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horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Apr 10, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

of everyone currently using DD, i think my journal has the most "up and downs" lately. whether it's my mood or calories or whatnot, every day is the complete opposite of the next!

so, no exercise...i decided on that early on this morning.

calories today: 1200.

thanks for all of your feedback, it really does help!

tomorrow is my first day back to work after vacation..i'm lucky some people went back today! i just had a college class, but gladly not work on top of that!

have a good day everyone!

Donkey on 04/10/2007:
Good for you! Sometimes when you're having days of extreme up and down, it is good to just STOP everything and focus on one thing, namely the food part. You did a good thing today.

sharklover on 04/10/2007:
Hey, at least that means that you have as many good days as you do bad days. I just had a stretch of a bunch of bad days in a row. Your ups and downs sounds really good to me right about now. :-P

Even so, I hope you start moving into more ups than downs.

wantabfit on 04/10/2007:
good job eating healhty!

GG on 04/10/2007:
well since you did not work out today you will tomorrow since you said your days are the opposite every day!! :) Why are you not in a good mood? Stressed? What college classes are you taking too? THanks for the support too you have been amazing at leaving me comments!! Oh and I just got a new shipment of Kelp Noodles today and I had a tomato-artichoke-olive-summer squash MIX with them and WOW: AMAZING!! With a little basil, salt and peper: superb! ( the chef's downstairs in the cafeteria LOVE ME -- except for the one rude one I was complaining about the other day!)

janu999 on 04/10/2007:
way to go on your calories! : ) o and my green drink tastes like dirt.But it has all the vitamins im missing from not eating meat.Keep up the good work!

borntocry on 04/11/2007:
No way, dude, I have more ups and downs than you. Okay, at least as many! I honestly think that in my life every good day is followed by a terrible one, and vice versa. I seriously wonder if I'm manic depressive or something! But maybe we should look at it as sharklover suggested and just be happy we have as many good days as bad!

horn_of_plenty - Monday Apr 09, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

i feel incredibly sick right now. nauseous as anything. i ate a ton of candy/powerbars early on in the day. then, had a filling lunch. total calories = 2030. i'm shacky because i had an energy drink and i'm not about to have a lot of food. I'm having kim chi which is made from cabbage and other veggies and spices on top of low cal noodles. my mom and sister are complaining to my dad that the house smells because of the noodles/kim chi and i'm feeling ill and shakey. i don't think i will manage yoga in the morning if i continue to feel this sick. and, its time for a serious diet makeover as i have gained a little weight and i'm starting to get frustrated and upset! BTC, lets do it! oh, its not like i don't plan on eating on the lean cuisines i bought...i'm just planning on being healthier...until i feel better about myself. lol, i said this yesterday, too. blah!

no exercise today. 120 minutes for sunday.

edit: its 2pm and i've already eaten 1940 calories...I still have dinner to go!....today, monday, is far under par. calories are up the wazoo! I'm going to need 13 1200 calorie days in all now...so far, i've only done three 1200 cal days. tomorrow will be another.

update for Sunday: 1200 calories (might have been 1210, but we'll say 1200!) 120 minutes of exercise! 60 min walk and 60 minutes yoga!

Justine6Robert3 on 04/09/2007:
Awesome job on the exercise HOP!!!!!

mcwoo40 on 04/09/2007:
Hi, you have burnt some of those excess cals off through exercising so don't worry too much,have a salad or a bowful of fruit for your dinner something light??Tomorrow is another dieting day!!bye 4 now,Julie

greengirl on 04/09/2007:
Congratulations on the exercise, and the cals arent that bad. You will catch up ok!!!

Donkey on 04/09/2007:
Oh I hope you feel better. I cannot tell you how many times I have eaten to feeling sick, and I TELL myself, "I cannot continue to abuse my body like this again." I definitely recommend eating more moderately, balanced. Powerbars and candy sound akin to the time I ate a whole box of prunes (not something I recommend) or a whole bag of cashews (again, not recommended).

If nothing else, do this (eating balanced) so that your stomach/system gets a break. You can do it!!

janu999 on 04/09/2007:
Thanks for the comment and dont be so hard on yourself.I think forging yourself for tiny regressions helps.Everything takes time, and practice.Take care : )

girliegirl6486 on 04/09/2007:
I HATE that sick/shaky feeling...I hope you feel better soon!!!

borntocry on 04/10/2007:
Okay, HoP, let's do it!! I calculated that I needed 9 1200-calorie days after my trip to London, and so far I haven't even had one! But it was a long weekend, and those are always hard on me. I've got to make this week really count because next week I am back in London. So let's do this together! HEALTHY food - in MODERATION! Put those Powerbars away and save them for an emergency. That's what I did with my stash!

WorkingIt2 on 04/10/2007:
I hope you are feeling better today!

horn_of_plenty - Saturday Apr 07, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

i meant to get some walking in...maybe i will and there will be an update. right now: yoga: 60 min

I resolve to clean up my act and treat my body better. As I stood doing yoga today, staring at my body in the mirror, it upset me to see a larger than normal body looking back at me. not larger by much, no more than five pounds (if that). However, the difference is noticable, jeans are getting tighter. and, why!? I know a whole lot about food, nutrition, calories. definitely more than the average American. so, what am i to do? I'm almost 25...in September. so, why ruin in for myself, when i could look so great and have the time of my life in my mid-twenties!? why!?

I resolve that now is the time...and want to look awesome. I'll have to work harder...and whenever i do make progress, i resolve to admit i deserve it, and not do what i usually do, which is binge and take a few steps in the backwards direction. this week has been difficult, on vacation and with my holiday at the beginning. but, any time is better than never to fix my body and look great!

and, for those wondering, calories totalled approximately 2800 today.

well, vacation and counting calories don't go hand in hand!

breakfast = 1766 calories alone! ahhh!

today will be a high calorie day. i'll be adding another 1200 calorie day to my 1200 calorie days which will now need to add up to 12 days of 1200 in order to reach just below 1800 calories per day as an average.


not bad...i just have to continue on with 1200 calorie days. I have 10 more of them to go! and, they will not be all in a row, that is way to difficult for me!

WorkingIt2 on 04/07/2007:
Now that I eat an average of 1600 calories a day, I don't know if I could have a several day binge and go back to 1200 to balance! Not because of the food, but because of the exercise and my body knowing it might need a little more than 1200 calories. Oh and about the ankle weights, NO won't be using those =) Going to try and save up for the weight vest! Have a great evening and I hope you get to take a nice relaxing walk!

borntocry on 04/08/2007:
Hey HoP! You're right - vacation and counting calories certainly don't go hand in hand, haha! But I have also resolved to "clean up my act" lately. Actually, you were one of the people who inspired me to do this (along with GG and Sandra aka Soul). I've been evaluating my diet and just how much processed crap it contains. As you said, we know so much about health and nutrition - time to put all that knowledge to good use!

greengirl on 04/08/2007:
HOP I too have given in to the not counting cals over the hols mentality but its back to business with a vengeance for me first thing on Tuesday morning, and i mean to be extra good to make up for it. I am determined that in a week I will have a weightloss to record!!!!

smiley2 on 04/09/2007:
I ask myself that question each day - im turning 28 in a few months and i feel that this is the best time of our lives to look our greatest, why is it so difficult then?! Well i guess in a way, we cant have everything our way, with age, comes wisdom, self restraint, self acceptance and a decrease in appetite - roll on 40's lol! No seriously, all we can do is try our best and know in the end that its good enough. Good luck and Happy Hols! Wx

horn_of_plenty - Friday Apr 06, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

exercise: yoga, 60 minutes

today was a great day overall. i bought a pair of new running sneakers. i don't love the style, i like it. what i do love is how they feel, that's what's most important! they're mizuno sneakers, a good brand of running shoe. i also bought a nice pair of spandex shorts for yoga. they're actually VERY stylish...and a bit colorful too!

yoga was awesome, as usual!

food remained at 1200! yay! i definitely have more 1200 days to go! I was supposed to eat 1200 tomorrow, but i think i may rethink that! Perhaps it would be best for me to only do 1200 every other day. however, it's going to take forever to undo all my calories from last week. i've noticed my legs and stomach are a bit bigger...after all, it's two whole pounds i've added (the amount in extra calories i've consumed...not just food bulk in my body!) over less than a week!

Justine6Robert3 on 04/06/2007:
I love working out in yoga pants, they are so comfortable!! Its fun when they have some colour too! I like the ones that are black with hot pink or blue (for example) at the top and they kind of fold over and they sit a little lower.

hollybelle on 04/07/2007:
Happy Easter. good calories good exercise.

horn_of_plenty - Thursday Apr 05, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

Good Evening, Evening Update!

exercise: total of 105 minutes

aerobic: 45min, yoga: 60 minutes...(yoga is really 90 min- but you know what, I'm going to count yoga as 60 for now on because there is "resting" involved in the class that really shouldn't count as exercise.)

so, yoga was more than fantastic! LOL, I love it! I also did some aerobic exercise in the form of some jogging and some elliptical. My ankle hurt a little, but i did it despite that. i figured I had waited 48 hours and enough was enough. The elliptical was better than the running for my ankle, but still not a great feeling on it.

today's food and caloric intake sucked this morning but got better as the day went on...total calories: 2010. i wonder if i really burned that much! maybe! probably not! it would be awesome if that were the case!

goodnight all!


arg! so i meant to have 11 days of 1200 cal in a row. well, today i consumed 1320 calories for breakfast! 4 powerbars and a few yogurts and tofu with sugar free jelly and caramel.

so, tomorrow i'll go back to the 1200 calorie days.

today i have a rehearsal in the morning, a doctor appointment in the afternoon...and then i'll go to yoga in the evening!

have a good day!

jon'smom on 04/05/2007:
i hope eveything goes well at the doctor's appointment. Have a nice day!

WorkingIt2 on 04/05/2007:
Doing great with your exercise! YAY! good luck at the doctor and enjoy your yoga tonight!

amanda8419 on 04/05/2007:
the heaviest I have ever been was 110. I am 5'2 and so with me being 192 it looks enormous. my moms whole family is large and all have heart problems back problems leg problems all from weight. i have constant back pain and sometimes chest pain because its so much extra weight on what used to be such a small frame. they took blood too to make sure its not a thyroid problem or diabetes. hopefully this works or i guess i will have to start saving for a lap band or something more drastic. i wanted to go through a dr though because im not comfortable with over the counter meds at all so i wasnt just going to buy some trim spa or something you know?

smiley2 on 04/06/2007:
4 Powerbars for breakfast! Mmmmmmh ;) Maybe you should try and have some sort of cereal or eggs and toast, something that would fill you up more, without having to eat so much. I love yoga, but here is not classes nearby for that. Sounds like you are doing great with the exercise, good luck with the calorie counting...dont restrict yourself too much, go down lower gradually.

WorkingIt2 on 04/06/2007:
Congratulations on the exercise!! And 1320 calories is not bad at all! Especially with the exercise. Have a great day!

Donkey on 04/06/2007:
I admire you for doing yoga. It is such a beneficial exercise. I need to start doing some of that. My library has several good DVDs for yoga. I need to have Husband show me how to manage the machine so I can do yoga.

monet0239 on 04/06/2007:

Justine6Robert3 on 04/06/2007:
I'm so glad to see your enjoying your yoga classes again!! Your doing great with your exercise! Ha,ha, I like the nick name, funny because I was thinking of calling you the "Veggie Queen"!!!

Hope your ankle feels better soon! Happy Easter!!

greengirl on 04/06/2007:
You are doing so well with your exercise. I can really tell you enjoy the yoga. Keep up the good work :0)

horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Apr 04, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

so today i did yoga...90 minutes. no walking.

i ate a mix of some really crappy foods/drinks and also some really healthy things. healthy things include an ounce of wheatgrass juice, lettuce, tomatoes, whole orange pepper, kelp noodles, yogurts. and some other things.

unhealthy: diet energy drinks, yogurts with artificial sugars, no cal jelly, caramel.

finally, a 1200 day! one down, 10 more to go! goodnight all!

Justine6Robert3 on 04/04/2007:
Great job on your exercise and healthy food!! Wheatgrass juice?!!!! You have the most interesting food choices! I've never heard of wheatgrass juice, is it any good? Last week I was also guilty of drinking a couple of "diet" energy drinks, ha,ha!!! I know they're so NOT good for me, but I really needed the energy, I felt so tired last week. I couldn't sit down for more than a couple of minutes without feeling sleepy, I hate feeling like that I really love to feel awake and energetic!!

I have been thinking of you and making a point of adding veggies to my day. I'm sure I'm still not eating enough but I figure I'll start little and hopefully I will eventually get used to eating more of them!!! I actually think of you when I eat them since your always encouraging us all to eat more veggies!!! I really wish I enjoyed them the way you do!

Justine6Robert3 on 04/04/2007:
Well done on your calories also!!

horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Apr 03, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

exercise: um, 2 hours: 30 min. walk/jog, and 90 min yoga.

hi all.

so, yeah, 3000 calories today. I've eaten enough in the past 5 days to gain roughly 2 full pounds. yeah. so, i am going to plan myself 1200 calorie days and eat lots of portioned out food along with my no calorie yam fiber noodles. i also plan on having eggs and veggies or yogurt and veggies for breakfast. today, i had an eggplant and a yogurt with no cal jelly. i'm doing anything to keep myself rather satisfied. One day next week, i'm planning on a 900-1000 calorie day. It'll be my easy day that week at work. If I plan everything and keep lots of healthy vegetables and proteins in the house, this should be a piece of cake (haha, not literally!).

Honestly, starting tomorrow, in 11 days I should be fully recovered, the two pounds gone, or, balanced out.

goodnight. It's a bit stressful just thinking about that.

i did yoga today.

hollybelle on 04/04/2007:
Loved the "cake" pun! Funny how many references to food there are in our language, isn't there? I think that is universal - from what I understand about other languages, too. You're doing good. Always planning - you can't go too wrong. I admire that!

WorkingIt2 on 04/04/2007:
Great job on your exercise! Thanks for the tip on the ankle weights! I am going to get a weighted vest one of these days instead as that seems to be the ONLY adviseable extra weight recommended ecause it is evenly distributed weight. Have a great day!

horn_of_plenty - Monday Apr 02, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

3000 cal.

60 minutes of exercise.

today was a holiday meal. i had 1,000 calories throughout the day, and i'm estimating hopefully no more than 2,000 for the meal.

tomorrow is the same thing. i'm allowing 1,000 cal throughout the day and 2,000 for the dinner meal. but i'm allowing myself to eat everything, no exceptions. the past 5 days were all high in calories, especially the last 4. i have planned what I will do to rid myself of the excess calories in the next two weeks. i'll try to stick with the caloric intakes I have planned out. then, i'll allow myself some high calorie days after that.

in regards to that job situation, the end resolution is what everyone has told me, not to say anything. you are all right, it would create bigger problems for me to bring it up to her now. oh, what a bad idea! lol.

i did yoga today. it felt so good! I ran into way too many people i know, though!

have a great day!

WorkingIt2 on 04/03/2007:
Congrats on the exercise! And on finding a resolution to your job situation.

hollybelle on 04/03/2007:
YEA for holiday meals. Sounds like it was a good one. Hope the resolution you have found for yourself brings you peace in job hunt! Good emotional work to go through stuff like that - although feels bad at the time!

horn_of_plenty - Sunday Apr 01, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

Total calories today: 3110

Thank you everyone for your kind words, encouragment, and advice. I will take it all. The most difficult thing will be admitting to the girl I am rehearse with that I did in fact apply for her job and I will have to get it off my chest. I feel like I should have just admitted it awhile ago, like its been too long now since last summer. I feel like she will not believe it that I hadn't told her earlier. eh, it may not be a good idea to say anything about it. I'm not sure, Donkey. I know that it would definitely make me feel better. But, i doubt it would make her feel better towards me.

I actually did get some exercise in. That is a goal of mine...this is my vacation. I need to use it well. I didn't do yoga like I planned because i would not be able to contort myself into all the formations with such a bloated stomach. I'll go tomorrow anyway, despite how i feel. It's enough to just be there.

I will not be able to make up for all of the excess calories so quickly. It's an awful lot and tomorrow and the next day i'll be having family dinners with friends and family for the holidays. I don't even want to restrict myself at them...nor during the day.

I figure I'll just eat low calories once I go back to work in a week and a half. I have already eaten enough calories to gain one pound. With Monday and Tuesday, that total will probably add to another pound gain. LOL. nice job to me, jk.

have a goodnight....and thank you all again for your kind words. they do mean a lot.

I did 60 minutes of exercise today...WorkingIt, are you recording minutes this month?

Donkey on 04/02/2007:
Maybe not. "Least said, soonest mended." I'm ok with not saying anything as long as you are able to validate your own feelings and put this thing behind you. I only suggested you tell her what you are feeling because it sounded to me like you are carrying a heavy burden. Sometimes we have to put on a stiff upper lip and just make the best of a difficult situation.

sounds like you had a pretty good day otherwise.

hollybelle on 04/02/2007:
Just catching up with your posts. I was thinking about your issue with the person who go thte job you interviewed for, etc. Thing like this come up from time to time all our lives. Regarding how to approach her - or even if you want to - put yourself in the other person's position and think how you would be OK with it coming up between you. Also take her over all personality into account in the equation. I had a job for 25 years and was "reorganized" right out of it. I had interviews where there were people I knew in the industry who got them and I did not. I ultimately got a job that is good for me for now and I am more or less glad I didn't get some of the others-but that is NOW. At the time it did bother me that I didn't get the jobs because after all I just KNEW I was the obvious choice (LOL). The truth is that there is so much going on behind the scenes with job hunting and we aren't the ones in control. It is difficult to have hard feelings, but from what you described the gril didn't even know you had interviewed, or she might have handled the situation differently (at least I hope she would have. That is what I mean above by taking her personality into account when you decide what if anything to do. I think all this might not even be an issue if you had found a job and were in your own niche at this point. Being unemployed (even though no fault of our own)is one of the most stressful events in life. Hang in there and keep looking. I'm sure something will happen to you soon. In the meantime try to think good thoughts and have as little resentment as possible - that will surround you with good vibrations that will attract good things from the universe to you (you know I am not New Age minded - I believe in God - a Higher Power and Prayer, but I like saying things like that because I do believe God works through positive attitudes, etc.). Also, you never know who in that group of musicians will sometime be in a position to help you find the right job in the future. Just be your wonderful, self and I know you will find the job you want, soon. It took me a few years to really find what I loved doing. I was lucky enough to do that one for 25 years and then I have the one I have now that is different, but I love things about it, too!

geevee on 04/02/2007:
My mother always counseled, "It's not what you say that matters, but what you don't say."

I think this advice applies to your situation with the girl who got the job. Would anything be accomplished by saying something to her? I don't think so. It would just cause all kinds of problems.

horn_of_plenty - Saturday Mar 31, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

edit: today, sunday: breakfast = 2440 calories. it was calculated, no joke!

WI points: 2.

i had a rehearsal this morning. One of the people i was going with was a girl who has the job that i also interviewed for this summer. I invited her to the rehearsal because my other friend thought it would be nice to have another instrument in our ensemble. i don't know anyone else who plays this girl's instument, so i had to invite her based on the request of my other friend. long story short, the interviewer told me i did a good job at the interview then and there last summer. however, due to politics and connections, she got the job and i did not.

later last summer, i had carpooled with her (the one that got the job)before i knew she had the job. she greeted me with "guess what, I have a job!" when i entered her car. that was the same day i had called up earlier in the morning to see if the district where she got the job had moved on with its application process. i was devastated, to be greeted that way. I know that she was really excited for herself...and i was happy for her. but i was heartbroken at the same time. actually, it was too much for me to handle. I couldn't even calm myself down during the concert and sat in that summer performance sobbing. i was an utter mess. then, i had to drive home with her.

i still get sick thinking about that situation last summer evening. perhaps i'm jealous that she has the job that i don't. but, bigger than that, i can't believe she didn't even say hi to me when i entered her car that summer day. she just splurted out like someone who cannot control themselves at all that she got a job, without thinking how i might feel since she knew i was in the process of looking for one. of course, she didn't know that i even interviewed for her job. she also didn't know that i had called up that same morning wondering if they had moved on in the process.

i seriously hope rehearsing with her gets better...if it doesn't, i am going to have to leave the group and they will have to find a different horn player! I'm serious. I can't bear all of this pain. I am literally a mess.

if i don't get a job soon, i swear, i will look into another occupation. i can't bear it!

3775 calories. unhappy, upset.

greengirl on 03/31/2007:
I'm sorry you are feeling sad and I hope things improve for you soon. In answer to your comment on my post yesterday, a chip muffin in england is a bread roll full of french fries. What you call fries, we call chips. Our muffins are bread rolls, not cakes. Keep your chin up :)

WorkingIt2 on 03/31/2007:
I am FINALLY able to spend some time online. I am so sorry that you are unhappy and upset, especially now that you are on vacation :( I hope your ankle is feeling better today, and that your spirts are lifted before the days end. (((((((Hug))))))))

borntocry on 03/31/2007:
Poor dear. Oh well, there's nothing for it but to pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start afresh tomorrow. Every day, in every way, you are getting better and better!

sharklover on 03/31/2007:
Oh no! I'm sorry that you are unhappy. I hope tomorrow goes better for you!

borntocry on 04/01/2007:
Oh, poor HoP! I can understand why you resent this girl. But if you must be around her, maybe it would help if you try not to judge her too harshly for her conduct last summer. If she knew that you had interviewed for the same job as her, her remark would have been almost unbelievably rude and selfish, but given the situation, it was just rather inconsiderate. Of course it came as a shock to you so it was understandable that you reacted the way you did.

It must be so difficult to deal with all the internal politics involved in your occupation, but look at it this way - at least you get to do something artistic and cool which you enjoy! Applying for office jobs is a much more straight-forward process, but then you're stuck at a desk watching the clock all day, like me!

jon'smom on 04/01/2007:
I'm sorry that you are hurting. But things will get better. You will rise above this!

girliegirl6486 on 04/01/2007:
I'm sorry you're upset and hurting. I HATE politics...that's how my roommate got Editor in Chief of my paper last semester and I didn't. I'm running again for EIC for the coming semester and the forum and vote are this Thursday, so I might be feeling just as down as you if I don't get it. At least my roommate isn't running for it again.

Try to focus on the positives, things will start looking up soon.

WorkingIt2 on 04/01/2007:
Job stress I understand all too well *sigh* it is so very difficult. I must say that while I have never been in this particular situation before, I know what it feels like to just have to remove myself from a situation in order to salvage the things that I love about who I am and what I do with my life. I think that when we remove ourselves from a situation because it is a way to preserve our identity, that is a positive move. If we remove ourselves from what we love because it hurts, the pain won..defeated us.and that is even more difficult to get over than anything else. I know you are expressing frustration and that your heart is so full of pain, I can feel it from over here! And I support you in your pain and say let it all out! And then when you are in a better place, remember your dreams and how you were made specifically to do what it is that you do. You don't have that dream inside of you because you woke up one day and decided you'd like it...you were born with it. There is nothing worth leaving behind your dreams. Even if it does sting and we might have to abandon it for a little while.

((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))) hang in there

Donkey on 04/01/2007:
I honestly do not think she meant to throw her job in your face. BUT having said that, if you find that rehersing with her gets to be too much, stand up for yourself and tell her kindly and diplomatically how you feel. Find a quiet moment to take her aside and explain, "I'm not sure you're aware of this, but I applied for that job too. I'm happy for you that you got it, but I was also very disappointed that they did not hire me. I find my feelings getting in the way of our working relationship, and I just wanted to let you know where I'm coming from, to kind of get it off my chest so that I can move forward."

Don't stuff your feelings with food; your feelings about this job situation deserve validation. I mean, I can't imagine how much that must have hurt. Like salt in a deep cut on your finger. Ouch.

Chubby1 on 04/06/2007:
I am going to try the veggies more. Thanks!!!

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