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horn_of_plenty - Sunday Jan 13, 2008

Weight: 0.0

Sunday evening edit:

My date was good, long kiss before train ride home...i will say more tomorrow. I'm still thinking about it and trying to decide if we have enough in common and could possibly be something together.

1790 calories...210 of them being this awesome sour cream pound cake. sounds bad, tastes good! entenman's brand.


exercise: 2.5 hours :) walking/yoga.

total exercise: 18hrs, 35 min!!!! yeah!


11am edit: calories already 1020 and i'm still going to try to have success with eating lower than 1600 today. If all fails, I will still eat healthy - I promise myself this! :)


I had a really big breakfast this morning, 730 calories. But now I am done and I feel good and ready to begin a successful day.

Sunday 8:10 AM entry: off to a good start. I went to bed at 3:30am, but I am wide awake today at 8am! Gosh, that's not much sleep! But, at least I'll fall asleep early tonight! I will definitely go to yoga today and walk outside if it turns out to be around 50 degrees.

I will also start my new book by the same author as the last book i was reading. It's called Reality Queen. haha, these books are just for the fun of it, not educational in the least! You do learn a few lessons. I love the author, Debbie DiGiovanni who also wrote Jamaican' Me Crazy. It's an entertaining book about some married ladies on their Christmas Vacation who end up being allowed to take a vacation away from their families during Christmas! Its a weird topic but it ends up teaching quite a few lessons about love and family...and I read it during the winter/Christmas school break. It was written really really recently and some of the things she talks about still linger in the current news. I enjoyed reading it so much that when i went to my public library, I asked for another book by her and they were able to borrow Reality Queen from a nearby library! I'm glad I've begun to read again. I was not a big reader in high school and I feel its important to read, whatever it is you like, because it's good to do more than watch tv.

I have some laundry to catch up on, not much since i've been doing it as soon as it fills up my bin lately so that I don't have more than one load to do at a time. Works out well I tell you! I will also stop by the supermarket to pick up a few things, mainly veggies for the week. Most other things I already have. Kinda like BTC, I'm trying to use up all my "reserves" before going food shopping for all new things. I don't have a lot of money to spare this year so I like to know that I am actually finishing what I bought before i buy too much more!

My dentist appt was a success yesterday, no cavities! yay!

I hope everyone enjoys their day! :)

shadetree on 01/13/2008:
Does the lack of details on the date mean that it wasn't worth reporting? A few of us live our social lives thru you lol...

Yay on the success at the dentist! I love the feeling of just cleaned teeth - and it's even better when you don't have to go back to get yet another hole drilled in your head.

Have a good day!

workingit2 on 01/13/2008:
Ohhh you did a late night last night! DETAILS! lol j/k

Enjoy that book and eat healthy! Have a great day, HOP =)

Donkey on 01/13/2008:
How was the date?

Yes, make a pledge to yourself that regardless of what the calories may end up being, that your choices will be optimally healthy. You can do it!

jon'smom on 01/13/2008:
I love to go to the library and check out books. I like to read alot of domestic fiction. Anyways you sound very much awake, lol. Have a great day!!

mcwoo40 on 01/13/2008:
Hiya,Just popped by to say have a great week,lots of healthy stuffs hey!!Julie

CharlieAngel on 01/13/2008:
I love to read too! Just finished a book called "On Strike for Christmas" by Sheila Roberts. It was about woman making their husbands plan and execute Christmas as a way of letting them know how much effort goes in to it. In the end they learned a few lessons themselves. Take care and have fun at Yoga!

maria777 on 01/13/2008:
I've always been curious about yoga but have never tried it. Maybe I can find where they offer it around here. It sounds like a relaxing exercise (if there IS such a thing, hehehe!)

CritterMom on 01/13/2008:
Yay on no cavities!! The books sound interesting. I'll have to check my library to see if they have them.

shadetree on 01/13/2008:
You should check out the Leslie Sansone videos - there seems to be a ton to choose from (I've seen at least ten different ones). I have three different ones, one is toning (three ten minute segments) and the other two are 'walking' (a 2 mile and a 4 mile)- but she mixes it up with knee lifts and side steps etc so you don't get bored. (The two mile, has lunges and squats, you can do with hand weights to up it a little more.) I think I like her because she is down to earth - not one of those overly peppy almost phony people. I started out with one, because around here in the winter it's so difficult to get outside to exercise. Dark when I go to work, dark when I get out, highs in the 20's, ice, snow, no sidewalks, and there's no gym I can go to...Liked the first one so much I got another, and then another...and I almost bought a set of them at Sam's yesterday - I think it was less than $40, maybe even less than $30, and it came with I think four videos and an exercise band, and some other stuff that I can't remember...I have to get an oil change maybe next weekend, if it's still there I still might get it! I saw that you commented a couple times on her videos - maybe you could get one and when you start to feel like nibbling at home, throw it in and exercise! Worth a shot! I think you'd enjoy them.

fritters on 01/13/2008:
A LONG KISS!! Sounds promising! I hope you had a lot of fun. It would be nice to have the time and energy to do as much exercise as you are able to do! Good Job

workingit2 on 01/13/2008:
Great job on your calories! Kissing is a lot of fun! Have a great day tomorrow =)

cushy on 01/14/2008:
kissing burns calories!!!!

borntocry on 01/14/2008:
I knew you would be able to relate to me on using up the "reserves", heh! ;)

horn_of_plenty - Sunday Jan 13, 2008

Weight: 0.0

Saturday evening, actually Sunday 3am entry:

exercise: 2hrs.

16hrs, 5min :) and walking in the city, which i did not record. I think its only fair for me to record planned exercise! LOL

i went to a restaurant in NYC for dinner, so I have to estimate calories. I ate my entire dinner, so calories are higher.

I'm estimating Saturday's calories as 2,000. I think this is a good estimate and I know that I have balanced out the calories today with exercise. I plan for tomorrow to be a good eating day. I'd like to have 1550 tomorrow or something to that degree.

caz on 01/13/2008:
It's hard when you have to estimate calories at restaurants. It's good you are conscious of how you eat, calories etc you take in..I am trying to do similar. I find it harder to organise my eating times too when we go out for the day. Yesterday Drew was off work so we went visiting and looking for a new car. It was really difficult to eat at a set time orfind somewhere to get healthy food..Next time I plan to take emergency supplies.. Have a good day !!

hopinforachange on 01/13/2008:
I hope that your date went nice for you. I wish you luck today on a good eating day. Take care!

horn_of_plenty - Friday Jan 11, 2008

Weight: 0.0

SATURDAY AM edit: feeling slightly bingy but working through it this morning. I will not snack again until I eat after yoga. There's no need since my breakfast was balanced. 310 cal so far.

I am aiming to eat will since i am going out tonight with my date. i might suggest we go to an organic food place in the city, New York City, that is. He's into healthy foods...and all of you know i am...so we shall see! He doesn't drink much, and neither do i, so this would be fun for us both!

i also have a dentist appt at 5pm. Then i'll come home to quickly put on some makeup/fix makeup because you know how it is as the dentist with all the spraying and stuff they do around your mouth you never look good after.

hmmmm, the day is ok so far... :)

I will record 2hours as my saturday exercise! yay. 16 hrs, 5min total.


Friday entry:

there is one person on here that I leave comments for and she never leaves them for me! why!?

good day. 2 hrs exercise!


1400. this is much, much better than yesterday and a good amount for me.

if i can weigh 105...or inbetween 105-110 for the rest of my life...i would be VERY happy with that weight. I soooo would like to be this weight by the end of the school year. I probably weigh around 125 right now. I need to get a move-on. I could lose 3 lbs a month, then by the end of June I'd weigh 110! That would be just so awesome. But, this is kind of a lofty goal. Not much wiggle room, but less than a lb a week for weight loss. It's doable. The last time I weighed 110, actually around 107, was last December '06. I'd like to maintain my weight better than i did last year bc i dropped fast but then didn't keep it as low as I would have liked. blah blah. enough rambling!

anyways, i went to costco with my parents. I wanted to buy a big thing of almonds but somehow we didn't leave the store with them! they got placed back on the shelf...ooops. It was good to just walk around and not sit on my ass all night! :)

timeforachange on 01/11/2008:
Aww well I don't know if it was me you were referring to in the first sentence, but sorry I've been lacking in the comment department anyway. Sounds like a reasonable goal, but like you said, don't make it a goal that if you miss one week or don't lose that 1/2 pound here or there it upsets you. Sounds like you are doing well and keep it up! Mmmmm almonds are my FAVORITE and they sound good right about now. haha 11PM..what a wonderful time to be thinking of food =P. Well not sure when I'll be back on here since my hubby is coming home tomorrow, but I will try to stop in and catch up! Have a wonderful weekend!

Moody2 on 01/11/2008:
Losing 3lbs a month really is very doable..and you CAN do this!! I know you can!!!

Moody2 on 01/11/2008:
And Woohooo on the exercise today!!! Awesome!!

cushy on 01/11/2008:
you are doing super! almonds are a snack staple for me. trader joe's has really good roasted ones.

hopinforachange on 01/12/2008:
great job on the excercise for the day. and good job on the calories. I think that you can reach your goals. Just believe in yourself and it will happen. Take care.

shadetree on 01/12/2008:
Thinking of you this morning as I am reviewing a yoga video I bought a couple years ago (and have never taken out of the box!) to see if it's something I might want to do now...

Have a great time on your date tonight! (Hopefully it's just a cleaning at the dentist...)

Moody2 on 01/12/2008:
Woohooo a date tonight!! When I hear you say New York City, it seems so exciting to me! I live in a very small town with literally 1 stop light..so New York City sounds amazing!!! Hope you have a blast!

And wanted to thank you for the comment you left me..thanks hon

greengirl on 01/12/2008:
I love to hear about your social life :0) Thats because I dont have one of my own. Enjoy your date. I think it is a good thing to have something to aim for, as long as you dont get down if you miss your goal sometimes. Good luck and do your best, HoP

workingit2 on 01/12/2008:
You have a big day planned! I hope you are having fun and have a great time on your date =)

legcramps on 01/12/2008:
Yeehaw!! Great job on the exercise, HoP!! Sounds like you're going to have an awesome day, have a wonderful time tonight on your date - an organic meal out sounds delightful and if the guy is into it as well, then what a great time you should have! Take care!

starfish on 01/12/2008:
great job on exercise!

horn_of_plenty - Thursday Jan 10, 2008

Weight: 0.0

Friday afternoon edit before yoga: I am doing better today. This morning was bingy but I made sure to watch myself as the afternoon went by. I am happy that my binge from yesterday is in the past and that today is a new day. I still have a goal of weightloss throughout January till June. I want to be successful, mainly because I believe that what is on the inside is not comparable to how I feel about myself on the outside.

Exercise will be at least two hours. (1/2 hour on treadmill and 1.5 hours yoga.) ...now i'm off to make a few journal comments and then catch up later with the rest of the journals! I'm excited about that! :)


Thursday entry:

1/2 hour exercise.

total 12 hrs, 5 min.

I don't think i can comment on journals right now, i'm too spacey from this binge.

oh shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit. sorry for the language, but i made a horribble choice after school today. This whole day i was hungry, moreso than usual. I didn't have cake at lunch bc it was someone's bday, but i DID come home and eat tablespoons and tablespoons of peanut butter, chips, bread, frankfurters and everything else like sweet yogurts and dried fruit that destroys a diet.

is my diet totally destroyed? of course not....

my face was improving bc i've been eating better, but today's binge surely will most definitely have an effect on the clarity of my skin...breakouts and all... i'm praying that it doesn't get worse though.

i walked 20 min in the AM. First, my plan was to do both volunteering and yoga after school. but, i was too exhausted. I am home and decided only to do yoga but then i found myself totally wrapped up in a large binge so no yoga today.

total calories are 3450. (the binge was a full 2600 cal.)

not a good day but any means. I am not proud because now i have definitely had a backslide in weightloss. what's the point of knowing what i do about health and nutrition if i can't actually use the knowledge i have. binging makes me NOT want to go out because i feel bad about myself and how i look.

i have a date Saturday evening and now I don't want to go. I spent the whole week trying to keep calories low because of my binge saturday. now, I have binged twice, Saturday and today, Thursday. arg!!! not good!!!

basically, i realize that whenever i decide to cancel my plans, it always results in a binge. so i guess being lazy is not the way to go. or, i should have just taken a nap and went to volunteer. I have to REMEMBER that TIRED doesn't mean EAT.

i'm frustrated because i know i can be something so much better than i am. on the outside is not what i know from the inside. this is hard and it shouldn't be.

I think i'm ready to stop eating when full. I think, but i'm not sure, that I am ready to be an intuitive eater again. I will count calories, but i will try to stop when full. Maybe i'll be much more successful this way. We'll see. I'm not happy how things are going.

I promise myself to be smarter about this. Much smarter. :(


workingit2 on 01/10/2008:
It sure is very hard, for ALL of us. We each have our own things that trip us up, so please don't feel alone. For as much as we all talk about everything that is good for us, and as much as we advise each other on what to do..we should all be at goal and healthy as horses, right? The most important thing is, you are learning..every time you find success, every time you fall..you still learn. And by posting openly about it the way you do, you also teach others.

Take care of yourself and rest well =)

vvvzena2 on 01/10/2008:
We all have those bad days when we want to eat everything in the house. Actually, I did today. I did really well until we went grocery shopping. I had a McDonald's snack wrap, small fry, and when we got home, I just about ate a whole box of chicken fried rice. You really can't beat yourself up too bad when this happens. If you do, you'll only make yourself feel worse than you should. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and go at it again. I'm rooting for ya!

legcramps on 01/10/2008:
I agree with workingit...you are very courageous for admitting your defeats and failures here on dd's. I know for a fact that there have been many times where I have chosen to not journal at all because of the massive binge/bad day that I had. On top of the binge/bad day itself, I just cannot bear for anyone to know how much of a negative impact I can be on myself.

Remember why you're here and decide what it is you need to make a priority and work on that for a while, instead of trying to struggle through each binge feeling like a failure. It's just not worth it, HoP, it's not worth the amount of time you're spending on feeling like crap. As much as we say we have our whole lives ahead of us, that time can fly by so quickly and it would be very sad if most of that time was spent feeling horrible about ourselves.

Geez, I REALLY think I should take my own advice...

hollybelle on 01/11/2008:
You ARE learning so much. And we are learning through you, too. I loved what the others said here and find it amazing we are all so full of good advice. I realize I equate tired with eat, too. Tired means rest. I need to remember that next time, too!

maria777 on 01/11/2008:
Thanks for your encouraging words to my entry. As for your binge, it could have been MORE than 2600 cals! Just be glad it wasn't MORE and move on! I've had food binges like that, myself. I had just 'had it' and decided I was going to 'eat what I wanted' and I did! Then I got back on track!

CharlieAngel on 01/11/2008:
I think that this diet journal thing is a tool that I use to keep myself accountable, if it helps someone else, fine, if not, oh well! I sometimes go back and re-read my own journals and try to figure out what I was doing when I was successful and not so much.... Although not every one has the same issues, enough of us do that whatever you write will probably strike a cord with someone. I am sure that you will figure it out...take care of yourself.

horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Jan 09, 2008

Weight: 0.0

good day overall. there WAS binge eating, but it was on healthy foods and i was able to still keep calories at a very good average. calories are 1280 and that makes me very happy. I'm STILL bloated from my binge on the weekend which is really annoying!

binge eating to me means eating when not physically hungry and eating past full...as well as contantly snacking.

the test was HARD to say the least. you can tell everyone thought so. It wasn't even meant to be finished! nobody finished any section. I think i did on the best on the reading part. there were also spelling, analysis, math, and science questions...as well as a part meant to test you on your personality. The hardest section for me was the science. I haven't taken any science for awhile on there were questions on physics, chemistry, anatomy, biology...you name it! so, that was not so hot. everything else was ok. I honestly think i did do well enough to get into a program still! Results and interviews for any program don't take place until the end of february and march. so lots of waiting time.

i did go to yoga and i also took two walks today.

today's exercise: 2hr, 10 min

total exercise: 11hrs, 35 min! :)

CritterMom on 01/10/2008:
Aren't you glad to have that test behind you now? Good job on the exercise today.

hollybelle on 01/10/2008:
Hey there! You asked me what a French Dip sandwich is - it's just a roast beef snadwich (usually thinly sliced) on Frnech Bread served with au jus to dip it in. Very good. What test did you take - didn't see that in previous. Also - good calories Wednesday!!!

legcramps on 01/10/2008:
Holy crap! Good job on the exercise!

horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Jan 08, 2008

Weight: 0.0

i had a mini-binge today. chips and english muffins and butter spray. lol. my lack of sleep and slight depression feelings caught up.

happily, i can report i stopped the binge after awhile.

1775 calories.

I will go to yoga, even though it's on a full stomach.

Today's exercise: 1.5 hours.

total: 9hrs, 25 min

It's gonna be a tough yoga class...ouch! :) bending over...i can feel my stomach already! but i have to go, i have to break through this.

I went to register this morning, leaving my house at 6:45am. I got to the community college at about 7am. thank god i got there then because there was already a line forming!!!!! yeah, that's right! and registration didn't start until 9am! so we waited and waited, talked and talked. I ended up getting into a sunday class in anatomy and physiology from 8:40am till 3pm! yeah, long class indeed! I originally asked for the saturday class, but the girl who went in before me got the last seat! so, I was happy to get in and know i don't have to worry anymore about that!

After that, I had to actually go somewhere else once signed in by the chairperson...i had to go to registration and wait on another line! Things took so long! then, i was told to wait on line, a third line, to pay the bill! i was angry bc i had to go back to work and couldn't believe i had to wait on the line just to pay and that i couldn't do it at another time! so, then this lady comes over about 10 minutes later, as i'm complaining to everyone and everything that will listen, annoucing to everyone that we don't have to pay now and we can go upstairs to pick up our bill and pay online within 48 hours! So, i immediately left, picked up my bill, and went to work! ugh!!!! yuck!

lately, everything is one large cruddy process! Life is a process I am learning, and we all just have to struggle through it. It makes you a better person if you do.

so, now i'm off to yoga on a bloated stomach! yucky. at least my calories are not astronomically, although most of the calories i did eat today...and all of the calories i ate this afternoon, are carbs...bread and chips. lol. arg. enough complaining already from me!...and no, i wasn't taking my time eating and that's why i binged!

shadetree on 01/08/2008:
Okay - get positive...You got into an A&P class - I remember back when I went to CC that it was impossible for people to get into one. Something like 300 people trying to get into 60 seats....Be happy that you are one step closer :).

Enjoy yoga tonight!

Donkey on 01/08/2008:
See that's not how I read your entry. You said you are learning that life is one large cruddy process. I think you've learned that the squeaky wheel gets the grease. Good for you for complaining about waiting in line, and then getting results for your voice! Me, I would have just sat there for 3 hours and worried about it. I'm still trying to muster up courage to speak out.

starfish on 01/08/2008:
At least you stopped your binge. Very good :) and good for you for going to yoga!

workingit2 on 01/08/2008:
Good day all around! Congratulations!

fritters on 01/09/2008:
You stopped that binge before it was out of hand - good job! It must feel good to have registration done and know that you are on your way. Have a good day

legcramps on 01/09/2008:
I was having a rough day yesterday too, but unlike you, I decided to let it pull me under and I ended up accomplishing NOTHING. I can't believe, and I don't like myself much at all at the moment. I guess all we can say is that it's only one day, and just keep picking ourselves up off the ground. Yoga on a full stomach is hard to do - i'm trying to picture myself doing it on a full stomach. Painful.

Have a much better day today! I'm going to work on my exercise hours today!

vvvzena2 on 01/09/2008:
I'm a very vocal person myself. I've been told that it's not the best personal charateristics.:-) I think it can be. I'm glad that you got into your classes that you wanted, and that you still had the willpower to go to your yoga class! Good for you!:-) You ended your day on a good note. You should be proud of yourself.

horn_of_plenty - Monday Jan 07, 2008

Weight: 0.0

TUESDAY AM edit: I couldn't sleep most of the night bc i was thinking about registration....I'll leave my house around 6am today and just park at the college and wait till i see people head up to register. i'm going to be sooo tired later!


I promise to comment on more journal entries tomorrow, there are SO MANY!

today is going well which i'm happy about. I'll definitely update tomorrow or tonight in a more detailed entry. I'm shooting for a good day tomorrow. I do have to agree that my bingy 10:45 pm edit:

days are getting better. I try to keep busy or at least have a schedule. I also try to keep healthy food in my house. Most of all, I try to tell myself I am worth it. After I binged Saturday, I was bloated all Sunday and I am still not back to normal now! So, I miss the unbloated feeling and do realize how unhealthy it feels to be bloated. it's true!

I'm soo tired. Tomorrow I go to register for a course in the AM...I'll show up way before 9am which is the registration time so that I make sure i get into a course! I'm soooo excited! Then, off to work I go... Then I think I may move volunteering to this Thursday because I think I want to go to yoga tomorrow and call it an early night, unlike tonight!


...i just called the college and it turns out i'll be waking up at 5am and arriving before 6 just to get on the line to register so that i get into the course. turns out people line up really early! ugh ugh! I definitely Don't want to volunteer tomorrow afternoon...but i probably should, for otherwise i might binge...i do that during stressful times... i will definitely work not to.


calories : 1160...probably a snack after a late yoga class. It starts at 8pm, ends at 9:30. The reason I'm going so late is because i showed up for an earlier one but was turned away because it was already full! oops. Everyone has New Year's commitments and it seems more people are going. I should probably leave my house really soon, even though it's only 7:20 so i get a good spot!

My calories are good because I've had a busy afternoon and evening. It always helps! But, sometimes you can just be running all around because a hectic schedule can easily catch up with you!

Exercise: 1hr, 50 min. (I did a short 20 minute AM walk today.)

Total exercise: 7hrs, 55min. okay, getting better! :)

shadetree on 01/07/2008:
Glad to hear you're squeezing in a yoga class. calories are doing well - keep it up!

Workingit2 on 01/07/2008:
So happy that you have had good days! YAY!!

I went out driving today and saw that ALL of the fitness places, even the little ones, the parking lots were PACKED. Sadly, I'll drive past those same places in March and April and they won't even be half full. Just the diehards will be left lol.

I hope your backside starts to feel better! Have a great evening =)

legcramps on 01/07/2008:
I think your bingy days are getting much better, don't you think? Congrats on the great turn of events, keep it up!!

Okay, i'm challenging you in total exercise hours for January. No goal, we just have to try to beat the other person. I'm a sickly competitive person, so are you in????!!!!

dearerdiarist on 01/07/2008:
Oh you are soooooooooo good getting right back there after you were turned away. There are so many stories that you could have told yourself to blow it off today. Great job!!!

fritters on 01/07/2008:
I am glad that you are having a good day. It is good that you are willing to go back for the yoga. I don't know that I would!

Workingit2 on 01/07/2008:
LOL it did take much longer to comment on diaries today..lots of folks, yay!

So happy that you had a great day and that the guy you are seeing understands your eating. I know it really helps me that Brian understands I like to eat differently...it takes the pressure off and helps me feel even more motivated to continue. Good luck at your registration tomorrow!

Moody2 on 01/07/2008:
Great to hear that you had a good day! Hope you enjoyed yoga tonight..and uggg is right at getting up early and standing in line, but you'll be glad you did! Good luck!

kyrin on 01/08/2008:
I'm wishing you Good luck (and patience) with your registration. I remember when our colleges used to do registrations that way. It was so much easier after they printed catalogs and let us go online to register!

borntocry on 01/08/2008:
Hi HoP! Great to see you doing so well. Thanks for sharing the love a little with your helpful comments. I'm trying to take your advice and not let a "slightly" high calorie day derail me too much. I was doing quite well until Sunday. That was the first time in a long while that I found myself eating just for the sake of eating, because I knew my calories were already so high that there was no point stopping. And that's really a horrible frame of mind to be in!

harleygirl79 on 01/08/2008:
Hope your able to get the classes you want. My nephew is going through that now at OSU. He is thinking about changing schools to someplace smaller, like Case Western Reserve. More options for classes he wants. Get some rest and have a great day.

caz on 01/08/2008:
Reading your comments reminde me that I have college tomoz..oooh dear, it's hard to get motivated for it sometimes. I go once a month on a wed, sat, sun..Can't believe it's came around so quickly.. Hope all goes ok with registration and you get to do the course you want..Keep up the grat work ..xx

CritterMom on 01/08/2008:
Hope you get that class you're trying to get into!

Good job on the exercise.

dearerdiarist on 01/08/2008:
Oh, such bittersweet memories of registering for college classes... Studying the catalog so carefully and organizing time constraints and then learning that there are no more openings or that a class has been cancelled... I didn't think that people actually physically lined up for the last twenty years!? Why aren't able to register from home online? Well good luck to you! Hope you get exactly what you want. Busy day, treat yourself nice.

legcramps on 01/08/2008:
Good luck with registration this morning! Yes, keep yourself busy today to avoid bingeing. I should take my own advice...

mcwoo40 on 01/08/2008:
Hiya,have a great day,Julie

CharlieAngel on 01/08/2008:
Good for you! You made the decision and stuck to it even though you were turned away. Good luck with registration....hope you get all the classes you want. Have a great day!

vvvzena2 on 01/08/2008:
Glad to see that you are so motivated, and sticking to it! I think the trick is to not beat ourselves up to much when we fall off of the wagon. We're human. According to my 13 year old, I may not be. But hey, what does a 13 year old know! lol I hope you get the class that you're wanting. Good luck!

workingit2 on 01/08/2008:
I hope you got a good spot in line!

Donkey on 01/08/2008:
Good luck on the registration!!!!! Please let us know how it went!!!

I didn't sleep well last night either :-(

horn_of_plenty - Sunday Jan 06, 2008

Weight: 0.0

my right butt cheek hurts soooo bad! i pulled something awhile ago and it keeps getting worse...especially when i sit on it, oddly enough! lol!

my day got better by the evening. yes, a bingy day though.

calories are 1415. could be a whole lot worse but my appetite got dampened later in the evening so i decided to use it to my advantage.

exercise: 1.5 hours walking yeah!

total jan exercise: 6hrs, 5 min.

timeforachange on 01/06/2008:
Good job with calories keeping them in range and nice exercise for the day =). Glad you seem in better spirits, and sorry about the butt cheek! =P Hope tomorrow is a good day for you!

fritters on 01/07/2008:
Good job on the calories and exercise. I hope you can sit comfortably today!

Contessa on 01/07/2008:
Sounds like you're off to a great start for January with over 6 hrs of exercise in!

as for the butt pain...isn't it amazing where we have muscles?

applemarket on 01/07/2008:
Your poor butt!! But doesn't it feel great to be sore somewhere rather than not? I kinda like the feeling =) Feels like I'm making progress, and looks like you definitely are! Good job!

starfish on 01/07/2008:
Very good! Keep it up. Maybe if your butt muscle keeps hurting you should have a doctor check it? I think I remember you talking about it a while ago.

horn_of_plenty - Saturday Jan 05, 2008

Weight: 0.0

one more update: no yoga. I'll make up for it this week!

Sunday noon edit: Today is a new day. It started off with my getting some low cal, healthy, liquids to drink and lie in bed with to read and also snooze a little more. I was pretty tired. I went to sleep around 11:30 last night but my sister asked nicely for me to drive her to a really local bar like 5 minutes away around 12:30am so I did that...even though i was already in bed. After that, I drove around for a few more minutes with the heat blasting in my car, deciding that was a waste of gas and came home. Upon coming home, i couldn't get to sleep and I went back on the computer for an hour, half in a daze. I'm glad Saturday is over and that today is Sunday. This sure was a VERY uneventful weekend. I do plan on yoga today at 3...but its definitely gonna take some effort to actually get myself there. I also want to walk for a bit but I don't want to squeeze every last bit of energy out of my body before yoga. I sound like i'm 90 years old! LOL, i'm 25 and I should have all the energy in the world!

i will have a more poitive entry on my next post.


Saturday entry:

I made a bad choice and binged on a late lunch/early dinner. I couldn't go to yoga bc i was too full.

calories: 2700. I'm not proud of that and will definitely think a little bit more before making the wrong choice to binge. Tomorrow's a new day and I will not let today's bad judgement affect tomorrow. ugh.

exercise 4 miles. I am VERY full. dumb judgement today, especially bc i was really happy about my clothes and they're beginning to fit better.

total exercise: 1 hr, 20 min.

total January exercise:4hrs, 35 min. sheesh. ugh. haha, it'll get better.

shadetree on 01/05/2008:
Sorry HoP - just get back on that horse! That's all any of us can do!

hollybelle on 01/05/2008:
2700 isn't so bad. Tomorrow IS definitely another day. Start fresh and don't worry about it all. Good exercise as usual. Have a nice night...

legcramps on 01/05/2008:
Yup, happens to me all the time. I think we sabotage ourselves because we're scared of actually accomplishing something. You know, if you just tell yourself it's okay to feel good about yourself, maybe things will get better with the bingeing. Awe, who knows really, but it's worth a try, no?!!

Good luck on the weekend!

cushy on 01/05/2008:
I hope the so called binge was delicious!!!!! Guilt is not a productive emotion. I hope you had some pleasure from the meal before regret set in. I know i am lost if i wait to eat for too long and am famished by the time i get to food. I can make some really bad choices at that point

workingit2 on 01/05/2008:
I understand about wanting to give someone/something a shot even if you don't hear all the bells and whistles going off. Obviously you are somewhat attracted to him, but maybe you aren't as ready to get into something with someone right now. Meanwhile, have a blast dating a great guy!

CharlieAngel on 01/05/2008:
Good grief, you exercised for 4 hours and 35 minutes....I totally think you offset the binge. As you said tomorrow is a brand new day, with no mistakes in it.....hope it's a great one for you! Take care

kyrin on 01/06/2008:
Hi, HoP! I totally get the feelings that you had after indulging. LOL Just about my whole Christmas season was like that. I couldn't seem to shake it off and get myself back on track. But I'm here now. One day at a time. Make one change and work on it. For me, it was not snacking or eating unless I was truly hungry. I always down write what I eat into my food journal. Just recently, I also began writing down the time that I eat and whether or not I'm hungry, semi-humgry, or not humgry--and who I'm eating with. ...It felt kind of strange to be jotting all that info when I first started doing it, but logging all of that made me more aware of my eating patterns and WHY I am eating. It really helped. I began to see that I was eating when I was really tired, in certain situations, or with certain people.

Re: the Cheesecake Factory. Get a to-go box and take some of it home for later. Enjoy (sensibly).


legcramps on 01/06/2008:
How many yoga classes is it possible for you to go to in a week?? Just asking, because that's two days now that you haven't been to class. If it was me, i'd only have a yoga class twice a week and would have already blown my chances at getting any yoga in!!

Weighlon on 01/06/2008:
It's human to want to eat something that we perceive and smelling good/tasting good. What matters is what you do after that, and that's get back in the groove and keep going....don't look back!

CritterMom on 01/06/2008:
OK, you missed the yoga, and binged a bit. Tomorrow is a new day. Get right back on that horse, and ride it hard. :)

horn_of_plenty - Friday Jan 04, 2008

Weight: 0.0

saturday morning edit: last night went well. Basically, there was a "quick" goodnight kiss since he would have missed his train and needed to wait a whole hour for the next one at 1:30am! no thanks!

I am not as attracted as i would like to be. arg. I am so used to being single that I am having trouble with the feelings portion of that. I think he may be more interested in me than i am in him. But, I'm STILL willing to give this a shot. Does anyone understand what I mean!?

He's a great guy. this is funny - he takes his time eating, really slow, and that has helped me to think about my own eating. It really helps.

We talk a ton about yoga and fitness, nutrition. sometimes i think we talk about this too much. then again, we do discuss other things too. but i just don't know, yet. we've known each other for a little under a month. not very long. we'll see...

one more thing, why is it that I get really antsy on the phone...i just don't love talking on the phone with him!? It's like a struggle for me. He's a good conversationalist...seems he can talk forever. lol, what a complainer i am!!! i should be happy to meet someone who likes to keep themselves busy and do different activities after work. what's up with me!? whatever, i have no strings attached. I will see how it goes. I need to just "roll with it..." :)


today, in fact, was a better day. I made sure I felt well and dressed well today. I did my hair nicely and felt good at work. I also have a date later today, so I have to prepare for that. It's a date with the same person I went out with last Sunday. We have plans to go to the cheesecake factoy, which may not be the best idea because the wait can be VERY long on a Friday evening. But, how long can it be for 2 people!?

calories before an afternoon snack were 980. then, i had 12 sugarfree jellos, so now calories are 1100. I actually got really full and sick of them by the last one. Sometimes, I like to eat a lot of something low calorie just to feel that stuffed feeling but also to know i didn't destroy my calorie intake. I'm a little nervous for what to get for dinner but I think I also want to splurge on something a little heavier. The only problem with the cheesecake factory is the huge portions which equal too high calories on the heavier, denser foods.

I took a 20 min walk this morning and I WANT to take at least a 30 min walk now before i get ready to go out. I'm definitely a little tired today. Maybe I'll lie down before going out. I didn't sleep very well this week. For some reason, I actually had an issue getting myself to bed on time...I also had PROMISED myself this wouldn't happen after the winter break. I was actually going to work on going to bed really early. I may try this again...because i DO like to get up early in the morning to exercise...and know that when i get home from work i did already exercise! It feels good, especially if i just want to sit around after work.

total calories: i pray its around 2,000...after a big, but healthy dinner. some dressing/sauce on my foods. cool stuff like seaweed salad, sushi, seared tuna and other goodies. the good thing is, i stopped when full because the person i was eating with is a slow eater...so i ate slow too!

today's exercise: 45 min. tomorrow will be better.

total exercise: 3hrs, 15 min

monet0239 on 01/04/2008:
have a good time tonight on your date :)..12 jellos.. wow.. but its good on the calories for sure :).. I need to put some on my list of things to get hehe.. glad I came in here.. thanks for the reminder.. :)..KUTGW :)

CritterMom on 01/04/2008:
Try getting something broiled or grilled, like a chicken dish. Get steamed veggies and ask that they leave off the butter. If you want the baked potato, ask that they leave it plain and bring the butter on the side. There ARE ways to eat out without overdoing. Have fun!

greengirl on 01/04/2008:
Enjoy yourself HoP. We all have to let our hair down, now and then :o)

shadetree on 01/04/2008:
I hope you have a good time tonight!

workingit2 on 01/04/2008:
So happy to read you had a much better day today. Fantastic! I buy the packages of sugar free jello that I make myself and they are .64 a package and only 5 calories for half a cup. That is a very good idea to fill up on lower calorie foods rather than stick your face in a jar of peanut butter.

I hope the date was fun! OMG I cannot wait until Brian actually has time to go OUT somewhere. LOL

Have a great weekend!

mcwoo40 on 01/05/2008:
Hello,hope your date went well.You can tell us about it,if you want!!I like doing sugar-free jelly with tinned fruit added.Then have a low-fat fruit yoghurt also it is good for my sweet tooth too,have a great day.

mcwoo40 on 01/05/2008:
Hiya a subway roll as asda calls it is just a long bread roll.I don't know if they sell them in the subway outlets,(i've never been in one so i don't know)and they have black seeds in them.I prefer granary to wholemeal bread as it tends to be a little dry.Enjoy your day,Julie

Donkey on 01/05/2008:
The great thing about being with someone who is a great conversationalist is that you don't have to do any of the effort of keeping the talking going. I just sit back and listen to my Husband go on and on and on.... And they say women talk a lot!

I'm glad the date went well. Don't be impatient with yourself; just enjoy the friendship and companionship. Don't be expecting some perfect Prince Charming. He ain't out there.

dearerdiarist on 01/05/2008:
Sometimes friendships/relationships are a longer and slower developing. Sometimes ones instinct, heart, etc. just knows right off the bat. That being said, you are experiencing dating again. Sometimes it is just a bit boring and awkward. Try to have fun :)

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