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horn_of_plenty - Friday Sep 25, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 121.0

Happy Friday :) feeling better day by day. Still staying at parents house. No car here, just relaxing. No weights upper body exercise since last Tuesday. Weight still down although I don't see it in my clothes - weirdly it feels clothes feel the same. Not sure if the 121 is a fluke but it's the lowest weight I've had in years now - gotta look back really to see, I should keep better records ;) probably lowest weight since before my 30th bday which was 3 years ago. However, I was in far better cardio shape then - best ever in my life before hitting an injury 6 months later after turning 30. All time high in excellence followed by an all time low with my first overuse injury.

So...I believe the last time I weighed 121 was sometime during my last year in teaching - sometime around end of the year of 2007 or early 2008. 7 years ago! So, I would say we can always lose weight if we are consistent in our goals and strategy. For me, most important in attaining a lower weight is two things: not binging and keeping slightly lower calories. Also that holiday day of fasting I am sure helped. So it is def very possible if we stay focused....

....okay just looked back a bit at my diary. It's not been 7 years...lowest weight after losing weight again was right after my 30th, that fall. I was 119. So, 121 right now is my lowest weight in 3 years :) still awesome.

I think one of my earlier goals this past early spring 2015 was to reach 120 at the end of the summer. Even though that didn't happen, I am still reaching right around there now :) I would not really want to dip too far below 115 or just be content at 115 for sisters wedding in April. I guess a few low cal days could do it along with not binging. 115 is not very far off now. Only approx 6lbs away if I continue to make good choices. More than weight, I hope to strengthen my legs by then and be healed fully from overuse injury. I am making good choices and resting most of today. If I go out, it will not be for a long walk at all :) I may even do some ab work later today - we shall see :) laundry now :)

8:30am - Breakfast was a bit high in sugar and made me tired afterwards: fruit salad made with blueberries, strawberries, grapes, and cantaloupe (parents have healthy food and don't live off bars and processed things like I do) around 200, pineapple cottage cheese around 200, peanut butter 100. Total 500. Legs burning when I rest but not as I walk around the house!? Weird. Just settling down for some seltzer and to read a book.

11am: peanut butter 100

12:30 fruit - banana and a plum 200 followed by real lunch leftover Chinese brown rice 150, little bit of sautéed eggplant 150, veggies 50, 3 large shrimp around 50 total for Chinese 400 or so.

1200 so far, excellent

Pretzels and an orange 200


Dinner salad: fried eggplant 150?, avocado 150, salad 100, tofu 50, fruit 50 a 500?

Total around 1900-2000 - and a walk for around 45 min I think. Ankle hurt but not that badly...

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 09/25/2015:
Congratulations on the scale movement and our continued improvement! You are making the right choices for your health, which is so important. I hope you enjoy your day of rest!

horn_of_plenty - Thursday Sep 24, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 123.0

Early Breakfast 6:15 150 fruit

8:45am Breakfast wrap (low carb wrap and a small veggie patty microwaved) and salmon jerky: 250 400.

Lunch: Chinese food but healthy - some pickled cucumbers with garlic flavoring amazing! 150? at most?, little bit of hot and sour soup such a disappointment that they have to make it so think and starchy? is that how they make their sauces thick? 100 at most and prob less, steamed veggies with jumbo shrimp around 150 at most, little sauce 50?, and some rice 150? - 550 or so.

4:30pm snack: Bulletproof chocolate collagen bar, hits the spot. 250, maybe a sucking candy later.

1200 :)

Total cals prob around 2000.

Today I left the house with my dad at 6:20am - he was dropping me off at my apt before he went to work less than 5min from where I live...He dropped me off around 6:50am or so in the morning.

At 9:15am my dad picked me up  once again to drive me to the therapy / psych apt. (30 minutes away) And he actually stayed there, went into the therapy apt with me (since he was there, he might as well) but didn't go into the psych apt which was short (under 15 min) anyways.  After that, we had lunch back by me around noon and he dropped me off at my apt and then he went to work, around 1pm.

It was really good of him to help me out (dad driving me to my appts), despite his really busy work schedule it's really amazing he can fit it all in.  I actually helped him last night on some things for his work - I think I worked with him around 1.5hrs.  He was very nervous about what I was helping him with - I was adjusting an excel sheet that he made.  I cross my fingers that I didn't cause him any grief & that everything I did with him was for the better...

rest of the day....being home at my apt, going home with my father tonight when he leaves work...

2pm: decided to clean up some outstanding health bills that I submit to my account for reimbursement...still not submitting them until I have more copays, but organized and wrote out the 4 I have now. glad that's organized. threw out any paperwork on my desk in my apt that I don't need...

2:30pm also called my bank because I have credit line account that I don't use but charged me $50 for an annual fee, despite not using it. so I wanted to close the account. the woman on the phone said I have till 11/11/15 to pay the $50 and i'd have better luck walking into a branch and they might waive the $50 fee when they see there's been zero activity, ever. so i'll wait on this, until i'm driving again - I will probably do it sometime in early October.

3:30pm or so  - I decided to take a very short walk to get my nails done.   No polish as my nails usually don't do well with it, just the filing, shaping, buffing, pushing cuticles back. If there's one thing I don't do very well, it's my own nails.  I just can't seem to get them to look good, not that I've tried so many times, but it's a treat & it got me out of the apartment.  The nail salaon is walking distance around 5 min away. 

I was still marginally panicky during the walk and even at the place getting my nails done but I did what the tapes say to do in order to help my body calm down & it worked quite a bit.  I then did a little extra walking, but not too much at all, because I do feel weakness in my left ankle, but not my leg really, as USUAL! ugh! anyways, it is getting better and I would say I judged the walking correctly and didn't try to push myself past what would be healthy right now.  I only walked around 1mile total today, which is good i'd say, considering I was telling myself yesterday and the day before that I wasn't going to walk at all. 1 mile is way better than nothing. and the weather was PERFECT.

5pm: gonna relax, wait for my dad to finish work & go home with him later, probably around 5:30-6. we'll see.  I will listen to the relaxation CD as given to me as an assignment from my psych. sick to say i'm going to one, but I am :) and it's ok, just looking to get better, that's all.

I would say I made pretty good use of the afternoon compared to the days that I was so panicky I couldn't even leave my parents house, so, getting better.  Still not fully myself, but, getting there.

I told the dr that I don't want to go back to work if i'm still feeling the anxiety and he fully agreed saying I will go back when i'm fully 100% and no less. My days run out 10/5/15 and I am pretty darn sure i'll be taking that full week off. I will probably go back to work after 3 weeks home. 99% sure I would not feel good about heading back to work sooner, being that I used already 1 full week of vacation recooperating.

...i'm lucky I can do this, but I am also being smart and doing exactly what I need to do to feel better. I will not push myself to go back, after just feeling 100% for a day?! no way. If I could take a month I would, but that may be pushing it, unfortunately.  Good thing about when I am is that it will be a 4-day work week as I think Columbus day is 10/12. Gotta plan it a little bit, right?

Because I haven't been shopping, spending money on almost nothing while with my parents, just very few things, I have more money in my account and it is perfect right now.  I can take the extra time off and not feel any real consequence with paying rent because I've been spending FAR less since last week. this is good.  I can get away with not working or getting paid for 4 days if I decide to go over the 12 days I have (vacation / sick total I had left) and not feel it.. 


Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 09/24/2015:
I hope your fast went well yesterday and that it was a nice quiet day for you. And I hope today is a good one!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/24/2015:
it was nice to be with family...and far easier to fast when around them than if I were to be in my apt alone! :) I actually watched the services on TV which also helped take my mind off the food :) Thanks Ump...things are def looking better right now. Thanks for your support this week especially.

biscottibody59 on 09/24/2015:
All credit to you for getting on top of this. I hope it's a short-lived situation. You are incredibly lucky to have such family support at this time--you express that and I know they want you well.

You seem to be doing really well!

If you've been prescribed a benzodiazepine (benzos), please know that they are for short-term use. They are incredibly addictive (some just say you only become dependent, but meds that change your brain are serious business no matter what you call it)--just read the Wikipedia page.

If you've not been prescribed them, then you're that much farther ahead. From a friend's experience with klonopin (clonazepam)--I took notice. Not an easy road for her to go. (Just my little PSA--haha!)

thinkpositive on 09/24/2015:
You are doing great. Hope you feel better every day!

hollybelle on 09/25/2015:
Good to hear you are feeling better. I am glad of it! Back in the day I had a few panic attacks and like Umpqua said about her friend - they started in the car. I didn't have to stop driving because I only had a couple of (luckily) minor episodes. I took some short term medicine and changed some things and eventually evened out. I still need to have meditation time - my prayer time now - and have to have little "talks" with myself from time to time to remind myself to keep my thoughts healthy. Hope you continue to feel better!

horn_of_plenty on 09/29/2015:
You say you took some short term medicine and changed some things - what did u change if u remember?

horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Sep 23, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 123.0

Fasting most of the day for the Yom Kippur day of fast here. No temple but will actually watch a live service on tv with my parents. It's of central synagogue in NYC. We watched last night as well. I had a plum this morning to take a small pill the psych gave me that I have been taking at breakfast everyday for anxiety. My dad argued that I shouldn't wait till dinner to take it - he is right lol. I was ready to take it at dinner so I could fast all day. So fasting still now, just had that plum :)

Thanks for all of your support.

Legs still bothering me - burning. I think I have shin splints but luckily pain is not too crazy and I will try not to hound on it - hopefully the pain will subside and not last.

Avg calories Saturday thru Tuesday (4 days) are 2000/day. Good.

Prob around 1000 calories today.

Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

thinkpositive on 09/23/2015:
My grandchildren watched that service. Such a good idea. Hoping the pain in your legs goes away. Do you ever get massages?

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/24/2015:
I do get massages...all of them usually pretty good - but last one, I was already a bit anxious and wiry and for the first time I couldn't relax the whole time lol! but that's not like me & I love them, whenever I find the time to get them in. thank you for the suggestion...

and that service was good. I watched 2x yesterday, morning & evening. and the cantor (singer) was the same one, the whole day! I give her so much credit. to be such an AMAZING singer, beautiful voice, and do it without food, whole day, and without even water. she is amazing. I could picture her beautiful soprano voice on Broadway or in the opera. I haven't heard many singers as talented as her, and I have a music background. I felt her voice was as beautiful as some of Mariah Carey's songs. just outstanding!

horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Sep 22, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 123.0

9am: Bigger breakfast all natural,mostly carbs. Fruit 150, banana in oatmeal with fat free milk 350...and later some peanut butter 100?. Total 600. Surprisingly having small cravings today. Legs burning from last night's walk with my mom. I hope they feel better in a couple days from now.

11:30 Snacking plum 50, popcorn 360 still craving carbs more than anything else

2:30: full fat small yogurt 120

3:45 plum 70 and pretzels 100?


Even though I said I wasn't going to walk yesterday, I went with my mom when she came home from work Monday. I hope it wasn't a mistake as my lower legs are bothering me and burning on the lateral outside part on both legs. I have done very little Cardio over the past 5 months and before that not much for two whole years. So...I am not sure I needed 2 days in a row of higher intensity walking (Sunday def over 4 miles) and Monday def I would say around 4 miles. Sunday was good but Monday wasn't necessary. Gonna lay off everything today and tomorrow - being that it's the Jewish holiday my folks won't be eager to walk outside anyways, at least not during the daytime. We will all be home together again as I am still staying at my parents house.

Last night I woke up panicky but now that I know what's going on, I was able to control it somewhat and go back to sleep. Thankful for being able to sleep in these days off and fix this.

Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 09/22/2015:
That's good that you're getting a handle on what's happening. Also good idea to relax and give your legs a rest!

horn_of_plenty on 09/23/2015:
Thanks Ump, def relaxing my legs right now :) and beginning to feel far less anxious.

biscottibody59 on 09/22/2015:
Sounds like you've been through the wringer--I hope you are back to your old self (or new self, as the case may be) soon!

Hang in there!

horn_of_plenty on 09/23/2015:
Thanks B! It means a lot to still have your support :)

thinkpositive on 09/22/2015:
You sound stronger. Good that you are with your parents.

horn_of_plenty on 09/23/2015:
Yes having my parents around and having their support, as well as healthier meals, is making it much easier to get thru this.

ohioraven on 09/23/2015:
Have a good Yom Kippur .

horn_of_plenty on 09/23/2015:
Thanks OR.

horn_of_plenty - Monday Sep 21, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 124.0

Edit: I did go walking with my mom In the early evening after she got home from work from around 5:45-6:45. I am not sure it was the best idea. My muscles in my butt and legs were sore still and during the walk my left ankle was hurting quite a bit and now I feel as though I may have slight shin splints bc I have some burning on the outside of my lower legs. Whatever - I am taking these two days now to relax. No exercise till Thursday or Friday. I have stayed away from weights since I don't feel the urge to do it in my parents house, I am not going to the gym, and I just want to relax right now anyways. Total calories for Monday were around 2050 I think.


Anxiety in morning but feeling better as the day has gone on. Still very low energy though. Feeling s bit of soreness from an at least 4 mi walk with my mom yesterday after not waking that much since April and before that for around 2 years. Looking to improve on all of this and move on to live a meaningful life. Taking it one hour at a time right now and not really pushing anything. No exercise today. Last time I did weights was last Tuesday. Good to have gotten some cardio in with my mom on Thursday, Friday and Sunday. Right now sorta content with no cardio today bc like I said I am def a bit sore. And weights will happen when I am feeling better.

Was hanging onto my mom during some of the walk yesterday and hanging ontoy father as we walked around Costco in the afternoon. I am looking towards a full recovery and beginning to feel better today.

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

thinkpositive on 09/21/2015:
So glad to hear that you are feeling stronger. Take care.

horn_of_plenty - Saturday Sep 19, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 124.0

550 throughout morning. 550 or so lunch

Prob around 1800-1850 today. Nothing fake. Pretty balanced. Still have anxiety but feeling a bit better. Still sorta weird appetite but in some ways a good thing at least I am eating more balanced but really that's about it...

Actually had some kinda build-up of anxiety over the past month and it caused me to slowly but as I look back there were signs throughout the month - slowly building up until I actually woke up in a panic at 11:30pm Wednesday night. I felt totally out of control and couldn't stand being alone. I was very dizzy and panicing. I called my parents and father drove the half hour to pick me up and bring me home to my parent's house. The next day my mom drove me to see a psychiatrist and I had my parents come in with me because I wanted them to witness it all going down instead of them waiting outside the room.

I am not yet feeling like myself and the past few days I could hardly even get the motivation or rather desire to go on here or even Facebook as much. I can write more but this is enough for now. I am not driving and last night I was even dizzy walking with my mom. So I am doing things to get better and this is something I have never experienced before.

The things that usually I find to be comforting I don't have as much energy to do - calorie counting, going on Facebook, coming here to at least track calories. Everything seems an extra chore or too obsessive or I am just uninterested..

I am still sorta anxious with a heavy head and dizziness but doing a bit better today. Past three nights I did wake up in a panic...doing better today than I have all other days since Tuesday / Wednesday.

And also my appetite has been noticeably less and different especially since Tuesday. It's almost a chore to eat and especially when eating alone, all I want are bland foods. No veggies. Mostly carbs and some fat - potato chips, roll with butter, bananas, luckily I am staying with my parents and am still eating pretty balanced despite it all because I am at least having dinner with them each night and also lunch today. I do feel anxiety even when eating.

Yesterday both parents were at work the whole day. The entire morning I felt like I was in a panic and struggled a lot just laying on the couch listening to a cd I bought for anxiety. Noon I forced myself to burn the other cd with the actual exercises on it and I brough it upstairs and went back to the couch, listening to the cd for the rest of the afternoon until around 4:45 when my friend texted me. I called her and asked if she was ok hearing what I went thru and I didn't want to upset her...she then told me all about her job afterwards and I felt my anxiety creeping up and up. My mom came in the door around 5:45 and I was glad bc I had no more energy to be on the phone or give advice. I had enough. I went walking with my mom - finally leaving the house and when we got to the school track I did walk 2 laps but felt unsteady during them and also took major breaks sitting and saying the slogans and breathing techniques from the cd. They seemed to help somewhat but I still felt dizzy and unconnected to what was going on around me.

Sunday: 400 cal thru morning fruit, later a natural protein bar (first packaged bar since Tuesday or Wednesday last week), lunch: 700 - big sandwich with whitefish salad, lox, butter, some leftover vegetables in butter, and an apple for dessert. Total cal Sunday prob around 1900-2000. Pretty healthy. More walking than I've done in months. Sorta had to hang onto my mom during some of it but felt better near the end. Then went shopping with parents very high anxiety at beginning fully hanging onto my dad but better at the end.

Monday: breakfast is cereal with fruit. Still craving easy food and carbs. Snack: fruit but I may reach for something else soon...just feeling a lot of ups and downs still in appetite. Def different Fromm typical...I would say I like not always being hungry of course and that I am satisfied after meals but also I know it would be better if I were feeling better overall and that I will admit I am still obsessing over food and calories or I wouldn't be on here? Calories so far today are 550. I am happy not to feel bloated lately or extremely full. That's a benefit to eating more normal portions but still not feeling myself when eating and the rest of the time. Working on it and def better than last Friday when I was home while parents went to work. Today I am still at their house. Def no driving right now. Still working to feel back to my old self even waking.

Lunch: toast 250 with butter 50, lox 50, cheese 100, marinated vegetables in a lot of oil 150 600.

Around 1150 after early lunch.

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

thinkpositive on 09/19/2015:
So sorry to hear that you are going through this difficult time. I hope you feel better every day, Good to see you on DD, Take care.

horn_of_plenty on 09/21/2015:
Good to have good support here. I haven't told my friends just yet, except for 2 people who aren't close with the rest of them, only me.

livinglight on 09/20/2015:
Anxiety is such a challenge, I get it too and it an really take over. I hope it lifts soon - even though I'm really bad about it I find exercising A lot can really help to ease it.

horn_of_plenty on 09/21/2015:
Yes usually exercise (weight lifting) was what I used to manage it. Only recently for some reason I felt it wasn't enough / helping...but will prob try yoga / meditation and try to add it into my life :)

ohioraven on 09/20/2015:
Hoping you find your peace, HP.

horn_of_plenty on 09/21/2015:
Thank you OR :)

Umpqua on 09/21/2015:
I'm so glad to hear you're staying with your folks and that they're being supportive of you during a difficult time. I do online yoga sometimes when I'm really stressed and it does help to clear my head. If you're interested in trying something from home, check out Urban Mystic Yoga on Youtube. She has everything from gentle to advanced/dancing type classes available. Keep taking care of yourself xx

horn_of_plenty on 09/21/2015:
Thank you so much and yes I am going to do some yoga in the near future. I am extremely lucky to have such supportive and caring parents. I am not so sure that all parents would have dealt with me / my issue in the same way and I am extremely lucky for that....thank you so much for the yoga tip bc I will use it - seems easier to do yoga at home than to go and sign up at a studio with money and more importantly time commitments - seems more simple to do at home at least for now. Thank you :)

puddles on 09/21/2015:
Sorry to hear you not well. Take care of yourself.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/21/2015:
Thanks Puddles...I am beginning to feel better today.

horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Sep 15, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 124.0

7:30am: fruit & kombucha

10:30am: KIND fruit & nut bar...dark chocolate and nuts, only 5g sugar, it had a lot of fiber from inulin...like 7grams...feeling like I don't even want so much fiber & vegetables. 

11:45: banana, leftover calamari & veggies in hot thai sauce and around 1/2 cup brown rice, another banana total around 600.

total: 900. 

total around 1750, good.

exercise: weights routine

did laundry in AM. then relaxed on couch basically till afternoon. went to gym around 2, then got mani/padi as a treat, went to supermarket. and had a good evening.

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

livinglight on 09/15/2015:
Hope you have a good day!

thinkpositive on 09/16/2015:
Looks like a well balanced day.

Umpqua on 09/18/2015:
Hey, it's not like you to go so long without posting. I hope all is well and you're having a good week!

horn_of_plenty on 09/18/2015:
def going thru something rough now. Taking a much needed break from work and everything. And helping my body relax...thank you so much for thinking of me, i am doing things to help myself get better now. Thanks again :)

Umpqua on 09/18/2015:
Good for you for taking time out for yourself. Take care and know that we are here for you when you need us xx

horn_of_plenty on 09/18/2015:
Thank you so much xoxo it means a lot :)

horn_of_plenty - Monday Sep 14, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 124.5

Happy Monday. Today is relaxed. Not going to temple, but relaxing at home for the New Year.  Dinner with family was nice last night, I left my parents house around 10pm, later than I was planning on.  And as typical with me for the past month, I got very anxious driving on the highway coming home, especially in the dark.  I had to actually pull over to the shoulder of the road because I felt out of control of my car.  I don't know what's wrong lately.  I get anxious on the highways - day and night - maybe because I don't drive on them that frequently anymore?  I'll have to get over this.  Today is a nice day to just relax.

I do have physical therapy in the afternoon and later my friend who has the day off is stopping by for a quick visit & we'll share some dinner together.

Lately, anxiety pops up for me when driving and also while exercising. Truth is, I also should lay off all caffeine.  Because caffeine sure doesn't help with it.  I know the anxiety is all in my head and I am working to calm down a bit..

Thankful for these 2 days off :)

8am Breakfast: 2 plums 100, egg whites 60, avocado 80, banana 120, stevia, cinnamon, spray 20, oat bran 20: 400.

12pm Lunch: plum and chips 200, wrap 100, with some leftover brisket my mom cooked 200 at most...

900, good.

1200 after snack of pb on a wrap...

Dinner Thai food with best friend. Brown rice with vegetables and squid in a sauce. Total around 450 maybe.

1650, good.

Progress as of today: 1.5 lbs lost so far, only 4.5 lbs to go!

ohioraven on 09/14/2015:
Peace, HP.

biscottibody59 on 09/14/2015:
I hope you figure out the anxiety thing!

horn_of_plenty on 09/14/2015:
Me too. Just need to relax. I sorta can't believe I am feeling so out of it....I gotta get over myself.

puddles on 09/14/2015:
Have you always had anxiety over driving at night? Take care on your day off.

horn_of_plenty on 09/14/2015:
Never anxious driving. Only the past month - day and night.

horn_of_plenty on 09/14/2015:
Never anxious driving. Only the past month - day and night.

horn_of_plenty on 09/14/2015:
Never anxious driving. Only the past month - day and night.

hollybelle on 09/15/2015:
The combination of caffeine and hormones made me an anxious mess in the past. I didn't eliminate the caffeine and the hormones eventually took care of themselves LOL! Good that you recognize your anxiety and know what to do.

horn_of_plenty on 09/21/2015:
Meant to thank you for this comment, I have noticed that caffeine had a bad effect on me - gonna lay off :) hormones as well...gonna work oneself and work on my thinking :)

Umpqua on 09/15/2015:
I wonder if you're having panic attacks? My good friend has struggled with this over the years and it started out with driving (she would have to pull over it would get so bad). She's on a low dose med for anxiety and she said it's made a world of difference.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/15/2015:
Yes, I am. I know that I will feel better soon... :)

horn_of_plenty - Sunday Sep 13, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 124.5

Happy Sunday. Just got up 1x and only for a bathroom break last night. Otherwise, I def slept soundly through the night.  Left leg is a hair tight still, still recovering from the tendonitis....but realizing I am not going to lay off all fitness.  These next few days, with far less to do since i'll be off work, are the perfect days to help me do what I do enjoy and that's it.  Like I have said recently, this month will help me get back on track & hopefully feeling far better :)

at 1pm i'll leave to drive to my parents.  Spending the afternoon and evening with them to celebrate the holiday - Rosh Hashanah (Jewish New Year).  Should be nice. We'll also be celebrating my bday again and my sister will be there also this time.  Her fiancé I don't think will be there because i think he traveled to Hungary for work and to visit his mom & grandma who still live there.  He's from Hungary and moved to NYC when he was 17yrs old - 21 years ago.

Just had breakfast and looking to go out to the gym soon after a quick shower.

7:45am Kombucha and fruit - not more than 100.

8:30am Breakfast: Pancake 1/2 cup egg whites 60, 1/4 avocado 80, banana 120, oat bran 20, stevia, cinnamon & sf raspberry jelly 20: 300. good...followed up with caffeinated Bai Blueberry drink.

10am before gym: natural granola bar 150

Lunch: subway sandwich 350 at most. 900 :)

around 2250 for Sunday. good. and mostly healthy.

Progress as of today: 1.5 lbs lost so far, only 4.5 lbs to go!

puddles on 09/13/2015:
Enjoy your day with your family.

ohioraven on 09/13/2015:
Happy Rosh Hashanah !

Umpqua on 09/14/2015:
Happy new year to you and your family! I hope you had a nice celebration and are enjoying the long holiday weekend.

horn_of_plenty - Saturday Sep 12, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 124.5

I was eating most of the morning - snacking around - must be due to cravings since I was pretty exhausted feeling this morning...but I ended up feeling better as the day went on and ate pretty healthy foods throughout.

7:45am-8:30 snacking / breakfast: 2 plums 100, beef jerky 150, chips (veggie chips and I like them bc they have a good mix of carbs and fat...and it's satisfying to me) 150. total: 400. good.

did most of laundry besides bedding this AM...nice...nobody else in the laundry room and got it done so easily :) yes...perfect start to weekend...

9:30 fruit 50

10am: hot wheat bran & almond milk 70,

11am 200 cal snack. (fruit and a small 130cal protein bar) And fell asleep after from around 11am-noon Probably taking the full day off exercise and just going to the gym tomorrow (Sunday) morning.

Noon: lunch. Pancake 240 - stevia, cinnamon... 1/4 avocado 80, banana 120, egg whites 30, stevia, sf raspberry jelly 10 :) , plum 60, wrap 100. 400 1050 :)

2pm I left to do errands: get gas, library, grocery shopping at two shops, rite aid for some bday cards and other items. got home around 4.

4:30pm snack (actually didn't get crazy hungry for awhile this afternoon...nice for a change!) decaf iced coffee from DD 50 and a coconut bar (higher fat, some sugar, no protein) 200.

total so far today: 1300, good. still debating gym, it's now 5pm.

5:45 early dinner leftovers at home: started out with just having some cooked Chinese cabbage 50 and still debating the gym...decided to be healthier tonight and eat more balanced...I had leftover cooked salmon that would have been thrown out if I didn't eat tonight 300? cal, and then some Spanish yellow rice around 150-200.total 600...needed the carbs and needed the healthy fat and protein from the fish. I'm looking to have a great workout tomorrow at the gym, but tonight it's about relaxing. I may even have a snack if I get the urge later tonight. def a rest day from the gym today!

total cal after dinner: 1900.

2050 total. Bed early and gym tomorrow.

Okay grand total 2250. Ended with a granola bar at 9:30. I want to sleep thru the night :)

Progress as of today: 1.5 lbs lost so far, only 4.5 lbs to go!

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