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horn_of_plenty - Saturday Aug 04, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 115.0

9am Strawberries and blueberries 150, whole grain cream of wheat with almond milk 180, whipped cream 120: 450. little bit of kombucha: 

noon Chocolate pb treat 100

Late 3pm lunch: Coffee 50, nasty protein bar 200, lots of tasty ripe strawberries 100 900

6pm Dinner: LEFTOVERS :) broccoli and veggies 100, spinach 50, butter bread with vinagrette 200, egg 100 yummmmmm 450 yummy healthy!

want a light couple days :) did gooooood today....

snack: maybe.ice cream 300

1650 today.

easy day. no gym until tomorrow which i'm trying for a BIG session in the afternoon.

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I slept in till 9am ! because we went to bed late around / after midnight. yeseterday was a nice day :) ...it's a rainy day. not sure of plans. will relax now at home. 

schedule to go to a dance concert with ricky but it's outdoors in courtyard. if the rain is minimal i'm going to try to go wtih him and bring umbrella. but we first have to see if it's still even on! - it was cancelled but we walked around and went shopping/browsing & got a few groceries

Progress as of today: -1 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/04/2018:
Blueberries here too for several days...they are sweet right now!

Horn_of_plenty on 08/04/2018:
strawberries have been delightful even tho its passed their season around here!


Donkey on 08/05/2018:
"Nasty protein bar" -- why didn't you throw it out after the first or second bite instead of eating something nasty?

Horn_of_plenty on 08/05/2018:
lol...you are right to ask and wonder! haha...

there are some reasons: #1 - it was overpriced around $3 - i do think this had a lot to do with it... #2 - i was ravenous bc it was around 3 i think and my calories were so good...i was eating it more like an appetite suppressant which worked out for the day, luckily #3 along with #2, it was really a calorie-counting thing and trying to work things out.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/05/2018:
for #2 i meant it was around 3PM...late....not 3 as in $3 lol.



horn_of_plenty - Friday Aug 03, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 115.0

Early morning: peanut butter cup 80

Breakfast: cereal Grain Berry 150, almond milk 30, blueberries 120. 300.

Supposed to have lunch with Christine, but just ate now right before 11:30 - wrap 100, turkey breast spicy meat 50, 1/4 lg avocado 100 and veggies 50. 300., bai raspberry tea

2nd lunch: ? not in mood...veggies i guess...maybe ask her to change plans since she might get here late, otherwise i'll get a veggie tofu soup and a diet coke with lemon.700

2 wraps 150,  turkey 100, avocado 150...400, coffee 50.  450 

Small coffee with cream and small protein bar 200 

late when i got home: sf jello and whipped cream. 150.

2200. decent. i could have done better but had like 2 healthy lunches, but it was 2 lunches. still not a bad day.

2200 weekly avg.

 

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Happy Friday slow morning at home :) 

Eating Breakfast, Doing Laundry...

getting set to enjoy the weekend!

I went & put money on my laundry card later & pick up my dress that i got fixed at cleaners for wedding in a couple weeks today.

Went to the supermarket to get food for the week ahead!

Happy to have taken today off.

Seeing a movie & getting lunch with my friend C later.

And in the early evening after 4pm, out to go fishing and see a free concert with R. HAPPY TO NOT BE AT WORK, at my desk, or taking public transportation now!

R was just laid off...they are laying people off. I hope he gets a positition at another company in a week or so...he went to union to fill out the appropriate paperwork. he didn't do anything wrong, the company is just elminiating some workers bc there's less work.

 

Progress as of today: -1 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

Donkey on 08/03/2018:
*Jealous* but my day off will be Monday... Of course, taking Husband to the doctor isn't exactly the way I'd like to spend a day off, but it's away from work, so it still counts.

Enjoy your day!

Horn_of_plenty on 08/03/2018:
yeah, i'm thankful to have taken today off. it worked out quite well and also well for planning things last minute with friends :) i also got some outstanding errands done so i'm happy not to be thinking of them anymore!


graindart on 08/03/2018:
I shouldn't have checked in here before starting work. Now all I want to do is blow off the day and go camping. Enjoy your day.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/03/2018:
lol soooo soooorrrryyyy to tempt you...just kiddin'! haha

it worked out really well with today off :) i was productively busy in the morning and was able to sleep in a couple hours till 8 :) instead of having to be at work at 8!


Maria7 on 08/03/2018:
Happy you are having a good day. :-)

Horn_of_plenty on 08/03/2018:
yes i am :) but i realized that i put in for vacation but didn't get it approved! Meaning, my supervisor wasn't there to approve it yesterday even though everyone was emailed i was taking vaca. should be OK.


BearCountryGG on 08/03/2018:
Nice long weekend!

horn_of_plenty on 08/03/2018:
Year indeed ! I'm nervous that I accidentally forgot that my vacation is supposed to be approved oops - the secretary urged me to hand it in and I forgot til today when it dawned on me that it needs to be approved lol ah well well see what happens Monday big mistake on my part but hopefully Not treated as major come Monday


happy-1 on 08/05/2018:
You inspired me to organize what I am packing for my next trip a couple of weeks ahead.

I hope R will be ok!

Horn_of_plenty on 08/05/2018:
how did i inspire you????

R is feeling pretty good...seems he wants some time off on unemployment before starting a new job. he's 58 & seems to want some time to relax right now. he's told me he'll wait a couple months at least before going back to work...



horn_of_plenty - Thursday Aug 02, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

Breakfast at work: coffee 50 with milk / stevia, coconut chocolate covered bar 170. 220.

Snack: egg / avocado wrap 250. and these awesome scrambled egg whites from a quick walk with coworker in AM..! yes, really. 100. hopefully not more, it was a big serving of egg whites.

Lunch: another avocado wrap 200, tomato 50 with salt / pepper, leftover beans 100, maybe plums for a snack 50. 400.. roasted veggies? 100, coffee 50

Before gym: caffeine and carbs for sure, banana 350, whipped cream 100/jello

during / after gym: small banana 100, zone bar 200, 2 atkins peanut butter cups 150. 450. good.

 Today: 2050, excellent to say the least.

6day: 2185, excellent.

 took a very long way home, so had some extra snacks as it's late now before gym...relaxing for a few minutes, then out to do my routine. I skipped a day or two this week, which is fine! My plan is to go tonight and then sunday morning i'm thinking - instead of Saturday night as it's pretty late now and i'm better off doing the next workout Sunday, not Saturday afternoon :) 

I decided to take a vacation day tomorrow at the last minute. Will be seeing a movie with a friend and having lunch with her. then going out to the Beach with R.  Saturday i'll hang with R also, to see at least 1 concert (free). and Sunday i'm also hanging with him, another free concert. ...Laundry somewhere inbetween - probably Saturday morning or afternoon.

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I was debating a sick day, but i'm glad i didn't take one and that i made it into work, late by 10min...I'm leaving early today at 4:10...and getting my butt to the gym. I've been working late and not focussing on my own goals for after work fitness stuff...Now that it's August I'm keeping my commitment to do better. And NOT to take any sick days!  I'm trying to conserve all vaca time for during the Winter, to make that season when i don't want to exercise and it REALLY is tough to do stuff after work - it'll be easier. I'll be able to use vaca / sick days then...NOT now.

Also I have Jewish holidays in September, which i'll take off WITHOUT pay.  So these are days off I'll have to exercise and celebrate the holidays at my own pace...probably watch a service at home with my parents (we aren't members of a synogogue to go only 2x a year is not worth it) .  so, I have days off, plenty, come fall / Winter so i'm really looking to BLOW thru summer without taking days when it's easier to push myself, the weather is good to get out to gym later and get biking and jogging in after work..

Like Donkey says, I have to remember my limits...and rest still when i have to, not push too hard right now. I feel better now that i'm here at work.  Now that i'm at work and realizing i can take my schedule at my own pace more, I feel better again. I am in charge of my after work schedule to a degree, and I will remember that! 

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 08/02/2018:
Good job! And good job managing sick days!!!

horn_of_plenty on 08/02/2018:
yeah, i'm trying to really save them for the Winter. trying hard.


BearCountryGG on 08/02/2018:
Yup...save those sick days!!!!

horn_of_plenty on 08/02/2018:
right!? i'm trying. i'll show up tomorrow to work. :)

horn_of_plenty on 08/02/2018:
i'm suddenly tired and panicky...i'll take a breather...should be ok. i can sleep in all weekend :)



horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Aug 01, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

Home kombucha 80

Work: coffee 80, chocolate covered coconut bar by Atkins 170, dark chocolate covered pomagranate small balls 150. 400. 

Snack: wrap 100, avocado 100, egg 80. 280...later almonds, hungry day 50.

Lunch: i have tons of veggies. want to have my big tomato and season it with salt and pepper, also i have beans and leftover pork kebab from dinner with Dad on Monday. 700...had a lot of food & beans. all healthy, just a lot.

coffee 50

1550.

Snack: before gym: carbs - due to feeling VERY tired, i may not go to gym tonight & go to bed early instead.....

too tired for gym.

: tbd light ice cream.banana with pb. 500 whipped cream 150

2200. good.

More whipped cream 250

2450 - ok

5day: 2210

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/01/2018:
PLEASE.......tell more about the dark chocolate pomegranate things.......

horn_of_plenty on 08/01/2018:
lol, they are NOTHING good....i only ate them bc someone else in the office brought them...link below to what i'm talking about!

https://express.google.com/u/0/product/1086103980862704843_10435458106732236860_10046?utm_source=google_shopping&utm_medium=tu_cu&utm_content=eid-lsjeuxoeqt,eid-ygcnqnyulq&utm_campaign=10046


BearCountryGG on 08/01/2018:
I've had the brookside chocolates before....not the pomegranate ones though.....good to know.

horn_of_plenty on 08/01/2018:
to me, they are all the same ;) sugary jell inside of dark chocolate.


legcramps on 08/01/2018:
I normally dislike tomatoes, but BF like to eat them with seasoning, and so i've been trying it more lately. Not bad!

Have fun at the gym today! I'm jealous! Today is slopitch day for me.

horn_of_plenty on 08/01/2018:
still didn't eat it, but will have it later in week...my period is messing with my taste buds and i'm craving random things this week.


Maria7 on 08/01/2018:
Hope you get some rest and feel better.

horn_of_plenty on 08/01/2018:
Thank you :-)


Donkey on 08/02/2018:
Hope you slept well... good for you for knowing your limits!

horn_of_plenty on 08/02/2018:
it was an ok sleep, just waking up to use the bathroom like 3 times but i was in bed a long time and could have stayed there even more. i considered a sick day today...but glad i pushed myself, actually.


happy-1 on 08/02/2018:
Oooh a bannana split!

horn_of_plenty on 08/02/2018:
YES...i hadn't thought of that!..that's what it was!



horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Jul 31, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

 Home: kombucha 80

Work: Atkins coconut chocolate coated bar yummmm 170 and coffee 50

Snack: wrap 100, egg 80, avocado 100. 280-300.

Lunch: Salad leftovers 400 ? and chocolates 150

Snack: almonds??? 100 

Before gym: carbs i think 200

bike & jog !!!!!!!!!!!! yayyyyyyyyy!

After gym: TBD500

1950 success

4day:

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Trying to get haircut at lunch and if i'm back a hair late, i'll stay late?

I made up time for coming back late today and for going home early tomorrow bc of a dr appt tomorrow. success.

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 07/31/2018:
You can make it to the gym tonight! I believe in you!

Horn_of_plenty on 07/31/2018:
tomorrow i get out early for a short dr appt and decided tonight, since i got home late, to do a shorter, cardio workout! i'm really happy with how it went....ran a full mile!


BearCountryGG on 07/31/2018:
I've been getting the Atkins bars for D...he really likes them

Horn_of_plenty on 07/31/2018:
Those coconut ones are my favorite at the moment!

Horn_of_plenty on 07/31/2018:
i like them with a coffee!


Donkey on 08/01/2018:
Well done!

horn_of_plenty on 08/01/2018:
thank you, i was so happy to get Cardio in. I need to remember to keep this commitment...and i'm back to full commitment in August :) 1x-2x per week again.


graindart on 08/01/2018:
I always like seeing your daily consistency. It's inspiring.

horn_of_plenty on 08/02/2018:
Thank you GAINS! it's been rocky the past couple weeks, but i'm beginning to feel a bit better now.



horn_of_plenty - Monday Jul 30, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

Home: kombucha 80

Work: bar 170, coffee 50.

Snack: wrap 100, avocado 100, egg or half turkey burger 100. 300.

Lunch: same kinda wrap as above: 300, tomato 50. Plums 50  550? 600?

1200...

Later snack: almonds 100

1300

Dinner at home alone probably and a quick haircut…bed early bc i want to have a great week including exercise on Tues/Thurs/Sunday :) 

Dinner with dad indulged 2250 today

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I accidentally left my awesome thai food at coworker's house and told her not to haul it all the way into the city for me and for her to just enjoy it this week...i do plan to pick up some cooked veggies to eat for dinner tonight ....and most of the thai dinner i forgot was chicken as i ate like all the veggies when we ordered it last night haha...so...oh well. i have sausagees i can cook up tonight to also have for wiork this week and tuna still in the cupbard.as well as tofu...i guess i'm good. and eggs. it would have been nice to have the thai chicken i had ordered with a lot left, but, that's a loss now! haha.

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 07/30/2018:
Good start to the new week!!!

horn_of_plenty on 07/30/2018:
I do feel this way :)


happy-1 on 07/30/2018:
Mmmm thai food

horn_of_plenty on 07/31/2018:
MY FAVE TYPE OF HEALTHY TAKEOUT!


happy-1 on 07/31/2018:
What do you order at Thai places to stay healthy?



horn_of_plenty - Sunday Jul 29, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

Wrap 100 chicken 150 avocado 100 600 750 kombucha in AM 800 chips 150. 950..

Caffeine drinks

strawberries 50.

dinner: white rice 200?, some garlic chicken pan fried i think? 400?, loads of veggies in a tasty sauce (a LOT of veggies) 500? total: 1100, tops.

total today: 2150, EXCELLENT to say the very least! :)

2 day: 2200 with a fun fun fun day out east at aquarium doing all kinds of awesome things :)

Back to the grind tomorrow :)

 

i gotta say, this was an awesome weekend not having the gym during it...i felt like i was away...it is kind of inspiring to do the gym Mon/Wed/Fri again this week....!..But i will take a break from it still tomorrow - and go Tuesday / Thursday / Sunday so i can rest tomorrow after work bc too much activity and too little rest isn't my thing! ha!

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 07/30/2018:
Fun in your own backyard so to speak.....YEAH!

horn_of_plenty on 07/30/2018:
YES!!!! and i have SO MUCH MORE in my own backyard...it's great to enjoy local things...i hope to continue to do this a lot for a few years / always!


happy-1 on 07/30/2018:
Love the aquarium!



horn_of_plenty - Saturday Jul 28, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

Didn't sleep in but woke up with an appetite and some energy ! Morning food: Rice Krispie treat 100, blueberries 100, drink 50. 250.

Cream of whole wheat made with almond milk 180, some of a cottage cheese 70. 250..bread 80 with peanut butter 160. 250.

Veggies in some oil 100?

Amazing juicy turkey burger I made with sea salt, ginger garlic, pepper 150 Toast 100 with 1/4 lg avocado 100 and squash with smoked salt 50 500 wanting a dessert and chips (body is craving carbs now) 150 

snacks during and after the concert which was AMAZING and soooo cultural (we were seriously in "the hood"...coffee 50 and small snack 100 and then a coconut drink after bc we were soaked from sweating and dancing so much fun 100..250

Nice healthy dinner back at home: 1/4 lg avocado 100, wrap 100, turkey burger 150. 350, some chips too. 150 500 :)

2250 :)

Driving with ricky in afternoon to see a music concert at a park - then we'll eat something and I hope early to bed bc tomorrow is a busy day !

got  a chance ot dance and walk a bit :) a great day :)

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/28/2018:
This week I've been waking up hungry too. Not that the hunger wakes me up, but my tummy seems to be ready for food sooner than usual. It's been hard to hold out for breakfast until after 9am.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/28/2018:
but it is worth it...and i don't drive, so the commute is very distracting and works to not eat before i leave...nobody eats basically on public transport, so i don't get tempted either. when i used to drive, i'd be tempted to eat before work!

lately, due to hormones this week before tom, i've been eating higher cals just going with what i feel my body wants.


BearCountryGG on 07/28/2018:
Blue berries sound good...they are so nice and plump right now....

Horn_of_plenty on 07/28/2018:
they were perfect!!!!!!! yum! fruit in general has been delicious this week!



horn_of_plenty - Friday Jul 27, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

SLEPT IN...BY ACCIDENT. around 15min late. not the worst. i realize i don't need to stay late, bc i was late by a half hour staying late last night :)

Breakfast: bread 160, avocado 160, egg 80. salt and garlic  coffee 50.

snack: prob protein bar.200

lunch: same as breakfast, with 2 peppers. craving chips will buy them 400 + veggies and bite of fruit 150?. 550., also later a snack of coffee 50

total after lunch: 1250..

snack before gym: tbd not sure but veggies would prob not be smart right now..maybe bar and seltzer, banana at gym ?

150

1600before gym...

total 2350, worth the splurge tonight. 

workout was amazing too.

7day is higher but also my "tom" soon so it's just all OK!

 2220 7 day.

 

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It's been a busy week, i look forward to my 3rd gym session tongiht and not going again until after the weekend on either Monday or Tues...still not sure as it's too many plans to even follow right now!

need the bathroom.

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/28/2018:
Surprised you don't have gym plans over the weekend, when usually time is more available than during the workweek. Plans? <:-)

horn_of_plenty on 07/28/2018:
Yes plans is why :) I wanted to sleep in and do laundry this AM :) and have afternoon and night free as well all Sunday free :)



horn_of_plenty - Thursday Jul 26, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

Home kombucha 100

small wrap 80, half avo 80, 1/2 egg 40 salt and pepper 200, coffee 50 (shared half sandwich with coworker) - still hungry trying to wait on it

bar 200

1pm Healthy lunch: 650 or so...bed early tonight...so overtired.

3:30 few tiny plums and almonds 250 tops

1450

Dinner maybe ice cream / jello and SLEEP. haven't slept great this week and with extra training on MWF, i'm really tired.

2200

 6 day 2200.

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 Grrrr....still annoying coworker issue where she's literally singling me out as her punching bag...so far i'm ignoring and also standing up for myself saying i didn't say what she in her mind is assuming i am saying.

she's actually blaming me for things that i'm not saying. unreal. like she said i guessed that country music was something a coworker liked when i never said it...it's really weird what she is doing. she's manipulating my words and instigating. 

already today, she's said "oh, isn't it interesting everyone in here grew up poor, except for J (my name)"...she's unreal. she's trying to show how i have it too easy and don't work for anything. she's not a friend we all know by now..

my plan is to tell her as calmly and straighforwardly as i can to stop making comments towards me as i don't find them positive and i don't appreciate them. that's it.  

she ended yesterday with a bang on me and she started this morning with another bang. people notice a little bit, thankfully. it's not like the whole group is ganging up right now, just her.  and her raining on my parade will stop very, very soon.

i was advised by someone to call her out on it right after she does it...i'm waiting for an opportunity as i KNOW there'll be another one this AM...she even commented that i have "such a face on" bc i'm not reacting how she wants to to her teases! she's incredibly deceitful, disgusting person. i had no idea. i used to consider her a friend. she deceived me! she has such an ego, i never worked with her in the past in the same area of the office at all, and she has such an ego she is not near as important or smart or knowledgable as i thought...it's her ego that was speaking about herself. she fools people. she's deceitful and rude, an antagonist, and most of all i'd say  a narcissist. i'm disgusted by her. i will distance myself and not be a friend or friendly more than hi and goodbye. she's done.

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 07/26/2018:
Boy...she is relentless isn't she...with her teasing/bullying? If she is a facebook friend I would block her from seeing your posts...or unfriend her....she really should not see anything to do with your life....by any chance...is she the one that you went to that meeting thing with...and her sons? That kind of behavior doesn't belong in an office.

horn_of_plenty on 07/26/2018:
Yes. She is the one i went away with, with her sons. the one i also went ziplining with the same weekend on the way home. she is very jealous i see of my upbringing and with comparing her less fortunate upbringing with mine and bringing it up at work. so weird i do not understand how this is OK!

i don't want to unfriend her, but, i have limited what she sees of me. i'll work to limit everything, actually. but keep her as a "facebook friend" that sees very little that i post.

it's been a disaster with her. i am astounded with her turn against me. it's so weird the part where she actually hears what i say and uses my words against me, transforming my words to be against others, when i'm not...why does she keep rapping on me for dragging others under the bus, when i am not? why does she keep stirring my words up and saying i said things that i didn't? ever deal with this???

horn_of_plenty on 07/26/2018:
she has been in my exact room / office for two weeks and it stinks with her here. this is the first time she started with this big deal of teasing, the past 2 weeks and it's not changing for better.

i was advised to tell her to stop quietly right after she commits a sin again...i already missed my earlier opportunity so i'm waiting...for my next opportunity but giving her signals i am not going along with her.


legcramps on 07/26/2018:
I had one of those in my office a few years back...she was pretty relentless with me, too. I must admit I fell to her level and gave it right back, but that only created more stress for me, and made me feel really bad about myself because I had resorted to the same type of badgering she was giving me.

horn_of_plenty on 07/26/2018:
yes, i realize it's not worth giving it back to her, at all. and my best bet is to stop her by telling her to stop.


legcramps on 07/26/2018:
I hope you figure it out with her!


BearCountryGG on 07/26/2018:
Well...if it is any consolation....jealous people are usually the ones that single a person out to dog on. By being such a jerk...she is making herself look ignorant...I believe others will start turning on her after awhile once they figure out that they will also become her targets...one thing about a bully...if you don't react...they don't find so much fun in it...and will move on to some other victim...others will tire of her attitude....HUGS

horn_of_plenty on 07/26/2018:
she ended up texting me so i told her to stop that i didn't like it...and she ended up saying i have no right to judge her or something...she has her own views how everything comes off...no need to even explain anything more to her...so i simply ignored her 2nd text. also, she grew up poor and had to dig it into me about her parents, which wasn't the point as she's been teasing me a lot about a bunch of things....so i'm not sure why she had to go off playing the "poor family" stuff when she's 42 and her parents long gone. she seems to hold a lot of upset feelings about her upbringing which NO, i cannot relate to...but also i do need to "feel bad" for her now or think she's SO GREAT now...all because she's come so far ...at least academically...i have lost my respect for her bc of her EGO and her inability to say anything nice to me or about me in front of others...i don't feel bad about not wanting to be her friend. for TWO WEEKS she's dealt me garbage so i waited 2 weeks that's long enough right? i know you are coming from a hard working family, she's originally from the Oregon west coast near the water. her parents didn't help her much...i don't know why she talks so much about it still, very often lately, to even our whole room of folks. eh, not my problem anymore or really ever was. I don't need to take her feelings on.

she said she wasn't making me feel bad, when i did feel bad! she sees things at a really strange, biased angle. i think this is a narcisist. tho i'm not sure. it's like she contrives things to how she wants to see or hear them and not as they really are.


legcramps on 07/26/2018:
"When a person tells you that you hurt them, you don't get to decide that you didn't"

Girlfriend needs a wake up call!

horn_of_plenty on 07/27/2018:
yes, at least we are back on par...i just know not to tell her too much private stuff anymore........that's what i said, she's definitely a bit out of her mind, to tell me i can't feel a certain way...that's when i gave up & realized it's not worth pushing any sense into her.



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