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horn_of_plenty - Sunday Sep 29, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

oatmeal with almond milk 170, pineapple yogurt 130, coffee 50. 350. 

 Pb on rice cake 200

egg 100 avo 150 on eng muffin 150 and huge apple 150 550

1100

 2200

 

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there was an opening to sign up for "court asssistant" open exam in new york state to take the test this year. of course, i hadn't considered it before and missed that deadline this past summer. oh well.

as i consider my legs and look further at options, starting at court assistant, lower pay than i have now, but then moving my way up a little bit, i felt it was a fine option for work and a career / job that i know has longevity as long as i do the job. they only hire who they need for the courts.

i don't like the idea of not knowing where i'll work or it i'll work or if my job won't be needed. i need more job security to feel better.

the union has great benefits and salary and yes i'd leave it if i could, knowing i was leaving it for something more reliable in terms of a reliable career that i'd know i'd be working in and not risk losing my job for life.

but i missed the opportunity to sign up for the exam because i wasn't considering it. the exam comes again in 4 years for the court assistant. and i may just look into it then, again.

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 09/29/2019:
Job satisfaction and job security and so important. Hope you find both!

horn_of_plenty on 09/30/2019:
I crave much more job security


Donkey on 09/29/2019:
One of my co-workers left our firm and when to work in the county court system. She couldn't be happier. And pretty much job security for life.

horn_of_plenty on 09/30/2019:
I crave the job security


BearCountryGG on 09/29/2019:
It is always optimal to enjoy your job....and security is everything when it comes to making career choices. Keping an eye on future hirings/exams will be something to look forward to and to prepare for....no harm in that for sure.

horn_of_plenty on 09/30/2019:
Yeah I will keep my eye on other exams not officer / physically related.

I crave more job security



horn_of_plenty - Saturday Sep 28, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

1650, good eating (out to eat and enjoyed a heavy lunch thankful it was a light breakfast)

200 snack of fruit and light ice cream

1850 

total 2250.

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!


horn_of_plenty - Friday Sep 27, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

kombucha 100

egg/avo/eng muffin, tea, chocolate 400

almonds 100

lunch from home - need to by a protein (fish or turkey) though at the buffet (maybe will freeze this food for next week)

birthday lunch for coworker fries 250, salad with some dressing and beans 250, tuna salad (so good!) 150, croutons 100, 1 twizzler candy 50

snack: lg orange 150

1550...

after work:maybe the other portion of the tuna salad...unless i meet R and he comes to the city...just not sure right now ...

 

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a couple months ago, i paid for an organ concert at 7pm tonight it starts, by work. so i'm going to that.

i am meeting R at 5:30pm to shop at Express by my work bc he needs some new clothes for work. then we'll eat. then, i think i'm going to the concert without him bc he'll get bored and i don't want him with me anyways if he isn't going to enjoy. so, i'm looking forward to attending on my own to this concert, which is close to work.

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 09/27/2019:
Enjoy the concert!

You seem to do a lot with Ricky; it's nice to have a buddy to do things with. :-)


Donkey on 09/27/2019:
(But he shouldn't go to the concert if he won't enjoy it!!! That's for sure!)

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/27/2019:
that's for sure! :)


BearCountryGG on 09/27/2019:
Have fun at the concert...and agreed...if R wouldn't enjoy it then it would just ruin it for you. D and I do things separately often just for that reason....the one NOT having fun ruins it......took a us a few years to figure out what things we could do together and still both have fun.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/27/2019:
yes, def better off going alone to this.


grannyannie on 09/27/2019:
Enjoy the concert. I have booked one for myself in Nov while husband is away.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/27/2019:
nice to go alone if i have to ;)


Maria7 on 09/27/2019:
The concert sounds very nice and I hope you have a good time!

Horn_of_plenty on 09/29/2019:
it was wonderful, but the last piece was very slow and actually boring!



horn_of_plenty - Thursday Sep 26, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

kombucha

wrap,egg,avo..1 chocolate. tea.

almonds 

burger half on english muffin, some salad and cooked veggies, 1 chocolate

big orange

large apple, almnd milk splash of coffee

 pb, protein muffin, extra choc  chips 

 

doing a lot of paperwork for the job. formality type of submissions.

 

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 09/26/2019:
I've been thinking about burgers a lot lately too.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/26/2019:
it's very satisfying as i eat them from the fridge, so they are a tougher consistency which helps fill me up at work for lunchtime.


grannyannie on 09/26/2019:
A few times a year I've got to have a cheeseburger!

Horn_of_plenty on 09/26/2019:
no cheese, but i did top it with ketchup which was very delightful to take the dryness out of it, since it was a leftover burger....very satisfying..half the burger on a light english muffin with ketchup!


Donkey on 09/27/2019:
Glad to have you back!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/27/2019:
thanks ;)



horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Sep 25, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

Feeling a bit better but not into logging food this week. hope you all are doing good too! 

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 09/26/2019:
Glad you're feeling better.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/26/2019:
i'm glad i'm not as down as i was last week. i felt absolutely terrible.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/26/2019:
emotionally, i mean.


BearCountryGG on 09/26/2019:
Happy that you are feeling better!


Donkey on 09/26/2019:
I'm glad you're feeling better. It's good to step back, once in a while.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/26/2019:
i may need more steps back, yes ;)



horn_of_plenty - Monday Sep 23, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

i am taking a bit of a hiatus right now...to get myself in a better place :) 

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 09/23/2019:
Understand. Good luck.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/25/2019:
Thanks so much!


BearCountryGG on 09/23/2019:
You will figure it out, good luck.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/25/2019:
THANKS :)


Donkey on 09/24/2019:
Thinking of you!

Horn_of_plenty on 09/25/2019:
thanks for thinking of me!!!


innerpeace on 09/24/2019:
Good luck to you my dear. Please remember to not compare yourself to others. Take care of yourself.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/25/2019:
thanks, that is great advice!!!!


legcramps on 09/24/2019:
Feel better!

Horn_of_plenty on 09/25/2019:
thanks, LEGS!



horn_of_plenty - Sunday Sep 22, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

8am small rice krispie treat with added pb on top. 250. 

 

 

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went to the awards dinner. lots of female electricans there. i didn't really fit in. felt awkward at the social event. my dad went also, i talked to him and got emotional so we went outside to chat. i explained how i made a lot of unwise choices in life, running from careers, now stuck due to my own poor judgement. i don't want advice on this...it is what it is.

i have shin splints that will heal i am sure. but it's aggrivating. 

i went to school for a masters and it's in the garbage (not going back).

i went to xray school and got a certificate which is also in the garbage (not going back).

i tried to train myself to be a court officer, but my body couldn't hold up.

now i have pain just doing daily walking / chores and i feel so weak...but it should get better if i work on it i guess.

4 years in teaching. 2 years studying xray. and 8.5 years in the electrical industry. It all goes by so fast, it frightens me, but at the same time it's going by so slow that i am so nervous of what's to come / change in this industry...feeling like it's changing so fast in the blink of an eye that technology won't even keep up and i will not follow it fast enough.

i really f'ed up my life. i kNOW i can change it. i know that.  i know i can change it at least a little bit. at least i have a job for now...for awhile.

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 09/22/2019:
Sorry you feel this way. Many people can't figure out where they fit. You may stumble it on one day. Keep looking. Hugs.


BearCountryGG on 09/22/2019:
I guess we all question things we have done and why we did them, you will figure it out. Thankfully you have a job that you can live on.....


Donkey on 09/22/2019:
Well, if nothing else, you showed up for dad, and had the opportunity to speak with him. And that is something to be treasured.

I don't want to say any more lest I sound like I'm giving advice. As a word of encouragement, though, I do want to add that as long as you haven't killed anyone or aren't going to jail, you haven't hit rock-bottom, even if it feels that way.

(((hugs)))



horn_of_plenty - Saturday Sep 21, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

9am Breakfast: oatmeal with almond milk and stevia 170, pumpkin and spice chobani yogurt 130. 300, iced coffee. 50.

 10:30am pb on rice cake 200

1:30pm lunch rest of the leftover hamburger on a wrap 300, cucumber salad i made 150. 450. and small bag chips. 150, drink 50..

aminos during exercise 50, pb on cracker 150

1350

dinner awards ceremony tonight - didnt count. 

2150 or so.

 

 

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still recovering. haven't driven my car in awhile, so, will do that today.

headed out around 10:30am to go to a free tap dance performance at a library that is 15-20 min drive away. i prefer to go out, than to stay home. 

Sine i'm going out, i will pick up some fruit on the way home also...means i should put my clothes away that are on my cart  that i bring with me when i go shopping - for bringing groceries up from my car... 

Then, i'm coming home for lunch & staying home. I am thinking to do a weights workout around 2pm since i have time. I want to do all the weights lifting in a sitting position, not standing like i was doing.

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Tonight i signed up to go to a dinner held by one of the union clubs. i'll be going with Ricky, the only reason i am attending actually because i wouldn't go alone. it's a dinner/social event. it's also FREE...that's kinda nice, i'd say ;)..it's pretty local and later on it starts at 7pm, so i need to be ready around 6pm...and get ready around 5pm for it...ok, glad i wrote this out. 

after typing the plans, seems my day has more going on than i previously thought.

 

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 09/21/2019:
I'm a little behind in commenting. I'm glad to hear that you tried the Express Bus. I think you'll find it worth it - at least for now as you are healing. I did a similar thing when I worked in downtown Chicago. I could take the L (elevated/subway) or the commuter train. The train was more expensive but completely worth it. Better seat, smoother ride, more reliable in winter, ran a set schedule.

Did you get your stationary bike?

Your day sounds very fun-filled and enriching!

Horn_of_plenty on 09/21/2019:
At this small library concert that i went to, a retired court officer sat in back of me - you can see he had a career of health physically bc he might have had a small stomach, but he looked better than most and had high energy levels.

i got the stationary bike, rode it last night. i had some small pain in my left leg though...from riding it - it was aggrivating my shin splints. i won't ride it today...


grannyannie on 09/21/2019:
Lifting weights from sitting is a good idea, works the same. A tap dancing performance sounds fun.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/21/2019:
At this small library concert that i went to, a retired court officer sat in back of me - you can see he had a career of health physically bc he might have had a small stomach, but he looked better than most and had high energy levels.

i got the stationary bike, rode it last night. i had some small pain in my left leg though...from riding it - it was aggrivating my shin splints. i won't ride it today...


grannyannie on 09/21/2019:
Yes, let your legs heal. Don't push it. I overdid with my shoulder injury and regretted it.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/22/2019:
thanks, Annie. I guess i just need TO LISTEN to my body..


BearCountryGG on 09/21/2019:
It's good to start your car at least once a week...we learned the hard way with my Moms van...the battery died.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/22/2019:
thank you for the advice...i should try to move it each week, indeed!


Donkey on 09/21/2019:
I hope you have a fabulous upper body workout. You have lovely, strong, defined shoulders, back, and arms. Right now, play to your strengths.

And honor and pamper your legs as much as you need to, whether it's a light rub, or some oil or lotion, a roller. The bike will always be there; your legs need your love and care now.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/22/2019:
thanks Donkey. I am so upset over it, but i know i just have to move on.


grannyannie on 09/22/2019:
I know how you feel. I got really depressed when I couldn't do anything involving my shoulder. But it has to be done. It will get better!



horn_of_plenty - Friday Sep 20, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

kombucha tea 60

breakfast with healthy intentions: wrap and egg 200, avo 150, coffee 50...and a dunkin donuts french cruller 200 from coworker.!!! it didn't taste all that wonderful, but i ate it because it also didn't taste bad! LOL.

700!!! even before a snack....i guess french crullers shouldn't follow a full breakfast, lol.or at least, not a WHOLE french cruller (portion sizes matter!)

snack: almonds

lunch 1/2 a HUGE burger 400 with salad 50/dressing, grilled asparagus 100, few fries 150, croutons 100.  800

snack: apple/banana 250 had a banana on the bus bc I was motion sick on the way home 

dinner:smaller  burger 200? On wrap 120 leftover turkey 80, salad 100, ice cream 200. 700

2700 - unplanned lousy count but overall is prob ok for the week...

weekpy avg: 2050

(will prob be a higher cal day, but that's OK as it will average out)

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took the express bus and was on time, magically. really, i need to take the earlier bus if i really want to be on time, but the earlier bus is a half hour earlier....might be time to change my hours...i should take the express bus for the rest of the month.

i'm taking the Express bus so i can sit on the entire commute for now. it's double the price and a little longer ride. (the other option is bus / train which is actually faster and cheaper, lol)

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 09/20/2019:
Personally...I have never met a french cruller I didn't like!!! The express bus is probably better while you are healing!

Horn_of_plenty on 09/21/2019:
yeah, it prob is.


grannyannie on 09/20/2019:
Maybe you can change your hours to make your commute easier?

Horn_of_plenty on 09/21/2019:
yes, i may be able to do that or else i may just have to show up to work early...and leave a few minutes early.

yes, i am sure i could quietly shift it a little bit.

i do prefer to take the bus/train which is a lot faster - the bus ride is so long - one hour at least in my seat without moving. the other way, the local bus is 20 min, the train is around 25 min...it goes by so much faster...i hope to feel better and go back to it at some point.



horn_of_plenty - Thursday Sep 19, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

kombucha 50

eng muffin 120, 150 avo, egg 80, chocolate 80. coffee 50. 

snack almonds

lunch: takeout from buffet - fried rice 200, turkey 200, veggies 100. 500.

snack: apple/almonds

1350

after work: sushi spicy tuna roll 500? light ice cream 300. 800.

2150.

 

 

 

 

 

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Still not overusing my legs, but they still are burning on the sides a little and my left ankle is def feel abused. i stood on the subway today, no seats. still a hassel for me to do. I just have to rest and start at scratch when i feel better. Still i haven't tried the Express Bus because you need a different metro card that i didn't add money to until last night. Today i'll take that bus home, i've decided..and tomorrow i'll take it to work. we'll see how sitting (there's always seats) on the bus going to and from works instead of a bus and train that i stand on. I hate right now how i am so dependant and how my body feels as rigid as someone who is 75 when i'm 37. i don't understand it...but then again, i do. i overdid walking for a few consecutive weekends and this is how my body reacts.  It's very frustrating to me. I just don't have the musculature of an athlete let alone even most people my age (in my legs, i'm talking about). my arms are actually stronger than most people my age. just frustrating all of it.

 

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 09/19/2019:
Is it shin splints that you have? I know those are painful. Or is it muscle?

Horn_of_plenty on 09/21/2019:
it is shin splints, but with that, it means the calf muscle is both tight and weak.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/21/2019:
additionally, the left ankle i broke is weak right now.

so, i guess it's 2 things.


BearCountryGG on 09/19/2019:
You have a tiny bone structure....maybe arms are just going to be your strong point...we all have body limitations...heredity and build count.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/21/2019:
yeah, it does.


legcramps on 09/19/2019:
I understand how frustrating it can be to not be able to forge ahead towards your goals. Rest, recover, then try again. That's all you can do. Once you accept where you're at - it will be easier to progress forward. My suggestion would be to start a lot smaller - shorter bursts of cardio rather than trying to tackle a bike ride, a walk, everything in the same day.

Also - I know you love working your upper body, but it's just as important to ensure your legs are strong and ready for the pummeling they take during high intensity cardio. It would be prudent for you to incorporate more into your leg workouts. Just an idea!! Take it or leave it :)

Horn_of_plenty on 09/21/2019:
you are right about getting legs strong before cardio.

i appreciate your suggestions.

i feel though, that i have to WAIT before i TRY AGAIN due to needing recovery time.

i tried the home bike last night, not sure if it helped or hurt. my right leg feels great, but left one burns a little on the outside shin...we'll see.


Donkey on 09/20/2019:
You are right to focus on focusing on your lower body. Maintaining one's mobility is so important, especially as we get older.

I love the idea of shorter, frequent sessions for leg cardio. Also, perhaps start doing the exercises you learned in physical therapy again.

This whole scenario has me thinking that you might need to shift from hard workouts (duration, heavier weights) on the upper body to very focused exercises that seem small scale, on the lower body. Does that make sense?

It would definitely be a shift.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/21/2019:
yes, it seems healing needs a shift from me...appreciate your comments. i feel as though i'm "spinning my wheels" lately in life/career/exercise.

i am even spinning my wheels on DD...feeling like i need a break here too. not because of anyone, just for myself.

i like to record calories, maybe i'll just write about life/other situations on some days but not all.



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