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innerpeace - Tuesday May 16, 2017

Weight: 306.0

I have paved so many roads with good intentions...

Still logging food and not eating well at all. I had a sweet attack over the weekend and blew calories out of the water...

5/12 - I left work early and we went to Olive Garden for Mother's Day - should not have 3036 calories

5/13 - started the day off with a 3 mile hike and then went on a drive it yourself tour of Geauga county - 1364 - this is the first time since I've had a fitbit that I actually walked over 10,000 steps

5/14 - yard work and a big fat steak for dinner and more sweets - 3146

5/15 - Monday was super busy at work and didn't make time to write in the journal because some days I just don't want to reituerate to myself the fact that I haven't been doing what I'm supposed to be doing. - 1262

DH said we should go to bed early so I could get up to exercise...OK. Couldn't get up so guess what, I will just keep trying. I know I can, I just have to get my mind set straight. I was looking at the calendar and need to jump on the C25K train if I'm going to make my 5K goal by my birthday. I will see what happens tomorrow morning or maybe tonight.

We do have a hike scheduled tonight #2 of 10 for the hiking stick badge.

B: toast, peanut butter, ice tea

L: lean cuisine panini, apple

S: balanced breaks

D: subway I think - due to the hike

Have a great evening and never quit trying!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 05/16/2017:
lol, i got an email that you commented, but there's no comment :( i gotta write to you later...busy work day lol....

stay well IP!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 05/16/2017:
Do not worry, IP, even at slightly over 3,000 cals, you can GET BACK ON TRACK as soon as you can. You can always fix up a mistake! Weight is a variable and forever it’ll vary so do not worry that the damage you did is ever going to be permanent as it need not be ! :- P

If it makes you feel better, lately I was eating more also. Maybe change of seasons or more stress…I have been giving in but this time I notice it & notice I have to stop! Lol. I can feel myself entering poor patterns now…and reverting back to old habits…when this happens I try to drink sugarfree drinks or caffeine instead of extra sweets. I am trying to also stay ahead of the game, not go back to all bad habits. It’s always easier to go back to a habit because even if it’s unhealthy, the bad habits are ingrained in our brains as the way to act first…breaking the habit and new habits we teach that are healthier are not as ingrained…we must force ourselves sometimes not to accidentally play into the old habits! So hard!

I will say in my opinion, sleep is most important over exercise. I have had breakdowns due to lack of sleep. Those sucked. No sleep bc my hours were too long at work, I had no life balance….that’s done now, thankfully.

How does the lean cuisine Panini taste? Is it at all like one? I never tried those.

Donkey on 05/17/2017:
I love when you say, "I will just keep trying". Yep, keep trying, do not give up. If you keep actively & consciously trying, eventually it will click.

innerpeace - Friday May 12, 2017

Weight: 306.0

I was over busy at work yesterday, like I didn't even want to start anywhere so I just sat and stared at the computer. Bits and pieces....it eventually all got finished.

...just stupid people doing stupid things that are supposed to make regular/normal people keep sane, not really working for me.

Eating as been ok, still in the good calorie ranges. Will post when I don't forget my phone at home.

A few hikes planned this weekend and the girl leaves early on Sunday to go be with her mom on Mother's Day.

Will check back in. have good days.

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 05/12/2017:
Happy Friday IP!

OMG this week was like your day yesterday at work. I was busier than I’d ever been in like 6 months this week even with boss away on vaca. My boss blows big loads! Lol. gotta say it somewhere!

I agree with you. why are there stupid people that CAUSE trouble in our workplaces. Why do some people think it’s ok to rattle other people’s worlds? Do they not realize that we need jobs and to work also? I need to work. I don’t need the boss’ secretary looking at me and watching my every move like I’m an inmate in prison! It’s so annoying. When people say hi to me…she looks at WHO can possible say hi to Jackie!? It’s sick, IP.

I wish you a great day too…

The hikes sound so good. What a nice way to be outdoors and enjoy the weekend. Happy for you, IP.

I am going to try to get outdoors today after work. I was lifting a lot of heavy things at work – so only if I feel well enough with my ankle will I go walking/jogging at the park. I hope to do my usually 2mi exercise of walking/jogging today instead of this weekend as the weather says rain.

innerpeace - Tuesday May 09, 2017

Weight: 306.0

I left work early on Friday...for reasons...stupid people! Went home and went shopping with DH. Saturday we took the dog to a dog social - LOL - it had lots of dog stuff and dog vendors and he even got a free nail clip and tattoo. He looked really cute. Sunday DH and I went to an Amazon close out sell. Crazy stuff and crazy people all crammed into a large storage shed. I think we did spend $8.00 on crap for the girl. (writing pads, head bands, coin purses, etc.) It was raining and crap all weekend.

Thurs: 1667

Fri: 1361

Sat: 1902

Sun: 1613

Mon: 1659

Still eating more calories than I have been. I will hopefully be better when DH gets back to work. The YA has been over a lot and even brough his girl friend over to eat with us. She is ok, can't really say for sure yet.

DH is hope today and started the porch rail project and I am so proud of him for attempting this.

I mowed last night.

I'm just not that into my plans as I need to be - I'm hoping this mindset will change, still waiting.

Work is crap this week - deadlines, stupid people - don't mix.

new projects tossed on the pile...stressing me out.

have a great night! IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 05/10/2017:
hi IP! you are eating really well! I am looking at your overall calories. so even though you say you are eating more than you have been...it doesn't look that way to me - your calories are totally good, all days!

wow, if YA brings his gf to you for a meal - it means he likes you guys and also that you know how to cook! both things! cheers to that!

work is always WORK!

also...you write how you are "just not into things and hoping the mindset will change"....it's you to decide if you want to change or not :) sometimes if you have too many goals or too lofty goals it all becomes too much and we prefer to do nothing instead....you have to decide if your goals are overboard or attainable :) then you will follow through easier.

i'm reading books now on success and habits. really good books.

Horn_of_plenty on 05/11/2017:
i just don't understand why some people can be so hurtful and/or evil. at work there's this woman in particular who just is out to get people. why oh why. never in my life, except 1 time when i was 6yrs old and a little girl and stupidly bullied someone shyer than me, aside from that, never have i ever wanted to be hurtful to others.

i wonder what's with my boss and what on earth is going on in people's minds. how they can specifically choose to be such scum.

jayhawkjen on 05/11/2017:
I'm glad you're hanging in there!

innerpeace - Thursday May 04, 2017

Weight: 306.0

I got home and DH grilled pork chops, salad and boiled some potatoes. I finished the day with 1245 calories. I can tell my eating has changed - DH and I would have eaten 2 pork chops a piece, tonight we just had one. The YA ate two when he got home from work. I walked Steve and the YA walked his dog and we watched the CLE sports and then he went back to his grand mothers. I kinda figure he will be back more. He made the bed before he left - this...this small thing made me happy. Now if I can just get him to tone down the cursin, we would be just fine.

Tonight we have the girl, no real plans.

B: toast, (with JIF salted carmel hazel nut spread) - do NOT eat this! OMG it is so delcious but way too many calories (230 for 2 tablespoons), iced tea

L: flat bread, grilled chicken, baby bell cheese, clementines

S: blanced breaks

D: baked chicken, green beans and stuffing (dressing) whatever you call it.

work was slow - boss is out of town

It is to be wet and cold over the weekend - I even heard the S word from a forecaster - what in May? are you kidding me?

Have a great night! IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Donkey on 05/06/2017:
I usually save Nutella for my "relax" day. It's sooo good.

jabockov on 05/06/2017:
Darn you Jif, for coming up with Salted Caramel Hazelnut Spread! Ya got me where I live! (Used to live...) Note to self: "NEVER HAVE THIS IN THE HOUSE!"

Horn_of_plenty on 05/06/2017:
that's great he made the bed....did you tell him how happy it made you? i'm glad you are doing well...that you continue to eat well.

wow snow. i hope not!

happy-1 on 05/14/2017:
wow on the cooking! that's a big change!

innerpeace - Wednesday May 03, 2017

Weight: 306.0

DH made teriaki chicken and caulifower tots for dinner. Finished the day with 1443. The girl and I went and picked up ceiling fans, but one of them was missing screws so DH and the YA exchanged it.

It was a full house, it is something new to get used to having both of the kids at the house at the same time, hopefully this will become easier. Not only the kids but a large dog as well.

Was up this morning for zumba - very happy that I got up.

B: two egg whites, yogurt, iced vanilla latte

S: apple

L: chicken breast, cottage cheese, clementines

S: blanced breaks

D: I have no clue

DH sent me a picture of the ceiling fans after installaion, they look nice. Now one more project for DH...porch rails.

No real plans tonight, but to relax.

have a great night!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

mylilsista on 05/03/2017:
The "I have no clue" sounds Yummy! I think I will have that tonight for dinner (lol)!

Love reading the list of foods posted by DD subscribers. I get great ideas from them. I found the recipe for cauliflower tots on a website called skinnytaste.com

I haven't tried that particular recipe yet but I have tried many other recipes listed on that website. They were delicious & all of the nutritional information is listed for each recipe.

Anyway, keep up the good work!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 05/03/2017:
I commented on your below entry also!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 05/03/2017:
Cauliflower tots sound delicious omg yes! yum! I need to once again start roasting more veg for myself! they are so healthy! Today we had a work lunch and there was TONS of roasted veg...i a little extra and have some for tomorrow's lunch now too ;-) we got lucky - the one who did the ordering ordered really good food! Salad and roasted veg.

Good that DH is using his time off to do some home upgrades. i like this.

innerpeace on 05/04/2017:
I like this too! LOL

innerpeace - Tuesday May 02, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Monday I'm glad I made it through. I got home and DH cooked steak - maybe he needs to go back to work LOL. I shared with Steve and ended the evening with 1206 calories. This I like. I got hungry about 9:30 but got ready for bed and went to sleep, so I did OK.

Steve barked a lot during the night, since we are sleeping with the windows up he hears all sorts of things out side. The YA was over most of the evening and may even stay over tonight. This is OK for now, I just hope he doesn't move in...I don't think I'm ready for that. And DH must understand that if this happens, he must get back to school. On a good note, the YA made his own appointment to go talk to a therapist. I am delighted and believe he should have been going long ago. He has so much anger and then he has mixed emotions, feelings towards his mother he's not exactly sure what to think about things. I'm especailly glad since I had the conversation with him when he said the girl's counseling sessions were "stupid". So wow...happy about this.

DH is home with an electrician installing two electrical outlets in the basement, two ceiling fans (one in the living room and one in the family room) an then running electric to the shed, this was supposed to be a project for later on down the road, but since DH is home, we are getting it down - he may have to complete two more projects before he goes back to work - finish painting the basement and installing porch rails. He was also baby sitting the grand dog who just started jumping over the fence. DH said he has had to go chase her down twice this morning - Sit Daisy...Stay!! LOL

B: 1 boiled egg, 1 egg white, yogurt, iced tea

L: chicken breast, cottage cheese, two clementines

S: balanced breaks

D: not sure as of now

I know the girl is coming over tonight and we will have to go to Lowes or Home Depot and get the ceiling fans.

Did not get up to do zumba - legs very sore - took Alleve will get up tomorrow.

Have a great evening!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 05/03/2017:
Yes that's not cool how he said the sessions were stupid when he himself could use some - i'm talking of YA regarding therapy! I hear you, lady. If he goes back to school, it could be a technical one...like for auto mechanic? it pays decent better than a job without skills????

yes, better to just stretch and / or just rest sore muscles so they can repair and grow. rest so there's no injuries, YES.

also, you are back to your healthy self!

innerpeace - Monday May 01, 2017

Weight: 306.0

I am loving my DH not working!

Friday he cooked a ribeye pork chop it was so tasty. The girl and YA was over for dinner. Ended Friday with 1451 calories.

Saturday we drove to Orrville, OH and went to the Smuckers store. I was not aware that Smuckers company owned so many other brands. While at the store we found it was a stop on a Wayne County Cupcake Tour...why not. We drove around to seven other business within the county and received a cupcake from each one. We had a great time despite the rain and came away with 21 cupcakes. Afterwards we headed to Chardon and went to the Maple Festival. We had such a great time. I ended the day with 1980 calories. I ate a cupcake and had a gyro at the festival.


Sunday again both of DH's spawn were at the house, he cooked chicken and we walked the dog twice - the second time the grand dog was over and he just about pulled me around the block...I had to keep him on a short leash. I mowed the grass and started a domino effect down the block. I swear people are paranoid about their lawn...crazy neighbors. DH and the YA said something about the girls shorts being too tight, I took her shopping for new shorts. I just had a great weekend and I did not want to come to work today. Ended Sunday with 1639 calories and we sent the cupcakes home with the girl and YA.

This morning...I had to be at work early, however, I still managed to do 30 minutes of zumba and get to work on time.

B: 1/2 hard boiled egg (no yolk), yogurt, iced vanilla latte

S: apple

L: chicken breast, cottage cheese, 2 clemontines

S: balanced breaks

D: no sure what DH has out

I might find something to do this evening. Have a great night!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 05/02/2017:
InnerP! you look great all your hard work has paid off!!! i notice the weight loss and your hair i like long...looks so nice! talk more later...gotta get ready for work :-)

innerpeace on 05/02/2017:
Thank you.

Horn_of_plenty on 05/02/2017:
ohh...girlie looks good too. she can def join you in the exercise...she already looks wonderful and make more grown up from a photo i saw last time you posted...all of you do look great.

innerpeace - Friday Apr 28, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Totally busy at work yesterday because someone in our regional headquarters let something slip through the cracks...oh but it's my fault for waiting so long to check on it. OK, whatever makes you feel better! So I spent most of the day redoing work submitted - I tried to use the first copy but because of fiscal year change I had to redo it all.

Tuesday both the girl and YA was at the house and I had to go to wal-mart and was there forever...like 1 1/2 hours until someone could help me and then I ended up paying tax because I couldn't put tax on my work charge card. Well while we were waiting the girl was worried about the YA taking me away from her...wtf? I didn't know what she was talking about, but because the YA can drive and come over when he wants, has her worried I will 'like' him more than I 'like' her. She wants to be the 'favorite' or the 'one I like the best'...poor baby!

DH picked up Subway for us, I ended the day with 1865. Still eating a little too much for me.

Last night I helped DH do some work around the yard again and we hung lights around the pergola. It looks very nice.

B: yogurt, orange, ice vanilla latte

L: chicken, cottage cheese, apple

S: balanced breaks

D: round steak, dressing, salad

S: yogurt -

ended the day with 1646


work still sucks today and I will be ready to go home when it's time. We have fun plans for the weekend if we don't get rained out! I will be 50 in three months...I'm not taking this very well.

B: boiled egg and egg white, yogurt, iced tea

L: chicken salad, crackers

S: balanced breaks

D: idk yet

Have a great weekend.


Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Donkey on 04/29/2017:
"Work still sucks" --- thank you for giving those of us with jobs that suck some hope. When I read this, I knew at least I wasn't alone in how I was feeling.

I love reading your entries. Are you still doing Zumba and/or the gym?

Keep up the good work!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 05/01/2017:
it's funny how at work...once something breaks the pattern, habit, whatever...it's like the end of the world...as you are mentioning about something that happened in your office. same thing happened at my office with my stuff...i think i actually helped my dept out though...i heard them going over salary and hourly talk about my department. i feel good that i inspired those sorta managers to have to talk...lol....

work is such a pain sometimes. but always do things to keep your mind attended to life outside work...what i've been doing. so nice to do fun things on the weekend! or during week, whatever floats your (and my) boats!

Girlie is saying she loves you, lady. She wants to be with you. I guess just make her feel she can trust you will be there for her...as you are! Tell her you are there for her? as i am sure you do!

innerpeace - Wednesday Apr 26, 2017

Weight: 306.0

No gym, no library. I did achieve muscle failure loading and unloading landscaping stones on and off DH's truck. Sawed a limb off a tree and unloaded 25 bags of mulch. Had grilled pork chops, boiled potatoes and salad for dinner. yogurt for dessert. Ended the day with 1680 calories (thanks to the carrot cake).

DH got his hospital EOB in the mail today...he is fuming mad. Oh well that is the breaks of life, at least his knee is so much better. I think it is close to $4K that he has to pay...maybe. I will wait for the actual bill instead of going of the EOB.

We have the girl tonight.... no big plans. I have to run an errand to Wal-mart for work but I'll get that time back.

B: yogurt, banana, iced vanilla latte

L: chicken breast, cottage cheese, apple

S: balanced breaks

I got flowers today for Administrative Professional's Day. Flowers two days in a row...can't beat that! I also received a dinner and a movie gift card for $50. I guess my people aren't so bad most of the time.

Everyone enjoy the night! IP


Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/26/2017:
tofu bacon sounds interesting...talk more later :-D

OhioRaven on 04/27/2017:
Happy, uh . Administrative Professional-Secretary's-Day !

OhioRaven on 04/27/2017:
Happy, uh . Administrative Professional-Secretary's-Day !

innerpeace - Tuesday Apr 25, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Got home and DH had the left over spaghetti heated up. Not really what I wanted but I ate it. ending the night with 1403 calories. I walked the dog and did some yard work. Weed eated, swept and did beautification. We have a nice yard.

Slept ok, but dang if I didn't roll over and turn the alarm off again. What on earth is my brain thinking? I need to get up tomorrow and exercise.

Will probably help DH spread the mulch tonight, I don't think anything else is planned. I could go to the gym or library  maybe both depending on closing time.

B: crumpetts, peanut butter, iced vanilla latte

L: chicken breast, cottage cheese, apple

S: balanced breaks

D: I don't know what's for dinnerI


WORK: I did get some extra duties from work - which I don't have problems with - I feel trusted, empowered

A few weeks ago I took off to help DH get around after surgery and was called to fix a time card issue. I went home and logged into the time card system and fixed the problem so the person could get paid.  No big deal took me about 20 minutes.

Today I get flowers for helping. The supervisor is in another town and does not come to CLE very often and i was pleasantly surprise. Thanks for getting me out of a pickle he says - oh and happy Easter! So sweet! I was just doing my job and thought nothing of helping. The bad part of this story, he brought carrot cake into the office...i did have a piece. It was more delicious than my Cheesecake Factory dessert! Damn sweet stuff!!!! Damn it all to hell!

Other than that today was a pretty good Tuesday! Enjoy the evening - it is Prison Break night!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/26/2017:
Hello IP!

Great cals! I bet your yard is a beauty! After all, you enjoy arts & crafts and I’m sure you put a lot of effort into your yard. That’s another reason why I live in an apartment, lol. But this year, I did make efforts to do a little something in terms of decoration come holidays like Halloween as well as right now I even have a welcome sign hanging at my apartment door. It’s so nice to decorate, the whole community will enjoy your hard work. It’s always nice to have a hidden gem like your yard. :-D

If you need your rest, rest. Living alone, I do admit it’s easy for me to go to bed mad early when I want to. And I have at times (and for a week or so) when I do need it. I’m the opposite as you this week. I’m sleeping well lately and actually woke up an hour before my alarm today. So I cooked burgers and eggs before sunrise LOL. glad I don’t have to throw that meat away!

I see you want to do a lot tonight. Sometimes it’s best to do ONE of those three things (gym / library / mulch) instead of trying to do all…but if you are energized, why not!? I get you.

Those crumpets…tasty little things yes!

It’s ok to eat a slice of cheesecake. It’s when you eat a slice every day. Or when you eat the whole cheesecake – that would be the problem. You are FINE. Do not punish yourself for enjoying slice.

And I know the praise you received was well-deserved. CONGRATS IP!

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