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innerpeace - Monday Mar 05, 2018

Weight: 303.7

Well my mind is not on the same page as my heart. This weekend was just not in the category of eathing healthy.

Friday DH made a chicken, pasta casserole topped with Doritos and it was just out of this world - it had cream of chicken soup, corn and roasted tomatoes in it too oh and cheese of course.

Saturday we get up and go to a Pierogi market, we didn't buy the periogies but DH dropped $12 on two loaves of fresh made bread. Then we went to another town so DH could get some Puero Rican food - ossabuckio, pastalitos, pastellies and potato balls. I tried everything except the potato balls because I've tried those before and didn't like them. Just not a big potato fan, mashed, baked or boiled is about all I can stand. Limited french fries, but when you start frying them in and mixing them with other things that is where I draw the line - I don't even like hashbrowns or tator tots. Then we went to see the movie Death Wish - which I liked - but I'm a Bruce Willis fan and there we had popcorn and I ate milk duds.

Sunday the YA and his stinky GF came over and got his birthday present and my mom bought him two hoodies and he wanted a hat from Oklahoma. He brought his two dogs over and they ran through the house with Steve. DH and the girl went shopping and I did laundry. I ate some bread and left overs from Friday.

I had originally planned to eat spaghetti, but I think I'm just going to eat some brocolli and hamburger instead.

DH had his first day of work today - I hope this jobs work out for him.

What can you just say to yourself to make all the right choices, I am really struggling right now.

Have a great night! IP


Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 03/05/2018:
Congrats on the hubby getting a job! That has to take a load off your mind! About getting into the mindset.......Personally I think I have to hit bottom sometimes....where doing it is easier than dealing with not doing it.

trishpiglet3 on 03/05/2018:
HUGE congrats from me too on your husband getting a job. I hope it goes really well.

I read some books to help indoctrinate myself into healthier eating. My favourite is 'The end of overeating' by David Kessler.

innerpeace - Friday Mar 02, 2018

Weight: 303.7

So made it back from Oklahoma just in time for a snow storm! My dog did great on the trip and was barely any trouble, and I think my mother even enjoyed the dog. Found pet friendly hotels and had a great time. DH and I had to sleep on mom's double bed and we barely fit. Mom says 'just cuddle'! OK well two fat @sses can't really cuddle all night, so we were sleeping on the edge of the bed - I'm so thankful for my kind size bed at home.

DH and I ate out every night, it wasn't a binge fest but I still managed to gain about 5 pounds. I'm just so totally disgusted with weight loss and exercise and health. I'm just resigned to say, some people have it and ohters don't.

DH is excited to start his new job and I will be glad to find some kind of routine for us. So tomorrow starts another day.

We have the girl this weekend and no plans really, but I did want to get out of the house on Saturday, so I will look.

B: maple brown sugar shredded mini wheats

L: left over chicken, brocolli, rice caserole, garlic bread

S: balanced breaks

D: I don't know

I will also be starting the menu planning over, since DH will be working too I will need to get back into the kitchen and I did not miss it one bit.

So here's hoping you all have a great weekend. IP

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 03/02/2018:
you have been missed! I will write more later!

graindart on 03/02/2018:
I hate being on a diet too. I'm coming up on a year next month of a mostly successful drop from 283 lbs down approximately 100 lbs. You'd think that after almost a year it would feel more like a 'life change' than a diet, but it doesn't for me. It doesn't come naturally to me. It's a daily decision to work towards my goal. I hate naturally skinny people! (not really, actually I wish I was one)

Horn_of_plenty on 03/03/2018:
with the diet thing...you have it too...! you aren't one of the "dont's!" ...

when traveling and vacationing, it's always a challenge bc it's a change from routine...but now you are back home!

Donkey on 03/03/2018:
The 5 pounds is most likely salt and travel bloat. I tend to gain that much when I travel too, even when I try to stay on program.

I too sometimes get frustrated with the body I've been dealt. Why must it always be a struggle?

bearcountrygg on 03/03/2018:
I get the double bed thing...LOL.....I can take one of them up all by myself...I get my half out of the middle...LOL

innerpeace - Wednesday Feb 21, 2018

Weight: 303.7

So the girl got her phone taken away from her and her facebook account deactivated by her mother. Apparently the girl and her step-sister (independently) were texting boys. My girl admitted and her dad already knew and had talked to her about it before. It is just innocent chit chat. The step-sister was sending pictures, not sure what kind and didn't ask. But instead of dealing with this themselves...the mother and step-dad call the police, for what reason i don't know and wanted the police to take the step-sister to the detension home. Why? These people make no sense to me whatsoever. She's your child - deal with it!

DH took the girl to the doctor. The doctor said she just has dry sensitive skin and gave her some hydrocortozone cream, we will see if that works. She said it could even be her hair irritating it - but no, this is on her legs too, so I'm thinking no! We will see what happens.

So DH starts his job on 3/5/18 and we have decided to go to Oklahoma tomorrow for a short quick trip. If we don't go know we won't be able to go for another year, or I guess I could go by myself. We are taking Steve and I just hope he doesn't hate it too bad.

DH had a taco salad at home when I got home, he picked it up after they were finished with the doctor, it was ok.

Tonight, I guess I will pack and get ready to drive for 16 hours to see my mom, we might stay overnight in IL or MO depending on how far I can drive in one day.

Miss my mom and can't wait to see her, but driving is not my favorite thing to do.

Anyway, I'll post when I can - IP

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 02/21/2018:
is girl shaving her legs and arms and ingrown hairs? maybe she's scratching herself.

also, that stinks the mom called the police!!!!!!

bearcountrygg on 02/21/2018:
Have a good trip.

Donkey on 02/24/2018:
I'm predicting that the husband's commute will get real old, real fast. Still, having a job is a good thing.

innerpeace - Tuesday Feb 20, 2018

Weight: 303.7

Just been in a funk lately. The girl was over on the weekend. Friday we went out to dinner to the diner we usually go to.

Saturday we went to Medina (about 25 miles away) to go to the Ice Festival. It was ok, lots of people looking at ice sculptures. Little shops were open and mingling around. We of course bought stuff we shouldn't eat from a bakery. We bought a treat for Steve at the dog bakery and then we went to eat BBQ. Good thing was walking around the town square my back never hurt, which is great in itself.

DH got a job offer from a company outside of Medina so he goes and takes a UA and drops off some paperwork. I am kinda of mixed about it, I hate that he has to drive all the way and he has to work 12 hour days two on/two off/two on/three off rotating days, so he could work an entire weekend or be off an entire weekend (my luck he is working during the girl weekend - UGH). I doubt he will like driving this for the next ten years so I can see it in my future that we will be moving to a location that will be between both of our jobs.

Girl has a skin condition, I don't know what it is. At first I thougth it was fleas and then bed bugs, because it's always all over her arms and legs. We asked her to lift up her shirt and there was nothing so bed bugs were ruled out. I took her last summer for an allergy test and she is allergic to nothing! Anyway, she has nasty rashy, scabby little sores all of her arms we have asked the residential parent (her mother) to get it checked out as she is over ther 3/4 of the time. Alas, nothing....DH is taking her today, to get a cream or something for her, it just looks nasty and unhealthy and gross. Like she could be contagious or something. But the mother is more concerned with who the girl texts than with the grossness on her arms.

We made it to the gym Monday morning and I should have just taken a shower and got the day strated, but DH had a interview and wouldn't get motivated until after the interview, so we lazed around th ehouse until after 2:00 pm, finally we went grocery shopping. And then I get cranky, because I want all the food that I can't have. DH kept asking me if I was hungry. I said no at least three times. I just want it. I want the cookies and ice cream and other yummy stuff that I'm just walking by without putting it in my cart.

Weather is wet and damp just like my mood nad sometimes, I just don't even want to try anymore. It's a long road to hoe!

I didn't count calories.

I will start this again tomorrow.

Have a good night IP

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 02/20/2018:
Could be diabetic eczema or a fungal infection. Even something zootropic picked up from pets if she has prediabetes and a lowered immune system.

happy-1 on 02/20/2018:
I know the feeling of being cranky and overwhelmed by all the food I can't have. It made me bail early on a church service sunday to avoid the chocolate cake. I also have a minor meltdown whenever I am faced with taco chips or bread.

bearcountrygg on 02/20/2018:
I'm thinking it might be scabies....contagious. My grandson got it in kindergarten...for the first time in his life he wore jeans with a snap to school...and they didn't know that he was allergic to the nickel in the snap so he scratched his belly a lot...and kept digging it and kept it irritated.the girl next to him had scabies on her arms...and they shared crayons etc...well...the girl itched, transferred it to the school supplies....he itched his allergic belly and transferred the scabies to himself...what a mess they had...when they took him to the drs they found out that he was allergic to his snaps on his pants and he had gotten the scabies in the irritated skin.......they are a type of critter that burrows under the skin and apparently leaves trails. If that is what it is you don't want it and she needs meds to get rid of it.

Maria7 on 02/21/2018:
Hope you are having a good day.

horn_of_plenty on 02/21/2018:
i knew a girl who had some pimples on her arms and she'd scratch and itch them - making her arms appear irritated. the girl might be causing the pain to herself.

innerpeace - Friday Feb 16, 2018

Weight: 303.7

DH had steak, baked potato and salad for dinner. it was very good. It was so nice he started up the grill until the propane went out. And to be honest his steak was better than the one we had for his birthday when we ate out. I only ate 1/2 my steak and I had over 1800 calories for the night.

We were also supposed to go to a health seminar but DH had a headache and we decided to stay home.

In bed by 10:00, up by 4:15 and off to the gym. Stayed at the gym for a little over an hour and did the gym. One thing that aggravates me is I'm doing the circuit training and doing the machines and minding my business and two young kids come in and monopolize the bench press machine - because they want to get pumped before school? Not sure, but they just kept taking turns with the machine so I didn't get that bench press and incline bench press completed because I just mind my business. And I could say, why can't you go over to the free weights and do your bench press, because they had every right to be there. Next time though, i will start with that machine. This has happened twice, so definately use that machine first. Kids!!

Work today is stupid and i wish I didn't have to work, maybe I'll win the lottery or something.

Girl this weekend, not feeling it! We do have an Ice Festival to go to if it doesn't rain, might be fun.

DH had two interviews today and one again on Monday, so things are hopeful that he will be employed soon.

B: English Muffin, peanut butter, iced vanilla latte

L: left over steak, salad

S: yogurt, black berries

D: I think is KFC chicken fingers tonight.

DH has to get back from his afternoon interview, get the girl and take her for a shot (before 3) and then he really didn't want to make dinenr, so we agreed on KFC. and the girl likes KFC.

Have a great night IP.



Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 02/19/2018:
KFC is fun and chicken fingers aren't Too bad you can always have a salad first ;) that's why I try to do sometimes

happy-1 on 02/20/2018:
Just ask if you can work in a set and if they can spot you. Then ask them for inside tips on how you can get Yelp elite status at the gym ;-)

happy-1 on 02/20/2018:
Just ask if you can work in a set and if they can spot you. Then ask them for inside tips on how you can get Yelp elite status at the gym ;-)

innerpeace - Wednesday Feb 14, 2018

Weight: 303.7

Finally got back on the scale - down 2.3 pounds. I'm ok with this for now. Shoulder muscle is still sore, but I keep stretching it out and it is getting better.

The YA came over and picked up a bed and furniture and some extra dishes and stuff we gave to him to set up house. i hope it works out for him.

Sleeping better but I keep waking up thinking I am over sleeping and I have only been asleep for 1 1/2 - 2 hour increments. I guess I just need to wait and listen for the alarm.

Dinner last night was sausage, eggs and toast. Suprised but it was good.

Tonight we have the girl - really don't doing anything for Valentine's Day. We did get her a stuffed animal and itunes gift card but that is all.

B: toast

S: yogurt, blackberries

L: 1/2 peanut butter sandwich

S: balanced breaks

D: not sure I think DH said something about individual pizza on flat bread.

Have a great evening! IP

and work is really crazy, busy, stressful right now for some reason.

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 02/14/2018:
where is YA staying?

innerpeace on 02/16/2018:
He managed to get an apartment with the help of his step-dad. He is supposed to do part-time maintenance in the evening for the other residence. I hope it lasts.

bearcountrygg on 02/14/2018:
Congrats on the nice loss!!!

innerpeace on 02/16/2018:
Thank you

happy-1 on 02/15/2018:
Congrats!!! A very happy Valentine's to you!!!

innerpeace on 02/16/2018:
Thank you

horn_of_plenty on 02/16/2018:
i hope the YA's gig lasts - it sounds good!

innerpeace - Tuesday Feb 13, 2018

Weight: 303.7

Work has been crazy for the last couple of days, I haven't had time to log in a read entries and make one.

Got home last night and DH had quinoa crunch burgers for dinner with a brocoli ham salad. It was ok, just not what I wanted.

I bought cupcakes for work and we had one for dessert. I ended the night with 1548 calories.

This morning we were up for the gym at 4:30. Can't wait for the weather to warm up is all I'm saying. I do like the machines though.

B: fritatta, 1/2 pita with beef, iced vanilla latte

S: yogurt, blackberries

L: left over chicken and brocolli

D: DH said eggs and sausage, which is really OK.

DH cleaned the kitchen floor, finally, he realizes what a messy cook he is - maybe he will be more careful in the future. - DH has an interview tomorrow and Friday.

Tomorrow is my Mom's birthday. My sister's is Saturday..


Have a great evening! IP



Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/13/2018:
Will you stop going to the gym when the weather warms up?

happy-1 on 02/13/2018:
mmm... frittata and a vanilla latte... are you sure you guys shouldn't just open a food truck?

horn_of_plenty on 02/14/2018:
so happy to hear you are going to gym! awesome!

i am excited for warmer weather too. no jackets. summer!

Maria7 on 02/14/2018:
Happy BD to your Mom. :-)

innerpeace - Monday Feb 12, 2018

Weight: 303.7

I took off Friday from work, somtimes, you just gotta!

Thursday DH didn't take anything out of the refrigerator so we went out again to a Tavern. I had a chicken sandwich it was nice. We then went to JCP and got DH a new pair of pants, that actually fit and a new pair of shoes. And then DQ. Went over calories.

Friday: DH and I went to the gym, I love gym in the morning. DH and I drove to Sandusky and i got my iced coffee, we stopped at a few other places and came home.

Saturday: I made a pot of chicken chili and we ate on that all day. We went shopping for a few things I wanted a few pairs of pants and we needed printer ink.

Sunday: up for gym and laundry day. Chili for lunch and DH made a chicken thing filled with ham and brocoli which was really good.


Thursday was the only day over calories. All other days were good.

I do have more energy to deal with the work BS, sister BS and YA BS, so the gym is a good thing now.

Have a great night IP!

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 02/12/2018:
Are those chicken breasts stuffed with han and broccoli? Yum!

bearcountrygg on 02/13/2018:
Is that a pressed sandwich?

horn_of_plenty on 02/13/2018:
perhaps instead of DQ, there's another lower cal frozen yogurt place to go to??? or, you can go home for dessert?? for greek yogurt and berries? perhaps you can change your taste buds preference for DQ? or get one to share with a coffee or tea with low cals? just a suggestion!

the sandwiches look awesome!

innerpeace - Thursday Feb 08, 2018

Weight: 303.7

I was so busy at work, for no reason. If I am given a tast with a fast deadline I do the freakin' task. However, after spending half of my day on the task and turning it in, the HQs says, oh, yeah...you need to do it this way with this report! WTF?? you couldn't have put this information out at the same time? So all my work was for naught, but I did revise it and turn it back in this morning. I'm just about sick of incomplete information or instructions that are flat out wrong causing me to do something over. Stupid business practices.

I was hoping to leave early to get DH a card, but that didn't happen. But when I get home he has dinner made. A lasagna roll filled with chicken and artichoke hearts with a vodka marinara sauce. It was pretty tasty. Ended the night with 1231 calories.

DH had an interview today, so hopeful.

Sister called and gave me some disturbing news from home, so a little disgusted - nothing concerning anyone's health. My mother has had my step-dad's truck for almost 12 years now she will fix it, insure it and keep it current. Now for some reason she is willing to trade it to my nephews' dad (non working, ex-con, addict) for a car. It's not my business but both my sister and I agree she should jsut sell it and keep the money for herself. I tried to tell her, if she trades it or sells it to a member of the family they will expect her to pay for all future repairs and stuff, because they will continue to see it as hers. I know this from experience with the YA.

We have the girl tonight. No plans, but really not wanting to sit at home with her. Myaybe I will run an errand or something.

Not sure what is for dinner, I will be making a menu for next week over the weekend, so I will know.

B: English muffin, peanut butter, 1/2 banana

S: yogurt, blackberries, walnuts

L: BBQ pork, baked beans, cole slow a little mac & Cheese - lunch was brought in for the veteran's from a local BBQ place. I was told to go eat lunch as I am one of the veterans. It was pretty good.


Have a great night! IP


Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

Donkey on 02/08/2018:
Will you have the day off tomorrow (Friday) if there's another shut-down?

bearcountrygg on 02/09/2018:
Always nice to come home to a meal ready to eat.

innerpeace - Wednesday Feb 07, 2018

Weight: 303.7

DH texts me and says the girl didn't go to school because she had a headache. And then she said her mother was on a job and she couldn't get any medicine. WTF?? So I asked her, so, you didn't go to school and your mom knew you had a headache and left to go do a job and didn't give you any medicine? She said yes. I said that's a dam fine mother you have over there. I said you couldn't take two aspirin or tylenol yourself? She says all the medicine is in her mother's bedroom and she isn't allowed in there? WTF?? You can't even make an exception and go get an aspirin? No...So apparently she sits at home all day with a headache. I asked her why she didn't call her dad (DH) who is also sitting at home doing nothing. He would have helped you. She says, well I didn't  think of that. Well, if you ask me, you deserve to have a headache all day then. (I didn't say that - but OMG I think it) I told her your dad told you to call/text him any time, I just don't understand why you don't? So anyway the girl didn't go to school because she had a headache and then when DH picked her up and gave her an Aleve, she was better in 20 minutes. That's some fast acting medicine, right there I tell ya. I say if she is too sick to go to school, she is too sick to leave her house and come to ours. My DH doesn't see this and got her anyway, because SHE wanted to go out to eat with us because we were doing DH's birthday and she was just fine!!

We went to eat steak, which wasn't a good thing with my calories. I only ate one roll, which I usually eat three or four. I only had a little bit of DH's fried onion but I ended the day with 2145 calories. OMG so many.

Was up at 4:30 and did the gym thing. I'm not liking the gym, but I like the gym because we are the only ones there until about 5:15 when a man shows up and rides a bike.

I will leave a little early from work today to get the DH a card for his birthday. I haven't thought of a gift yet. He really doesn't need anything.

I don't know what dinner will be - chicken of some kind.

B: english muffin, peanut butter, 1/2 banana

L: yogurt, walnuts, blackberries

S: balanced breaks


Have a great night! IP

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 02/07/2018:
yeah the rolls are a killer, i could eat tons also....best to stick to one - once it leaves your mouth, the regret kicks in - it's just the taste while you chew it...then...the only reason we have another is for the taste...a waste !

today i ate my own lunch and just had a couple bites of the end of a pizza...best decision ever. NO regrets.

not in the mood to gain weight at this new location of my job...so taking my eating/nutrition/health into my own hands.

horn_of_plenty on 02/07/2018:
i do not feel a headache is a good reason to miss a day of school, btw.

bearcountrygg on 02/07/2018:
Kinda sounds like an excuse not to go to school....I have to admit when I was her age...I had all the too sick for school excuses too. Love that you are hitting the gym early!!!

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