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innerpeace - Thursday Oct 05, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Here are food pictures...am very busy and even may have to stay late.


We had cauliflower and chicken Tuesday - it was OK, tasted kind of bland. DH doesn't season meat before he cooks it ine the house, that's like a step he misses, unless he is grilling outside. Ended Tuesday with 1360 calories.

Oh and Wednesday was regrettable.

We had coconut curry chicken, this was a bit spicy, but good. But afterwards DH and I went to Big Lots because they are having a moving sale and everything was 50% off. We picked up some stocking stuffers, never too early to get ready for Christmas. And then we talked each other into getting Frosty from Wendy's. We haven't anything sweet in 34 days, I wonder why we caved last night. And then, it really wasn't even that good.

Ended Wednesday with 1651...of course I'm over! OMG.

Sleeping crappy was awake of and on all night. I will lay off the caffeine drinks after 7:00 or so and see if this helps.

In October I do a flash fiction writing with a group of people, it is supposed to be mostly horror, but my brain doesn't think that way, so between this flash fiction writing and post carding, I have been trying to lessen the growth of grey hair. The moderator will post a picture and people submit their stories inspired by the picture. I like to put my imagine on paper, but sometimes it sounds better in my head and should be left there.

Tonight we have the girl. Will probably work on homework and/or the book report project. We are having skillet lasagna tonight, which we've had before and it is very good with turkey sausage and zucchini.

Tomorrow I took a vacation day and am looking forward to a four day weekend away from here. However, I will have to monitor email and ensure nothing needs to be corrected and/or fixed (new budget stuff) on Friday, which I'm OK with. I'm just so tired or sleepy, I may sleep all day.

So the Indians play tonight...GO TRIBE!!

Have a great night. IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 10/05/2017:
You sound exhausted, good idea taking a day off for a long weekend. The writing project sounds like fun and I too have no interest in that topic but it might surprise you...maybe you will enjoy doing something very different...as always your pictures are great...I have that pan too...does yours stick...mine does...and it isn't supposed to.

horn_of_plenty on 10/06/2017:
the food, especially the vegetables that i see in the last pics, is getting my mouth watering! I have NEVER cooked anything in a sauce like your tomato sauce dishes at the bottom - really, never. Only bought it already prepared LOL.

The cauliflower also looks great but i didn't see a photo! haha...

don't even worry about the frosty, it happens. and it's funny you don't even need the whole thing, even if you want it, because it all tastes the same as it goes down and then it's gone...i'm learning to enjoy sweets more in moderation because of this....because 50 calories or 500 calories, the taste is the same, just the calories keep adding up.

however with alcohol, i'm develping the taste to enjoy it more...not in abundance, but learning to enjoy it and be able to manage my calories to include it in my diet. it's relaxing :) And after my late dinner last night, the alcohol put me right to bed.

I hope you enjoy your vaca day!

innerpeace - Tuesday Oct 03, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Got home and DH had dinner made with the mini na'an bread. Little pepperoni pizzas. 471 calores. Ended the day a little high with 1511 calories. But pizza...so I'm OK with this.

I have to keep in mind that DH and I would eat an extra large pizza all by ourselves. That would be like 3 or 4 huge slices of pizza. Now I just had 2 mini pizzas (about 3 1/2 in diameter. This itself is a great achievement. And it was satisfying.

After, DH and I went to the craft (Halloween wreath) not really what I expected, but we made it. Got home and walked the dog. DH went to bed and I watched TV.

B: English muffin with pb & J

S: yogurt, black berries, granola

L: left over eggplant parmesan (which was nasty - I lonly ate some of it)

S: dried mango, balanced breaks (and I have a banana left to eat if I get hungry)

D: pan roasted cauliflower with chicken. We've had this before but it will surely taste different if DH is making it. He may or may not read the directions in their entirety.

The girl is supposed to be over tonight and there is another library craft (scarecrow) but I don't think I want to go to this one because I didn't buy any clothes to use and I don't want to go look for something today at the last minute - maybe...i just don't know.

Today's telmove call - fats - I'm learning more about fat than I've ever known...finally know the difference between saturated and unsaturated fats and trans fats...so this is helping.

Just a little move on the scale - anticipating big things later in the week.

Have a great night! IP



Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 10/03/2017:
Eating less than the old days is a definite win that I understand...saw your halloween wreath...VERY CUTE!

horn_of_plenty on 10/04/2017:
those pizzas look very good....and i can see they would be satisfying. my dinner was actually very similar to yours!

I had an Amy's microwave meal of cheese ravioli with what appeared to be only a smearing of tomato sauce (and tasted terrific!). it was around 450 calories, also satisfying.

i had some strawberries afterwards and was decently satisfied (though it doesn't fill the stomach the same way veggies do, but does satisfy with the heavier ravioli noodle stuff and inside cheese...) once in awhile it's great to eat less volume...i think this is why i didn't weigh tons in the AM on the scale, not filled with a lot of volume in my stomach lol....

horn_of_plenty on 10/04/2017:
great job on the scale moving downward!

innerpeace - Monday Oct 02, 2017

Weight: 306.0

I chose to be a recluse over the weekend. I did not leave my house.

Thursday I received a text from an old friend. i have known him for over 30 years and I met his then wife in 1986 (they divorced in 2001) when we were stationed in Germany. Anyway he texts me and says, just wanted to let you know the kids lost their mother on Monday. This is so sad, she was only 54. I told him I was sorry and hoped he was doing ok. He said he was sad but his kids were devestated. I can only imagine.

DH took the girl to get her eyebrows done again. This time she asked to go and said she did better because she knew what to expect. They do look really good. They ran a few errands.

Sunday, DH and the girl go shopping, I don't think I would have left my house unless there was an emergency.

DH tells me about the shooting in Las Vegas and now I doubt I will ever leave my house again except to go to work. It is just awful living in such fear. I quit watching the news and I had to quit watching Dateline because everything freaks me out.

B: English muffin with peanut butter

L: left over chicken chili, yogurt with blackberries and granola

S: balanced breaks

D: I think it is pizza we didn't eat last night, but we still need to use the bread before it goes bad.

The YA was apparently never hired for his job - the lady says he was just a 'ride along' I don't know what that means, but anyway the YA was supposedly hurt on Thursday -  a twisted knee or something and went to the ER; so the company is not going to pay for this visit. So I can expect a $125 bill in the mail.  I had asked the YA if they took his DL or SSN card and made copies he said NO. OK then you were never hired. Companies need ID to verify you are legally authorized to work in the US. Just suck it up and chalk it up to experience. I told him he needs to go to JVS (the vo-tech) or the Jobcorps and get his education. Because it's evident he DOES NOT know everything. I also told him February will be the last month I pay his insurance and he needs to get hisself situated. Yeah...I haven't heard from him since.

I cannot deal with this right now. I can barely get myself out of bed in the morning, much less get myself to work. I don't necessarily like my job (especailly the last two weeks) but I show up out of necessity. THIS, This is what the YA needs to understand. No one...likes to go to work, but we all need money so we go.

Depress much!! OMG and my entire body hurts.

I did get two post cards mailed off: one to Arizona and one to Russia.


Have a great night!! IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 10/02/2017:
Life is changing and it seems to be more degraded than ever. I know how you feel about going out in public...I don't like it anymore either. I know that sometimes the only thing that makes me feel better is to find an interest and throw myself into it...just me...not involving anyone else...something I don't have to share or fight for. We also have a kid we give money to every month...he has a genius IQ yet the handling of money totally escapes him...it's always been this way......he can memorize tables of numbers and actually so can our other son...they both have photographic memories....one is fantastic with money...the other can't handle it at all. It is so frustrating for us too....we worked hard and saved hard for what we wanted...as did our parents....and this one son has no clue....but he can answer any question you throw at him...so can the other one. My parents used to say that there are some people who are so smart they are stupid...they actually are brilliant and everyday things escape them..I worked for a brilliant doctor...that everyone just admired so much..when it came to medical issues...yet he left every cabinet door open, they had to actually take his scrubs out of his office or he would wear them dirty..day after day...he cam in wearing high green rubber boots...no socks and in fact I used to babysit for a 2 doctor family and he went to the office day after day with his hair sticking up in the air because he didn't know where his comb went...it never occurred to him to buy another one. His toddlers took their own medicine, straight from the bottle it came in..their babies wore dish towels for diapers...their kids ran the neighborhood in their underwear..I could go and on but I will spare you that...LOL

horn_of_plenty on 10/02/2017:
Hello IP!

This is my 3rd comment to you today….not behaving at work LOL at all!...i am not, I mean!

I know what it’s like to want to be at home…you know, especially if you live in a house (not an apartment) as you do, it can be easy to get held up with things to do….or simply to want to be home. Like you, I enjoy being home and going at my own pace.

I’m glad that DH is taking care of girl in that way for eyebrows….it is important to groom oneself…and it’s good for her esteem. She is young, she can shape herself (she holds the power to make herself the best she can be) so she has the power to turn herself into anything and everything she wants. I mean this physically, mentally, socially. I am happy for girlie with you guys!

I no longer have to do my eyebrows bc they stopped growing in very much…except, I may do them before vegas, maybe….although really they always look good in photos bc I used to pluck them so much that they now retain their shape always.

I am going on Vaca do Las Vegas in nine days! It is so sad but can happen anywhere. Oh…and the news is especially planned to freak people out….that’s why people with anxiety (some) don’t watch the news…I read it somewhere. The news blows everything into fear.

horn_of_plenty on 10/02/2017:
oh i was talking about the thyroid bc you really are active, you eat healthy...i do not see how you couldn't lose weight...i feel something might be in the way. because you do appear to do very well with yourself!

innerpeace - Sunday Oct 01, 2017

Weight: 306.0

This is the quesadilla we had Friday with lettuceand salsa of course. It was easy when we had left over chicken. 557 calories - ended the day with 1337. The girl and I worked on her book report some.

Saturday I tried to sit and relax and sleep on and off in my recliner (it was surely a lazy day) but then the YA and his GF came over and I had to at least get dressed.

They didn't stay long because YA and DH argue about job hunting. They took the girl and Steve and went to the dog park. I made the girl some flash cards for social studies on Ancient Greece.

DH and I stayed and attempted to made eggplant parmesean, however we didn't peal the eggplant and the peel was rather touch and we didn't use enough sauce, but it still tasted OK. ANd because the YA and his GF was there along with three dogs, I forgot to even taken a picture.

B: left over quiche

L: English muffin with peanut butter, banana, grapes and 1/3 apple

D: eggplant parmesean. Ending the day with 1296 calories


DH and the girl are shopping, I have laundry started and I am getting ready to do my first postcards.

We made a pot of chili and are having mini pizza tonight - just because we don't want the bread to get moldy. We hae thrown away so many bread lately.

Happy October! IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 10/01/2017:
Sounds like a busy weekend, Happy October to you too.

horn_of_plenty on 10/02/2017:
Hiiiii IP!

I really like the look of the quesadilla….those are sooo tasty you are really spiking a craving that I have for a grilled flatbread and I do own a grill and have tons of flatbreads at home….that shall seriously be my dinner I think! I think I’ll make it with egg and a veggie burger or something ….and if I don’t have it tonight, I’ll be eating a tasty microwave meal with cabbage….yes….another good option! I really wanted to make my cabbage roasted in the oven but ran outta time on Sunday so I quickly nuked it in microwave before it spoils….maybe I’ll recook it the right way tonight!

Lol…I know what you mean by having to get dressed…that is a better look than nightgown or house dress….yeah. better for the girl anyway to see you like that….but it is your house…

Wow….you made her the flash cards!? Maybe next time you and her split the making of the flashcards! She needs to be involved in that as even writing out the flashcards is something that helps her learn the subject matter, you know! But you are too sweet! She’ll get all A’s with you! Oh, InnerP! What a good lady you are! Seriously! Too sweet and caring. The girl will do well in school with all your guidance and she will one day be able to support herself….Teaching is an occupation I always recommend as it’s very rewarding, good salary and benefits, ample time off, well paying….just requires I think a masters degree everywhere?...

…Certainly teaching does in NYC but you can start working without a masters and then get it in college part time while you are already teaching. That is what I did…but as you know I only stuck with teaching 4 years…but I could have eventually sucked it up lol…but I left the field. I just think girlie could do it…is she ok at math? She can be an accountant…they make good $$$ too….there’s so many great jobs out there if you can specialize in something!

Lol no worries about no photo of the parm…just means you need to make it again!!!! I would love to be at your house….and eat all this great food! Omg so so so so good! And next time you can peal the eggplant! :-P but hey what a cool attempt! And to say it was still decent – how great….i want to cook like you IP! Haha…

A suggestion…if you eat cheese at one meal, try not to at the other…like you had cheese at breakfast and lunch….bc it is high cal maybe ruining your calorie count….but your calories are low….and I do see the size of your portions and they are small….so maybe I am simply VERY WRONG!...and you are fine as you are.

English muffin with fruit sounds wonderful…and the pb, good! Did you put the banana on the muffin with the pb…I used to like the taste of it that way! Also toasted it’s so nice!

So I guess the girlie didn’t join you with the postcards for this round? It sounds fun, I wonder who you’ll hear from! Do you know if it’s a male or female?

I keep my wraps in my fridge or they’d all be moldy too. The thing with wraps is that you don’t need to heat or toast them after they’ve been in the fridge – which is why I love them! Generally, my wraps have 100cal or less…sometimes slightly over the 100 cal – but there are so many brands to choose from, it’s quite fun these days. Sometimes I buy simple white torillas, sometimes high fiber types…and recently 50 cal small corn tortillas for a nice low cal option (they are small) and a flavor resembling a taco shell!

Enjoy your pizza and chilli….good mix of putting some fibrous chilli with the pizza…you can also have more veggies like a salad with it….if you find yourself still hungry?

innerpeace - Friday Sep 29, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Black bean burger - no picture - it's a black round piece of clump that tastes better than it looks, bread, salsa, avocado - 440 calories. Ended the day with 1453 calories.

I spent the evening making a quiche - for lunch.

Bad sleep last night as I heard people talking, thought the TV was left on, then I thought DH was home, but no, just scaring myself, I guess. My dog wasn't barking, so this is a good thing.

B: English muffin, peanut butter, raspberry jam, iced vanilla latte

L: quihe (ham, cheese, spinach, onions, mushrooms), yogurt, granola, blue berries

S: balanced breaks

D: grilled chcken wrap or quesadilla - which ever DH and the girl decide. It was supposed to be a chicken stir fry but I don't want that tonight.

Not a lot going on this weekend, my football team has a bye week.

SHould be time to relax, maybe get some errands finished.

have a great one! ip

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 09/29/2017:
We think we hear people sometimes too...especially at one end of our house...but we never see anyone....I know how that feels.

horn_of_plenty on 10/02/2017:
Hello IP! It’s Monday but I am starting with commenting on your Friday entry!

Yes, I love the Morningstar black bean burgers too…they are quite filling with a nice mix of protein : fat ratio! And not too many carbs. I used to eat a ton of Veggie Burgers from Morningstar bc I used to be a microwave chef…cooking just about everything in there, seriously! Thankfully I am slightly better now ;-)

Oh, I was thinking to get an air fryer but I don’t think I’ll use it enough? How do you use yours? I sorta don’t mind using my stove bc I do not pay an electric bill, it’s included in my maintenance same $ each month…I don’t think I could honestly use the air fryer enough for it to be a worthwhile purchase? It would be good for potatoes, though, to make fries….maybe I could just do that to eat more potato / sweet potato???? What are your suggestions about the air fryer? Can I cook salmon in the air fryer and is it hard to clean the air fryer from the fishy smell? I do not have a washing machine, btw…this is why it doesn’t look good for me….i may as well cook the fries in the oven, yeah. No biggie.

Your black bean burger dinner sounds so tasty and healthy. Nice amount of good fats! You can of course load up on the veggies, like a triple salsa portion haha…I’d do that anyways :-P…..

Quiche sounds so tasty yum…could you make a mostly egg white quiche for lower calories? And also, you can load up on the veggies in it….like triple the sautéed mushrooms? Do you sautee them first? I love when mushrooms are sautéed and nice and oily in an omelette or side for breakfast yum yum yum! Some might even get a lil crispy just yum!

Do you get hungry after that breakfast? I ask because I always do at work…when I only have my peanut butter breakfasts I’m always hungry in two hours lol. But I still bring it because I love eating it…

You remind me that I can make really delicious quesadillas and wraps too…I have a foreman grill to make them in! Just like a panini!

I hope you did relax! Food looks all awesome!

innerpeace - Thursday Sep 28, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Oh gracious!! I was fuming mad at work today. I responded to an email with intent to send it, but after I typed it I cooled off a bit and now it is...saved as draft (I still may send it)
This was in response to an email I received after submitting some requested documents for a janitorial contract....
While I appreciate all the work put into these documents (trust me I know, as I prepared them as well), regardless of the countless errors, especially with the statement of work, specifically in Part 2 #7 COR, #8 POP, #9 Key personnel (who even knows this?) and #15 because what to do with invoices if during the conference call it was discussed there was NO COR.

I will use these documents, because apparently the two days of research and work I did to actually prepare and submit the requested documents were not good enough, thanks for the slap in the face.

Now, being a lay person as I am and I would suspect all the other ASA's, except of course for Patricia, who is a goddess, how are we to know to submit all this legal goobily gook when you are requesting a statement of work? Does it never change, are these just form SOWs?  Is this not the job of the contracting office? Are you adding this extra stuff in hopes they will prioritize ER requests, again regardless of the errors?

And my final complaint is...if you were going to do it or be tasked to do it why on earth send it down to the WFO for their input? What a waste of time and effort and I just wonder about all the time that would have been saved if it just originated from ER in the beginning.

Thanks for letting me vent! Please, please don't take this personal - but one can only take so much frustration without spouting off. Oh come on you can take it...you're a New Yowker!

And then on another issue. I have received an email from six different people asking for the same information. Seriously, do these people not talk to one another and/or copy each other. This is just getting rediculous! So for this one time...reply to all just hasn't worked! Again so frustrated.

Ok...just had to releive my frustration this afternoon.

DH said he would make the black bean burgers again since the butternut squash went bad.

We have the girl this weekend. I can see book report in my future.

Have a great night!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 09/28/2017:
That's a weird email. She told you that you are a New Yorker!? no you aren't...? omg. sounds nutz.

innerpeace on 09/28/2017:
LOL - No I wrote it to her. She's in Long Island and talks like a member of the mob. Crazy girl.

horn_of_plenty on 09/28/2017:
LOL oh my...so you wrote only the last piece? or the whole thing? HAHA

innerpeace on 09/29/2017:
I wrote the whole thing! Because I was tasked to do something that took me two days to do. I send it to our HQ and then I get an email, telling me to use something they provided instead of what I submitted. When I read the crap they sent me, it was full of errors and mistakes and did not pertain to the needs of my office. It was truly frustrating. And then on the conference call the stupid girl wants to giggle all the way through it, I finally told her nothing is funny here...she said...it is to me! Well yeah, you stupid moron because I have to fix all your mistakes.

My point being, if they were going to tell me to use something different, why did I have to waste two days of my time creating an original document.

bearcountrygg on 09/28/2017:
Ok...maybe she is a member of the mob.

horn_of_plenty on 09/28/2017:
btw, i do think you should have your thyroid tested...

innerpeace on 09/29/2017:
WHy? but this was done in July, it is fine. I have a 9mm growth on my pituitary gland that they have to keep an eye on. MRI's suck and I hate when I need one.

horn_of_plenty on 09/29/2017:
oh, it IS your whole response...holy...i think you spend too much time on your response!!!!!!!

meaning, why did you let the BS get to you so much??

innerpeace - Wednesday Sep 27, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Got home and DH was cooking dinner, the girl was in the shower, so I called my mom and talked to her about 45 minutes. Miss her so much.

I steamed some brussel sprouts and then we ate dinner. It was very good tonight. 302 calories - ending the day with 1345 calories.

After dinner the girl and I discussed her book report poster and then I did decide to go to my class. It is called Post crossing and you just register on a website and exchange postcards back and forth. I am excited to get started. The girl went with me and said she might do it. We then went to a thirft store and I picked up a few halloween costumes  - a jester and a giant pumpkin - whichever I decide I will give DH the other one to wear. I also picked up a set of butterfly wings just in case! Then I took the girl home. She lives almost 45 minutes away now, depending on traffic.

I got home and got lunches together and had a few extra minutes to post dinner! Tomorrow's dinner was supposed to be butternut squash risotto, but my squash is spoiled...so I'lll figure out something different to eat tomorrow.

Anyway, here's hoping tomorrow is better than today.

Have a great night! IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 09/28/2017:
Sounds like your day went better...except for the spoiled squash.....Does your Mom live far away?

innerpeace on 09/28/2017:
My mom lives in Oklahoma - 1100 miles.

horn_of_plenty on 09/28/2017:
Hi InnerPeace! Your food doesn’t look like a big portion, does it fill you? I am guessing yes because I did eat small portions like yours while in Colombia. I’d usually eat small portions on the go which is better when walking around and doesn’t weigh a person down or make them tired bc all the blood is going to the stomach for digestion! At home, however, I am basically back to my love to fill up so I’m pretty full on the veggies – and bulk up on the volume of my dishes. If you are sticking the potions that I see on your plate, I want to congratulate you bc you have seemed to solve the hardest problem of so many which is portion control.

Brussels are def very filling – I’ve been eating lots of them and cabbage lately. So nice when they are roasted like you did. With meat it becomes very satisfying for a meal and lately I do end it also with some chips or other carb bc it satisfies me and I don’t feel like I’m denying myself that energy source (chips / carbs).

Totally love the idea of sending postcards back and forth but you have to be careful who you are sharing your details with !!!!!!!!!!! be careful!

Yup, sorry your squash is spoiled. …You remind me that like Sunday or next weekend I should cook my pretty spaghetti squash to take with lunch to work !

I hope you find something to eat tonight – I know you will!

innerpeace on 09/28/2017:
Yes portion control. This has been very difficult, but it shows me just how much we were over eating. I am eating enough, matter of fact sometimes I feel I eat too much.

Today I was just busy and didn't eat my morning snack and I thought my stomach would gnaw a hole in itself before I finally ate lunch. The whole weight loss thing is brutal!

innerpeace - Wednesday Sep 27, 2017

Weight: 306.0

So another crap day at work. I don't remember having this much trouble last year. I just quit for the day - I can't think anymore. So now one more meeting and I should be finished. I just don't know when that meeting will be.

DH and I walked Steve yesterday, it is strange to see the leaves falling of the trees and yet it is 90 degrees. Cooler weather is supposed to arrive tomorrow. My Steve will be 5 tomorrow...love him so!

DH grilled some pork loin seasoned with soy and ginger, it was very tasty but a little dry, and then we had an Asian tossed salad. 408 calories Ending the night with 1337.

DH informed me he is down to 301.3 - I'm very proud of him. Even last night he started getting the shakes on our walk because his blood sugar was low - we had ate dinner about an hour before, so he had to eat 1/2 peanut butter sandwich and drink some juice.  He said he weighed 295 before surgery, so he is doing good.

I am doing well too, well enough to stick to what we have been doing. The telemove call today was getting people involved...yeah, still can't bring myself to say anything at work, so this is my involvement!

I did send an email to a group that is supposed to meet once a week for games, movies, socialization and stuff like that, just to see if i'd be interested, but no one has replied yet.

YA did get the job and has been nonstopping complaining for two days. And then today he texts DH and says he fell and his knee went out and he needs to go to the doctor. This boy y'all...just don't want to work. He is a lazy manipulating, playing-the-system, what can I get, kinda person. it is really hard to be around him sometimes. OMG.

And the girl is supposed to be over tonight, and I have a post card club I signed up for, haven't determined if I am going or not.

So dinner tonight is supposed to be orange, maple glazed chicken. Will see how this turns out.

B: mixed berry cheerios, vanilla iced coffee

L: ham, cheese, mushroom, spinach and onion quiche, grapes, yogurt

S: balanced breaks

Have a great evening!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 09/27/2017:
That is too bad that work is being so difficult, hopefully things settle down soon. Your dinner sounds and looks good, tonights dinner sounds good too. Bummer about YA.....when young people don't get it...someties tough love is the only option...I've been meaning to ask you what Balanced Breaks are.

innerpeace on 09/27/2017:
It is a packaged snack from Sargento - this one has dried cranberries, cheese and roasted almonds. It is 180 calories.

There is another one with raisins and golden raisins, cashews and a different kind of cheese - i don't particularly like the cheese in this one - I can't remember which cheese it is. They are good for an afternoon snack.

bearcountrygg on 09/28/2017:
Okay...I've seen those in the deli aisle...I've been tempted..but haven't bought any yet....I was thinking the balanced breaks might be protein bars.....I'm surprised...they do look good.

innerpeace - Tuesday Sep 26, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Today - not a good day at work! OMG I am so fed up with some cocka maimy crap, I want to go the Inspector General or freakin' auditor or whoever I need to complain to, seems no one I know can help.

One lady tells me to do one thing - and I get error notifications. I fix the error notifications like she tells me to and I get error notifications AGAIN! what the h$ll?

Anyway, last night DH and I started the girl's book report, probably shouldn't have, but we were talking about it when she was over last, and she said she wanted to do it. We just traced a drawing of a van on the big poster board she is going to use. She will be over tomorrow to critique our work. I read the book she is doing so I will be able to quiz her and get her ready.

The YA was freaking out all night about going to work today. He is just an awful, awful, lazy person. And he gets an attitude if he doesn't get his way. He thinks he is entitled and shouldn't have to do anything and everything he wants should be handed to him. This aggravates me and I know I have tons of gray hair because of him.

And then, today it is supposed to be over 90 again, so they closed schools. Seriously? I didn't have my school closed when I went. Are kids that much more important than I was years ago? No of course not, but they are babied and spoon fed and coddled up until they graduate college (if they do) and are carried on parents' insurance until then. And when they get out into the real world they are in for a rude awakening. Adulting is hard and it s@cks most days!! Welcome to the real world!!

OH we had a meatless Monday and DH made spinach and ricotta ravioli with pesto and salad. It was pretty good.

509 calories. I finished the day with 1380 calories. I am happy with this.

Also happy that the scaled moved again and hopefully will be under 300 by the middle of October. I'm so excitied. I guess my morning TeleMove call is helping along with the better eating plan.

We haven't eaten out since August 27th.

B: mixed berry cherrios, iced vanilla latte (DH found another box)

S: yogurt, blackberries, granola

L: tomato, avocado, walnut pasta salad tossed with a little olive oil and parmesean cheese

S: balanced breaks

D: pork loin supposedly, but DH said he might make another black bean burger - whatever is fine.

So tonight maybe get to relax a little. I have a yoga DVD I want to try. We'll see.

Have a great night IP!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 09/26/2017:
KIDS....They can be difficult for sure...and I agree..we sat in hot school rooms...but times are different...entitled...yes..we were just glad if there was a roof over our heads and we did respect adults...today kids seem to thin they are the boss. Frustrating! Your meal looks so good again today...and congrats on the scale moving..I know you have been waiting for this event...and it finally happened...YEAH!!!

horn_of_plenty on 09/27/2017:
Good Morning InnerP!

With the error notifications – sometimes our estimating program software (which requires connection via internet all the way over in California while we are in NY) goes offline and/or just isn’t working correctly. We can only complain to IT…and there’s an actual process where we have to actually email the IT dept (in CALIFORNIA!) and then the IT dept here gets the email also and attempts to and/or actually institutes a fix. Do you have an IT dept? This is prob where / who you need to process your complaints to!? Or maybe your office is small…and that’s not possible? Seems not many people know of a fix! Obviously that lady who “helped you” didn’t help you….lol. sorry!

Awesome how you both are helping girl with report. She will do well. And she will understand it bc you are going over it with her. Good guardians do this. My parents always helped me (maybe too much) with science fair projects….but not enough with book reports…especially in high school I’d just read the Cliff Notes versions instead of the books – bad idea – my ability to write well suffered thru HS and college I stunk. And my reading vocabulary is putrid. Just sucks. However, I have improved with age as well as bc I now do enjoy reading! Hopefully this will not be girlie’s fate! She sounds off on the right track with you!

You know – with the YA freaking out – he might have some level of anxiety. He needs help in calming the nerves. I have freaked out also before new jobs / first days / after a long summer vacation when I was teaching….he needs to learn to quiet his mind. If he ever traveled – like I did to Columbia – he’d see how different it is – and how we are all mostly so much more entitled here in US compared to the lives I saw of those in Medellin. It’s so different in other places, I think YA is also stuck in the bubble of his mind. Maybe you can help him see this – in some kinda understanding way. Help his realize it’s normal to be nervous before a new job first day….give him some tips on how to act. To be confident. To not talk back. To listen well before asking questions….etc. To watch how other coworkers act and copy that behavior of the ones who seem to not bring all the attention to themselves. To never provoke arguments or argue with authority. To be respectful of all….etc. and to try to work in an efficient manner / not waste time / be on time, etc.

Oh – I know the YA aggravates you – try not to let it so much…it’s outside stress out of your control. It’s his own personal decisions and actions affecting you. You can only limit it by limiting his being around you – and you can only influence his decisions – but you aren’t in his mind making the choices – so realize you cannot control it completely….you can help me / help influence him in constructive thinking and guiding him towards better decision making – but maybe have lower expectations for him so that he doesn’t unnecessarily stress you out as much!? You know!? I think you choose to give too much of a F#CK about him…and that is unnecessary stress on you…easier said than done, but I certainly do recommend this. Realize you can influence him, but you aren’t him.

Your meatless Monday meal looks amazing IP! So good! Salad looks so tasty! Yum! Being home from Columbia, I am seriously enjoying veggies although today I brought semi-old veggies to work and maybe I’ll throw the rest out for tomorrow…lol. I bought them the night before my trip last week…so Wednesday night and I am trying to finish those before I eat the better ones that I bought recently this past Monday night lol….I am so glad I was so prepared with veggies for my return. I missed them SO MUCH in Colombia but had tons of fun eating fried food (small portions) and having a drink with it every day of my travels.

Man do veggies help fill you – as I realized once I started including them with my food again – I felt my stomach feel fuller than it had in days! Awesome! And it’s true – not that much meet is needed in a diet…I have learned (over the course of this summer especially and partial springtime) to eat more moderate portions carbs, big portions of veggies always…and less meat. It’s so much easier to balance calories by having a nice, but moderate, (NOT TOO LOW) amount of carbs mixed with veggies…and decrease the meat part since it doesn’t provide rapid releasing energy there’s simply no point towards gorging on meat – in my opinion, it can make you fat bc you don’t feel any energy by eating it! !!!! just thinking this now. And that is my true feeling. Eating carbs will calm any hunger or low blood sugar and carbs and tons of veggies work to fill stomach. I still enjoy protein / meat but do not anymore need / want huge portions. When I had dinner Monday though, I did eat a lot of turkey…as I had very limited meat on my trip and I think I was craving both meat / protein and vegetables, LOL….i think you get what I am saying – sorry to drift off on the topic!

But I have more to say – a week and a half ago I went to a fair around here and enjoyed some ravioli myself…lately I am able to do what in the past I could never do – enjoy carbs in moderation! I like to mix them with no cal drinks or alcohol. It’s still moderate and decent calories. I am learning how to eat more moderately – only this past year – to be able to eat more high cal foods but not binge. It feels amazing. I usually do look to have them in addition to veggies – like I did last night with dumplings – had only 3 but tons of veggies so I was so full and a glass of beer…..but that’s good you can enjoy the ricotta ravioli. Life is meant to ENJOY and it’s great to enjoy all the good foods…and it IS possible if we can find a balance…my way of balance def includes gorging on veggies in addition to get that full feeling ….but I also enjoy the rich tastes now, in smaller portions of thinkgs like dumpkings, ravioli, fried foods, etc. It’s a wonderful thing to not feel out of control when faced with higher cal foods…and to be able to enjoy them in moderation and with my quick fixes (carbonated beer that takes awhile to drink, adding lots of veggies).

Your menu looks good – but all the food are so rich in calories! Did you know? Well breakfast is light I see. …cheerios are not high cal and iced vanilla latte is a simple portion so that is oK!

The granola though it high cal….and the avocado / walnut / pasta is very richwith the olive oil and parm cheese unless you had a TON of tomato to balance it?..black bean burger dinnerwould be good and light, especially to eat over a large veggie mix… and your plans to either do yoga or relax sound great.

But not eating out for so long is simply AMAZING! Why would you except for convenience only since you sure cook better than most restaurants!!!!!!!! Go you! I do enjoy your food and I’m so glad the telemove is working out nice for you.

You will reach your goal, you may have to eat slightly more veggies and slightly less of your amazing food. Although overall all, your amazing food is usually in excellent portions and not too heavy. Also, instead of rice filled stuffed peppers, you can maybe stuff them with a “fried cauliflower rice” that would be most awesome lol. And some ground meat? Or egg in with the fried cauli rice? Try to see ways to reduce more carbs for veggies at times…it’l lhelp lower your cals quite easily. I loved your idea of the zucchini lasagna.

innerpeace - Monday Sep 25, 2017

Weight: 306.0

I think I missed posting on Thursday - but we had the home version of the Monte Cristo - This is my favorite ever...with turkey bacon and some raspberry jam. I ended the day with 1780 calories - way over my limit, but again it was delcious.

Friday was hell day at work and today Monday I am trying to clean everything up - but I took 1/2 day of SL for my annual smash my boob party at the radiologist. We had black been burgers. I didn't take a picture of this.

Saturday  we were out running errands and went to a few garage sales, I found a new clock. We canceled our YMCA membership, because we don't go. He slept before work and watched my college football team win again, while I created the menu for next week. We made these black bean burritos with the panini press - put refried beans and cheese and salsa inside. Ended the night with 1089 calories.


I ate toast for breakfast and drank the last of my iced vanilla latte. I tried to make the zucchini enchiladas, but unless you have knife skills from the culiarny arts college, I couldn't get the zucchini sliced thin enough to roll up, so instead we had zucchni and chicken enchilada lasagna. It tasted good, but there was a lot of water in the pan after cooking, which was very nasty to me.

The YA and his stinky GF came over and stayed for dinner, this put a damper on my left overs on my menu, but everyone enjoyed the noodleless lasagna. I ended the night with 1155 calories.

This morning was up but stayed away from work for my annual mammogram appointment at 11:00. It was over pretty fast and I was at work before noon. I hate it though!

Tonight is Meatless Monday with some spinach and cheese pasta. There could be a few more bad days of work, and then hopefully it will be over for a few weeks unil the new money comes in...if it does.

I think the YA got a job today. So excited and hope it works out. He said they called and asked him for his measurements to issue uniforms. So YAY!! for him.

Have a great night! It is rather hot and humid here to be the end of September!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 09/25/2017:
Your food pics always look so good...Keeping my fingers crossed that the YA did get the job.....maybe his girlfriend can afford a bath then...LOL........I hear you about the mammogram...I don't like them either. Hang in there at work...hopefully the funds come in.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/26/2017:
OMG girl you can COOK! Seriously, you could open a restaurant.

Saturday's burrito looks AMAZING !!! and i hope everything went well at the radiologist / boob party.

Yeah, i guess maybe if you AIR FRY the zucchini?! would that remove most of the water? You somehow have to get more of the water out of the zucchini before baking...it does look good in the photo! yum. Maybe try it again....do something to remove the water...maybe roast the zucchini first?

Did they all love the lasagna!? it's much healthier! way lower calories! Nice job seriously!

It's rather warm here also for the end of September in NYC! loving it!

Good luck to YA!!! wonderful, wonderful news!! :-D

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