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happy-1 - Tuesday Aug 01, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 241.6

2 coffees

1 protein cookie

Turkey taco meat with rice, beans, an avocado and some cheese

Stevia lemonade

Matcha latte 

More turkey taco meat with rice and beans. 2 hostess cupcakes

Progress as of today: 66.4 lbs lost so far, only 61.6 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/02/2017:
mmmmm, stevia lemonade sounds good...so does a coffee....so does turkey taco meat! wow good tasting meal!!!!!!!! and a matcha latte...that's some great eating right there!

happy-1 on 08/02/2017:
Hugs. Really trying!

happy-1 on 08/02/2017:
Hugs. Really trying!

happy-1 - Monday Jul 31, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 241.6

Day ? Of 42 of making fitness a priority.

Back from dog sitting in a location that was basically a 1 bar coverage location and no home internet. Their house is beautiful but it was really lonely there and all I could think about is how much More work I would have to do when I got home. Plus my dog really did not like being there. Their dog is awesome but he's a healthy young bulldog and my dog is a 17yo cranky old lady who is anxious and getting skinnier. I had to keep her crated there when I was busy or distracted and the rest of the time I kept her on a leash which she hated and they have hardwood floors which she skidded around on. Plus their dog is food obsessed and she doesn't really care about food and it was a hassle to deal woth my food, their food, giving them treats, and sleeping arrangements. The pool was beautiful though!

I was super PMS and out of it so I got zero done till my brain kicked back in. It's like I flatline the week before.

A lot to catch up on... From the gate to the driveway forward

- Need to unpack my car and wash and vacuum it. - Sweep the front steps to get rid of the seeds. Don't know how my parents haven't fallen - Pick up and clear the porch - Repack the go bags I keep by the door and make a doggie travel kit of the cleaners - Install the new dog gate that came while I was gone - Clean the kitchen, find the source of the terrible smell - Clean out the fridge - Pick up the dining room table - Sort through my living room pile - Change my bedding. - Cut down my old blanket to fit in my duvet. I don't want to buy a summer weight blanket and my old blanket sheds. Plus I could use the extra to make doggie pillows! - Find a new rug for the bathroom - Put air in my bike tires and the rack on the back of my mountain bike - Repack my car emergency bucket and get a new pair of nitrile coated work gloves - Get the first aid kit to an accessible spot (oh how I wish I had a 4x4 van so my gear was in better arrangement) - Unpack cooler - laundry - sweep and scrub down back patio which is a huge job itself

Some of those I feel like my parents should have been able to do while I was gone... like keep the kitchen picked up and sweep the seeds from the door... but that's the deal with hoarders. They never clean, just leave trash and dishes everywhere and just let it pile up so it is 10x more work.

In my list of personal business, which is higher priority but hard to think about until I am through with the house stuff:

- get dressed and look good for coworking space, make sure I have water for the hike tonight. If I am not all crampy and cranky - read through all my new mail - figure out my new insurance - bug the guy about training - buy more vitamins and finish sorting out my daily med packs (I make little plastic ziplocs of meds and tons of vitamins that my boss has as part of his challenge) - find receipt for the two dog gates that didn't work out and take them back to walmart - pay credit card bills and look for fraud - meal prep for week - a million other things


B: egg mcmuffin hash brown and diet coke

Got massively overwhelmed by everything I have to do and couldn't figure out lunch at home despite that there is food there. Short circuited and just went to my default closest haven point, the plaza with the 99cent store. First restaurant doesn't offer bread substitutes and I was too hungry. I went next door and just did a modified burger. I put on my favorite audio book and earphones and just tuned out.

L: lettuce wrapped cheese burger, sweet potato fries and ice water

Progress as of today: 66.4 lbs lost so far, only 61.6 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 08/01/2017:
OMG just reading this entry made me anxious! What a crap load of stuff to do. Good luck. I'm sorry your dog didn't like house sitting, poor old girl. Love sweet potato fries! Try to have a good day.

Donkey on 08/01/2017:
I agree - that's quite a list!

happy-1 - Thursday Jul 27, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 241.6

Will add more later, but... today I ate a protein cookie, iced tea, beef burrito bowl at taco bell, pizza at sams club, chicken salad, ice cream, panda express chow mein and broccoli beef.

So much for paleo.

Dude from ugly dating flaked. I liked him. He's only sending pics feom the neck up. I think he might be morbidly obese. And he shudders at the idea of joining me for a hike.

Scott flipped out last night when I said I was on a new dating site... he never wants to hang out. I didn't realize he would tale it that hard.

Going on a sierra club hike. Don't have a bandanna. Sucks to be me.

If anyone wants to join my old boss' challenge on vimify, use this link.


Progress as of today: 66.4 lbs lost so far, only 61.6 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/28/2017:
Hello Happy!

Those protein cookies are Sooooo addicting! I love them! I love the Larry & Lenny’s brand but also just bought a few flavors of a new brand I have yet to really try – I forget the brand bc they are at home & I am at work! I’ve been meaning to pack them & bring them to work so I have them for after the gym….i forgot all this week so I guess I’ll just buy one at the gym (I like to eat a carb snack right away before I get home & am so ravenous that I start to eat everything in my apt!)

Lol…I was just talking about Sam’s club to a coworker I was wonderfing if the club could give him discount rates for a car rental but it doesn’t appear that way. I know my friend who shops at Costco got a discount rate…maybe only Costco does it, not Sam’s Club…do you know?

Yeah, Scott has NO RIGHT to flip out on your decision to put yourself on a dating site…not if he never wants to be with you!!!!!!! lol….so what did you tell him!? did you say he shouldn’t have a say!?

I’ll look at the challenge to see what it’s about…why does it matter so much If you have a bandana? Maybe cut up an old shirt that you do not wear?! Also, yes, he must be heavy if he’s only showing you from the neck up – this is mostly obviously the case I’d have to assume….! He prob doesn’ t enjoy exercise at all if he freaked out that much lol. maybe he’s not your type then!?

happy-1 on 07/31/2017:
Omg so many thoughts to reply to there...

Costco just posted a new Groupon. They give you coupons that offset the cost and I can use $45 of them towards the 24hour fitness membership.

I basically told Scott that he never wants to hang out or do anything but watch tv and we can talk about it... but basically I feel like he's not that into me and was trying to let me down easy. Somehow we haven't talked about it. He's avoidant. Still texts daily. How has this dude been married twice? 3 hookups and I'm done already.

I desperately want bandannas when I hike because I sweat like a pig. Also groups kick up dist and if you are the slowest one in the back you are sucking up all the dust. I hadd a buff headwrap and that worked ok, but a nice cotton bandanna is less scratchy. I have a bunch, they just weren't in my car. The old tshirt idea is good though.

So yeah he's heavy. Got a full body shot over the weekend and he's a big dude. He's working on it though... making low carb choices and has a planet fitness membership. I don't know if he goes often enough or gets enough sleep. He's a security guard manager and works crazy shifts.

Get this though... weirdly we figured out that he went to high school with a friend of mine. Good family and they have really solid friends so I'm kind of more interested now... assuming he gets off the couch on his days off and isn't so run down he can't do anything fun.

happy-1 on 07/31/2017:
Almost forgot... The challenge is to build healthy habits. I will post more about it later. Sooooo hungry

Donkey on 07/29/2017:
Hang in there - keep trying!

happy-1 - Wednesday Jul 26, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 241.6

Day 9 of 42 of making workouts my priority

Finally some quiet today. I got to bed on time last night, but everything from  5pm yesterday on was really hard and wore me out so I woke up at 10:30AM. Parents were actually up and fighting so I just kind of hid till they left at 12:45pm. Delayed eating and being effective for the day, but on track now.

12:45 pm - Emailed old boss that I'd like to redo the vimify challenge now that I'm back in 1 piece from the bad chiro adjustment and foot injury.

B: 3 eggs scrambled and smothered with the meat sauce I made yesterday and parmesan. Found that the bag of kale I opened was half south, so I need to wash it and clean off the muck before using. Wish my worm bin was working.

Saw the hot guy on uglydatingsite.com sent me an email!!!!!! Yes!!!!!!!!!

1:30: Called Aetna. Health Insurance is turned back on!!!! YAY!!!!! I can go get my prescriptions. I won't completely screw up my life for months on end in a single week.

1.45pm: Need to make the most of the remaining time at home alone... Kitchen is a wreck... I have tons to do of personal stuff... Hmm... Probably kitchen since they are most likely to start another fight while I am cleaning that up.

4:15: Kitchen was a horror show and sweated so much I had to take a second shower. I'm going to have to buy a proper broom.

Off to get prescriptions and go to target to pick up my order and make returns to Walmart.

Progress as of today: 66.4 lbs lost so far, only 61.6 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/27/2017:
i love how you start by saying you are making workouts your priority :)

needing extra quiet time these days not sure why i feel so upset and angry....i feel bipolar even though i am not!

actually, i do know why - lack of sleep. it has me starting to feel very down...i need to work on getting more sleep during the work week!

scrambled eggs...haven't made them in a LONG time....

nice...is this a new guy? is he really hot?

good that you can get Rx stuff...

i hope you get everything that you need to get done, done!

happy-1 - Tuesday Jul 25, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 241.6

Day 8 of 42

Up at 8am! Not 6AM, but better than 4am so I'll take it and work on it. Small victories and baby steps.

I think from now on, I will make exercise days "no cooking" days since it is so much work to keep the mess under control. I don't know why but everytime I cook I seem to end up with tons of dishes even if I clean as I go... When it comes time to eat there are extra bowls cups and plates and serving utensils that just get pulled out of thin air and magically appear in the sink. Plus they always dump their dishes in the sink for me to wash. Even a slow cooker meal is too much work and I'm better off not making anything at all if I don't want to miss a hike. Was groggilly cleaning things up last night when I shouldn't have had to be and up too late.

B: 2 pieces of toast, coffee.

I really need to stop eating bread. I asked my dad to start keeping it in his room since I can't resist it. I was groggy this morning and it just ended up on my plate, without any protein with it which is worse.


  1. Make it to the hike tonight, no matter what.
  2. Stay on top of health insurance processing.
  3. Make all the produce I bought up for meal prep
  4. Pick up chicken and sausages for meal prep.
  5. Make progress on my case study.

5:12 pm shutting off computer and heading to the hike. I have no makeup or hairdo... oh well.

Progress as of today: 66.4 lbs lost so far, only 61.6 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/25/2017:
I do this too....on gym days i try not to do too many other things or really much else after work than the gym...it's hard to do several activities in advance of the gym and still have any energy leftover for the gym....so yes it's smart to plan accordingly.

it's def hard living with people who eat things you do not want to eat...always a trouble area of mine when i used to live with my parents.

happy-1 on 07/25/2017:
Yeah, my mom's not so bad but my dad is impossible. He is completely anti vegetable and only eats iceberg lettuce when it is drowned in ranch dressing.

I kind of overbought the veggies this week... I am drowning in bags of kale and spinach I don't feel up to eating raw. Looking for recipes using them I can incorporate.

BearCountryGG on 07/25/2017:
Kale and spinach make excellent smoothies if you have a blender.

happy-1 on 07/25/2017:
Does it fill you up the same way? I sauteed them and made an omlette then poured tomato sauce on top. Yum!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/26/2017:
yeah, i do not eat a lot of raw either, it's not enjoyable either to me except for once in awhile. i prefer cooked also!

happy-1 - Monday Jul 24, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 241.6

Day 7 of 42 of putting exercise first.

Weight: 244.4. I think it will go up a little bit since I just started hiking and exercise always makes me eat more at the beginning.

Screwed up my digital calendar and missed a deadline with the EDD. I had to reopen my claim. Not sure what that does to my elligibility for job retraining. I feel like such an idiot.

ADHD is insidious. It makes weird **** super important and you don't pay attention to what you really need to focus on. I think if I had OCD to go with it, I might actually get things done. I have been looking at my diary entries (Long-winded and boring, I know but they are helping). I don't actually stare off into space as much as I think I do (I think the meds help). I do pay too much attention to the wrong things. 

Stress. *sizzle*

At least my win for today was that last night I tried the Sleepinol 2 hours before I wanted to go to sleep according to Horn_of_Plenty's recommendation and it more or less worked. It makes you feel a little fuzzy so you give up trying to do "one more thing" and just go to bed. I was up at about 4:20am to go to the bathroom and thought I would go back to sleep, but didn't. I could have made the beach bootcamp I want to go to, but I cuddled my dog and looked at internet jokes for a couple of hours. I wanted to make the EDD phone call at 8am and not miss it.

My other win was that I found a period tracker that exports your cycle forecast as an ical feed so you can get it on your apple or google calendar as a feed you can subscribe to. I can now see what weekends I might not want to go to the beach the same place as where I plan my trips. I have this fear that a shark will come and eat me. I am not sure if this is a rational fear or not. http://strawberrypal.com/


8am: Called EDD. Reopened claim online.

Then slacked and brain dumped here for an hour.

9am Breakfast. Cottage cheese and the last of the fresh blueberries.

Bummed around reading diary entries.

Dog tried to sit in my lap while I was eating. Such a pest. My mom has given her the worst habits. AAAAAAARGH. Got up and fed her breakfast... normally she gets kibble in the morning and wet food at night. Gave her wet food this morning. I am going to turn this dog into a hat. So annoyed when she came back over, I tapped her nose when she shoved it over.

9:40am Called Aetna. Still not processed. AAAARGH. Apparently my employer needs to contact them. AAARGH. Sat on phone for 40 min.

Ordered bra and dog gate while on phone.

10:30 Realized I didn't run out to get gas this morning before it heated up. AAAAAARGH. But it was ok. Overcast day so not too hot. I filled up my tank.

S: Diet coke, egg mc muffin

Realized I forgot the key to the post office box. Doh!

Ran to the supermarket, and came home and got my big experiment into the crockpot... Philly cheese steaks!!!!

12:30 Responded to a recruiter call.

Realized I forgot to get cheese. Doh!

S: first taste of the philly cheese steak. OMG. OMG. OMG.

2pm: Assistant is MIA. No meeting. Made a wet burrito and topped it with salad.

Realized I didn't turn on the crockpot. Doh! Debating the  hike... it will be time to leave right when they are ready. If I leave it out, my parents will make a giant mess as soon as the cheese steaks are ready and it will be unrecoverable as food for the week. 

4pm: Assistant is alive. She has found me a post office box (they are hard to come by at an actual post office in LA), a better storage unit (I'm deathly afraid of the paranoid schizophrenic at mine but can't bear to turn him in for living there), and an attorney.

7:30pm parents are home and fed, and back in their rooms. My dad literally complained at me for an hour straight. How can one person complain so much?

At least they loved dinner. They want it once a week. Shockingly the entire contents of the slow cooker is gone. That was enough for a week. I told her to buy me the stuff and I'll make it. It was super fast and easy cleanup.

8:15 Took sleepinol

10:15 Not tired yet. 

At least I made some progress on the case study.

Dog is making me crazy... I have a rash on my leg and she keeps licking it to make it better. Then she sits with her paw right on my bruised foot. Then she flips her tail against my rash. Then she sticks her wet nose on my elbow while I type.

DOG! I am going to turn you into a hat!

Progress as of today: 66.4 lbs lost so far, only 61.6 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 07/24/2017:
We had a foster child with ADD...when we fond something she was really interested in doing she stuck with it, maybe you don't really want to do everything on the list, maybe just making the list is what you want. one thing that works for me when I want to accomplish something is to set a timer for 15 minutes...I can do anything for 15 minutes....and sometimes when the timer goes off...I keep going...if not, I allow myself to stop for 15 minutes...then after that..i go at it again for 15 more...that really helps me get things done on days I'm not very motivated

happy-1 on 07/24/2017:
I kept trying to read your message but... SQUIRREL!

happy-1 - Friday Jul 21, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 241.6

Day 4 of 42 of putting exercise first.

Weight: Forgot to weigh myself

Went to Sierra Club hike last night. Spotted a hurt hawk in someone's backyard so I called animal control. A guy stuck around to help out. We talked to the homeowners and got them to get a box to put over the bird until animal control can come get it. Apparently they are a conserved species so if you report one as hurt they come get it and take it to a bird rehab agency. We just headed back to the cars after that since the group moved on without us. If you just call animal control and stick a box on a bird, apparently you are a hero at the Sierra Club and I was invited to hang out for a burger after with the organizers. That like never happens to me, so it was a pretty cool feeling to sit and have fun talking to interesting people after a hike.

Today I went to a training center by my house. It was pretty morally uplifting. I liked the lady that does the program administration. She has 3 programs she thinks I could reasonably pull off.

  • MCTS Microsoft SQL Database Admin with Business Intelligence
  • Red Hat Certified Engineer (RHCSE)
  • Six Sigma Lean Black Belt with ITIL Foundations and CompTIA Project +

The programs are about 12 weeks long. It sounds pretty doable.

I am biased towards thinking the business intelligence and six sigma programs require me to be an extrovert. I can fake extroversion for an interview, but I am really introverted and find project management and any high-touch / personal connection work really draining. I can do it, I am good at it, but I want to switch to something less exhausting so I have the will to go on hikes after work. Also, I think the Red Hat one might help me eventually get a startup off the ground. I can only benefit from really understanding all 3 sides... Infrastructure, development, and business.

5:50p: I may have just spent the last 3 hours thinking about food. FML.

Also eating alot of crap because of the fight with my dad and avoiding being at home. And it is expensive.


B: Cashews, eggs, cheese, pita bread, water

S: Egg mc muffin, soda, hash brown

L: Mini pizza


S: Diet coke, Harvest Snaps, Protein Cookie




Progress as of today: 66.4 lbs lost so far, only 61.6 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 07/21/2017:
Well you had a very interesting day and you have every reason to feel great...lots of really nice things happened and that is one lucky bird. I hope something comes out of the talks with people that suits you......

happy-1 on 07/24/2017:
Hugs. Thanks!!!! I hope so. Have had a good run of several days in a row.

thinnside40 on 07/21/2017:
Sounds like an exciting Friday! I used to like grocery shopping. Prices and peoples attitudes turn me off anymore.

happy-1 on 07/21/2017:
You should try mygrocerydeals.com I just found it today. You can create a list of grocery items and then see the deals near you. It sucked up like 2 hours. I was like YAY!!!!!!

Donkey on 07/22/2017:
That's so cool about the hawk! And good news about the training program. I hope that works out for you. It does sound very promising!

I'm going to have to check out that grocery website. Far too much of my time off from work is consumed with shopping around looking for the best prices...

happy-1 on 07/24/2017:
I really dug it. I did notice Friday night when I went to Food4Less that there were more deals on the shelves than listed in the app, but that might be a quirk of the store to get people to come more often.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/23/2017:
you know how you say you are putting exercise first? that's what i did also this weekend. I didn't plan any other socializing / major activities (just massage lol) besides the most important thing - jogging - not even weights. These days, the importance lies in jogging for me so that i know i am getting better! and you know what!? it's great i just concentrated on the jog....because i did something i hadn't done in YEARS...I ran 1.5 miles non-stop! I felt amazing that i accomplished it! And the only reason i could is because i've been training now for several months...and finally it's paying off! ....i actually need to look back to see how long it took me to get to this point! it feels SO AMAZING!

happy-1 on 07/24/2017:
WOW! You are doing great!

Horn_of_plenty on 07/23/2017:
Awww, that's so nice that the recognized you as helping them out and taking care of that bird...good for you, HAPPY!

I am similar to you - an introvert at heart. I can also fake being an extrovert, but, just like you, it is VERY draining to have to socialize the entire day....i think.

happy-1 on 07/24/2017:
Right? Talking to someone wears me out.

happy-1 - Thursday Jul 20, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 241.6

Day 3 of 42 of prioritizing workouts over everything else.

High stress day today. Kind of buried in the hoard. My dad got me upset last night because he wanted me to learn a technology that nobody is hiring for so that we can bond.? Ihad to be mean and say no... I'll never be able to pay attention to tech that I can't use.

Then I stayed up too late watching Netflix. And spent my morning killing an awful fly infestation. Hours of swatting, spraying, etc. no avail. They just keep coming and I don't know why.

Today is fubar on food, getting things done, and being focused and happy. Recovery plan was to get lunch at Mc Donalds (fly free), sit in car till I feel better, realized I needed socks, came home.

3:14pm - plan is to finish washing dishes and looking for fly source, throwing away simple carbs that have gotten old. Get socks. Drive to hike at 5:30. Go on first 20 min of hike even if I don't feel like it

Went home, found my dad had piled all my stuff in front of the door to keep my dog in and the door open for air. This never works. I don't know why he does it. Telling him it doesn't work started him yelling at me that I should buy him an air conditioner. I offered to do this last summer and he yelled at me all summer not to. I asked him to put my dog in the bathroom while he does that while I wait for the hardware to show to fix the door. He yelled more. As soon as I finished the dishes I left, went to Walmart and bought 2 baby gates to put up in the meantime.

This is why I am broke-ish.

4:15pm - went to taco bell so I will have energy for the hike. Mcdonalds was like 290 calories and not enough food. Got a grilled chicken butrrito for 450 calories and some water.

Just driving straight to the hike.

Progress as of today: 66.4 lbs lost so far, only 61.6 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 07/20/2017:
Getting in some walking is better than not going at all...sometimes just getting started at something is all I need to actually keep going.

happy-1 on 07/20/2017:
Yeah. I'm going to try prioritizing workouts over everything else for 6 weeks and see what happens. I'll count today as day 3 since I went Tuesday.

Today I did it by just leaving when my dad laid into me today when I stopped off at home, taking a bag I am pretty sure has socks in it and running out the door.

thinnside40 on 07/20/2017:
Hopefully you can find some good stress relieving mechanism(s) to help you get in and stay in a routine. Stress stinks!

happy-1 on 07/24/2017:
Hugs. Thank you!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/21/2017:
Hi Happy Lady,

Lol why does your dad even want you to learn technology if it’s not being used? Sometimes I hear my lawyer in my company talking about bonding with his secretary – I think that’s what I am hearing?

You must have a leak in your windows. I used to get TONS of flies coming in my apt when I had the drafty, old windows. They were around 60 years old when they first replaced! So I’d get these big, annoying house flies. They’d be coming in thru the top of the windows because the windows would always get loose and fall down from the top creating an opening at the top. The locks didn’t work well, so the upper part of the windows would always seep downward a hair and flies came in…maybe this is what’s happening to you??

Lol, lately I have to remember socks too when I wear sandals to work and then need to pack socks for jogging / gym. Today I just wore casual, light stylish sneaker type shoes (similar to converse) so I can just wear the socks and have them for later at the gym! Much easier to wear the item and not need to remember to pack it, lol!

Flies are def coming in from outside….especially if your dad keeps the door open! If they are those big flies. Otherwise, just put the fruit and any veggies in the fridge instead of keeping them out…

I also bought a little gate, to keep my hamster from rolling EVERYWHERE in it’s ball…it easily, when I put it in the ball, walks seriously from room to room and I don’t like him going where I cannot see him at all….so I put up a gate and then other items to block the hamster from going everywhere – I might even buy 1 more gate! Lol….so I can easily put it up and down and not move my other items around when I want to prevent the hamster’s ball from rolling thru….? A slight waste of money though….so I’m waiting on that purchase. I keep making extra purchases on clothes on Groupon and food on Amazon….I really need to STOP my purchases for around 1 month of anything that is NOT necessary bc I am seriously wasting my money that I could be saving!

How much were your baby gates from Walmart? I think I paid around 20-30 on groupon for one, but it doesn’t have a lock and it’s not to be connected to a wall….it’s nice…wooden…it’s good for pets that are weak, not strong….a dog could easily knock it over – the one I bought!

Enjoy your hike at the lake…sounds cool!

happy-1 - Wednesday Jul 19, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 241.6

Weight: 244.4

Took 3 hours to get to sleep last night because I was all revved up, despite benadryl and Melatonin. I will have to take it before dinner I guess.

9am: Woke up, took meds and advil. Waited for it to kick in then did two sinks of dishes, made breakfast for everyone, and showered. My dog is going after my dad's gate like crazy. Probably because I made sausages. Had to put her in the bathroom twice. She did get one though.

11: Tried to do call w counselor, she was stuck at an oil change.

Sat in the driveway with the car and AC on for like 15 minutes to destress before driving. It's just super stressful being there. My heart just races and I need to be cool to drive.

Went to store to pick up some fruit punch and a camp mirror. Nobody was available to check me out so I had to ditch it there. Grrrr.

12: Arrived at coworking space. Took me an hour to settle in. I just feel so flustered all the time. But I am being productive. Missed the chance to call back the other school. I'll have to be up early tomorrow to catch her. She called at 7:30 AM.

1: starting work. Meditation task is to finish setting up a meal plan for this upcoming week and pick a service. I'm spending a crazy amount on food. Goal is to finish going through the list of programs and settle on one, then handle the rebills for medical insurance.

S: Blueberries and greek yogurt

3:45: took a couple of minutes to write out what I would want to do if I made a meal planning app in the dev class I want to take. Oops. 2 hours and 45 min later, I have my notes... it is pretty awesome, but also a lot of work. I do think it makes more sense than what I see out there. Maybe it is a startup, maybe it is just a tool that helps me. Either way, I haven't started any of my planned work for the day.

S: Hummus, chicken, carrots, 1 cheese stick

Progress as of today: 66.4 lbs lost so far, only 61.6 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 07/19/2017:
I take up to 10mg Melatonin almost every night. Not necessarily for sleeping, but dentist told me to take that or a muscle relaxer for quality of sleep. Apparently, my teeth show evidence of hard grinding in sleep. After lots of painful weeks of dental work, I heed his advice.

BearCountryGG on 07/19/2017:
Looks like a busy day.

BearCountryGG on 07/19/2017:
Looks like a busy day.

horn_of_plenty on 07/19/2017:
Thank you for sending me hugs :)

happy-1 - Tuesday Jul 18, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 241.6

Up at 6:30! Yes!!!!!!!!! So nice to not start a day kicking myself.


Ok... here's my measurements and calculations.

Weight: 244.6 (3lbs is normal fluctuation. Probably salt in the pizza yesterday)
Height: 5'9"
Activity level: Moderately active... Sedentary job, intense exercise

Neck: 16.5
R Bicep:15
Bust: 45
Chest: 40
Waist: 39
Hips: 45
R Thigh: 27
R Calf: 17.25

Body type from calculator: Straight
BMI for 241.6: 35.7 (Obese, but not morbid anymore. Yay!)
Body fat: 41%
BMR: 1842 / RMR: 2157

Goal: Gain muscle ( I don't really care about fat loss. Fat is fuel.)
Nutrient targets: Calories 2882, Carbs 324, Protein 216, Fat 80

Goal: Fat Loss (If I am trying to lose fat instead of gain muscle then strip off the fat)
Nutrient targets: Calories 1905, Carbs 191, Protein 191, Fat 42

Current physical complaints: Depression, difficulty focusing, fatigue, neck pain + numb fingers on right side, weird rash on feet that might be flea bites, bulging and varicose veins, asthma, hayfever, 

Recent physical achievements: Normal to lower blood pressure, breaking my weight loss plateau, not having to take days to recover after camping.


Woke: 6:30, took meds

B: 10:40... should have eaten when I first got up. Tummy is not happy with me. Protein snack tray: carrots, chicken, hummus, cheese

Worked steadily at the coworking space today, focused on finding training programs recognized by the WIOA. Talked to the EDD about WIOA enrollment. They said I have to already be enrolled. And... Doh... The EDD only continues your benefits while you are enrolled in a WIOA program... It doesn't pay for it. I feel like such a dork. I could swear the New Horizons liason said that there were training grants of up to 7k when I looked at this last year. 

Sigh.  Was laid off May 3. I wasted a lot of time in a depression spiral and neck injury. I've gotten companies up and running in that amount of time. I've also wasted a bunch of money on earthquake preparations, clothes, food I had to toss, and camping gear, as well as going down to Scott's and buying meals and groceries down there. Ugh. Well not wasted, but probably shouldn't have spent it right now.

Hindsight is 20/20.

S: Protein Shake

L: Pollo asada leftovers with refried beans and polenta, salsa, guacamole, salad, ranch dressing.

4pm - Talked to a sales guy at General Assembly about their dev bootcamp. It's $15k and their admissions materials don't screen for high school math skills like functions and algorithyms. Not sure on that one. Instructors will be spread really thin.

Kept working through the list from the EDD. Maybe there will be something cheaper and more appropriate.

5:40 - Changed for hike. Need to leave at 6:30 to be there before 7. I want a cookie. Bad.

-- survived hike but took all the cheat shortcuts. By the time i got home I was starving. Made chinese food(fake chicken strips, cashews, frozen veg, rice noodles, cilantro, jalapenos, stirfry sauce) which I had 2 big servings of and an eggroll. I was so hot and tired and sticky, I took my dinner and ate it in a cold bath. I think I was still chewing as I hosed myself off. My dog was hungry too and kept scratching at the door to say "where's mine?" so I ran out naked, chased her down, picked her up and carried her back in with me, all paws swinging. I think she actually looked shocked.

10pm kind bar

10:30 in bed, lights off. Took Benadryl late. Just can't go anymore. Awesome day.


Extra awesomeness... according to Eat This Much, my calories for yesterday were on target for fat loss without really trying.

Cumulative stats:
189g Carbs

(156g net carbs)

68.2g Fat
113.7g Protein
1814.7 Calories

Progress as of today: 66.4 lbs lost so far, only 61.6 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 07/18/2017:
Looks like you know what you want to achieve...THATS GREAT!!! Good for you with the measurements!!!

happy-1 on 07/18/2017:
Thank you!

thinnside40 on 07/18/2017:
Great to have goals and a determination to go along with them.

happy-1 on 07/18/2017:
Thank you!!!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/19/2017:
Gaining muscle like you wrote above is a GREAT goal. Currently i think i'm losing weight bc i am losing muscle...i miss my 3x a week gym sessions. I currently go 2x per week and feel definitely that i'm getting weaker and need to use 5lb lower in weights :-(....i'm too busy right now to go 3x per week.

happy-1 on 07/19/2017:
Hugs. You will get back there soon.

thinnside40 on 07/19/2017:
Have a good Wednesday!

BearCountryGG on 07/19/2017:
quite the day you had...it wore me out.

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