- Tuesday Jun 30, 2020
I did not do very well at all with eating yesterday, but - even though I was so sore - I went for a walk in the evening and got my 10,000 steps in at least.
But for real, I was having some trouble walking yesterday LOL. Feeling a little less sore today.
The weather has been anticlimactic around here. We were preparing to get a whole lot of rain, but all that's come so far is a steady drizzle for the last couple of days. Now I know how people who live in BC feel when it is raining all the time.
My aunt with the recent health issues is back at home resting. I think we'll leave her alone while she is still recovering, and head to my cousin's as we had initially planned. I am so looking forward to some time away without the requirement to do much of anything.
I desperately need to reel in my eating; my cousin's should be a good place to do this - she is on a strict nutrition plan as she has so many allergies. It won't kill me to bend to her plan for a few days. And when I get back i'll have to really start working harder in this area. It's fine while i'm working it off, but as I am not doing the same volume of workouts as I used to do, the weight is starting to pile up and I have been really feeling it the past couple of days.
Started the day with toast and pb, and coffee with oat milk and sugar.
I have leftover chicken fingers, rice and veggies to eat for lunch, with honey dill sauce.
Homemade healthy chicken burritos for supper! With a little dollop of sour cream.
Will try and stick to protein shakes or bars for snacks if I need them.
- Monday Jun 29, 2020
BF and I were up late playing games on our iPads last night, and now i'm almost zombie-like at work. However, I am impressed with the amount of work i'm still managing to get through. My only hope is that i'm actually doing it right and won't have to backtrack and do it all again tomorrow. I know I keep saying the same thing, but I really need to get to sleep earlier when i'm with BF.
I applied for another job last week, but this one is even further away and i'd have to find somewhere to stay during the week and just come home on the weekends. It's not very appealing, but again - I might not even get an interview for these positions. Often, they already have someone else in mind for them. Will keep looking!
Had a very eventful weekend...
I had some yardwork to do on my day off on Friday, and ran some other errands before driving to BF's. On Saturday we did an early morning workout at the gym, and in the late afternoon we went biking on the trails. I fell, I may have cried, and I tried to nurse the road rash on my leg for the rest of the evening. The weather was dreary on Sunday, and so were all of our moods. We lazed around most of the day, until BF decided to tear apart his upstairs bathroom (he wants to renovate it). I helped with that for a bit, and then we went to the gym again. Up early this morning to head home and get back to work.
We ate fairly well. Brisket burgers on Saturday, and chicken quesadillas last night which were delicious. I also recall a very thick ham and cheese sandwich with lots of mustard, some watermelon, protein pancakes with turkey bacon, hot coffee, and an ice cold smoothie. Last night I had a little vanilla ice cream in a waffle bowl with some chocolate on top.
I work today and tomorrow, and then i'm off until Monday. We were planning to visit my cousin on the farm, but my aunt has since had some health issues and we may change our plans to see her instead, depending on how she is recovering (and unfortunately, also depending on how many people she's had to interact with recently).
Definitely a rest day today. I can barely walk, my glutes and quads are absolutely trashed. Looking forward to my massage chair later!
- Wednesday Jun 24, 2020
There is not much on the job boards for my area right now... I did apply for a privacy analyst position yesterday, but it is in a city an hour and a half away so i'm not sure how I would make that work. However, sometimes it is just a conversation with the supervisor and an option will present itself ...you never know, so I must try everything.
BF and his daughter came for a visit last night. We did not make it to the lake; BF's daughter wanted to hang out with a friend so we stayed in town. I got all my yardwork done, washed dishes, and even did a load of laundry. We made chicken, rice and veggies for supper and BF brought some creamy honey dill dip for us to try - it was delicious.
Today passes quickly hopefully. I have an evening meeting that i'm not looking forward to, but will tell myself that it will be awesome and so it shall be - right?! LOL
Giving myself the permission to look for a different position has been slightly freeing, and i'm not feeling quite as trapped as I was yesterday. Something will come up, it's only a matter of time.
Another sunny day today! I have Friday off! A weekend full of zero plans!
- Tuesday Jun 23, 2020
Oof, it was a busy week and weekend, and yesterday at work was crazy too. Hopefully it will die off a bit now.
It is so hot here today, which to some of you would not seem very hot at all. A nice sunny day. We may try to hit the lake after work to soak up some of these hard to find rays.
I have a great job at the hospital; I am good at it, people trust and acknowledge my experience, and I have a semblance of control over the work that I do. However, for the last few years it's been becoming more and more difficult to work with certain people. My trust in the healthcare system has also waned quite significantly. Due to the extra levels of stress these past few months, it has been even more difficult.
I think I am just at the stage now where I quite dislike having work piled on me as a last resort. Well, I don't know - let legcramps fix it. Oh, this has to be sent in today - legcramps will do it. We need a new template and process for receipting? Yes, i'm sure legcramps has nothing better to do, give it to her.
I've had a discussion with BF, and I am going to start looking for something else. I hate to do it - it's like staring a gift horse in the mouth - but I need to find something that gives me more joy. It may take months for that to happen, but I am going to start looking today, and will continue once a week or once every couple of weeks until I see something that speaks to me. I'll do my best to stay within the healthcare system because I do not want to give up my many perks - as HoP mentions - we also get a good pension, great benefits, etc. and I've been here for over 19 years now. But it's time for me to move on, and leave this part of my life behind me.
- Thursday Jun 18, 2020
I'm trying not to think too much about my shift at the gym tonight, but my anxiety has been slowly increasing over the course of the week. I just keep taking deep breaths and telling myself that I can get through it and it will be fine.
And I have tomorrow off work so that's something to look forward to. I plan on taking my SUV in to the city to get a hitch installed. While I wait I need to find a gift for a friend, and pick up a few other things.
Tomorrow night is another friend's birthday, and then off to BF's for the weekend. I have to help his sister with something, and then on Sunday it's Father's Day and we are planning on having his kids over. We also wanted to try getting out to the lake, but will have to see how busy it gets.
Busy. I shouldn't look past today, writing that out just made me even more anxious.
I stayed at work an extra three hours yesterday for a meeting, so I bought myself subway for dinner. I did not get in a workout, it was a complete rest day yesterday. I am hoping I will be able to do a strength workout while at the gym today.
- Tuesday Jun 16, 2020
Yesterday was not a bad day.
I stuck it out at work to the bitter end and then went straight home. When I got home, I started laundry and cleaned the kitchen. Then BF texted me to see if I was going to workout. I said I WAS working out - playing games on my iPad. But he motivated me to get up and I went for a walk along some trails nearby, which was neat because I actually found some trails I hadn't known were there.
Then I jumped in my massage chair for a bit, and BF's daughter sent me some of her homework to edit and check over. I had a peanut butter sandwich after work, and then smoked pork tenderloin with a baked potato for supper. I have vegetables in the fridge I should eat.
So yeah, not a bad day!
I was up this morning for mobility work, which felt awesome. Now i'm at work. I have to work a shift at the gym this week, so i'll need to figure out what i'm going to do there. It's wierd jumping back into it, but I know i'll be fine. So long as no one touches me, because then i'll freak right out.
Anyways, the plan for today is to get through the workday without feeling like I got hit by a truck! Wish me luck!
- Monday Jun 15, 2020
It's nice to see a slow day at work here or there now; i'm grateful to have them. I unintentionally showed up to work early on Friday morning, so I left early as well; I wasn't about to voluntarily stay any longer than I needed to LOL.
I'm still finding it tough to motivate myself to workout. I did get some yardwork done on Friday, which was nice. It's been really busy with one thing or another this weekend. Two birthday parties, more yardwork, and an afternoon with a smoker (a device that smokes food, not a person LOL). BF and I went for a walk along the trails near his place yesterday afternoon, and that was nice. It was actually more of a walk/run because it took me a bit of effort to keep up to him, especially on the hilly climbs. I ran all the downhills just to catch up.
I have Friday off this week, and i'm really looking forward to it. I have a lot to do before I get there, though, so my evenings cannot look like they have lately. No more naps, legcramps. Come on, you can do this!
A friend showed me a picture of a pool one of her friends made in their backyard using pallets and grain bags. It was beautiful, but more importantly, it was long and narrow and a LAP POOL. I want one so bad now! But due to certain by-laws, I would have to build a fence around my yard and I do not want to do that at all. So I guess I just continue to dream of swimming ;)
Have a good week everyone :)
- Wednesday Jun 10, 2020
I woke up this morning with only a small amount of flow; nothing overnight. That is a good sign. Will continue to monitor. Sorry in advance if you don't really want to hear about it ;)
Could definitely be menopause or pre-menopause; i'm 43 already. But could also be a by-product of birth control. Hoping it's only one of these two reasons and not something else, something more serious.
BF and I celebrated three years together yesterday. We met in the middle at a lake that is close to both of us - well, an hour's drive for me each way, and 40 minutes for him, but that's ok. He took his kayak out and I took my SUP (stand up paddle) board. Except I forgot my lifejacket, and the ore. Sigh. BF lent me his daughter's lifejacket, and I got on my belly and paddled with my arms. Ouch, the water was cold! It wasn't long before my hands and forearms were numb and red from the cold water, but we managed to stay in the lake for almost a whole hour.
Afterwards, we sat in the back of the van and had a picnic - I had picked up the fixings for bagel sandwiches, and brought along raw veggies and fruit, and some chocolate for dessert. We also got to visit friends who have a seasonal campsite at that particular lake.
Then I drove home with the heat cranked since I hadn't brought a change of clothes with me and was soaking wet. I had a hot bath when I got home and still wasn't completely comfortable when I went to bed. But I feel good today - nothing like a little "cold that goes straight through your bones" to wake a person up!
- Tuesday Jun 09, 2020
I'm starting to feel a little nervous about having bled for so long already. I want to give it a few more days before I talk to my doctor - this might be procrastination on my part because i've gotten so anxious about it. It had gotten much lighter, yesterday was only a small amount through the day, but this morning I woke up with a flow once again.
I took a rest day yesterday, aside from doing my morning mobility work. I used the massage chair and accidentally fell asleep in it. Then Mom phoned and talked to me until 9:15 p.m. and by that point I had called it quits on a workout.
Today is mine and BF's dating anniversary - three years. So we will probably plan an outdoor activity as long as the weather plays nice.
I did not do well with eating yesterday, even though I skipped supper. I still managed to eat three donuts throughout the day :(
Starting the day with a healthy breakfast: one slice 12 grain toast with peanut butter, with a bowl of watermelon and pineapple
I have a lot of leftovers in the fridge, so i'll be picking at that for lunch today, but lunch will definitely include a large salad.
Supper might just be a subway sandwich since BF and I plan to meet up somewhere. It will be easiest.
- Monday Jun 08, 2020
Good Lord, so this is Day 13 of TOM... I am guessing that something to do with the depo shot really messed up my cycle. REALLY hoping that it diminishes soon and if not I guess I will have to make a doctor's appointment.
BF and I went for a gravel ride on Friday night when he got to my place. Still really dry outside and we got dirty pretty quickly, but it was a nice ride and we found a couple of new roads to ride on.
Took a complete rest day on Saturday; the weather was not cooperative at all, so there was nothing to do but housework and be lazy all day. I was OK with it ;)
Sunday I went out on the highway with my road bike. I was super impressed with how I seem to have made some progress with my speed. Maybe it's just "first time lucky" but then I wouldn't have also fallen off my bike if I had been that lucky LOL.
Our meals over the weekend were fun - we checked out a food truck on Friday, made sausage and perogies on Saturday, and had some yummy breakfasts as well. Last night we made two batches of burritos - one batch with ground beef and one with chicken. We will freeze most of it so we have some quick meals handy.