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innerpeace - Tuesday Jan 21, 2020

Weight: 328.9

Got on the scale today, not impressed. I guess I will have to make more changes...like adding exercise but I so don't want to feel the pain this will surely cause.

I snack too much and my portion size is too big - I will get some measuring cups out.

We had a YMCA within five miles from our house, however, it was closed about two years before I moved up here. The closest YMCA is about 15 miles away and takes maybe 25-30 minutes to get there in good traffic longer if traffic is bad. We were members but I stopped because we never used the Y and everytime we wanted to, there were events going on and we couldn't use the pool (it was never free swim when we were there). Now, we are a member of Anytime Fitness and there is no pool and just enough room for the equipment...and it smells. And my anxiety is not good in this place....I will make a goal of getting in this gym by 2/15/20..until then I will do workout vidoes in my home.

I have vision insurance, however, I was told when making an appointment, I would get better deals wihtout using it. WTF? How does this work? Aggravated!

The girl wanted contact lenses. I told her maybe. However, she seems to have lost her earpods she got for Christmas already...not even a month and $229 down the drain. DH says, if she can't keep up with her earpods, she isn't getting contact lenses. It's really not the same, but I see his point. I have Credit Union rewards and was able to get a free pair of earpods from somewhere, however, these were not good enough (they didn't fit in her ears right - WTFE!) and she didn't want them, so DH uses them. Anyway, she was smart enough to talk her way into the more expense Apple earbuds, I told her she would lose them. No I won't..She made it a point to show me every other day she still had them, however, I guess something happened from Sunday afternoon until this morning because they are gone now, she said she will look again in her mom's car....but Oh well! I won't be buying anymore of these.

About our conversation yesterday - DH mentioned Sunday that we should not go anywhere on vacation and just stay home. Save money so we can go to Hawaii next spring and see my son. The girl said she wanted to go to Corpus Christi, TX to see the Selena museum. - not caring about this AT ALL. I don't mind staying home.

Anyway the girl called yesterday and said she didn't want to go on vacation, she did want to go to the Justin Bieber concert in Cleveland in August. I can't find tickets under $300, so I'm going to have to say NO to this as well, I don't care to see him and DH would be forced to go...just NO.

B: mixed berry oatmeal bake

S: sweet and salty peanut bar

L: leftover lentil sloppy joe, 2 clementines

D: spinach, artichoke something - DH said no more beans for a few days.

Are lentils...beans - bean like but lentil!

Work is crap today...it might as well be Monday.

Have a great night. IP

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 118.9 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/21/2020:
I agree about the contacs....she would have to be super careful with things before I would agree to those...

Horn_of_plenty on 01/21/2020:
i also agree about the contacts...maybe wait a little more on it.

in the subways metro transportation in nyc, they say they find ear buds on the tracks!

i eat big portions too...i have gotten into a bad habit of it more than ever this year.

Donkey on 01/22/2020:
Agree, agree, agree!

I get a cheaper price on dental if I don't go through insurance, which is good because I no longer have dental insurance. Because my eyes are so bad, it's expensive no matter what. I'm waiting until I need reading glasses before I get a new pair of glasses. I'm almost there.

Donkey on 01/22/2020:
About the gym: find a place that you like, that is convenient for you. Otherwise, you'll find every excuse not to stick with it.

This is not YOU you, but just speaking generally. Been there, done that.

happy-1 on 01/25/2020:
Apple ear pods? Holy moly!!!! The expensive hair products, the ear pods, no understanding of how credit cards work... She needs a financial makeover.

innerpeace - Monday Jan 20, 2020

Weight: 328.9

Monday  was a big fat bust - migraine all day - the falling snow was even too loud!  

I was alone the whole day and slept off and on.

B: mixed berry baked oatmeal 


D: sloppy joes made with lentils

DH spent all morning with the YA getting him a car. And the girl called to say she would rather go see Justin Bieber in concert than go on vacation- yeah uh whatever! 

Slept and slept 

tomorrow will be better

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 118.9 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/21/2020:
Justin Bieber??????? Seriously?????

Make her go on vacation. She can't get that time with her dad back.

Donkey on 01/21/2020:
It's too bad that your day off was consumed with a migraine.

If the girl doesn't go on vacation with you, is it just the two of you? Nothing wrong with that.

legcramps on 01/21/2020:
I hope that migraine is gone now!

innerpeace - Sunday Jan 19, 2020

Weight: 328.9

 Oh Sunday...you came now leave!

Up at 7:00 went back to sleep and got up at 8:30. 
DH left to pick up the girl to go to orchestra practice but then when she gets here she doesn't want to go so she just hangs out, I am doing laundry and both DH and the girl are lying around and playing on their phones and watching TV. I asked the to unload the dishwasher and they raise a big stink! WTF! I spend all morning washing clothes and you can't freaking unload the stupid dishwasher. After yelling the two of them finally unloaded it while I was folding clothes. 

she went back home about 6:00.

i cooked an eat loaf - made with cannolini and kidney beans, carrots, bell pepper, onions mushrooms and oats with lots of spices. It was actually pretty good with mashed potatoes, gravy and spinach. DH said he would even eat it again. 

B: toast and over night oafs

L: PB&J 

D: Eat loaf, mashed potatoes and spinach 

off tomorrow my do something maybe not it snowed all day and may just stay in.

have a good evening!

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 118.9 lbs to go!

legcramps on 01/20/2020:
Have a great day off today! I hope you get to relax a bit.

happy-1 on 01/20/2020:
Good for you for standing up for yourself... Didn't realize DH was complicit in not setting the pace in the house for his daughter to follow! Makes your job 1000% harder to maintain boundaries. It might be stronger if you talk to him and then he talks to her? BCG knows better though!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/20/2020:
eat loaf, thats cute :)...i may try it too :)

Donkey on 01/21/2020:
I am quite familiar with the reluctance of family members to contribute to housekeeping.

innerpeace - Saturday Jan 18, 2020

Weight: 328.9

 I probably would have slept later than I did but the puppy jumped on my head and woke me up. It snowed about 3-4 inches. It also rained most of the day. Cold wet snow!

DH and I got around about 10:30 and went grocery shopping. People in Ohio do not know how to say excuse me. This aggravates me. I was looking for something and had my cart there and this lady just tries to squeeze through. I see out of the corner of my eye and it's like she is trying to sneak by without being seen. I look up and move my cart - she could have gotten by sooner if she would have just said excuse me! Dumb ass! This happened two or three times the last time I just stood there waiting to see if they would say anything but they didn't. I just said to DH, 'baby please move the cart' he did they went by without even a thank you!

DH got KFC last night 

B: toast

L: Arby's 

D: salad

laundry and house cleaning tomorrow 

menu planning and meal prep!

have a great day! IP

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 118.9 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/18/2020:
What really ticks me off is when the store employees block the aisles while they load the shelves and then look at me like I don't have any right being in the aisle......I so want to tell them that they wouldn't have a store to work in if there weren't customers...but I don't....I remember the good old days when stock boys (WHICH WERE TEENAGERS)carried a small case of product out and always moved to let shoppers by.....Now they are adults with flat beds parking them across the aisle to keep us out....people!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/20/2020:
it snowed here saturday too....and we have some neighborhoods with extra rude people at the supermarkets too!!!!!...for real, certain neighborhoods.

innerpeace - Friday Jan 17, 2020

Weight: 328.9

I picked up the girl. She is a major drama llama, seems like she is always in the middle of something. She had to put together a vision board for her future. She posted things on it about being a music producer, this girl and music I swear she loves it so much. She also had that she wanted to take classes at the local community college and maybe before a nurse. This is news to me, but I am happy she is at least thinking about what she wants to do. She also had pictures of her family that included DH and me and the two dogs. I sometimes wonder why she doesn't have her mother and her cats and other dogs included, but I don't want to cause more drama. She wanted pizza. We ate pizza.

I told DH he can eat what he wants tonight, but I am starting back on the WFPB thing tomorrow. I told him I am cooking what I want and if he doesn't eat it, he can eat on his own. The girl too. He was OK with it.

With that being said I found a few good websites with great recipes - www.acoupleofcooks.com and verywellfit.com that has lots of WFPB recipes. I have got my meal plans ready for next week and will go shopping tomorrow...among other things.

DH told me the YA called, we haven't seen him since Christmas, he only calls when he wants or needs something. He asked if DH wanted to buy his tools because he needed cash to get a car. In the back of my head I'm thinking...he should have kept the car we sold him three years ago and I bet it would still be on the road, but no, he went and traded it in for something that was a POS and then traded that POS in on another POS and look where he is now!!! DH took the tools (that he originally purchased) and loaned the YA $500 to add to his down payment, and trade in of the current POS that doesn't run. Anyway, I get aggravated at this YA, because he won't take direction of anykind and just does what he wants to do and then he gets NO WHERE in life. He works for his step-father's sewer cleaning business and has not set work schedule and no set pay...and the mother and stepfather won't encourage school or else they would lose their laborer. Anyway, the whole bunch aggravates me to NO end.

And then my son texted and said he got a speeding ticket for a total of $157. I told him, he probably speeds everyday he was just mad he got caught. He told me he would speed more carefully.

B: Ezekiel bread with nasty cookie butter (I won't have this again - I scraped it off my toast)

S: nature valley sweet and salty bar

L: left over pizza, clementines

D: TBD DH is getting dinner

Have a few plans this weekend, but snow is coming in, so plans may be changed. And then a Breaking Bad Marathon comes on Sunday and I alrady know I will be all up in that!


Have a great weekend. IP

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 118.9 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/17/2020:
All I can say is KIDS>>>>>>>>

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/17/2020:

Donkey on 01/17/2020:
I wish I had cancel. Next season (6) of Better Call Saul will be the last. I'm waiting for season 4 to come to Netflix.

Donkey on 01/18/2020:
That should read "cable" not cancel. STUPID PHONE - I HATE posting on my phone.

innerpeace - Thursday Jan 16, 2020

Weight: 328.9

So I get home from work and I can't figure out what I want to eat...which in itself is never a good thing.

I decided to make me a bean and avocado sandwich. This would have been good, however, all of my avocados were bad. They sat on the counter a few days too long. So I had to scrap that idea.

I thought of a thousand things to do with my instapot, but still not ready to go there.

I decided on the cauliflower pizza in the freezer.

It was ok, not really what I wanted but it did it's job.

i sat and thought of all the things I wanted to do, needed to do but yet, somehow can't figure out how to motivate myself to get them accomplished.

B: French toast swirl toast

L: left over cauliflower pizza and then I bought not one but two pacakges of famous Amos mini cookies from the breakroom - i was hungry

S: clementines

D: nothing planned which is not good - but there is fried rice, lo main noodles I could heat up, but this is not really want I want.  Because of this  - I will have to go back to my menu planning to help me keep on track. I also need to decide if I want to stay on this WFPB thing which is hard because there is oil and milk in EVERYTHING it seems.

I have to get the girl tonight - I keep hoping one of these days she'll text and say she has something else she needs to do, but that doesn't happen.

I do believe my battle is never ending and I sometimes wonder - what's the point! But I will try again tomorrow.

Have a great day IP

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 118.9 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/16/2020:
There is something to the idea that at some point...you will be so motivated that it will be near impossible to stop you. The times I have lost the best...I was driven....criticism, temptation, nothing could stop me....I'm only a couple of weeks in this time and that feeling has licked in again.....( for me...keeping it off will probably be the biggest challenge)

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/17/2020:
you just reminded me, i have frozen cauliflower pizza crusts in my fridge...must use!!! next week!

innerpeace - Wednesday Jan 15, 2020

Weight: 328.9

Oh girls...getting old stinks.

The PCOS increases hair growth and the little razor contraption I use to get rid of this growth fell on the floor and one of the dogs used it as a chew toy. I cannot tell you how bad I need this tool...

I used this other thing I got for Christmas last year - The Flawless thing - OMG it hurt so bad. I was almost in tears, but I just could not go to work with a full on stubble so I endured this uncomfortable pain - this was yesterday.

After work I went and picked up the girl and told her I needed to stop to get a new shaver. She said, don't go to this Wal-mart they have bed bugs. WTF?? I also heard on the news that Cleveland was ranked #17 for bedbugs...this needs to be fixed....

So anyway we go to Drug Mart and I get the little shaver and head home.

I made the brocolli and chicken alfredo

B: toast with the cookie butter/hazelnut spread

S: nature valley sweet salty bar

L: left over brocolli alfredo, banana, clementine

D: TBD - I have no clue - probably great nortnern bean and alvocado sandwhiches because I have alvocados that are going bad.

I sure thought this was Thrusday - but NOT! 

I hope you have a great evening IP


Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 118.9 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/15/2020:
I didn't know you have PCOS...I had it too until I had them removed......well....that is painful...been there........I have resorted to the razor at times...and tweezers......unfortunately getting rid of the ovaries didn't help...because now I have no estrogen and that causes hair growth ( plus my french grandma gave me some hairy genes )Too bad we aren't in France...they love hair in France. I tried a dipilitory cream once and ended up with a bunch of scabs on my face...that was no fun either.

innerpeace on 01/15/2020:
The little flawless thing seems like it pulls the hair and it feels pinchy, if that makes since. It's not screaming pain, but it is uncomfortable and I'd rather not feel it...so I use this attachment that goes on DH's clippers. I guess it is a shaver. I guess I'm also glad that my hair is lighter in color. I usually can't go longer than two days without it. I often wonder if I ever get stuck in the hospital...in coma, would someone please shave my face before my beard grows.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/15/2020:
i def did NOT think i'd be reading more about bed bugs from you!!!!

bearcountrygg on 01/15/2020:
I hear you IP....I wonder if when I'm in my casket,...the conversation will be about my facial hair...LOL

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/16/2020:
oh....i'm one of those with lots of Peach fuzz...i wonder what will happen in the next couple decades for me too!

innerpeace - Tuesday Jan 14, 2020

Weight: 328.9

When I got home I immediately took the dogs for a walk at the same time. I maybe shouldn't have done this. Rocco was crazy pulling, he does this the first third of the way until he settles down. A good time was had by all. I might do this again if my feet are feeling better by the time I get home.

Weird that my feet hurt, I've never had foot pain before.

I made the beef stroganoff, and that left over steak made four servings of beef stroganoff, back in the day, I wouldn't have a problem eating that steak all by myself.

B: French toast toast

S: clementines

L: left over beef stroganoff, banana

D: TBD - the girl wanted chicken alfredo, I will make her this, I will find someting with the brocolli and cauiflower I have in there.

Not a fan of work today.

I have great day! IP


Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 118.9 lbs to go!

legcramps on 01/14/2020:
Ugh, i'm not a fan of work today either ;)

bearcountrygg on 01/14/2020:
They make leash/halter things for pulling dogs....if he stops that you will probably enjoy the walk better yourself......( they make the dog uncomfortable when it pulls....doesn't hurt them...but they don't like the sensation.)

innerpeace on 01/15/2020:
I had one of those for Steve and he chewed the connection strap off when it was left in his reach. I may look for one for Rocco, he's the one that does all the pulling.

happy-1 on 01/14/2020:
I used a front attach harness for my dog because she could just pull me along like a sled. It knocks their center of gravity off and makes it easy to just turn in a circle every time they start to pull. It took a couple of weeks, but it was the key step in getting her to walk next to me, sit at the door, and wait at curbs.

Foot pain could be loosening tendons, which without orthotics get looser over time. Worth getting checked out and a referral for PT or orthotics. For orthotics, I'd buy everything they have at Big 5, take them with me and have them tell you which ones you need and return the rest. Orthotics that are custom run $500 and wear out in 3-6 months.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/14/2020:
i also can eat a large volume of food (like you could in the old days with the steak!)...so lately i do what i have been doing all along ... LOTS of veggies and volume in my meals...it's helped a bit although i have started to gain weight overall from when it's NOT just veggies adding to the volume...like more bread/meats lately too when i have dinners with my folks on the weekends.

Donkey on 01/14/2020:
Are you wearing sneakers when you go walking? I'm guessing that your foot pain is due to a shoe issue - either not the right shoe or you need a new shoe.

innerpeace on 01/15/2020:
Yes sneakers...

innerpeace - Monday Jan 13, 2020

Weight: 328.9

DH and I were up early and went walking this morning. At first he was like...YOU really don't want to, just lay back down. I said, get up, it will be good for you. So we went walking. It wasn't so bad then, but I am feeling it in my feet and legs this morning sitting at my desk.

The dogs wanted to go so bad, I may just take them when I get home. They love to go places.

B: French toast toast

S: two clementines

L: Well Yes, broccoli and sweet potato soup, banana

D: beef stroganoff

Before the new year I applied for a mentorship program. I was accepted. Now I am at the stage to pick a mentor, however, I have talked myself out of being in the program and just sent an email to decline the acceptance. I just think I have to concentrate on my personal goals right now and not so much of my professional ones. I am not in a position that has any advancement opportunities so I can't see the benefit of having a mentor, especially when the mentors are all weather professionals. And then I'm thinking why would a weather professional give a crap about the career of the admin person. They want to mold young up and coming meteorologist. Anyway...that is that!

I think this will be a slow week at work.

Have a great eveing IP.



Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 118.9 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/13/2020:
I dunno... I think it would be fun to mentor someone seasoned with work experience. It would let me focus on passing along the most interesting part of what I do instead of the other 80% which is basic job stuff. Plus the person I mentored would be more serious about changing roles and more likely to continue. What's the difference between being a weather person and what you do? What additional training would you need to switch roles?

innerpeace on 01/13/2020:
I work at the weather service, 90% of the employees are meteorologist. I am the administrative assistant...I do not care to learn about weather. It doesn't interest me one bit.

bearcountrygg on 01/13/2020:
HE didn't want to walk and tried to pass it off on you...SUCH A MAN!!! LOL I love that well yes soup...way too easy!!!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/13/2020:
i was walking a lot on Saturday with my folks and i felt it Sunday. I tend to feel it also, on my left leg/ankle since it's weak and just never has been the same after breaking it. i get sore easily in my legs as well....but i'm glad you walked.

Donkey on 01/14/2020:
Good for you on walking!

innerpeace - Sunday Jan 12, 2020

Weight: 328.9

Another day of eating meat!

B: French toast toast


D: half of DH's ribeye, brocolli and Brussel sprouts.

He cooked me a steak but he cut his in half and we both ate it. There is a steak I'm supposed to use for beef stroganoff tomorrow...so meat again.

I told him after that...we are no more meat. We were doing so well...or I was.

Tomorrow though, he did say he would go walking with me, he even dug his hat and gloves out, so we will see if we can actually get up and do it.

Did 4 loads of laundry today and watched a lot of TV got hooked on some Crossword Puzzle mysteries.

I'm ready for Monday!

Have a great night IP

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 118.9 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/13/2020:
D and I often eat different meals now........you could go meatless and just eat the side dishes....but I can attest...it's not always easy resisting. Beef provides iron and there is that.....

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/13/2020:
the one good thing about living in my apt is i can do all my loads of laundry at one time by using most of the machines!!! hahaha i hope DH walks with you!

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