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innerpeace - Tuesday Jan 08, 2019

Weight: 315.4

Well I tried to stay busy today, but it still ended up meh.

Moved an old TV stand out to the curb for trash pick up. The kitchen cabinets are being delivered tomorrow.

Took the new puppy outside at least 15 times today...in the rain

Washed and folded two loads of laundry.

DH wanted a cake, tried to make this for him, however, it stuck to the pan and when I was getting it out it just crumbled all to bits. The second one is still in the pan and he can eat it if he wants it.

Face is breaking out....stress!

No word from work today, but I did see my boss on TV doing a tornado survey about two counties away. That's right...we had a tornado...in Ohio...In January, can it get more bizzare than that?

I was doing OK until DH started texting me about a stupid plan he devised on my behalf which pizzed me off. He asked when I went back to work....seriously??? I DO NOT KNOW! Then he says why don't you drive and pick up my sister (She lives near Dayton - we just visited her for a little bit when we picked up the new puppy) and then yall drive to Oklahoma and visit your mom and then drive to Texas and visit my niece and dad. uh...NO! Please don't make plans for me. First off....don't try and fix me! Secondly...I don't need to spend time with someone I don't really like. Miss one up herself. I could tell her I jumped out of 52 perfectly good airplanes (which is true) and she would tell me she walked through the Sahara desert barefoot with no water! I was almost killed in a car accident...but she died twice on the operating table. I don't have time for this adding 1600 miles to this. I can do without the one-up Chuck scenario in my life right now! AZZ HAT!! I told him to quit texting me.

B: English muffin, scrambled egg with ham and cheese

L: balanced breaks

D: ham and cheese pizza rolls I made, they were OK.

A piece of nasty carrot cake that fell out of the pan and left a bad taste in my mouth.

I did win tickets to go see Disney on Ice on Friday.  I will take the girl, DH has to work. They put him on 10 hour shifts and he won't be home.

I will get the girl tomorrow so she can come over and shower. Friday she has an orthodontist appointment and then we will go to the Disney on Ice.

Anyway, still plugging along. Have a great evening! or night! IP

Progress as of today: 6.2 lbs lost so far, only 105.4 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/09/2019:
how exciting to see disney on ice! should be fun! i enjoy the "kiddie" shows too!

nice you actually rebaked a new cake to make up for the crumbled one, i might have given uP!

sounds like you got tons done! nice job!!! and the laundry :)

Horn_of_plenty on 01/09/2019:
if you keep low / no expectations of yourself, then you will always be happy with what you get done ;) LOL

your face will clear, InnerP :)

Donkey on 01/09/2019:
I agree with all that has already been said, above.

innerpeace - Monday Jan 07, 2019

Weight: 315.4

Get to work this morning and everyone is like 'welcome back'...yes, like it was my decision to be gone. Oh well, I can only work for the day - can only do a few things, as everything is shut down. I can not come back tomorrow, and I will be told every day whether or not I can come in to work until this mess is resolved.

B: frittata

L: pb&j sandwich, balanced breaks

D: chicen, rice, brocolli casserole thing

I have laundrey to do, as I didn't do it Sunday. i will do this tomorrow while I am making plans.

Have a great day! IP

Progress as of today: 6.2 lbs lost so far, only 105.4 lbs to go!

graindart on 01/07/2019:
Peanut butter sandwiches were my undoing yesterday. Having the rest of the family finish off the jar of PB today so that it doesn't tempt me anymore.

Donkey on 01/07/2019:
I continue to pray over your situation. Very worried that food stamps are going to be affected soon.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/07/2019:
i'm glad you will use the time tomorrow to get your laundry done!....and make plans??

innerpeace - Sunday Jan 06, 2019

Weight: 315.4

Long, long, long night with the new puppy. But he has already learned to use the doggy door, this is encouraging....now, if he can just learn why to use it!!!

DH is already in love with this little puppy, Steve tolerates him and I haven't made up my mind yet...he's cute.

B: fritta which - fritta bun with a sausage patty, banna

Late lunch/dinner - left over beef pot pie

Snacks and snacks - gold fish and golden oreo cookies.

DH supposedly bought iced vanilla latte, but it wasn't the right stuff so that saved some calories.

We walked the dogs, or tried to, the puppy...never been on a leash, DH had a funny time walking this creature.

I do go to work tomorrow for the day, still furloughed though.

Hoping for the best.


Progress as of today: 6.2 lbs lost so far, only 105.4 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/06/2019:
wow that is so strange. to go to work and be furloughed. will you get back pay this time?

where do you get the frittata bun or are they homemade??

innerpeace on 01/07/2019:
It is Jimmy Dean - the fritatta is the bun and there is turkey sausage patty in between.

OhioRaven on 01/07/2019:
Peace !

innerpeace - Saturday Jan 05, 2019

Weight: 315.4

Long day today getting the new puppy. It is always strange embarking on a journey you aren’t sure of the outcome. Rocco is already a handful.

B: cheerios

L: zebra cake

late lunch - 2 chicken strips, half of piece of bread

snacks in car - three pieces of peppermint bark and three pieces of gingerbread truffles

even with candy still under calories for the day.

have a good night! IP

Progress as of today: 6.2 lbs lost so far, only 105.4 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/05/2019:
Welcome home, rocco!

what's a zebra cake?

gingerbread tuffles!? who makes them?

great day for you, good job being moderate with the food!

can't wait to see a pic of Rocco!

innerpeace on 01/06/2019:
Little Debbie Zebra cake, it is a white cake with cream filling. Nothing good I assure you.

They are Lindor truffles, smooth and creamy.

Rocco is on Facebook and is driving me batty and Steve tolerates him.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/06/2019:
puppy looks great!!!

Donkey on 01/06/2019:
Message to Horn: Do a Google of "Little Debbie Zebra Cakes" - oh my, oh my... Not much of a lunch but oh so good.

innerpeace on 01/06/2019:
I know...this is what traveling does.

graindart on 01/07/2019:
Just putting my down vote in on Zebra Cakes. The box always catches my eye when I'm walking down the grocery aisle and I always consider giving them another try. But then I remind myself of how disappointed the taste of them was the last time I tried them. It's probably been 4 or 5 years since I tried them, but distinctly remember them being a major letdown at the time.

Now the peppermint bark, that I could go for.

Glad you got the new dog home safely.

innerpeace - Friday Jan 04, 2019

Weight: 315.4

16 minutes to spare. I just completely forgot to post today, thought about it right after I laid down to go to sleep.

Friday was a lonely day at home. DH went to work and I sat. Think a little depression is setting in.

My boss texted me and told me to come to work Monday - it is time card day and I guess no one could figure out how to do time cards so I can go in and work for the day.

DH and I are going to Lawrence, KY tomorrow to pick up a new member of our family. It is another Toy Fox Terrior, we have initially named him Rocco, 16 weeks old. We tried to adopt/rescue one a few weeks ago, however, after the meet and greet we were turned down because the owner of the rescue farm felt our Steve was too fat and she didn't want to let us adopt the TFT she was fostering because she didn't think he would be in a good home. Seriously....she actually said this to us. Anyway, we will see what happens tomorrow. We are also supposed to stop by my sister-in-laws house outside of Dayton on the way back...not looking forward to this.

B: yogurt

L: PB&J, gold fish

D: beef pot pie

S: granola cups, yogurt

Have a great weekend. IP

Progress as of today: 6.2 lbs lost so far, only 105.4 lbs to go!

Donkey on 01/05/2019:
Maybe the new puppy will help draw you away from depression. That and going into the office on Monday.

I still think that having a routine at home would help. I have a friend who works from home, and when her company was making the transition, I recommended that she still do her hair and get dressed -- not anything fancy, but not sweatpants or staying in her pajamas. She told me a couple of months later that really helped.

Come to think of it, my mom did this too when she was working for home.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/05/2019:
I think the dogs in the "terrier" family are adorable!!!! congrats on your new pup!

try not to get depressed. you aren't LOSING a job, just not going in. BIG difference.

i know it's a lot of changes to your routine, but it's more "you" time.

i'd be happy not going on. i'd be sleeping in late, doing more cooking...like you did with that awesome grilled cauliflower and cheese recipe that looks seriously amazing. right up my ally. i don't love (as you may know) to eat lots of cheese, but this type of recipe i'd be happy having bc cauliflower is so low carb that it just works well with the cheese...my mouth is salivating over that recipe!

innerpeace - Thursday Jan 03, 2019

Weight: 315.4

Still ow work. kinda bummed its like I want to work when I can't but when I have to I really don't want too, so it is an evil web.

snacked most of the night, but didn't go over calories. I ate pretzels and gold fish.

B: 4 french toast sticks, 2 tbsps sugar free syrup

L: grilled cauliflower and cheese - this was delcisous - TASTY recipe from the book of face.

D: pot roast, carrots and potatos and salad.

takig the girl to a dental appointment.

and tomorrow is Friday. my boss said he would tell me tomorrow if I can come in on Monday. Of course I will because someone has to turn in timecards and I doubt those yahoos will do it...because they are so much better than that!

Anyway, I will take my attitude and go. Have a great evening. IP

Progress as of today: 6.2 lbs lost so far, only 105.4 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 01/03/2019:
omg....i saw that tasty recipe!...the grilled cauliflower and cheese!!!!

i saw it on fb last night! OMG i want to make it also. it looks amazing. it's very filling and good for you all around. nice!

great eats on your menu! love it!

lol you know you are the "most reliable" office worker ;)

innerpeace on 01/04/2019:
It was very good. I added a little corn starch to help it stay together. I think next time I will boil the cauliflower to a soft consistency and try again. It did grill up nice though.

graindart on 01/03/2019:
Maybe get out of the house so your mind isn't fixated on work? It'd be different if you had any control in it whatsoever.

Get out of the house and go walk around the mall......twice.....without spending anything?

Donkey on 01/03/2019:
Try to stick to a routine, during the day, maybe, to keep your spirits up.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/03/2019:
If you can go somewhere, why don't you go enjoy part of the day like Graindart says. honestly, i'd be very HAPPY to have some time off work (as long as i'd be paid later!)

innerpeace - Wednesday Jan 02, 2019

Weight: 315.4

Received text from boss not to come to work...still furloughed.

B - yogurt

L/D - leftover peanut chicken with 1/2 cup of rice

S - granola cups

protein drink with PB powder

still drinking lots of liquid  no soda/pop

Feeling a little bummed about not working. I did ask my coworker who is to take down the Christmas tree, I surely don't want to deal with it when I finally do get to work.

Have a great night! IP

Progress as of today: 6.2 lbs lost so far, only 105.4 lbs to go!

Donkey on 01/02/2019:
Good idea about asking someone else to take down the Christmas tree at work.

Keep looking up. I continue to pray for your situation.

legcramps on 01/03/2019:
Our tree is so large, we need to have three maintenance workers do it. But I have to take down all the decorations on it, so that's going to suck for sure.

horn_of_plenty on 01/03/2019:
yeah, i'm SOOOO not pleased hearing about this government shutdown. on the same note, i do NOT think we should be paying for the Mexican wall...just because trump says so...

seems both democrats and republicans are not happy about the wall and payment discussions. but i think it's nuts that the government is furloughed now instead of reporting to work like the rest of the world! like, really!?

innerpeace - Tuesday Jan 01, 2019

Weight: 315.4

Happy New Year!

So...yesterday DH had a talk with the YA. The YA's intentions are good, however, we do have limitations. I am so upset that this YA (he will be 21 in February) will not go back to school - I also have three nephews who did not finish school and I've seen and continue to see what they DON'T do with their lives and how much hardship and heartbreak they do to my mother. With that being said, I have told the girl on numerous occasions that if she drops out of school, I don't even want her over at my house. I don't condone it. Education is everything. I told her she can see her dad whenever she wants, that they can go to dinner or lunch or anything, she just would not be welcome at the house. She's said she understands and works hard in school.

So with that ammunition DH told the YA that because we have told the girl that she wouldn't be allowed to stay here if she drops out of school, then what picture is that painting if we let him stay and he didn't finish school. He said he understood and wasn't mad. Which getting mad at DH was my worst fear as when I first moved up here he had not spoken to his dad in over a year. DH told him all the paperwork we had to show to get the house and told him he would have to do a rent to own or something that always doesn't turn out. In the end the YA understood and he said they would save as much as they could, it may not be a house but a mobile home on a lot somewhere. DH and I both agreed we would help him with a down payment if he found something he and the GF could afford. I was expecting fireworks, and I'm glad he didn't get mad.

B: yogurt

L: smoked salmon, ritz crackers

D: taco salad with turkey

I've told DH I was not eating sweets and when he comes back from getting the girl he hands me a cake pop! WTF is wrong with him. I get good intentions but complete sabotage...I gotta work with here!! And then I get mad and yell and then make him feel like an ass when all he does is love me...It's just a bite! Yeah well that bite is like crack cocaine to me.

Did a lot of major cleaning today and I am always amazed at how dirty and nasty two people can make a bathroom...just saying.

Have a great day!


Progress as of today: 6.2 lbs lost so far, only 105.4 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/01/2019:
Happy New Year to you too! I think the goals you help the girl with are great. School is everything. She can grow up and have a good job and support herself if she can continue to go to school and hopefully a little college too?

YA i guess will take your help...if you say you'd help him, i guess he appreciates it. i'm glad he didn't get mad about not coming to you. it makes sense what you said to him and the girl. i agree. he really should have finished school, especially if it makes a difference saying he did on job applications and i think you had written awhile ago that a lot of them require HS diploma.

your lunch sounds amazing. love smoked salmon! i bought some today too. is yours the kind that is shiny and thinly sliced. that's what i bought.

at least a cake pop is small. i'd like to have a coffee or decaf coffee with one of those.

have a great day!

innerpeace - Monday Dec 31, 2018

Weight: 0.0

Things have been okay but I only expect them to get worse as the new year rolls in.

Christmas Eve was nice the girl, the YA and his stinky GF were over. I think they had fun, we opened presents and played games. Oh and the two grand dogs were over and ran in and out of the house. I tolerate this.

Backstory - I lived alone for over 15 years. I had no problem living alone. I had a sister and three nephews who were all homeless at one point and time. They did not live with me. They have an extrovert lifestyle where they always need to be the center of attention and always be around people. This is not me. I would rather be alone. It has taken me half of my life to learn that this is OK. I am an introvert and I enjoy being alone, doing my thing.

So now...the YA has asked my DH if he could live with us for a few months...while they save money and buy a house. Are you freakin' kidding me. I...just NO. This is not going to work in my eyes. I had to show W2s and pay stubs for two consecutive years or longer to get a house. This YA does not have a pay check, he works for his mother who may or may not pay him and his stinky GF who gets SSI for something (she seems just fine to me). She gets about 750 a month plus 190 in food stamps. They will gladly pay one utility and offer up the food stamps if they can stay. WTF!! It's not a money thing, its a sanity thing plus with two dogs running in and out thay may or may not be potty trained. I just can't have this chaos, constant chatter and noise around me. And then to come home after work and see them laying around, doing nothing with dirty dishes in the sink would absolutely make me explode. This, this will have to be worked out...without either my DH or me feeling like a total ass with the outcome.

I didn't drive to Georgia to see my son, I just felt I couldn't make the trip by myself. The girl was going to drive down with me, but she can't help drive and I just didn't want to venture out on my own, for safety reasons. We may attempt this during spring break in March.

Still no word on my job. I have to go in Wednesday for 4 hours and shut things down, but I can't stay longer than four hours. This is worrisome. We have money in savings, however, I didn't want to use savings money for monthly bills. We will have to tighten down the budget until this bullsh!t is resolved with the 'wall'.

I have been snacking a lot, that's expected during the holidays, but I have been extremely stressed.

My team lost which blows.

My professional team lost also blows.

No if only I can lose as well!! haha.

DH made prime rib for Christmas dinner, mashed potatoes, sweett potato casserole, dinner rolls, green been casserole and brussel sprouts. It was all tasty.

Christmas DH and I had left overs.

Wednesday I get the girl, we go shopping and I made dinner, but I cannot remember what the hell I cooked. I also had chocoloate covered mini donuts - too many

Thursday - salisbury steak, mashed potatoes, gravy, brocoli - chex mix

Friday - pizza, chicken fingers, salad - there was mozzerella sticks, but I did not eat these

Saturday - we were out and ate at a sandwich shop - 1/2 Monte Cristo and 1/3 of my fries

Sunday - 1/2 Monte Cristo, pulled pork sandwich, chips and dip - too many

So now it is Monday the start of something constant:

B- maple cheerios

L: chex mix

D: Chinese Food - chicken and brocolli, rice, peanut chicken and whatever DH decides he will get.

We have also taken down all the Christmas decorations and moved the family room around for - exercise. The TV was moved to the top of the mantal, so we have lots of space now..

No plans for New Year's Eve - hope it comes in softly with the wind and rain.

Happy New Year to all of the DDer's. May this year bring you success, inspriation, motivation and continous loss.



Where is BearCountryGG - Did I miss something? Miss her.

graindart on 12/31/2018:
Would hate to be in your situation.

This is the start to a bad movie. The way this movie plays out is the people moving in never leave and never contribute anything except additional burden / anxiety. The ending to this movie is that the real owners finally just move away because they realize that the freeloaders will never leave.....

Thankfully a movie only lasts 2 hours. I'm guessing your real life house guests will be there a good deal longer.....

Donkey on 01/01/2019:
I echo the observations above ^^^. (Gains' analogy to a 2-hour movie made me chuckle.) First, yes, what Bear said, they would not be able to qualify for any mortgage, at least from what I see/know from my job, so BUYING a house isn't really in the cards for an endgoal. Second, while there may be good intentions going into such an arrangement, I see those "let's save money" intentions falling by the wayside quite rapidly and evolves into "we have extra money, let's spend it."

graindart on 01/01/2019:
After reading Donkey's note above, maybe there's a solution that would work for everyone. If you're pretty sure that them moving in is going to happen with or without your complete blessing, maybe you can convince your DH to set some requirements / boundaries that must be complied with prior to the move-in? I'm thinking they need to let you see a written plan of how much they intend to save and for how long of a time period. In writing. If they need $5k for a downpayment and are only planning on saving $200 per month, that'll take over 2 years to accomplish (much longer than my level of patience would last). If a written plan and time-table was reasonable and attainable, I'd push for all of the savings to be put in an account controlled by you & DH monthly so you knew that it was actually happening and also wasn't going to suddenly disappear.

I'm all for helping family / friends better themselves. But part of the process is setting realistic goals that are attainable over a reasonable time period. If they can't make up a simple written plan that includes savings and a defined time period, I guarantee they can't handle buying and maintaining a house of their own.

innerpeace - Friday Dec 21, 2018

Weight: 315.4

Interesting chain of events....

governement shut down - no AL, no visit to Georgia...I will sit in my office and can litterally do nothing....so I guess I'll just wait and see what happens. Having issues with the games politicians play, especially when it effects my work.

The girl and I went to Chipolte and took it home. I ate half my burrito bowl. I have the rest for lunch today.

The YA and his stinky GF (she did smell this day - I can't figure out if it's actaully her or the nasty damp, smokey smell on her clothes - the girl smells like this when I pick her up from her grandma's house most of the time), and they brought their two dogs. (A treeing hound dog - Daisy and a soft little dog - I forget what kind she is - Bambi). Steve ran around the house playing with them. The YA came to pick up some frozen pre-made hamburgers we had in the freezer. They stayed about 20 minutes and left.

DH gets home and we start going to bed about 11:30, however, sometime during the 20 minutes those other two dogs were in my house, one of them, decided to take a p!ss in the middle of my bed. I was so mad. DH and I then spent the next half hour changing sheets and cleaning. We have had Steve 5 years now and he has never peed on the bed...EVER!!

Should be a low key weekend, a few more shopping errands to run, but we are ready for the Christmas!

Have a great Friday...IP


Progress as of today: 6.2 lbs lost so far, only 105.4 lbs to go!

legcramps on 12/21/2018:
Ugh, that work situation sucks! But what really sucks is when you're all ready to hit the sack and you have to spend an extra 20 minutes cleaning; so sorry your night was spent in that way; I sure hope you let YA know - they shouldn't be allowed in the bedroom when they visit.

Donkey on 12/22/2018:
Not good all the way around.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/23/2018:
i have a couple stinky married friends. they do not wash their clothes until a month after wearing some of them. they wait till they go to visit their parents on Long Island (they live in NYC) and do all the laundry at the parent's house. LOL i could never...some of my friends once told them they thought they smelled and they were offended. so now we just hope they try to "work on it" sometimes they do sometimes they don't. so gross.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/23/2018:
i'm sure her entire mom's house wreaks. and i'm so sorry about Stevie, is he ok??

Donkey on 12/29/2018:
Thinking of you a lot lately, with the shutdown. I hope you are OK. (((hugs)))

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