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innerpeace - Thursday Apr 18, 2019

Weight: 335.1

Day 2

Did not go to work this day...mental health day for me.

I baked tilapia that was in the oven and made a tilapia fish salad - it was ok. But I found a smoked chicken breast that I thawed out and ate 1/2 of. It was moist and delicious. I left the talapia for DH.

I picked up a book and could not put it down - murder mystery/whodunit...I read until almost midnight until I just had to go to sleep.

Day 3

DH put a chuck roast with potatoes and carrots in the crock pot.

I picked up the girl, she was happy and giddy...she is a 'girlfriend now' aww the trill of puppy love and the agony of the 'crush'!

B: mini bagel with cream cheese and a banana

L: 1/2 smoked chicken breast and grapes

D: chuck roast with potato and carrots

S: balanced breaks and pineapple for dessert

It was a good day.

Day 4

DH picked up the honey baked ham and smoked turkey. We are really not doing anything for Easter and i think the girl is even leaving early on Sunday to be with her mother and that family.

Tomorrow I took off for Good Friday and we have the concert to go to downtown Cleveland.

I got the girl a new bed/sheet/comforter set and curtains for her bedroom instead of an Easter basket. DH got her an iTunes card, she should be happy.

B: mini bagel with cream cheese and banana

L: left over roast beef sandwich, clementines

S: granola cups

D: smoked turkey

Doing better but trust when I say it is easier to have a mental health day than be here at work.

Have a great day! IP

Progress as of today: -13.5 lbs lost so far, only 125.1 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 04/18/2019:
Your eating looks good...I guess I can say that I am still committed to eating EVERYTHING...but just in smaller quantities. I know that I would never be able to stick to a diet that banned anything.....I would feel too restricted...and there are people that like that...but I'm not one of them.....I just know that somewhere I lost track of the notion about portion control....with that...we can do anything.


horn_of_plenty on 04/19/2019:
both the tilapia and the smoked chicken breast sound AMAZING! good eats, i'm loving those !

i also have a great book i'm reading...about the cowboys and settlers out west in the 1800s! loving it! it's well written story that is funny and captivating!

wow, she has a boyfriend!? how exciting!!! i hope she stays in the happy and giddy stage for awhile....that is such a nice feeling to have, i miss it so much (didn't quite get to have that feeling many times in my life, almost never, actually!)

loving reading all these smoked meats, like the turkey yum!

lol, i love a mental health day too....i didn't have any more days left of i'd have taken one today.


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innerpeace - Monday Apr 15, 2019

Weight: 335.1

Day 12 - did not finish tracking

Dinner was a Jersey Mike's Sub and I don't remember anything else I hate - just know it was a lot.

Did not track food

I had a terrible migraine headache all day I couldn't move. Steve's barking was at my tolerance level and I couldn't stand him barking. The light, bright light aggravated the issue so I stayed indoors out of the light. I was nausous and everything else that comes iwth the migraine. Saturday pretty much shot.

I don't even remember what we ate.

Did not track food

Dh was sick on this day. Stomach virus or something. He slept most of the day.

Finally about 6:30 we decide to go grocery shopping. There was hardly nothing left on the shelves - I guess you go early at this Wal-mart.

We had brisket for dinner - it was just ok (it was frozen from once upon a time)

Alas again...Day 1

DH is still sick, he is staying home from work

B: mini bagel with cream cheese, banana - 300 calories

L: turkey wrap on tomato basil with lettuce and tomato, 2 cuties, gogurt  - 307 calories

S: balanced breaks - meta orange appetite control drink - 195 calories

D: chicken fajitas with onions and bell peppers and avocado, cheese, sour cream - 687 - total 1484 for the day

 

Progress as of today: -13.5 lbs lost so far, only 125.1 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 04/15/2019:
I'm sorry to hear you all have had a few rough days! :(

but your Day 1 sounds very nice! fajitas are great!!!! : so is everything on your menU!


Donkey on 04/16/2019:
Fall down seven, stand up eight.


horn_of_plenty on 04/16/2019:
DONKEY SAYS IT RIGHT!


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innerpeace - Friday Apr 12, 2019

Weight: 335.1

Day 12

Got the girl, we had some pretty enjoyable conversation while she was over.

I made the chicken, brocolli alfredo for dinner, it turned out quite good. I way over did the calories for yesterday 2550....I don't think I have actually logged this many calories before. It's a real eye opener for me to truthfully log the calories, especailly all the extra snacking I did yesterday.

Work has been totally crazy and I have to go home for the weekend and regroup. The young kids 23-27 (there are four of them in the office) it amazes me just how out of touch with reality they are. it makes me sad. I have to bite my tongue sometimes to keep from saying something...but it's not my job, so I just move on and do my job and mind my business.

B: French toast toast

L: left over chicken, brocolli, alfredo

S: belvita, gogurt

I am hungry right his minute and have granola cups and a balanced breaks, but I'm not feeling either one of them.

anyway, tomorrow...who knows what the tides will bring!

Have a great weekend! IP

Progress as of today: -13.5 lbs lost so far, only 125.1 lbs to go!

Donkey on 04/13/2019:
I applaud you for tracking calories. That is something I intensely like doing for myself. However, I will be the first to admit that it's the best way to see where you're at and most helpful in deciding how you want to move forward.

I completely get the need to regroup oneself on the weekend. Do what's best for you!


Horn_of_plenty on 04/13/2019:
yep, best to bite your tongue, move on and just do your work....yes!

have a nice weekend, i hope you regroup and feel good all weekend!


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innerpeace - Thursday Apr 11, 2019

Weight: 335.1

DAY 11

Crash and burn!

I have had the munchies all day...and I've indulged them.

I have the opportunity to go to Silver Spring, MD again or Boulder, CO at the end of the month...but I think I'm going to decline, because I don't want to leave my dog in a kennel for up to 12 hours a day while DH works. I just could NOT do this in good faith, so I will do the training, online by myself.

Finally talked to DH for more than 30 minutes. I think I finally got him onboard with the eating better. He said  Sunday...no excuses - this will give him time to eat all the junk food. For real...I'm having this conversation. I can't tell you how many times we've had this same one, but as long as we keep trying.

Today...French toast toast, belvita strawberry sandwich bar, belvita blueberry biscuits, gogurt, 2 bags of cheezits, PB&J, a piece of rosemary parmesean bread and a 1 x 1 square of  dark chocolate nasty brownie and I think I am finally NOT hungry right this minute.

I have baked chicken and brocolli at home to make chicken alfredo for the girl.

I did win tickets to the Eric Church concert next Friday so I asked for the day off. looking forward to this.

Went to the library and checked out a new Yoga DVD, I just might actually try to do this.

I'm hoping anyway.

Have a great night! IP

 

Progress as of today: -13.5 lbs lost so far, only 125.1 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 04/11/2019:
I think as long as you are prepared with healthy options at home, you can do anything you desire !

i always do better when my kitchen is stocked with healthy items, otherwise, everything becomes harder for me!

nice of you to be able to make a choice and decide to stay home instead of going away traveling for training :)


Donkey on 04/12/2019:
Did you try the yoga? I bought a DVD... still haven't tried it yet.


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innerpeace - Wednesday Apr 10, 2019

Weight: 335.1

Day 9

Tuesday - very busy at work and I couldn't find time to do the internet thing or my own thing as I was too busy doing other peoples' things. And it always amazes me how I can be in the middle of something and I am expected to drop what I am doing and not only give my undivided attention but do what they need done regardless of the importance of t he thing I was just working on. Multitask, multitask and do it with a smile and pretend you like people. I always have to tell myself this.

Monday - finished the evening with 1878 - still too high.

Monday night I put together dinner for Tuesday - unstuffed cabbage rolls, without rice. This was actually pretty good, but it was missing something.

Day 10

Another crazy day at work and I guess the way things are the move they've been talking about since I was hired (almost 4 years ago) I guess is finally going to happen. This will cause me an additional 20 minutes of drive time in the mornings.....they are picking out decorations and color palletts and all the things I really don't care about.

I pickd up the girl, her mouth is hurting, but it doesn't hurt enough for her to take anything, like tylenol or advil or aleve or any other thing I have so she can just sit there and be in pain.

B: French toast toast

L: left over lettuce wraps

S: granola cups

D: unstuffed cabbage rolls, green beans

S: belvita, gogurt, a piece of flat bread

Ended Tuesday with 1415 calories - i am ok with this. Victory in saying NO to ice cream today!

The girl hung out and showered, played on her keyboard for a minute and then it was time for her to go home. I will see her again on Thursday this week.

DH didn't get home until well after 1:15, I was awake for a minute but fell back asleep pretty quickly...until I had to get up to use the bathroom at 4:45. Should have stayed up, should have! Overslept a bit and was rushing to get to work.

I have my performance review today!! Should be interesting!

Have a elephant day! IP

Progress as of today: -13.5 lbs lost so far, only 125.1 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 04/10/2019:
lol, i know what your cabbage rolls were missing: herbs!? (or, lol, rice!) hahaha. just kiddin'!

how far is your drive to work now? last year, i had to move an additional 20 minutes also for my workplace. i got used to it, but i do realize i saved SO MUCH free time when my workplace was closer !

your lettuce wraps sound GOOOOOOOD!

great meals for Day 10! YUM!

also, nice job saying no to ice cream! i'm reading a book on jazz, and how this guy ate ice cream like it was going out of style...at it always! always had room!


Donkey on 04/11/2019:
I hope your review went well.

Nice improvements!


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innerpeace - Monday Apr 08, 2019

Weight: 335.1

Day 6

I picked up the girl and she wanted pizza...of course I caved. I love pizza, it just doesn't love me or the scale. So I had pizza and baseball. Ended Firday with 1988 calories.

Saturday we were up and running around doing things, errands.

We left abour 4:30 for dinner and our play.

Dinner was at a local pub, I had 1/2 a french dip sandwich, and  1 1/2 prtezel sticks....but dessert was atrocious (DQ) - anyway, another day of complete failure - ended the night with 2,448 calories

The play was great fun and I laughed all the way through it. The girl like it too, which was a big plus.

Day 7

Complete lazy day. I did finish three laods of laundry.

B: toast

L: left over 1/2 french dip

D: tacos

finished the day with 2,334 calories because of the snacking and DH and his donuts, that I just can't say NO, I'm working on this...I did say NO to salted caramel chocolate cream pie. He knows he needs to lay off the sweets, I think he is just going through a phaze.

So I tracked all week and blew my calories each day, but the good thing is I tracked everything I ate, good and bad.

I did make the menu for the entire week and I can only hope I stick to it.

The girl stayed over because she had an orthodontist appointment this morning...her mouth already hurts. Lovely!

Day 8

Good ole monday!

B: Pepperidge French Toast - toast -
L: taco salad with leftovers (no beans)

D: lettuce wraps

S: Peanut M&Ms

maybe get some exercise in tonight - stressed at work and no baseball, perfect opportunity! And I want to go to the library.

Have a good night IP

Progress as of today: -13.5 lbs lost so far, only 125.1 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 04/08/2019:
Which play did you go see? it sounds like a really fun night!

laundry takes time, so doing 3 loads can take a big part of the day (i forgot how long loads take as i do all of mine in one shot always bc i have multiple machines to use at once in my apt building!)....but i was with mom on Saturday and did 4 loads with her...it took all the way from morning till early afternoon!

lettuce wraps sounds so good!

i love the library too...i def make use of it for books and dvd's


thinkpositive on 04/09/2019:
I have a tough time with pizza also. Basically have to stay away but also tough when that is the meal .


Donkey on 04/09/2019:
I love reading your entries - you keep it real, IP. I hope you had a chance to de-stress and exercise and/or library.



innerpeace - Friday Apr 05, 2019

Weight: 335.1

Day 4

B; quaker oat cereal, iced vanilla latte - (again this cereal and the BMs...at work...inconvenient!! to say the least) - probably won't eat this on a work day again

L: PB&J on naan,

S: gogurt and belvita

D: pork cutlet, brussel sprouts - and I was fine

until my enabler gets home and eats and then he says...we have naan left you want a peanut butter sandwich for dessert? I ate a half of one.

Ended the day with 2568 calories, again this is way too high for me if I have any desire to lose weight.

And then my DH walks all day at his work and logs over 14,000 steps on my food logging app and it acts like I walked these steps and substracted these walking calories from my daily calorie totals - I can't figure out how to get it to NOT recognize his phone. I will probably have to make my own Itunes account - stupid IT is not as smart as I think it should be! That's his phone...YOU ARE ON MINE!

Idiot dog pooped on the floor, first time in three weeks...I guess everyone messes up once in a while.

I have an ear ache.

Looking for my passion.

Have a great weekend.

 

Day 5

Slept pretty good

B: English muffin, pb & jelly, last of the iced vanlla latte

L: left over pork cutlet

S: gogurt and belvita

D: I want a really big salad. I may buy it from somewhere. I have the girl, so I have to worry about her as well because all she ever wants is "i don't know" which is annoying AF sometimes!

we have a play this weekend and we are going out to eat haven't selected a place yet.

A little spring cleaning this weekend.

Have a great evening! IP

Progress as of today: -13.5 lbs lost so far, only 125.1 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 04/05/2019:
everyone poops at work sometimes! hey, if you gotta go, it's only natural ;) lol....no worries, at least you pooped in the pooping facility!


legcramps on 04/05/2019:
Sounds like you're struggling to find your footing. You've got this! You will find your passion and you will find your joy again. Keep on, and get yourself that big salad for dinner.


Donkey on 04/06/2019:
I admire your perseverance. Keep trying! You do pretty good overall, with just a couple of land minds like the peanut butter naan sandwich. (YUM)

I too am looking for my passion...


horn_of_plenty on 04/08/2019:
I like Donkey's thoughts!



innerpeace - Thursday Apr 04, 2019

Weight: 335.1

 Day 2 was a FAIL!

And this is why we can't have bread in the house! I was cooking and found a package of flat bread, not just one round...but three! WTF! This is 780 calories and I just consumed it like it was nothing! It was good though.

And then I think I am just like bread soft and doughy!

I cooked shrimp with carrots, brocolli and corn. Could have left out the corn and this would have been better.

I walked both dogs around the block, they pulled on my back and i was a bit uncomfortable half way around, but we finished. Rocco needs more training to keep from pulling...he chocked himself on more than one occasion.

Ended the day with 2364 calories - so this is why I haven't been losing any kind of weight. Being truthful with the food tracking.

DAY 3 - FAIL

Picked up the girl. She wanted Jersey Mike's so I had ordered that. I ordered me a regular and a mini for lunch (for day 4).

We get home and we eat....I do...NOTHING!

She plays around on the keyboard and phone, showers and it is time for her to leave.

When she left I felt still hungry so I eat the mini sandwich I was supposed to have for lunch today. I was just hungry...and then I felt bad for eating that, but I wasn't hungry anymore.

Ended the day with 2251 calories - still way too many. I just like to eat, I like food. If there was just an easy way.

B: quaker breakfast square oat cereal - weird texture (does assist with BMs), vanilla iced latte

L: gogurt, belvita - cheezits

S: - DH gave me two donuts (Again WTF...I ate them) - 502 calories

D: Jersey Mikes regular sandiwich and a mini later - 701 calories

DH was home about 10:15 so I go to bed about 11:00. He comes to bed about 2:30 and I swear he woek me up on purpose, but he says he didn't. I heard him distinctly whispering "hey", "hey". When I asked if he just woke me up, he said he was just clearning his throat. Yeah whatever....

One day all I've learned and read and experience will all click together and things will succeed.

Have a great day!

 

Progress as of today: -13.5 lbs lost so far, only 125.1 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 04/04/2019:
Corn is still healthy and has fiber :) Your shrimp dish sounds so TASTY!!!!!

Day 2, despite you saying it was a fail, sounds very good to me! Look at all the positives of your day 2 ;)

I'd also eat 2 donuts if someone gave me 2! ;)

LOL, why'd he wake you on purpose, what a meanie! ;)

I gotta tell you, maybe you were 100% how you'd like, but i see many positives in days 2 & 3...look at it from another lens...you are doing ok ;)

innerpeace on 04/05/2019:
I don't know he said he was talking to the dog! But he's just mean sometimes.


Donkey on 04/05/2019:
I agree - there were a lot of positives, even if the day(s) felt like fails.

I've come to accept that I too am a orson that loves to eat. Drinking water or chewing gum can sometimes - not always! - delay the actual eating, but often, it's just doesn't cut it.



innerpeace - Tuesday Apr 02, 2019

Weight: 335.1

DAY 2

I guess ysterday was correct, today the scale was 335.1 so I will just go with that! My feet are swollen and I thinking it would be TOM, but thankful for the ablasion procedure that doesn't come around anymore, symptoms but that is all.

Crazy dreams last night, but I thought I slept well. I just need more of it, because getting to bed by midnight and up at 5:30, is not working for me.

B: English muffin, iced vanilla latte (I have three of these lett - and will not travel to another city to get more)

L: left over pork cutlet, biscuit

S: gogurt, belvita

D: TBD vegetables now that we went to the store after the vacation - we have some that isn't brown and disgusting.

Progress as of today: -13.5 lbs lost so far, only 125.1 lbs to go!

thinkpositive on 04/02/2019:
Sleep is a problem for me. 5:00 & I was awake & couldn’t get back to sleep.


Donkey on 04/03/2019:
That's very interesting to hear about the effects of an ablation, that you still feel symptoms. If this procedure is in consideration in my future, I may or may not move forward with it. It's helpful to hear what other women have experienced.

innerpeace on 04/04/2019:
It's the best thing I ever did in MY life! I do still get moody and bloated, but no more heavy bleeding.


Horn_of_plenty on 04/04/2019:
I also cannot make do on short sleep. Last night i actually took a sleeping pill, so was so tired waking up bc of it, just to get to bed early and get a longer sleep (i don't take pills regularly or i get really, really tired from them for several days)...anyways, sometimes you just need more sleep.

sleep heals, it helps with decreasing hunger levels too. I always notice the difference in my appetite when i don't get enough sleep!

I'm glad you got the veggies, now i see why you didn't have any the past couple days ;) keep on, InnerP!



innerpeace - Tuesday Apr 02, 2019

Weight: 333.9

Day 1

So disgusted with myself. I stepped on the scale and weighed in at 335.1. I was so astounded so I stepped off and stepped back on - 333.9. Again, I stepped back off and stepped back on - 333.9. Ok, I will go with 333.9. I am so totally going in the wrong direction.

I have dreams and goals, but I'm too week to keep them. (From Cathy - comic strip)

Today's breakfast -

Breakfast

iced vanilla latte, milk, English muffin with butter

Lunch: - Baseball opening day luncheon (my idea - kicking myself in the arse)

1 bratwurst, 1 hot dog, 2 buns, relish, catsup, mustard, handful of chips and French onion dip

Dinner

pork schnitzel cutlet with gravy, cheddar bay biscuit

 Ended the day with 1829 calories, high for me!

Visited son in Georgia. He is angry and in a rut, I wish I could help him more. I enjoyed seeing him though.

Took dogs, added to stress - but they were happy to NOT be at a kennel. or with a stranger.

 The girl hated it, I think she was jealous of my son getting all the attention. She was sick and mopey until we were doing things she wanted to do. I hate this about her selfish self. And then her pants didn't fit right and she had to make a big to do over that! UGH.

Rental got a flat and I had to pay for that....

Vacay was just so so.

Kinda glad to be home.

Walked Steve around the block, I was going to walk Rocco, but he escaped out of the fence and was running through the back pasture. I yelled for him to come back, but he looks at me like I'm stupid and takes off again. I leave him. And then the fool dog was sitting on the back of the sofa barking at Steve and I walking up the sidewalk when we get home.

Progress as of today: -12.3 lbs lost so far, only 123.9 lbs to go!

thinkpositive on 04/02/2019:
Hey opening day baseball deserves a celebration! It sounds like you are ready to make some changes. I am too.


Donkey on 04/03/2019:
Potato chips are one of my trigger foods. "Can't eat just one!"


Horn_of_plenty on 04/04/2019:
Hi InnerP! I've been meaning to write on your journal earlier, but this month is a bit cramped for me! ;) and i'm all over the place!

First, you are being SO HARD on yourself!!!! InnerP, you have so much to offer to everyone and yourself, please don't feel the need to be "disgusted!" You are treating yourself and your body worse than you treat anyone! Worse than possibly anyone would treat you! Of course you know the saying that we are our worst critics!?

I'm glad girlie joined you for the trip. Typical teenager not wanting to do anything, but, it's great she wasn't home :) better to go on adventures with you! Learn to see how others live and other towns !!

Sorry your son is feeling bad but i'm glad you were able to visit him. I'm sure he is thankful you came. Maybe he needs therapy or low dose of anti-depressants? I'd recommend therapy first.

Welcome home. Try to include more veggies with your meals :) remember, love yourself and all you do...you have the power to change within yourself.



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