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happy-1 - Thursday Apr 12, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 225.5

According to the new scale I lost almost 2 lbs today! That's kind of a lot with what I already lost this week, but it's all about averages and I'll take it! My goal is to lose no faster than half a pound a week, burn more fat than muscle, and not end up with extra skin. I really fell off the wagon yesterday. I did another round of meal prep yesterday and it just wore me out. I didn't want to drive spacey so I stayed home from the track workout and the adhd meeting and took my dog for a long walk. I ate off plan... Instead of my planned meals I had a protein cookie, a piece of cheese, a whole box of sweet potato crackers, and 5 squares of dark chocolate. I stayed up till 1 am watching Hulu (Preacher) because I was overtired and really down. Woke up late this AM and my whole body ached... Like I was beaten up. PMS?

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Got all my paperwork in today for the second round of scholarship approvals... Takes 10 days. Fingers and toes crossed!

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Turning down my parent's kind offer to take me to their favorite rib place. It's just an opportunity to overeat or eat off plan.

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Still working on fixing iphone/icloud stuff. Digging out my old digital camera tonight so I can start using that instead of my phone.

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Sensory joy... I pulled my dog's dog bed over to the couch yesterday and it is my foot rest and today she is laying on it and my feet so my toes are warm and toasty in soft blankets and fur and as she breathes I can feel her breaths go in and out and it makes my breathing go slower and I feel very chill.

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Didn't go to bootcamp tonight. I just don't feel so good. I took my dog on a nice long dog walk instead.

Whenever I jump, I feel my kidneys and my uterus bouncing around, I swear. I need to get a complete health audit when I get my cash straightened out. Maybe in tandem with buying disability insurance.

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Just realized that I haven't logged calories or really worked out since Monday and it is end of the day Thursday. I've spent s many days trying to catch up to meal prep from not going shopping Friday, I feel like I will never catch up... But weirdly I just lost a couple of pounds so why am I down about this... other than that I am trying to build up to getting everything done in a day that when I look at a paper, it looks like I should have time for.  I feel like I consistently get nothing done. 

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The guy I thought was cool off JustOKcupid doesn't want to meet up tomorrow. Yikes... He said I needed to take a hint and not call back. OUCH!  He sent me weird **** for days and I was pretty chatty with him... but he doesn't want to get a cup of coffee with me? Sigh... I deleted all his texts and calls from my phone so that I don't accidentally drunk dial him. Not that I get drunk... but you know what I mean.

I miss having a life, a love life, and freedom.  How did I decide to throw away 3 years of that? I remember how great it was to have an apartment with a jacuzzi. Augh.

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11:28pm... bedtime meditation... The place to start with getting back on track...

3 gratitudes: 1) That the case manager is helping me get to the second round (for the third time) for the scolarship. 2) That my ex wants to see me on his time off next week. It feels really good to be included.

Efforts I can take pride in for fitness today: Even though I skipped my bootcamp, I did go for the hour-long walk with my dog. I packed a cooler full of food to stay on-plan and also meal-prepped egg cups for 2nd breakfast for the week. I am also just forgiving myself for today and trying again tomorrow. If I can pull it together, I will get my crown put on in the AM. I really shouldn't put that off. 

1 selfless act I did today: Sent my meal prep plan to my case manager. I might send it to her for next week too. We live in the same area so our sales are the same. I also didn't let my dad go out to put out trash barrels in the driving wind. I went out there and did it, toughed it out.

Obstacles and how I will over come them: Not having my own space for my own life, iphone issues, exhaustion, weird feeling in the abdominal area when I jump.

My vision for what it will be like when I achieve my fitness goal: I will sleep and wake like clockwork. I won't get sucked into the spin of anxiety and depression. I will have a guy that really likes me (this is a dangerous thing to think here because I have always gotten into a bad relationship everytime I got skinny).

My intention for tomorrow: Rise to the occasion.

How I will work heroicly tomorrow: Suck it up, hit the bank, hit the dentist, hit Corner Bakery and get myself a goddamn brownie, hit DA, then see if K is free and see a goddamn movie and have a goddamn grls night.

Mantra for tomorrow: Living ain't for sissies

Progress as of today: 82.5 lbs lost so far, only 45.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/12/2018:
Congrats on the loss

happy-1 on 04/12/2018:
Ty! Excited... as long as I only have 1 week like this a month or so.

happy-1 on 04/12/2018:
BCGG - How tall are you? I'm 5'10. We're at similar weights.


horn_of_plenty on 04/12/2018:
you are on a major roll this month! way to go!

If you continue this route, you'll be under 200 lbs by the end of this year maybe...or just a little over that time! how cool would that be!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy-1 on 04/12/2018:
Errrgh not cool because then I'd be losing muscle not just fat? I have "chubby muscles" or intramuscular adipose tissue, which can decrease insulin sensitivity, increase inflammation, reduce recovery from training, and decrease strength. The only way to get that off is to go slow and keep all the muscle you can.


horn_of_plenty on 04/12/2018:
did you know that you and BCGG weigh similar weights?

happy-1 on 04/12/2018:
I just realized that!!!!


trishpiglet3 on 04/12/2018:
Admirable goals, awesome progress :)

happy-1 on 04/12/2018:
Thank you!!! Slow and steady wins the race!


Maria7 on 04/12/2018:
Congrats on your new lower number.

happy-1 on 04/12/2018:
TY!!!!!


bearcountrygg on 04/12/2018:
To answer your question above, I'm 5 '4"...and probably more like 5'3" now...I'm shrinking.

happy-1 on 04/12/2018:
Aaaaaaw... You're not shrinking... you're just getting more concentrated!


Donkey on 04/12/2018:
My fingers and toes are crossed, holding my breath, sayin' my prayers for you... Ooh keep us updated!

I really like the idea of a "sensory joy" -- every once in a while, I get those, but I've never given these instances their proper respect. I really ought to.

happy-1 on 04/12/2018:
They are so rare and fleeting but they make everything worth it.

Like I recently figured out that 6pm is the best time to go for a dog walk... The sun is low enough that I am not miserable and antsy and you can see all the the cute things people have done to their houses.



happy-1 - Wednesday Apr 11, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 227.2

Moving it down another .2 lbs!!! Woo hoo! Got up at 6:30 with my alarm and took meds and then promptly passed out again... woke up at 8 on my own and feeling a lot better. Normal today.

I think I need to plan that days in between workouts are just long dog walks and that's it. I think the day after I just need to expect to be completely out of it and not beat myself up over it. I'll get my fitness level up... that even if I don't feel too sore to move I am mentally wiped out. So... Bootcamp days become "Do" days with critical things scheduled during the day and the day after is "give yourself a break" day... only tasks that involve putting yourself back together. I also think I need to go shopping on the day that I have two full sets of meals left, then cook on the day that I have one day left. Trying to do it on the day I am out just makes me go off plan.

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5 little mousies down. This one was bigger. Getting the rat-sized sticky ones today. Worried about poison and not being able to find the bodies in the horde, so I only want the sticky traps... But I don't know where they are. This one my dog herded into the trap again. I heard her banging about in the kitchen and then squeaking so I went to check it out. She was so proud.

My dog is ape**** to get into my parents' rooms. Spending the day with her dog bed at my feet and her leashed to my ankle (Not bothering with getting out the crate and shutting her in the bathroom seems mean. She seems to be fine with this compromise).

I think my parents aren't clearing their dishes every day and hiding them because I will come in and look for them at night when it is time to wash dishes before bed and they don't want me to know how much they have been eating in addition to the 2 meals a day I do for them... or that they are buying bread, donuts, cakes, and cookies.  They also both like to eat/graze in bed and in front of their computers... which is just gross to me. We have a perfectly functional kitchen table. 

This is why they are 400lbs each and can't move and are terribly ill. I wish I could get them to an OA meeting. I don't overeat now that my calories and timing are on track but my parents... You'd have to pour gas on a Hostess cupcake to get them to not eat it. Maybe not even that would work.

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HA HA HA... Have been texting a new guy I met on JustOKcupid and he was trying to figure out how much food I should pack to go backpacking (did I mention I really like this one?) and based on my photos he thought I was like 160lbs to go with my 5'10"  height... Aw. How sweet is he?

Also ADHD... Former EMT turned substitute teacher and working on his credential. Likes backpacking and outdoors stuff and some of the same radio/internet statons.

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I think I need to tier some prizes for myself to go with the rating scale for being on track over the course of a week. If I have 16 health actions a day, that's 112 points a week.

100% - $100 splurge

80%+ - $25 splurge

60%+ - $15 splurge

25%+ $5 splurge

Last week I scored 76% so that's a $15 splurge. Enough for a mini AM/FM radio so I don't run down the battery on my phone with iHeartRadio, spotify or iTunes.

Holding off on the REI store credit. Maybe they will issue a 20% off coupon in fall when I am working (I hope).

Progress as of today: 80.8 lbs lost so far, only 47.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/11/2018:
It is fun to watch ourselves and each other figure things out....if we really pay attention we will get the answers to how we need to do things...and what suits us the best. Glad you saw the scales drop again.

happy-1 on 04/11/2018:
Trying to figure out a "structure" around which to pattern my to do list for productivity. Part of the reason I am tracking energy levels, meals, sleep, and spending by hour. Worksheets will reveal all!


Maria7 on 04/11/2018:
Congratulations on your progress!

happy-1 on 04/11/2018:
TY! Incremental, tiny progress is still progress!


Donkey on 04/11/2018:
You're making really good progress -- keep up the good work!

happy-1 on 04/11/2018:
Ty! Just grinding it out.



happy-1 - Tuesday Apr 10, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 227.4

I lost .6 lbs! Slow and steady! Woke up this morning and my dog wasn't in bed with me and I freaked out about being 40 and single and panicked. Thought better of going into the workforce center in that state plus I should probably give my case manager 24h with the paperwork before I show up unannounced. Also, discovered that I cannot handle the combo of coffee and broccoli inthe same meal first thing in the am and I need to switch back to oatmeal. Augh.

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Wiped out most of my earlier joural entry. Was weirdly exhausted all day and just down. It took me forever to make chili and clean it up... just wasn't feeling very well. Missed my workout and DA. I think tomorrow I just need to get out for coffee right away, not stick around at all. Not get sucked in.

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3 grats: parents, dog, guy off Okcupid who made me laugh

Progress as of today: 80.6 lbs lost so far, only 47.4 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 04/10/2018:
Many congrats!

happy-1 on 04/10/2018:
Ty!


bearcountrygg on 04/10/2018:
Happy to see a loss on the scales.

happy-1 on 04/10/2018:
Ty!!! I can only control the things I can control. Right now that is my body.


Donkey on 04/10/2018:
Well done! I hope you're not getting sick... Try to rest up. You're doing so well.

happy-1 on 04/10/2018:
Hugs. Ty!!! I don't think I'm sick, I think I'm just fat and trying to do more because I feel better and not used to it yet.


Maria7 on 04/10/2018:
So happy for you fitting into your goal jeans! Congrats to you! :-)

happy-1 on 04/11/2018:
Ty! One goal dress and 2 goal tshirts left!!!


trishpiglet3 on 04/11/2018:
WooHOo! Well done for all your hard work :)

happy-1 on 04/12/2018:
TY! Getting there!



happy-1 - Monday Apr 09, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 228.0

Doing well today! I fit into my size 14 Lucky Brand goal jeans that I bought on clearance a couple of years ago this morning, no muffin topping! I have been trying them on periodically but even though I could get them zipped up I couldn't wear them out because I had a huge gut donut. I paired them with a pretty cotton tunic (only a size L!) that was white with blue anchors and a pair of tan heeled sandals. Loved being completely comfortable... and wearing pants that weren't trying to escape!

Bought a regular digital scale at Costco tonight with store credit for $14.99. I can't take not having a scale and my mom isn't picking out what she wants as a replacement... and the fancy one from kmart was open. Yuck.

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Bedtime meditation

3gs - 1) the money to pay for food and gas today. 2) making it to oc and back in 1 piece. 3) my parents. 4) my dog ate all her dinner tonight.

Things I can take pride in for improving my fitness: 1) dental care, 2) eating on plan, 3) packing my lunch the night before, 5) switching to coconut cream instead of half and half for my coffee... with stevia and cinnamon it is pretty good, 6) limiting cardio at bootcamp to 1h, 7) getting up at 7:30, 8) getting 9h of sleep, 10) putting the tv on a timer so that I can't accidentally stay up till 2am watching tv

Obstacles: iPhone f-d up, exhaution, not enough focus to sustain me throughout the day, The Circus.

My vision for what it will be like when I am fit: I will have even, sustained energy throughout the day and not lose focus. I will complete my reasonable to do list for the day. I will not sit and stare into space because I am too wiped to think. Simply driving an hour will not be more exhausting than biking an hour. I will have a banging fit body and an amazing after photo.

Intent for tomorrow: forward hustle

How I will work heroically: I will be up early and at the edd office by 8. I will push on the qa training. I will go home after and meal prep the stuff I bought at Costco tonight. I will do my Apple support appointment tomorrow and get my iPhone fixed. I will take my dog with me to the park by my DA meeting early and do my workout.

Progress as of today: 80 lbs lost so far, only 48 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/10/2018:
YEAH YOU!!!! What a wonderful post!!!!! And how great that you are fitting in smaller sizes...that's what it's all about...getting healthy and happy and PROUD!!!! You are on a roll...keep it going!!!

happy-1 on 04/13/2018:
TY! Hugs. Catching up on all the coments and logs.


horn_of_plenty on 04/10/2018:
nice job getting a ton done...maybe sometimes try less, as you said you are, in order to not be so tired that you are sleeping in !!!!!!! just a weird tip that i thought of this morning...

but other than that....a huge congrats on your weightloss success!!!!!!!!!!!

happy-1 on 04/13/2018:
Yeah, I feel like I should be able to get it all done, but the reality is getting anything done is a miracle.


Donkey on 04/10/2018:
Woo hoo!! You are amazing! Keep up the good work!!!


Maria7 on 04/10/2018:
Congrats on fitting into your goal jeans!



happy-1 - Monday Apr 09, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 228.0

Doing well today! I fit into my size 14 Lucky Brand goal jeans that I bought on clearance a couple of years ago this morning, no muffin topping! I have been trying them on periodically but even though I could get them zipped up I couldn't wear them out because I had a huge gut donut. I paired them with a pretty cotton tunic (only a size L!) that was white with blue anchors and a pair of tan heeled sandals. Loved being completely comfortable... and wearing pants that weren't trying to escape!

Bought a regular digital scale at Costco tonight with store credit for $14.99. I can't take not having a scale and my mom isn't picking out what she wants as a replacement... and the fancy one from kmart was open. Yuck.

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Bedtime meditation

3gs - 1) the money to pay for food and gas today. 2) making it to oc and back in 1 piece. 3) my parents. 4) my dog ate all her dinner tonight.

Things I can take pride in for improving my fitness: 1) dental care, 2) eating on plan, 3) packing my lunch the night before, 5) switching to coconut cream instead of half and half for my coffee... with stevia and cinnamon it is pretty good, 6) limiting cardio at bootcamp to 1h, 7) getting up at 7:30, 8) getting 9h of sleep, 10) putting the tv on a timer so that I can't accidentally stay up till 2am watching tv

Obstacles: iPhone f-d up, exhaution, not enough focus to sustain me throughout the day, The Circus.

My vision for what it will be like when I am fit: I will have even, sustained energy throughout the day and not lose focus. I will complete my reasonable to do list for the day. I will not sit and stare into space because I am too wiped to think. Simply driving an hour will not be more exhausting than biking an hour. I will have a banging fit body and an amazing after photo.

Intent for tomorrow: forward hustle

How I will work heroically: I will be up early and at the edd office by 8. I will push on the qa training. I will go home after and meal prep the stuff I bought at Costco tonight. I will do my Apple support appointment tomorrow and get my iPhone fixed. I will take my dog with me to the park by my DA meeting early and do my workout.

Progress as of today: 80 lbs lost so far, only 48 lbs to go!


happy-1 - Sunday Apr 08, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 228.0

Woke up at 7:30 AM today... Which is good! I only had 5.5h of sleep though so I am running on a big sleep deficit for the week. It was better to wake up and get my day started than sleep in though... I need to get back on track and the best way to do that is to "feel" like I am back on track.  

I was up on time to go to services but didn't go because when I opened my eyes, all I could see was the mess I had made throughout the week trying to get something done and not finishing everything it takes to do the nightly reset because there were too many dishes in the sink each night and I was going to bed at 1 and 2 am as it was. UGH. The price of clutter. Would be interesting to see how big it would be if I put everything that I see in the AM that is "extra" in a pile... 

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Answer: It is about the size of a queen size bed... and it was hiding more mice. Put out traps.

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Decided next that the most essential thing I could do today is contact Apple support and try to get my iphone working again. Ugh... apparently nothing is working right and they had to escalate to a specialist. 

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Bedtime Meditation

3 gratitudes: 1) That I got it together enough to start tackling this computer/phone thing because I went to the DA meeting yesterday... so thank you to the people that ran it. 2) That I can keep trying again tomorrow. 3) That there is a bootcamp at 7 tomorrow and hopefully I can make it if I get back from OC in time (dentist). 4) The people on this board who cheer me on.

Efforts I can take pride in for my fitness today: 1) I got up at 7:30. 2) I tried to stay on target and my only cheat was a top ramen packet. 3) I took my dog fo a nice long walk and we found a new park to go to... she didn't pull or fight to not go home today.

Selfless act: I dunno if it was selfless, but I took my dad to the grocery store and helped him find what he was looking for. I did not participate or indulge him when he lost it on me later and said I make everyone's life miserable and am a ****ty person. I just grabbed my purse and got a burger and came home an hour later. The trip was too much for him to handle and he was tired.

Obstacles: Not enough sleep, adhd overwhelm, clutter/the horde, not having my own space, money, not feeling physically good. iCloud/iPhone storage is maxed and I can't use any apps on my phone including audible which means it is harder to get to sleep.

Vision for what it will be like when I achieve my fitness goal: I will stick to my priorities and have more fun. I will wake up right away and not feel like I am dragging along. I will fall asleep easily.

My intention for tomorrow: Take care of needful things.

How I will work heroically tomorrow: Get my temp crown fixed, fix my phone, track down training application.

Progress as of today: 80 lbs lost so far, only 48 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 04/08/2018:
i do agree that actually getting up and out of bed on the weekend may be better than sleeping in for feeling like you are back on track :)


bearcountrygg on 04/08/2018:
Agreed...sometimes staying in bed feels more like hiding....better to get up and be productive.

happy-1 on 04/08/2018:
Ok. Next question. Better to get up and clean or better to get up and go to services?

Cleaning needs to get done and I am sharpest in the morning. But it also can turn into an all day thing because the horde is bottomless and moving things to clean creates more to clean. Have been at just my stuff for 2h already. Granted part of that was pulling everything extra to the front door. Turns out it makes a pile about the size of a queen sized bed.

Religious stuff aside... productivity and anti-depression only... Services are social and make you feel connected with the community, part of something, and help you get over yourself. 9am services are more populated than 5pm services.


Donkey on 04/08/2018:
I vote go to services. You'll get more done if you're centered. At least, that's how I am.

happy-1 on 04/08/2018:
ok. will try that


bearcountrygg on 04/08/2018:
I think the most productive thing is the thing that makes you happiest.....you want the social and in my opinion...the 2 best places to meet people is at school and at church. I always leave church feeling good. Since church services are at specific times.....you go then...at other times you can clean. When it comes to cleaning...I try not to pile anything that I want gone.....trash goes in a trash bag and goes straight to the garbage can when it's full...or when I'm done for the day. Donation stuff here goes straight to the car...and the next time I'm going past a drop off place it gets dropped off. If I piled stuff up...I would just keep moving the pile over and over again...I have to get it out of the house.

happy-1 on 04/08/2018:
Yeah... It's not all mine though and it's not trash... It's stuff that should be donated... but... hoarders.


Maria7 on 04/09/2018:
Hope you have a good day.



happy-1 - Sunday Apr 08, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 228.0

Went to a DA vision board workshop today. It was pretty cool and met some nice folks. They had TONS of magazines and there was a lot to choose from. I just pulled pictures as they appealed to me, but a lot of the stuff really didn't nail down my own peculiar taste, except for what was in Sierra Magazine. I'll probably have to go through my Pinterest boards to find images of what appeals to me. It was very peaceful to sit and flip through magazines though.

I missed a workout today and had extra snacks last night. So far I'm at a 3% calorie deficit for the week... but hey. It's still a deficit and I will conquer tomorrow.

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So it turns out if I don't post it here... I don't actually do the bedtime meditation. At all. Here we go again.

3 gratitudes: 1) For the money to pay for the things I needed this week to get on track with my fitness goals and my parent's support in that. 2) For my dog who spent a saturday bored at home while I went to the vision meeting. 3) For the people working hard to keep that group going.

Efforts I can take pride in for my fitness today: 1) I packed a cooler the night before with all my food for today and dook it with me. I stayed on track and ignored all the cakes, cookies, pizza, pasta, sugar laden salads and other diet pitfalls. 2) When I went on my crappy OKcupid date after ("OMG you're so tall!" Yeah bonehead, it's in my profile. there are even photos of me standing next to short people.). I did not let peer pressure make me order coffee or a sugary drink at starbucks. I just had water and added some of it to my protein shaker. 3) I got back on track with diet after last nights insomnia-induced midnight snacks. 4) I sat and journaled about fitness instead of watching tv.

Selfless act: I knew it would be a cold day in hell before I ever nailed my OKcupid date so I used my starbucks gift card to buy him a sugar-laden drink and order myself a water.

Obstacles: Not enough sleep. Money.

Vision for what it will be like when I achieve my fitness goal: I will meet guys in events and groups that interest me. I will not have to fish on JustOKcupid.

My intention for tomorrow: Celebrate my doggie. Show her a good time. Be a good provider.

How I will work heroically tomorrow: I will take my dog to the dog park and let her sniff and explore the geese. We will get burgers or costco hotdogs after. I will try to get to church for 5pm services and work on my spiritual self care.

Progress as of today: 80 lbs lost so far, only 48 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/08/2018:
YEAH YOU!!!!!!!! Celebrate yourself!!! You deserve it!!!!! You found ways around the lack of pictures!!! You met some new people and you found a jerk and brushed him off!!!!! Yes..meet new people in person...become friends because you have similar goals.....and have some fun...and a big plus on resisting the unhelpful food!!!! GO YOU!!!!

happy-1 on 04/08/2018:
Thanks for the cheering on!


Donkey on 04/08/2018:
I agree with BearCountry - WOO HOO!!!!!

How about starting a blog about bad dates? Bad Date Blues Blog... You did really well food-wise on the date, btw. Give yourself some props on that :-)

happy-1 on 04/08/2018:
Hah!!!! How about "Meal Prep for 1"?


Maria7 on 04/08/2018:
Hope you have a good day today.

happy-1 on 04/08/2018:
hugs! You too!


Horn_of_plenty on 04/08/2018:
Donkey's suggestion is quite funny ;)

I think your vision fitness goal is cool - to meet guys at the events you participate in. Seems very logical and also a bold and confident thing to say which i do think is wonderful bc it's something i do not do but think it's a WONDERFUL skill and way to be social, positive, and enjoy life - just a few reasons why it's so great.

happy-1 on 04/08/2018:
That's funny. I'd think you would be a magnet.



happy-1 - Friday Apr 06, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 228.0

Day 5 is Friday and a REST DAY... OMG I NEED IT BAD. 

Not so much because "everything hurts and I'm dying" but because meal prepping, actually eating and washing dishes for 6 meals a day, doing a 15-20 min toning routine and an hour of cardio a day, being horribly too tired to do anything of value, being too sore to move, then chasing or being chased by my parents/dog/dog+parents/parents+dog, and routine visits from The Circus... OMG. I HAVE GOTTEN PRACTICALLY NOTHING DONE ALL WEEK!!!

As part of my worksheets I am tracking what I actually accomplish hour by hour a day and then giving myself points for productivity... I got a couple of things done on Monday... but then NOTHING FOR 3 DAYS!!! They all have various cloud shapes with whatever chaos happened and how long it took me to recover from it. AUGH.  I think I might need to give myself an extra rest day and cheat meal a week while I work up to this just so that I stay productive.

Couldn't face Costco on a Friday. Went to Trader Joes and got basics. Will shoot for Sunday night.

BUT...

  • I am in the second round of my third scholarship atempt... this time for QA retraining. 
  • I am getting control of all my personal business stuff, one step at a time. Everything critical got done this week... for once.
  • The photo collages are great motivation to be on track and also help remind me what I ate for counting calories eod or next day.
  • The worksheets I made are really helping
  • I found an adult adhd support group. Trying that next week...
  • I'm not sure DA is the right place for me. I have never once just sat there hoping that someone else would pay my rent. Going to a workshop tomorrow and mabe I will figure out if it is right for me.
  • I'm burning enough fat that I had to buy new workout bras this week. I also splurged on replacement shoelaces... because I wore the ones that came with my shoes out!!!!! Getting my money's worth.
  • I had a store credit at KMART and used it to get a new bathroom scale! For $20 you get a scale that measures body fat, body water, bone mass and BMI, includes bone mass analysis... GEEZ. 

Now I just need to figure out what to spend my $100 REI member credit on before the 20% off coupon expires on the 9th!!!!!!!!

  • $260 for a $450 item... Inreach satellite GPS and text messaging? https://www.rei.com/product/119863/garmin-inreach-explorer-satellite-communicator
  • Bear-safe Yeti cooler?
  • Portable electric fridge?
  • Binoculars? 
  • Decent mountain bike?
  • Don't go overboard and just wait till another one comes out in the fall when I might be employed?

Trying out a mantra: Grit don't quit!

 (Scale: http://www.kmart.com/conair-weight-watcher-s-by-conair-glass-body-fat/p-005W005729273002P?plpSellerId=Kmart&prdNo=3&blockNo=3&blockType=G3)

Progress as of today: 80 lbs lost so far, only 48 lbs to go!

trishpiglet3 on 04/07/2018:
We can only ever do so much in a day. Rest days and cheat meals sound great... it's what we do most of the time that makes a difference. You are doing awesome

happy-1 on 04/08/2018:
TY!


bearcountrygg on 04/07/2018:
Creating new habits is basically what it all comes down to...have fun spending that card>>>>!!!!!

happy-1 on 04/07/2018:
Yeah... The portable electric fridge would be great because then all I need is a battery bank and a solar panel and I can stop screwing around with ice... but also keep my dad's insulin cold in an earthquake... but still $626 after coupon and credit before tax. Plus to power it I need to sink in another $450 on Amazon for a panel and bank... But all fit in my car for camping also. ($1076 outlay)

The Inreach Satellite GPS would be good to allow me to go camping and still be in touch for recruiters/school, but not as useful for emergencies at home... I'd need 2... One to leave at home for my mom and one to have in the car. ($710 outlay)

Planning on buying 2 Baofeng ham radios for fun and learning HAM (after I get an FCC license) if I make it through the 60 day challenge 80% on track or better.

happy-1 on 04/08/2018:
The Baofengs are only like $140 outlay...

What do you think, prepper lady?


Donkey on 04/07/2018:
I'm quite impressed with what you have accomplished, even if it feels like you haven't done so. The ADHD support group sounds so promising - I hope it's a good fit. Also, along those lines, I would encourage you to keep trying DA - even if it's not for you, sometimes it's good to be around other people, hearing their stories and struggles. Helps put your own situation into its proper perspective.

happy-1 on 04/07/2018:
The vision board thing today was pretty cool. Met some nice folks.



happy-1 - Thursday Apr 05, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 228.0

Super tired so a short post. Day 4 of 60. 4 solid days in a row on track. Have to do a grocery run tomorrow. Might limit it to chicken, sweet potatoes and eggs to keep life aimple.

Progress as of today: 80 lbs lost so far, only 48 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/06/2018:
Sounds like a plan!!!

happy-1 on 04/06/2018:
:-) Love how on-target you always are. Reminds me to be.


horn_of_plenty on 04/06/2018:
Keep it Simple Stupid is the name of the game! The simpler, usually the easier it is to remain on track!!!

But, you will not buy any veggies!?

happy-1 on 04/06/2018:
I was crazy hungry the other day and the only thing I needed was spinach... so I bought an ENORMOUS bag... A normal bag is only like 2 servings and I'm eating 2 cups of spinach or broccoli at every meal, 6 meals a day... that's 84 cups a week. But it doesn't last long once you open the bag so I figure that I'll just get the veggies next trip.


Donkey on 04/06/2018:
Go get 'em!!! Donkey is cheering you ON!

happy-1 on 04/06/2018:
TY!


graindart on 04/06/2018:
The more successful days in a row you can get, the more addicting it can become. A few weeks ago I was at a point where I was wavering. (I still have certain days that I question whether it's worth it or not.) But today I'm on a successful 24th day in a row for food intake & exercise. Seeing the number go up daily helps keep me motivated because I really don't want to go back to zero again.

happy-1 on 04/06/2018:
Nice! That's the Seinfeld theory of productivity... Don't break the chain.


bearcountrygg on 04/06/2018:
OKAY...a Granny warning here...did you know that eating spinach daily can cause kidney stones??????

happy-1 on 04/06/2018:
Ok. Will break it up with broccoli, kale, and arugula



happy-1 - Tuesday Apr 03, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 228.0

OMG... That bootcamp class was intense. I did push myself to make sure I broke a sweat and maxed out my muscles to the point where they don't hold anymore, and I was appropriately rewarded... with horrible muscle soreness about 2h later that was soooo bad I was up till 2:30 AM just ready to break... even though I took glucosamine after... I held it together by doing the photo collage and looking at the photos so I could be happy with myself for being on track and stay in that mindset and not suddenly start eating. It worked well! I didn't break and go for the chicken top ramen in my bear barrel or eat an extra meal. All I had when I got home was my 6th meal for the day which I planned as yogurt but it seemed like too much to eat so I just had a protein shake from that new Musclemilk probiotic vanilla mix I got at Costco... and I was really surprised at how good it is! I read online today that I should have had more carbs afterwards, like an apple or other fruit. (https://www.healthline.com/health/fitness-exercise/what-to-eat-after-cardio#5) 

I did sleep really late though... If I was working I would have worked from home... I was so sore I really thought I had pulled a ligament but after coffee and oatmeal I feel a lot better.

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So far I have drowned 3 mice. I know I have to do it, that I have to put out sticky traps to fight back, and once they are in a sticky trap, they are struggling and it is the fastest way to end the cruelty... but at one point in my life I was vegan and went out of my way for animals. Now I eat meat and dairy multiple times daily. I keep thinking about The Good Place... an awesome TV show. Ellen in her enlightenment becomes a vegan and saves bugs.

Sigh.

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Just realized this is my 7th time through the challenge... And I'm just now starting to catch up to all the habits I had to build to do it.

 

Progress as of today: 80 lbs lost so far, only 48 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/03/2018:
Are you drinking enough water?

happy-1 on 04/03/2018:
Oooh I didn't even think of that... I buy gallon bottles of water and try to drink 1 a day (LA is arid, even if you are inside and I do near constant chores all day so I need a gallon) but with the mouse stuff I bet I got stressed and distracted and am not drinking enough. I'll add it to my photos so I keep track.


horn_of_plenty on 04/04/2018:
i ended up with horrible injuries taking a bootcamp class because it got me in shape so fast, my muscles didn't have time to increase and my tendons were doing more of the work. That class, in combo with my own increase in running, led to horrible shin splints that lasted for over two years as i never rested them enough for them to go away fully. Finally they are better and I am back to working on my leg strength and starting up running once again :)


horn_of_plenty on 04/04/2018:
those classes tend to be very good...very intense...sometimes they push you past your limits...which can be good and bad.


Donkey on 04/04/2018:
Hope the soreness goes away soon!



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