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horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Dec 22, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

It's still early (just the start) of winter, but i'm proud of myself for making this goal of being very mindful these next three months. I've never really kept up this mindful approach this long - to make a weightloss & continued exercise challenge that lasts thru 2 seasons. Proud of myself for continuing to stick with it. But instead of any short-term weightloss, everything i'm learning thru this longer process is going to stick with me. This is a life-changing process. I'm totally learning how to better manage my eating, workouts & calories so that i'm not constantly overdoing & exhausted.

...on that note, my legs are so sore from walking in the city Sunday...it was anywhere between 5-8 miles is my guess. Walking a lot all day. And I woke up today feeling the soreness, even in my hamstrings. So, when I go to the gym today, i'll do stretching of my lower body, but that's it. The soreness needs to work itself out, i'd like to do walking, but my ankle is weak now also because extra walking. i'm really not trying to complain, just saying I will manage tonight doing upper body & giving lower body complete rest for a bit this week.

Overall, I look & feel better than I have in YEARS.

Calories before lunch 470 :) Lunch: bigger but healthy 150 Chinese vegetable soup with all broth, spinach and chicken 550. Total not more than 700. 1170, good. VERY TIRED DAY BUT GETTING THRU :-D

Snack before gym: persimmon 100, granola bar 150, lots of caffeine Bc wasn't feeling energized at all 1420 After gym:

Frozen yogurt 220 1640 but not satisfied will prob have something else with protein.

protein bar 190

1830...came home decided to go for the chips and let go a bit tonight. tomorrow I will feel better in the AM too...rest of the week i'll be more moderate. 330 in chips.

total: 2160, fine.

full exercise routine and I was def exhausted at the end.

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/22/2015:
Good attitude. Mindfulness is a challenge. I get very tight hamstrings if I don't stretch them after every workout.

OhioRaven on 12/22/2015:
I'm proud of you too, HP. You give me good ideas and inspiration.

puddles on 12/23/2015:
Very good HP. Take care.

horn_of_plenty - Monday Dec 21, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Yesterday was a beautiful day in NYC, full day.

1150 before sorta big dinner.

dinner: little rice, some beans, roasted veggies (eggplant also) in olive oil  and also sautéed cabbage maybe at least 450-500 here. then, lots of brussel sprouts 100. followed by a chocolate Quest bar 170 and cooked cranberries 60. yep. indulged a bit. around 850, fine.

total: 2000. fine.

no exercise & bed early!

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

puddles on 12/21/2015:
Have a great day.

grannyannie on 12/22/2015:
Glad you had a lovely day.

horn_of_plenty - Sunday Dec 20, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

1750 2-day average. Saturday: weights routine. Sunday: lots of walking! Will rest legs rest of week - but, I do feel pretty good! 

Good Morning & Happy Sunday!

I am excited this morning for a lovely fun (but cold!) day in NYC. But, cold is expected this time of year lol.  It's sunny which is really nice. Full day of sunshine.

Going for brunch with my city friends, best friend, and few other friends. Seeing my friend's tree at their apt first, with the Disney ornaments I got her for her bday on it. Then brunch - it's not expensive & they have cooked SALMON - yes - so healthy - that's what i'll be getting! and buffet style to boot - huge selection. After brunch, it's in the WALL STREET section of NYC which is REALLY nice, we'll walk around wall street & view the Christmas trees before heading back uptown to see the famous Rockefeller tree & maybe the window displays (I think those are at Saks Fifth Avenue?)...and then back home :)

Breakfast: kombucha & more kombucha 110 so far.

++++++++++¥+¥¥¥¥¥¥ Perfect beautiful day in the city :) 110 cals at home 2 shots or so of alcohol 200 Brunch: small piece salmon 350 at most, lots of broccoli seasoned 150, cauliflower seasoned 150, 4 shrimp 100, 2 pieces smoked salmon 50, egg whites 50, potatoes 200, coffee with milk 50 - 1100. Snacking: 50 Candies 150 At home: bar 230 1830. 2050 Cal. Lots of walking.

11pm snack: still hungry, couldn't sleep - fruit, followed by huge bowl of sautéed red cabbage.

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/21/2015:
You're doing great. Enjoy the city!

horn_of_plenty - Saturday Dec 19, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Please bear with me, but this winter my food / entries are probably gonna sound REALLY weird. I'm sorry. I'm extra motivated to reach 115lbs. I have not stayed & or managed a weight in the teens for years. I want to be able to learn to maintain this lower weight. I like it better, feel MUCH better. Feel more toned. Right now, my weight is finally stable at just under 120. I don't have much more to go - but the only way I can get to the lower weight is with calorie deficits.

Once there are 115, I have no doubt I can maintain it. The problem doesn't seem to be maintenance for me. The problem is reaching my goal in a timely manner & probably faster than my body wants to - but still in a reasonable, healthy way.

When I have a goal, and I want it bad, I don't stop till it's accomplished. So, folks, no matter how difficult or challenging it feels to me, WATCH ME! I'm getting it. Just wait for it and see for yourselves.  Majorly important. Because I feel if I can achieve this, something that is definitely a challenge, it proves I can achieve anything - and i'm now speaking about my goal to be a cop. It's on hold. Till after the summer. then, depending on how I feel, I'll probably enter the academy the following summer -17. It's up to me :) I put it on hold bc of injury. And i'm really getting ready to move on.  It feels good to KNOW I CAN. in my heart, i'm so finally ready for these changes, one at time.

I am happy. with my life. finally. and with myself, friends & relationships.


Stocked up on veggies for the week! Tomorrow's a fun day in city so i got everything done already for the week ahead!

It's 12:30pm Saturday and here's what I've accomplished since the morning: all laundry, dental apt, and food shopping. 

All that's left is a workout - to be done later.  Staying home to relax for a bit now :)

Early Morning: Kombucha 80

Huge Meal at 12:30-1:30pm Veggies only: around 2 cups cooked brussell sprouts 100, around 1 cup bok choy 20, around 2 cups cooked cabbage 80, around 1 cup roasted purple cabbage 150, small less than handful roasted veggies 100. 450.

2:45pm chips 170 (good mix of carbs / fat...love these veggie chips lol)

3pm extremely rich, healthy high fat / protein bar 230 & monster black sugar free before workout...

930, excellent

6:40 after workout - frozen yogurt around 250 at most, followed later by aminos 30 and a protein bar 170. total: 450

a piece of fruit - yup, and a persimmon.

planning for not more than 1400-1450 today.success!

total - around 1450. PERFECT. i'm getting good at this now!

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

puddles on 12/19/2015:
Thank for your comment but I am real old school with my stick up pads... lol actually I do not even have a cell phone don't believe in them I figure if somebody needs to reach me they can leave me a message on my machine and I will get back to them. As far as noting things I think about while I am out I always have a pen and paper in my purse..... lol... Have a great evening.

grannyannie on 12/19/2015:
You can do it!!!! Happy for you.

OhioRaven on 12/19/2015:
As long as you can fix my speeding ticket on the G.W.B. we're good.

horn_of_plenty - Friday Dec 18, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.5

BEST weekly total probably since I've been back to work since mid-October:

 1688 cals/day for these 7 days.

HUGE success this entire week. On a roll.  Will lose the weight (5lbs) by April wedding!

Today's a rant on my pumpkin cranberry dish.

550 before lunch, on a roll :) 500 lunch.

dinner: cucumber salad 50, tomato salad 100, small cabbage salad 50, other cabbage 50, zucchini in tomato sauce 200, (450)...80 in beef jerky, ...veggie chips 250. total apprx 800 and worth it. and now enjoying some seltzer for the rest of the night.

1850 cals today. good. no exercise but a HUGE and tasty dinner. good for a Friday evening when i'm burned from the week. I would call this a relaxed indulgence. I was sorta mindful not to go crazy, but also definitely indulged.

Breakfast / Snacks: kombucha, big banana, chocolate peanut butter Quest bar heated up in microwave (like a dessert I love these microwaved!), cup coffee regular, bigger cup of coffee decaf free at work today!, mixed fruit from work today free!

Lunch: healthy - weight loss appropriate - but bigger than I originally planned bc my boss gave me some Chinese hot and sour soup that I had with some tofu and the inside of an egg roll. I didn't have much soup - but you know it adds up bc it's prob loaded with fat / sugar.  The soup is sorta gooey...thick... anyways, not more than a cup. mostly liquid soup, some egg white, some tofu, some mushrooms, hoping not more than 150 but could be....

And lunch that I made was the canned pumpkin (entire can) 175 calories in a can. With tons of cinnamon, also nutmeg & calorie-free sugar substitute liquid stevia. I added 60 calories worth of cooked cranberries (cooked in HIGH POWER lol microwave, stirring every minute or so for a total of around 4 minutes) with added stevia. I also added a heaping tablespoon of WHIPPED caramel peanut butter (not really any extra sugar, same calories) around 100 cals, not more. total in the CINNAMON NUTMEG STEVIA PUMPKIN CRANBERRY PEANUT BUTTER MIXED DISH – around 350 cal only. AND, just so you know, this is the calories for 1.75 cups pumpkin + 1 cup cooked cranberries & heaping spoonful of peanut butter. SO…AROUND THREE CUPS OF FOOD FOR ONLY 350 CALORIES.
For the calorie counting population, 350 calories for 3 cups of food is EXCELLENT. And, besides having sugar, it’s really not much compared to other dishes like 3 cups ice cream, or yogurt, or frozen yogurt or even a smoothie.
You can’t beat three cups of food for 350 calories. Plus, you get benefits including the following:
-          Fiber from pumpkin & cranberries
-          All the nutrition of 3.5 ½ cups of squash – that’s what pumpkin is! This includes TONS of Vitamin ‘A’ and also a generous amount of potassium which is what I tend to be quite low on – and potassium is good particularly for my needs – muscles & nerves as well as keeping an acid/base balance in the body
-          Nutrition of cranberries – particularly benefits like rich in antioxidants – combatting cancer and also protection against UTI’s as well as Vitamins C&E. Plus, the way I am preparing those cranberries, there’s NO added sugar at all (just stevia which has NO calories)
-          Health benefits of peanut butter (not to mention it also helps to leave a person more satisfied by adding some fat and satiety to the dish) – good fats – and a bit of protein / fiber / magnesium.
-          So maybe my lunch is weird – but it’s far from UNHEALTHY
And then I had some of that hot and sour egg / tofu Chinese soup. Sorta hit the spot of filled me up COMPLETELY. Because I had around 1 cup of that soup.
SO TO RECAP, I had in total around 4 cups of food for lunch, for a total of 500 calories. NOT TOO SHABBY I tell ya. And yes, extremely filling. I ate till past full, like I usually do, but now I’m satisfied till dinner. I do this often, and then skip any snacking in afternoon at work. It works for me – to keep me generally satisfied (today I def will be) till around 4:30pm. I eat lunch at 1pm usually.

Progress as of today: 6.5 lbs lost so far, only 4.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/19/2015:
Good job! Have a great weekend.

OhioRaven on 12/19/2015:
Wow ! This might be your best post ever. I'm SOLD. I'm buying a can of pumpkin and going cranberry hunting tomorrow. Thanks, HP.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/19/2015:
.....but you DO need lots of sweetener. I use liquid stevia. you can buy on amazon - let me know if you're interested and i'll send you the link to the cheapest one...also, if you want free shipping i'm almost willing to order it and ship it to you free haha. I have Amazon prime. LOL....

You have to use lots of sweetener bc the cranberries are only TART. You can also cook them stove-top. '

You can prob warm the pumpkin before eating if you like that too... I tend to eat it cold. but warm is a good change of pace I think i'll do that more in winter. Also, pumpkin also needs sweetener, it's not sweet. I buy only pumpkin, NOT pumpkin pie mix with all the sugar.

If you want info on the stevia, I can send you a link of the one I get...when I make it, I add the stevia little by little until it's the taste and sweetness that I prefer. I make it into more of a sweet yogurt / dessert taste.

have fun cranberry hunting. I think I still have 3-4 bags in my fridge.

have a good day, Raven.

Reason I went all out, is a coworker had just teased me in a good way - saying he could never eat it - when I told him what I had for lunch. haha. so, I realized it's weird, but really not unhealthy :)

and this time, I added a tablespoon peanut butter which increased the total by a lot - 100 cals, but made it tastier. I eat that part mostly at the end.


horn_of_plenty - Thursday Dec 17, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.5

I think 700 dinner (300 cal or so in cooked veggies, 200 cal or so in chick peas and also little bites of potato, chocolate quest protein bar, cup strawberries)

total: 1750.

resting tonight :)  early night.

feels nice to be home early, wish I had a book!!...maybe I can read something I already have in my apt but haven't read yet :)

1660/day for 6 days. excellent.

probably be sleeping before 9pm.

Didn't prepare the canned pumpkin yet...sorta lazy.

Canned pumpkin is easy to prepare:

Put in a bowl, add some stevia to taste (usually I have to add a lot of the liquid stevia because canned pumpkin is not sweet at all to start...).  Then, add other spices - mostly cinnamon, little bit of nutmeg too if I please, sometimes pumpkin pie spice if I have it. That's it...if I want it rich, I can add warmed peanut butter, usually not.

Also, cooked cranberries are nice when added in. Just a little bit. Makes it sweeter and more enjoyable instead of a heaping bowl of canned pumpkin.

With stevia, canned pumpkin tastes good. I want to have it a bit more. Another use of canned pumpkin - add to a pancake recipe!

Going to experiment with pancakes on Saturday.

Progress as of today: 6.5 lbs lost so far, only 4.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/18/2015:
Well done!

OhioRaven on 12/18/2015:
So, you don't cook the pumpkin ?

horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Dec 16, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.5

5-day average per day: 1640 per day- quite excellent. Gonna make this week a good one. I only have two more days to keep the 7-day total really nice.

1750 total today. Not a lot of health - too many bars. 4 in total - 2 in morning, one before gym, one after gym. 3 Quest bars & 1 more like a granola bar before my workout (need carbs to have a good workout usually).

healthy things included: banana also in morning, lunch of tons of bean sprouts, cooked muchrooms / broccoli in butter, more mushrooms steamed, little bit of chicken, grapes before my workout.

 Other food besides healthy & besides protein bars: 1 cup decaf with milk and equal, one cup regular an hour before my workout, one cup tea, one serving veggie chips after gym, 2 pieces sf gum.

Tomorrow in the morning i'm going to make a canned pumpkin with cooked cranberries dish to bring to work - I may actually have it at lunch, we'll see...or,, i'll have it at home in the evening, actually, since I plan to be home tomorrow night early & be in bed early!

Progress as of today: 6.5 lbs lost so far, only 4.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/16/2015:
Well done! I have to resist buying those bars as they are too tempting.

OhioRaven on 12/17/2015:
You are really good at setting and keeping your goals. Now what the hell is in this Pumpkin dish ? ? ?

puddles on 12/17/2015:
That dish sounds good. Have a great day.

horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Dec 15, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.5

Weight is good - Just under 120...maybe around 119.5lbs

Morning: Kombucha 70

1300 before dinner

7pm dinner at meeting: salad with dressing 100, Italian bread sandwich with some cold cuts 450?, one chocolate nut small Candy 20?

Around 1850 - and hopefully not more. No exercise.


Morning All :-)

I am doing well emotionally.

Physically, my feet / legs / left ankle are sore from wearing heals Saturday night. VERY sore. So, no exercise even though my plan was to keep the exercise going this month 3 days per week, I'm being smart and taking a rest tonight because I need my body to feel better before i'm on my feet any extra. I'm being smart about it.

Plus, I have a union meeting after work tonight. It's a good thing I go, since I think I skipped the previous 2. We only have the meetings 6 times per year (every other month) and NO, they are NOT mandatory. However, my dad is big in the union - although he doesn't go to these meetings as they are out of his jurisdiction I guess you could say. However, tonight's meeting is bigger and there's a raffle that I did enter. I'd hate my name to be called and not be there. That's the kind of luck I have.

But I'm going, not skipping. Since i'm skipping the gym, I am more than ok with going to the meeting instead. :-)


Progress as of today: 6.5 lbs lost so far, only 4.5 lbs to go!

biscottibody59 on 12/15/2015:
The reaction of the person who caught you should be your guide. If it was terrible they would have escorted you out of the venue. Right?

Take a deep breath and quit calling yourself names. NOW!

Be kind(er) to yourself!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/15/2015:
Your comment made me smile (at work!) ...totally took your advice today!!!!!!!

grannyannie on 12/15/2015:
Yes, listen to Biscotti! As for sore feet, etc from wearing heels, I can't even wear those any more. I have to wear comfy shoes all the time.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/15/2015:
thanks for your support, practically have forgotten about it already!

puddles on 12/15/2015:
Great advise from the above statements. Have a great day.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/15/2015:
Thanks :) I do feel better now!

horn_of_plenty - Monday Dec 14, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

3-day total: 1530/day

If anyone could give any further advice / comments about my situation in the entry below, i'd appreciate it...

Lunch - 1/2 smaller avocado 150, sautéed spinach 1 big cup with some peas maybe like 150-200?, sardines 150 500 at most.

1050, good - AND HEALTHY. need some nutrition, eating really poorly lately...and skipping gym purposely until Wednesday night. I know I had a goal of 3 days per week, but this week will only be two days. I'll chat more about that later.

Snack after work: lots of grapes - 200 at most I think

Evening Meal, trying to eat light - around a cup of sautéed shredded cabbage w. carrot shreds, small amount of another salad but too much dressing maybe i'll throw it out because it's too sweet lol, and a Strawberry Cheesecake Quest Bar. total here is around 400.

total today: will say 1650.

Def no exercise till Wednesday because my legs and feet are sore from walking in heals Saturday night...


Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/14/2015:
Don't stress too much. You didn't do anything horrible! Good job on the healthy eating.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/14/2015:
Thanks...letting it go. I don't think I'll get ratted out :)

grannyannie on 12/14/2015:
Hope not!!

horn_of_plenty - Saturday Dec 12, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

1250 cal today / 1700 yesterday.

Average for sat / sun: 1475 / day


On Friday morning at work, I was offered last minute free seats in the company suite at Madison Square Garden, NYC to see the famous comedian Jim Galligan. I was able to ask for as many tickets as I wanted & invite anyone else in the company. I invited my female good friend and coworker as well as my best friend who doesn't work there.

It was last night & a really cool opportunity to go to the Garden and see a comedy show live from not even average general public seats - but a private suite with it's own bathroom. there was no free food or drinks like we thought because very few people showed up from my company. Only me, my coworker, my best friend who doesn't work at the company, and two other couples. There are around 30 seats, but only 7 of us ended up attending. It was a good event. I liked the comedian. I am very thankful for this once in a lifetime type of opportunity.  Most of my coworkers didn't know about it - it was on the down low that I got this opportunity.

 The whole night was free at the Garden. We did have to buy our drinks as there was no complimentary food or drinks (sometimes they do provide, but since there were so few of us, I guess that was not an option last night which obviously doesn't matter - the cool thing is that we had the awesome opportunity to go to this event for free with cool seats!).

I did do something stupid though...which really is messed up. I am always doing dumb things without thinking them thru. Not always, but always at times when it's better I thought about it....

This is a diary. That others do read. But i'm going to admit something both embarrassing & humiliating and it's something I regret doing tonight. The suite I was sitting in we thought would have food / alcohol but it didn't because only 7 people showed up (me and my two friends being almost half the folks). So there was no food / alcohol provided. However, there was wine in the next suite right next door.

Like a teenager who thinks there are no rules, I walked into the suite next door and started to pour myself and my two friends wine. Someone in there walked out & told a worker who then came over to me and said "you won't be getting anywhere with that."

I am such an idiot for:

#1 - attempting to take / steal wine

#2 - not being thankful enough for the opportunity to enjoy the event free & feel the need to take wine that wasn't mine

#3 - Possibly (and hopefully not) having any word of my actions get back to the owner of my company. This is the worst part.  If it gets back to him, he will look so bad as to have ever invited his workers at his company to use his suite and put him to shame for hiring such a crappy person to steal wine from the suite next door when I could have gone and bought anything I wanted downstairs

#4 - having done this, my boss (owner of company) possibly getting word, my FATHER also possibly getting word of it because my owner of company knows my father. Making it so that my owner of my company does not want to keep me at the company anymore...and ruining relationships between my father and the owner of my company.

#5 - I am such an idiot for not thinking about this before I decided to be an as$hole and take things that weren't mine. I'm 33. I should know better.  Stealing isn't ok at any age, but it's really despicable I ever thought to do it in the first place.

#6 - I never ended up taking a thing. As I was caught redhanded. Nothing else happened. I just went back to where I was supposed to be. But boy is my behavior inexcusable. I am not sure why I didn't consider consequences of my actions. I'm such an idiot.

#7 - and in general, even if no consequences, it's not ok to take things that aren't mine. I did end up buying alcohol and some diet coke downstairs. And should have done it the entire time. It's not like i'm so poor I couldn't afford to in the first place. Stupid girl I was tonight.

 I just hope that I don't need to learn a lesson thru the owner of my company getting word of my actions....it would not be good. I really hope he doesn't hear of it. Do you think he will? He owns those seats for the whole year, every year. And the other suites next to it have the same owners all year. So you think my company owner will hear what I did in the suite next door - pouring wine and attempting to take it out, but never actually making it out?

I am so stupid. I just hope nobody hears about it.

And if so, I'm going to say my friend came and walked into the wrong suite next door instead of my company's. It's the friend that doesn't work for the company. She told me to say that. Was going to pour wine for us 3. Horrible.

Sunday: Goal calorie count for today is 1450.

9:45am-11am Breakfast: banana 120, fiber one with almond milk 180. kombucha 40 and another probiotic drink 10. 350.

1:30pm: dunkin donuts veggie egg white flatbread with cheese 300 & coffee 50. 350.

700 :-D

Snack after gym: small amount frozen yogurt 150


light dinner, mostly beans & veggies 350


Most of my Sunday Plans  today:

1. gym - and yes have some coffee first.

2. get nails done after gym (but no polish)...just filing and buffing. That way, it lasts at least 2 weeks and they stay looking neater than when I do them myself because when I file & cut my own nails, they always turn out horrible! haha.

3. Small food shopping after gym - buy some chicken or fish maybe turkey & some veggies. OR Cook my own veggies & just pick up meat / fish. Yeah,  maybe.

4. Maybe call dad later to quickly tell him I went out and got the seats at that event thanks to the owner of my company (dad knows him). But of course I can't tell him about the stupid thing I did - he'll FLIP. So keeping that to myself. I do plan to thank the owner of my company when I see him...

5. Tonight - call my best friend who is going thru something almost worse than I went thru with anxiety. She's been suffering and hasn't gotten help for 6 months. She does go to work & all - but she's not in a good state of mind. I realize I need to help her find a therapy place by her because she's having a difficult time choosing a place because too many options - she does better without options. So i'm going to help her out tonight over the phone.




2am Saturday Night (already Sunday morning i guess!) Edit:


11am-11:45am: Breakfast - tons of chips: 370 cal, kombucha 30, tons of "Persian salad" and "Israeli Salad" - maybe like 200 cals?, and some leftover fatty pastrami from last week (but not too much) 100? - total: 700

ugh. more calories than I thought before calculating the chips. needed the carbs & fat.

2pm:  kombucha 70

3:15pm lunch: Pancake (extra fat): cup egg whites 130, medium banana 120, 1/4 large avocado 100, sf strawberry jelly 30, peanut butter 100, stevia, cinnamon. total: 480

total so far: 1250, good.

7pm Snack on way out to city: beef jerky 100

8:30pm: tequila, diet coke, water 200 at most?

11:00pm: another kind of natural bar 150

total: 1700, very good.

I may just eat my own stuff tonight when going to the comedy show. And will probably not drink. we'll see.

Took a sleeping pill around 6:00 am or some time around there this morning because I needed more sleep & didn't want to be up so early. I may even take another nap later. Honestly, I don't need to go out Friday & Saturday night but since tonight is a once in a lifetime type of opportunity - I'm going.  At work, I was offered tickets to the Madison Square Garden show tonight - it's the comedian Jim Galligan - and I now have free seats in a suite there at the garden. How could I turn it down? I was able to invite my best friend who's coming & also two other coworkers. I think there's around 20 seats in the suite - so there will be more coworkers there as well. There's also food there in the suite, so we are not going for dinner first. The show starts at 8pm. Also, there's an open bar. All free. The whole night tonight is not only awesome, but free.

Tonight i'm driving into the city with coworker - she's driving, actually. She'll pick me up at 6pm & meeting other two friends there at 7pm.

Right now, I'm realizing I still DO have the bulk of the weekend to myself. And bulk of today. So i'm trying to relax. Need to stretch my legs (literally) and do laundry. That's it today, really. That only leaves food shopping & maybe getting nails done for this weekend. Good deal.

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/12/2015:
Salads sound interesting. Get some good sleep.

OhioRaven on 12/13/2015:
Yup ! Having raised a few, you sound like a nice "Normal" young girl who follows her instincts and regrets her actions. Try not to worry too much about it and remember what you've learned. Our most valuable lessons are the hardest ones. Have a Good, healthy day, HP.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/13/2015:
I just hope that I don't need to learn a lesson thru the owner of my company getting word of my actions....it would not be good. I really hope he doesn't hear of it. Do you think he will? He owns those seats for the whole year, every year. And the other suites next to it have the same owners all year. So you think my company owner will hear what I did in the suite next door - pouring wine and attempting to take it out, but never actually making it out?

I am so stupid. I just hope nobody hears about it.

And if so, I'm going to say my friend came and walked into the wrong suite next door instead of my company's. It's the friend that doesn't work for the company. She told me to say that. Was going to pour wine for us 3. Horrible.

grannyannie on 12/14/2015:
Everybody does something without thinking and then regets it. I've certainly done more than my share! Don't stress too much about it.

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