Working too many hours for a contract that isn't going to go anywhere. Feeling really stressed and like personal stuff is just piling up, which it is.
Whooosh! I give this up to God and just have faith in the bigger plan.
Meanwhile, out of meal preps and no time to go to the grocery store. Trying to order healthy... but pricey.
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Doing QA for a change... Finding lots of big issues at a very late stage in the project that will take a lot of time. Frustrating that no matter how good a job I do it won't lead to more work because I am weird.
Progress as of today: 70.9 lbs lost so far, only 57.1 lbs to go!
Hanging at my coworking space to work today. Always a challenge to really be focused and not work on my great meal planning app idea. I have a spreadsheet of all the meal planning apps out there and I am working my way thorugh the landscape analysis step by step. I also have a sketch file so I can jot down my ideas as they come. The trick is NOT to do this when I am supposed to be working.
Only have meals prepped through today and need to hit Trader Joes tonight, but I think I will be working late again.
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BTW hands down my most successful meal prep this week are these DIY ramen cups:
http://www.thekitchn.com/how-to-make-diy-instant-noodle-cups-222560
Progress as of today: 70.9 lbs lost so far, only 57.1 lbs to go!
Have fun meal planning when you get up to it :)
Having problems with focus. I under the gun at work and need to write a bunch of test cases and all I can think about is camping and the really fabulous meal planning app I want to build.
Literally costing me money.
Progress as of today: 70.9 lbs lost so far, only 57.1 lbs to go!
It's ok to think about camping, maybe take 5 minutes every hour at work just to think about it...even 10 minutes per hour. and do your work for the rest of the hour.
Hugs sweetie. How are you feeling today?
I want to be off them for future job apps and also for my own sanity. will discuss with dr how to get off slowly or if i can even get off...i'll get his input! :) what do you think? it's anti-anxiety medication only. low dose stuff i believe.
I am feeling better and like i need to learn to live my life without crazy goals...and try to just enjoy life as it is, not make a whole huge goal for myself at this time.
Was a troll all weekend, hiding under my bridge. Saturday I was still sore and exhausted from Thursday's workout. Sunday I was just still anxious and stressed about the future, paychecks, and being a spinster old maid.
Spent the whole weekend at home cleaning, cooking and organizing. Kind of a waste of a weekend considering this is the third one in a row but my car is washed, laundry is done, there's no dishes in the sink, my meals are prepped, my bed is clean, and I've had sleep.
Meal preps for the week were:
Will hit Trader Joes tonight to pick up some brocolli chicken kale salads and space those out so they can be in the freezer for the week after Thanksgiving. Going to try to find a camping trip for that weekend so I am not at home.
Back up to 240.2. Low day last week was Wednesday at 237.1. I feel like I'm throwing dice at the craps table every time I weigh myself. C'mon baby, momma needs a new pair of shoes!
Progress as of today: 70.9 lbs lost so far, only 57.1 lbs to go!
Met a guy on Tinder today that claims to have modeled for playgirl in 2011. Wants my number so he can send me pics. Ha ha ha ha ha.
Went to bootcamp last night. There were two birthdays... 39 and 52... so we got to do alternating sets of 39 and 52 pushups. Oh god. Everything hurts and I'm dying.
Progress as of today: 70.9 lbs lost so far, only 57.1 lbs to go!
You know you are a little too into your camping gear when you are willing to trade a guy on okcupid a dozen superfood brownies to make you a spool for paracord to go on your carabiner.
And because you just turned 40... it counts as a date.
Progress as of today: 70.9 lbs lost so far, only 57.1 lbs to go!
Dropped 3 lbs and broke my plateau!
This is due to the power of meal prep and food logging. Also no soda for several days.
Had to put Noom on hold, I don't have space for the app on my phone and there's no web version.
Progress as of today: 70.9 lbs lost so far, only 57.1 lbs to go!
sticking to any goal is possible if you plan for it and act on those plans! Congrats to you!!!!! Well deserved!
Was super excited to step on the scale this morning and see 240.2 come up. Came here to record my weightloss, but found I am right back exactly at my plateau. Thought I had lost a pound.
Ah well. Back at it. Back to the drawing board.
Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!
Got into a huge fight with my mom this morning. They went shopping yesterday and brought home sourdough bread, mini pizzas, and other bread products. They are also not supposed to eat these... and they don't just eat them, they gorge on them... like a loaf a day. They are supposed to hide them or keep them in their rooms but they don't. I put the frozen pizzas on my mom's bed and asked her to hide them better and offered to make her breakfast, and she flew into a black rage and cursed and said mean foul things. I said I'd like to keep my hands, feet and eyes... if I was an alcoholic you wouldn't keep vodka out. She said I had to purge the house of everything she can't control herself with... so I have to clear out string cheese sticks, protein bars, dark chocolate, etc. And don't make her breakfast. She hates me. Ok. I will do that then. Even if those things are part of my diet program and meal plan prescribed by docs. Ok. Already had breakfast on so I fed her anyway. She sure enjoyed her breakfast of no-added nitrite apple sausage, organic eggs, wilted power greens, and sweet blueberry overnight oats. I know what I am getting her for Christmas. A tshirt that says "I'm sorry for the things I said when I was hungry."
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Augh the stress of not packing my own food is going to show in my pocket book and my waistline... 2,852 calories so far and I'm still hungry.
Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!
4:20am and I can't sleep a wink. And even if I eat I am hungry again. I am just going to stay up today and try to hack it because I need to reset my body clock now. Ugh. Should have taken a sleep aid... thought I would be able to sleep on my own because I was so tired... but no luck.
And I am dying for toast.
About 45 days through the 60 day challenge. I am doing my best every day. Some days I have more in me than others.
UDG and I are remotely doing gym buddy today... the plan is to go to our respective gyms and workout at 12 pm in solidarity.
I tore apart my parents kitchen... pulled out everything in the lower cabinets. There was no room to put dishes. Discovered the reason was that there were hundreds of aluminum pie plates from decades of frozen pies. Recycling! I will probably get myself disowned but all the cookware is in the dining room and nobody can sit down. Hope I can pull it back together by Thursday. I leave for the river on Friday!
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10:20am - paradox that is adhd... I got up at 6, made breakfast and took my adhd meds but no coffee and the amphetamines knocked me out like a prize fighter down for the count. Oi.
Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!
I struggle sometimes with sleep too.
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Take your time and take a breath.
Maybe take it hour by hour and expect that everything will just not be planned.
I am sorry you feel this way, i know the feeling all too well.
Hugs. All will be as it should be.
bearcountrygg on 11/17/2017:
Breathe......life goes on regardless, sounds like this job is frustrating to say the least. Maybe they will offer something more when this one is done?
Hugs. I hope so!!!