forums directory search about DD
or Join for Free!
Recent Diary Entries
Jacky82020 4 hrs
Horn_Of_Plenty 5 hrs
InnerPeace 9 hrs
Maria7 11 hrs
BearCountryGG 17 hrs
grannyannie 19 hrs
legcramps 1 days
Donkey 1 days
happy-1 10 days
blueocean 12/20
KathyBlue 12/13
thinkpositive 11/17
Corazon 10/06
Coffee&Calories 10/05
trishpiglet3 9/29
Duaa123. 9/28
tgshare 9/05
renorebul12 8/14
Mayelle17 8/02
sarawills 7/30
Sunny2020 5/19
vettie 4/30
abdab74 4/19
jazzstorie 2/24
Southernboy 2/09

Recent Forum Topics
low calorie snacks? - 9:31A 4-Jan

Diet Pills - 11:33P 17-Dec

spam deleted - 5:57P 25-Oct

spam - 8:24A 26-Sep

The Diet Solution Plan - 1:04P 7-Sep

Cannot edit entries :( - 1:16P 27-May

view innerpeace bio page
innerpeace - Wednesday Jan 20, 2021

Weight: 294.1

Another stupid day! Why do courts even exist? They are so full of BS and irrelevant mumble jumble. It is ludicrous. Note to self: Stop watching crap on TV that have no real time lines on how stuff really happens. Nothing is IMMEDIATE! NOTHING!

DH went to court and just brought home paper with a motion AND another stupid date with the advice don't let her leave when her mom comes and picks her up.With the active PTO it is your right as the father to not allow the girl to go with her mother if her husband is living at/or near around the house where the girl is going. What the F&CK EVER!

Before Halloween there was a neighborhood not far from where we live where the dad killed the mother, three kids, the dog and himself. DH told them, he didn't want a situation like that to happen and there was NO amount of money that could replace his daughter, so I am leaving to get the girl in about an hour. We will see how this plays out. She did tell me that her POS mom can't pick her up because...they don't have a car...hahhahah. They do have a box van they supposedly run the business out of so they do have transportation...and they have picked her up in that before...so she's full of crap too.

Just more drama and crap I don't need in my life right now.

In our deleted pictures folder in the cloud DH found a picture of Tony Bologna and an amazon purchase for condoms. DH asked the girl and she said that was for when they were ready to have sex...RIGHT!! I do not trust this girl as far as I can throw her. She is a snake in the grass just like her lying scheming mother. Guilt by association until she proves otherwise. I AM NOT raising a baby.

I'm just so disgusted with my life right now! OMG.

I had hot chocolate again last night, because I was cold. I added marshmallows and it was delicious. However, I will curtail that right now. Blood sugar this morning was 138. IT was expected. I will get back on my low sugar low carb train today for the blood work in three weeks.

B: biscuit, ham, scrambled eggs, smoked cheddar

L: grilled chicken, tomato, cucumber salad

S: balanced breaks

D: chicken tamale casserole

walked the doggos in the chilling cold, It will be hard to go again later after I get home with the girl.

I miss my mom!

Anyway I just pray for a better tomorrow!

Psalm 118:24 (ESV)

This is the day that the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.

Progress as of today: 43.8 lbs lost so far, only 84.1 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 01/20/2021:
What a Cluster F**k! You poor kid! Geez, that’s bold ordering condoms online. What don’t they go to Walmart like everyone else?

Donkey on 01/20/2021:
Oh yeah, all those court shows on TV are terribly misleading. All court stuff moves very, very slowly. And those revelations at trial are BS. Everyone knows what is presented at trial before trial.

I've tried to take an open, non-judgmental approach with sex with my kids. My son didn't date much, so he was easy to deal with, but my daughter has had 2 boyfriends. When I realized that she wasn't being completely honest with me, then I decided that I wasn't ready to become a grandma and made the doctor's appointment for her. Just recently, we had a discussion about IUD's. I'd rather be upfront about it than her hiding things and not being honest.

AND I want to be a much better mom to her than my mom was to me.

Jacky82020 on 01/20/2021:
Don’t watch court dramas, but have been heavily into medical dramas for a while. Watch from 9-11PM everyday. Some are utterly unrealistic, some not. All entertaining. Watch a lot of the true crime shows like Dateline.

bearcountrygg on 01/20/2021:
((HUGS)).....That is a lot of pressure......Try to take some time for you......It's easy for others to tell you what to do......and you are correct...there is some very high emotions and you need to stay safe. I will be praying for your family.

login to leave comments

innerpeace - Tuesday Jan 19, 2021

Weight: 294.3

Been trying to get things sorted out.

In short, last Monday I received a call from the girl asking me to come and pick her up. She was crying and very upset. Her step-father grabbed the phone and said her mother was having a pschiatric episode and needed to be hospitalized and could I come and get the girl. I told him I was on my way. As I was driving POS called and asked if I was getting the girl. I told her I was on my way, she relayed that she was leaving and she was tired of her husband's lying. She never said she was in the hospital. I was almost at the house when POS called and asked how far away I was, I told her I was at the light and would be there within 5 minutes. She said she was outside waiting and didn't want to go back into the house.

I picked up the girl, she wa crying and shaking and visibly scared. I asked her if she needed medical attention, was she hurt? She assured me that she was just scared and wanted to get away from her step-dad. Then POS yelled out her vehicle that she would call the girl later and get Omar. (Omar is a cat).

I assured the girl she was safe and she sat and cried and was visibly shaking the entire way home. Once we got home, she showered and relaxed enough to tell me what was going on. The step-dad and POS got into another argument and POS tried to leave when he shoved her. They were arguing something about where they live and how they had to be out of the house that very day. Anyway, that's when he had the girl call and ask me to come and get her. Then he harrassed her and told her she wasn't going anywhere and if she left he would kill her animals. (they have 5 or 6 dogs, 3 cats, hamsters, rabbits and birds). This was very traumatizing to the girl.

Sometime in the night POS called the cops on her husband and he was taken to jail and a TPO was issued. He was sentenced to a 72 hour pschy hold.

The girl stayed until Tuesday when her mom picked her up and they went to the grandma's house. The girl said POS's vehicle got reposessed on Wednesday morning and later that evening the step-dad was release and he showed up at the grandma's house. She said her mom ran out of the house like a celebrity pulled up. She said she hopped in the van and left with the same man who she just had a PTO issued on.

The girl said her mother stayed away for the next three days - she never texted the girl or talked to her. I did pick up the girl on Thursday, but she didn't stay, the YA and his GF came and picked her up and took her back to her grandma's house (where they live).

So on Saturday night, the girl called DH and said her mother was making her go back to the house with the step-dad and she was scared. She didn't want to go. DH called the police and they couldn't do anything (which I call BS - because this man has an active PTO on him and he is still there in the house he cannot be in). They told DH to call the family courts on Tuesday because everything was closed because of the MLKJr. holiday.

DH called texted our lawyer (who is handling the custody thing) on Sunday night and told him what is going on. So apparently DH has to go to court tomorrow morning for a emergency custody hearing, not sure the exact wording. But the whole situation has me livid.

I cannot believe this mother would tramatize and jeopardize her daughter's safety for this crappy MAN! She is the stupidest woman I have ever know.

I have still been walking and eating the same...could be better.

Blood sugar has flucuated between 123-119 - this morning it was 134 because I had hot chocolate last night about 8:30 because I was cold.

I have appointments for new blood work early February and a Mammogram scheduled for March.

Another person at work tested positive for COVID-19 so I am staying far away from there.

Been busy at home for work.

Worried about Thursday and a bit scared...maybe they should just postpone the dog and pony show and do away with the entire ceremony for awhile...do the oath and end it. Not sure this is the wisest decision....just my thougths.

I can only hope for the best in all situations.

More later...IP

Progress as of today: 43.6 lbs lost so far, only 84.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/19/2021:
Thank goodness she has you to protect her.......I can not imagine how many kids don't have the kind of support you give her. This case should be a shoe in for you guys when it comes to custody.....right now..if social services were involved...they would remove her from that home. You are doing the right thing.....you deserve a medal for dealing with those people.......this sounds like several of the situations that our foster kids came from....and they were considered abuse and neglect.

grannyannie on 01/19/2021:
What a nightmare! She is so lucky to have you to care about her.

Jacky82020 on 01/19/2021:
Unbelievable! I thought they let teens decide upon the custodial parent. Certainly should in this case. Sounds like these ppl are certifiable. Lucky the kid has you.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/19/2021:
This situation is in NO WAY a reflection on you. You are wonderful, we all know that here based on your entries and life that you've shared for YEARS!

i'm really sorry girl has to deal with such STUPIDITY and recklessness and such careless behavior of her "parents." (not DH, just the other side that you hate.) I'd hate them too!

it will work out. just, you stay positive and realize that girl is smart and has you and DH and it will work out one day.

this isn't what any girl should experience, but it is going to strengthen her...but if she needs to talk to someone, please make sure she does.

you're always doing your part and that's all you can.

i hope girl will be in your care 100% of the time too.

Donkey on 01/20/2021:
I'm so sorry that all of this has happened. WTH... And it's one thing to have someone in your life that stirs up all this drama for her own life (and that's an understatement), but when it affects the stability of others, namely the Girl, then that's just so messed up.

login to leave comments

innerpeace - Thursday Jan 14, 2021

Weight: 294.6

I am not giving up...I am just dealing with other things that tax my mind to the brink.

I am still eating well and walking.

Work is a big hassle the last few days.

Personal life (the girl and her POS) are rediculous emotional taxers right now.

House issues (heater)

Bills, bills and more freaking bills.

Just trying to make things work. I'll be back maybe after the weekend.



Progress as of today: 43.3 lbs lost so far, only 84.6 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 01/14/2021:
Hi, InnerPeace. I get ya. Take Care. Hugs.

I’m dreading paying & doing the taxes. Hate it!

grannyannie on 01/14/2021:
Family issues can be so very draining! Hope things improve.

Keep walking.

horn_of_plenty on 01/14/2021:
i totally understand your priority needs right now :) xoxo...we are all rooting for you! You are WONDERFUL and AWESOME and i wouldn't say it if i didn't mean it!

Donkey on 01/15/2021:
(((hugs))) Hang in there! Donkey is cheering you on!

legcramps on 01/18/2021:

Jacky82020 on 01/18/2021:
Hugs! Miss you at DD

login to leave comments

innerpeace - Tuesday Jan 12, 2021

Weight: 294.6

Came by read the entries. I'm sorry I don't have things to say or suggest or encourage more.

Just going through some things this week.


Progress as of today: 43.3 lbs lost so far, only 84.6 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 01/12/2021:
Hi, IPeace!

grannyannie on 01/12/2021:
Nice to see you! Hope everything is okay.

bearcountrygg on 01/12/2021:
Hi.....you do what you need to do...hope all is well.

horn_of_plenty on 01/12/2021:
Hoping it all settles down for you. My life is a bit excitable too right now.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/12/2021:
just don't throw the towel in. you've been up to great things, as usual. don't quit

Donkey on 01/13/2021:
(((hugs))) I hope things get better soon. Sometimes, you just have to ride things out.

legcramps on 01/13/2021:
Hope you are doing okay.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/13/2021:
like donkey, i'm sending hugs too. you can do it.

login to leave comments

innerpeace - Saturday Jan 09, 2021

Weight: 294.6


I picked up the girl last night, she was in pretty good spirits.

D: beef stew and cheddar bay biscuits (ate too many of these - they were delicious)

FInished A Painted House by John Grisham - still have questions though, I guess I will just hope everything turned out OK and the baby was actually the brother's who I don't know ever returned home or not.

I may start another...or not.

Saturday morning feels!

Up this morning because a loud noise woke me up - it sounded like a dropped dish or pot but DH swears up and down he didn't drop anything. All I did was step on a dog toy and caused the dogs t o bark...yeah...OK whatever.

Walked the doggos - it was a very chilly 28 degrees...BUT the sun was out.

The insurance adjuster and roof people are here - DH's project.

DH also started a project that is just about to p!ss me off! He has taken everything out of the cabinets and pantry and is "sorting it out". My problem with this is...1. he doesn't cook so why does he care 2. He won't finish 3. He is always asking for the girl to come here to do this or do that. When I asked him what he is taking out and putting in a box he says I'm taking this box of Cream of Mushroom downstairs - ok what are the dates of this food - are you even looking...NO. 4. We have way too much canned goods - but by the looks of things, we may need them in the future. And the biggest gripe of all is...why can't he do this Monday-Friday mornings when he does nothing but sit and play on his phone. WHY does he have to do it on Saturday? So, so very irritating!

I am just so disallusioned about everything right now.

I know everyone is on their own journey...but damn! I can't motivate or support if I just don't get it..I just don't understand, so good luck!

B: toast and vanilla iced latte

L: ?


I know Tony Bologna is coming over that is all I know for today. I may go on another walk with my dogs to get away from my family.

Have a good Saturday!



Progress as of today: 43.3 lbs lost so far, only 84.6 lbs to go!

Donkey on 01/09/2021:
I've taken walks - even in less than ideal weather - to get away from family irritants. I totally get the irritation you have with DH's latest project. My husband is similar.

Donkey on 01/09/2021:
PS I commented on your Friday entry too, if you are interested.

Jacky82020 on 01/09/2021:
That would annoy me too if the husband did all that!

Never read a Grisham novel, but his one nonfiction book: The Innocent Man, was terrific. Wish he’d do more, but it’s a lot of work to do true crime. Liked all the movies based on his books.

grannyannie on 01/09/2021:
Think I read Grisham years ago.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/09/2021:
keep going...we are all on our crazy journeys. lately mine is wild.


Maria7 on 01/10/2021:
It was 28 degrees here this morning, too.

innerpeace - Friday Jan 08, 2021

Weight: 294.6

Thursday - blood sugar was 134 - this is so crazy to me.

I went to the office and did work that I had to do - saw lots of people (I was surprised so many were there) ergo...I was told to leave at noon when the important - dead liney things were completed. I do miss going to the office - listening to the radio on the way in - stupid stories, jokes and commentary - I usually manage a good laugh, certainly a smile and one or two head shakes about crazy antics. Once there I feel out of place, not sure what to do and certainly can't find anything. Most of my supplies are still in boxes...I have thought about sneaking in during the evening a few times a week (there are usually only two people there and I wouldn't even be close to them...I will think more about this if DH stays on 2nd shift. He has mentioned he was going on 1st shift working 5-1 - but this is still up in the air.

B: granola, yogurt

L: left over taco bake

I got home about 2:00 and could not motivate myself to do anything. I walked the doggos around the block - it was colder than earlier when I left for work. There were still dirty dishes in the sink. I wondered why DH couldn't load the dishwasher...seriously though!! And then at 4:30, DH texts and asked me how the pork chops were? What? I worked and Iogged off the computer and walked the dogs, can I not sit on my butt and play with my phone for four hours like you do every morning? Why am I the one to cook and CLEAN everything? His reply - I guess I could help! WTF dude?? I guess...?

I finally made the pork chops about 5:00 it took longer than expected because carmelizing onions is not a ten minute job.

D: French onion pork chops, salad

Went to bed about 10:30 - didn't even wait for DH to get home.


blood sugar - 123

B: granola, yogurt, Killer Daves Bread, vanilla iced latte

L: left over pork chop

D: beef stew

I will get the girl some time today - she wanted the stew.

No real plans over the weekend - DH is supposed to get the Christmas decorations back in the attic - I think Tony Bologna is going to help him.

I'm going walking....if it doesn't rain.

Have a great weekend! IP


Progress as of today: 43.3 lbs lost so far, only 84.6 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 01/08/2021:
Killer Dave's bread? Interesting...

Donkey on 01/09/2021:
My Boss and I were talking about COVID and still being able to come to work. I think he's having a hard time not being in Florida this winter and being restricted in what to do. He's someone that has to be out and about. If he could not come into work, he would have a TERRIBLE time. Others have mentioned this to me, about the Boss, too. So I'm glad that you can come into the office from time to time.

innerpeace - Wednesday Jan 06, 2021

Weight: 294.6

I ate so well yesterday (did not walk the 2nd time) and freakin' blood sugar was 137 this a.m. WTF!

This is so irritating to me.

B: bacon, egg, cheese fritata

L: toast and chicken, tomato, cucumber salad

 - picked up DH's perscriptions at the drug store and ate a hershy bar!

- VA doctor called new blood work 2/4 so I guess the hershy bar wasn't such a good idea.

D: taco bake

I was going to get the girl however she called and said "they" were going to drop her off to just come back a few hours later to get her. They are not the brightest crayons in the box.

Going to the office tomorrow.

Have a good humpday! IP

Progress as of today: 43.3 lbs lost so far, only 84.6 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 01/06/2021:
Love Hershey bars!!! And Reese cups even more.

Maria7 on 01/06/2021:
Hope you have a good day at the office tomorrow and all goes well.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/06/2021:
was blood sugar high maybe because of WHEN you ate your last meal?

it's good you eat as you do, so the blood work is really based on how you are doing overall...

have a good day!

Donkey on 01/07/2021:
Oh you're going into the office!! I know you've said you need to do this. Yay!

innerpeace - Tuesday Jan 05, 2021

Weight: 296.1

Crazy dreams all night - I wonder why I am dreaming so crazy. One of them was a green and white bug crawling and then it started flying and landed on my back. I was ducking and weaving and trying to get it off and then I felt it stick it's claws on me to hold on tighter and I woke myself up flailing and screaming to get it off. DH thinks I am cray-ZY! So vivid though!

Kinda busy this morning at work - I do get to go into the office on Thursday for awhile.

Blood sugar this a.m. 109

B: bacon, egg, cheese frittata

L: left over pork chop

D: grilled chicken, tomato and cucumber salad

DH and I took the doggos for a walk this morning, when we got back instacart had arrived. We unloaded groceries. I have lots of vegetables to eat. Here is a picture DH took, he just shaved and we look cute...I think.

It is snowing now and if it doesn't let up I can't see us getting back out.

Garage door opener works like a charm.

Have a great Tuesday! IP

Progress as of today: 41.8 lbs lost so far, only 86.1 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 01/05/2021:
You do look cute! And so happy!!!!!

Maria7 on 01/05/2021:
What a cute-looking couple!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/05/2021:
great photo of you especially! love your hair!

yuck to bug dreams....you were dreaming of the Past....no more bugs!

Donkey on 01/06/2021:
Whoa, that's a crazy dream! Yikes! With dreams like that, I'd almost dread going to bed.

Cute picture!

legcramps on 01/06/2021:
Great picture!

innerpeace - Monday Jan 04, 2021

Weight: 296.6

Crazy dreams all night.

Up at 5:30 - work today!

Busy around the house as well - new HVAC estimate, garage door being repaired (hopefully it will work this time) and some roof people came over - I guess we need a new roof. I'm glad DH takes care of all of this - because you know I just do not care.

Appointment went OK, doctor will check A1C in another eight weeks and she will check urine as well to check kidneys to make sure there is no damage there. She will see about A1C before prescribing any medicine, she was happy with my progress so far. I felt she was pushing the COVID-19 vaccination on me. She said VA only has Pfizer (the one that has to be super cold) and they only have that cold storage in Akron - (doubt I will go to Akron to get a shot). She was hoping they would get the Moderna vaccination and they they can do the vaccinations at my clinic. Still not sold on getting the vaccination. I will wait a little longer...unless I need to travel some where....fat chance there!

Of course mammogram, PAP and colonoscopy all came up - sometime this year - birth month (July) maybe - things will be settled down more.

B: yogurt, granola, vanilla iced latte (Probably my last for awhile)

L: pork chop, salad  left over BBQ chicken pizza

D: pork chop, salad

walked the doggos this morning and will take them again later.

Work is stressing me out - I really need to be in the office!

Have a great day! IP

Progress as of today: 41.3 lbs lost so far, only 86.6 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 01/04/2021:
I was due for a colonoscopy in March but of course, no way with Covid. Not going near a hospital.

Donkey on 01/05/2021:
Very good on your A1C numbers! My hope for you is that you can avoid the meds and control your blood sugar through healthy habits.

innerpeace - Sunday Jan 03, 2021

Weight: 296.6

OMG I had a post and it just disappeared...i hate that!

Short version

B: yogurt, granola, vanilla iced latte

Walked the dogs

Started laundry

L: cucumber, chicken, tomato salad

Watched the Browns

DH & I walked the dogs at halftime

DH finished fixing the book shelves - put paperbacks, little books on top, CDs and heavy books. Hopefully it will stay together with all the screws and nails he used.

D: BBQ grilled chicken, onion, pizza. I thought I had pizza dough in the refrigerator, but this turns out to be crescent rolls. I used this, crust was thin and cripsy and I will probably use this again instead of the regular pizza dough.

Browns won! Excited for this team.

Left to do C25K, people in my neighborhood out partying in their garages, happy for the Browns. A few spoke to me, I just waved I had my ear buds in listing to 5K lady.

Got home, loaded up dishwasher

Talked to my mom

Ready for tomorrow - video appointment with VA doctor - at 8:00 - hope this goes well.

DH has garage door opener repair man coming tomorrow, one more HVAC quote and a roof inspector coming tomorrow morning.

I will do instacart for Tuesday delivery.

Oh...and I have to work all day - yeah work!

Have a great Sunday! IP

Progress as of today: 41.3 lbs lost so far, only 86.6 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/03/2021:
I lost my original post this morning too.... :>(

Horn_of_plenty on 01/03/2021:
oh wow...at first i thought you copied and pasted a photo...the shelves look super duper perfect. nice you didn't buy another or anything!

everyone's been watching their respective teams I have a few friends that love to watch sports this time around...football.

you sound great....

good luck to us both back at work xoxo.

thanks for the kind wishes on fb as well.

only you all know about the job...almost nobody on facebook, aside from 2 people that aren't on here! :)

thanks again!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/03/2021:
can't believe you actually left the house during half time to walk the dogs! impressive!

grannyannie on 01/04/2021:
Glad you got book shelves back up. And had a walk.

[ Previous Page 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59 60 61 62 63 64 65 66 67 68 69 70 71 72 73 74 75 76 77 78 79 80 81 82 83 84 85 86 87 88 89 90 91 92 93 94 95 96 97 98 99 100 101 102 103 104 105 106 107 108 109 110 111 Next Page ]