- Friday Jul 16, 2021
I had no idea that it's been 18 days since I last updated. It does not feel like it flew by AT ALL. In fact, it feels like every day is two weeks long!
I am still in my position in healthcare, but have received a pretty nice opportunity in BF's town, so my last day here will be the 23rd. Now that I know it's happening, my feelings are mixed. I will get over that eventually, I know this is definitely the best move for me right now and nothing has changed in my current job except for the fact that i'm finally starting to get to know people and enjoying forming those relationships, which will disintegrate for sure when I leave.
I still haven't had much opportunity to get out and exercise much any other time than the weekends. It will be SO NICE to be able to workout more often after next week! I cannot wait to be able to move more.
And maybe I will also have more time and brain function to post here again too. Until then, i'll be doing my best to get through each day.
- Monday Jun 28, 2021
Good morning all,
I had two interviews for job positions in BF's town, Both went really well and am hoping to get an offer from one this week. They are both very similar positions, as administrators, and I feel so hopeful and happy about it. It's such a nice feeling after two months of being miserable in a position that - to be perfectly honest - people just don't want to see me in. It's too bad, but without having any management experience I have been feeling lost a lot of the time, and unfortunately my coworkers are not interested in offering me any support. Healthcare is quite "sink or swim", so I must admit that I'm definitely not floating right now. I am SO grateful to have other options, and to hopefully not have to stay stuck somewhere that I'm unhappy all of the time.
I haven't been working out much due to job stress, I basically come home every night, cry a little bit and feel sorry for myself lol, eat and then go to bed. I've been trying to make up for it on weekends, but definitely feel a loss of strength. Since health and wellness has been a passion of mine for a long time, this is just absolutely unacceptable to me. Job change should switch things up a bit I hope!
We should all remember, let me be the example, that we NEED to still take risks in life even if they don't go the way you were hoping. Make your change happen, and then make your changes happen again if it doesn't work out the first time.
- Friday Jun 18, 2021
I might have a bite on a new job that is in the same town as BF. This might have all worked out like this for a reason after all! I am still in my job in healthcare management, but if all goes well, hopefully not for long. May be moving into the construction field and trying my hand at project administration / HR. And I'll get to be much closer to BF, as in, in the same household after four years of commitment.
Cross your fingers and toes! It puts my healthcare family in a tight spot, but I just can't do the job anymore. It is not even close to the fit I was hoping for.
- Monday May 31, 2021
Very quick update today, sorry everyone I seem to be dropping off the face of the earth here! I am still struggling with the new job. I am still learning and it is still a huge learning curve for me. Every day is quite hard to handle, I've even started to look for another job already lol!
I guess the positive is that this change did get me out of a job that I was totally miserable in, and into one that I will be challenged in for a long time (if I can stick it out). The pay is certainly earned I'll tell you that! One month in, having to make exceptions for myself and be gentle with myself.
Stirring up some change. Hopefully something good comes of it.
- Monday May 17, 2021
Well, I might have finally reached my limit with the 75 hard challenge. Today since I've been home from work it's requiring far too much energy even to move lol, so I don't know how I'll manage to get a workout in before crashing and going to sleep.
This week I start my third week of my new job, and I can tell you that the first two weeks were so, so hard to get through. Like, I don't actually KNOW how I got through them. Kind of like I just don't know HOW I will get through a workout tonight. It honestly seems impossible.
This morning was the worst so far in terms of how I'm feeling; I dreaded the drive to work, the actual work, and all of the "what if's" that might happen during the day. Operationally speaking, Friday of last week was probably the worst, so that might be why I was feeling so much dread today. There are constantly hard decisions to make, and not even a lick of support to make them. This is why healthcare suffers, you know? Because the people actually having to make the decisions don't have enough information, resources, time, energy, focus, or support to make them. And all the "support" people who should be helping make those decisions keep handing it off to someone else and that someone else keeps putting it off, and then it hits a critical point and they wonder how it could have possibly gotten to that.
So, a little defeated, to say the least. And already looking for another job! Well, I guess you don't know if you don't try, right?!
- Monday May 03, 2021
Well, my first official day of work as a Manager was today! Is it a bad sign that I feel a little like crying?!
I'm hoping it was not a normal day today, if all the days are like this I will be looking for something else pretty quick. It was a very long day and full of all the things that I still need to learn about. I know it will take time, I'm just feeling very, very overwhelmed right now, and without a whole lot of support.
Like I said, hopefully tomorrow will be better! Change is always so tough to get through isn't it.
I am still keeping up with the 75hard challenge, though it is definitely getting more and more difficult to ensure everything gets done in one day. I worked from 7:30 am to 6:00 pm today, so I still have half of my tasks to do. I will likely crash right away, or else I will stay up all night overthinking lol!
Ok girls, I need a lot of happy thoughts to come my way! Help me get through this week!
I may only be able to give quick updates for awhile, so for now I will stop giving a day to day count of my exercise. I hope you are all having a great week so far!
- Tuesday Apr 27, 2021
April 19 - yoga and walk; burned 234 calories
April 20 - step workout and hike; burned 332 calories
April 21 - bike and walk; burned 404 calories
April 22 - step workout and walk; burned 142 calories
April 23 - bike and walk; burned 380 calories
April 24 - gym and hike; burned 877 calories
April 25 - yoga and bike; burned 454 calories
April 26 - yoga and bike; burned 412 calories
Still moving forward with the 75 Hard challenge, slowly but surely. Have been busy either orientating the new person to my current job, or trying to orientate to my new job. Official start on Monday! After one orientation day to my new job, i'm feeling a little better about what my responsibilities will be; it was tough when I didn't think I would get any orientation, but thank goodness i've gotten one day so far. Hopefully one more will get me even further in my understanding of the job duties.
Not much else aside from that; this week will probably fly by. Today is really nice out, so I will try to get outside for a walk between the end of my shift and an evening meeting I have to attend. Then it might get cold again for a couple of days. Have a great week all!
- Monday Apr 19, 2021
April 12 - 75 Hard starts; yoga and shovel; burned 253 calories
April 13 - bike and shovel; burned 357 calories
April 14 - circuit workout and walk; burned 329 calories
April 15 - bike and walk; burned 562 calories
April 16 - walk and strength workout; burned 585 calories
April 17 - walk, bike and yoga; burned 265 calories
April 18 - yoga, gym workout and walk; burned 914 calories
75 day challenge is no joke! But i'm pacing myself and doing a lot of yoga and walking in there so that hopefully I won't get burned out.
Two more weeks at my current job and then the new one takes over; getting excited! (and still terrified). Orientating the newbie to my position this week, so it will be a busy one.
Have a great week everyone!
- Monday Apr 12, 2021
April 6 - REST
April 7 - WALK; burned unknown calories
April 8 - WALK; BIKE; burned 739 calories
April 9 - WALK; burned unknown calories
April 10 - BIKE; burned 2,108 calories
April 11 - REST
I didn't wear my heart rate monitor on my walks last week; they were quick, 20 minute walks while taking a break from work. But i'm counting them as exercise because they were, LOL, my co-worker walks so fast I can barely keep up to her!
Big bike ride on April 10th where I managed 65 kilometres on gravel roads. I cried a little bit on this one. No, really, I did. And then I got over myself and kept going. Until the last few kilometres, where I begged my BF to come back with a vehicle to pick me up! (He did, bless his soul). By that point, I was probably doing more walking than biking.
I slathered myself with all the lotion the rest of Saturday and all of Sunday, and i'm feeling pretty good today. Not like last time at all, thank goodness!
Today I am starting the 75 HARD challenge. You can google it if you want more information. I just purchased the software app for my phone and will do it that way. It's very straightforward - you do five things each day for 75 days. Not easy, busy definitely straightforward. 1 - Complete two 45 minute workouts, one has to be done outside. 2 - Drink a gallon of water. 3 - Pick a diet, any diet. 4 - No cheating, no alcohol. 5 - Read 10 pages of a book (preferably motivational).
This morning I did 45 minutes of yoga. I never get a feeling of accomplishment after doing yoga; I don't burn any real calories, but yet I feel like i'm working so hard! LOL, anyways, it did feel nice to wake up by stretching my body, and it was a beginner class that I found on You Tube and worked perfectly for me.
Second workout will likely be shovelling snow after work. It started snowing early Sunday morning and hasn't really stopped since.
- Tuesday Apr 06, 2021
March 29 - REST
March 30 - worked over 12 hours today; last gym shift!
March 31 - walk; burned 295 calories
April 1 - walk; burned 301 calories
April 2 - travelled 10 hours today to pick up BF's daughter for the weekend
April 3 - hike; burned 340 calories
April 4 - bike; burned 726 calories
April 5 - walk; burned 479 calories
A lot of walking done last week; it is still a bit too wet and muddy to hike, and a little too windy and cold to bike. My body is telling me today should be a rest day.
Well, I have some news! One of the recent interviews I was invited to participate in has payed off, and i've been offered a promotion into management! It will include a longer commute than the current 5 minutes it takes me to get to work ;) and a completely new environment full of all kinds of challenges.
If all goes according to plan, new job will begin in May and I will become incredibly busy trying to figure it all out. I am a little concerned that the scope of the job will be too much too soon, but there are kind people around me who think I have the stuff required to get the job done. So for now, I will choose to believe that they believe in me, and try to stop jumping on the imposter syndrome bandwagon.
In the end, it will be what it will be. At least I won't regret not trying, and if it doesn't work out then, that's okay, i'll figure it out. I have faith that I can take a risk and be strong enough to handle the outcome, whatever it might be.
I guess ending my weekly shifts at the gym was pretty good timing, huh?!