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innerpeace - Monday Apr 26, 2021

Weight: 290.2

I moved out of my house for three days and had the house heat treated again...it takes the longest time to put things back in place.

I don't know where they come from - DH doesn't wear his work clothes home, I have a brand new office that I have been in less than a dozen times in 7 months.

My guess - the girl brings them from her grandma's house. The YA had that house heat treated about two months after our first treatment so who TF knows.

I clean my house - I am almost obsessive about it and clutter does NOT live there...

We can't NOT let the girl go over there (that's where she visits her mother) and where she stays when she has in person school...OMG I just don't know.

At the office today - have things to do and a new guy reports tomorrow.

Eating just ok -

back after today!

Progress as of today: 47.7 lbs lost so far, only 80.2 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 04/26/2021:
where did you move? a hotel?

i'm sure that the grandma's house also needs anther treatment...maybe someone needs to make that happen, like your hubby request it.

i'm quite positive it's from her mother too.

innerpeace on 04/28/2021:
Yes...hotel after thorough inspection.

bearcountrygg on 04/26/2021:
That is such a shame that you have to put up with that.....We used to have foster children arrive with lice and crabs....but at least we could get them into the bathtub right away and use the delouse treatments....it happened more times than I want to even think about...but that was before bedbug days.....I know now days with bedbugs added to the infestations...foster parents are told to leave their bags outside for 3 days.....and then wash everything as it comes into the house.

Donkey on 04/27/2021:
I'm guessing you're right about the bed bugs coming from grandma's. Don't they notice that they have bug bites? Yick.... And what an untenable situation, because you're right: Girl cannot stop seeing grandma.

Hope the new guy works out :-)

Maria7 on 04/27/2021:
Bless your heart. Praying for you.

innerpeace - Tuesday Apr 20, 2021

Weight: 290.2

Nothing good! I swear I am at my breaking point! I just cannot take anymore of my luck.

BED BUGS!! I am beyond disgusted. What in the holy hell....We had this nightmare before and looks like I won the freakin' lottery again! Aren't I the lucky one!

I just can't deal with too much more.

This morning getting ready for work I was sitting on the comforter and looked out of the corner of my eye to see one walking across the top of the bed. Are you kidding me?? I was too afraid to lift up the mattress. I will wait for DH to get home so he can see them too. The girl said she might have seen eggs at the foot of her bed frame. Again DH can go in and look, I just cannot deal with it right this minute.

Snow in April...4 inches of snow in April. NO!

I made lasagna last night, it was just ok. I used the oven ready noodles - yeah, probably won't again, they seemed gummy and not cooked all the way, salad and garlic bread.

Blood sugar this a.m. 136

B: french toast bagel, vanilla iced coffee

L: left over lasagna

D: bratwurst and corn - more carbs life

Progress as of today: 47.7 lbs lost so far, only 80.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/20/2021:
UGH....The return of the bugs....Is the girl moving them around with her? Ugh to the snow too...we had some light flurries this morning too........That's spring in the midwest!

Jacky82020 on 04/20/2021:
Are they from that girl? Didn’t she have lice? Poor kid.

Maria7 on 04/20/2021:
So sorry you are going through this. I will be praying for you. Thank you for your prayers, too. Take care.

Donkey on 04/21/2021:
Oh my gosh, I think the return of the bed bugs topped with a day of significant snow would have sent me to the bottom of a bottle. How does this keep happening with the bed bugs? Is it something husband is bringing home with him? Is it the Girl? Is it something at your workplace?

horn_of_plenty on 04/21/2021:
what...not bed bugs again....HORRIBLE...i am very, very sorry....let us know what happens...

....maybe girl brought them from her mother's house!?!?!?!?

horn_of_plenty on 04/22/2021:
maybe anotehr reason for full custody if constant bed bug situations call for your money for extermination.

Maria7 on 04/23/2021:
Hope things are better and you are having a good day.

Donkey on 04/24/2021:
Thinking of you on the weekend. I hope you're hanging in there!

innerpeace - Monday Apr 19, 2021

Weight: 290.2

Weekend was tolerable - it was really ok - just personal things.

Walking and all of a sudden this smell comes over me and takes me back to places I'd rather not be...simple green! A neighbor around the block apparently was taking a bath in it - using it to wash his dirt bikes...and I was living in a tent in Saudi Arabia with sand in every crack and crevice of my body, not so pleasant.

I walked the dogs - twice a day as usual.

Washed clothes, walked the dogs, cooked dinner & baseball!

This Monday morning was filled with conference calls and meetings and was horrific...morning walk was late and shorter than usual, but it is done.

B: egg, cheese omelet with the sausage strips, vanilla iced latte

L: left over chicken

D: I think I'm making lasagna not certain yet

Here is a picture of some tulips (a different breed) but I've been waiting on them to open for a few days...Purple

Blood sugar this a.m. was 127 would like to get it down a bit lower for a week or so.

I haven't logged food in awhile but when I did this morning, I creeped back up into the bad habit category and had almost 700 calories for breakfast...damn iced vanilla latte!

Girl progressing with driving! Proud of her.

Have a great day! IP


Progress as of today: 47.7 lbs lost so far, only 80.2 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 04/19/2021:
your experiences are amazing. Your strength from those tough times in other countries while serving yours...have shaped you even more to who you are today. you are so impressive and you motivate me to be my best. <3 what a story!

it took me a LONG TIME to get into driving. longer than friends. maybe bc i didn't practice much with my parents? but also bc it sometimes takes me longer to get the hang of it. i'm so glad girl is doing well!

beautiful purple leaves.

Jacky82020 on 04/19/2021:
Gorgeous tulips! I have lots of similar colored rhododendrons that will blossom soon.

Donkey on 04/20/2021:
(((hugs))) I think that the sense of smell has the strongest ability to throw us back into the past. And it's not always a good thing.

innerpeace - Wednesday Apr 14, 2021

Weight: 290.2

Crazy work yesterday - when one office stops doing something for our region and it passes to someone different - makes for many different work plans and doing things over - guidelines and rules are different - but we're all the same organization so who knows...just frustrating.

Passed on the potatoes for dinner - had salisbury steak, brocolli and a salad. Took the doggos for a walk after dinner and then ate ice cream.

This will be stopped. My blood sugar the last two mornings have been 138 & 140....ice cream, bread and potatoes!!! ALL EVIL for JoAnn.

This morning I took the doggos on a longer walk...I think I like conference calls - especially when I only have to listen and not participate.

B: lemon and blueberry breakfast cake (I made this last night with blueberries that were going bad, turned out pretty good

L: left over pulled pork nachos

D: TBD - DH has chicken thawing, so I might do something with this

Here are somebody's tulips I stopped to take a picture of this a.m....just thought the were pretty.

Baseball again tonight - this is OK, DH goes to sleep at 7:30 and the girl is going to her grandma's...so no, NO I do not feel bad for watching/listening to baseball, especially after my two walks.

Have a great evening! IP

Progress as of today: 47.7 lbs lost so far, only 80.2 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 04/14/2021:
Wow! Gorgeous! Love the color.

Donkey on 04/15/2021:
Lovely picture! Tulips here are almost open - lots of buds.

Good luck with the blood sugar numbers. You can do it - you've done it before.

bearcountrygg on 04/15/2021:
Flowers are beautiful...these remind me of poppies.

Horn_of_plenty on 04/18/2021:
I hope you enjoyed your Wednesday night baseball :)

innerpeace - Tuesday Apr 13, 2021

Weight: 290.2

Weekend was nice...DH and I took the doggos out - Indian Hollow starting to green up!

Black River                                                                                                                                                Probably just weeds..

Saturday - yard work all day

Sunday - laundry day, walked the doggos, make pulled pork and potato salad for dinner

Monday - in the office most of the day...oh people

B: Amish breakfast casserole - (still not a fan of potatoes for breakfast) but the hashbrowns in the casserole weren't so bad - but still would leave them out, but sometimes you have to cook for others.

L: skipped (at work longer than anticipated)

S: graham crackers, strawberry cream cheese

D: chicken chili

Took the girl driving - she is doing ok - only scared me a little - needs work on left hand turns and parking - her first day of driving class is Thursday evening.

Tuesday - working from home - on - a few projects

B: vanilla iced coffee

L: TBD - maybe left over pulled pork - maybe left over chicken chili

D: salisbury steak, mashed potatoes, salad

No great relevations today...just hoping to get through the day ...and BASEBALL!

Have a great day IP

Progress as of today: 47.7 lbs lost so far, only 80.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 04/13/2021:
I'm quite envious that you have baseball to look forward to at the end of your day. I too am just "hoping to get through the day" -- which kind of sucks.

I've been driving for decades, and I still need to work on left-hand turns and parking - LOL!

Jacky82020 on 04/13/2021:
You have beautiful weeds in your neck of the woods!

horn_of_plenty on 04/14/2021:
Your photos are AMAZING! something about them demonstrates they couldn't be in Queens NY ...the width of the river, the height of the trees, the ground of the forest...even the weeds. def not Queens territory. I wish one day to walk by the Black River or similar nature views. really nice visuals here!

You must have made the pulled pork over many hours, maybe using a slow cooker?

GREAT menu, reading thru it, sounds perfect!!! Amish breakfast, nicely done! you've got the cooking skills!

innerpeace - Thursday Apr 08, 2021

Weight: 290.2

Went to the office yesterday - I can say for a fact - my dogs are better coworkers!

I may be getting caught up from my week away - just seems there were so many more emails than usual to answer and respond too.

$359 phone bill - I don't think so...had to call for line service at one of my sites!

Working from home this a.m. and had my mid-term performance review virtually...weird! I'm doing a 'great job'...this is good for me, now I'll go walk my co-workers.

Took a longer than usual morning walk - I was on a conference call listening so I was kinda working.

Ran across a photo that I couldn't pass up.

IN A BED OF DAFFODILS...BE A TULIP! - {Continue to be true to yourself HOP}

Also at work - Mike the flower guy told me to take my Orchid home but I forgot it...I will get it next time.

He also put Easter Lily's on the window shelf and I caught this one bloom.

Woke up wide awake with DH at 3:15 - laid in bed for over 45 minutes and then over slept this a.m.

Crazy weird dreams but slept very well.

B: yogurt, granola, vanilla iced latte

L: chips, saula, cheese

D: TBD  I was thinking of checking out a diner called The Foundry if DH is up to it.

I hope you all have a great evening! IP

Progress as of today: 47.7 lbs lost so far, only 80.2 lbs to go!

legcramps on 04/08/2021:
Enjoy the walk with your co-workers ;)

Maria7 on 04/08/2021:
Your pictures do so much for all of us. So beautiful. Love the saying of be a tulip among the daffodils!!! Yes, let your light shine! Had to laugh about walking your co-workers! BIG SMILE!!!

Jacky82020 on 04/08/2021:
Wow! Look at that tulip! Show off!

Took some daffodil pics for a Twitter buddy. Will post here. All over the property. No tulips.

KathyBlue on 04/10/2021:
Oh those flowers are beauties! Geez that phone bill sounds extraordinary! Thank god I don't have to deal with such amounts. It was easy to exceed limits when Internet was a dial-in service 20 years ago and they would charge per data usage. OMG those were crazy times, poor mum had to deal with the unexpected... I'm not proud of my teenager self!:D

Donkey on 04/10/2021:
We've been trying to get the Boss to get an Office Dog. I think it would help all of us cope better.

Donkey on 04/10/2021:
PS I wanted to comment on a previous entry where you said, "baseball is happiness" -- or something to that effect.

How wonderful it is to have something like your love of baseball to look forward to almost nearly every evening. I mean, wouldn't that be wonderful to look forward to at the end of a really bad day? "Well, at least there's a game tonight, and I plan to chill out and just watch the game." Ahhh....

Horn_of_plenty on 04/11/2021:
Hi InnerP! finally i'm reading your entry!

in general, dogs are easier to deal with than people! oh yea.

there's nothing better than getting a good review. i'm sure your dogs enjoyed their walk too.

thanks for the shout out! I appreciate your support. I hope my situation at work blows over by when i resume work on Tuesday since i'm off tomorrow...i'm not sure how it will be. i just know that i have a LOT of work to catch up on...

innerpeace - Tuesday Apr 06, 2021

Weight: 290.2

I just am...

vacation days - were restful

maintaining - no gain - no loss

being back to work and I am stressed and almost pulling my hair out...better days!

Better weather a big +

Baseball is back...happiness

Yard work ...meh

was in the office ALL day yesterday and left at 3:30 - took me 45 minutes to get home will have to get used to this if we ever go back to work.

The girl finally passed her drving exam and got her learning permit - I enrolled her in a driving class starts next Thursday.

Taking more self esteem; soul searching classes.

Blood sugar this a.m. 114

B: French toast bagel, vanilla ice latte

L: left over roast beef sandwich

D: chicken fried rice, vegetables; beef, brocolli and carrots

Still walking...almost broke a sweat this a.m.

Have a great day! IP

Progress as of today: 47.7 lbs lost so far, only 80.2 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 04/06/2021:
Wow, you are doing FANTASTIC!!! Smile! Sorry about the stress. We all deal with that, so don't feel alone. Hope you have a good day.

horn_of_plenty on 04/06/2021:
great Maintenance, InnerP! it means that you have "learned" what is required to keep your weight at this point and keep it down from where it was awhile back! congrats on success!

oh my, it took me awhile to become a decent driver! i'm glad girlie passed and is on to her next step, drivers ed!

bearcountrygg on 04/06/2021:
Glucose number is great!! You are doing well with the scales...Great job!

legcramps on 04/06/2021:
New driver's licenses are so exciting, aren't they?! Good for the girl. You seem to be doing very well; those classes for self-esteem and soul searching sound very interesting! Let us know how it goes!

Donkey on 04/07/2021:
Good for the girl - yay!!!!

Sounds like you're doing well, although way too stressed out, which I can completely commiserate with you. I'm sorry, I know that's not a good feeling :-(

innerpeace - Tuesday Mar 30, 2021

Weight: 290.2

Things are things are things...

off work this week - yesterday spent cleaning out the basement and taking extra stuff to the good will. A truck load full.

Today - well - I had my first appointment for the vaccine, but talking to the pharmacist...we talked myself out of it. She told me other patients who had covid had an adverse reaction to the vaccine and I just can't put myself through that again and the fact she kept saying...it isn't FDA approved...only for emergency use. I just couldn't. I didn't want to be sick again...not even a little, so I will just continue to keep my distance and wear my mask as I would have to do anyway. Sitting on the fence with this - I know not all will agree but it is a personal decision. I have worked myself into a sickness agonizing over this decision.

Planting some flowers today - hopefully they will bloom. May help DH replace some fence posts.

Wednesday - hair appointment and then we have the dinner reservation in the igloo.

Thursday - no real plans - bed shopping but I think the girl already changed her mind on this.

Friday - FO day.

Not been eating the best - will try again tomorrow.

Steady walking the doggos (twice a day - longer and longer)

Here are some spring daffodils for you to see!!


Have a great day! IP

Progress as of today: 47.7 lbs lost so far, only 80.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 03/30/2021:
Your daffodils are beautiful........We don't plan to get the shots either...6 years ago my Mom died 19 hours after getting a regular flu shot for age 65 and older.....They will have to hog tie us first.......I don't blame you t all.

horn_of_plenty on 03/30/2021:
the only reason i knew they were daffodils before reading your post is because my sister took her 2.5 yr old to the park and he kept saying "daffodils!!!" in a video...and i remembered they were yellow...lol...i'm the one who doesn't know these things, the baby is smarter than me!

every time lately that i take a day off, i feel like i am so happy to clean up my place too..not sure how so much stuff keeps piling up!

hopefully soon the FDA will approve it for regular use...at least you are taking your precautions <3 be safe <3

Maria7 on 03/30/2021:
Oh, my! What very beautiful daffodils!!! Such pretty yellow cheerful color! Didn't get to visit Mama inside today as she was too sick to be taken in wheel chair to the visitation room. So, I visited her at her window. Hope you have been having a good day today.

Donkey on 03/31/2021:
It's nice to have time off, and just be at home, living, with no travel agenda or anything like that.

Maria7 on 03/31/2021:
Hope you are having a good day. Smiles!

Maria7 on 04/01/2021:
Hope you are having a good day. Still enjoying these pretty photos of the daffodils! Take care.

innerpeace - Thursday Mar 25, 2021

Weight: 290.2

Frustrated with DH - he is still pain free - and he flat admitted he wasn't doing things around the house or pushing himself at home because he doesn't want the pain to come back...OK fine, but you'll do all you can for WORK! aggravating! Yesterday he was home at 10:00 a.m. took an 1.5 hour nap, ate dinner, and went to bed before 7:00 p.m. because he was tired...poor, poor thing! I know he works hard, but..oh well.

My taste buds are out of whack...I used to love peanut butter - now, it's like all I can taste is the metallic or metal equipment used to process the peanut butter. I don't even taste peanuts anymore...so, so sad. I have just had a taste for salsa...I never paticularly cared fot it, but now I want it every day.

COVID or age...who knows.

Went to the office for a little while this a.m. people irritate me more and more, so unless they want me to turn into a hermit, they better hurry and make decisions about going back to work or NOT...because everyone is shoving that stupid vaccination card in my face!..


B: yogurt, granola, vanilla iced latte

L: chicken nachos

D: hotdogs


B: yogurt, granola, vanilla iced latte

L: egg, sausage, on everything brioche bun

D: italian chicken pasta, salad


B: French toast, bacon, vanilla iced latte

L: skipped

D: meat loaf, brussel sprouts, mashed potatoes

The girl is home...

The wind is coming....

Progress as of today: 47.7 lbs lost so far, only 80.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 03/25/2021:
Your meals all sound delish!! We have had the wind too......spring has spring in the midwest!

Horn_of_plenty on 03/25/2021:
yes, the meatloaf with brussels and mashed potatoes sounds GREAT! so does the egg/sausage on a brioche bun...and french toast! someone has cooking SKILLS!

work pays the bills.

i'm myself having a lot of leg issues this week...aside from work, i'm not doing any extra exertion with them :( i even cancelled my volunteering...and decided to go to work tomorrow instead of taking the day off (boss said he'd still pay me for that vacation day....so he doesn't realize i'm not taking tomorrow bc i'm no longer volunteering on the weekend and therefore i can do more work on the weekend. he might think i'm totally working for him...only...yea right!)

but work movement with your hubby pays the bills...if he got paid to do his work at home...oh, he'd be moving, maybe...but we all need our rest too. the struggle!

Donkey on 03/26/2021:
I'm guessing, from what I went through with my husband, that your husband is so tired because he has sleep apnea and isn't getting quality sleep. My husband didn't even know how tired he was until he got his CPAP machine.

innerpeace on 03/30/2021:
Yes...I made him made another appointment with is PCP to get another sleep test scheduled. I will make him follow through this time!

Maria7 on 03/29/2021:
Hope you are having a good day today.

Maria7 on 03/30/2021:
Thank you for your comment to me on my entry. I hope you are doing well and have a wonderful day today. Take care.

innerpeace - Tuesday Mar 23, 2021

Weight: 290.2

Monday - had trouble sleeping, go to bed DH is snoring so loud and then the alarm goes off. I think I got good sleep from 3:15 until 5:30.

Put on a pot of stew - probably last time for awhile. I don't like stew & chili in the summer makes me hotter than I usually already am.

Walked the doggos


B: bagel; vanilla iced coffee

L: chicken breast, left over french bread

D: stew

walked the doggos again - on the way home found some more hope!! Not sure what these are but they were so pretty poking out of the leaves and mulch.

And then someone else is sure in the Easter spirit.

So colorful and joyful.

Will be on spring break vacation next week - not really going anywhere but being away from work will be refreshing.

Girl's school schedule is wonky this week - she is going tomorrow & Thursday so going to grandma's house today. She will be changing school districts at the end of this year, so all this traveling back and forth will be different. Looking forward to this day!

B: bagel, vanilla iced latte

L: chicken nachos

D: DH said hotdogs, not sure or left over stew

Have a great day...IP

Progress as of today: 47.7 lbs lost so far, only 80.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 03/23/2021:
I love how that beauty just pokes out from that pile of brown leaves......nature is amazing!!! That could just be he easiest Easter egg hunt ever...>LOL

bearcountrygg on 03/23/2021:
Kinda looks like the bunny tripped...LOL...colorful!

Jacky82020 on 03/23/2021:
Such lovely photos, as always. You have a talent for photography.

Horn_of_plenty on 03/23/2021:
LOVE the easter spirit photos.

seems we have some similar aspects to our jobs now, with having to work with multiple people to get things passed thru...and waiting on the other team members.

oh wow a change in school districts. what grade in HS will she be in now, i forget? 11th next year??

next, stew sounds good at the ending of winter and starting of Spring before it gets HOT HOT HOT! :)

Donkey on 03/24/2021:
Has your husband considered seeing a sleep doctor? Seriously, it sounds like he has apnea, which is not something to take lightly.

innerpeace on 03/24/2021:
You know men...he had a sleep center appointment but didn't follow through. He's deaf too and would rather I yell the same thing five times than ruin his self image and wear a hearing aid...I've told him he quits breathing at night, but again I can only lead the horse to water....

Maria7 on 03/24/2021:
What beautiful flowers and pretty, colorful eggs! Thanks for sharing. I always enjoy your nice photos that you share with us! Hope you are doing well today and have been having a good day. Take care.

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