- Monday Jan 05, 2015
food: some healthy, some not. Around 3.5 servings of chips in there (but that's because most of the grain carbs I had were from chips, not also breads. Sometimes I prefer chips to bread or rice. wouldn't you!?
550 + 850 lunch = 1400....good :) Did abs in morning...
was up a lot during the night with things on my mind and also very strong winds kept waking me. tonight I hope to get better sleep :)
I was very sore in an area where I probably lost a bit of muscle today from my workout last night. It felt great to know I worked my muscles :) but now I just have to get rid of my leg pain so I can really forge ahead with my dreams.
I have begun to take collagen. It's a pure protein powder and it smells and tastes horrible. it's made from animal parts (bones and hoofs - I should read the label so I can tell you more...I will...). there's a lot left in the bottle and I am going to take it religiously. it says to take some in the morning (tablespoon) and another at night. that's the recommended dose and it equals about 100 calories this way.
Collagen is perfect for the repair of joints and soft tissue. That is the problem I am having with my legs. so if i'm not up to making a bone broth soup yet (takes awhile and I need to buy the bones), I will take this collagen. I really only want to take it once a day...but perhaps I should test it twice first? to see if it does anything? I really want to nip this leg problem a bit more....I did a pretty good job being happy today at work too...and I am going to remember that...how important it is to maintain a positive outlook.
Maintaining a positive perspective helps me :) It feels really good to feel good, you know? So like I said, I did a great job today doing that. And tomorrow I feel I will also do a good job because I am taking the next day, Wednesday, fully off: to go to the dr in morning about my legs (follow-up) and then I will work out later in the afternoon, similar to the workout I did yesterday. This way, I have an extra day recovery after not working out for almost 3 months. And that's good because I am not sure I would be ready to workout tomorrow, I think I am still going to be sore! Feels good because I know it means my muscles are growing and repairing (upper body) and also that means I should let them recover, not force another workout (lesson learned from my legs...).
anyways, 2015 started off nicely. and I am looking to keep it that way :)
I think the collagen is going to help me greatly....and anyways, I will experiment until the container is done!
- Sunday Jan 04, 2015
Just rediscovered a bottle of gelatin that I bought. It's so healthy (but smells & tastes plain awful!). It can be added to foods, sneaked in!, and it's very healthy especially for someone like me who needs all the soft tissue repair she can get. Will be using it daily, even though it's gross stuff lol, for the next two weeks, no matter what, to see if I notice any changes in my body (and if my legs feel better after two straight weeks on it). It's the perfect stuff for your ligaments / tendons. If I do feel a difference, I will start incorporating this product somewhat regularly, cycling it, in my diet.
1200, I can do it :)
So glad I did my laundry yesterday because I live in an apt and today I am SURE lots of people will be getting back from vacation and doing last minute laundry before the work week! Now, I am already set and that's a task I don't have to think about. Best decision ever. Also, I am up and relaxing, purposely, till around noon. Then, i'll have lunch and go exercise at the gym. After that, time to pick up food for the week. I am going to refrain from buying too many cooked veggies, cook my own again this afternoon. But I will pick up some because they come as part of a full dish with meat for a decent deal at a nearby health food store. They give so much meat (whatever you want - chicken, sometimes mealballs, turkey, sometimes pork it always varies a ton - that the meat lasts me a full three days!) But in general, I am going to cook most of my own veggies this week....because I have the time to do it & it's cheaper :)
I don't have to pick up too much at the store: almond milk, fruit (I made a ton of cooked cranberries so maybe just a couple oranges, grapefruits), veggies - I am thinking kale and other dark greens, (I already have yogurts, wraps, peanut butter lol which I am so glad I am finishing the last of the jars I had bought months ago - of course I will replenish but this time I think slower so I don't have so much in the house at once, no reason to waste money unless it's on sale, what else do I already have - nuts and seeds (I should start the sunflower seeds and other seeds I bought before going to the store to stock up on almonds - will try to not waste more money until I finish off some things), also I have some tuna fish that I can use so as not to have to buy meat later in the week if I want, maybe I will make the easy quinoa that's been sitting around for such a long time!..
Snacking / Breakfast: 300 or so...
total: 550. (if need be, I will go up to 1300-1400 today because what can I do!? I want to enjoy this day....)
tasty, fantastic lunch: egg and egg white omelette (big) with lots of sautéed cabbage inside (cabbage cooked in peanut and toasted sesame oil w/ onion & garlic)...and half a grapefruit...around 450 we'll say.
1,000 so far, good...what can I do LOL.
did a full weights workout, like I used to. I decided last minute to go to my regular gym. it felt so good (but legs still sore...) so I did get a smoothie there because I needed some endurance. I was there for 1.5 hours ;) nothing feels better and I vow to get back to my regular self in 2015 :)shake around 250.
dinner was bigger, but healthy pretty much: half avocado 150, turkey/chicken burger 250??, salad & other half the grapefruit 50, veggie chips 150: 600, fine.
- Saturday Jan 03, 2015
Starting the day off happy. :) 50.
Realizing how lucky I am do have this day to myself. Nobody to listen to or tell me what to do. Relaxing, home. No plans, no obligations. One of the luxuries of being single and living alone. Of course, it can get lonely and things of the like, but for me, I am very content.
Being content is what works for me. When I am relaxed, my eating is always better. And I am going to use the couple days just as planned, to relax and let me body breathe a little bit, not indulge in so much food like I have in the days before. Let me body have a break....
And even though it sounds very selfish / self-indulgent, I have a dr apt on Wedesday this week and I may just take that whole day off work (instead of coming in late in the morning). that way, after the dr, I can exercise and even do laundry (if I decide I don't want to do it tomorrow). Just wanna relax, every day, all day. I know I sound funny, but that's all I want to do...and it feels great.
800 + 800 = 1600 today, fine. tomorrow I only have 1200 cals left...for Sunday. lol too much borrowing & divvying and math....must do better and actually create a deficit. I can do it on Wednesday if I take that day off...
1200 planned for Sunday's calories. (no weight loss this weekend, just glad I was able to maintain...) that was hard enough!
- Friday Jan 02, 2015
Calories low but still around 1400 of tomorrow's allowance used....this is really for my Info only and to keep track.
- Thursday Jan 01, 2015
Mixed emotions on the 1st of the new year.
But at the end of the day, I am looking forward second chances and the challenges that 2015 will bring. I am looking to get stronger again and reclaim my health, little by little and day by day. By 2016, I want to say I made this a good year.
I may have to work on standing up for myself at work even more and working only the minimum hours when I want to. No overtime every day of the week. Will work on creating more of a balance.
- Wednesday Dec 31, 2014
Happy NYE everyone :)
Overall, 2014 is a year I wish to forget (mainly bc of the constant pain and tendonitis in my legs everyday) and I vow for 2015 to be better. There are some changes in my legs and I pray that they will continue to recover now. Going back to the dr next week on Wednesday and praying it's going to start getting more and more under control. And maybe if I can't get rid of all pain, I hope to manage with it, get stronger, and start preparing my mind and body to enter the NYPD in either winter 2016 or summer 2016. Pray for me please. I want to move forward with my life this year :) 2014 was very stagnant and did not include an ounce of growth in my opinion.
I may be negative but I find it hard not to be. I should have been in the NYPD class that just graduated a few days ago from the academy. I will be working on feeling better and resuming exercise as life allows in the year ahead, 2015. I want more than I have now. I am so ready to achieve bigger things in life. I know I can do better. I never settle. But this year, I had to.
Calories during workday: 750 Calories at home: around 550 prob at most. 1300, good. Going to a party tonight and what I really want is desserts :) and I know there will be some! Hopefully a big brownie! I am bringing the veggie tray!
We were told to wear dresses (my friend planned a skit we are going to perform lol) but I am wearing lounge pants and a fleece. I am done, fried, and plan to relax with my friends not dress up as if I were going to a wedding! Hellz to the NO!
Calories: 4500-5000....plus Thursday breakfast 600. Around 5500....actually, 5700. Fine!
2000 / 2200. 2000 / 2200 2000 / 2200 500. Darn that is a lot of food.
- Tuesday Dec 30, 2014
Calories thru end of workday: 1350
Big dinner: salad 50, tofu 150, microwave eggplant rolletes around 550, and finer one with almond milk and cinnamon 220 around 970-1000
Total today around 2300-2350 fine.
30 min exercise, upper body.
I was not happy today at work. My moods are fluctuating almost too much and I find it impossible to be happy at work when half the staff is on vaca.
With my job - there is no give, no real break, it blows. I can't fathom my legs being fully healed and being able to get back in shape with this desk job - it's almost impossible. Yeah, I am gonna try, but it won't be easy.
- Monday Dec 29, 2014
Great day today :)
Food thru end of workday: 1000 cal.
Healthy big volume dinner: salad 50, almonds 100, some takeout Thai basil veggies 200 or so, chicken 300 at most, and kombucha 60. Around 700 doubt it was more :)
1700. Perfect! Some abs in morning like 10 minutes and a little walking in evening bc I had to stop something off and it was faster to walk. Still legs are recovering but they did feel a little better.
- Sunday Dec 28, 2014
I have a challenge for myself and its to purge 6500 calories! Will def accomplish it as soon as I can lol. Starting sometime at the end of this work week I will begin :) I need a weight loss challenge of my own for the new year, like a resolution that so many people do.
Here's mine - wanna weigh 125 again...maybe even low 120s again in th new year :) I think I understand more what it takes to have some restraint to take one less bite or eat a smaller portion of food. I think I am almost there mentally. I am gaining some clarity now in how I have to go about it.
Other note, legs are tingling still upon waking up....its getter better but far from over :(
Lunch with parents: big pumpernickel bagel 350? With lox 50, lots of cream cheese 200?, glass milk 100, ice cream 250 - 950, prob more like 1,000 and perfect. And fruit. 100. 1100 total, lol now I am cold!
Snacking: almonds 150, chews 60 so around 200.
Big dinner : 2 bowls warm bran in unsweetened cashew milk with cinnamon and stevia 200 (bran was very low in calories), chocolate protein bar 230, coconut Greek yogurt with cooked cranberries 230 total 660 :)
Around 1950-2000....very good.
Dinner was weird bc I was having lighting installed in my apt all day and the time it took was longer than expected, finishing close to 8pm. So I didn't go to the supermarket and buy any veggies at all and I just wanted these snacks for dinner, knowing I could have so much for little calories comparatively...
- Saturday Dec 27, 2014
Good Morning :)
some vitamins and soup. 100 cal...
dinner out tonight, want to fast most of today....also want to order some food that would be healthy after a fast...with magnesium, potassium (sodium will def be there, its Chinese)...thinking bok choy as a side dish, gonna look it up now....lol...I am reading up on them and of course the best ones are potatoes and bananas with spinach high up there....and beans (usually all the veggies I like to order least...) but...I think in general, on my own, i'm going to prepare more spinach / swiss chard in my home cooking...and as for tonight, still thinking about what to order lol. too much time on my hands, thankfully!
I am deeply enjoying the quite time to myself and I am so thankful for it.
noon almonds 200, other veggies 50, cooked cranberries
400....went to the supermarket and I bought some prepared food for tomorrow (but of course ate it as soon as I got home...I should know better by now - that I get tempted because it's fresh and just cooked and I can never make myself wait lol)...
...prepared food: lots of cooked daikon with some mushrooms (big radish) in Asian sauce (like at least 2 cups if not more), cup of cooked spinach, cup of cooked kale / cabbage mix: total cal around: (why go out to eat tonight lol...now I will be far less hungry!) 400 or so here.
around 850 before dinner, decent...
Dinner was good, indulged but not too much. Had a normal size dessert too :)
Around 2000 maybe a hair more :) did very, very good today!!