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innerpeace - Thursday Feb 18, 2016

Weight: 314.1

Rough day at the office...annual inventory is sucking! Went to conference at the little girll's school she is doing ok, we are glad. Didn't do good with food today. B: bagel with cream cheese L: turkey, Swiss on honey oat Honey wheat pretzels Special K red velvet crisp (yuck) Getting home we decided to go play bingo - didn't win! Boo Ate one slice of pizza at the bingo hall After bingo we were starving so we drive thru rally's...dumb decisions some times. I are a rally burger and a small shake. Now I have nasty taste in my mouth. Ended the day with 2154 calories, kinda pissed with myself and it is so late!

I will Start again tomorrow!

Progress as of today: 7.5 lbs lost so far, only 104.1 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/19/2016:
Even though you feel you didn't do well eating, it doesn't sound like it was "excessive." not everyday will be "perfect" but days like these where we are more relaxed with food help us really make good choices later on! :) keep up the great work.

glad to hear little girlie is doing good in school :) it's thanks to you.

innerpeace - Wednesday Feb 17, 2016

Weight: 314.1

I had 1543 calories last night after eating dinner, which was the brocolli croissant ring. It turned out pretty good.

I spent the evening looking for a letter telling me I had to work at the next election at the polling place. I don't want to, and  now I can't find the letter to tell someone. I don't want to take annual leave to go work for 12 hours at a polling place. Not my kind of fun.

Today was much better, I can say I am 95%, tomorrow I will be great! I was pretty busy at work which made the day fly by, those kind of days I love.

B: blueberry bagel; cream cheese (DH gave me this heading out the door) it has been so long, I enjoyed it so.

L: ham, swiss on 12 grain bread, yogurt

S: string cheese,

D: taco salad with chicken DH was cooking the chicken in a crock pot, so I will see if this can be made.

We have the little girl tonight, not sure what is in store.

Everyone have a great evening. PEACE OUT!

Progress as of today: 7.5 lbs lost so far, only 104.1 lbs to go!

puddles on 02/17/2016:
Glad to hear you are feeling better. Have a great evening.

Awesome50 on 02/17/2016:
Enjoy your evening.

innerpeace - Tuesday Feb 16, 2016

Weight: 314.1

Yeah 4 day work week. but...it's Tuesday and man how Tuesday seems to just takes it's sweet time ending. I feel like I've been at  work for 12 hours and I still have two to go!

Took some alka seltzer plus last night before bed, but I still coughed way into the night. So much coughing my neck hurts. The good thing is...I am better today,  I can feel it. Tomorrow I will be good as new...hoping.

My town had volunteers knit and/or crochet hats, mittens, gloves for the homeless or destitute. People also donated hats, gloves, coats, mittens. Anyway, the Invest Elyria group took all these donated, made items and hung them up in the trees downtown where I live and then sent a facebook - social media announcement and told anyone if they needed something to stay warm to come out and pick it off the trees. This was just so nice. I wish I had know I would have donated, as my crocheting skills are lacking indeed. This made me happy.

DH is home again this week, he has a follow-up appointment on Friday and he will probably be released to go back to work on the following Monday. He is getting around better. He made it to his PT appointment, went to pick up the title to his truck, dropped off the taxes and made it home. He said he felt good and was attempting to snow blow, because....snow and more snow to come. I told him to be careful! He worries me. He over does it and then he will be in pain this evening.

B: quaker chewy bluberry yogurt bar; orange

L: ham, swiss on asiago bread, salted caramel pretzel pieces,

S: fiber one lemon bar

D: brocolli, chicken croissant with a salad

I will forever be searching for inner peace!

Progress as of today: 7.5 lbs lost so far, only 104.1 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/16/2016:
I am VERY glad to hear that everyone is doing better & on the mend!

I love those fiber one bars! tasty!

everyone is searching forever for inner peace, or that is anyone that believes in growth and renewal.

innerpeace - Monday Feb 15, 2016

Weight: 314.1

Last night calories totaled 1189 which was low but I never felt hungry so I'm ok with this. I think it was missing lunch and eating dinner at 3:30.

I was up at 3:30 coughing. I have taken everything OTC. It is subsiding but still really annoying. I stayed up until 5:00, went back to bed and was up again at 7:30. Took a shower and DH and I was out of the house by 9:00 grocery shopping. Hit the stores, DH had to ride the scooter at Walmart but we made it.

After shopping we went to eat brunch at a diner. I had two eggs, three pieces of bacon and toast. It was good and kept me full. The only thing bad DH picked up some hostess donettes that we shared. Calories today 1689.

Dinner I had naan with ham and Swiss. Coughing is better and I soothed it with some home salted Carmel tea...still raspy and scratchy a little better each day.

Laundry is done but not looking forward to going to work tomorrow.

Dress my dog up in his booties and jacket and took him outside for awhile. He doesn't like his booties and he doesn't like cold feet; he tolerated the booties. He's so cute.

I'm so hoping for a great week!

Progress as of today: 7.5 lbs lost so far, only 104.1 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/16/2016:
Sorry you are still sick...if you have to, go to the doctor for something stronger so that you can get better. My cough is pretty much gone now...took 2 weeks.

innerpeace - Sunday Feb 14, 2016

Weight: 314.5

It was -10 this morning so DH and I ditched the brunch. Probably a good thing since we like to eat. Drama free which I like. DH even texted his ex about the medical bill situation, due to the divorce decree out of pocket expenses should be 50/50. She doesn't have her 50% so she told DH to claim one of the kids on the taxes. I told him to keep it hat text...just in case.

Pretty relaxed day am hoping my cough will be minimal tomorrow. My body is sore from coughing so much.

Didn't play on phone the entire day so I didn't calculate calories yet.

B- toast two pieces of potatoe bread

Late lunch early dinner: porkchop, quinoa wild rice mix and kale salad. I are 4 golden Oreos and 1/2 cup of milk

Not too bad but I drank 4 DDPs which is over my limit!

Happy Valentine's Day!

Progress as of today: 7.1 lbs lost so far, only 104.5 lbs to go!

Duaa123. on 02/15/2016:
Have nice day ...

Awesome50 on 02/15/2016:
I'm the same way with diet cola. I really need to work on that too. I set a limit but don't always stick to it. Hoping your cough feels better today.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/15/2016:
at least it's diet DP's!! :-) kale salad sounds so good! nice job today. I love the taste of Potato Bread! Morton's is my favorite brand....

I hope your Valentine's was nice & that it's warmed up by you! have a very nice day & wishing you continued healing with the coughing. Mine has gone away 90%. Thankful for the extra rest at home this weekend & time to recooperate.

innerpeace - Saturday Feb 13, 2016

Weight: 314.5

Still with a nasty cough. My hobbling DH and I snow shoveled and snow blowed the driveway and sidewalks. Brutal cold at 11 degrees. We were outside about 45 minutes. I went and got y hair cut and then DH and I went to dinner. I are a pulled pork sandwich and a salad. Finished the day with 1641. I am ok with this and the drama free day.

Progress as of today: 7.1 lbs lost so far, only 104.5 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/13/2016:
I love pulled pork....so tasty. It's good by itself over cooked veggies or even cabbage! I'll have to experiment more with meats I think in the next few months or after I reach my goal weight. I want to add more variety of meat into my diet & maybe start cooking more of it myself!

Good calories, nice job!

Oh man, that is cold! Tonight it'll be 3 degrees and in the teens today! But we haven't seen 11 during the day since last year! I hope it warms up soon for all of us.!

Drama free here too. I hope you enjoyed & like your new cut!

My cough is on the mend, doing SO MUCH BETTER over here! If you get more of a chance to continue to relax, I am sure you will begin to feel better too!

grannyannie on 02/13/2016:
Sounds like a good day!

cybermom4 on 02/14/2016:
pulled pork is tasty. I have gotten into the habit of eating the pork and leaving the bread. They have a great pulled pork packet at Costco I think. It has been a while since I have been there. It may be BJ"s.

innerpeace - Friday Feb 12, 2016

Weight: 314.5

Perfect example of what not to do. Finished the day with 2500 calories. Had to do with Krispy Kreme donuts. Went to the drug store for more meds and DH picked up a box. I was mad but dang those are delicious evil things.

Little girl was over I was trying to ask her about everyone in the hospital. She said the step dad had cataracts, an abscess tooth and swollen feet from being diabetic. Needless to say he should be fine, I think over dramatic comes to mind. The grandma was cold, couldn't breathe and her heart was beating too fast so they called the ambulance to come and take her, not sure if her prognosis. The nephew came and got the little girl and took her I don't know where. We have her again next Wednesday.

I still felt bad today and stayed home from work. I slept most of the day. Feeling much better still have an awful cough. Tomorrow I just might feel normal again...hopefully.

B. Scrambled eggs, turkey bacon, toast L. Ham, Swiss sandwich D. A piece of ham not really hungry S. Peanut butter Chex mix (another mistake) but it was tasty. Finished the day with 1689 calories.

Will hopefully move around tomorrow.

Progress as of today: 7.1 lbs lost so far, only 104.5 lbs to go!

Duaa123. on 02/13/2016:
You know.. I think you should think about your username (inner peace ) .. we only can change from outside after changing form inside ... you can begin again and again many times ... hope you have great day

grannyannie on 02/13/2016:
Krispy Kreme is like crack! Best avoided!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/13/2016:
believe it or not, 2500 is not a terrible number and will probably NOT cause you to gain weight. just keep doing what you are doing the other days - and you will still see great progress!!!

so sorry to hear all the drama going on surrounding little girl :( wishing everyone health and healing.

innerpeace - Thursday Feb 11, 2016

Weight: 314.5

We did do Chipoltle for dinner. I had blackbeans, corn and vegetables with the chicken. I ended the day with 1681 calories.

Still not feeling my best. Head stuffy. I have taken OTC meds since it's onset and I guess I will have to make the dreaded doctor's appointment to get relief. A texted converation with my

DH.Leaving for PT do you want me to pick us some meds for you?

ME: OK. I don't know what else to take I told you.

DH: Maybe some day quil for your cough. You were coughing loud last night

ME: I'm sorry I haven't mastered the art of quiet coughing.

DH: It's OK just want you to feel better. Just want you to sleep good so you can feel better.

ME: I wasn't really apologizing I was being sarcastic. I slept fine and could hardly get up thanks to Nyquil.

I guess I have low tolerance, because I was knocked out. Woke up with dried slobber and snot all over my face and my eyes were glued shut with dried goop. This really sucks. Good thing today though the head pressure is not there and I have only coughed a litle, so this is good news!

Earlier today DH called me at work to ask, Guess who else is in the hospital? uh...I have no clue. He told me that his ex texted him that her mother was now in the ICU and that Maddie and/or Mickey would pick up the little girl tonight. What the hell? Who are these people. He tells me that Maddie and Mickey are the neice and nephew of his exwife.

It's a terrible thing this, but I truly believe Karma is a ****. And why wouldn't this mean ass lady who never takes care of her daughter anyway, not let the dad keep her while everyone is in the hopital and she said herself she spends every hour up there? This is selfishness in a nut shell! Well what comes around goes around., just saying. I'm glad tomorrow is Friday, I'm ready for a three day weekend, eventhough it is supposed to be a big ole, hot freaking 1 degree on Saturday!

I scheduled DH and I a sweetheart brunch at a hotel a few towns over,  I hope he feels up to getting out and doing something. He said his knee hurt after physical therapy!

B: chocolate chip and oat protein bar

L: baked chicken on three cheese bread, 29 pringles, apple

S: chocolate chip and oat protein bar; string cheese - I got a noee on my Lose I! app that reads - We've noticed on day s you have cheese, you tend to keep you calories lower!  That's cool.

I have no idea about dinner yet, DH said he took out pork chops. We will see. I am doing the shopping this weekend. ACK! But I was even planning a menu, to get this accomplished. Hope it works out like I want.

I was thinking crazy things this morning. What ifs and stuff that usually just piss me off. What if...the exwife's husband does pass away, will she want her old husband back? Would he go? This is crazy stuff I think about, I know it's not good and I'm usually not so insecure, but I've never had to deal with a husband with an exwife before. I'll shut up!




Progress as of today: 7.1 lbs lost so far, only 104.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 02/12/2016:
Good calories. Hope you feel better soon!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/12/2016:
Chipotle is awesome & tasty. I should go there more when I can!

Me too, I’m relying on OTC meds. They are doing the drink but I have this darn dry cough. It comes back every few hours to remind me that I need to take more medicine. And coughing during the night as well. I seem to be getting better though, it’s just going to take like 2 weeks & more rest…

Lol, I took the Nyquil too!!!! And yes, I didn’t want to wake up either! LOL…we are living parallel lives!

Sorry about the stress revolving around your little girl! So sad that all the adults in her life (aside from your side) are such selfish inconsiderate people. She totally doesn’t deserve it – no kid does…

Yeah, it’s cold here as well, though not as cold as by you! wowzers! Can’t wait for Spring & the warmer weather to come in just a couple months.

What brand is the chocolate chip & oat protein bar? Cliff Bar?

Lunch sounds like it hit the spot for sure!

So I guess the cheese is working out if you are having lower calories on those days! Maybe it’s because you are also more prepared on those days with a low cal snack which is the cheese...

Don’t let the ex’s stress you too much….their problems are mostly theirs – not yours. That’s why they are ex’s, right?

innerpeace - Wednesday Feb 10, 2016

Weight: 314.5

DH baked chicken last night and we had corn and salad. I ended the day with 1580 calories.

My head felt like it would explode. I took meds and got my blanket and just fell asleep in the recliner. I think I slep until 8:30. I woke up and went to bed. I was up at 5:00, did the dishes from last night, check on DH. He has been sleeping in his recliner because he can't get comfortable in bed with his knee not bending like he is used to. Showered, dressed and drove to work. Today was the longest day ever. I think just because my head is so stuffy and I didn't have a lot to do.

DH text and asked me If he could leave the little girl at her mother's tonight. Uh, sure, I don't care, whatever you want. He said he was feeling bad, his knee was sore, he thought he pushed himself too hard yesterday, he was even walking without his crutches. He probably over did it. He has another physical therapy appointment tomorrow. We'll see how that goes.

I was feeling a little better today, not so much pressure in my head, maybye this yuck is finally going away. I still have a cough it is a productive cough now, so hopefully it is working itself out of my system.

I miss my other job today, probably because I didn't have much to do, except cleaning out files that are older than the hills. Seriously I'm finding stuff in here older than I am, I can't see why they wanted to keep all this stuff. Who knows.

Can't see much happening tonight, I may explore the haircut option, but I will see how I feel.

Hope you all have a good night.

B: water

S: almond, cranberry bar (caused major gas) will not eat this at work again

L: turkey, swiss on multi grain bread, 29 pringles, apple

S: string cheese

D: TBD - DH said something about Chipolte - I don't know yet!

Progress as of today: 7.1 lbs lost so far, only 104.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 02/10/2016:
Good calories. Hope your dh's knee gets better. Hope you feel better as well.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/11/2016:
Glad you are starting to feel better. I hope your hubby feels better too :)

LOL...I am also def getting a haircut on Friday yay! and I also count all the chips I eat...or any snack that is countable! :) the best way!

Love chipotle...especially those sauteed onions & peppers!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/11/2016:
also, nice job on calories. Good eating in general. String cheese is a good snack! And there's so many healthy choices at Chipotle. You can even get a huge salad with extra veggies and a nice protein (they are all good - even pulled pork is good on salad!) and even eat a few of the chips if you want. As long as that's your grain & no other grains in the salad. I do this a ton. My grain many times at my dinner is chips.

innerpeace - Tuesday Feb 09, 2016

Weight: 314.5

I stepped on the scale today just to see. Since I have just been concentrating on logging my food and calories I am OK with this. I will slowly add exercise as soon as I feel ready. I know that is weird to say, but I'm just not ready to expend the energy yet.

Right now I'm fighting a head cold, I feel like my body is trying to drown itself in mucus. Yes it's that gross. I have a sore throat and cough I can't get rid of, my eyes won't stop weeping and I feel stuffed up but nothing comes out my nose, it runs down my throat, its all very disgusting to me!

Received notification about an EOB from my last insurance (the insurance I had before I started this job) and it was very aggravating news. It seems I owe $815 to a hospital for an emergency room visit that wasn't covered by my insurance. UGH OMG I hate, hate this. It seems that my husband's exwife took the little girl to the emergency room in October 2015 because her leg was swollen. (Her leg was swollen because she gets flea, mosquito, whatever bites on her legs and her mother does not put any kind of medication on them. The little girl comes over and I am slathering her up with neosporin and anti itch cream so she will stop scratching until she bleeds) anyway, she was at school and a teacher or administrator saw that her leg was swollen and thought that she was bitten by a spider so they call her mother and she takes the little girl to a hospital. My DH told her she could only use certain hospitals with this insurance. She gets pissy and says the school will pay for it, they gave her a form! My DH calls the school and the school says, we just suggested she take the little girl to the emergency room, we didn't say anything about paying for it! She is a pahological liar! So guess I will end up paying for the ER bill! This infuriates me! Their divorce decree states she is responsible for half of all the medical/dental bills that is paid out of pocket - but because of her situation - I can see us eating this entire bill. She is the worst kind of mother and human being in the world!

I know everyone is different, but this is how people who don't have jobs act: Scenario - her husband is in the hospital with an illness. She texts my DH and says I have not left his bedside except for an hour! OMG! I told my DH that if something happened and he was in the hospital, I would check on him throughout the day - (by text or face time) WHILE I'M WORKING and then come and see him in the evening! What can one do sitting there all day! I believe this causes undue stress and hardship. And besides you are always in the nurses and/or doctors' way. Just my two cents. but I guess you can more freely do that if you DON'T WORK!  Ok sorry about that, this just pisses me off. Oh and while you are there sitting with your nasty, smoking husband pawn your kids off on your elderly mother to tend to.

DH texted and said he took out the garbage. WHAT!! I'm so happy he is getting around better. I told him this was the good pain, because at least it will stop hurting eventually.

B: iced vanilla latte

L: turkey, swiss on multigrain, 26 pringles (yes I count themout), PB protein bar

S: string cheese

I don't know what is out for dinner, I texted DH and asked him to take something out, as I forgot this morning, because I usually don't do this.

LENT - I beieve I am giving up my iced vanilla latte (I was told milk increases mucus manufacturing anyway!!)

I apologize for my grossness and rant, but it is what it is!

Have a great day! PEACE OUT!

Progress as of today: 7.1 lbs lost so far, only 104.5 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 02/09/2016:
Excellent rant today.

OhioRaven on 02/09/2016:
Hey, maybe it's just me but I haven't had any excess mucus, cough, runny nose,watery eyes or stuffiness ever since I've been eating a spoonful of LOCAL Honey every day for the past couple of years. Try it. What have you got to lose ?

grannyannie on 02/09/2016:
Get over your colds, both of you. My cure: whisky, hot water, lemon, honey.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/10/2016:
I have the same sicky thing as you going on with me. totally running down my throat also....is so very gross indeed.

My cough was fully dry at first, now slightly mucus-y because of the darn phlegm running down into my lung / throat area I guess. but I seem to be getting over it. As long as I can get some extra sleep in tonight :) Last night...well..i was def up part of it lol...

don't worry, you aren't gross at all. you should see some of the things I have written on here.!!! and there's a nice man on here, OR, you should see what kinda stuff he's had to read ! haha

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