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horn_of_plenty - Friday Jan 26, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

Turns out I felt like I was gonna vomit since I got up this morning. I practically forced an apple down my throat for breakfast. I almost couldn't even finish it. I didn't feel any better at school. We took the bus from the elementary school to the middle school for day 2 of the district band rehearsal.

At times, I walked away from the auditorium thinking i was too nauseaus and in need of a restroom.

we arrived back at the elementary school where I think I can finally do some paperwork and relax. NO! The asst. principal wonders why I have cancelled the one afternoon lesson (I cancelled because the other band teachers told me to yesterday, saying I had fulfilled my teaching requirements for the day at rehearsal.) well, i can understand if the asst principal did want me to teach the one afternoon lesson, since i was in the building. However, then she asked me to teach another extra lesson in the afternoon that had to be cancelled from the morning. well, its my first full week there, so i did it. I had to end up staying late at school; and i'm still not done with my work. I felt like I was gonna throw up while teaching the lessons. ugh.

I think that I caused myself this virus, from whatever I ingested last night. I ate too much. and, whoever warned me that i'd feel sick, i feel sicker than you could imagine!

I ate 360 calories until dinner. It consisted of an apple, some bread, and two eggs. and, i forced that food down my throat. If i wasn't so obsessed with food, i probably wouldn't have even tried to eat all that!

when i got home, i took a nap. then, i had bravo crackers and soup. total: 450. It was difficult to get the solid parts of the soup down and i began to get nauseous again. I hope i'm not making any of you readers sick! sorry if i did.

ugh. i've simply had enough.

borntocry on 01/26/2007:
Listen, if you're feeling that sick, don't eat! Wait until you feel better. I hope you do feel better soon. For people as obsessed with food as we are, it sucks to be unable to enjoy it!

WorkingIt2 on 01/26/2007:
(((((((((Horn)))))))))))) awww I hope you feel better soon! No fun to be sick!

Justine6Robert3 on 01/26/2007:
Sorry your feeling sick, what an awful day you must have had trying to function and teach all day (and then stay late, nice!!) when you had such an upset stomach. I think you need to snuggle up in your bed. You should maybe avoid eating right now if its upsetting your stomach so much! Maybe your coming down with the flu, its that lovely time of year.

I hope you feel better, take care of yourself!

Donkey on 01/27/2007:
I hope you feel better soon. I hope it doesn't develop into stomach flu or something like that. I agree, don't eat if you feel sick to your stomach!

horn_of_plenty - Thursday Jan 25, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 111.8

WorkingIt points: 6. everything except the calorie points.

I binged, but stopped when my stomach actually felt VERY full and solid. weird feeling, usually I don't get that feeling so soon. Maybe it's because I ate good things all day and a major afternoon binge wasn't necessary. who knows.


Breakfast: 1 cup hi fiber bran, 1/2 cup soy milk, one apple, one egg, two chocolates. total: 420.

No Snack in the midmorning.

Lunch: carrots, lc bread, bbq chicken. total: 250.

Snack: Protein advantage chocolate chip granola bar. yes, it hit the spot. 220 calories, lots of fiber. I don't know if I should have had this or something with some more carbs in it and no sugar alcohols. i don't want to start eating lots of sugar alcohols again!

Dinner: Microwave veggies and tofu. (I didn't even heat the tofu up...and I had the entire block, just cut it into bite size pieces. I don't really flavor my tofu, sometimes I'll sprinkle it with papricka or spices. but, i just heat it in the microwave if i want it warm). calories: 420.

Dinner lead into a binge: more high fiber cereal and 1 cup soy milk: 200

Total so far: 1510.... However, I continued to binge:

Two chocolates....1620, Bread and sf jelly.....1720, Peanut butter, bread and jelly...1990, 2 slices of bread and peanut butter....2230.

well, i was feeling emotions of "not being good enough" and "not living up to my potential" this afternoon. In the end, I am not conducting the elementary band district festival because the chairperson felt that the teachers who have been around in the district for awhile should stand up to the plate! yeah, she told me it wasn't at all about how good a teacher I am and not based on any dissatisfaction at all. just that she wanted the other teachers to participate. also, there are only 3 songs, but 6 teachers. therefore, there isn't a song for me to conduct. i'm fine with that. however, if i did have to do it, i'd be a nervous wreck. I just hope that I can do it as well as the other teachers there today. I probably could. I feel i'm not giving my all to my job. I think this lead into the binge.

Tomorrow's another day.

ok. I need to get a little more sleep. It's not that i'm necessarily tired during the day, but I can tell my energy is a little sluggish; and i come home and vegged out after work when i should exercise right away so that I can do some other productive things later in the evening. I haven't been productive this week after work.

Progress as of today: 1.6 lbs lost so far, only 8.8 lbs to go!

gina7400 on 01/25/2007:
you go!!

lafemme_loca on 01/25/2007:
You are doing so well... even with the small 'binge'... Emotional and Stress eating are my speciality. Isn't it amazing how we find comfort in eating even when we are not hungry. I heard someone say "don't let a lapse turn into a collapse." It is nice to see that you have the good attitude about tomorrow. :-) Take care of yourself !

Donkey on 01/25/2007:
I can understand why the incident with the band festival led to the binge. I often deal with feelings of inadequacy and untapped potential. However, no good comes of dwelling on such negativity. I agree, tomorrow is a new day and we will strive to give what we can. I personally really admire you for making a career out of your passion for music. My cousin graduated last year, majoring in music education. He was unable to find a school to teach (band director), so he has had to supplement his degree with classes that will qualify him to teach math. Last I heard, he had applied for a bank teller position at a nearby bank. So what you have managed to accomplish is definitely worthy of admiration.

Be forewarned: You may find that you regretted bingeing on high fiber bran cereal and peanut butter tomorrow...

Justine6Robert3 on 01/25/2007:
Your way to tough on yourself! You are going to feel a little "sluggish" until your body gets back into the routine of going to work everyday. I'm sure if you were hired to be a band teacher that you are very qualified and I'm sure you would do a great job if they need you to stand in.

I agree with Donkey, you have done very well for yourself turning your love for music into your career. So many people get up and go to work everyday and hate what they do for a living.

I do love your positive outlook, tomorrow is another day and it will be better! Have a good night and enjoy your work day tomorrow. Hope you sleep well tonight, it can make all the difference.

WorkingIt2 on 01/25/2007:
Awwww, I think you are a wonderful person with a kind heart and a very understanding and nurturing soul. I bet you are a wonderful teacher!

borntocry on 01/26/2007:
I often binge due to stress over my job or fights with my husband or whatever, so what I've started trying to do is identify the cause of the problem and then ask myself, "Will I feel better after another 2000 calories? Will the stress be gone? Will all my problems be solved?" I think we all know the answer to that one - I'll be left feeling even more stressed out and miserable than before. Simple as it seems, I think this method really does work for me from time to time. (Other times, it seems nothing will stop me!)

greengirl on 01/26/2007:
I think they were mean not to let you conduct one of the songs. No wonder you were a trifle emotional. I would have been p****d myself!!!! At least it is no reflection on your teaching ability!! Anyway keep your chin up and carry on regardless :)

horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Jan 24, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 113.4

....I think i'd like cereal tomorrow morning. High fiber bran...

WorkingIt points: 8 calories 1500 on the dot!

the bbq shredded chicken i've been having is from Trader Joe's. all it is is shredded chicken in a slightly sweet BBQ sauce.

Edit: dinner changed a little. dinner: lox, pound of peppers, an apple (instead of a yogurt). 300 cal.


my weight is all over the place! lol. I didn't think it would be this high today!

So, I arrive at school at 8:50am today because i don't teach early on Wednesdays. I teach starting at 9:30am, compared to the usual 8:25am every other day of the week. LOL, and someone comes in telling me I must be at school at 7:30am every day, even today! How much does that stink!? oh well. I guess it'll be a "catch-up" time or just time to get work done!


Breakfast: I splurged. I don't know what my issue was. However, I didn't go into a major high cal binge. Probably bc I know that my weight is pretty high at the moment. ok, so breakfast is an emergen-c, 1/2 tofu, one egg, and an apple. 310 cal.

No snacks before lunch. I don't know how much I like this. It's doable, but I do feel a little tired.

Lunch: bbq chicken salad on lc bread, carrots, tomato: 230 cal.

Snack #1 on way home: Subway dbl meat chicken wrap with sweet peppers.

Snack #2 when I got home: one chocolate 55 cal.

Snack #3: tomato

total so far: 1200 I'll update after dinner!

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 10.4 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 01/24/2007:
You are doing fine! Thanks for the comments on my diary. About the Squash Mac & Cheese.....It is butternut squash that I peel, cube and boil until just tender, drain and mash. Then I put some skim milk, reduced fat ricotta cheese, some sharp cheddar and some monterey jack and fresh parmesan cheeses with a little ground dry mustand, one whole minced onion, a little salt and white pepper. On the cheeses it's about 8 oz of ricotta and about 1/2 cup each of everything but the sharp cheddar - about 1 Cup of the sharp cheddar is needed. Hope you enjoy it if you make it. I LOVE it.

bikinikill on 01/24/2007:
I tried to decrease the size of the photo (the same thing I'm trying to do with my body!) I can't figure out how to post my entry in color or add that little Goal Graph (like on your diary) How do you do that?

bikinikill on 01/24/2007:
Nevermind! just found out I will have to reveal my actual weight if I want to use the goal graph. Not ready to do that yet.

Justine6Robert3 on 01/24/2007:
Your doing good! You still ate alot of good healthy food today. Yes, I do well with milk but its easy for me because I love milk, always have. My problem is making sure I don't over do it and drink to much milk, that's why I switched to 1%.

I wish I could eat the large variety of vegetables you do! I have a hard time getting veggies into my diet, I just don't like many of them. I also need more fibre in my diet. I'm going to buy some brown rice to have with chicken etc.

Hope your dinner is good and you have a great evening!

Runner on 01/25/2007:
I've given up my everyday cereal addiction...but I still have it at least 2-3 days a week...especially the high-fiber stuff (with a little bit of Cinnamon LIFE mixed in)! I love it! :)

Great job on your calorie intake!

smiley2 on 01/25/2007:
Looks like you are doing well! That BBQ chicken sounds so delic!

Donkey on 01/25/2007:
Curious to know how you prepare your tofu. I see tofu at the supermarket, but I'm not sure what to do with that big block of stuff. Great job, by the way! You are so inspirational to me!

WorkingIt2 on 01/25/2007:
You eat the most interesting food combo's! I just love reading your journal!

Jmarie60 on 01/25/2007:
Everyone I know raves about Trade Joes's. I'm about an hour south west of Columbus. I think there's one there.

You asked me about anemia...When I feel like my iron is low, I get really tired and I hve headaches. Sometimes I feel dizzy.

Ask your doctor about it the next time you see him/her. My gyno is the one who's always concerned about my anemia.

horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Jan 23, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 112.6

WorkingIt points: 7. food calories were a little higher than I wanted. 1595, instead of 1500.

anyone have advice for sore legs? i'm gonna have to buy some muscle pain soother. they are hurting. I walked on the treadmill for an hour and didn't even get in 3 miles! LOL. tired legs!

Dinner: Lox, 120. 4 small/medium peppers: 90. 7 nori sheets, 70.one cucumber, 25. total: 305.

I have been enjoying the larger than normal afternoon snack i've been having. I'm gonna think about it tonight what I want to get for tomorrow. something convenience, something sweet! lol.


Hi all! I made a mistake yesterday. When I was at my heighest weight a few days ago, I had gained about 8.8 lbs since New Years! Not as bad as 13 pounds!

This morning I almost ate too much for breakfast, but then I stopped that behavior by having more tea. It was also getting late and I had to leave the house soon. I actually did have lunch in school today. However, without a morning snack, I felt my energy slipping a little. The teacher I'm replacing doesn't even really have lunch in school, he said, because his schedule ends so early in the afternoon. I guess he just goes home for lunch around 2pm. I wouldn't like that schedule very much at all!


Breakfast: 1egg, emergen-c, apple, tofu. 310 cal

Lunch: lo cal bread, 1/2 cup chicken salad...i'll post the recipe later this evening, carrots, tomato. 300 cal.

Snack on the way home: tea, fruit salad 120

Snack at home: 9 ritz-like crackers, microwavable eggplant parm, plain strained yogurt. 500 cal.

Snack about 2 1/2 hours later: tomato...and then a cucumber...55 total

Total so far: 1285...which only leaves 215 for dinner. ugh. at least it'll be a late dinner close to bedtime...I might go over by a few calories I've been thinking about and eating food all afternoon!


good evening all!

Tomorrow starts my journey alone with the elementary band.

Progress as of today: 0.8 lbs lost so far, only 9.6 lbs to go!

slipstream on 01/23/2007:
Hi HOP - Wow, you want to weight 103? Are you missing a leg? I'm just under 5'3' and when I get to 117 people get worried about how thin I look. I've weighed 114 as an adult and that's as thin as I need to be to look great in a bikini. Are you thin-boned? The old graphs suggesting "normal" weight for people were pretty off, but I remember hearing a more contemporary rule - for women - 100 lbs for 5 feet, and 5 lbs for every inch after that. I have known other women as low in weight, same height...and they look fine. I guess there are just differences among us that are hard to define! Thatnks for the comment you left me, for calling me on it . Caused me to look more closely at my yo yo habits rgarding calories. Gotta go - American Idol is on! :o)

borntocry on 01/24/2007:
Your legs may just be getting used to the exercise. Where are they hurting? Calves, shins, thighs, front, back? Or all over? You might want to try stretching your muscles before, and especially after, you exercise. If you do it before exercise, be gentle, as your muscles will be cold and more prone to injury. But it is more important to do it afterwards. Just a few seconds of stretching can save you a lot of pain! Take it from someone who knows.

borntocry on 01/24/2007:
<br>Hi HoP,

Thanks for your comment. You're right, I guess my binge last night did provide some fibre! Trust you to find the positive aspects of a splurge, haha! I do feel better about it now, though!

The back of your thighs are not your quads - they're your hamstrings. That's a muscle that's very often tight, and it's the easiest one to stretch. All you have to do is bend over and try to touch your toes. Don't force it (especially if it's already hurting), do it slowly and try to hold your position for 8-12 seconds. Do this a few times before and after you exercise.

horn_of_plenty - Monday Jan 22, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 113.6

Update: WorkingIt Points: 7. LOL, because I was under my calories by 105, and not 100 calories, I am giving myself 7 points and not 8. I am proud of myself for walking for an hour, although it was only at about 3.0 mph! My legs are still hurting and tired!

Snack before dinner and my walk: tomato

Dinner: 4 orange peppers, 120; brussels, 125; greek strained yogurt, 80; and then I had some strawberries, 45.

Total Calories: 1395

I will probably add more protein to tomorrow's breakfast also because I know I may not be having lunch at lunchtime!


Lol, I've gained 13 pounds since New Years!! hahahahaha! Must go in the other direction soon!

Today was a good, planned eating day. However, I was working today with the teacher I will be replacing while he has surgery and will be absent for a few months starting Wednesday.

Obviously, eating wasn't on his mind. Luckily, he let me teach and that got my mind off of food a lot! Well, I went with him to get his lunch, Dunkin Donut's muffin and coffee, which he didn't have time to eat and I obviously didn't have time to eat mine, either. I brought lunch and a midmorning snack, all of which were eaten on my car on the way home; and I added a stop at Dunkin Donuts to fulfill my craving and got a bavarian cream donut how good! i was satisfied after.

Breakfast: 1 egg, one apple, emergen-c (total 170) and then I had something a little unplanned, more protein: half a package of tofu (140 cal) total 310

Midmorning snack that got eaten after school: 1 egg

Lunch that got eaten after school: Carrots (80), bbq chicken salad on lt bread (220).

Snack that got eaten right after lunch: Dunkin Donuts' Bavarian cream donut: I looked it up and it says 210. I simply do not believe it. I'm recording it as 310. way too much creme and powdered sugar to only be 210.

Totals so far: 990

Progress as of today: -0.2 lbs lost so far, only 10.6 lbs to go!

WorkingIt2 on 01/22/2007:
Once I get a craving for a donut, I have to eat one or I'll eat two or three lol. Hope you are having a wonderful day, it looks like you are doing great!

WorkingIt2 on 01/22/2007:
LOL thanks for the entry on my journal! Made me laugh!

lafemme_loca on 01/22/2007:
:-) I so know the feeling about 'too good to be true' ... thanks for the comments on my entry :-) I will let you know the outcome from Nestl´┐Ż on my 5g issue from their website...

Donkey on 01/22/2007:
Wow, I think you did very well today. Being busy is a good thing! Keeps a person away from the food! (speaking more for myself, but I see you were busy today too!) Great food choices! BBQ chicken salad sounds wonderful. (recipe?)

lafemme_loca on 01/22/2007:
Ooh I forgot to mention... yes the liquid stevia is very good. I like the Vanilla and then I just bought some non-flavoured liquid and added almond extract to it to make Almond flavour for tea... it is tastey, too.

monet0239 on 01/22/2007:
just a hello..

man I wish I could go have a donut and not have to worry about it.. lucky you..have a great tomorrow.. :)

Justine6Robert3 on 01/22/2007:
Sounds like you had a busy day. Yummy, the donut sounds tasty! I caved today and had a bowl of chips. A very small bowl but enough to send my calories over 1500. Oh well, tomorrow's another day and I figured if I didn't just have a few I'd end up eating them all. I felt satisfied after my little bowl, wich I ate very slowly so I could really enjoy it:)

Keeping busy is a good distraction from food for sure!

missingsmokes on 01/22/2007:
the 13 lbs is probably muscle...lol thats what i always tell myself! ;)

borntocry on 01/23/2007:
You have gained 13 lb since New Year's? How is that possible? Did you weigh 100 lb then?!

That must have been some workout you had if it left your legs hurting and tired afterwards. That's always a good feeling, I think!

Thanks for the comment you left me. Funny you should mention how great it is that my husband and I can eat together without eating the same things. If only it were so easy! That has been an uphill struggle all the way. When I first started counting calories a couple of years ago, I had to make sure he didn't see my plate at dinner because he would complain about how little I was eating. Then when we moved into our new apartment we had a bigger kitchen so I started preparing more low-calorie food for myself so that I could eat as much of it as I wanted. At the same time I try to make stuff that my husband will like too, so that he isn't just living off McDonald's and Pizza Hut. But the problem is that he feels guilty when I make something just for him, so I generally have to eat at least a little bit of it too. Sometimes I make enough for two days, so we eat together on the first day but on the second day he has the leftovers while I have something else. Other times, I just pretend to eat the same thing as him but put it in a bowl so that he can't see that I'm only having a couple of bites of it! I know, it probably sounds like I have an eating disorder and I'm quite embarrassed to admit it, but I can't think of any other way around it. I don't like to make the same stuff day after day but my husband is not as experimental as I am.

horn_of_plenty - Sunday Jan 21, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 113.8

monday's weight 113.6.


Update:WorkingIt points: 7

yeah, I actually had a bigger dinner than planned, 155 calories over what I planned. Total calories for today are 1655, instead of 1500. Dinner was lox and baked brussel sprouts in 6 nori wraps. then, i had 9 ritz crackers, which is what put me over in calories.



WorkingIt points: all 8! Today's calories will be around 1500. I haven't had dinner, but I know I will not be going over, or that they'll be pretty close if i do!

I forgot to weight myself today before having breakfast! I was hoping it would be a little lower than yesterday!

I did some errands this morning, food shopping, got the newspaper. I did 4 music teaching applications from the posted jobs that I found! Some laundy, 45 minutes walking on the treadmill. my legs have been very tired lately, anyone else get that? spurts of tired leg syndrome every once in awhile?!

Today's menu: Breakfast: I decided to make my snack my breakfast and add some fruit, too: 1/2 package of tofu, cup of strawberries, 2 tbsp PB on one slice of bread. 430 calories

Snack: 1 egg, pound! of frozen pepper slices!, 1 apple 250 calories

Snack: 2 chocolates, 110 calories...yes, a normal serving!

Snack: seaweed salad, 40 calories

Lunch: microwable package of seasoned carrots and broccoli, 1/2 cup of bbq shredded chicken on 2 slices of low cal bread, tomato 340 calories

Total so far: 1180 calories.

320 left for dinner.

probably lox, veggies, nori sheets.

Progress as of today: -0.4 lbs lost so far, only 10.8 lbs to go!

ginger72 on 01/21/2007:
great menu today....I am going to bopil some eggs tonight for salads this week, my legs get tired after about 20 minutes....i have not built up my endurance yet.

keep up the good work!!

Justine6Robert3 on 01/21/2007:
Yes I know what you mean, My legs are feeling very tired the last couple of days! I think its because of the exercise. Today I had a hard time getting going at the gym my legs just didn't want to co-operate with me at first. I was working out at my regular level on the eliptical trainer that I can usually go rather fast on and today it felt like there was so much tension and my legs were moving to slow!

I had a tuna sandwich and a glass of milk before I went and I didn't feel hungry at all though, thanks for the feedback on what to eat before I went so I wouldn't feel hungry half way through.

I wish I could stomach all the veggies you eat, their so good for you and you actually seem to enjoy them!!

sasyredneckgirl on 01/22/2007:
Horn.. my legs have been KILLINGGGG me this week one night i slept in the tub for 2 hours cause thats the only way i could get comfy.. I am on medicine for restless leg syndrome but it was unbearable.. have heard a lot of people around here complaining.. perhaps the weather has something to do with it..

tourguidebarbie on 01/22/2007:
lately i've been running 20 mins and then feeling like i'm going to die... haha.

horn_of_plenty - Saturday Jan 20, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 113.8

Hey everyone.

3rd edit: WorkingIt points: 5. I did no minutes of walking...my legs got really tired after yoga, no points for exercise. also, i'm subtracting a point from today bc I gave myself one extra yesterday.

Total calories today: 1495.

-------------------------------------------------------------- Food so far today: Breakfast: 1 egg, 2 apricots, 1 packet emergen'c, . then, since it was late already in the morning, i decided to snack on an entire package of very light tofu. The entire thing was 200 calories. I thought i was gonna vomit at times this morning because I drank a lot of water and tea and was not even hungry the whole time I had the tofu. In my head, I just didn't want to make it like I was not allowing myself to eat the day after a close to 5,000 calorie binge.

ok, enough on that subject.

AFter breakfast and some internet searching, I went to teach a music lesson. Sadly my second lesson, an hour lesson, was cancelled because the father was home from work today. I would have made $50 at that lesson!

I then went to use some gift cards at the mall; and bought a 100 calorie balance bar.

when I got home, I had Lunch: an apple, a cucumber, seaweed salad, a frozen package of brussel sprouts that I finally microwaved enough so they tasted exactly how I like them to, and a piece of teryaki salmon in a pouch I bought in the canned food isle. It's made by bumblebee. It wasn't that great, but not bad either. Then, I decided to go along and have 4 truffles. without the truffles, lunch was 435. with the truffles, 655 calories.

I figured I'd be in yoga the rest of the late afternoon and then just have dinner when I get home. I was actually full in between finishing lunch, but decided to finish it. I have yet to be able to just throw or put the food away. I'm not even concerned with that right now.

Total calories so far: 1095.

I'll update tonight with dinner and whatever else happens today!


When I do my points for today, I have to substract one because yesterday I recorded one extra point. I never ended up going on the treadmill like I thought I would.

Today has been a strange day. I woke up around 8:30 with a very full stomach all the way from my noon binge yesterday. I actually didn't end up eating again last evening...my stomach was majorly full. During rehearsal, I had a hard time breathing deeply because of all the food. As you can see, I weigh 3.6 lbs more today!

Some people were asking how I go about figuring out the calories i need in order to balance a binge. well, its not a specific calculation. I just take one day's calories and then plan how many calories i will be having for a few days in advance and add the calories of all those days together. then, i divide by all the days to get an average for each day. for instance:

1st day, binge day: 4000 calories 2nd day: 1500 3rd day 1500 4th day 1500 5th day 1500 6th day 1500

Total calories for 6 days: 11500

then, i divide 11500 by 6 to get an equal average for calories per day for the 6 days. so, 11500 divided by 6 is 1916 calories.

therefore, even though a person eats 4000 calories one day, if they eat 1500 for the next 5 days after, it will balance out to 1916 per day.

I only do these kind of calculations after a binge. I used to plan more 1200 calorie days after a binge, but I am not always able to stick to calories that low and it ends up leading to another binge.

Progress as of today: -0.4 lbs lost so far, only 10.8 lbs to go!

greengirl on 01/20/2007:
Hey Horn of Plenty, just like to thank you for all your recent comments and support. They are much appreciated. You are so good with your support for everyone. Oh by the way, when I said that my posts had become red, I meant that the actual text had turned to the colour red, and I have no idea why or how or when it happened!!!

WorkingIt2 on 01/20/2007:
Hey ((((((((((Horn))))))))) thank you very, very much for being so wonderful. I truly appreciate it! I do the same thing at the end of the week, figure out my calories in vs. out and average my calories per day. So I know what you mean. It does work sometimes to have that one day binge and then ease up the rest of the week. Which is exactly what that 'cheat' meal does to me lol. I like in your entry from yesterday that you said you "decided to binge"!! I think it is great that you are talking in terms that allow you to take control of when you binge. That is a HUGE success! YAY!! Thanks again, I really enjoy the company =)

horn_of_plenty - Friday Jan 19, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 110.2

Workingit points: 6. everything except calories.

well, like most of you, i'd been doing pretty well for the past 6 days. However, today, day 7, I decided to binge.

I had a good breakfast: oatmeal and 2 eggs. 310 calories

Lunch (that lead into a binge): seaweed salad, one pound of frozen sliced peppers, 1/2 cup of shredded bbq chicken, some carrots, and one slice of WW pumpernickle bread...420 calories

my sister was home today. no problems. but, i was getting all jittery...and soon enough, i decided to eat something else:

started with tam tam crackers: 3 1/2 servings = 520 calories chocolate: 220 calories piroulettes cookies: 7 = 525 calories bravos = 550 calories pepperidge farm huge cookies = 560 calories one pb and jelly sandwich = 390 2nd pb and jelly sandwich and a yogurt = 490 1/2 cup of vanilla ice cream = 150 (not so good) one cup granola and soy milk = 500....left a spoonfull because i couldn't eat anymore and felt my stomach ready to explode.

Calorie total for today: 4635 calories

I need to replan how my calories in the next few weeks. ugh, i'm feeling sick.......

I'm ignoring what I had figurred out for the # of days I needed at 1500 for my last binge. For this binge, I need to eat 1500 for 11 days. Then, i should be back to where I was this morning.

I'm so crazy right now. I'm nervous. I will be conducting a piece in the district festival, where I currently am only a "substitute teacher!" however, i'm regarded just like any other teacher by the administration and my colleagues. therefore, when i was emailed along with the other band teachers to see who wanted to conduct a piece in the festival, I volunteered to do so. not all the other teachers wanted to, and my administrator told me I can! I'm dying. Next week I begin steadily teaching at the other school. I begin my grad classes the week after. I feel so sick. ugh.

Progress as of today: 3.2 lbs lost so far, only 7.2 lbs to go!

missingsmokes on 01/19/2007:
i don't get it!

borntocry on 01/19/2007:
You are stressed out, girl, and it's not surprising considering how your family hassles you. And then having all those cookies and crackers and chocolate in the house is just so dangerous. But I guess you can't help it if you're living with your family. Maybe the next time you're feeling jittery like that you should just leave the house - go for a walk or something. But I don't know if you can do that where you live. If not, maybe just leave the kitchen and try to get engrossed in some other activity (you know, like we discussed the other day)!

geevee on 01/19/2007:
I left you a comment yesterday, 1/18, thinking it was 11/19. Just to let you know incase you hadn't checked 1/18.

sharklover on 01/19/2007:
Good luck on conducting!! Sounds like fun! how do you calculate how long it takes to get back from binges?

It sucks that you had such a binge today, but at least you know why, and at least I know it happens to everyone. :-)

Justine6Robert3 on 01/19/2007:
You sure have alot going on, its no wonder your stressed out and binging! I read your diaries regarding the whole sister, mother fight. It's really tough to live at home when your a young adult. My mom started to drive me crazy when I was about 18. I moved out when I was 22 and honestly our relationship was so much better after I moved out. I love my mom, ofcourse she can still frustrate me to no end. I have a sister who is only 14 months older than me and we are so different. We haven't been close for years. She got pregnant when she was 16 yrs old and moved out. She seemed to have issues with me from then on. She was so mean and hurtful and I remember asking my parents why does my sister suddenly hate me?! We recently had a very long overdue talk, about lots of issues that we had never discussed, there was alot of tears. I love my sister but she has done and said so many hurtful things to me that its tough to get over. I am very forgiving and I'm trying to leave the past in the past and work on our relationship. I felt so great when we both finally talked out our feelings and put everything in the open.

Sorry I'm babbling on. I do think you would likely get along with your family better if you moved out, I don't know if that's possible for you right now. I guess your overwhelmed with your life right now as it is. Thats great that your volunteering to conduct the festival. I don't blame you for being nervous but I'm sure you'll do great!

I hope tomorrow is a better day for you:)

Justine6Robert3 on 01/19/2007:
Thank-you for the advice on what to eat for better energy at the gym. I went today and I felt so much better!

missingsmokes on 01/20/2007:
Sorry I should of explained myself clearer.....my bad! I don't understand the calorie adjustments you do if you binge.....man you have a lot of stress. I teach stress mgt classes at work, have you ever tried relaxation, yoga or tai chi? Just curious. Sorry for the confusion.....keep breathing hon!

stringbean on 01/20/2007:
Mmm, pirouettes... I just discovered them, and only bought them once- I know I will get into trouble with them!!

Re your comment: I don't eat ground beef because I don't like the texture, not because it's unhealthy or fatty. The only way I eat it is in thin, well done burgers. It's odd, I know.

horn_of_plenty - Thursday Jan 18, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 112.4

WorkingIt points for today: 8!

Today started out CRAZILY and I'm glad everything worked out in the end!

I woke up with my alarm clock but I guess I was still sleeping because I woke up again and looked at the clock and it was majorly LATE! Luckily, I showered at night...because I had to be dressed and out the door in 15 minutes flat!

yeah, so i spent 15 minutes trying to get myself to look my best and flew out the door to teach band and lessons for the second time at the other elementary school. Tomorrow I have off, but starting Monday I'll be there for a couple months straight at least.

I got there more than on time. I had to prepare my lesson at school since none of the materials are mine. I had a good amount of time to do so, but i was still a little combobulated knowing that I could have seriously messed up my success with my colleagues and the students.

I'm not sure what I learned from this experience of almost sleeping in too late. I already use TWO alarm clocks. When one goes off, I usually shut off both as I get up. I am not a snooze button presser. LOL, I just hadn't been using an alarm clock for the past 3 weeks and I guess I'll get back into it now that I'll be working on a normal basis.

I obviously forgot to weigh myself this morning! also, i didn't have time to prepare any food whatsoever. I grabbed 3 powerbars that my dad gets (by the case!) from his friends who own a health food store. Regular flavors like apple cinnamon and oatmeal raisin. A few weeks ago I would have told you I don't eat refined carbs, grain, or gluten! LOL. so, they are massively sugary and not the kind of way I'd want to start my day! I had one in my car with water for breakfast. I had another as a midmorning snack. I had the third for lunch. 230 calories each.

I was tired, probably from being "jolted awake" this morning, on my way home from school. I was planning on eating a fast snack, practicing, going to yoga, and then going to a concert. However, I decided yoga will have to wait till tomorrow because I knew I wouldn't be able to fit in a fast snack and practicing before it. I also knew I should practice because I have a rehearsal I need to play in on Friday evening!

So, I was gonna just snack when I got home but it turned into a larger meal. I almost used up all my calories. I had 2 seaweed salads first. Then, 1 block of baked seasoned tofu along with a frozen package of brussel sprouts ( I love them). then, another block of tofu (160 calories each for the tofu) which was going overboard. I was concerned I didn't get enough protein lol and I was also just going nuts. Then, i finished the meal off with some pretzels. In total, the meal was 635 calories. I ended the meal at 3pm. this left about 175 calories for the rest of the night.

I then relaxed and practiced. I even took a half hour walk on the treadmill and then headed out to see my student in her high school band concert. It was very good and she had a French horn solo! I was very impressed by the chorus too, all of them were in the 9th grade. they were so in tune. sometimes, it's difficult with that age, especially with a small chorus like they were. However, this teacher was great and so were the kids!

I got home, took a 15 minute walk. I had another seaweed salad and 1/2 a block of regular tofu. 180 calories.

Total calories: 1505. pretty close to 1500!

To answer some questions:

Lily, yes I play the French horn! There are a few musicians on DD. Maria is also very musical!

BTC, thank you for the advice. You always give the "mature" advice and I appreciate it. It is definitely better not to spark a fire...to spark my mother by bringing things up that she won't go along with. Strange thing is, she brought it up to me tonight in a round about way. I came home from the concert and spoke to her. she made like she was uninterested and said she wouldn't talk to me. I asked why. She said she doesn't talk to people that are rude and yell at her (referring to what I did yesterday morning bc she didn't care about what I had to say about what happened in the car with my sister). I told her I was angry that she yelled at me and thats why I yelled at her. then, the argument, on a much lesser scale, happened again tonight!!!! I eventually said to her that I didn't know why she'd bring it up again, over 24 hours later, when I'd come to discuss positive things like the concert I saw. then, my mom poured herself some vodka. whatever!

so that's my night. Now i'm off to your journals.

by the way, i like all comments. I like that many of you are interested in what I eat or do or whatever else you may be interested in. It's good for us and really benifits all of us to discuss what works and what doesn't in dieting and life in general!


Progress as of today: 1 lbs lost so far, only 9.4 lbs to go!

WorkingIt2 on 01/18/2007:
You've had some busy days! Sorry I haven't been able to catch up with you each day like I used to..I am hoping that changes soon.

Here is the link to the challenge update! You are doing great!!


amanda8419 on 01/18/2007:
lol yes i love chocolate milk, which sadly has a lot to do with my situation now. When I was pregnant I would get up in the middle of the night, without realizing it and I would drink almost half the gallon. I was going through 1/2 gallon maybe a little less a day for about 2 months. Also when i was pregnant I would sleep walk/eat chocolate donuts without really being awake. It def didnt help me with the weight department

Runner on 01/18/2007:
HI, there! Good job on staying close to 1500 calories! You and BTC always inspire me to keep my calories low. And I'm glad your day turned out okay, even if you overslept. That's always a fear of mine, so now that I'm married I feel safer, since my husband sets a separate alarm! But when I was single, I was always afraid of waking up too late!

By the way, I'm fairly musical, too, even though I don't spend much time practicing anymore. In high school, I played the flute and piano, and then I picked up the acoustic guitar in college. I come from a family where everyone else is very talented in music...and I'm just mediocre. But that's okay. I actually like it that way. :) My dad also played the french horn, and so did my sister. So I know how to appreciate that instrument!! :)

Anyway...thanks for answering my question about diet sodas, and for taking the time to comment on my entry!

borntocry on 01/19/2007:
That's really funny - I also rely on my husband to wake me up for work, like Runner. So maybe that's what you need to do - get married!

Thanks for the comment you left me. You are so sweet to encourage me like that. You're right, I can't have a record-breaking workout every single day! I am going to try to remind myself of that from now on.

And thanks for saying you appreciated my advice the day before. It seems like your mother just won't let it slide, though! My mother did that to me a couple of times, too - gave me the silent treatment until she got an apology. But it's hard to apologise when you don't feel like you did anything wrong. I hope your mother is mature enough to get over this pettiness.

missingsmokes on 01/19/2007:
ohhhhh...moms eh, sometimes I feel like I am the mom in our relationship...she left my dad 6 years ago and has had 6 years of dating younger men....almost my age...some of them were younger...and she cannot take any constructive critism....so now I just let her come round....I am not going to take the games she plays....!!!!! You are such a healthy eater...don;'t think I could do tofu. lol when i was vegatarian for 8 years I relied on soya products, beans and because I lived in england at the time i ate "quorn"....which is ummmgood but dont know what it is (haha). I tried my red tea last night, mixed it with cinnamon, lemon and a sweetner...wasn't too bad....:).

sandrella on 01/19/2007:
Good job on pulling it together when you could've let one little slip ruin your whole day! :) Have a great weekend!

Jmarie60 on 01/19/2007:
I don't rely on a husband to wake me up, but my cat Thomas will bite me if I am not up by 7:30. I feed my cats first thing in the morning so when I am not prompt with their breakfast, they get a little anxious.

I LOVE the French Horn. I think it sounds so peaceful. I played the trumpet and tuba in high school, but haven't touched it since. Played a bunch of other brass instruments, but never the French Horn. I did date a french horn player. He was a good kisser ;-)

I love tofu, but don't really know what to do with it a lot of the times. If you have any suggestions or recipes, I would love to share!

I hope you have a GREAT day today!!!

geevee on 01/19/2007:
I agree with Biscotti's comment yesterday about getting your own place. So many fights that erupt w/adult children still living at home and either their parents or siblings are caused by situations beyond your control. It's difficult to avoid these altercations.

It finally dawned on me when I was 23 that I didn't need to take all of this any more, and that my life would be a lot calmer and simpler if I left, and I did. It was a great decision.

horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Jan 17, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 112.4

Hello everyone! WorkingIt points: 8!!

I had an overall nice day! I took the time to get some necessary work done on my own and now I'm more prepared with almost all the materials I need for a class I'll be taking. I had to order 3 CDs of pieces i'll be conducting. Luckily, two of the CDs are only 8 dollars each! The rest of the CDs that I didn't order today I bought awhile back when I found a website that had them! Seriously, they're really hard to find! Concert Band music is just not popular!

To those of you that are curious, I wrote about emergen'c powder in my last post. The taste is ok....not VERY sweet, because there isn't much sweetner added, it's NOT full of sugar. I like it, but people who LOVE having loads of sugar won't. I like the cranberry better than the mixed fruit flavor. that's all i've tried so far.

Runner, I don't think I get bloated from too much soda. However, my skin DOES get affected. It gets more acne prone and drier all at the same time! I look terrible when that happens and I guess having the diet soda the other day and stopping yesterday in combination with drinking a lot of water put a stop to any bad side effects of all the soda i drank!

Today's eating was very good:

Breakfast: one emergen'c, two eggs, one orange

Snack straight after breakfast: PB on two slices of bread and a little jelly....this snack was supposed to be two hours later, but I got up late...AND had a MAJOR fight with my sister and mom this morning:

I'll explain the fight: my mom asked me to drive my sister to the train. I said, thanks for asking at the last minute...but I said yes, of course. I would never decline. So, I drive my sister and she starts yelling when I make a right that I should have went to the left because it's faster in the morning. Now, how should I know that!? she kept talking and I said that she should have told me. Next, we are approaching a light and my sister says don't turn...I say, why not, we can bypass the school where the traffic is. (I did end up listening to her) She continuously yells and then yells to make a left and I say where???! the one way street!??! She was telling me ahead of time for that left, because she was frustrated with my earlier mistake.

She yells that she doesn't want me ever driving her in the morning again! I said, good, one day you'll have to walk if mom can't drive you! So, she keeps yelling, telling me where to pull over. So, i didn't pull over so nicely. I sped up and then slammed the breaks and told her to get out and that she's ungrateful.

just so you know, my sister was annoying me since I left the house to drive her. She's yelling "you're walking too slow..." I said, If i'm walking to slow, then you decided to leave the house too late to get to the train! I shouldn't have to rush to get her there. she should get up in time! I was not being slow on purpose...i wasn't being slow in general. she can be a major --- and I WILL NOT TAKE IT.

I get home from dropping her off. my mom is still home. I tell my mom that my sister was rude to me; and my mom yells at me! she won't even listen to what I have to say and doesn't care. My sister already called her from her cell phone while at the train and my mom heard her side and wouldn't take anything from me. she didn't care what i had to say and told me she knows how i can yell and behave. that seriously annoyed me soooo much! I told my mom that she was totally wrong and that she should be ashamed of herself. My mom almost never will take my side over my sister. she is an --- too when it comes to these arguments.

best part, my sister was supposed to work today and come home late in the evening. however, that was not the case. she didn't end up working at all after her class. so, she needed a ride home. I told her i don't drive home people who are rude and obnoxious. she never did apoligize. I even said at one point to her that I question why she'd debate the situation with me more if she was expecting a ride home! she said something I don't remember, then basically asked it i'd give her a ride. I said she'd have to ask nicer. lol. then, i said yes. It's like 20 degrees today.

I get in my practically new car, for some reason it had a problem and some dashboard lights were messed up. She ended up taking a taxi. then, my car did work. ugh! craziness!

Rest of the food today:

Snack: one cucumber and 1/2 cup of some shredded chicken with BBQ sauce. It's good...but too salty. I've been having more prepared foods and I literally taste the salt all day. I'm slowly lessening the amount of those foods that I eat. 140 calories

Lunch: package veggies, baked tofu 320 calories

Snack: 1/4 cup shredded chicken on one slice of bread

Dinner: seaweed salad, lots of brussels, 1/2 reg. tofu 305 calories

lots of tea today. some water. lots of liquids in general!

have a great day/evening!

Progress as of today: 1 lbs lost so far, only 9.4 lbs to go!

maria777 on 01/17/2007:
Hope you have a good evening! Looks like you are doing well on your points!

maria777 on 01/17/2007:
Hope you have a good evening! Looks like you are doing well on your points!

LilyV on 01/17/2007:
Dear Horn of Plenty? Do you play the French Horn? I love Mozart's concerto (I think in B flat). I used to play the violin but a bit rusty now. I do sing with a choir which I really enjoy. Lil.

LilyV on 01/17/2007:
Is that post readable? I was just asking if you play the French horn? Great job on the healthy eating. Lil.

borntocry on 01/18/2007:
Thank goodness your sister didn't make you crash your car with all her yelling and screaming. I hope you don't have to drop her anywhere again because it sounds like she's a danger to road safety!

I really feel for you when you have these fights with your family, because my family situation was very similar when I was growing up. My parents always sided with my brother because he is two years younger and even if I convinced them that the fault was his, they still insisted that I "should know better" because I am older. Also he was a tattle-tale just like your sister and quite often managed to get his version of the story in first, so there was just no hope for me at all.

The only advice I can give you is to avoid complaining to your parents about your sister, if you know they're only going to take her side. It will just lead to another fight with your parents and put you in an even worse mood. Maybe the best thing you can do when you have a fight with one person in your family is to be really nice to everyone else. That will help get them on your side, or at least make them less likely to side against you!

Just remember it could all change in a few years. My parents totally dote on me now and can't stop criticising my brother!

Umpqua on 01/18/2007:
Sorry to hear you're having family troubles - isn't that always the way? Your eating sounds great and I'm envious of your weight. I don't know if I'll ever see that number on the scale again! By the way, I'm only an inch taller than you so 112 is actually a great weight for me, or at least it was 10 years ago when I was your age ;)

Moody on 01/18/2007:
Sorry about the fight with your sister..I am glad that you stand up for yourself though!! I like BTC's advice about not talking to your parents about your sister when you argue, if they are simply going to take her side..it just upsets you more..I hope things smooth out for you today..Take care..

legcramps on 01/18/2007:
Have a good day today!

hollybelle on 01/18/2007:
Family! AGGGGGHHHHH! Your sister and your Mother sound like they take you for granted. That doesn't feel good. any chance you will have your own place soon? I got along soooo much better with my family when I moved away from them - all those years ago - but I still remember! Good Luck and nice day on the food stuff, by the way! I remember just a few days ago you were saying how out of control you were - what a difference just a few days will make - good for you.

monet0239 on 01/18/2007:
poor poor thing.. your sister reminds me of my best friends sister..lol.. well when they were younger anyway..lol.. she has got.. ALITTLE better..lol.. good luck with that.. hehe

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