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innerpeace - Tuesday Dec 11, 2018

Weight: 315.4

Not in the best of moods and I don't know why I let people bother me so!

DH texts me and says he made white rise for the beef and brocolli. OK fine.

I get home and the beef and brocoli is in a frozen bag. So how is this supposed to be cooked? boiled in the bag? microwaved? dumped out of the bag into a pan, pot, water? There are no instructions on the bag. DH took the bag out of the box to make room in the freezer...and threw the box in the garbage I don't know how long ago. Anyway, I improvise and of course my option was the incorrect one. I snip the corner of the bag and toss it in the microwave - same way I steam brussel sprouts, the breakfast fritatta and other stuff....apparently not this. So I  start clearing off the island in the kitchen and start wrapping some of the gifts and I hear a litle pop noise and the the microwave goes off.

I take the bag out and pour it into a bowl and the sauce was in a smaller bag inside the bigger bag that I never seen. Anyway, this little bag I guess melted into the sauce and was a big gelantinous mess, it was so ugly and nasty looking...I just tossed it all in the trash. The second bag, I did, take the sauce bag out and just steam the vegetables and meat and warmed the sauce separately. This turned out better.

And then I was disappointed with the girl, so much so, I may not go pick her up tomorrow, I will have to think about this more. I text her at Noon yesterday telling her happy birthday...No response! Ok, no big deal, maybe she was in class, surely she will text me back at 3:30 when she gets out of school, she never did! Not even a thank you! This is what is so sad to me! One of the stipulations about getting her that phone is she would respond to texts, so strike 1. This is also irritating because the exwife texted DH and said the girl was upset he hadn't told her happy birthday! right now I feel this girl is selfish and so disrespectful of other peoples' feelings. Yes, yes I am upset that she couldn't take the time to say thank you, especailly when I go out of my way for her! It's the little things. So I am a little pissed! And I just can't wait to hear whose fault this is, because nothing, and I mean nothing is ever her fault! I just can't deal with it anymore. I am not step-parent material.

My body ached all evening, so much it hurt to get up and down from sitting. I took an ibuprofen and tred to quiet my mind.

My DH says he wishes he knew what he could do to fix me...seriously I don't need fixed!

It's just one of those times when you feel alone in a crowded room or when you are trying your aboslute best and it still isn't good enough and dear lord why does life have to be so hard. Must be a seasonal thing!

I have a dental appointment after work...yuck!

B: bacon spinach frittata

S: belvita

L: leftover beef and brocolli

S: balanced breaks


This too shall pass Have a great evening! IP


Progress as of today: 6.2 lbs lost so far, only 105.4 lbs to go!

Donkey on 12/11/2018:
Seriously, you do not need to be fixed. If nothing else, teenagers (and pre-teens) can be incredibly self-centered. I can't imagine how hard it would be to be a step-parent.

legcramps on 12/11/2018:
Yes, pre-teens and teenagers can certainly be self-centered a lot of the time. Don't take it personally. I doubt she is trying to intentionally hurt you, honestly, I just think she isn't aware that she is hurting you by not replying to your text. Also, please don't think that all the little things you do for her should be rewarded by good behavior or gratefulness, because that won't happen either! Only if she is aware that she should be thankful, and for people that age - well, it's a very selfish phase they are in!

BearCountryGG on 12/11/2018:
I do have to say that while I just LOVE kids...the middle school age group is my least favorite......Love the babies.....grade schoolers are interesting.....really enjoyed the high schoolers...but the middle schoolers were a mish mash of baby and adult and I didn't find it funny at all....actually...I think they are miserable themselves.....they want to be considered adults but they also want to be babied when it suits them....give her a year or 2....and I think she will get to be more fun again.

BearCountryGG on 12/11/2018:
OH...and by the way...I think YOU are doing a GREAT job with her!!! Not all step Moms would be as devoted to her needs as you are........she is learning a lot from you that she will look back on for the rest of her life.....you are making an impact...even when you think you aren't.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/12/2018:
lol, i'm sorry about the beef and broccoli mess! it happens. don't blame it on yourself! if you knew the brand, you may have been able to google instructions...but i hope hubby keeps the box at home for you next time!!!!! or he cooks it ;)

I once had a similiar issue with a friend, never thinking to respond to my texts in any timely manner..with the girl, speak to her and tell her what you would likee her to do and why. she'll do it after a couple reminders. not everyone has the high expextatinos you have...i have the same issue..high expectations...and when people do not rise to my expectations, i do get rather frusrated with them, the thing being, they weren't thinking like i was the whole time...and don't realize i have any expectation. i gather it's similar with the girl in regardes to the phone. you'll have to explain it.

innerpeace - Monday Dec 10, 2018

Weight: 315.4

With DH gone I baked all day Saturday, it probably took longer than it should but I was in no hurry. Once cooled, I boxed those things up and got them ready to be shipped.

The candy wasn't as good. i had a few of the peanut butter snowballs, but after DH had a few, those too were boxed up, so not to bad for me.

Tree is finally finished, now just the task of getting everything wrapped.

Sunday, DH and I went and ordered the cabinets, we should have them the first/second week of January. Then the countertops, so again, hopeful everything will be finished by Valentine's Day. I think even going this way, though a hassle, but at least we know the job will eventually get accomplished, or at least the cabinets are ordered.

DH and I got in a little tiff over the words he used "I don't do anything" Oh OK! I'll show you all I "don't do" the next time you need clean clothes, or need a bill paid, or need dinner cooked or need your daughter picked up! Then he says...you only wash clothes once a week... Oh OK! Well then you can wash your own clothes..sir! I'm sorry I can't go to the post office because they are closed before I get home from work, but you are just sitting there for 3-4 hours in the morning before you go to work and can't do this one little thing!! Whatever! Oh and he does shop, so there's that!

We will see how long this little fued lasts, or how long it takes him to apologize.

B: spinach bacon frittata

S: one orange sugar cookie from work

L: left over pizza

S: balanced breaks

D: DH said he made rice and beef and brocolli so dinner i guess.

Will wrap gifts tonight for awhile.

Today is the girl's actual birthday! And DH's exwife was nice enough to text him to remind him of that fact!! SERIOUSLY!! does she really think he would forget! We've been living that stupid birthday for two weeks NOW!! OMG I just can't even...anymore! I swear these two act like this girl who just turned 14 is still under the age of 5. They just make me sick!

Me, I will finish work today and go home and drink...just kidding...I don't but wish today I did.

have a great evening! IP

Progress as of today: 6.2 lbs lost so far, only 105.4 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/10/2018:
The spinach bacon fritatta sounds really good.....not to mention all of the desserts you made.

graindart on 12/10/2018:
One cookie at work.....good control. Cookies aren't something that I find easy to portion control.

horn_of_plenty on 12/10/2018:
PB snowballs sound good..what is in them?

Congrats on having your tree all finished !

so, my coworker also mentioned something how the typical scenario is "men do the technical stuff around the house...and we are responsible for the housework..." sometimes we forget that we should do it for the other person because we want to...rather them asking or begging us...and to help the other person when it seems the task is over their heads...lol....yeah...something like that.

14 is a nice age...really starting to grow up...real teenager. my friend's daughter is also 14...and it's nice to see girls at that age...starting to care about appearance and all...and just learning to be women...well...starting.

innerpeace on 12/11/2018:
PB and powered sugar dipped in chocolate - sickeningly sweet!

innerpeace - Friday Dec 07, 2018

Weight: 315.4

Got the girl and got home about 5:30 - a little later than usual because of the snow and crazy drivers. I cooked probably not the best meal, chicken fried chicken, creamy chicken rice and corn. The girl made a comment about the corn being a starchy vegetable. Yes I know and I shouldn't have served it with rice, but I get tired of green beans all the time the brocolli was spoiled in the refrigerator and I detest frozen brussel sprouts and you don't like carrots and I don't like peas, so...CORN!

She showers and changed her bed sheets and her mom gets her at 8:00.

DH gets home at 10:30 and tells me he has to work all weekend. WTF!! He is OK with this as he thinks they will close his factory down the week of Christmas...maybe! I have annual leave scheduled the week of Chirstmas, so I guess if he works, I will work too and save my leave for another time.

Tree is still not finished...maybe tomorrow.

Baking tomorrow, I have baked for my mom, aunt and two older cousins (like my mom's age) who can't really bake anymore or get around too well for that matter. I box them up and send them for Christmas, they love it and are appreciative of my efforts.

Thinking of making a stew tomorrow.

Anyway...on to the weekend! PEACE! IP


Progress as of today: 6.2 lbs lost so far, only 105.4 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 12/07/2018:
Driving in the snow = pure torture indeed! That's something i'm thankful i don't really need to do this year since i take public transportation. i hardly drive except on weekends which i'm happy with right now!

lol it may be starchy but it's still not the worst. :) it's still a veggie, not man made at least! :) better than corn bread! haha

in terms of if you both are working Christmas week, maybe it's still early...so wait and see what happens...try to keep expectations low if you can?

you are a great chef so i'm sure they must love your gifts :) so nice of you!

BearCountryGG on 12/07/2018:
Driving in th snow is the pits! I don't think that when I was her age I knew corn was a starch.

Donkey on 12/08/2018:
Have fun baking! I remember every year, as a child, looking forward to receiving Mrs. Lettenberger's Christmas cookies. We didn't have a lot when I was growing up, and this was always very much appreciated.

innerpeace - Thursday Dec 06, 2018

Weight: 315.4

Maybe it's this time of year...I put up the Christmas tree at work and got so annoyed at the people I left work for an hour or so and didn't tell anyone where I was going. I pretty much figured I'd be in some kind of trouble when I got back, but I doubt anyone even noticed I was gone...no one said anything.

Then I get home and am so overwhelmed I didn't even finish putting ours up, myabe this weekend. I spent most of the weekend and all day yesterday shopping and then I feel bad because I was reading about a Senior giving tree and the senior citizens  just wanted graham crackers, cranberry juice and compression socks.

Received news my cousin died in Tuscon, AZ. She was 53. Mom told me she had cancer. This made me schedule my mammogram I've been putting off a few months. This was unexpected news and I didn't take it very well. Mom said when she found out about her cancer it was already too late for treatment, which is also very sad for me.

This weekend is the baking weekend for all the cookies that get mailed out. I try to not do it but already have been asked about it.

On Monday we did meet with the contractor and he reimbursed our money, so that is great. Now DH is going Sunday to finalize the cabinet order.

Been eating ok, but still not in a good routine, however, it has been 13 days since I have drank diet pop and I am still drinking more water. Also eating way less bread than previously...no bread in the house since before Thanksgiving.

Looking forward to tomorrow- IP


Progress as of today: 6.2 lbs lost so far, only 105.4 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/06/2018:
You are very lucky to have gotten your money back........that is rare in those fly by night businesses.....So sorry about your cousin....There are 3 in my family being treated right now...and so far so good.....and D's sister called yesterday to tell us they are doing more testing next week because of her mamogram last week......it seems like an epidemic.....scary

horn_of_plenty on 12/06/2018:
nice job on your changes to your diet since Thanksgiving and the no diet pop. If you can find a soda called i think Zevia?...it's good because it's made with stevia and doesn't tend to break your skin out. many flavors are caffeine free.

I'm sorry about your cousin that is so sad. It's good you are going to the dr yourself to keep up with it. I went to the GYN after around maybe even 4 years not going...just to keep up, like you are so i'm not too late to treat anything if it showed up.

who will you bake the cookies for?

graindart on 12/06/2018:
Love bread and most other carbs too. Have been avoiding them as much as possible since it's difficult for me to control portions when dealing with them. Once I start eating them, I don't want to stop.

A few months ago I was on-plan for about a week or so. Decided to "reward" myself with a peanut butter & jelly sandwich. Ate it and it tasted great. Had a 2nd one. Then a 3rd. And 4th. And would you believe 5th right in a row? Stopped for the day. The next day I finished off the rest of the bread, peanut butter, and jelly. Crazy how out of control I got with just PB&J sandwiches. So right now I have to avoid even the first one, since I know where it leads me......

legcramps on 12/06/2018:
I am sorry to hear about your cousin, so sad.

I hear you about decorating at work; I don't know if that's what made you annoyed, but it sure annoys me when I do it. Especially when people stand there and watch me and do not even bother to lift one finger to help!!

Donkey on 12/07/2018:
I'm so sorry to hear about your cousin. (((hugs)))

I'm trying to fight this feeling, with the idea of "fake it until you make it", but there is still this underlying current of discontentment... Not so much for the holiday itself, but rather afterwards.

innerpeace - Wednesday Nov 28, 2018

Weight: 319.4

Same night as yesterday it was just Tuesday instead of Monday.

I had to cook dinner which turned out to be Swedish meatballs and noodles, because it was easy!

I did get off the couch and do day 1 of the foundation exercise program - something.

And then...I found a bag of Lindor chocolates...

B: frittata, sausage patty

L: swedish meatballs, noodles

D: DH put a pot roast in the crock pot with potatos and carrots

The girl will be over tonight. We have a Christmas play on Friday night that will just the two of us, as DH has to work. Saturday we are celebrating her 14th birthday, actually we already gave her her big gift, which was a cell phone with service. She has a few other smaller gifts and DH ordered her a big cookie with emoji on it.

About 9:00 pm I started getting the itchy/scratchy feeling in my throat, thought for sure I would wake up with a sore throat, thankfully I didn't today.

May go to the library tonight.

Have a great evening...IP

Progress as of today: 2.2 lbs lost so far, only 109.4 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 11/28/2018:
i'm happy to hear you did some exercise at home...perfecto! i'm proud of you too! that's awesome, InnerP!

and i'm sure the chocolates were soooo tasty!

i will be bad and say i'm not sure about gifts that are just candy...lol...for a kid. well, not to eat all at once...maybe chocolates are better. to eat one a day....lol...sorry........my comment was a bit "tasteless"

Donkey on 11/29/2018:
Good for you on exercising!

BearCountryGG on 11/29/2018:
She is so lucky to have such a caring step Mom....My guess is that she would be a pretty sad kid if she didn't have you. I think you are doing a wonderful thing for her.....and I'm sure she is a lot of company for you too........she sounds like a good kid...and you should get most of the credit for that....

Horn_of_plenty on 12/02/2018:
I like Swedish meatballs too!

innerpeace - Tuesday Nov 27, 2018

Weight: 319.4

Since my DH is working second shift which ranges from starting at 1:00 pm to 3:00 pm - they call, he goes. Sometimes he gets home before I go to bed, sometimes not. Even though he is not at the house, his daughter still wants to come over, she says to get a break from the people at her house, which is ok, so I have her twice a week or once, depending on if she is going to be at our house during the weekend. With that being said, I am home alone from 4:30 until after 11:00.

This is my fat and no one else's. I just can't seem to find the motivation to make myself do something besides sit in front of the TV. Last night I thought about doing zumba or yoga and I went into the family room and saw the mess in there (from the cabinet fiasco) and sighed and went back to the living room. I did move the microwave back into the kitchen, so I did do one thing and I thought a lot about doing something else, I just couldn't actually do it. I've asked myself this question several times....

I have conversations at work and say I want to stop drinking dairy, I think it is one of the reasons I have skin issues, but I could only manage to NOT do dairy for two days. WHY? Is this not important to me? How can I just keep giving into cravings and giving up on everything I try?

I commend you all, who have routines, who keep them and make progress. I am so proud of you and I cheer for your success every day!

Last night in between watching TV, I made chicken paprikash - DH wanted this for dinner so I made it. It was okay, but not my favorite, and I had a slice of red velvet cake roll.

B: maple cheeries, vanilla iced latte

L: chicken paprikash

S: balanced breaks

D: TBD but I think DH put meatballs in the crock pot, I will see when I get home.

Have a great evening!  Preparing for change!

Progress as of today: 2.2 lbs lost so far, only 109.4 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/27/2018:
Changing habits is HARD!!!! I still fall down alot! But every day that I don't fall down gives me hope to keep on.........I too have times when I think I should be doing something around the house...but it's easier to just put it off.....that often is when I get my trusty old timer out and set it for 5 or 10 minutes...and get as much done in that short time as I can....sometimes that is all it takes to get me moving...even after the timer stops. And if I decide that is enough then at least I got that done.

graindart on 11/27/2018:
Everyone is different and not everything works for everyone. With that said, here's my perspective and what worked for me. (Down 100 lbs since April 2017, but it's still a daily struggle.)

1. Change ONE thing for the better and be successful at it for a period of time. Since it's only ONE thing, no making excuses to yourself for failure. As an example, one change I made at the beginning was paying for my gas at the pump and not going into the gas station. Before that one change, I would usually pick up a candy bar, soda, and maybe a bag of chips each time I needed gas for the car. It was a simple change and it only affected me once every week or so. (It still felt like I was unfairly denying myself, but no excuses and I was successful at it.) Did it have any monumental effect on my weight? No, but it did give me something to be proud about. A small step in the right direction that I could build upon.

2. After you've owned that one thing for a set period of time (30 days or whatever), do NOT celebrate by allowing yourself to break that new better habit again. But rather continue on with that one thing and add one MORE little change for the next 30 days.

3. Be accountable to someone somewhere. For me, that means posting here at DD daily. I often times don't feel like it and often times don't have much to say, but I try to do it daily to keep myself on track. (I strayed from doing it over the summer and gained a lot of weight back that I'm now having to re-lose.)

4. If you're like me, you can never out-exercise your mouth. I can sit down and binge eat 3000-5000 calories pretty easily. However I could never exercise enough to counteract that amount of caloric intake. So for me, I knew that losing weight was 99% dependent on me controlling my food intake. In fact, I didn't add any exercising to my routine until I had lost 90+ lbs. So for one of my changes, I started recording everything I ate using a phone app to keep track of all calories. Set a limit on the number of calories I could eat and stopped when I ran out of allowance for the day. When I first started the daily allowance was pretty high since I weighed 283. Looking back at my records, the calculations were somewhere around 2600 calories per day to lose 1 lb per week. Of course it's different for men/women, activity level, age, etc. But when you're ready, choose a daily calorie limit you're willing to commit to and work it for a month with no excuses. And I'd suggest setting it fairly high initially to keep from feeling overly deprived. The goal is to make a positive change one month at a time and build upon it. If you're like I was, I'd have some sensible days where I'd eat 2000-2500 calories, but then I'd also have those days where I'd eat twice that amount and make myself sick. Initially setting a 3000 calorie limit per day would seem crazy high to a lot of the thinner people around, but if you're like I was, there are days that just staying below 3000 calories would be considered a big step in the right direction. After a month of staying under 3000 calories, drop the daily limit by 100 calories.

Would it have been better for me to have changed all of my bad habits for good ones in the beginning? Started eating right, exercising lots, etc all at the same time? Maybe if I was someone else. I've tried changing everything all at once many times (January 1st many years in a row), but have always given up after 1-3 weeks because it's just too hard for too little reward. I'm envious of anyone that can do it all at once and be successful with it, but that wasn't me when I weighed 283 last year. And I'd guess that the vast majority of people aren't able to make such huge changes at once and stick with them either.

Sorry for the extremely long reply, but I feel like I know where you're coming from. Why is it so hard? Why am I so powerless to better myself, when I clearly say I want to? Why do I keep falling into the same bad habits over and over again? Why do I keep shoveling stuff in my mouth when I'm already feeling like crap from eating too much junk? Why do I see so-and-so eating the same stuff I'm eating and yet they only weigh 150??????

Maybe I'm reading my own thoughts into your post, but it brings back my own feelings of hopelessness and feeling helpless. I've been overweight for most of my life and it sucks. Slowly changing habits for the better has also sucked for me. Wish I could say it was easy or worth it every day, but it's still a struggle. Has it been worth it? Yes, but still a struggle and I know that I can easily regress and gain back that 100 lbs in less than a year if I don't stay accountable and on some type of plan.

Sorry this reply is insanely long. The advice above is as much a reminder to myself as it is advice directed toward you. Since there are a lot of words above, let me sum them all up into a one paragraph course of action (if you're ready):

Choose ONE small thing to change starting right away and lasting throughout the month of December. Don't choose something major, keep it small and attainable for the entire month. Don't go out and have one last binge on whatever change you're making, but start it right away. Be accountable to someone or post here daily. Wherever you're accountable, let them know every day that you've been successful. It's only one small thing, so no making excuses. Have an emergency plan for what you'll do if you're about to break your one habit change. For me and not going into the gas station, out of habit I went in once and bought something before realizing what I was doing. I hate 'wasting' stuff, but after buying it and realizing what I'd done, I threw it in the garbage before getting back in my car just to keep myself on-track. When I'm on a daily calorie limit like currently, there have been days where I just had to put myself to bed at 7pm because I'd run out of calories and knew that if I stayed up I'd fail.

Donkey on 11/28/2018:
I agree with both Bear & Gains: It's hard - really hard. Take one step at a time, one change at a time. Every day is Day One.

horn_of_plenty on 11/28/2018:
In continuation with those above.... I agree wholeheartedly with Bear, Gains & Donkey :)

Habits are soooo ingrained and hard to change. Habits on eating and emotional habits in general ....let me continue soon...

horn_of_plenty on 11/28/2018:
so it took me years to get back to this weight that i love.

but it's a lifestyle not a diet.

it's not about NOT eating, it's about swapping....and it would be helpful if however you eat, that the people living in your house will eat the same way as you...or i do not see any easy way out of your habits?

either way it's not easy, but you must keep this knowledge: that you can do it, that you can be in control.

horn_of_plenty on 11/28/2018:


the two of them above, bcgg and grains, have changed so much since they have joined. i have changed, too. and so has Donkey. we have all learned so much and still we work to do better and even work at maintenance. it's a lifestyle of change and desire to eat differently than we did before.

you will have to find alternatives, eating more fruits and veggies, and perhaps read up on some books to help...this is how i did it....i have a good book for you...it's called "Eat your Way to Sexy" by Elizabeth Somer

innerpeace - Monday Nov 26, 2018

Weight: 319.4

Ok, I'm glad Thanksgiving is over. No kids, so DH and I just did things. He wanted to put up outside Christmas decorations so did that for almost 10 hours on Thanksgiving Day...and then was moaning about being sore that night.

Friday we picked up the girl and did some Christmas shopping, I don't know what possessed us to do this on Black Friday but we did. We left about 9:00 so it wasn't too bad, most of the crazies had come and gone by then.

Saturday another chill day.

Sunday the usual house cleaning.

I haven't been stuffing my face or over eating but I haven't been following a specific plan and/or exercising, so I didn't feel I had anything to contribute to the site, hence my absence.

Of course I also have drama. All through the month of October DH kept in contact with our cabinet installer, however, around the end of the month the installer kept dodging DH and or giving him excuse after excuse, so DH went to his shop and found out he closed. Moved everything out of his shop and took off. So I am livid that this moron took our money too. There were about six other people he did the same to. One of the other victims was out $160K, so I feel fortunate to have only lost $2500. They did an investigative piece on it and it made me feel a little better, but still. What a big @ssholl. He has until 12/1 to reimburse our money or we will have to go to small claims court, however, I don't see us getting this money back. Here's a link to the news story:


So then DH and I go to a National Design store and the salesman was adament he couldn't match my existing cabinets. I tell him once, twice, three times, to get as close as he can. He then says, I've been doing this for 27 years and you won't be able to match your existing cabinets. So with all the crap I've been through (above) I just tell him. Look, sir, I appreciate the fact that you have 27 years experience, however, you are not going to sell me an entire kitchen of cabinets, YoU are not going to sell me something I do NOT want NOR need. This crazy @ss man, slams his hands down on the desk and says, OK, goodbye, you can leave. I said, excuse me, You are not going to help me? Nope, good bye. I kinda get loud and say, you are just kicking me out of your store. YEP, You are DISMISSED. OH NO he did not just say that. I get all loud and ask him who he thinks he is, dismissing me from a public store. This causes a screaming match and then DH jumps in, telling him he doesn't talk to his wife like that and the manager comes over and DH says he should be fired, treating us like that and OMG it was the worst thing ever! The manager cools everyone down and decides to help us himself. This was 2.5 hours of my life I will never get back. So after all that and we got the deisgn figured out we left. And then we talk to Home Depot and Lowes and a local cabinet company and we decide to get the cabinets from Home Depot and the counter top from the National Design store (this was a different section we had to did with at this store) I would not buy the cabinets there if they were the last place on earth! Needelss to say, my kitchen was not done for Thanksgiving and it will not be done for Chirstmas either...maybe by Valentine's Day. What a freaking nightmare!

Picked up new glasses and see better.

My face is having a freaking stress blow out and resembles pizza.

Called my son in Georgia and he believes he will be able to come up for Christmas.

work is work.

So that's where I've been, just living life...not making big progress but still have high hopes.

Have a great evening! IP

Progress as of today: 2.2 lbs lost so far, only 109.4 lbs to go!

legcramps on 11/26/2018:
Oh no! That's horrible, i'm so sorry you had so much trouble over your renovations! I hope that guy steps up and pays back your money, but I know not everyone is honorable. I sure hope you guys can get the cabinets done soon so it doesn't have to be such a source of stress any longer.

BearCountryGG on 11/27/2018:
There are a lot of devious construction companies out there.....it's sad...we had a construction company and people were of course cautious....we gained their respect and over time and got plenty of work mostly by word of mouth.......if you continue with your project...ask around....look for neighbors of coworkers or friends in your area for recommendations.....I hope you have better luck the next time.

horn_of_plenty on 11/27/2018:
please don't feel you have nothing to contribute.

even if you just write about activities you are doing with family, it's enough :)

even if you aren't following specific eating plans and exercise, i'm glad you weren't stuffing your face! :)

Listen!!!!!!!!! you have a NEWS STORY!!!!!!!!! the evidence is against him. maybe think of it like YOU ARE IN THE RIGHT! YOU WILL GET YOUR MONEY BACK.

hey, if you aren't confident you are getting money back, why even try!? REMAIN CONFIDENT!

i have been reading a lot about stress and yes it messes with your face....i've also been reading this great new book, healty eating...and i totally need a makeover on my own diet!!!!!!!!

in the new year, i'm going to try to change to healthier choices: fish, more lean meat, much more leafy greens, and healthy whole grains are my plans to add...as well as using more spices.

innerpeace - Thursday Nov 08, 2018

Weight: 319.4

DH put a pork roast in the crockpot...that is it! No potatoes or carrots.

D: pork roast, 1/2 avocado

Just a reminder that my kitchen is soon to be under construction. Construction was supposed to start tomorrow, however, DH received a text that he must push it back yet again and will be at my house first thing Monday. It's funny how he has all this trouble getting my project started but didn't have a problem cashing my check. We will see. I told my DH I'm really not in the mood to deal with this.

I had not one but two of the individual servings of cheese cake!! I knew this would happen as I have no kind of self-control whatsoever! and then that wasn't enough so I had peanut butter and crackers. Had my calories way over - about 2200.

I left my phone at the office last night.

B: just crack an egg, iced tea

L: fage yogurt, pork roast, avocado

S: balanced breaks

D: DH put in some penne pasta with meatballs - will se ehow this turns out after I get the girl.

Water intake still very good. I feel better and also feel like my skin may be doing better as well. Could be my imagination and/or wishful thinking.

Any hoo! I will continue to march.

Have a great day! IP

Progress as of today: 2.2 lbs lost so far, only 109.4 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/08/2018:
Hope your kitchen gets done soon...did they at least order your materials?

horn_of_plenty on 11/08/2018:
Lol why no potatoes and carrots!? haha

ah, i'm sure the cheesecake and pb tasted good though!

all meals look great today!!! just great!!!

keep marching is right!!! :) me too! easy night over here!

Donkey on 11/16/2018:
Hope you're going OK...

innerpeace - Wednesday Nov 07, 2018

Weight: 319.4

Work is stressing me out.

Monday I get home and baked some chicken. I had baked chicken tenders and avocado and tomato for dinner.

Doing well on my drinking water.

Tuesday - stressed out at work. So irriatated I wanted to pull everyone else's hair out. Just stay away from me!! DH bought me more sugar free koolade - chrystal light packets - the pineapple is delicious.

B: last of the maple cheerios, milk, vanilla iced latte

L: chicken tenders, avocado

S: balanced breaks

D: Chicken apple sausage, green beans

Got the girl and brought her over, she did her homework and talked about her upcoming birthday. In years past, I did not decorate the hough for Christmas until after her birthday. This year, she isn't over on her birthday and it will be two weeks before Christmas before we see her, so we have decided to have her birthday the first weekend of December, this will be about a week early, but with DH working 2nd shift, he doesn't even get to see her during the week. She just rattled on and on. She left at 8:00.

I cooked the rest of the sausage for lunch today.

B: last of the peanut butter cheerios (yes this is a thing)  - last of the vanilla iced latte (have no plans to replenish stock, as we have to drive out of town)

L: chicken apple sausage, fage yogurt

S: balanced breaks

D: pork roast

November has been a success with water and sweets! Will continue to drive on.

Have a great night! IP

Progress as of today: 2.2 lbs lost so far, only 109.4 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/07/2018:
Lots of good choices there!

BearCountryGG on 11/07/2018:
Congrats on the 2.2 pound loss!!!!

horn_of_plenty on 11/08/2018:
THE AVO AND CHICKEN TENDERS sounds yum yum yum good!

horn_of_plenty on 11/08/2018:
with work, remember how they NEED you! :)

innerpeace - Monday Nov 05, 2018

Weight: 319.4

Had a great weekend. I just can't bring myself to sit down at the computer at home on the weekend.

Saturday - we were running around. I ordered my new eyeglasses finally. The girl got her eyebrows threaded and then DH got some new jeans. I also found the Maple Cheerios, which are delicious.While shopping DH asked if I wanted a candy while waiting in line at Target...uh...NO!


B: waffle, egg, bacon sandwich, iced vanilla latte

L: maple cheerios, milk,

D: 1/2 French dip sandwich and bowl of tomato basil soup - restaurant

We went to a TGIF/Applebee's kind of restaurant before the play. I had a macaroni and cheese bite and a mozzerella stick off the appetizer tray DH ordered. Then I had a bowl of soup and 1/2 sandwich. I was very happy with what I ate. We then went to 5 and below - just wasting time before the play and again with the candy. NO I DON'T WANT ANY!! The play was cute and I did have 1 sugar cookie we bought at the play for a fund raiser for the kids.

Sunday - DH went shopping and I did laundry. Suprisingly the girl's mouth wasn't Sore at all, so she was pretty happy about that. I just say...YET. I'm sure it will get sore once they tighting the wires a little more. She has a great attitude about it though. I walked the dog and we found a little yorkie running around alone. He followed us. I knocked on one door and asked if the puppy belonged to them,, they said no. The puppy followed me home so I took him in the house. I didn't want him lost or snatched up or attacked by other dogs. The girl and I entertained Her for a few minutes and sure enough the owner came out and was walking up and down the street. I asked if she was looking for her puppy and we gave her back. Steve wasn't asking very friendly toward her and he was happy to see her leave. He is such a brat!

B: maple cheerios

L: beef jerky, white cheddar popcorn

D: spinach, artichoke ravioli with grilled chicken

S: cheese cake dessert - indiivudal pack - this is how I have to eat dessert in individual/pre-portioned sizes.

Very happy with my water drinking this weekend. And I stayed below my calores and was able to deal with it, so will start off this week good.

Have a great day! IP

Progress as of today: 2.2 lbs lost so far, only 109.4 lbs to go!

legcramps on 11/05/2018:
Sounds like it was a great weekend!

BearCountryGG on 11/05/2018:
GOOD EATING...and good saying NO to candy!!! And Steve was feeling a little jealous....how cute......you might have saved the puppy from getting hit by a car.......happy she is back home safe...and I'm sure Steve is happy too...LOL

horn_of_plenty on 11/05/2018:
SAME HERE, it's sometimes hard to come on here on the weekend and comment / post as i do during the week!!! :)

isn't it great getting new eyeglass frames!!!! so fun to get a new look...in my opinion!

Donkey on 11/06/2018:
Nothing wrong with having to have pre-proportioned serving sizes for dessert. Extremely helpful, I find...

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