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innerpeace - Friday Oct 27, 2017

Weight: 306.0

It's been one of those days for me - I thought I could just come to work and do things, but not today, people wanted stuff and I had to fix stuff and order stuff and I was buy most of the day. So, So glad it is Friday.

So DH told me the YA did get a truck. I hope it works out for him, because I am cancelling the insurance on Monday, so he can pay his own insurance bill. I was being nice and was selling my car to him for $800 - he still owes me $250, and he told DH he was trying to sell it for $1800, what an entrepeneur. This is par for course with him, always wanting and wanting and never giving. He owes DH over $200 dollars for an eye exam, getting his car out of the impound lot and he loaned him some money when he went to the Indians game. So he was at the house and DH asked him to help him do something, and the YA says, "this is your house" DH should have said, yeah, and you owe my a$$ $200 dollars so freakin' help you lazy bum! But he didn't say anything, he just shrugged it off. Not again!

And then the GF is moving in with him. What the F ever!! They want to give the girl a ratty old vanity and I don't want it in my house. DH had to talk me down off that mad. It's a gift....yeah whatever, I see it as trash and I don't want it in my house AND I don't want to think the girl can just think she can bring anything she wants into it, because she has hoarding tendencies and I already cleaned that crap up once. Seriously though, sometimes I just want to climb in a whole and stay.

So Wendesday we had the Shepherd's pie and we didn't have potatoes so we used mash cauliflower. This was pretty good, not very pretty but it was descent.

Last night DH and I were messing around with some more Indian food. This chickpea chole turned out OK, I thought I like chickpeas more than I did last night. It was tasty though and low calorie.

chickpea chole - my salad was delicious and I ate more of that than the chole.


Tonight we have the girl and not to happy about having to spend the weekend with her, I will pray for paitence and stuff. DH is making a spinach lasagna...I think.

Football Saturday. - I am making a turkey meatloaf

Laundry Sunday - I have no clue -maybe quesadilla

Have a great weekend! IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 10/27/2017:
Hi InnerP!

Sorry your workday is stressful! My work is the opposite always. I have to stick to myself. Be very quiet. Only speak to certain coworkers and not others. It’s all weird….work is weird….work is politics…politics are weird ! You know, everything is weird…the world is weird!

I do agree 100% with you…that if the boy owes, he has to be able to contribute to your household. And also if he borrows money, how could he not feel to thank you to contribute to you!? How can he expect you guys to open your hearts and pockets if he never even opens his heart to give to you? No good.

You have a point though about not wanting things in your house. Make sure she doesn’t hoard in your house. That would be dead wrong. It should be a rule.

The shepherd’s pie looks AMAZING actually. I would have loved it – especially with the cauliflower instead of potato – that’s a huge calorie control meal! FREAKING awesome. I’ll be doing that tonight….BIG meal coming up for me – going for Hibachi – where the Japanese chef cooks right in front of you at your table. The food at this particular restaurant is the ultimate in taste. I wish my friend would just order the chicken and not the expensive fish (we are sharing) – but I guess the total difference isn’t as bad as I thought – it’s $10 more for the dish or just $5 more each. But it adds up….! I was going to order a beer, but I don’t really want to. I don’t want to drink…and I have to drive home…sorry, I keep talking about myself as I’ve been 100% in my head all day at work. It’s prob not the best thing, but I know I can take myself out of it once January comes along. It’s very good that I now stay very busy on weekends, just to get out of sitting all day and not talking like I do at work…boy am I thankful for Ricky!

Chickpeas are healthy yes and a good substitute for vegetarian meals sometimes as opposed to always eating meat – and I do know that you like to sometimes skip the meat. It does look great! Even better knowing you had more salad. I love my greens too…didn’t actually have that much of them this week though!...and you just reminded me to go downstairs and clean my containers and take them home.

For spinach lasagna, does that mean making regular lasagna plus some spinach? Good idea. !

Good luck with girlie. Turkey meatloaf sounds good…It’s low cal too! I hope it tastes great – what do you put in there?

BearCountryGG on 10/29/2017:
That mashed cauliflower is amazing and a close sub for mashed potatoes...I see oprah has a mashed cauliflower potato mixture out...but its not in our stores yet...cuts the carbs and calories so well.

innerpeace - Wednesday Oct 25, 2017

Weight: 306.0

DH made the spaghetti squash and brocolli for dinner. It was pretty good, but so huge. I ate the rest of it for lunch today.



Then DH and I went around town looking for cupcakes for me to take to work. I got a dozen from one bakery and then stopped at another for some cookies. I also put together a guessing game (closest wins) with other candy. I do something for them, most holidays. I used the wine bottles we made last weekend for decoration. They will probably stay here since we made two sets.

Well, the YA also didn't go through with the deal for the car trade, for some unknown reason. Oh yea, because it was a scam or didn't work out in his favor. Whatever the reason,  I didn't get my $250 bucks!

We have the girl tonight, and I think DH is making a diabetic version of a shepherd's pie, I hope it turns out a little descent.

Ohter than that, I have realized that I still need to get some exercise in. I blame DH and his stupid shift change. I used to get in bed by 10:00 pm and now I'm lucky to make it by 11:15-11:30, this hour to hour and 1/2 was my early wake up time to exercise. I'm lucky if I get up in time now to even get a shower. I will work on this schedule of mine as I perfer to exercise in the mornings, if/when I actually do said exercise.

Things are OK.

Have a great evening! IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 10/25/2017:
Spaghetti squash looks beautiful...if you want to save calories, less cheese and more meat even - turkey's the lowest cal...you can even be meat free with beans....but it sure looks wonderful, IP, don't take my suggestions as being rude it's just my honesty.??? i'm weird :)

all your food and goodies look amazing. intriguing cookies lol and superb design on the cupcakes too! i personally like your own creativity using the wine bottles!

So you were right he wouldn't have that kinda money. don't keep too high hopes and always remember that you cannot fully trust him yet i do not think...or to think before you give him anything that he needs to pay back...or to make him do a chore to make anything up to you...that would be a good idea i'd say.

i want to see & hear more about this shepherd's pie...diabetic must mean less potato?

sleep is def very important for exercise....i understand you...i think actually the main reason for my improved exercise is actually due like 99% to my improved sleep! for real!

so you will hopefully get back on track with your sleep soon so you feel better to exercise - trust me, it helps.

BearCountryGG on 10/25/2017:
They had spaghetti squash here for 89 cents yesterday...great time to enjoy that.

innerpeace - Tuesday Oct 24, 2017

Weight: 306.0

DH had another interview yesterday afternoon, so he got home late. We had salmon patties and salad for dinner. It was pretty good.

The YA called and asked about how much he owed on the car still. It is $250. He said he will bring it over today, because he is trading it for a Ford Ranger pickup. Well good luck! He did admit that he is working for the step-day again and he agreed to pay him $20 an hour, which I do NOT believe. He's an idiot! Everytime I think about it I just want to slap that mother of his in the face. Anyway he came and got the title and hopefully I'll get my $250 dollars tonight. Wishful thinking and I don't have to pay insurance anymore! YAY that gives me an extra $120 in my pocket. I do feel bad that I want him to fail. I want him to understand he needs to finish highschool, that he can't rely on people to bail him out when he makes bad decisions. Oh well, I guess he will learn.

DH went to bed and I made a quiche for lunch and played around with my juicer. I made a grapefruit, carrot, ginger juice it was called Spicy Grapefruit carrot. It was just OK, not a fan of grapefruit. DH drank it after he brushed his teeth and he said it was disgusting. i laughed.

I didn't sleep well last night, was up a couple of times, hearing things.

B: English muffin, peanut butter, iced vanilla latte

S: yogurt, blackberries, blueberries

L: slice of quiche,

S: granola cups, balanced breaks

I think DH said he was making the spaghetti squash thing that was scheduled yesterday.


Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 10/24/2017:
Hi IP!

My fingers are crossed for DH :-P..and your dinner sounds very good! So healthy! I really am going to eat more fish soon…I can make it in oven…shouldn’t smell too much right?

I agree the kid needs to finish high school…but I feel he’s failed enough? Hopefully things will improve for him sooner rather than later he’ll wake up!

I have trouble drinking a ton of ginger…it’s so healthy but also the taste is SO STRONG!

I hope you sleep better tonight…I have been sleeping TONS lately since my trips I’ve needed quite a bit of catch up (rest) time! I am sure you’ll sleep better tonight bc you will be tired!

Food looks great..i want to make an egg quiche I think…there’s also something really cool going around you might want to try only if you have a heavy-duty food processor: PIZZA MADE OUT OF A GROUND CHICKEN BREAST / CHEESE CRUST! I’ve been seeing it all over facebook!....oh it’s sorta high calorie but still cool I thought…but not that low cal bc of the cheese….

..i also have a couple spaghetti squash at home…thanks for reminding me! And your breakfast sounds tasty like mine!

innerpeace - Monday Oct 23, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Had an uneasy weekend for sure.

Friday I left work about 1:00, I was so sleepy. I just went home and slept with DH. We didn't get up until almost 5:30.  I told DH I was frustrated with eating healthy food and I asked him to make me a salsibury steak. It was delicious with the French Onion gravy. We had mashed cauliflour and a salad with it. I loved that salisbury steak though. It was so delicious. He went back to bed after we walked the dog.

Saturday when DH got home I threw some stuff in the crock pot for chili and then we went shopping. We went to Sandusky to get my iced coffee. I love it and missed it, so I drove to the closest store that still has it about 40 miles away in Sandusky. I bought six boxes - that will last about two months. And I will give up these (163 calories a day) to enjoy this small and simple pleasure. When we were coming out of the store I had a PTSD episode and kinda freaked out. An unforgettable smell, that I would not even be able to explain, took me back to a bad place in Saudi Arabia during the Gulf War. It both startled and shocked me to say the least. DH just kept asking me what was wrong, all I could do was just stand there holding my nose and covering my face until I got my bearing. It was just too in tense and really freaked me out a few minutes.

We also stopped at Sam's and bought some stuff and then we headed home. We had an appointment at the library to make wine bottle ghosts,mummies and vampires. I enjoyed it, it helped my anxiety from my episode. We got home and ate the chili and walked the dog and DH goes to bed. I watch football just to get irritated! Stupid team!

Sunday before DH got home I had updated my stupid Iphone and it was asking me for a two step authentication. I totally just could not think what my passcode was and got locked out of my phone. This was frustrating. And then I got a notification that someone near Washington DC wanted permission to use my icloud. What? This freaked me out even more. Finally when DH got home we sat around trying to figure out my passcode and got locked out again. We sat around until the neighbors seemed to be stirring and then we started yard work. I keeping hoping this will be the last time, maybe this time. I mowed and weeded the front. He mowed the back and edged. We then picked up the chain link fence and mowed the weeks grown up through it. This made my back and legs sore today. We ate left over chili and cornbread.

The YA came over in his mom's mustang and told DH that he mended fences with his step-dad. Last weekend his GF's grandparents told him he couldn't stay with her anymore because her grades were failing, so he had to go back to his Grandma's. The YA tell's DH that he thinks the GF's grandparents are trying to break them up because he helps her with her homework. When DH tells me this, I just laugh, because he won't do anykind of work, that's why he dropped out of shool.  I just think he is trying to take the easy way out of something and instread of going back to school and/or looking for a real job, he is going to go back to work for his step-dad who doesn't pay him. I figure they told him, he could drive the mustang if he works. Whatever, he is a bum and I refuse to let him live with us if he doesn't have a job and is not going to school. I will not condone this behavior and from years of watching my mother help those who don't help themselves, I refuse to fall into this never ending story of uselessness. Everyone who is able, should earn thier own keep. I will not support a deadbeat, lazy, a$$ young adult, who knows everything in the world. I'm sure this upsets my DH, but he said he agreed. Yes, yes, this is the same able bodied kid who goes to the food bank!! Jack hole!!

Anyway, I'm kind of glad it's Monday. Oh and this morning, when I woke up and turned off the alarm, I picked up my phone and opened my email and before I opened my email or whenever I pick up my phone after an extended period of time....I have to type my passcode in. OMG seriously....I did NOT know this was the same passcode needed all day yesterday. I was thinking it was something else and could not remember what in the h#ll it was asking for. Sometimes, I am just as dingy as a bat!

B: toast

S: I ate candy - a few kisses, reeses and carmel apple chocolate candies - about 8 pieces

L: left over chili, grapes

D: is spaghetti squash and roasted broccoli

I may try to use my juicing maching that came last week. I finally got a fresh mango and grapefruit and look forward to trying the juicer.

Have a great day! IP


Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 10/23/2017:
Good Morning InnerP!

Lol…I cannot ever leave work early for feeling tired…but then again I work in NYC area and you don’t…and I have only myself to take care of while you are also the main guardian of girlie. Obviously, we have totally different live and as I have learned, it is never good to ever compare…Anyways, back to you…

You lovely dinner of steak and mashed cauliflower and salad sounds AMAZING! Lately I do not eat very healthy at all. I’m enjoying the real treats of life in moderation. Loving it. I enjoy alcohol now and I’m getting better at drinking in moderation too. Tonight I plan to finish my hard apple cider can…I have a cup left waiting for me in the fridge.

About the healthy eating – and drinking – I have learned that the longer you do it, the easier it becomes. The easier it is to maintain a lower weight, to stay on track. That treats can be worked in – especially for active, working people like me and you who exercise and DO burn lots of calories. Yes, me and you…I’m learning to enjoy life. To not berate myself for eating treats. Life doesn’t need to be a black & white, good & bad, always yes & no…thankfully not! I’m so thankful to not have this mindset as strongly as it used to be for me….life becomes easier to live when we are open to all of it’s avenues…like the Salisbury steak :-P

This weekend I slept tons too…just like you. With all the traveling and adventures, my body was craving it so much! Gonna def go back and sleep extra tonight too…people who exercise generally need more rest versus less! If you ever read about Olympic athletes, they can sleep 12 hours a day some of them.

It’s ok to feel emotions, I am sorry you felt that way on Saturday but I’m glad DH was with you there to help you through it.

OMG your libraries are as cool as my libraries…actually yours have more crafts! We have a lot of music at ours. I am able to go to all the libraries in Queens which is so many…some offer really amazing (free) music programs…and sometimes acting programs too! It’s awesome especially for me with a music background.

My neighbor told me that her husband was also majorly upset due to the sports games / teams he was watching lol…

I have also gotten emails like yours about people trying to get into your phone….once again someone used my debit card and guessed my pin yesterday so I called the bank, was refunded the $200 they took out, and now will be waiting for a new debit card (second one in a month!) to be delivered. So frustrating.

Ah yes, you reminded me I want to make cornbread! Pumpkin cornbread…I also bought cranberries to cook! I love to eat cooked cranberries thru the winter! I usually sweeten them with liquid stevia as otherwise they are too tart and bitter.

I think that YA needs to join a trade…go to school for that. Like an electrician or plumber so he can have a career. He needs coaching and re-directioning. Cops make great money…

Good luck with your passcode! Haha.

BearCountryGG on 10/23/2017:
My Dear IP.....You brought tears to my eyes!!!! If I have never thanked you for your service please let me thank you now! THANK YOU so much for what you have given our country!!! I'm also glad to hear that you are loosening the calorie food strings a bit. Happiness counts for a lot and sometimes we just need to throw a little food fit and find our happy!!! Your flashback is where the tears started for me and I have the utmost respect for your feelings and any suffering you may do regarding that, and I know that you are aware of there being people out there for you in that regard...we do live in a time where there is more and more being understood about PTSD...talking to someone may help, but I know you know that. I'm happy to hear that you are getting fed up with the young mans lame excuses, sometimes the kindest thing you can do for a kid is to let them fall down and figure out how to get back up themselves.....you have a lot going on....YOU found the fortitude to join the service, get and keep a job, take on the responsibility of step children...YOU ROCK LADY! The young man can work for his step dad...live in their house...and drive their car....then he will stay out of your hair.....maybe he would benefit from the service. Anyway.....glad you figured the phone out...they are a pain and glad you enjoyed some yummy things and took the pressure off the calorie counting.....we will do this...but we do not have to make ourselves miserable while doing it. Thank you again!

innerpeace - Thursday Oct 19, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Pretty discouraged today, there is something definately wrong with my scale. I doubt an extra piece of bread will make me gain three pounds WTF!!

If you do everything right and gain there is definately something wrong with something. I requested a call from my care worker. There is nothing wrong with my body, maybe my meal planning. DH said he thinks maybe too much pasta.

Maybe, we have a chicken caserole tonight with egg noodles, so after tonight, no more pasta for awhile.

The girl texted me and said she did very good on her book report poster. So glad! And then her mother emailed and sent me the link to get pictures ordered, she has never done this, so of course I wonder why she is being nice.

Last night DH grilled some chicken and I steamed some zucchini and then it was tossed with basil, avocado and arugula creme sauce, it was tasty but didn't look very good.


B: oatmeal bar - this is the last one

L: left over chicken and zuchini, yogurt, blueberries, granola

S: balanced breaks

D: should be tuna caserole (but the girl doesn't like tuna, so we are using chicken)

No plans tonight...

Have a good one! IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 10/19/2017:
Hi InnerP!

It could be a salt / bloating thing, InnerP. The same happens to me so I wouldn’t worry myself too much if I were you. And if you have been eating well in general, then I definitely wouldn’t mind the 3lbs which must go off soon..?

I think if anything – try to fully drop CHEESE for a week. You will lose a lot of weight, I promise. Cheese and Granola. Those are very high calorie, even if you eat a little bit the calorie damage is HIGH! This is why I do NOT eat cheese or granola very much – except for my beloved small granola bars – 100-150 calories that’s it – not like regular granola which can be like 200 cal in just a half cup…and nobody eats just a half cup. This is why I do not eat it at all. I can’t stop myself. I’d eat at least a cup at once which is already 400 cal of carbs (equal to 4 pieces of good bread!). in just a cup of oatmeal! Same with cheese. Two really tasty foods. If you break free of them this week, just leave them out, I can promise you that you will lose a pound.

Her mother is darn thankful of how much you are helping your daughter. I’m sure both girlie and mother are overjoyed about the results of her good work (haha and yours) on the report. You deserve a little price you pretty InnerP lady! You Rock!!!!!!!! It’s good you like doing projects. Comes in helpful for girlie…that’s for sure. What I mean is, it’s a GREAT thing that you aren’t lazy in the least!

Oh…yes, pasta is also a calorie burner. No good. A half cup has 200 cal almost and that’s not what any adult ever serves himself. More like 1.5 cups or 600 cal or like 6 servings of carbs. 6 slices of bread. I’d stay away.

Maybe you are night eating? You think you might be eating in your sleep? Because your eating is good…I don’t understand either the scale issue.

Chicken casserole does sound better than tuna one. I never eat cooked tuna except when it’s seared like black & blue style.

BearCountryGG on 10/19/2017:
Definitely better to get along with the girls Mom than not. I think she is thankful for your interest and input into her life.....she is so lucky to have you. About your weight.....I know that if you drop cals too much your metabolism will slow down to match it...if you think that you calorie calculations are accurate then your body may be thinking you are trying to starve it....and is just slowing the calorie burning down...it's an old throwback to cave man days where it was either feast or famine.....when they had food they gorged...when they didn't have much food their bodys burned it slower to conserve energy. There is 2 things I learned from my old WW days and that is...drink lots and lots of water...and when I hit a plateau or just didn't lose much...I had to shake things up...by doing something very different. Do you have any beverages with calories.....I know when I have ever used creamers in my coffee...I could never lose no matter how much I tried...and I know another lady from WW that was the same way...some people can't lose eating bananas.....I'm wondering about your balanced breaks...I looked at them at the store...but didn't notice the calories, they are small and it's healthy stuff....but maybe they have become too routine....you may be holding water....or maybe you are on a medication like say a steroid...that can cause weight gain...but you food lists are good...and your portions are not big.....could you be just picking at food a little here and a little there and not counting it...it's easy to do...we are foodies...we do love our food...we wouldn't be trying to lose now if we weren't. maybe it will just drop off all of a sudden too...I've seen that happen before too,

legcramps on 10/20/2017:
Yeah, it might be difficult but it's best to just accept the positive gesture from girls' Mom and leave it at that :) maybe the best of her is coming out to peek at the world for a little bit ;)

innerpeace - Wednesday Oct 18, 2017

Weight: 306.0

After a long, long day at work. I get home and DH cooked. We had a backed mac and cheese with gouda and ham and then a kale salad. It was all very tasty.

The girl started a new book and read to me a little. She left early because it was her GMa's birthday. Before she left she got a text from YA's GF asking if she was coming to GMa's because she had something to tell them.

I'm thinking OMG she is going to tell them she is pregnant, but I got a text from the girl this morning telling me she wasn't pregnant and the GF would tell me and DH soon. Great then, nothing she says will impress me unless she says she won the lottery or something.

Work is slow but I am continually grateful I have a job.

Two days in a row I haven't been inspired by the flash fiction, so I may organize a drawer at home tonight.

B: oatmeal bar

L: left over mac and cheese, yogurt with blueberries and granola, apple

S: balanced breaks

D: is supposed to be grilled chicken and zucchini. I will see if I can get this zucchini figured out - haven't had the best experience with zucchini.

Have a great night! IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/18/2017:
Wonder what their big secret is!

Horn_of_plenty on 10/18/2017:
Hubby's dinner looks amazing. I had something similar last night - Lasagna with not too much cheese and also i had a vegetable with it - spaghetti squash. I ate the two together. was good.

LOL, i'm glad she isn't pregnant! whew. But, she might still be...i hope not! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

innerpeace - Tuesday Oct 17, 2017

Weight: 306.0

DH used the left over London Broil to make a beef and noodle dish. It was just ok, not the yummy, thick, rich dish I'm accustom to.

He was kinda bummed out, still in his pjs when I got home. He didn't have much to say and went ot bed about 7:00.

I thought I heard someone calling my name last night, so I woke up hollering, "I'm right here." This scared my dog and he left me. I woke up again at 5:00 and my dog was back, I hit the snooze button and didn't get up until about 5:50....

B: baked oatmeal

L: peanut butter sandiwhich, yogurt, blueberries, granola, walnuts, apple

S: balanced breaks

D: some form of baked mac and cheese - will see if DH gets around to make it. The girl is supposed to come over tonight.

Kinda stuck with my weight right now, will have to look at things. Not really feeling it but I haven't lost hope and haven't gained, so there's that.

Really need to push myself to start the physical activity back up.

I will get through this.

Have a great day! IP

OH and I received my first postcard - it arrived from Minnesota. Can't wait to get more!

Finished another flash fiction story - I think I've only missed two pictures, because they didn't inspire me to write anything.

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 10/17/2017:
I'm going to comment on all your entries starting from Wednesday!!!! So make sure to look back, InnerP!

Lol...sorry...the dog and hollering thing made me laugh...i hope you are feeling good now!

i see you are enjoying your baked foods...the baked oatmeal really sounds good. i want to bake some pumpkin cornbread soon...i have a nice recipe at home :-)

so was the postcard any good? is it fun?

i am also low on my exercise now- recovering from the trip bc my legs / ankles are still sore. so i'm not jogging this week.

i've not really heard of flash fiction...need to see about that!

innerpeace on 10/18/2017:
The postcard was of a CLE Indians player from long ago, I don't know who it is, but I just recently started liking baseball.

I just like getting postcards.

Flash fiction is just a month long project. A person will post a picture and everyone participating writes a short story inspired by that picture. It takes my mind off of things and also takes time when I have little to do at work...like today.

innerpeace - Monday Oct 16, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Saturday - we took the girl to an Amazon liquidation cell - lots of stationary, stickers, ribbons, bows, school supplies and stuff. It was all 50 cents, and we spent $15.00. When we get home DH and I mow the grass, I keep hoping it will be the last time, but I doubt it, especially if the weather stays nice. When we got hom the YA and his stinky GF was there and they stayed and they stayed. Finally I asked them if they were going to stay for dinner, and I should know the answer to that by now, that's the only time we see them, if they need food and/or are hungry.

I made the Mexican lasagna again, this time I added shredded chicken. It was a bit heartier and good. They left shortly after dinner to go do a job for the YA's part-time employer. Yeah OK whatever - eat and run much? I'm glad they left.

Once they left, I helped the girl with her book report poster. I was just there for suggesting how things looks and where things go. She did the summary and wrote everything up while I was watching football. DH was of course asleep by this time. Thankfully she got that thing done and can turn it in on Wednesday.

Sunday - I was up at 6:00 and made the baked oatmeat, which the girl told me was nasty! Anyway, I took my telemove call, and made the menu for this week. Then I participated in the flash fiction writing and watched the move Freedom Writers and cried my eyes out. DH and the girl went grocery shopping and I stayed and washed laundry - because that IS my favorite thing in the whole wide world - right up there with grocery shopping.

DH made the London Broil and Brussel sprouts, which was all good. I had pictures of all this food, so that is the reason no pictures. Nothing new to see here!.

The weekend gets by faster and faster and I do not feel rested. I really can't say I did much. Still not in a good place.

Here hoping the week is better. Have a good night IP.

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/16/2017:
I bet you are so happy that the book report project is done.....I hope she appreciates all you do for her...if not now...then I'm sure she will look back some day and realize how lucky she truly was to have you. I made brussels sprouts here and hubby hated them...I had to eat them for days...LOL

horn_of_plenty on 10/17/2017:
GIRL! The first paragraph reminds me of a Mad Libs because you used the adjective stinky....when you write YA & his "stinky girlfriend" i had a little chuckle out loud at my desk!

I'm eating lasagna tonight, but not too much...i'll have to get some veggies to bring...i have squash at home, so i'll bring that to my friend Ricky's house bc he has the lasagna! I still never get satisfied eating only carbs and no veggies...the portion of lasagna is too small to make me full...need the veggies for volume lol...i cooked a spaghetti squash in the oven yesterday, but didn't flavor it at all...i plan to just eat the lasagna on top of it...

It's good girlie got her report done early...rather than the night before. i was always the worst procrastinator and man is that a bad habit!

innerpeace - Friday Oct 13, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Been in a bad place lately...the last few days OMG...tears at the drop of a hat.

Wednesday we went to paint pumpkins and I was miserable. We had lettuce wraps for dinner, which DH and I thought were delicious but the girl didn't like them, well she said she didn't like them, she didn't really taste them, she just touched her tongue to it and said yeck. Whatever, tell your mom to take you to McDonald's when you get home. Then I gave her the garden salad I had for lunch (chicken, tomatos, yellow squash, zucchini, a little cheese and balsamic and then she said the squash seeds were disgusting...really? Can you even taste the seeds. This just agravated me, I didn't even want to be around her.

Then I asked her if she finished her book for the book report she has due next week, she says no. Then I tell her to read and she falls asleep reading, but didn't have a problem flipping through facebook on the iPAD. I told her she's not getting the IpAD this weekend, until the book is read, or she could take it all to her mother's house and finish it with her help.. It took me three hours to read the stupid book, she's been trying to read it for a month now. The report is due next Thursday.

I guess I get pissy because DH will be asleep most of the time and I am left to help and entertain and NO, I just don't want to be forced into this situation all the time.

And then my baseball team blew a freaking 2-0 lead.

And OMG I'm just tired of hearing how everything offends everyone these days. Seriously though work offends me, but my @ss is here most every freaking day. People offend me, so much so I can't sleep and then when I do sleep I don't want to wake up and come to craphole hill.

So I left work yesterday about 10:00 (I tried to post before I left and couldn't access it ) I got home and slept for about 3 1/2 hours. DH was at an interview. When I woke up I made a meatless taco lasagna which turned out realy delicious. It was actually just black beans, corn, tomotos, cheese and taco shells layered. It was good.

I did the calories, but let my phone at home - I didn't go over 1400 calories either day. Still need to get more exercise in...my need to go talk to the terapist and start the prozac again if I can't get out of my funk, but then it could be menopause or other crazy stuff.

Hopefully this weekend will help in some ways. IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/13/2017:
You care so much about everyone else...you really do need to take care of you too.....Hope you feel better.

Donkey on 10/14/2017:
Could very well be hormonal, but that doesn't mean that it's not serious. I hope you can come out of it on your own, but if not, do what it takes to help.

I'm sorry your Indians are out of the playoffs. I don't much care for the Yankees at all... Personally, I think Houston will win it all.

horn_of_plenty on 10/17/2017:
There was something on the news about picky eaters and a lot of young kids / teens do not like the textures of certain foods.

also, the tv said that if the kid has been grazing all day and isn't hungry, that they have potential to be more picky bc they aren't hungry.

try not to let all the ignoramuses get to you...however you spell it.

also, food looks GREAT!

innerpeace - Wednesday Oct 11, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Tuesday food...pizza day. I love pizza so much. DH made this with spaghetti sauce, not my favorite, but any pizza is good. Mushrooms, onions, sauce, cheese and arugula. Ended the day with 1328 calories.

worked on the girl's poster for her book report, wrote a flash fiction story and made the salad for lunch today.

B: baked oatmeal bar

S: yogurt, blackberries, granola

L: tomatos, zucchini, yellow squash, corn, smoked chicken with a little parmesean and vingrette. Nice fresh salad wihtout the pasta.

S: balanced breaks

Tonight dinner is supposed to be lettuce wraps....if they turn out.

We also have pumpkin painting at 6:00, hopefully we can get there in time.

Have a great evening! IP


Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/11/2017:
I totally agree...any pizza is good pizza...Looks Great...Have fun paining the pumpkins.

legcramps on 10/11/2017:
Yep I agree too with your pizza quote. If I could I would eat it all the time.

horn_of_plenty on 10/17/2017:
Pumpkin painting sounds GREAT!

also...the pizza on the right is healthier than the pizza on the left haha. lol...just bugging you!

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