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innerpeace - Friday May 18, 2018

Weight: 315.0

I have just been so incredibly busy at work I haven't made time to journal. But this is a good thing as food has been the last thing on my mind! And then at work I have immersed myself into the yard and planting flowers, again not thinking about food.

I have had two interviews from the DHS people in Oklahoma about my mother and her 'fostering' the great grand kids...still a stupid stiuation and right now I am glad to be in Ohio.

The YA gave me a phone case for mother's day, was totally not expecting it. The girl gave me a clock and baloon, and my son called from Georgia, so I had a great day on mother's Day.

DH smoked some chicken.

I have been eating well and cut down a lot on cheese and sweets, so I am feeling better as well.

DH was switched at work so we have had the girl two weekends in a row, and I don't have anything planned for this week, so we are playing it by hear.

Have a great weekend and only 23 more day suntil the inspection and I should be back on her pretty regularly from the day as usual.  IP

Progress as of today: 6.6 lbs lost so far, only 105 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 05/18/2018:
Sounds like you have had a lot of good days there IP.....You threw me there when you said your DH smoked some chicken...LOL...for a minute there I thought he had a new smoking habit...LOL

Horn_of_plenty on 05/18/2018:
I am surprised they called you about your mother but i will say that many times that's how law enforcement goes with always reaching out to family even before friends i think..

I am glad you were celebrated on Mother's Day because you know how special you are...at least i always tell you that!

Nice to have an inspection countdown and realize that it will end :)

horn_of_plenty on 05/23/2018:
passing by to say hi and happy memorial day weekend to come!

innerpeace - Thursday May 10, 2018

Weight: 316.0

Wednesday -

Breakfast: raisin bran, milk (out of bananas)

Lunch: left over turkey burger, egg noodles and mushroom gravy (all in all about 1/2 of serving of everything)

Dinner: smoked chicken breast with 1 Tbsp of home made ranch dressing (with low fat sour cream - no mayo)

Snack: baby carrots and home made ranch dressing - two crumpets with 2 Tbsp of peanut butter 

Total calories - 1319

Thursday morning - way overslept - DH was up and out of the house by 5:30 and I just turned off snooze and all and didn't wake up until 6:30 - ack! this was cutting it way too close and I didn't get to shower. I feel icky.

Breakfast: two crumpets with 2Tbsp of peanut butter and I had an iced coffee - I just couldn't get around to even function.

I made it to work exactly 8:00

Lunch: left over smoked chicken, tomatos orange

Dinner: I will have to figure out something. Supposed to be fish, but I don't think I bought enough.

I shreeded six bags of time cards from 1998 and have moved lots of stuff in my office. My office is safety inspection ready!

My leave day was approved for tomorrow so I will have a three day weekend. We were going on a scavenger hunt, but I waited to long to register us and it was filled out, now we are going on an AVA walk in nearby Kent and this depends on the weather.

We have a baseball game tomorrow night, again weather dependent.

Have a great weekend! IP


Progress as of today: 5.6 lbs lost so far, only 106 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 05/10/2018:
LOVE crumpets...don't see them much around here anymore.

horn_of_plenty on 05/10/2018:
nice to see you even making your own dressing!

always great to clean up and get rid of unnecessary papers at the office!

Horn_of_plenty on 05/14/2018:
How are you doing today, IP!? :-)

happy-1 on 05/14/2018:
We miss you!

innerpeace - Wednesday May 09, 2018

Weight: 316.0

Tuesday - busy at work

Breakfast: raisin bran, 2% milk, banana

Lunch: left over smoked tilapia, roasted corn, lettuce, tomoato, salsa, sour cream

Snack: apple

Dinner: 6 oz. grilled turkey burger, green beans, 3/4 cup egg noodles with mushroom gravy

Snack: small bowl of cereal

ended the night with 1388 calories

The girl was over - I was jabbing DH about not putting an orange in my lunch, instead he put an apple. I said when I'm not eating food as much, I want the food I want. You make me be mean to you, and you know I get cranky when I don't eat the food I want to eat. He says he knows and he was sorry. This was all in fun.

The girl asks what are you going to eat on Friday (another baseball game) I told her water, diet pop and pop corn - we will eat before we go what is pallned. She says...remind me to stay far away from you this weekend. I told her she can eat what she wants and she replies...no I'll eat with you. She's so sweet sometimes.

BUT...today...I still dont' have an orange!

I had to text DH and ask 'where the bleep is my orange?" you have an orange and you have an apple, but I can't even get a freakin' orange, why won't you let me have an orange?  Now I'm kinda mad because we have a break room and you know how that temptation may or maynot start calling my name....praying for some will power here. I do have carrots and dip so I will make it through the afternoon.

I asked for a vacation day Friday...I just really want to enjoy the day with DH, but it is supposed to rain, of course.

Over all another successful day. Next week will work on the water intake.

Have a great night! IP


Progress as of today: 5.6 lbs lost so far, only 106 lbs to go!

graindart on 05/09/2018:
Good job and hopefully you can avoid the breakroom temptations. Good idea planning ahead on the baseball game eats. It's when I don't have a plan that I'm most likely to fall off the wagon.

bearcountrygg on 05/09/2018:
That's cute how your daughter wants to help too.

Donkey on 05/09/2018:
I hope you were able to stay strong without the orange.

horn_of_plenty on 05/10/2018:
if you want that orange that badly, tell him so and expect no less is what i'd say...lol...

really though, yesterday i was talking to a friend/coworker on the train home and she was saying how people treat you how you let them treat you...he obviously didn't get your message.

i hope my advice isn't too harsh!?

also, girlie sounds so sweet.

innerpeace - Monday May 07, 2018

Weight: 317.7

The end of the binge!

Friday was busy all day in the morning, doing the cleaning, but we didn't get finished. I spent the afternoon getting the training done.

Saturday I woke up with a headache, thinking it had something to do with the weather, but I did manage to go shopping for the new eating plan we started on Sunday.

Sunday I woke up and did the cleaning and laundry and then I ventured out to do shopping for the rest of the week. It's amazing when you only get fruits and vegetables, how much less money I spent.

Anyway - Sunday was the first day of success.

Breakfast: Raisin Bran, milk, banana

Lunch: crumpets with 2 Tbsps of peanut butter (it's amazing what measuring amounts does for portion control)

Dinner: baked chicken, boiled potatoes and brocolli, strawberries

total for the day was about 1200 calories. I did start to get hungry before bed, but....I went to bed hungry. And I slept very well.

Monday: up and weigh in at 317.7 - My hand are still swollen but not as much - so this is good.

Breakfast: same breakfast

Lunch: boiled egg, one piece of toast, apple

Dinner: DH smoked some aweful fish for fish tacos. I had found some small street taco, taco shells and we had fish tacos (the best ever) with a little sour cream, grilled corn on the cob, lettuce, tomatos and salsa, this was the best thing ever. An orange for dessert.

Total calores for a successful day 2 - 1206

One day at a time people!!

I found out today I will be in Silver Spring, Maryland the last week in August for training. I'm always happy to travel on other's peoples' dimes. Never been to Maryland so looking forward to this trip...not the training though.

We finished up the storage room and I can't believe how much my boss let us throw away. And then I wonder why it wasn't done in the past...but it is done. It must stay this way for another 6 weeks for the inspection and then we are supposed to move offices in the next year....we will see.

Thank you all again, for your support and encouragement during my rough patch I'm going through. It is so very appreciated.

Progress as of today: 3.9 lbs lost so far, only 107.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 05/07/2018:
YIPPEE.....Way to go!!!! GREAT JOB!!!

horn_of_plenty on 05/08/2018:
i also would like to travel on other people's dime...as long as there's some time i can spend doing exercise lol or walking...?? or sightseeing the area???

i hope training isn't too much a pain in the booty.

i am also traveling for free, just need to leave a tip and pay for my own gas...but most of the actual food and room will be free, this weekend. going to an educational seminar a couple hours out east on Long Island :) it was a volunteer course and like i said, basically a free getaway :) i took Friday / Monday off to give myself some wiggle room and make it more a fun adventure than stressful addition to a weekend :)

horn_of_plenty on 05/08/2018:
and yes, one day at a time - what i'm doing also!

horn_of_plenty on 05/09/2018:
PS - you don't ever have to worry about losing support from the DD community! :)

innerpeace - Thursday May 03, 2018

Weight: 321.7

Thank you all for your continued support.

Hopefully this was my last day of super busyness at work - my office was hosting a conference in Cleveland and working behind the scenes to put the programs together and cater to guests was just a bear.

Tomorrow my boss is taking a vacation day and a few of us are cleaning out this store room - like dumping lots of stuff - I told my boss, but he doesn't know the half of what I'm tossing. This is in preparation of the safety inspection next month. Our headquarters tried to get us out of it, since we are 'supposed' to be moving offices in February - March 2019 - right...we've been trying to move ever since I came to this office which will be three years in October.

I have two more classes to finish for the contracting representative program - hopefully I will have these finished over the weekend. It is on web-based so I can get that done, when I'm home alone for a few days.

Seriously talked to DH about the weight loss thing. He is on-board today and will be enthusiastic about it for a week, the trick is to not give in to temptations. I guess we will work one day at a time.

Have a great evening and again, thank you all for your kind words and point of views - I really appreciate it more than you could ever know. IP

Progress as of today: -0.1 lbs lost so far, only 111.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 05/03/2018:
Good thing...now your hubby is ready to work on it too....Good news!

horn_of_plenty on 05/04/2018:
Hello IP! What are you!? a Creative Writer!? Great first paragraph up there :)

Good luck tomorrow with your "Spring Cleaning!"

and good luck doing the online programs at home!...sounds like you are almost done, lady!

It will be helpful if DH is on board. And i'm sure Girlie will not complain :) if she does, i wouldn't give in or serve her anything different. you don't really have to change anything, just try to skip out on some of the sweets. a suggestion is to buy tons of fruit and eat it, often, instead!!With the fruit, you can go as far as eating 4-5 pieces a day between meals right now, if you wished!...along with other snacks, too. just to get yourself off the candy, this would be my suggestion..

We love having you here and hearing about all your creativity and activities you do!

Take care for now, IP!

innerpeace - Wednesday May 02, 2018

Weight: 321.7

I may be back. I quit posting because I had nothing good to say, I wasn't sticking to a program or counting calories or doing anything positive. I was and still am super busy at work and I always have drama in my life somewhere.

It is hard to stick to any plan because I love sugar, I love sweet stuff and I love food. I have all the tools available to me/for me to use but choose not to use them. I don't want to be uncomfortable in the least and I'm lazy. All of those together make a lethal combination. Oh, and I lie to others (this DD and my VA telehealth coach). I have gained so much weight in the past month, it is just not even real. I posted the real number today, it was as high as 326.5 and I kept blaming that on water because my feet and hands were swollen, but after mowing the yard last night and walking, this 321.7 is what I woke up with and I'm ready to face the music. I just ask myself, how I just keep doing this to myself? I get no true answer, just the fact that I'm lazy and would rather have a donut than walk around the block.

Work has been tough the last three weeks and this month of May will be horrible with the safety inspection coming up the first week in June. I have been training in a program for a contracting representative, which is something I don't have time for but volunteered to do...and then I have family drama back in Oklahoma that concerns me because my mother is stressed out and feels she has to fix it all.

In short my nephew's three kids were taken by DHS because his wife tested positive for meth whling giving birth to their fourth child. The wife swears up and down that she wasn't doing drugs (and they don't have a history of doing drugs) that she was just taking cold medicine - sudafed and unisom to help her sleep. After both of them testing negative (urine test) DHS still kept the kids away. The oldest -14 is in a foster home, the second 13 was so traumatized from being ripped away from his family he is in a mental health facility and then my mom said she doesn't even know where the 3 year old is and the new born - (who by the way is not even having the chance to bond with her mother - and prison inmates get this right). DHS told my mother that she was too old to take them - which then you have to ask yourself...really, how many other grandmothers are raising their grand kids these days?  - Anyway it's a big mess, my nephew has been taking anger management classes because DHS thinks he could 'hurt the babies' when he has never hurt the two older kids in 14 years...and never had a record of doing so. So instead of the kids staying with their dad and continuing to be home and going to school, DHS thinks it's best they stay away from t he home.

This whole entire scenario has my mother writing letters to judges and DHS and anyone else she can think of to make a point that DHS is NOT helping this situation.

And then I start thinking, how if this was a well to do family how nothing would ever be questioned - my family does not have a history of doing drugs and it is very daunting that they have so much power to disrupt peoples' lives.

So...in jest work sucks, life sucks and adding weight loss suckage to the pile just really isn't where I want to be right now.

But I'm at work and I will make the best of this day with my morbidly obese self.

On a lighter notet after all of this drama, I did talk to my son in Georgia and he was at the gym when I called. I couldn't be more prouder of this young man!

Have a great day!

Progress as of today: -0.1 lbs lost so far, only 111.7 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 05/02/2018:
It sounds as though you have been up against a lot of obstacles lately. However, you are FAR from lazy, lady! You are passionate about life and successful in so many things that you do! So quit being so negative about yourself and keep your head up. You have SO MUCH to be proud of. You are the rock that holds your part of the family (hubby and girlie) together...be so proud of yourself.

you do not have to give up on the weightloss. i am sure you have learned so much so far. so you like sweets? eat them! just eat them after you are full, then you will not want as much. find substitutes that are lighter and mix and match...have some heavy things and some light. you are able to do this. you aren't a liar. we are all struggling here at times. we gain, we lose, we always learn.

all because you do not feel good right now about things, doesn't mean we want you to leave or that we will not continue to encourage you.

you have a lot on your plate but you are successful. despite work stress, you do well at what you do! in terms of tasks, maybe next time do not take on the volunteer thing that you aren't enjoying. even if possible, leave that group if you despise it? you can say you have a conflict? or that you want to concentrate on another work matter right now as that is priority compared to this group you joined....just a suggestion.

i am so sorry to hear what the DHS did to the family...remember you cannot fix everything...i am so so sorry. i think it's worst on the kids that are affected with school and such.

Just give some love to your own self. remember that you matter. sometimes you forget to take care of yourself bc you are so loving and concerned with those around you. Your hubby will prob have to eat better if you do - so you can all eat the same things together. you can do this. you've learned a lot...maybe try out eating only fruit for sweets...and everything else the same.

what works for me is making one change, sticking with it for a month. then making another change. you are young, you have your whole life to continue to improve on yourself. start again, it's ok!!!!!!!

innerpeace on 05/02/2018:
thank you!

graindart on 05/02/2018:
Like HOP said, pick one thing and do it for a month. If you have a smartphone, my suggestion would be to load an app that allows you to track food intake. Track every single thing you eat for a month in the app. After that 1st month, you'll be used to logging your intake and can make another change for that next month.

horn_of_plenty on 05/02/2018:
you know, the above suggestion from Mr. GAINS as I call him is GREAT!

maybe make no change, except to tally / log everything you eat. just do it for a month. write down everything and anything you eat drink when you do. Just the time, and when you ate it...sort of like i do in my entries.

after a month, or even two weeks, go back and read it...see if things stand out. if you can make a change in the pattern.

so don't change yourself, just look at what is going on that you may be forgetting about now :)

keep on, we love you here!!!!

bearcountrygg on 05/02/2018:
We need you....you need us....please keep posting I love to read your posts......I know how it is to want the goodies...I know how it is to feel like I don't have any control when it comes to them....but we both know that we do not want to get any bigger...right? We know the misery of that.....we can improve.....we just have to keep working at it...in small amounts....you can do it...we want you here and we want you to be healthy. On the family crisis.....I know from being a foster parent...that the main goal of DHS is reunification between parents and children....but the government moves very slowly....this most likely will not be fixed quickly....but...the faster the parents do whatever the court and the social workers tell them...the quicker they will be reunited with their children...they MUST set up visits and be on time...they must show good will...being angry with the social workers will work against them.....I'm hoping that they put their anger aside...and do what needs to be done as fast as possible.....and see the kids as much as they are allowed...following the rules will go a long way in reassuring the social workers and judge......I'm sure you mom is beside herself.....the whole situation is sad.

happy-1 on 05/02/2018:
You don't have to only post when you have something good to say. We're here for the hills and the valleys. That's what a supportive community is about.

happy-1 on 05/02/2018:
Plus, I have to say I need you too. I get such a boost when you comment on my posts. It helps me get back on track.

happy-1 on 05/02/2018:
I like Gains' thing too. I am doing it on a worksheet I made in google aheets and printed out so I can keep it in my purse and have the emotional satisfaction of crossing it out in a green marker.

happy-1 on 05/02/2018:
But I think all of us have stuff that is too dark to post here. I have days where I just cry and can't do much of anything... I watched 11.22.63 a week or so ago and realized that I have spent the last four years in emotional turmoil due to a guy that wasn't worth spitting on if he was on fire and I don't post about why because it is still too horrible to even write about. I look at posting here as part of a self care ritual that helps me put pieces back together so that I can keep going on even when I don't feel like I can go on. Even if trying to keep daily posting here seems frivolous and ineffectual, like it takes too much time to do vs the reward, and the scale isn't moving... That tiny little bit of self care makes me feel a tiny bit better, so I can do the next thing and the next thing until I dig myself out. It's what I do when I feel paralyzed and I can't breathe or think, and I just feel trapped. It loosens up the bonds I am holding myself in and then my brain works again. Between this forum and DA, I feel like there is a very unique value to sharing with people who I am not paying and aren't part of of any monetary / survival structure... It's not a replacement for professional help (psych, training, nutrition, career, etc.)... it's just a different place and space to do it and I think helps me get better value from the professional services I pay for.

happy-1 on 05/02/2018:
As far as lying to us, I wouldn't beat yourself up too badly. Everyone here is a flawed narrator / flawed hero. Being better and happier is a hard and scary thing to do. It requires an awful lot of self examination and reality and the more difficult the starting point the longer it takes. I would say create a total vision for your life and yourself... even make a vision board... then you know where you want to go and it is easier to stay on the path to get there. I lie when I'm nervous or socially awkward. I tell fish stories and tall tales. It is a terrible character trait and I wish I didn't do it... and I feel you. I wish for myself evolution so that I never feel that scary spinny feeling that makes me lie like an involuntary reflex.

happy-1 on 05/02/2018:
As far as being lazy, having all the tools, and just choosing not to use them... I have to say that I know that feeling too. I have always had all the tools available to me and done the same. I have always beaten myself up about it. I have always gone for the pizza and not taken a walk around the block. I have always wasted all the potential for happiness and actual happiness that life has given me. And the more I beat myself up, the more I waste... And I have to stop beating myself up about it. It's hard because the tape in my head tells me all the same things yours tells you... and listening to it makes it come true. The worksheets I make are really helping with this... because I can "score" myself... and surprisingly my scores are always higher than I expect or think in that moment. I have a weekly worksheet for each area that I am trying to work on in my life... I use pencil and red/green markers to track my progress. And then I can't beat myself up, because I can see what I did and why/how. And then I don't know what to do with myself, or what to say to anyone for like the next hour. Because I should be sitting there spinning and all I can do is what is in front of me. Sometimes that's my nails, but mostly it's petting my dog... and that's never a waste.

Donkey on 05/02/2018:
I can't think of anything better or more to say than what has already been offered by these fabulous DD-ers. Sometimes it can be difficult to admit things to others, much less to ourselves.

innerpeace - Monday Apr 16, 2018

Weight: 303.7

Friday we did get to the baseball game, however in the middle of the 4th inning this horrific cold wind started blowing and the temperature dropped 45 degrees in five minutes. We couldn't stand the cold, so we opted to leave early...good think my Tribe lost.

Saturday monring we were up early and made it to a nice hike. We enjoyed the park, not a lot blooming yet, but that will change. Saturday afternoon we went to a sea glass planter class at the library. Had a fun time. We were close to the Hispanic food shop so DH wanted Hispanic food again. It is ok.

Sunday was up and did laundry, DH and the girl went shopping. Did pretty good with eating, did not over eat.

DH is off Wednesday and Thursday this week and we should make it back to the gym...hopeful.

Have a great evening! IP


Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/16/2018:
Saw the pics on FB...looked like you had fun!

horn_of_plenty on 04/17/2018:
WOW...the temps dropped a full 45 degrees! that's nuts! i'd have DEFINITELY left also!

Such fun weekend activities. Wish i lived by you...i could hike with you then! and the glass planting class sounds fun too.

Are you still doing no dairy...i'm guessing it's made a return or you would have written that you had no dairy still...

have a wonderful day :)

Horn_of_plenty on 04/22/2018:
Where are you at, IP!?

innerpeace - Thursday Apr 12, 2018

Weight: 303.7

Train of thought....

Two weeks ago I told the girl that we were going through our closets and getting rid of clothes that we no longer wear, can't wear or don't like anymore. She said ok.

This morning on the way to work I was thinking about all the clothes I have and should get rid of, but for some reason I hold on to. For instance there is a short sleeve white top with teal and black flowers and designs all over and has a little silver circle sewed into the center, that I just love. I bought this shirt and only wore it to my step-father's funeral, I never wore it again.

the funeral was on Friday and my friend at work wasn't there because she had stayed back to work for me to turn in time cards. Oh and DH has a payday Friday and I still have monthly bills to pay and damn, I sure miss my step-father. I have lots of clothes that I won't get rid of because I like them regardless if I don't wear them (and some I can still wear). I must have a wire lose somewhere.

I get home and cook dinner. I made grilled porkchops and mashed sweat potatoes, this was just ok. The pork just wasn't what i really wanted.


Have a great day!

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

trishpiglet3 on 04/12/2018:
Clothes hold memories. I've found I tend to hold those that hold good memories, even if they don't fit.

bearcountrygg on 04/12/2018:
I get the same way about getting rid of things with memories....I get it.

Maria7 on 04/12/2018:
It is liberating to free up space in your closet. Deciding what goes is another deal. :-)

happy-1 on 04/12/2018:
I like to take photos of things so I can remember the memories associated, but sometimes there is something sensory about them... so I keep the item or a piece of it.

Donkey on 04/12/2018:
Happy has some good insight there ^

horn_of_plenty on 04/13/2018:
I also save TONS of clothes that i do not wear. I am eager to throw them out at the same time - but some i just like....just like you. It's not really a memory thing like Happy, but i just like to have the clothes as an option. just a few are memory items. most i just have trouble parting with - but plan to do more cleaning maybe Sunday! My closets are too full and everything wrinkles.

innerpeace - Tuesday Apr 10, 2018

Weight: 303.7

I have taken so much from all of your journals and entries, and I think the difference in mine is I fail to set measurable and realistic goals. When I think I'm doing good for a month I slowly and steadily revert back to all my old habits and bad decision making.

I have had so many conversations with my DH about this, I have a happy life, some drama now and again, but I am genuinely happy with my life and my job and everything, so I am somewhat aggravated as to why weight loss aludes me and why I cannot stick to a goal or plan or life style for any amount of time. I think because way down deep in side I really don't care. The only thing I think about is having to stop wearing my black sweater at work when it finally warms up around here...Not if, but when because it will eventually happen and then all my fat that my nice black sweater covers up will be splayed out for all to see. Now don't get me wrong, It's not like I'm hiding it, because can you ever really hide fat? No.

I had a manager once say...it's all in the choices you make. So I will strive to make better choices and think about the consequences of my choices and then when that binge moment comes along I will think of all the good choices I've made and how much harm that will cause. Sounds like a good plan and it sounds easy. I just have to get right in my head!

DH made a pasta dish with chicken, bacon and cheese!! He obviously didn't get the no dairy memo - well he did...but!

We have the girl tonight...I will work on my decisions and goals.

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/10/2018:
I am also guilty of thinking that I'm hiding behind certain clothes......it's an easy place to go....but deep down inside...I know better too. Hugs!

Donkey on 04/10/2018:
That's the title of my biography: The Lady Who Hid in Her Clothes.

horn_of_plenty on 04/11/2018:
...will you go back to no cheese for the rest of the month?

It is def hard to not give into all temptations of life. you are a good cook, perhaps this is part of your dilemna...or your are used to cooking a certain way? old habits are very hard to break!

happy-1 on 04/12/2018:
I feel you. I tried on running shorts today... and nooooo... not yet, maybe not ever.

I'm trying to have fewer choices. The more opportunities for choices I have the fewer I make correctly... So I'm even going as far as keeping a cooler on the kitchen counter and putting all my food in it the night before with frozen water bottles so I don't even open the fridge door... and hiding from going out to dinner with my parents because I don't trust myself to not eat taco chips and stay on track... so if you are going through normal life and making ANY correct choices, you are better at it than me.

innerpeace - Monday Apr 09, 2018

Weight: 303.7

Dairy free...ok I can do this. Sunday morning I did miss my iced vanilla latte though.

Saturday I was alone all day and could not get motivated to do anything. I forgot to take something out for dinner, so DH and I had Chinese food, probably not the best option, however there was NO cheese. We had peanut chicken, beef and brocolli, general Tso chicken and fired rice. DH did have a few egg rolls, I don't like them.

Sunday I was up early and got all the laundry done, DH's new job does his uniforms, so that took a load away and I am so grateful for that. As I sit home I made a list of things that I need to do, but making the list took all my energy - just kidding I was watching baseball most of the day.. I made some grilled chicken with spinach and artichokes.

Monday - since I didn't go to the store and am not drinking milk, DH went to McDonald's and got me a bacon and egg biscuit for breakfast.

Lunch - left over chicken

Dinner - not sure - I downloaded a meal plan app Mealine and selected a dairy free option and DH is making one of the five meals - so it could be chicken again or pork, I will know when I get home.

Friday is our first game of the year and I'm so excited. GO TRIBE!

Doing lots of training at work.


More later...IP


Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/09/2018:
That was a SCORE on the uniforms!!!!

Horn_of_plenty on 04/09/2018:
So So So proud of you for keeping up with the dairy free!!!!!!!!!! cheers!!!!

I know you must miss the Vanilla Latte...sure you cannot use something else to make it...like the Vanilla Almond milk? Or maybe you can sip herbal tea? i know - it's not the same as what you want :)...anywho, it's probably quite good you are taking the dairy break bc you may get the results you want...especially on the cheese end.

LOL, i sense DH is trying to derail you by getting you McDonalds's...JK....that's a small tasty breakfast anyways! yum!

if you are trying to be sorta good, try not to replace all cheese with other heavy items lol...

ok, i'm being a brat now....you are doing well. very proud of you. awesome on the yoga! i am not good at it, especially at home, bc it requires CONCENTRATION! lol

Horn_of_plenty on 04/09/2018:
So So So proud of you for keeping up with the dairy free!!!!!!!!!! cheers!!!!

I know you must miss the Vanilla Latte...sure you cannot use something else to make it...like the Vanilla Almond milk? Or maybe you can sip herbal tea? i know - it's not the same as what you want :)...anywho, it's probably quite good you are taking the dairy break bc you may get the results you want...especially on the cheese end.

LOL, i sense DH is trying to derail you by getting you McDonalds's...JK....that's a small tasty breakfast anyways! yum!

if you are trying to be sorta good, try not to replace all cheese with other heavy items lol...

ok, i'm being a brat now....you are doing well. very proud of you. awesome on the yoga! i am not good at it, especially at home, bc it requires CONCENTRATION! lol

trishpiglet3 on 04/09/2018:
Have been dairy-free for some time on account of I'm allergic to it. A relative gave me a dairy-free cookbook, which I haven't used and is just taking up space in the kitchen)... measures and things are likely to be in grams rather than cups because I'm in the UK but would you like me to send it to you? "No thanks" is a perfectly acceptable answer :)

innerpeace on 04/10/2018:
Thank you for the kind offer. I have found so many dairy free menu plans online and on various websites. So No thank you! I really appreciate the offer, and I will save you postage. Have a great day.

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