags under my eyes, and no double chin. I still need to work on it. I'm thick around the waist, hips and butt... like the fat is literally burning from the top and bottom and eventually meeting in the middle at my waist. I'm wearing a cream sweater, my favorite Lucky Brand jeans... No bulges or anything. A few more pounds and I'll be hot again.
Ate whatever I wanted at the potluck and just went back to normal after. Also, I fell off last night and ate two pints of protein ice cream. They were within calories but nutritionist says no fake foods. Whole, unprocessed foods only. So Graindart streak Day 1 again.
Have a huge headache / neckache though. Chilling on M's couch and using her Internet to download stuff to my spare laptop so I can use it while my good one is repaired. Very kind of her.
Still coughing but not as bad. Yoga class is in my future. I want to go back so bad I think about it non-stop. I just want to listen to the nice ladies say soothing things while we stretch, burn calories and listen to music.
Progress as of today: 97 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!
221.0! Stoked to not be going completely off the rails while sick. Keep getting super hungry... and eating extra snacks, but all legal foods so day 2 of my graindart streak.
OOMLG has upgraded from texting at night to in-bed good night phone calls. If we hadn’t had the talk about how he doesn’t want to date me I’d think he was interested, but I think he’s just lonely and wants his ego stroked. It’s both thrilling to talk to him (soooo hot, gets math jokes, AND can one up me with them) and terribly depressing (doesn’t want to date me because I’m not wife material). I got him to confess he wears matching pajamas to bed. How very very LL Bean Boyfriend (http://yourllbeanboyfriend.tumblr.com).
Up since 6. Yay me. It is 9:30 and so far I have accomplished cleaning the microwave, dishes, laundry, picking up the living room, and finding index cards to make flash cards with. Feeling better so plan for today is to go to the DMV and study for my test on Saturday while in line. Goal is to get a third bookcase up on foam blocks tonight, and also make turkey meatball soup.
I feel badly that I stuck my dog in her crate this morning while I cleaned but I couldn’t take the screen door game one more minute... and it might be doggie dementia because she does it ALL DAY LONG!!!!! However, I am only going to dig myself out if I do not have to listen to the screen door banging today. I will walk her and do yoga at the park tonight. I am very proud of myself for doing a yoga track from start to finish at home yesterday. I focused, got it done, and my head felt better.
I can do this. Hug yourself and the furkid next to you.
Progress as of today: 97 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!
Starting my streak over, Day1. Felt lousy last night after Costco so I hit the bag of stuff I set aside for the food bank... I had some Chicken Top Ramen, pocky sticks, and dark chocolate.
OOMLG says when I fall off the wagon for things like diet and swearing I should stop and give myself a hug because I fell off the wagon because I need to take better care of myself. What a fundamental concept I have been missing all my life. How did I not realize this sooner?
On the theme of doing better self care... I think 6 days is my absolute max without yoga. 7 days and the headaches come back. I suspect my neck will also un-adjust again if I don't keep moving forward. Maybe I want to go for yoga teacher training so I can internalize more of it. Be my change.
Also debating buying a smaller pair of yoga pants since my current pants keep trying to escape. Feels like a splurge. Maybe a reward for finishing tallying my spending for the year.
Saw a cool pin about a company with photo booths that scan you and then print out a little 3d statue. How motivating would this be for before and afters? You could scan and print yourself every few months and get a good look at what you really look like!
https://www.google.com/amp/s/amp.interestingengineering.com/this-3d-printing-company-lets-you-scan-and-print-yourself
Today I am going to be kind to myself and not kick myself for not getting enough done. I am coughing a lot and still under the weather. I know I must actually be out of it because my dog (who is a bit on the tough love side) is being my personal hot water bottle for my neck and she HATES that. I definitely am taking advantage and getting all the cuddles.
Thinking out loud now to pull myself together...
3:38pm... so far I have accomplished making everyone breakfast, washing 2 sinks of dishes, repairing two items I have had the materials together to do forever and not done, paid a bill, emailed an old friend, given my dog extra rubs, and checked my email.
The next most important thing I have to do is go to the park with my dog and try to do some yoga there to get my neck back on track. If that keeps reverting, everything reverts. I cant go to a class because I am coughing and I can't do it at home because it is too stressful here if I try to work out in the living room. My dad gets all antsy.
Following that... I should sweep the front steps and work on getting one book case up on foam blocks, because then I will feel better about myself.
Hug yourself and the person or furkid next to you!
Progress as of today: 97 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!
All about mindset right?
How is your day? How is your mom and hubby?
FOUND! A non-caffinated tea that is totally drinkable without adding a sweetner. Yogi Cinnamon Vanilla Healthy Skin Tea (https://yogiproducts.com/teas/herbal-teas/cinnamon-vanilla-healthy-skin/). I'm liking it so much that I have made several 40oz mugs of it in my splurge Stanley Thermos drink cup. Yum. Today my tea bags say "Use your head to live with heart" and "Live in your strength"
221.8... Which considering that I have been largely inactive for a week except for cleaning, consuming tons of extra sugar in my tea to soothe my throat, and was off track on eating for several days... Pretty good! Still coughing up a storm though... The improvement yesterday was that at least my lungs didn't spasm out and get all rigid, and give me a panic attack (the whole room suddenly closes in). I feel like I should be over this already.
All I can think about is how badly I want to go to yoga class. It's this obsessive itch in my brain that just does not want to go away. Is it possible to have yoga withdrawal? Like heroin?
Stuck to my plan yesterday of tracking spending against budget, but hit the "too tired" mark last night. I was so encouraged by the all-green day from my nutritionist that I got the first piece of furniture up onto foam blocks for rug cleaning. 8 pieces to go. Yes I have been talking about this forever and cut the blocks a while back, but last night I actually conquered "can't focus" and did it.
I even took my first steps towards taking the math placement test for my local community college.
What a difference occupational therapy, nutrition, supplements, and yoga make. I can be "down" but still "functional".
Progress as of today: 97 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!
Extra post for today... but milestone! My food posts for yesterday on Rise got all Greens from my nutritionist! I’m learning!
Progress as of today: 97 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!
Graindart streak Day 2. It's nice to "shadow" someone in a streak the way I did when I was interning. I did have some added sugar yesterday in my agave, cough syrup and cough drops, and then a piece of bread last night with some eggs. Also too many peanuts. But nothing crazy and it's a process, not perfection.
Trying Mucinex for the first time and thouroughly surprised at how much it helps. I'm still staying home today though. Coughing a lot. I hope I can be back at yoga by Saturday.
Continuing my theme of getting things in order and checking my budget. Making sure my spending has been on track with all the headaches.
One foot in front of the other.
Progress as of today: 97 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!
GP called and let me know that I have arthritis and moderate disc degeneration C4-C7. I can do normal activities, but need to be careful of anything that causes pain... or causes pain afterwards... Which isn't going to work because that's pretty much EVERYTHING.
I think my max on days without yoga is 5. Started to feel the headaches come back again today after moving boxes around. I'm craving yoga like I used to crave a jacuzzi.
My claims to fame today are:
1) Starting my graindart streak over. Day 1. All on-plan eating today of whole foods that support bones and nerves... most of which are meal-prepped trays.
2) Feeling better exactly 10 days after I caught my cold. Still coughing, and coughing too much to go out... but I can tell it is clearing. I am pretty excited about this because it means my immune system is stronger and my supplement stack and work with the nutritionist has made a big difference. It used to be that if I got a cold, it lasted forever, turned into a bacterial infection and then I was on steroids and antibiotics. All I took for this one was my regular inhaler and cough syrup.
3) I did 3 tasks I planned to do today without a lot of messing around.
4) I have not cursed at all today.
5) I am about to fall on my sword and offer to take my dad to Ralphs, which I hate doing. But it will be my act of kindness for today.
6) I sorted through my ADHD-hurricane I created while I was sick in the bedroom I need to clean out. When I don't feel well, it looks like the space around me exploded. I put it back in order and felt less chaotic.
7) I did all the dishes and did not say anything about it.
8) I put up with my dog and her door shennanigans like a saint.
9) I listened to my neck and took a break as soon as it started acting up instead of trying to push through it.
Progress as of today: 97 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!
It's so great your cold didn't lead to anything worse...i know what you mean - i used to really have a similar issue especially if i didn't take care of my colds or if i didn't get enough rest when i needed it!
nice job cleaning up and getting everything back into order!!
Ha. Figured it out. A weird dvd is no match for me.
I think what the xray is showing me is that I don't actually have a reversed curve in my neck anymore. It's just straight up and down... I'll ask the doc and see what she says.
Found this online. Pretty much matches my xray.
Progress as of today: 97 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!
Short post tonight. Lost whole day to being sick. Mostly due to asthma and coughing. I had a bunch of personal things to get accomplished today that did not get done. Should have just left the house this morning and done my best. But I got some rest and hopefully that means productivity tomorrow.
I think I am hitting the limit on days I can go without doing yoga. Neck is starting to hurt again.
Dog is making me crazy today. Wants to be near me but as soon as I cough she gets annoyed and leaves then bangs the screen door. As soon as I give her tramadol, she wants to go for a walk. Except I can't breathe so I can barely get to the end of the driveway.
Still can’t get dad’s dvd drive unstuck and he won’t let me do the paper clip thing. I’ll have to wait till they go to the grocery store and then... that DVD is mine.
Update: Got the DVD while dad was in kitchen... but it needs special software. There's a free version but it is a really big download. The battle continues.
I can't wait to start my streak over. Cheats today were a box of mac n cheese, dark chocolate, linguine. Too much agave. Tempted to throw away the pasta... except I can't bring myself to throw away food. I cleaned out the pantry to look for stuff to get rid of for the food bank as my claim to fame today.
Not sure why OOMLG is STILL TEXTING ME. I like him, I wanted to date him, he turned me down flat... but wants to be friends because I am awesome but not wife material. Fine. This is my good deed. Politely text a clueless engineer who would totally be into me if I were 2 years younger. Which makes me want to punch him in the nose. Except I enjoy our conversations.
Sigh.
Listening to the Interworld series by Neil Gaiman on Audible. Some podcasts from KFI 640. I think I really am happier and more productive without Hulu or Netflix.
Except I miss watching it when I am sick. On the other hand... Super organized pantry. Bag for the food bank next weekend. Packed all my supplements and meds for the month... Took a nap. Cuddled my fat yellow dog. Washed dishes. Made really good turkey meatballs...
Progress as of today: 97 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!
Got my x ray on a cd. In a cruel twist of fate, my dad tried to help me open it and see what came back and it got stuck in his laptop and the thing won’t open. Doc isn’t in office till tuesday. ai literally just felt my whole soul just explode. It has been in his dvd drive for a day and a half now.
Augh.
I still have a cold and didn’t go out tonight to try to find my old laptop since my current one is about to go belly up. When I found it I just kept cleaning and threw out about half the containers in the fridge. Basically took out all my frustrations on the bathroom and the kitchen. Constructive at least. By the end I am tired enough to sleep and either I feel better or the house is clean. Both are a win.
CERT class tomorrow. I packed all on-plan foods so i can start my graindart streak over tomorrow. I was half on plan today because I needed to clean out the fridge to eat on plan. Feels bad to throw away food but so much of the condiments in there have hidden sugars and were bad for us. Fully expect parents to freak tomorrow. I will not be there. Maybe Molly will let me hide at her house, LoL.
Progress as of today: 97 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!
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Wow! you sound so pleased with your progress! keep up the good work, do not stop now :)
congrats on fulfilling your goals so far! always reach.
Never, never, never give up.
graindart on 10/21/2018:
Seeing progress always helps give me additional motivation. It's when you keep depriving yourself with no visible progress that things get frustrating. Good job.
This was actually a good coaching tip. Thank you. I was really down today because I skipped church and yoga due to coughing, felt isolated. I looked at some photos from the beginning of summer... I actually look 10+ years younger even with a head cold. Picked me right up! I posted them to my nutritionist to thank her for her hard work.