- Tuesday Oct 16, 2007
i must update one more time today. I shouldn't be acting this way, especially because this is the EASIEST of all jobs i have had in the past 4 years, including this year. I have NO reason to not be able to accomplish what i wish. But, I AM ruining it for myself.
I am going on a 1200 calorie diet. And i would really like to say i will not binge again.
today was not as good as the preceeding days...and my pants are getting really tight!!!
i need to be mature about all of this. i'm acting really immature, eating whatever i wish. this is not smart.
i've been buying stuff out of the vending machine at lunch. It's pretty much on a daily basis. it's not healthy, but i was figurring that would be a great way to end cravings. nah. it's not working. I still binged after school.
therefore, i will have to change my mindset. yet again.
no more junk good. more veggies. my skin is bad because i've been eating bad.
calories are BAD: 5,000.
- Monday Oct 15, 2007
calories: 2065 ehh. i messed up in calculations and i meant for it to be a little lower.
exercise today: 1 hr, 45 min :) mostly walking/bike.
total oct: 19 hr, 25 min.
- Sunday Oct 14, 2007
exercise: 1.25 miles in morning. i'll also count half the time i was at the fair. 1 hr walking. total exercise: 1 hr, 25 min :)
total oct: 17 hrs, 40 min :)
today was a good day.
total cal: 1800.
Breakfast: cereal and protein powder: 320
snack: veggie burger and broccoli slaw. kombucha.
snack: protein bar from special k. good! 180 cal.
lunch: ham on whole wheat with some spray butter. green pepper.
snack at fair: 3 pickles
dinner: subway wrap and sun chips...and a chocolate ice...and some protein powder and water mixed. (too many calories here, but not really, i was too hungry too many hours went by. 500 + 120 + 100 = 720 cal.)
- Saturday Oct 13, 2007
Sunday morning edit:
I'm doing well today. Woke up and had breafast and went back to sleep for about an hour. I woke up at 7am. I had some cereal and soy protein mix and it was all very good. 320.
I had a snack of a veggie burger and broccoli slaw with dressing. 185.
I had another snack of Kombucha. I cleaned my room and did laundry.
Now, i'm going out for a walk at the park. Then, lunch. Then, to an Oyster Festival, haha!, with some friends. I live on the east coast - and there's always great things to do this time of year. :)
Saturday PM entry:
today was an overall good day.
Breakfast = bran cereals and water/protein powder peanut butter flavor mix. 315 cal.
snack: coffee 40
lunch: subway wrap (some kind of white wrap) with roast beef and harvest cheddar sun chips 520
snack: kombucha, veggie burger and broccoli slaw with spray dressing 205
dinner: subway again, different place. They had DIFFERENT wraps here. I liked it better because the wrap was whole wheat and larger than the white wrap i had for lunch. I had salsa flavor sun ships. 500
snack: diet coke. i might have something else later. It's only 8:39 and i'm getting all snacky already. Dinner was at 7:30 so i really shouldn't be hungry. and tomatoes (40)
I did 5.5 miles at the park. This park is awesome because one way is half that mileage. So, going back and forth only once gets a whole lot of miles down!
time: 110 minutes (1 hr, 50 min.)
total oct exercise: 16 hrs, 15 min :)
- Friday Oct 12, 2007
Saturday afternoon edit: I'm having a good day. I had a cereal breakfast with protein powder. Lots of bran to get things moving. I went to see the movie Elizabeth: The Golden Age. It was pretty good. some gorey parts, nothing too bad. I had a decaf coffee during the movie.
I had lunch at 1:30 and was sooooo shakey before eating. It was sick! I bought sun chips and a roast beef wrap. I had to drink a whole 20 ounce or whatever it was of water, taking my time, before leaving Subway. I came home and took a nap!! Did some laundry, ironing. I drank a little Kombucha and now I'm off to the park. Btw, i felt better after lunch. I had breakfast around 9:15 and it was awhile since breakfast before lunch, which contributed to the shakeyness.
865 calories + kombucha = 925 calories :)
45 min exercise.
total = 14 hrs, 25 min :)
calories: 2330 (added a green pepper before bed)
lol. i just have to laugh. binged on 5 packets cinnamon oatmeal. right out of the packages with a spoon. no liquid
total cal today: 2300.
calories so far are 1660. didn't stick to any kind of low sugar plan. breakfast = pretzels 220 bc i was running late and the selection at school that i had to choose from was HORRIBLE!
snack = veggie burger and tomatoes = good snack. = 130
lunch = ham, alfalfa sprouts and tomatoes = 200
snack after school/binge = alfalfa sprouts (whole container), carrots, 4 veggie burgers, 2 yogurts with fruit flavor and lots of sugar in them along with 2 scoops of protein. 1110
want to know some gross information? I have been eating so much that my body can hardly hold it in anymore. I have trouble walking around and feel like I constantly need to use the bathroom. LOL, sadly, you can't do that while teaching at school. I actually had to wear something protective so that I had no major accidents until being able to get to the bathroom. That's disgraceful!!!
I'm working on it...LOL.
I'm working on it...
It's soooo hard to stop binging. This can be a great weekend.
It really can. I need a plan. That's what i'll do now :)
- Thursday Oct 11, 2007
30 min exercise
13 hrs, 40 min :) exercise.
so, again with the plan: i like an emphasis on some protein. carbs might give me energy but i always find myself binging on them. I have always recieved greatest success with a diet with ample protein and more veggies/fruits than i've been eating. so, i need to somehow come back to reality. vending machine food is junk. when i was even in high school, i hardly ever bought that stuff! Boy have things changed in the past 10 years! haha.
the plan for awhile:
breakfast can be bran cereal/fiber cereal with protein powder mixed in.
i needed to think of a good snack. I think i have one. it'll be a morningstar veggie burger and, lol, some vegetable. like, cherry tomatoes. i have such a late lunch, it doesn't work well for me at all. I'll have this snack when i'm standing in the lunchroom watching the kids. If someone says something, i'll flat out tell them that i get very hungry/shakey at that time and i need to eat something. it should be perfectly fine.
then, 2 hours later, i hvae lunch 5 minutes to 2pm. it'll be veggies and protein for awhile...no carbs from the vending machine (candy, twix, cheese-its).
when i get home, i'll allow myself a snack of course. veggies and a veggie burger or sausage or any protein. I'll make sure to mix it up a bit.
dinner: subway wrap with chips. diet coke
calories for today are 4260. I didn't think this would happen today.
Breakfast: bowl of a grain and nut cereal mixed with fiber cereal, milk, and a little protein powder. then, peanut butter sandwich. 770
lunch: ham with cherry tomatoes and sprouts. some peanut and crackers snack from the vending machine and twix cookie bars.
when i got home, i wasn't even hungry. its raining really bad and i wasn't going to walk a half hour to get my car...and i wasn't even sure of the location because my sister hadn't told me.
i did binge: chicken noodle soup with an entire package of broccoli slaw (pretty much just 4 cups of cut up broccoli). 2 veggie burgers. then, a whole 6 ounce bag of chocolate, milano cookies, jelly candy, cinnamon roll oatmeal, chex and milk, granola and milk.
total calories: 4260.
- Wednesday Oct 10, 2007
exercise: 1 hr, 5 min.
total exercise: 13 hr, 10 min.
total calories are a whopping 4200. so, if i burned around 2,000 I still have 2200 leftover calories.
well, it ended up being a really BAD day caloriewise. It seems that since I haven't gained 30 pounds yet, I will just keep on forging ahead with my binges. This is all just very dumb.
my binge = 2100 calories. It included a full bag of chocolate and another bag of gummi candy (halloween stuff...) Now, i'll have to replace it!
Breakfast was a mix of cereal and peanut butter protein powder: 300
Snacked on Peanut Butter m&ms! 250
Lunch was a large salad of romaine and tofu with olive oil and oregano. followed by a bag of cheese-its. I almost started to buy another vending machine snack but realized that i'd had enough. 520
snack after school: 1/2 bag baby carrots, 1/2 block tofu, 2 cups of a bran cereal with 1 scoop of protein powder and some sugar free syrup. 660
- Tuesday Oct 09, 2007
Wed morning edit: I woke up an hour early to drive to the high school to retake my tuberculosis test because last time too many days went by and the reading was no longer accurate. the nurse forgot i was coming and didn't tell me she'd be at a meeting in another town all morning!!!! LOL! Hopefully i'll be able to go at lunch. Otherwise, since you need to show results over a 48 hour period, I'll have to wait till next week! Hmmm. Maybe I'll get the shot tomorrow and be able to show it to another physician over the weekend. i really want to volunteer and cannot without the proper medical records!!!
total cal: 1990.
total exercise: 1 hr, 20 min.
total october: 12 hr, 5 min
I stuck to my food plan until lunch. haha. then, i added in a package of cheese-its from the vending machine. total calories were 1020 up till 3:30 when i got home from school.
After school: at first, i attempted a small snack which lead into a meal. The "meal" consisted of several servings of bread with protein powder and sugar free syrup on it. lol, like french toast almost! i also had a few tomatoes and tofu before eating the "french toast." calories for this stuff equals 750.
total calories so far: 1800. I'll have something later probably, in the evening. its 4:11 right now. (calories were not 1500 for the day as planned. honestly, my focus shouldn't be weight loss anyway.)
- Monday Oct 08, 2007
I promise to make tomorrow a better day. The plan: to eat something tiny with caloric value over the course of the LONG morning until lunch at 1:55pm.
Waking up: the last sip of leftover kombucha (tea with a small amount of calories) and water (not with flavoring tomrrow because i NEED some detox!) (20)
The plan: breakfast = oatmeal + protein powder. (250)
Snack = pack of peanut m&m's spread over the course of the morning...what do you think?? To keep blood sugar up. Because not eating is not working. (250)
Lunch: tomatoes, lettuce, and tofu with olive oil. (300)
Snack: Sports drink during exercise...but I think that so much sugar will make me binge later possibly. Maybe some kind of energy bar throughout execise?? Maybe just carrots? ugh. I want to fix my habit of eating right after school. alright, i've decided: my pound bag of baby carrots could take me through my afternoons into dinner! :) I think I will try this for a week. Is eating a lb of carrots bad for a week straight?? (200)
Dinner: I would something healthy. Whenever i have a "poor" day like today, i always look foward to more veggies and healthy foods i've been missing. Right now, I'm thinking about another salad which WILL include: greens, red pepper, avocado, beans, and maybe even green beans. There WILL be dressing. I'll use a spray balsamic vinegrette. (450?)
The orientation was good. I just let my emotions overwhelm me! so stupid!
Good day yesterday. Poor day today.
breakfast was ok: 600 calories.
I binged when I get home around 2pm from the orientation.
Total calories: 5800. What does that mean? It means I need to try harder and not let me feelings and insecurities get me down.
calories changed. 6100 to be more exact. exercise: 1 hr, 45 min :)
total oct: 10 hrs, 45 min :)
- Sunday Oct 07, 2007
I read about something really cool today that measures almost exactly the calories we burn each day. It's called Body Bug and you wear it on your arm. It's REALLY pricey. No, I'm not buying it. But, it is sooo interesting! :)
Breakfast on Monday: 600 cal. 3 servings whole grain pita chips, protein scoop, 1/2 kelp noodles baked with olive oil and cinnamon/sweet and low on top. Yeah, strange breakfast indeed. I'm happy to report not going back for any other food afterwards! :)
So today was a very good day for me.
I walked about 8 miles or so. Most of it (about 7) was done all at once with a few quick sitting breaks inbetween! There's a really lovely "Greenway" or walking strip adjacent to a major roadway in Queens, NY. It's beautiful because the other side is a Marina with lots of boats and beautiful scenery/nature. I walked there both back and forth. It equals about 5 miles. Then, i also took the footbridge that crosses over the expressway into another whole park which leads into a community and other fields. It's really beautiful.
The only part of the park I didn't really do any walking in at all was the wooded area. I don't know how safe it is to be surrounded by tons of trees and bushes in an area I'm not familiar with. I wouldn't want to become another statistic. I have a few other safe areas left to explore. When i'm done, there's at least one other park I plan on going to before the weather really changes over. BTW, today was like summer again! 80s in October!
Later, I went to the bookstore for a bit and afterwards decided it was still to early to go home. I also decided I still have more energy to spare and I did a bit more walking at a park only 15 minutes from home. I walked for about a half hour there.
I'm assuming total mileage today to be 8 miles. That's an honest estimate.
Total exercise today: 2 hrs, 40 min (actually it's much more, but I cannot account for sitting or really slow walking!).
Total October exercise: 9 hours! yes yes yes!
Tomorrow I have off from work. The plan is to go to the orientation for the hospital I'm going to volunteer at one day per week. After that, it's up in the air. I'll be going to the grocery store to pick up a few things since i didn't today. I plan on some good exercise of course. The plan is to take my bike to the park. I need to lay off the walking a little or my ankle is going to get weak again.
An update, my ankle is doing well these days. The exercises to strengthen the ligaments around it are working! :)
The "oatmeal cake" as described in saturday's entry. 500 cal
1 bag mini carrots and a coffee. 300 cal
lots of water and diet drinks (I'm not planning on laying off those).
1/2 bag kelp noodles 10 cal
Dinner with family, dad's bday:
salad 30 cal
seasoned and baked potatoes with olive oil on them. very good. one of mom's usually well made dishes. 250 cal
meat seasoned with rosemary and other really good spices, baked in the rotiseree. Awesome. I haven't had meat in awhile and it's good and healthy for the body. 300 cal
olive oil and seasoned with salt/pepper asparagus baked in oven - similiarly made to the potatoes. This asparagus is another favorite food in this house, especially by my sister. 150 cal.
dinner: packet of flavored coffee. packet of some kind of cappuccino mix. around 200 cal.
I looked at the cherry pie and couldn't stomach it. The thought of wrecking a good calorie day wasn't going to happen. I worked so hard today at the park and couldn't bear to eat something that looked too rich to have only one bite. LOL.
I'm guesstimating calories to be between 1800-1900. i hope i'm not too off. This was a better calorie day than i've been having in awhile. Pretty balanced nutritionally. I like the idea of a substantial breakfast, few but healthy snacking throughout the day followed by a good dinner.