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hollybelle - Wednesday Sep 20, 2006

Weight: 170.0

Did OK again yesterday. I walked 1.25 hours with a friend and my dog. Will not get to lift weights until Friday due to strange schedule. That's OK, though will just pick up where left off. Abs are SORE from Monday's exercise - but that's all that got sore. Good sign.

Menus: B: Banana Bread (healthy - made w/o sugar and w/o fat - not bad) Decaf with low carb fat free creamer S: Apple L: Tuna with low fat mayo, onions and celery in WWPita Low Fat (1 gram) Pineapple Parfait D: Califlower steamed with chicken broth and spray butter (good) Canned pork and beans (strange, I know, but good) S: 1 Cup 1% Milk - would be skim but husband likes 1% 1/2 piece Banana Bread

I am noticing that I tend to get most hungry at lunch. Dinner so far can be light and I'm OK.

Am thinking about going to Nutritionist for 1-2 visits just to review options - we have a nice relationship with one that helped my daughter with her eating disorder. I may call her in the next few days.

Also - need to drink more water. I'm not writing all fluids I am drinking down as it is too cumbersome. I amke it a point to include any beverages with calories only. Am taking my iron supplement.

Am actually beginning to notice a difference in the way I feel. I am getting "antsy" as I sit on the couch after dinner! Ha-ha.

Have a Mammogram schedules for 3:30 this afternoon - all part of this taking better care of myself bit....see you guys later. This is helping me to read your posts and write my own!

Smiles to you all.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

Soon2BThin on 09/20/2006:
Love those parfaits! I've been buying the apple-caramel ones, yum! You're doing great!

WorkingIt on 09/20/2006:
Fantastic!!! And YES, DO go to the nutritionist..I think everyone should go to one if they have the opportunity..what a fantastic way to learn more about what we need! Such good news in your entry, how wonderful!

hollybelle - Tuesday Sep 19, 2006

Weight: 170.0

So far so good. I have managed to eat very healthy meals and snacks for 4 days. No out and out desserts or even things with much "hidden" sugar. Mostly whole foods prepared in healthy ways.

Sample Menus Breakfast:Oatmeal with splash of skim milk and brown sugar splenda Lunch:Cup of Tomato soup/lean roast beef sandwich (WW bread and mustard) Snack:Apple Dinner:Baked Cod/Squash Casserole/oven potatoes Snack:Cup Skim milk

Beakfast:2 Eggs Lunch:Hummus w/WW Pita Pocket/Fresh Tomato Salad Snack:Raisins and Nuts Dinner:Baked Marinated Chicken/Cabbage & Summer Swuash Casserole Snack:Healthy Banana Bread It is important to me to emphasize healthy eating and have weight loss be a natural consequence of that. To not focus strictly on weight loss itself. Sugar is my big challenge. If I can cut back on that, eat healthy meals and snacks and walk/lift weights almost every day I should see results. If I find that I am not losing weight/feeling better in two weeks then I will pay more attention to the numbers (calories and weight.

I may have my goal weight of 150 too high, but I can't think about that now. I can alter it later. I can't weigh every week. I was eating disordered in my 20s and since that time vowed not to focus so much on weight and dieting, etc. I taught aerobics for 14 years and until the last 4-5 year never had a weight problem in that I weighed around 135-140 and felt I looked pretty good and healthy. I am 5'5" tall. Since then it has been inching up. I have had to watch how I eat at home and not appear to be dieting in the last 2-3 years as I have a 15 year old daughter who is - herself recovering from anorexia. So with all this in mind - we don't have scales in the house and knowing how I can be about "the numbers" it is my plan to simply begin to LIVE healthier and see what happens. If I need to be more structured than that I will gradually add more structure. I can weigh every other week at my friend's house. When I look at the menus above I see I am actually eating very well. What is missing is the emotional eating - which is usually the sugary stuff and junk food. I think my single biggest challenge will be when folks at work bring in donuts and other goodies. My plan is to STOP and remember what is GOOD for me. NOT dounts, but wholesome, fresh and healthily prepared foods. I think it is helping that I can come to this site and read and post.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

Moody on 09/19/2006:
I wanted to say hi and welcome to DD! You have come to the right place for support and encouragement. It sounds like you have a very good plan for weighing considering the circumstances. Your menu looks great too! Keep it up; you're doing fantastic!

WorkingIt on 09/19/2006:
Your food choices look good! Those numbers sure can throw us for a loop. Will taking your measurements cause you to be phobic? Maybe take those and watch yourself shrink? Sometimes losing inches isn't 'seen' in our clothes right away, but it is there!

sweetpea1977 on 09/19/2006:
Your menus sound wonderful!! Since you aren't able to weigh yourself regularly, try using a tape measure to notate your progress. Sometimes, inches loss is a more accurate indicator of progress.

mattscat3295 on 09/19/2006:
Welcome, I understand about the scales, I have given mine to my mother in-law to hold hostage. If I had them here I would be on them constantly. I am only weighing in at my dr office (he is keeping tabs on the weight for me). It looks as though your meals are well rounded and you are on a great start, keep up the good work and again welcome to the group.

hollybelle - Saturday Sep 16, 2006

Weight: 170.0

Well, I just had a wake-up call yesterday. I went to the doctor - a new one; I want to start taking care of myself again - like I used to and went in for a check up. She told me I needed to lose weight. That I am overweight. Not by a whole lot - 20-30 lbs, but considering my family and own personal history it may as well be 100 lbs. My first reaction was to lash out - I told her of the family history and personal history and how diets become obsessions for me and how hard it was to get over the ED those years ago and how remnent of the ED hung around for YEARS and YEARS until approximately the last 3 years I finally let it go. She was em/sympathetic, but stood her ground that it was her job to have these kinds of conversations with patients and she hoped I would think about what she was saying.

I came home and moped around in my head about it - called my mother and griped about it for awhile to her (Ha- that's kind of funny in and of itself). Took a walk and ate a healthy meal. Then I started thinking...I guess I have been fighting this for long enough. Maybe it is time that I did some growing in my personal life around the subject of food....Lord knows I'm tired of the game I've been playing with myelf for so long.

So, here I go...I will use this site as my confessor and hopefully to draw some ideas and courage from others who have come here. No more games. Goal: to become real. No more listening to the world on the subject of food....only to God's word and my heart.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

WorkingIt on 09/16/2006:
Welcome! Oh yeah, The wake-up calls are the hardest parts about losing weight, actually losing the weight is the easy part. Unlearning all the destructive behaviors and misconceptions and learning to love ourselves, that is difficult. Count calories, journal them, exercise more each day..you will reach your goals! I wish you the very best!

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