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innerpeace - Friday Jan 08, 2021

Weight: 294.6

Thursday - blood sugar was 134 - this is so crazy to me.

I went to the office and did work that I had to do - saw lots of people (I was surprised so many were there) ergo...I was told to leave at noon when the important - dead liney things were completed. I do miss going to the office - listening to the radio on the way in - stupid stories, jokes and commentary - I usually manage a good laugh, certainly a smile and one or two head shakes about crazy antics. Once there I feel out of place, not sure what to do and certainly can't find anything. Most of my supplies are still in boxes...I have thought about sneaking in during the evening a few times a week (there are usually only two people there and I wouldn't even be close to them...I will think more about this if DH stays on 2nd shift. He has mentioned he was going on 1st shift working 5-1 - but this is still up in the air.

B: granola, yogurt

L: left over taco bake

I got home about 2:00 and could not motivate myself to do anything. I walked the doggos around the block - it was colder than earlier when I left for work. There were still dirty dishes in the sink. I wondered why DH couldn't load the dishwasher...seriously though!! And then at 4:30, DH texts and asked me how the pork chops were? What? I worked and Iogged off the computer and walked the dogs, can I not sit on my butt and play with my phone for four hours like you do every morning? Why am I the one to cook and CLEAN everything? His reply - I guess I could help! WTF dude?? I guess...?

I finally made the pork chops about 5:00 it took longer than expected because carmelizing onions is not a ten minute job.

D: French onion pork chops, salad

Went to bed about 10:30 - didn't even wait for DH to get home.


blood sugar - 123

B: granola, yogurt, Killer Daves Bread, vanilla iced latte

L: left over pork chop

D: beef stew

I will get the girl some time today - she wanted the stew.

No real plans over the weekend - DH is supposed to get the Christmas decorations back in the attic - I think Tony Bologna is going to help him.

I'm going walking....if it doesn't rain.

Have a great weekend! IP


Progress as of today: 43.3 lbs lost so far, only 84.6 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 01/08/2021:
Killer Dave's bread? Interesting...

Donkey on 01/09/2021:
My Boss and I were talking about COVID and still being able to come to work. I think he's having a hard time not being in Florida this winter and being restricted in what to do. He's someone that has to be out and about. If he could not come into work, he would have a TERRIBLE time. Others have mentioned this to me, about the Boss, too. So I'm glad that you can come into the office from time to time.

innerpeace - Wednesday Jan 06, 2021

Weight: 294.6

I ate so well yesterday (did not walk the 2nd time) and freakin' blood sugar was 137 this a.m. WTF!

This is so irritating to me.

B: bacon, egg, cheese fritata

L: toast and chicken, tomato, cucumber salad

 - picked up DH's perscriptions at the drug store and ate a hershy bar!

- VA doctor called new blood work 2/4 so I guess the hershy bar wasn't such a good idea.

D: taco bake

I was going to get the girl however she called and said "they" were going to drop her off to just come back a few hours later to get her. They are not the brightest crayons in the box.

Going to the office tomorrow.

Have a good humpday! IP

Progress as of today: 43.3 lbs lost so far, only 84.6 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 01/06/2021:
Love Hershey bars!!! And Reese cups even more.

Maria7 on 01/06/2021:
Hope you have a good day at the office tomorrow and all goes well.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/06/2021:
was blood sugar high maybe because of WHEN you ate your last meal?

it's good you eat as you do, so the blood work is really based on how you are doing overall...

have a good day!

Donkey on 01/07/2021:
Oh you're going into the office!! I know you've said you need to do this. Yay!

innerpeace - Tuesday Jan 05, 2021

Weight: 296.1

Crazy dreams all night - I wonder why I am dreaming so crazy. One of them was a green and white bug crawling and then it started flying and landed on my back. I was ducking and weaving and trying to get it off and then I felt it stick it's claws on me to hold on tighter and I woke myself up flailing and screaming to get it off. DH thinks I am cray-ZY! So vivid though!

Kinda busy this morning at work - I do get to go into the office on Thursday for awhile.

Blood sugar this a.m. 109

B: bacon, egg, cheese frittata

L: left over pork chop

D: grilled chicken, tomato and cucumber salad

DH and I took the doggos for a walk this morning, when we got back instacart had arrived. We unloaded groceries. I have lots of vegetables to eat. Here is a picture DH took, he just shaved and we look cute...I think.

It is snowing now and if it doesn't let up I can't see us getting back out.

Garage door opener works like a charm.

Have a great Tuesday! IP

Progress as of today: 41.8 lbs lost so far, only 86.1 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 01/05/2021:
You do look cute! And so happy!!!!!

Maria7 on 01/05/2021:
What a cute-looking couple!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/05/2021:
great photo of you especially! love your hair!

yuck to bug dreams....you were dreaming of the Past....no more bugs!

Donkey on 01/06/2021:
Whoa, that's a crazy dream! Yikes! With dreams like that, I'd almost dread going to bed.

Cute picture!

legcramps on 01/06/2021:
Great picture!

innerpeace - Monday Jan 04, 2021

Weight: 296.6

Crazy dreams all night.

Up at 5:30 - work today!

Busy around the house as well - new HVAC estimate, garage door being repaired (hopefully it will work this time) and some roof people came over - I guess we need a new roof. I'm glad DH takes care of all of this - because you know I just do not care.

Appointment went OK, doctor will check A1C in another eight weeks and she will check urine as well to check kidneys to make sure there is no damage there. She will see about A1C before prescribing any medicine, she was happy with my progress so far. I felt she was pushing the COVID-19 vaccination on me. She said VA only has Pfizer (the one that has to be super cold) and they only have that cold storage in Akron - (doubt I will go to Akron to get a shot). She was hoping they would get the Moderna vaccination and they they can do the vaccinations at my clinic. Still not sold on getting the vaccination. I will wait a little longer...unless I need to travel some where....fat chance there!

Of course mammogram, PAP and colonoscopy all came up - sometime this year - birth month (July) maybe - things will be settled down more.

B: yogurt, granola, vanilla iced latte (Probably my last for awhile)

L: pork chop, salad  left over BBQ chicken pizza

D: pork chop, salad

walked the doggos this morning and will take them again later.

Work is stressing me out - I really need to be in the office!

Have a great day! IP

Progress as of today: 41.3 lbs lost so far, only 86.6 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 01/04/2021:
I was due for a colonoscopy in March but of course, no way with Covid. Not going near a hospital.

Donkey on 01/05/2021:
Very good on your A1C numbers! My hope for you is that you can avoid the meds and control your blood sugar through healthy habits.

innerpeace - Sunday Jan 03, 2021

Weight: 296.6

OMG I had a post and it just disappeared...i hate that!

Short version

B: yogurt, granola, vanilla iced latte

Walked the dogs

Started laundry

L: cucumber, chicken, tomato salad

Watched the Browns

DH & I walked the dogs at halftime

DH finished fixing the book shelves - put paperbacks, little books on top, CDs and heavy books. Hopefully it will stay together with all the screws and nails he used.

D: BBQ grilled chicken, onion, pizza. I thought I had pizza dough in the refrigerator, but this turns out to be crescent rolls. I used this, crust was thin and cripsy and I will probably use this again instead of the regular pizza dough.

Browns won! Excited for this team.

Left to do C25K, people in my neighborhood out partying in their garages, happy for the Browns. A few spoke to me, I just waved I had my ear buds in listing to 5K lady.

Got home, loaded up dishwasher

Talked to my mom

Ready for tomorrow - video appointment with VA doctor - at 8:00 - hope this goes well.

DH has garage door opener repair man coming tomorrow, one more HVAC quote and a roof inspector coming tomorrow morning.

I will do instacart for Tuesday delivery.

Oh...and I have to work all day - yeah work!

Have a great Sunday! IP

Progress as of today: 41.3 lbs lost so far, only 86.6 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/03/2021:
I lost my original post this morning too.... :>(

Horn_of_plenty on 01/03/2021:
oh wow...at first i thought you copied and pasted a photo...the shelves look super duper perfect. nice you didn't buy another or anything!

everyone's been watching their respective teams I have a few friends that love to watch sports this time around...football.

you sound great....

good luck to us both back at work xoxo.

thanks for the kind wishes on fb as well.

only you all know about the job...almost nobody on facebook, aside from 2 people that aren't on here! :)

thanks again!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/03/2021:
can't believe you actually left the house during half time to walk the dogs! impressive!

grannyannie on 01/04/2021:
Glad you got book shelves back up. And had a walk.

innerpeace - Saturday Jan 02, 2021

Weight: 296.6

Crazy night...the girl didn't get picked up at 8:00 instead she stayed the night.

I got a phone call at 2:30 from POS saying she is leaving her husband and wanted to know if the girl had her school computer. Half asleep I'm like what? she tells me again and I stumple into the girl's room and wake her up to ask if she has her school computer. She said yes. I told POS and she said ok, we'll pick her up tomorrow. Fine.

I go back to sleep and get up at 7:30. I shower, DH and I walk the doggos and when we get back we take down all the Christmas decorations. I'm thinking we are going to run our errands and then the YA and his GF came over for us to 'hear the heart beat'...I listened but I didn't hear anything. I didn't say that...but just said...'it's so exciting'.

The YA and GF left about 12:15 and then the girl was picked up at 12:30, with both her POS and step-dad - so I guess once again, the POS didn't leave.

After DH and I went to run our errands.

B: Wendy's croissant, vanilla iced latte

L: cucumber, tomato, chicken salad (a few bites) - then we left

D: roast that was in the crock pot, carrots

DH and I went on a longer walk with the doggos - it is getting pretty chilli out.


I will do the C25K again - depending on the weather. I will try and be consistent every other or every two days.


Maybe get the book case fixed - meant to do it today, but we just got back with the wood - it can wait.

Probaby pick a few books to donate - ones that have no interest at this point in my life.

I did start reading - John Grisham - A Painted House

Have a great Saturday night! iP

Progress as of today: 41.3 lbs lost so far, only 86.6 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/02/2021:
It seems like the girl is taking all of the upheaval at her house in stride.....luckily she knows she has you guys to fall back on.....she really needs you!!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/02/2021:
hehe...good they can "hear the heart beat." ha, at least they are joyful! wait till they are actual parents...hopefully they can retain their energy and joy!! ;)

nice to see you reading. oh, also wanted to mention that you are sooo regimented! getting up early, walking dogs, sometimes 2 walks, taking down decorations....those years in the army...and your own diligence to keep at it...have done you lots of good! lots of zest for life on your part.

way too much drama regarding POS. ugh!

Donkey on 01/02/2021:
Two walks - way to go!!

I just have to shake my head at all the POS drama. How do these people even manage to get their pants on in the morning?

grannyannie on 01/03/2021:
Wow! So much drama with POS. Did he really inherit 1 million?

innerpeace - Friday Jan 01, 2021

Weight: 297.7

Posted my current weight from this morning...ugh! Oh well this is the jumping off place.

I did get up and walk/run did the C25K this morning and then came home and got the doggos walked...and then the rain. All freaking day of rain!

Just hanging out. DH went to get the girl, I think she is staying until 8:00, not sure, don't care.

Tomorrow a few plans - redo the book shelf. Here is the collapsed thing...

I have a plastic cabinet/bin thing that I am going to put all my crafting stuff in - I've had this thing since summer. Time for the decluttering. I have also contemplated getting rid of some of these books - I have two other shelves full of books - picked up from library sales, school and other places for cheap. I'm finished with them hanging around. With that being said I do want to read more - but these I have mostly already read.

And then I bought a new table cloth that I will finally put on the table - get rid of holiday decor.

Also found this monthly calendar thing I will start using - not sure how long it will keep my attention.

B: boiled egg, toast, avocado, vanilla iced latte

Late lunch: cheese, crackers

D: hot dogs, buns with ketchup and mustard

There is a pot roast with potatoes and carrots - this maybe used for tomorrow & DH grilled chicken - so there is food - just need to put it together.

I hope you all had a great NEW YEAR! No looking back -





Progress as of today: 40.2 lbs lost so far, only 87.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/01/2021:
Is that a coloring page? Cute looks like fun. Yup...looks like the bookcase is done.

Maria7 on 01/01/2021:
Happy new year! I need to do some decluttering, too! I also bought a new table cloth and put on our table. It is red and white checkered.

horn_of_plenty on 01/01/2021:
We got rain towards the end of the day and I missed my earlier window of opportunity to go outdoors.

Heard of a fun challenge: 1,000 hours outside in 2021. That’s a lot- I’m thinking to try it.

Maybe you can donate your books to a library or sell / give them away on eBay or Facebook marketplace ?

Donkey on 01/02/2021:
We had a combo of snow and freezing rain, which made for a very heavy slush to shovel. Not good. I don't mind rain, I don't mind snow. But this combo is like the worst of both.

Are you doing C25K regularly?

IDK what to say about the bookshelves. Might be a scrapper? The books were probably too heavy. Ugh...

innerpeace - Thursday Dec 31, 2020

Weight: 293.5

Yesterday I was on leave - didn't do anything - cleaned the refrigerator. Picked up the girl. She tells me they (the entire family) are moving in with the grand ma. The YA and his girlfriend live there already and I guess they are not doing enough to "help" her. Anyway, she could only stay until 2:00 or so today. I asked why, are they having some jacked up new year's eve party. She tells me NO, that they are moving.

Oh sure..and then five hours later when DH gets home, they have already changed their minds again. So in the last few monhs, they had plans to move to Florida, Tennessee, Kentucky, Sheffiield Village, the grandma's house and South Amherst, became a millionaire and then didn't - so yeah...this is stable, very stable!  They make me sick. The POS texted me yesterday about when the girl could come over for New Year's Day, I didn't even respond. The girl and DH usually work it out and talk so that POS heifer can just keep me out of it.

B: Wendy's bacon, chicken croissant, vanilla iced latte

L: left over corn casserole

D: left over chicken chilli and cranberry salad

Blood sugar was 140 (ACK) this morning - been eating way too much sugar and later at night, so I will get a handle on this again.

At work this morning - will leave about noon.

I told the girl I would pick up Chick-fil-A for lunch - already changed this to Raising Canes (another chicken place), she is leaving about 2:00 - maybe we will see her tomorrow, maybe not. I hate running back and forth for just a few hours.

D: I wanted sushi but will probably just get the last pizza of the year.

Tomorrow - no solid resolutions - I will just continue on the path of my low sugar/carb thing I have going on. I would like to add more exercise and lay off the stupid video game I've been playing. I will make a conscious effort.

I will NOT stay up for the new year - haven't in awhile and don't see the reasoning behind it now. Matter of fact I don't remember the last time I actually stayed up past midnight. I have been to bed but maybe perhaps couldn't get to sleep, but not for the lack of trying.

So I didn't make my goal for 12/31/2020 - about 6 pounds short, however, I am not sad about this. I will do better and set my next goal at 286 for 1/31/2021.

I hope in 2021!

Have a great day!

Progress as of today: 44.4 lbs lost so far, only 83.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/31/2020:
YOU WILL REACH THAT GOAL!!! AND...I just have to ask...What game are you playing that you want to quit????

innerpeace on 01/01/2021:
It is called Seekers' Notes - a search and find game. I am in a guild and we have missions together. There is a free energy hour from 8-9pm each night. And you can win other energy boosters to play longer. I play a LOT, and could be doing other things.

grannyannie on 12/31/2020:
What happened to the $1 million they inherited?

We don't stay up till midnight, not even in Thailand. But the fireworks wake us up through the night.

innerpeace on 01/01/2021:
It was a scam. Talked to a lady for awhile on the internet who apparently died. Then someone said hey send money and we will process the inheritance from the will. I don't know when/if they sent money -but they eventually caught on. Kinda like the Nigerian Prince scam.

Maria7 on 12/31/2020:
Re: cleaning the refrigerator...a reminder to me...I need to do ours, too!

Donkey on 01/01/2021:
Sorry but I had to chuckle at that family - Oh my goodness, what a bunch of cray-crays. And I thought it was nice that you threw in the "millionaire" part - I remembered that, ha ha...

You have to wonder how some people get through life. Or as my Male Co-Worker says, some people just suck at life.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/01/2021:
good idea to leave all communications to DH and the POS. i'd do the same, wouldn't want to have any more aggrivation come my way. mother def sounds out of her mind!

yeah, def didn't hear of Raising Canes before reading it here.

didn't know Wendy's had croissants. learning lots here, haha.

you did so great this year working on your weightloss! for so long you maintained and these past few months you made tons of progress! GO you.

innerpeace - Tuesday Dec 29, 2020

Weight: 293.5


Had a day. I went to Wal-mart to return some things that I didn't order but received. I wish Wal-mart would sell wal-mart stuff and not third party like Amazon. Anyway, since it was third party, I may or may not see my refund in 5-7 business days...because of COVID and holidays. Shopped for a few things - did not instacart.

Let my lap top die...

Walked the doggos.

Came home and did...nothing.

Put on a pot of chili.

B: vanilla iced latte

L: left over corn casserole, chips and dip

D: left over salisbury steak and broccoli

Ate a Mr. Goodbar! Took this out of the girl's Christmas box...not proud of this, but it was a need...I satisfied it.

Took two phone calls from work..eventhough I am on "vacation".

Took the doggos on another walk - to our favorite place Indian Hollow - it was a bit colder than I thought, but it was a nice walk.

Cleaned the kitchen.

Tomorrow probably the same. The girl didn't come over tonight. She will be here tomorrow and stay until Thursday - go home and come back Friday...because her mom said so. I just don't even GAF anymore.

I will get my head back in the game.

Have a great night! IP

Progress as of today: 44.4 lbs lost so far, only 83.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/30/2020:
We all need time to just do nothing. Revives you.

Donkey on 12/30/2020:
I agree with Annie! And it shuns like it did you well, especially the walks. Even if it's cold, it's nice to get out. The dogs are a good excuse and good company.

No judgment on the Mr. Goodbye. I've done that myself before. Immediate needs must be met.

bearcountrygg on 12/30/2020:
Sometimes we just need a day like that....might as well enjoy them!

horn_of_plenty on 12/30/2020:
Wow that’s nice to return the Walmart stuff - I guess you’d keep it if you could use it - well that’s what I would do!

Ah, whatever!, I’m sure the girl had enough Christmas candy to spare you some !!! Haha good for you !!

Love the pics and if I remember I said once the water looks brown and you said something to the effect that it is ?

horn_of_plenty on 12/30/2020:
Top left photo - re brown river

innerpeace on 12/31/2020:
It is always nasty brown

innerpeace - Monday Dec 28, 2020

Weight: 293.5

Sunday - went on two walks - one with DH and doggos - one without. Had to walk in the road most of the time because it was slick.

B: toast, vanilla iced latte.

L: left over Chinese food - peanut chicken, general Tso chicken and a bit of house friend rice.

D: grilled cheese and brocolli cheddar soup

had an vanilla iced latte about 9:30

blood sugar this a.m. 133 - way higher than usual (I blame the iced coffee) Funny thing is I don't ever feel different whether it is 233 or 133 or 115 or 108...so whatever. Next appointment is 1/4/2020 next Monday - just a video call.

DH said things that aggravated me...he has a way with words that irritate me. For instance he'll say is soup and sandwich OK for dinner? (he is asking the girl)  And if she says, I don't want that or NO, he'll go out of his way and make what she wants - ergo making her a bigger brat than she already is. I suggest just saying - We're having soup and sandwiches for dinner and leave it at that! Don't give her room to change the menu. He wanted help putting Christmas decorations up in the attic and instead of saying, help me put these things up in the attice - he asks - are you afraid of heights? This to me is just giving an out - of course I'm afraid of heights becaue I don't want to help you. If he just said please help me put these things up and then when/if you get out to the garage and see the ladder...then let that person express their fear of heights without his prompting. I hate kids. I hate lazy, bratty kids more. And then he calls me a control freak because I pointed that out! He's an a$$hole right now...and he can put that crap back up in the attic himself!

Garage door repair person supposed to be next week I think.

Last HVAC guy coming on Monday.

In the office this a.m. to do retirement stuff - will be back her on Thursday.

I am off Tuesday and Wednesday .

Monday - slept awful - DH and his snoring OMG!

B: yogurt and granola, vanilla iced latte.


D: thinking salisbury steak, brocolli

Will make an instacart order later today for tomorrow delivery if available.

Need to stop and get gas and mushrooms on the way home.

Have a great Monday!!

Progress as of today: 44.4 lbs lost so far, only 83.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/28/2020:
Love General Tso chicken. And broccoli and cheddar soup.

Be careful walking on slick paths! I've hurt myself many times doing that.

grannyannie on 12/28/2020:
I wouldn't even tell her what you're having for dinner. Eat what I'm making or go hungry!

bearcountrygg on 12/28/2020:
I'm with Annie.....The cook chooses around here and our kids ate what was served...we had 8 foster children too and never had a picky eater...they were just happy to have food...any food.

legcramps on 12/28/2020:
Oh my goodness, now I want cream of broccoli soup!

I don't have kids, but I probably wouldn't give them a choice of what to eat either, to an extent anyways. If i'm the one doing the cooking, then you're eating what I decide to make. If someone else is cooking, or helping to cook, then whatever i'm not fussy.

BF snores a lot too. He just recently went to the specialist and is now using an over-the-counter nose gel to keep his nasal passage lubricated. It helps so much, and his snoring has gone down a lot!

Donkey on 12/29/2020:
My husband was an awful snorer. It got to the point where I either needed a separate room or I was gonna cause bodily harm. (Just joking, but the desperation for sleep was there.) He has apnea, and wears a CPAP machine. Total game-changer for both of us. You might want to look into that.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/29/2020:
I LOVE hearing you were on two walks, not one! go you!

speaking of grilled cheese, i'm thinking it's something i want to have for an easy dinner or lunch every now and then in 2021...may start buying cheese more often, actually!!! :)

that's really interesting that you feel no difference with those varations in blood sugar...but i'm sure it's better for you to manage it ;)

yep...i gotta say i'm fully on your side, as usual, about using the right words to moreover have a teen help you with things and not "give an out" right away. it's good for the girl to help out and be involved. every little thing adds to her experiences and also not being lazy or bratty...her and kids in general. I wish my parents needed me to do more, actually...got it the easy way, even now..

when working in a company, both you and I know that people that are able to help and act the fastest are the people the company wants to continue working there (amongst other reasons), and it's good to learn that also at home.

sometimes people who snore need surgery...my dad had bad snoring / polyps in his nose and needed them removed...prob caused by working in poor conditions or his asthma or just being unlucky. polyps are like growths in the nasal area.

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