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horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Jul 30, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

kombucha 60

wrap and egg 200, avo 100, seasonings, coffee 50

snack: chocolate and almonds 150

lunch: ...meatballs from buffet yesterday and my veggies..maybe chips (but getting off them)....more buffet: tomato and cucumber salad, quinoa and roasted squash. need the health and change right now! 600. heathy.

snack: 2 apricots, almonds

before / during workout: A lot of strawberries, huge container but they were not very good - many were spoiled - i couldn't tell before buying - so no more buying strawberries in Manhattan at the fruit stand, only at the fruit stand in Queens! lol i have better luck at that one! 200 in strawberries (HUGE 2lb container!) and iced coffee 50. ..hard boiled egg with lots of seasonings 70, peanut butter 80

after workout tbd: bar 250

2050 today, happy about that!

4day: 2050, great


tonight is strength.

yes, my back is still sore - will probably skip situps (which may have caused my sore back initially.. - or it was due to a bad sleeping posture).

the book i am reading is very sad, i'm thinking it could have contributed to my mood...but is not entire reason.

i feel a bit better emotionally today, still sore in my lower back.

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/31/2019:
Curious to know if your back pain feels muscular or bone or nerve related.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/31/2019:
it feels pulled, like a slept long and it will heal.

not bone.

either muscle or nerve related to the pain i may get at times from sciatica at work.

Donkey on 07/31/2019:
Like a bruise, an ache, a stab, prickly?

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/31/2019:
it is an ache only when i stretch it now...the pain is still around today but it keeps getting better.

i stayed away from situps bc those exercises tend to be quite a pounding to my back and instead did planks...omg, haven't done planks in awhile and i lost a LTO of strength! i think i might do them (planking) more often!

horn_of_plenty - Monday Jul 29, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

for some reason, i am feeling upset today. i can't really say why other than i am tired and didn't sleep well. i am just sad.  it's been a long time since i last felt this way at work, but this time i know it's either bc my hormones / chemicals are screwy or i'm just having an off day.

definite feelings of sadness.

related but not the same, i'm not getting the real support i'd like from any close friends. i really don't have much in that category anyways - but - the ones that are close to me i do not feel are much help right now. it's more that i'm yearning for a new, special relationship - the type you get from the opposite sex like in a real boyfriend. someone i am proud of and who i can look to, to talk to. of course, it's not something i need, i'm just a bit sick of everything typical.

i did talk to a young guy at work today for less than 5 min while he was mircrowaving his lunch. nice guy. prob around 10 yrs younger as in he's closer to 26-28 whereas i am turning 37. not really so close in age at all, so i take it lightly and don't really consider anything.

plus, the health condition i mentioned a couple weeks ago on here - i have changed my ways and do not think about actually taking part in any more "casual s*x" as there is no more benefit to me or others and i will not hurt others in this way or face more health problems with related issues. so i'm just sitting here, i guess a little sad about that. i guess if nothing were a problem, i'd make a little more effort to flirt with him. but now, it's different.  and in general, before, i wish i knew this moreso. i wish i had  greater outside warning. i'm not even sure if i would have taken the precautions had i been warned, but, it is what it is and i'm at where i am at now. no going back!

going forward, if i want a "relationship," i'm going to actually have "to try" at it. meaning, the talking, the company, the real emotional aspect and not just the "play" part. and i know that's what is to come hopefully down the road. and i have to hope that my partner has the same needs / desires / openness about him.

another reason possibly behind the sadness is the fact that i haven't been able to continue my training in the way i would have liked this summer in terms of cardio.  It's a kick in the gut and today i actually woke up with a sore lower back due to possibly something i did while sleeping. 

i'm feeling discouragement with the court officer training and also encouragement that i have to change the training slightly (my pushups are not progressing much - i need to add the planks back in as additional abdominal work)...

i may have to regroup and refresh myself tonight on how this next month is going to go...something has to change.

and no, i cannot restart the ladder cardio yet..i could have been biking, but i think the tires need air...i can look at it tonight, maybe, or i can just go to bed early as is what really seems to be what i need today.

BUT, now at 36 turning 37 in September, i can only realize the most important thing which is the only person that can truly change my life or change a feeling of sadness is ME. i have to work on myself / my goals / my situation. complaining or staying sad for too long - won't help me. 



kombucha 60

wrap with egg 200 and avo 100 and coffee 50. 

snack :almonds? 200

lunch: wasn't in the mood for what i brought, so bought buffet: small piece salmon 200, about a cup of baked noodles with light amount of cheese 400?, salad 100. 700 approx. i was craving carbs and my mood today has been going down the tube for no explanatory reason which i have thought is weird...

snack: apple / almonds

dinner: just a snack which is really sometimes what i like on weekends, less fiber and easier to digest: 2 of my whipped cream treats that were in the freezer 100, strawberries good serving 100, yogurt light 100 with sf chocolate chips 100 tops. 400.



Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/29/2019:
Do not take this the wrong way, as a criticism or sexist comment, but I do think your emotions might be a little sensitive today because of hormones. Why do I say that? Only because you mentioning the lower back pain. I know that my hormones get the better of me and I get sad or very picky (testy, ornery if we're talking donkey).

The good news is that it passes, as far as feeling negative.

Perhaps it is time to find a relationship to add to your life sphere. Don't write someone off just because of an age difference, especially younger ad long ad the person is mature and wants the same things you do in life. With a solid relationship, it won't seem like it's a gap. It really doesn't.

I was a little concerned about your training for court officer, BUT you know your limits. Pushing yourself if your ankle is tender will do you no good.

Give it a day or 2 and see if the sadness fades. This episode has brought up a lot of interesting ideas about what you want in your life, for your life. You can work on these when you feel a little less vulnerable.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/29/2019:
I am not sure about my back and what happened?

My period will not come for another two weeks...but maybe my back is still affecting my mood?

you are right i will get over this "spell." it seems i am just needing more time alone to let this pass and figure things out.

thank you for the relationship advice. he and i , this guy at work, do not live close either. so that's another thing. i will still chat with him when we see each other (we don't see each other that much, so at least we can chat when we do). it's at least nice to chat with somebody new!

yeah, i cannot push the ankle / leg. i am trying not to be totally sedentary, but will have to rethink the training and how i continue to do it.

thank you for the comment. i appreciate the fact that you are reminding me of something important - that my mood will change and this will not last.

Donkey on 07/29/2019:
I also want to mention...

Yesterday, I got your friend C and J mixed up. You have written about C before. It seems to me that she has some issues with being negative and pulling in others' parades.

That doesn't excuse her rudeness or behavior but it certainly does explain her comment.

I was initially concerned that J had made this comment, so I thought maybe something else in the context of the conversation was going on. Now I get it.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/29/2019:
Yes, you have that right. It's C. Not J. J is totally a different personality than C.

you got it.

My coworker / roommate at work says it best too - she says the older you get, the less you want to share and of course the less expectations to have with people. sometimes it's not worth even bringing up to a friend that you feel something didn't go right, sometimes it's best to let it roll and just enjoy what does work with friends. it's just not worth the arguments anymore.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/30/2019:
I guess based on the person(s) i am spending time with, i have to know as an adult what works and what doesn't and also watch myself when necessary. maybe that's what being an adult and being responsible means to a small extent.

horn_of_plenty - Sunday Jul 28, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

I am having a LOT of uneasy thoughts this morning with nobody to talk to about them. I know a lot of these thoughts i can push aside as not being critical or relative to my life right now...but they are seeping their way into my whole day.  has to do with an invite to a 20yr small hs reunion gathering (around 15 people max) that i will not attend. the other other thought is about a friend i was with yesterday. i mentioned a Ricky to her a few times...and the last time i did, in the car as we passed his apt, she said "you've mentioned ricky quite a bit today, stop talking about him"....would be interesting if i told her to stop talking about some of the people she chats to me about...i'd never tell her to shut up...really just frustrated right now about not speaking up in the moment yesterday to her and telling her that if i want to talk about him, it's quite rude for her to tell me i have to watch who i discuss with her. it's rather rude as i am friendly with him and hang out with him a lot. it's like a jealousy thing with her and i cannot take having to watch my words with her. more and more i have felt this way....it;s all disheartening to me more and more that i am just not comfortable with anyone lately fully. lately, i can say with assurance that there's NOBODY - no best friend or lover - that i have that i'd want to share my life with.

secondly, there's this reunion that i wanted no part of. on facebook, i went as far as to turn off the notifications of the group i was in that was had discusions about the reunion bc it also brings up very uncomfortable, sad, feelings about a number of things in my life from as early as 5 until i was around early 30's just a few years ago. It's very hard for me and i am triggered by certain people and things. i wanted no part of the reunion, no part of the discussion, no part of the REMINDERS.

well, someone else on facebook took the iniciative to actaully ask me if i saw the invites (NO) and if i wanted to go...she specifically told me to go look there, if i was interested (i'm not). but it's hard not to look back at the group convo so i did....and it bothered me all night and all day today....i'm not friends (and not friends on fb even!) with at least half the people going to this dinenr on a sunday night next week. why the F would i want to go to a dinner and see people that i do not want to see or even hear about. some of them i have had to distance myself from purposely. some were family friends with my parents. people that mostly believe in a life of family and kids and typical. typical that i do not typically fit with. i am different, always been different. i've been very shy. i've been very low on self esteem. i've had struggles. i've sometimes shared those struggles on fb and a couple of the people going to this reunion have messaged me in private telling me either (one person said the following) that i sound angry...and another asked why i continue to hurt myself physically if i am injured (perhaps i was having trouble and needed help but not a criticism like it was an easy fix which it never was for me physically as i had NO PRIOR msucle from any sports or phyiscal exeercise as i did NONE growing up)....it's so hard for me to not think of multiple, MULTIPLE reminders beyond what i'm writing here of tough times for me throuhgout periods of growing up...now that i was reminded of this reunion which I PURPOSELY took out of my life by turning off the reminders....i really wish to tell her how i don't care to know in private about it....but i know i just have to shut my mouth and act fake over it. i'm not a fake person and all this fake stuff, fake get together with people many of whom i do not appreciate or like, is thoughts that are with me today.


and as far as the woman i was with yesterday who told me i need to stop mentioning ricky, all i feel i can do is distance myself more. she simply doesn't get it with me. every time i try to talk about anything, which i do less and less and i just listen to her talking more and more, i get uncomfortable telling her things. i don't trust her with my most inner thoughts or needs or physical issues.

lately the few times i see this person, the same one i had a major argument with and didn't contact for about over a year, it seems she is telling me i have told simply hold my tongue. i listen to her, listen to things i totally don't agree with, and more and more i wonder how i am helping myself....how my life isn't progressing right now....how i'm beginning to get stuck....how i have to keep pushing on....and how it's not worth these get togethers if i come back home feeling so frustrated. 

lately after seeing her, which is already infrequent, i am waking up with frustrated thoughts and dreams. somethings i need to work on in life...and i am feeling it to the 100th degree right now...a lot of things do not feel right at all. i feel uncomfortable and i am struggling to find comfort with anyone.  there's nobody i want to talk with on the phone, both Ricky and female friend i find myself unable to be around constantly. i yearn for more alone time. i am just uncomfortable with the direction of my life with my friendships and where i am headed. 

both R and C do feel they can say most anything to me. but i have to actually watch my reactions with them more than they watch theirs with me. i am longing to be with someone that will be more of a COMFORT to be with. i long to be with someone that i love.  maybe one day this will come, i might long for it now, but, it doesn't mean i can't get by without it. i'm reminded, let me take care of my own needs now and forget about the distractions and friendships that are seriously distracting me from anything worth any importance in my mind. writing this out has me feeling a little better.

i'm so sick right now of things that don't matter and are wasting space in my brain. writing them out, i do feel better.

i feel it's hard to be myself lately and i've more than had it with a number of people and experiences as of late.

next time with i am with her, C, and if she reminds me not to mention him or if she brings him up with distaste, i will have to ask her to stop. and explain it's hurtful. it's sad she doesn't realize this herself?



 330 yogurt mango on bottom, oatmeal and almond milk,spices, and an iced coffee 50.also lg banana 150.

snack: pb on rice cake 150

Noon lunch: bean salt and vinegar flavor chips 220, chicken and shrimp leftovers from last night 250, cooked veggies in basil sauce 150, strawberries large amount 100..700

during workout: half the banana from breakfast, peanut butter 100, aminos in water / seltzer 50. , more pb on cracker 100

6pm dinner my tofu in leftover basil sauce from thai food last night 200, rice 150, sauce 50. 400

more pb on cracker 100


2day: 2100/day




I want to finish typing something for work (beause on Friday it seemed i had too much work too finish and there's an unofficial deadline that i know i won't meet if i wasn't proactive to take some of the data typing home)

and then planning to exercise after finishing this "homework" - I just want to get the strength exercise done is my frame of mind - then i can shower for the day after that...glad to be home today...seriously in a mood to stay home and just take care of things around my apt.

I have laundry and cooking, both of which i've decided can happen AFTER exercise. :)

  I will NOT be leaving my apt today at all, got more than enough to do here and then going to bed on the early side would be wonderful. :)  therefore, no cardio today :)

but some  standing up / cooking :)


Feeling good, but feeling like donkey did when she had "work" on Saturday...even though i had the beach saturday which is far from work, it's a full day and nothing else gets done because i'm out of my house all day...i have another big beach day planned, of which i 'm still considering to do it on a FRIDAY so i have a longer weekend....still sounds like a good plan to me - to take a day off....since today it does feel a little rushed...even though i do have a full day. LOL. just my preference to relax more on the weekend. I know that donkey's work day and my beach day are definitely NOT the same thing, just saying how both activities take you out of your house for a period of time and you cannot do anything else related to home activities at that time until you are back home.


you see, ricky was going to help my with my bicycle and shower head/hose installation, but, since i am busy enough and do not want to add that into the mix, i'm waiting to do it next weekend - that's why having an extra day is nice sometimes and taking a beach day on a Friday can be helpful.

but the bike and showerhead can wait, and i'm glad i didn't waste a vacation day this time.  I'll have to see how i feel about this next beach day - it's a little more complicated and farther drive away along with a ferry. It is sounding to me in my mind that it would be beneficial to take a vacation day for that one...something to think about.

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/28/2019:
I hope that putting it all down here has been cathartic. That's what's so nice about this site is that you can dump it here so that you don't have to carry it around with you any more.

That's OK to use a vacation day if you need more time to accomplish things. Many of my co-workers (myself included) take an extra day off at the end of a vacation to catch up -- sort of like that. I would do this "extended weekend" if it didn't mean coming back to a complete disaster the next day.

For a shortened weekend, it sounds like you're doing a good job of organizing today, getting stuff done at home, and then early bed.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/28/2019:
yeah, i def see the need for another vacation day...so i'm not feeling stressed to get everything done in one day...i like to have extra time alone.

yes, it's cathartic and i was secretly waiting for your advice.

Donkey on 07/28/2019:
Regarding your conversation with C, about Ricky, and her comment --- were you complaining about him? (Are you sure?) Just checking... Will wait for your response before saying more about that.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/28/2019:
yes, i have complained to her about him, yes.

but this time, we were driving by his apt and i said we were passing his apt...that's when she said "R" is coming up quite a bit, could you stop talking about him.

i do complain to him about her. and at times i actually complain to him about her LOL.

i recently complained about the other night with him to her...sometimes i wonder what's the point though to telling her anything that is actually an issue as she has a tendency to tease / put me further down on my issues. i know that sounds vague. i know i'm not perfect and shouldnt' really complain about anyone to anyone...ugh.

yes, i've complained about him recently to her.

Donkey on 07/28/2019:
Regarding the high school mini-reunion: Did I write this? Because that sounds exactly like how I feel about MY high school days. I was only too glad to be done and away. I keep in touch with a few people, and I'm happy to hear and see what is going on in their lives -- from a distance.

I sometimes check on classmates on FB who are "friends of friends" -- just curious about what they are doing in life, but certainly don't want to "friend" them, since they were never friends or even friendly with me before.

So the only reasons I could see to continue with the group or conversation about the mini-reunion are: 1. If you were planning on going - which you're not; 2. You were curious about how people turned out - but that doesn't seem like it either.

I, too, often find myself conflicted about high school people. Why do I care if Laura H. gained 100 pounds? Why do I care if Rene D. got divorced? Why do I care that Tina M. ended up marrying Pete V.? (Now there's a match to avoid: TWO people I could not stand in grade & high school.)

The way I look at it is this: the people you've wanted to keep in your life, you have, and therefore, you don't need a reunion. And if it just so happens that the number of people you've kept in your life from high school is ZERO (like me) or FB only (like me), then there's a good reason for that, and it has nothing to do with you as to who YOU are except to say that you're strong enough and mentally healthy enough to know when to cut what people out of your life.

You were OK with going about your business until someone brought the reunion to your attention. Now it buzzing around you like a mosquito. I think this is one of those things that the phrase "ignore it and it'll go away" is applicable.

Gently correct those who are critiquing your reaction: I'm not angry, I just don't care.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/28/2019:
yes, those were the reasons i turned off all the conversation notifications. it was becoming annoying and a distraction to me.

i am just like you - NO real friends from high school, only on facebook. My "close friends" are from college since i went to a local school so many of them live around the area, luckily. although i do not seem them very often due to the type of lifestyle and work schedule i both choose and don't choose to have LOL. meaning, i like a low key lifestyle which means i'm prob not seeing my friends as often as i could because i prefer for my own happiness more downtime at home.

i do feel the need to speak up a little more when someone says something, but at the same time i have also learned that doing so has a tendency to sometimes create an argument or misunderstanding.

trishpiglet3 on 07/28/2019:
Thoughts as I've read this - Wonder what is going on in your friend's head? She sounds somewhat controlling. You can talk to me about Ricky as much as you want!

So very with you re Facebook reunions. Gentle Trish suggestion that you do something else special for yourself (or with chosen others) on that day. Your feelings and experiences are valid.

I like that we get the real you... I'd hate to be talking to a fake one. Disclaimer: If I say or have said anything unhelpful, please feel free to let me know xx

Horn_of_plenty on 07/28/2019:
thanks for your comments, i appreciate it. yes, this friend can be very controlling with me and in general has a hard time with any of my other close friends. I'm glad you appreciate the real me. I will be doing something for me the night before the reunion! Going out to a restaurant i've been wanting to go to and tasting some new to me german food with a live disco band! :) that's my "better entertainment" for next weekend!

Donkey on 07/28/2019:
Regarding the conversation cutoff:

At first, which is why I asked, I thought perhaps you were complaining A LOT about him - perhaps as a way to process a situation. I have done this before, not usually with complaining but more so with anxiety. "Can I talk to you a little bit more about this, because I'm feeling very anxious about it?" Then my audience knows that I'm just trying to work out a difficult. I try not to do this too much because otherwise, I get annoying like Nice Lady at work. AND I only do this with people I'm comfortable with.

I could be wrong, but I do not think that is what happened yesterday.

It could be that your friend has a silent opinion about Ricky or your relationship with Ricky. It could be that she was/is so wrapped up with what's going on with her that she didn't want to share any more of the conversation with the topic. Perhaps she thought you had been talking about Ricky too much - but that would be natural because he is a part of your life-space.

I do think that to just say what she said, without explanation, was rather hurtful - not that she intended to hurt you. I also think that this would lead me to reconsider her as someone I would have to be careful with what I talk about. That sucks. See my reference to conversations with people I feel "comfortable" with.

You won't know unless you ask her, but then you might not like where that conversation goes.

I'm sorry this happened though.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/28/2019:
i enjoyed reading all of your responses. It's true that is really is NOT worth it to speak to her about my feelings or needs regarding the situation with talking about Ricky. I did have a long chat with her the same night he last weekend that he chose to get so angry and i had gotten so frustrated. I ended up calling her in the moment as i was walking home that weekend from the bus after telling him to leave and walk home by himself and not with me.

so, i did a major talk with her about him just a week ago. but not since.

she doesn't like most of my closer friends. she hates Ricky. she thinks very negatively of him. she met him 1x, he was very saracastic and loud that 1x, and she told him off right there when they met.

in the past, i have introduced her to toehr friends and she has told me she thinks lowly of them as well.

she likes my college friend group a bit which is nice.

yeah, she didn't intend to hurt me - she was rather saying it because i guess she was uncomfortable with me continuing to talk about him.

i do have to hold my thoughts more around her. i'm doubt i'll be able to see her more often anyway that we do see each other, and it's just not even worth having to explain myself or my feelings.

sometimes, if someone just doesn't get it, it's not worth even trying.

my relationship with her has changed over the years, and i'm just fine with what it is now.

Donkey on 07/28/2019:
LOVE Trishpiglet's idea about pampering yourself on the night of the reunion!!!!!

Horn_of_plenty on 07/28/2019:
the night before the reunion, i'm going out for something fun, with Ricky, g-d help it go semi normally!, so i'm glad i really do have another plan going on that weekend :)

Horn_of_plenty on 07/28/2019:
in the end, 8 people are going. all women. most with kids. glad i will not be there. I have nothing in common with them worth discussing.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/28/2019:
and also, as crazy as this sounds, I probably also make the lowest salary. many of them ended up becoming rather wealthy. i do not need this in my life...to feel bad about myself any further.

horn_of_plenty - Saturday Jul 27, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

Oatmeal with almond milk and yogurt 300 coffee 50

candies 100

veggies 200, wrap 250

fruit 100

soup tofu and veggie 200, bigger serving of rice 300?, shrimp 100, lots of veggies in sauce 300-400. total here 1000 tops, fruit for dessert 100

2100 tops, nice day.

beach day, not too much walking. just enough.

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty - Friday Jul 26, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

kombucha 50

8:30am breakfast: Coffee 50, wrap and egg 200, lots of seasoning lately (i do a LOT so that the food is satisfying and also i take a lot of salt in because i feel sometimes i am low on it), small bit of avocado 50, gummy candy 50. 

10:30-11:30am snack: almonds 100, 50

1pm lunch:  some from the buffet (for hopefully some baked salmon for health!)   my salad greens along with two very ripe and ready to eat tomoatoes (from my food delivery service)!...and my coworker left me fried chicken from yesterday so i will have that and save my cash. no need to buy anything at the buffet today. 1.5 tomatoes 50, greens and dressing 100, fried chicken good amount of it 300 (maybe less), grapes 150. 600

3-4pm snack: apple 100/ almonds 100

7:15pm dinner: 2 big plums 150, bean chips 2.5 servings 300, yoggurt 150. 600 good.

10pm snack - chocolate 50

2050 :)

great cal week :) 2000/day


I'm going to work and not taking vacation (smart) or i'll have VERY FEW days left the rest of this year. I took so many days in Spring with my vacation and then a couple extra days off that i really cannot splurge also both of the summer months on them...working it out, and it's fine!! :)

Trying still to not do too much exercise and to relax.

Today no extra exercise at all, just some walking at lunch.

I might cook something tonight if i feel up to it...but not sure till seeing how i feel later.

I have a big project (easy just time consuming) i have to do at work, not sure i have near enough time to do it...we'll see what the administration decides about it. i am thinking i can do it at home in exchange for a couple more days off...since they aren't keen to pay on Overtime work at home...we'll see. there's def NOT enough time at work for me to do this work...not sure what will happen about it.

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/26/2019:
I can completely understand the temptation to take a day off, and also the need to balance the vacation/ sick hours you are given. It's a delicate balance. Have to make the most of the weekends, which is what I've been trying to do...

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/26/2019:
yes, a delicate balance it is!

the week was feeling slow and easy & i just knew it would be stupid to use the day.

my weekend was supposed to be busier, but things got changed and i decided to save a day for when i really want it :)

trishpiglet3 on 07/27/2019:
Hello YOU! Walk at lunchtime great idea You are inspiring :)

Horn_of_plenty on 07/27/2019:
good to hear from you...i remember you! :)

Horn_of_plenty on 07/28/2019:
it's good to see you journaling back here, i'll be commenting soon on your entry ;) if you were wondering!

horn_of_plenty - Thursday Jul 25, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

kombucha 50

wrap and egg 200, avo small amount 50, coffee 50

Snack: almonds 100, tastes of wine very little at fair before lunch 50

lunch: from home: salad mix 50, small bit of italian dressing 50, tofu 100, avocado 100, leftover roasted squash with olive oil 100. 400-450

2pm pastry 200

before exercise / during exercise:tons of strawberries 150, iced coffee 50, nut butter 100. 300.  more pb and nut butter 200, aminos 50

after exercise: wrap and on 300

2050 total and a great week in calories. Less chips and more wholenfoods as well.

STRENGTH WORKOUT is tonight! - i went well, i was able to clean up while exercising, ending late but still got everything done which is the point here - to get it done and get at least minimal sleep. to be able to clean up the apt, prepare meals, etc. 


trying to skip taking friday off and save the vacation day for when i really want it, as the weather is colder in fall and winter. depends if my friend can do the beach on the weekend or if she has plans. if she already has plans, i'll still take tomorrow off and keep our beach day....

because i took a whole week at the beginning of the vacation season in April, i have used quite a bit of days and don't want to be stretched too thin and have nothing left come January, February, March. ::) either way, it's one day, not too big an issue either way.

edit - yes, working Friday and Beach Saturday since my weekend has freed up and it doesn't make sense to take off right now, life is easy :) yes, it would be nice to sleep in, but no, that day doesn't need to be tomorrow - it'd be better around the week that i have a meeting or multiple appts or events. this was a slow week, it's best i keep on working... :)

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 07/25/2019:
It sure is beach weather.......hope it all works out for you.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/25/2019:
yes, perfect weather :) worked it out :)

Donkey on 07/26/2019:
Good food day!!

So Saturday is Beach Day?

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/26/2019:
YES :-) should work out well..

horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Jul 24, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

kombucha tasty and working well this week 50

breakfast wrap and egg 200, seasoning, avo 100, coffee 50

snack: almonds 100, taste of a packaged cake bought in Russia and a traditional style which is awesome from coworker from her trip there to see family 150. 250.

healthy lunch from home (since i've started cooking more veggies, it's such a nice change to try a new recipe and like it and have different things each week!) corned beef from freezer which is small serving and great 200, mashed carrot 150, rest of my lightly parmesan coated roasted broccoli 150? 550 tops.

snacks: cookie 50, almonds 100

Dinner: some roasted squash 200 i have and a yogurt with fruit on bottom150, plum 50,

close to 10pm: big banana 150. 550...OR, i will make a recipe: Strawberry Pudding made with cottage cheese!!!!  YES...gotta make this tonight!


5day: 1920, excellent :) just now wishing i could sleep....but it's only 10pm....so i'll get there :)


1 small errand, no extra exercise tonight. 

on the way home, it's directly on way, i'm picking u a coworker's glasses...it's very nice to do for him and i like to help :) - he doesn't drive and it takes him 2hours public transportation for him to come to the optomotrist office by me (the union dr office he used to get glasses...)

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 07/24/2019:
I'm sure your coworker will appreciate that greatly!!!

Horn_of_plenty on 07/24/2019:
for sure he'll be very happy tomorrow when i give them to him :)

Donkey on 07/24/2019:
Lunch sounds delicious with all those vegetables!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/25/2019:
i've been eating really well these past couple weeks! :) getting the veggie orders has been a good thing for me!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/25/2019:
and i get an order Thursday, tonight :)

horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Jul 23, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

kombucha 80

breakfast wrap and egg with seasonings 200 and avo 100, coffee 50. 

snack: almonds 100 (really not as hungry this week in mornings)

lunch: healthy, from home - mashed carrots that taste amazing! 150, parm roasted broccoli also amazing 100, small amount of avo 50, leftover bacon 200, chips 150. 650. maybe less.

snacks: apple / almonds 200

before / during workout: lots of strawberries and coffee 150...nut butter and cracker 200, aminos 50

after workout: bar 200


1925 4day


tonight is strength routine.

ankle still not great..but i'm trying not overdo

i'm using the electrtic massager as well as i bought another one...foot bath and i add salt to it - epsom salt and scented foot bath salts - planning on good foot care and added salts to my skin which is helping and relaxing - helps me fall asleep easily.

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/23/2019:
Have you thought about getting more PT for the ankle? In Illinois, we no longer need doctor referrals to see a PT.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/23/2019:
I could do more PT exercises at home yes. any visits to a place will be very stressful so i can add more PT into my routine is something to consider and do again...there's a few exercises i know i can do.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/23/2019:
your tips are good. i should work at it again, at home.

BearCountryGG on 07/23/2019:
Have you tried epsom salts for the ankle? Maybe a good old whirlpool tub, but don't know where you might find that.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/23/2019:
yes, i bought one also recently on Amazon Prime day and i got it delievered recently and have used it twice so far! i really like it and i have the salts. it's so relaxing right before bed....yes....liking it! i should have done it sooner, but, loving it now. thank you for the suggestions - yes, it's helping me and so relaxing!

BearCountryGG on 07/23/2019:
Anything but countrylike...LOL......kind of like living in the city but different...LOL

Horn_of_plenty on 07/23/2019:
it's hilarious really to think you are in the country with all that noise!

horn_of_plenty - Monday Jul 22, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

kombucha 80

wrap with egg 200, avo 150. coffee 50. 400.

11am snack the rest of the wrap above. seems i am getting full fast.and almonds 100

1pm Light lunch (very small appetite today have no idea why) bacon leftovers small amount 200 at most, leftover cooked veggies from last week 200 at most. 400

3:30pm snacking: almonds and chocolate 150-200

6pm-8pm? Snacks for later at dmv - going there for my new license: granola bar and apple 200

ligt dinner: mashed carrots 100, chobani raspberry lemonade yogurt  140. 2 med plums 150  400.

1700 :)

 1900 3-day - good to me.!!

dmv didn't work out exactly as planned, so got the regular ID. i only had a copy of the W2 instead of the original (or a Social sec card can be used but i didn't have that in place either). so i settled for a basic driver's license and called it a day as at least i got a new photo and the line wasn't that long...and i don't want to go back again after work. so it's all good, paid for, and i'll get the new one in the mail.

there's 2 other new options where they scan in your documents and you can use the license with a chip in it instead of your passport for domestic flights...so, i'll just continue using my passport ;) no biggie. i'm just glad i did get a new photo because my old one didn't look like me anymore with fatter face and long hair lol. now i have a narrower face and short hair.

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/23/2019:
I had no idea that drivers' licenses could substitute for passports now! Illinois is still waiting to upgrade licenses to be TSA compliant - LOL!

I'm old school -- I'd rather have my passport book and watch it fill up with stamps from all the other countries I visited ;-)

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/23/2019:
and that's how i will do it still now too...since i didn't have proper originals on my second trip there LOL. i'm so embarrased! i seriously couldn't follow the directions 2x in a row!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/23/2019:
meaning, i got the basic ID also. it wouldn't have been more money for the REAL ID, but i didn't have the proper stuff and it was my second trip...so i just decided to get it done and not come back another time for the other type of ID.

horn_of_plenty - Sunday Jul 21, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

breakfast - yogurt 150 fruit on bottom greek passion fruit (chobani makes good yogurts!), oatmeal (one spoon also with saffron sprinkled in) and almond milk, cinnamon,stevia 150. 300, iced coffee 50, kombucha 50.  400 total.

12-2pm lunch spread out over couple hours bc the wrap was really filling and couldn't eat it all at noon. wrap and egg 200, avo 150, salt and seasonings 350. mashed carrots homemade 150 really good. 500

3:30 snacks while cooking - fruit 100, tastes of the non-fatty part of the bacon (cooked up bacon, but took the fatty parts off after it cooked lol) 150. 250 and caffeine 

5pm forgot to list squash previously roasted 100, and during workout nut butter 100, pb on cracker 150, banana 150

After workout wrap 

2100 total

2day 2000


Later i plan to make parmasean roasted broccoli. I know that parm is light and a nice added flavor so i had bought a container of it a few weeks ago to use in my cooking. i have a nice recipe to cook my broccoli with it tonight! :)

i also cooked a mashed carrot dish that turned out very tasty - it was a lb of carrots and only 1tbsp of butter with salt / pepper and tasted good!

also, laundry and weights. easy day, really.

i might meet up with R as he suggested he check my bicylce since i haven't used it in over a year and he has some grease and tools to make it perfect...also my new shower head is here....he was going to install it. we are already not meeting up at the schedule time....because of the argument last night he didn't come over and i also am just getting up later than expected and taking my time with breakfast, enjoying kombucha and a late morning here in Queens....i got up rather late today which i do admit is a main reason we aren't getting together at 10am as suggeted...yes my fault.


ricky acted like a baby at the concert...so the night ended with disappointment involving my thoughts about him....but otherwise it was a good night. that's why he's NOT and will NEVER be my boyfriend. he's a friend of the male sex and that's how it will be, with him. i'm not looking for a boyfriend.

acting llike a baby (i cannot believe i'm writing this omg it's like am i really taking the time to describe it again out loud wow..) - getting mad because he had to wait on line for ices at the stadium where we went to the concert...complaining to a random worker that there was only one person selling ices (like that worker - a low level worker - is going to help? and why should he bother someone working there like that?,

he got mad about the water line too even though it was actually short (took me less than 5min on that line), he got annoyed to keep sitting on the bleacher seats (but that was ok - since it's open air and big place he got up and walked around a bit while i stayed watching the concert),

he got annoyed with me after the concert that i wouldn't leave before it was over to skip the crowds (i did leave right away, just not before the end with him!),

he was frustrated when i wanted to buy cheap fruit from the fruit stand before we went to the bus on the way home - the fruit stand is cheap and on the way and i always am looking to buy it when it's convenient (he wanted to go right home and couldnt' understand why i wasn't buying it after work - because duh - it was more convenient last night!? -

on the bus i know he doesn't sit (many people stand - it's ok)  so i told him it's ok if he didn't stand by me since honestly i just wanted to relax and talking to him while i sit and he stands wouldn't have been relaxing on the bus...i looked back at him halfway thru the route and he was loudly telling me to check facebook...he had put sad faces on my photos and then wrote a comment "this photo sucks" on a photo of him that i took. i wrote as a comment, on the bus "be nice"...he wrote back "take it down"...like an order - but a public and embarassing order. he could have spoke to me, said he didn't like some photos, i could have taken them down. 

but instead of speaking to me, he acted like a 3 year old crying over them in emojis and ordering me like a 3 year old to take it down. embarassing and rude and not any type of adult way of discussing. on the bus, i told myself that when i got off the bus to walk home with him that i'd stay calm and just say i'd rather he speak to me personally than to order me around on facebook in public.

well, i started out calm, but, he decided to maintain his behavior of the night - anger and immaturity. well, he got angry and said i need to consult him about all photos i put of him (which is fine, just a new rule he decided on in his moment of anger off the bus). well, he didn't understand how i felt - that i didn't want to be told what to do in public on facebook when he wrote "this photo sucks...take it down".. i wasn't able to speak to him gently anymore...i did quickly yell and told him "do NOT walk me home...leave me right now!"...

he then got angry....and then turned back and said "what does that mean!?"....and i said "COOL DOWN!" and i walked home the 5 min more on my own.

NO GUY tells me what to do or makes me do anything i don't want to do. no guy will push me down or think they can behave in a way that is rude or demeaning to me in public and think i'll take it.

i'm not mad at him - as he has these ways about him and it comes out especially in public - but, i do not forgive or appreciate or even accept his behavior when it's so out of line.

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/21/2019:
Oh my goodness -- it sounds like he has serious anger management issues! Nobody likes a complainer! Aw that's too bad that a nice night ended on such a bad note (no pun intended).

Horn_of_plenty on 07/21/2019:
lol, yes, he has major anger issues and tends to act out in public (not as much in private). it's embarassing to me :(

at least i still know my limit, i make sure to stand my guard and take care of myself in these situations. not ready to end the friendship though. i just know what to expect from him.

lol to your pun. that's funny, on a "side note..." haha.:) take care.

innerpeace on 07/22/2019:
Ugh MEN!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/22/2019:
ugh immature men!!!!! right on!

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