Having an "end of my rope" day. This is an illusion because everything is fixable... I just need to wake up tomorrow and try again. ---- Volunteered at the food bank again today. Weirdly stress and anxiety reducing.., but also daunting at the volume of cleanup for the yard sale. I kept sitting down to take breaks and having to pee. Think maybe my uti might be coming back.
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Have to remember to have a huge dinner available after the food bank so i don't binge on junk food.
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When you can't make anything go better... go to bed.
-- B: oatmeal, coffee, half and half L: mp- spinach salad S: mp-hummus and ceg S: mp-yogurt berries and granola D exhaution meal - lean cuisine spaghetti, 6 meatballs and a minni pizza extra cheese, brownie
Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
Eyes poppedopen at 4:30 am this morning and I couldn't get back to sleep. Might as well start my day.
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Having a hard time finding things to apply to that fulfill UI requirements... In tech it is a game of "attractant" applications. You have to have a profile and publish work online to get recruited. The jobs listed on indeed and other sites are usually there to disqualify candidates from hire... so I have to look at jobs, see what I might not totally be miserable if I got a call from a recruiter and have to pass on, then apply and list it for the EDD.
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S: 4:30 AM Coffee half and half, mocha mix, breakfast tray i tucked in freezer to experiment with freezing eggs
B: 8AM - Big bowl of oatmeal, walnuts, raisins, protein powder, coffee, mocha mix
S: Skipped
L: 12:30 - Frozen meal prep - Chicken chili verde
S: too hungry to think, can't leave because I have to wait for bake sale goods to cool so I can cut and bag them. Nails were wet so I grabbed whatever was in front 3:30: potato salad, coleslaw hotlink
d: mini pizza
s: 7pm turkey burger, veg, cheese
Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
Oh my... met up with a fellow off Okcupid. As close to love at first sight as I am ever likely to get. He gives one hell of a hug, I will say that. Oh my oh my oh my... seeing him Sunday. How fun is that? Too bad he goes back to work in Croatia in two weeks.
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Mom did a protein run to be kind to me. Aaaaaw.
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B: coffee, half n half, 3 eggs, 1 sausage S: yogurt, granola L: skipped S: cliff bar, water D: edamame pasta, sauce, 3 meatballs, parmesan, veggies S: 1 mini pizza stolen from my mom
Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
Cranky today. Idiot church group hangover. Plus Dad always asks what our plans for dinner are and that always starts a fight unless I am making dinner. Got out to use the Internet and went to Freebirds. Was going to go to target after but I'll go tomorrow on my way home from the bootcamp.
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B: Oatmeal with Raisins and Walnuts
L: Apple and Peanut Butter
D: Burrito Bowl splurge at Freebirds to get out and use Internet.
Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
do you have internet at home? or you like to leave home just for change of atmosphere?
Ditching the church group. Vapid.
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B: yogurt, granola
L: hummus cup, carrots, oatmeal
S: kfc
D: 2 mini pizza,
S: froyo
Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
Still going to volunteer at the food bank. I liked them.
Sigh--- contacted a few people on Craigslist and Offerup to see if they would donate their tables and canopies to the food bank if they are unable to sell them. Got a bunch of angry responses that I am welcome to buy them and donate them. I responded "I am sorry to hear about your cousin and his situation. I lost my job about a year ago. I've baked some brownies and cookies for the yard sale this weekend and maybe a few rounds of baked goods will raise enough money to buy a canopy if one cannot be donated." Then I got back from the guy that he'd lost his good job of 14 years and he's working as a sub with 2 year olds and changing diapers at 50.
I can't blame them. I get irate when people offer me $5 for something I've listed for $80... but if a church, mosque, temple, or other non-profit contacted me for something I'd listed online for a yard sale, why they wanted it, and the work they do in the community, I'd probably donate the item. Mazeltov.
If I didn't want to donate it, I'd probably just ignore it. I definitely wouldn't one up them with how miserable my life was.
I don't want to buy the canopy and tables myself because I am just getting started getting to know these people and I have no idea how they manage their resources. Do they not have tables for their yard sale because they sold them? I have no idea. I'll throw in like $50 on this, time to ask for donations, maybe a little gas money to pick items up, but not $500.
Oh well. Here's to lightening my soul so I lighten my ass. Being a better person so I like myself better and come across better in job interviews. I'm trying. My 2am attack of the lonelies is going to drive me up the wall.
A bowl of top ramen would probably knock me out, but Iam too full to eat.
Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
hey, take a breath, feel better..
Pulled the trigger on an Amazon order that had been sitting in my cart forever. A double camping pad to satisf my dog's incessant pushing to be on the same pad as me, a half slip to make it possible to wear a nice dress I bought months ago, a map to the Angeles front country, and some stevia orange-mango drink packets.
Had such a hard time packing food for that camping trip I didn't go on out of my pantry. I need to get a few odds and ends to make that easier.
Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
and enjoy your purchases....i also go to amazon so often...it's so easy to get like anything & everything you could ever want!...so much easier than driving around store to store around my community could take hours to get all the interesting and helpful things i order!
W: 234.0, after a cup of coffee, wet hair, semi-dressed.
Up: 7, but so sore I didn't get moving till 9:20pm.
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I think God rewarded me for volunteering at the food bank today. As my mom started harrassing me with her research into online dating today and why I am single (she says they must not feel like I really understand and connect with them, my response they don't feel like I connect with them becase I hate them), I was already breakfasted/coffeed, dressed with makeup, nail polish, and hair. Poof! I was out the door and on my way to starbucks. I didn't even accidentally let my dog out who was desperate to come with me.
Can't catch me, I'm the gingerbread man.
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S: 7:30 coffee, half n half,
B: 9:30 seltzer 3 eggs, olive oil, hot link, spinach. should have had 1/3 cup beans according to diet plan, but wasn't that on the ball yet.
S: 11:30 Coffee, half n half, brownie
L: skipped
S: skipped
D: 2 slices of pizza, seltzer
S: diet punch, chicken verde, rice, beans, cheese... first time freezing an f-d up recipe has ever worked out for me. That was delicious.
Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
It's raining men! Hallelujah!
Volunteered at that food bank yesterday. They are a little disorganized but good people. They have a yard sale every saturday from their bags and bags of donated clothes that I helped with. They weren't purging what they couldn't sell at the end of the day so they were constantly pulling things out and stuffing them back in again and again and had a storage container that had clothes and food mixed in. I got them to bag things thet wouldn't sell so it can go to Savers for sale by the pound, and separate out their donations into mens/womens/baby. I'll go pick up some smaller tarps at the dollar store this week and go back next saturday to help them set up again. Hopefully it will boost their sales. They make about $200-400 a sale and it covers gas and other fees that they have for collecting and distributing food.
It was a really good workout. 3,500 calories, 15,207 steps, 7.1 miles.
I dunno if the church group will come help. so far I am not impressed.
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Augh. Saw a mouse in the kitchen scurry under the floorboards. Have to put out traps.
Stress...
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Woke - 7, but I was in a lot of pain from yesterday so I went back to bed till 10. Spent the day picking up stuff in the living room and doing dishes. How do I keep making such a mess all the time?
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10am - coffee
1pm 3 eggs, 2 cups spinach, 1 hot link
4:30pm, chicken, rice beans, cheese, stevia soda.
5:30 - yogurt, berries, paleo granola
9pm - chocolate frozen yogurt
Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
3am. Can't sleep. All packed for camping. Food is kind of gross but it is in the bear barrel and ready to go. I however am not looking forward to the drive out. 2hrs to Palm Springs... and I need to be up early for that food bank thing.
And HUNGRY. Why do I crave top ramen in the middle of the night?
My dog is super freaked because I was packing. She's worried she will be left at home. Poor pup. She is coming with me though. Annoyed I haven't bought another foam mattress topper yet. Haven't found one with a cover that isn't cooling gel. I don't want cooling gel for camping!!!!!
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They moved the camping trip and with no sleep i'm not going to be worth anything to drive.
3am snack - part of a buttered roll I shared with my dog
Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!
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Cranberry juice is the thing for uti's......low or no sugar if possible......hope you feel better
Donkey on 02/04/2018:
Yogurt with live cultures is supposed to help too. I hope it's not a UTI. Usually I can catch these early. I hope you can too.
Is tonight date night with Mr. Croatia?
That's very wise advice there about going to bed when the day is bad.