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innerpeace - Sunday Aug 27, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Having issues with food!


Missed my mother called her, missed my son called him.


Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 08/27/2017:
Yeah...I'm having issues with food too.cleaning always helps me get out of that rut....I guess that's why I'm doing a closet overhaul today somehow it makes me feel like I'm back in control again. Food was always my go to problem solver.but in actuality..it caused more problems then it solved...Hang tough...you will get through this.

horn_of_plenty on 08/28/2017:
nice to reconnect with family....feel better....you'll always get back on track with food because you have a GREAT mindset of success, IP!

innerpeace - Thursday Aug 24, 2017

Weight: 306.0

 A little stress at working, trying to spend our money before they snatch it away. It is best to let them snatch as little as possible, but this time, they may get more than usual.

Girl started back to school yesterday. We will see how long she goes to this school. Since they moved they are in a different school district and her mother is supposed to take her to school and pick her up everyday. The step-father said he had a business to run and wasn't going to waste his time taking and picking up the girl from school. This is a terrible sore spot for me, so I'm just hoping she can continue to go to school everyday.

YA hasn't been over in awhile since DH told him to find a job, which he hasn't yet.

DH and I talked about the YMCA membership last night, again we are not using it. He can only swim for now and they have swim lessons on the evening and times he can go, he feels he should be able to use the pool whenever he wants. We will see what happens.

I finally did the HemeOccult (poop-card) the doctor sent home with two weeks ago.

Tried to get up early for the run; however, I overslept again. And I ask myself how much do I want something or am I just super lazy. The only thing that should be tired is my brain.

Dinner last night was pork loin, green beans and rice. I had a yogurt for dessert.

B: toast, vanilla iced latte

L: peanut butter sandwhich, cheezits, yogurt

S: balanced breaks

D: Not sure will be surprised when I get home.

Have a great night.

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
It's a little pricey but you can get them used on ebay... the fitbit charge 2 that I have is pretty accurately telling me how much I am sleeping and guiding me to more efficient sleep so I am feeling a lot better. You are awake for various minutes while you are sleeping and if you are sleeping inefficiently you might only be getting 6 hours or less during a 7 or 8 hour period. When the Fitbit tells me I have had 7 hours for multiple days , i have the will to exercise.

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
It's a little pricey but you can get them used on ebay... the fitbit charge 2 that I have is pretty accurately telling me how much I am sleeping and guiding me to more efficient sleep so I am feeling a lot better. You are awake for various minutes while you are sleeping and if you are sleeping inefficiently you might only be getting 6 hours or less during a 7 or 8 hour period. When the Fitbit tells me I have had 7 hours for multiple days , i have the will to exercise.

bearcountrygg on 08/24/2017:
How much do they charge for the ymca membership?

innerpeace on 08/27/2017:
It's about $85 per month for the family.

bearcountrygg on 08/27/2017:
Do you think it's worth it? I will say...that back in the day when we had a pool, we did spend about $100 a month on chemicals.

innerpeace - Wednesday Aug 23, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Ok the last couple of days. Yesterday i was up and doing the c25K program again. I did complete it, but I am still doing it. I think it helps me just stay active.

Been doing the TeleMove calls and everything is working out well. It is frustrating weighing everyday though.

Last night we took Steve to the water park for the Soggy Doggy pool party, he had an absolute blast. It was fun watching him swim and play with the other dogs. There is another one Sunday, will think about taking him there too.

DH made his version of beef stronganoff with left over steak he cooked on Monday, it was pretty good.

Wednesday - had issues getting to sleep last night and then I was awakened about 3:30 and couldn't get back to sleep. And then I oversleep and rush around in the morning, trying to get ready.

B: toast, iced vanilla latte

L: left over beef stroganoff (about 1 cup), yogurt, cheezits

S: balanced breaks

D: I have no clue. I asked DH to get lots of vegetables

That is all about the diet stuff, but I am going to use this a my diary so feel free to stop here.

Yesterday on the way to the Soggy Doggy Pool party we went through the little town of Oberlin, Ohio. This is a little college town. I was shocked to see a rainbow flag flying high with the US flag and state of Ohio flag. Why is this not offensive? Why can this town fly this flag and not have people complaining like they complain about the rebel flag? I am by no means racist and I seriously don't care who other people sleep with - but I think I do have issues about this flag flying when the rebel flag has been removed as well as Confederate monuments.

Maybe they should have the position that if a flag represents a single party and/or group that flag shouldn't be flown, just for the reason it could be offensive to someone.

Ok that is all! Have a great night!




Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 08/23/2017:
I'm with you about the flags...then add statues...apparently too many people in this country are trying to rewrite history...guess the truth doesn't matter anymore. Some poor Asian guy named Robert Lee can't announce a sports game because of his name..Things have gotten totally out of hand. Makes me worry for my 3 and 4 year old great grandsons. I love to see what others are eating...and sometimes having to report here makes me decide NOT to eat something..either because I don't want to confess it..or because I just don't want to turn the computer back on...>LOL

innerpeace - Monday Aug 21, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Friday I drove to Pittsburgh with four others in my office to do a site visit and to go to a retirement party. It was a tiring dirve and all the socializing surely is exhausting.

DH picked up the girl for the weekend. We went to Cracker Barrel for dinner. I had bacon and eggs and French toast.. We were supposed to go bowling with my work people, but I was so tired, I didn't make it out.

Was up for the TeleMove call - topic was Slow down you eat too fast! Yes, sometimes I do.

Saturday  took the TeleMove call - topic was topic was spread the word - that I am trying to loose weight and inlist the help of those around you! I understand this concept, but I do not want the people at work in any of my business!

We went to a few garage sales. i have a vision of a clock wall, but I can't seem to find clocks anywhere. I think I have found five so far in the last two years. We then went on a scavenger hunt and walked almost 2.5 miles looking for the pictures.

It was hot and we were hungry so we turned in our sheet with 22 of the 25 clues found. We then went to a Russian food festival and I had beef stronganoff and green beans. It also had perogis but I gave mine to the girl. I don't care for perogies at all!

Sunday TeleMove topic was - changing my eating habits - this one I find hard very hard. Stayed around the house and did the laundry, not much else. DH cooked pook loin into jaegarschnitzel - it was pretty good, with mash potatoes and salad.

Monday TeleMove call - Dealing with stress, anxiety and depression. I wasn't hungry but I wanted that sweet ice cream last night. I wasn't depressed, sad, happy or angry. I wanted the ice cream. I need my will power to kick in hear and select a fruit or yogurt or something. Or hey, I know, stop buying it and bringing it in the house!!

down 2.1 pounds since using the TeleMove program - with that being said I have fluncuated by as many pounds as well weighing everyday so who knows.Tomorrow starts week #2.

Did not get into the eclipse hype, there will be another in 7 years, I may get excited for that one, it is supposed to be closer to me any way.

Have a great night! IP



Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 08/21/2017:
I eat too fast too...guess I'm afraid someone will see me eating...LOL You sure had a busy few days....I love my ice cream too....basically I think just about everyone does...keep it up....you got this!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/22/2017:
Hi there IP! I am soooo in the same boat as you about a trip with many people in car and work related stuff and the socializing…I get very drained as well. I NEED alone time, usually, in order to recharge and feel my best. But, maybe with the right man and right relationship, it could work where I wouldn’t need as much time alone…like what I have now, he understands me basically and it works out quite well. I just need someone a HAIR younger.

Better to rest than bowl. When you need rest, take it. Yup!!!! I am going to have to also curb my socializing if I want to keep my training. It’s a little of a challenge these two weeks….i have such good plans…..and want to keep my workouts. Soon enough I’ll be traveling so no workouts will be done! I don’t want to work out when I’m traveling – that is TOO MUCH! the travels will TOTALLY BE ENOUGH!

I also have a tendency to eat fast….but not crazy fast. One thing, if you are too hungry, you will want to eat faster. So definitely try to eat your snacks in a way that you are dampening your appetite at meals so that you aren’t ravenous – this is what I try….but yeah I always have an appetite to eat! Haha.

Like you, I lose weight on my own, without other people’s suggestions. I think you are also very good without the input of work – you do know your stuff. You taught yourself to jog. Just use the telemove which sounds really cool like you enjoy it. If work people bother you, tell them that you like to do it your way and individually on your own. That you have a plan already and not looking to change it.

Cool food at the festival – I bet the meat tasted great with the beans. We had an Asian festival with tons of grain foods – and later in the weekend I ate a dumpling. ONE WAS ENOUGH. Nice flavor but just a waste of calories / grains…when you have them in abundance. Luckily I had brought veggies too with the food my friend and I had at the park, so I filled myself up mostly on veggies along with his goat cheese on French bread and the dumpling! Haha. I had brought my chicken burger, salad, and marinated eggplant…veggies helped me to feel full!

Don’t buy things that you don’t have the willpower to watch yourself with. I do NOT buy any “real ice cream.” Only the lower cal brands like Halo Top and Enlightened – so if I eat a little extra, the calorie damage is very low compared to eating extra of the real deal. Have options on hand – large plums are one of my go-to’s. I like large plums because I can take one out of the fridge, wash it, and eat it – no extra work. CONVENIENT. Make sure you have “healthy convenience food” at home …I enjoy stevia in flavored seltzers as convenience and veggie chip brands where I can have like almost 40 veggie straws per serving and for only the calories in 2 pieces of bread….have the options for sweet tasting healthy convenience and salty convenience so that you do not reach or need to buy the higher cal convenience foods. You can make your own ice cream if you really want to – out of bananas and stuff like that…I know you are a good cook. There’s tons of recipes. You can make your own popsicles if you want….but I don’t – I’m a lazy girl with cooking…but I still find a way to have lower cal options that are both sweet and salty…so that I do not reach for the HIGH CAL sweet and salty foods – I keep relatively few options (but enough options) in my apt…small bags of butter microwave popcorn (single serving), lighter chips where there’s slightly less oil (many brands of veggie chips), other chips, fruit that is just wash and eat, flavored seltzer that I add stevia also into, small packages of cookies / bars that are 150 cal or lower, the low cal ice cream brands of halo top and enlightened which comes in pints and bars….to name a few of my go-to items. Bananas when I cannot sleep also. These are all low cal snacks. I can eat a small cookie / bar and follow it up with seltzer with stevia to give myself the “oral fixation” of drinking something after I give myself real sugar….i have learned a lot in how to satiate without indulging fully.

My weight sometimes fluctuates a lot (2-3 pounds) and sometimes not. Lately it doesn’t, but do not worry – it’s normal. It’s good to weigh everyday, but, once a week you’ll see the true variation and true pound loss better.

innerpeace - Thursday Aug 17, 2017

Weight: 306.0

I overslept this morning and had to rush around and get showered. With getting DH out the door for work, I am not getting into bed until 11:30 and last night I couldn't even get to sleep. I know I looked at the clock at 12:44 am and I was still awake.

DH cooked grilled chicken, a big salad and green beans for dinner. He cut the piece of chicken in half and it was 4 ounces. Did great at dinner, but then I made brownies and ate three of them. I suck!

TeleMove phone call - today's topic - It's never to late! still waiting on the materials to look at when referenced, hopefully they will be at my house soon.

Tonight is the Tim McGraw and Faith Hill concert, may have to leave early to get DH to work on time...we will see.

B: toast, iced vanilla latte

L: 1/2 ham sandwich, cheezits, yogaurt

S: balanced breaks

D: I think DH said we were doing Mexican food; again not sure.

Have a great night!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 08/17/2017:
Have fun at the concert! Sounds like a lot of fun!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/18/2017:
Lately my mornings are screwed up. I may have to set the alarm clock even earlier but I realize that’s not going to be helpful bc I tend to lay in bed anyways so why lay in bed longer which I really do think would happen if I were to wake up earlier? Anyways, I did set my clock a hair earlier so that I can play with my hammy in the mornings. And now that I’m treating it for an eye infection, I actually need to get the ointment in his eye in the morning. Today he peed while in his ball, so I had to make sure to wipe the floor and clean his ball this AM…lol, these things keep having me lose track of the time. All these little things. But I really do love to pick up and hold and play with by Hammy BG. He’s adorable!

Sorry you didn’t sleep well, but, you can’t always sleep well. DH needs to get ready on his own! He’s such a bad boy to keep you awake! Bad Boy!

Dinner sounds super healthy! Is DH eating better now? One brownie or TWO would have been better than three…so you know what!? …next time say “I can eat 2, just not 3.” And then try to get by on 1…it will be easier if you stuff yourself on veggies first, then one brownie will be just for the taste. This is what I do…stuff myself on the fiber and veg and AFTER EAT THE JUNK! So I can have it, but a small portion!

I like the topic of the day for the phone call. It’s DEF NEVER TOO LATE! Hey look, I’m changing my career, for the 4th and last time, in January. Instead of career, I should say “I’m changing my job” for the 4th and last time. I feel good but nervous of course bc I do not want to have problems or bullying or in general any negative things to go on as they did here at a new job especially if it’s NYPD! With all the politics there, I’d be doomed! LOL…I plan to be honest and logical as well as improved a bit with my street smarts. Hey I’ll be 35 and that’s a plus for life experience!

innerpeace - Wednesday Aug 16, 2017

Weight: 306.0

I tried to get up to get my run/jog in but I just hit the snooze button and rolled over back to sleep. I did get up and get showered to be sitting at the table for my 7:00 am call. My phone rang right on time. I was given the lesson plan about portion control and variety (now that sounds ironic) and it listed the pamplets and prochures I was to reference. However, I do not have my materials yet, so I just listened and entered my weight. And we will see what happens tomorrow.

So tomorrow the plans are for DH to get the girl and go to her open house so she can find her classes. After they are coming home and then we are going to go out to eat and then drive to the train station to get downtown to the concert. Once finished DH will go to work and I will take the girl home and go home myself. It will be a long day for me.

Firday, we are going bowling with some work people.

Saturday - wow - lots going on: rummage sale, scavenger hunt, black berry picking, hometown festival and a Russian festival for dinner. We will be busy for most of the day. We will get home about 5:00 for DH to go to bed for work.

Sunday - hiking day with my dog!

Breakfast: toast, iced coffie

Lunch: 1/2 ham and cheese sandwich, cheezits, yogurt

Snack: balanced breaks

DInner: I have no clue

Yesterday I got home and the first thing I see is DH's dirty clothes piled up on the kitchen floor. I was expecting dinner but he was still asleep. He has no routine and fell asleep on the couch, he didn't take a shower so didn't go upstairs to the bed. What a weirdo!

He started cooking dinner, however, the meat he thawed smelled rank and we did not use it, so we had Subway.

DH went back to sleep and I sat and watched base ball after I walked my dog! I hate this new life...I miss my husband!

Anyway, have a great evening! Go Tribe!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/16/2017:
Hiiii IP!

This calling thing sounds really cool, except I’d totally schedule mine at NIGHT lol. But you are a morning person, so it makes sense as you even get up to exercise in AM, which I don’t.

Girlie is now in 8th grade this year? Good luck to her! Which concert will this one be that you are all attending? It sounds exciting…how I love concerts! I cannot wait to finally attend an orchestra concert in a couple weeks. I’ve been wanting to all summer, but it’s either been rainy on what was supposed to outdoor ones or I just craved more sleep on what were weeknight concerts which don’t work all that well when getting up early the next morning! LOL…I’m just a brat, shall we say!

At least you can be home yourself after that long day…Try to go into it with energy…rest a bit today. Take your alone time today!

I can’t wait to hear about this Russian festival! Will there be dancing or sausages?

Try to see if you can help DH get into a routine, is my suggestion. Seems the night shift is def not his preference but he’ll get days again…if he keeps trying for it.

innerpeace - Tuesday Aug 15, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Was on the phone with my Telemove Coach, Craig. After much  painstaking, and thought provoking discussion, I managed to come up with my two goals. Now, it's not like I said I wanted to lose X number of pounds in X number of time or to lose X number of pounds at all, because using that whole thought process evidently and obviously don't work for me. I had to pull from books, posts and journals I read, classes I've attended and then dig down deep for what I know is my problem.

I read on someone's journal - it could even be someone here on DD - that used BBB - Ban the Bread Basket!

My number one goal was cut back on my bread intake. Like this morning, I had two pieces of toast and another piece with my 1/2 sandwich for lunch. I will work on this change.

My number two goal was continue with my couch to 5 K program, three times a week. I also mentioned I would go to and actually use my YMCA membership, instead of just donating this fee to them every month.

I will get a phone call every morning at 7:00 a.m. I will have to enter my weight and then listen to the education for the day. The phone call is about 10 minutes long. I was skeptical about entering weight everyday, but hey, I can do this.

So the current enrollment will last for six months and then I can extend for another six months if needed. I will talk to my coach, Craig, at least once a week. My first phone call will be in the morning - Wednesday! So there is no more thinking about it, I just need to do this once and for all!

Work is crappy stressful this week and will probably be next week too, and just yuck!

Can't wait to get my new book and other tools.

Have a great day!


Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/15/2017:
Hiiii Inner!!

I’ve never heard of a Telemove coach…I had never heard of it labeled “BBB”….makes for easy tip to remembering…a good play on words. I think it’s called an alliteration, the “BBB.”

Instead of bread, there are other higher fiber options. Many wraps that I eat are very low cal but same size as higher cal wraps. Tumaro’s (which I needed a break from lol bc I had it too much) has many good flavors and options. There are many other good brands, too!

With your couch to 5k, when you are ready, I hope you enter a 5k…they have Turkey Trots. You know, I may enter a 5k by me, actually!, in November near my parents. It would be their town’s 5k, the morning of Thanksgiving. YOU JUST GAVE ME A RENEWED DESIRE AND GOAL to run the 3mi (5K).

I LOVE THIS PROGRAM you are writing about! It sounds EXTREMELY helpful like a perfect way to initiate life changes. It reminds me of my first year at weight training….the help of a coach was necessary in order to get me truly understanding that I had to do to stay in line….and there was also a free dietician (I did this from approx. 22/23 till 24 years old) also helped me see how weight fluctuates and was really interesting to see the changes in my weight by meeting with her….it was the first time I was weighing myself that often.

Anyways, I know that this program you are doing is going to give you a lot of “takeaway knowledge and thoughts” and I know it can be a life-changer. Just as my lifechanging, one of, was signing up to a gym that only offered personal training in weights, 3x per week, 30 min a session…only $25 per session and since I was living at home it was VERY affordable and the best thing I ever got involved with!

happy-1 on 08/15/2017:
I struggle with the bread thing too. Big hugs. I'm roasting a whole bag of sweet potatoes in the sow cooker as soon as I get them home from the market and that is actually really helping.

happy-1 on 08/15/2017:
And the Telemove coach thing sounds really cool. I look forward to hearing more about it.

innerpeace - Monday Aug 14, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Just my last four days...

Thursday - I woke up and went to my doctor's appointment. I was aggravated but heard the same story before. I understand my numbers are high (pre-diabetic), I understand I have to lose weight. I understand I have to take in less calories and expend more. I understand this. I do. I've been to the dietician, I've been to WW, Jenny Craig, NutriSystem, I've done Hebalife, SlimFAst, Dexatrim, Hydroxycut, Lots off and other bottled miracle cures. I like food. I like the texture and taste of food. I like salty and sweet, crunchy and sweet, smooth and creamy and all of it. I like dipping and dunking, spritzing and squeezing, tossing and stirring it all in my mouth! It is not that I don't know how or what to eat, I find pleasure and indugence in food and over eat. It's a lack of willpower and portion control and most of the times I don't think of either of those things. How can I change this relationship with food? Food is my drug of choice! My doctor then asked me if I would be interested in the Move program. It is a version of weight watchers. Oh yeah, sure, when is it>? Oh it meets Wednesday at 10:00 or Thursday at 2:00. Oh so, it is set and or designed to be more convenient for retired personnel who don't work anymore? Because do you think it is realistic that I leave my job once a week for 1 1/2 to two hours to attend this meeting? I mean do you think that is something my employer would be willing to allow me to do? I mean I still work and I'm healthy and I just don't think my employer would be ok with me leaving the same time everyweek to attend a weight loss meeting. I can just hear him say now...can't you do this on your own time. Oh, sure go ahead use your vacation leave (because hey, I'm sure you'll have fun) or hey use your sick leave because it is health related...but god forbid you need that for a real emergency one day!! Seriously!!!

She then told me there is a TeleMove and that I can do this program over the telephone. So Friday afternoon, I got a call from my Move Coach who is supposed to call me back tomorrow (Tuesday) and talk about my enrollment. He even asked if I was surprised? Surprised how? Suprised that your doctor recommended you for the program. Me? Oh, heck no, we talked about it. He said, Oh, great, most clients don't even know why I'm calling. So anyway, I guess I will have a weekly meeting with Craig, my weight loss coach, who's in another town. He is sending me a journal, a scall and a pedometer and I must set goals, which I am already having trouble with. Goals.....goals? Calories, exercise, sleep......I must provide two goals........will revisit this later!

Friday I take the girl to get her eyebrows threaded...big mistake. She was willing, however, this apparently is painful and not very pleasant. Well we can't leave with just one eyebrow done!! Oh, I laughted, but feel bad for her now. She is only 12 but holy moly she has two catepillars for eyebrows. And though she fought through the pain and her eyebrows did look great, I will just let her handle that in the future. Step mom is out!!

But then, OMG, the spawn of Satan was released in the exam room when it was time for back-to-school shots! She delared...NO, I'm not getting shots. I don't want them and I ain't getting them. She needed two just to go back to school and then we elected the new HPV one, so there were three. And she howled and moaned, hissed and through fit after fit. The nurse poor thing tried to intimated her with the costs of the shots...yeah, well she wasn't hearing this. Didn't care anything about money or the cost of it. She instead grabbed her sleeve and held it down, don't touch me, I hate needles, it hurts and OMG. Finally there comes a time in one's life, or the proverbial straw that the step-mom cannot take anymore. I told her. Stop IT!! You are 12 years old. If you do not get these shots...fine. We'll go home and you can pack your stuff and take it all back to your mother's house when she comes and gets you, because....you can't go to school without the shots and if you don't go to school, I don't even want you over at my house. I hated to do it, but I mean it and I meant it!! So she sucked it up and took the shots! The first and second ones we given and I said...wow and you didn't even die! The 3rd one wasn't so bad. Little brat!! Needless to say, I was more than happy at 5:30 whenever her mother came to pick her up!!

And then on a side-note. Her mother and step-father moved across town and she would have to change schools. However, her great mother said she wasn't changing schools that she would drive her to school and pick her up each day. Well if this doesn't happen, or the mother has other priorities than school transporation we will have to legally step in. She cannot try to home school this kid either, because it didn't work out too well with the YA now did it?? And she is dumber than a rock, how is she supposed to help with homework or learning? Better days I tell ya!!

So Saturday I was completely exhausted and DH and I stayed home. I did run out and get my hair cut shorter. Other than that, I walked my dog twice. First hair cut (4 inches off) with girl at the baseball game

Second hair cut (another 2 inches off) with DH on the hike.


Sunday, DH and I went on a hike with the dog and stayed home. I did laundry and mowed the front yard and some of the back. And then the YA called and asked us to buy him some contact lenses until he can get some money! Oh and how do you see yourself accomplishing this? I asked to no one in particular! With NO HS diploma or GED and you are the smartest person in the world, so I'm all ears! I can see that you have tons of people calling asking for all your infinite knowledge about everything! UGH!

So I will be back tomorrow with my goals after my first session with Craig! Can't wait for all the great insight I will get over the phone! Have a great night - I apologize for my snarky attitude! Hopefully tomorrow I will have goals and a new plan for the new me!



Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 08/14/2017:
Hugs. Good for you for standing up to her. Sounds like if she yowls she gets her way.

innerpeace - Tuesday Aug 08, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Been agitated the last few days because of OPKs - (other people's kids) LOL. I love them but OMG they drive me insane. When I sold my car to the YA I told him not to drive the he11 out of it, it already had 140K miles on it. It was good and reliable to get to work and back. This witless young man wants to hot rod it and spin the tires and do everything else young men want to do with a car. So know it needs a repair and because he has no job and/or income flow he seriously has the nerve to ask his dad to pay for it. WTH? uh...NO! because he will not go and find a job, he will not take classes and/or try to get back in school. He does absolutely nothing for himself, ergo...I will NOT do anything for him either! And then his girlfriend, doesn't do anything but eat! Seriously, when I was in high school I worked a part-time job, why can't kids these days? She says she is in beauty school - OK, take your @ss over to the salon and be a receptionist or wash hair or something for a few hours a day, DO NOT bring you lazy butt over and sit on my sofa all afternoon and wash your laundry for free!! OMG So SO sick of these kids!!

And then I spent a full day buying school supplies for the other, which I don't mind, except for the fact, that the perfectly good colored pencils I have from last year are not good enough, so she needs a new set. DH is like yeah, whatever she needs!! She doesn't need them, she wants them! Oh heavens...this, this is why I try to run - to get away from the madness!

Got my blood work back, A1C dropped from 6.3 to 5.9 which I am very happy about. However, cholesterol is up at 193 and triglicerides were also up, so after tonight's baseball game, I will be back on the wagon for eating better.

Looking forward to the Cleveland Indians game tonight, GO TRIBE!

I will be back on the straight and narrow path tomorrow, everyone have a good night!


Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 08/08/2017:
Sounds like you are getting mean girled for pencils. Maybe dad needs to teach the value of a dollar. If I had wanted extra pencils I would have had to do extra chores. My mom wrote the chores she'd pay for and the dollar amount on slips of paper and put them in a jar. If I wanted money, I had to pick the ones I wanted to do and then bring them to her for reimbursement. If it was something that was on sale and I was worried it wouldn't be there when I came back, she would buy it but it went into the locked gift cabinet until I could pay for it. I was working as soon as I turned 13.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/09/2017:
Hiya IP!

Does the YA have a HS diploma? If not, he seriously needs a talk that he should get one. Next, sorry so sorry about the car stuff involving YA. Speaking from my own experiences and past, I also did NOT take care of my first car, given to me no cost by my father. He has actually given to me, without cost, at least THREE cars – all were his previously. When I had the money to spend, as a teacher, I had once leased my own brand new car. And I loved the car – it was a 2 door sporty Honda Civic! They were only out a short while and looked so cool on the road! How I loved that car! I had it 3 years. The lease was quite cheap during that time and I made a good amount of money at the time so it wasn’t hard to pay for it while living home. That was the only time I could afford to lease a car, in my entire life. Now I could also afford a car to lease, but, it would be stupid as it would mean that I wouldn’t be able to save as much money as I do for my 401k!

I know I am very lucky. My father gives me more than I could ever ask for. Without him, I would have had little help and would be DEFINITELY taking the bus. My dad has made my life easier…and once in awhile I realize that maybe life has been slightly too easy…and that has caused some of my laziness in the past and lack of desire to strive for more. Ah well. I am working now. I am discovering my way now…sorta late, but not too late. I’m 35 September 9th…

So going back to the car stuff, involving the YA…I am not so sure it’s so terrible what he did to the car….but had he been experienced with how to handle cars from his PAST EXPERIENCES, of which he has none or very little, then he would have probably been much more careful with the car.

I do agree 100% with you about the beauty school. She can also work at a salon part time as you mention – at least washing hair. It’s good experience for creating good relationships with people and developing a necessary rapport with customers. As well as just perfecting her skills. AGREE. She just eats bc she has too much time. Man, she can get out and walk at the park or jog too….sounds they are both really young and not yet grounded into any kind of routine. As you and I know, this can’t continue through adulthood because it just doesn’t work as a lifestyle that’ll get them anywhere. Hopefully they’ll grow out of it. As least, she is in school.

In terms of the laundry…I have a slightly skewed view…pardon me! My sister, who earns 100K per year!!!!...and her husband, who earns OVER 100K per year, bring their laundry over to my parents’ house whenever they visit and do it for free…..! LOL. They live in Manhattan and have a laundry room there…but I think most laundry is done by the hotel her husband manages! And my parents have big machines…so my sister figures it’s a convenient time to wash just about every item that ever needed a good washing! She does like 2-3 HUGE loads when she goes to my parents…they’ll drive so it’s easy to transport the stuff (they don’t take the railroad in)!

On the other hand, I never do my laundry at my parents. Mostly because I find it more convenient to do my laundry at my own apartment in our public laundry room! I do not fold clothes. I simply hang up every shirt I wear. Even pajamas. I have enough closet space to just hang them…so they don’t wrinkle. But if I did laundry back at my parents’, well, it’d be wrinkled when I got home! Wrinkled even from folding! Also, I once ruined a shirt bc it got caught on a wheel of the cart I was transporting my clothes in from my car back up to my apartment after washing them at my parents’! that’s why I do not like doing this almost ever.!!!

I do understand you not wanting to buy new colored pencils. At least they aren’t a huge expense. Putting myself in girlie’s situation, I think I would be OK with the old ones. But can’t be sure?

I am glad your bloodwork is basically ok. Sorry about the cholesterol, BUT, you can google which foods are bad for cholesterol and simply try to eliminate them ! Like egg yolks – just don’t eat the yoke and have some avocado with egg whites instead…as long as avocado doesn’t contribute to any cholesterol problems! I think the cholesterol thing should be manageable…

Keep up the jogging. I keep forgetting to time my mile! I even looked down at my watch yesterday for the starting time, but forgot to check it after a mile of almost complete running with almost no short break (took one break to stretch). And then ran an extra ¼ mile lap…which is why I was so forgetful to check my watch…I had run something different than a mile! Then I was walking / jogging until I got up to 2.5miles. Lately I am able to plan 2mi-2.5mi workouts. What do you typically do for your distances when you are jogging?

innerpeace on 08/14/2017:
No he doesn't have a HS diploma, because he is the smartest person in the world and knows everything already and going back or getting a GED is just stupid! His words not mine! This is another reason why I could kick his mother in the ass for not making him go! I don't care if he does laundry all day at my house, I just want him to try to find a job.

He worked with his step-dad and was paid under the table. Then when he asked his step-dad and mother for a regular salary/check they go off on him, tell him he's a no-good-for-nothing son and kick him out of the house. So for the last two/three years he was working for them instead of going to school. And then when he got kicked out of his mom's house he went to live with the grandma...he started working for a friend of his step-dad's, also under the table.

I am paying his insurance. I told him I would pay it for a year...after that, I will NOT pay it anymore unless he is taking GED classes or going to school.

His GF is supposedly in cosmetology school and she isn't working any kind of job at all. I know when I had my driver license I wanted to work to get my own money.

Last night he text asking us to get him some more contact lenses and he will pay us back. How? He doesn't have a job. I sent him a resume I made for him and told him to look it over and that I would add or take off anything that wasn't right. Do you think he has answered or replied to my email. Heck NO!! Anyway, I'm just fed up with them, because you would think that since he knows everything already, he wouldn't be in this kind of situation.

And then the girl made a comment over the weekend that made me a little mad. She said that if she needed anything else for school she would tell me because she knew she would get it. WTF?? I said that was a really bratty thing to say. And then she started back pedaling saying, well, I could tell my mom, but I don't know when I would ever get it.

Whatever I'm so not happy with the OPKs!

innerpeace - Friday Aug 04, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Tried to relax last night, however, there were cherries that were going to go to waste, so I boiled them down and made a cobbler thing with them. I also started having this weird burning sensation/pain in my lower left abdomen down to my groin area and it hurt to walk. It was still kinda going on this morning, so i did not get up to run.

Currently it is pouring down rain so I can't see myself doing it after work either. Tomorrow the rain is supposed to be gone so maybe I will get it down then.

Tonight we get the girl for the next week. This will be the last whole week for the summer. I am so glad I get so drained taking care of her - or entertaining her or making sure she stays out of trouble, whatever it is called these days.

I have a few things I wanted to do this weekend. May go on a volksmarch near the lake and a few rummage sales.

Tuesday night we are going to another Cleveland Indians game...very excited about this and can't wait. I love watching them play.

Thursday and Friday I am taking off work to get the girl to the doctor to get her a shot for school, my doctor's appointment and to go school supplies shopping...also there is a wagon/hay ride at a metro park one night.

So in between all of this I will try to eat better. I also scored three tickets to the Tim McGraw/Faith Hill concert the 18th of the month from a veteran's organization. Love these opportunities.

So, If I don't check back over the weekend...have a great weekend!

Cheers IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 08/04/2017:
Sounds like a busy few days...have fun!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/04/2017:
Hello IP!

You may have pulled something which is hopefully the only reason you have pain. My mom once pulled something straight in her groin and it hurt her VERY much…the worst pain she was in!

We’ve been getting a bit of rain again too. It def hasn’t been a summer of drought! Seems like a good balance if you ask me!

Yeah, I can understand that it can be draining with a girl all week. Can you try to get her to read? Or at least watch a movie together…that’s more enjoyable for both!

Wagon hayride sounds fun…haven’t been on one of those in AGES! That sounds like a really good concert coming up! What’s the price by you for your seats? Does it say on the ticket! Ohhhh and you won them! Congrats!!!!!!!!

Donkey on 08/05/2017:
Sounds like an exciting weekend!

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