- Wednesday Apr 08, 2020
I've been switching to a lot of yoga the past couple of weeks, with meditation, to help calm my anxieties.
In an effort to keep myself busy with things non-covid-19-related, i've taken next week off work and signed up for a few fitness courses that are being offered online for free - one is for building Mental Toughness, a Kettlebell training certification, a Battle Ropes training certification, and then there is a TRX suspension training course I am trying to sign up for as well.
Maybe I will even be able to go for a few walks, jogs, or bike rides outside.
I made a batch of vegan meat sauce for the week to eat with noodles or rice. I think I will freeze some of it though, and make more chicken tonight for the rest of the week. I have really been loving having chicken and rice for most of my meals (don't judge my boring menu), and the odd snack in between.
So grateful to continue to have a job to go to, to earn money to pay my mortgage, taxes, and utilities, and to be able to buy groceries. I'm grateful I don't have to spend my time on the phone with our revenue agency to apply for EI, Emergency relief, etc. I've heard it's been a complete nightmare. I'm grateful that i'm healthy, that my family is healthy, that my friends are healthy, and I hope they continue to be through all of this.
Being conscious and aware of gratefulness, being hopeful for our future, that's what i've been working on.
- Tuesday Mar 31, 2020
I made the decision to visit BF on the weekend. It was such a tough decision to make, and probably gave me an ulcer that i'll have to live with indefinitely because the weekend was SO fun; I had to sit BF and his daughter down and show them a 35 minute video on corona virus and what happens to people who contract covid-19. I literally had to tell them, ad nauseam, that PEOPLE WILL DIE when I discovered his daughter had a friend over FOR THE WEEKEND.
It was not a great conversation, and not a great start to the weekend.
Honestly, I don't even want to talk about it right now, that's how upset I still am over it. I feel like I was stretching the limits just going to visit them for the weekend, and after making the very tough decision to visit my family, we were all faced with an extra risk that was completely unnecessary.
I went for a walk outside both Saturday and Sunday, and we did some cooking and ate pretty well over the weekend. I've started limiting my grocery/toiletry shopping to once a week, and now i'm ordering most meats bulk from a local restaurant owner, which helps me limit my interaction with people. I just put in an order for ribs, ground beef, chicken and quick oats. I think eventually, I will start pre-ordering all my food so that I don't have to go in-store.
I also ordered some resistance bands to add to my home gym arsenol, and BF gave me a 25lb dumbbell he had at home.
Although last night after work, I basically stared at the wall for three hours before deciding to just go to bed lol. I am trying to make exercise a priority, but mental exhaustion is battling with my physical willingness to workout. I'll get there. I am pretty sure that when the time comes that our hospital needs to start REACTING to covid and not just PREPARING for it, my workload will get cut back.
- Wednesday Mar 25, 2020
Well, I think I made the right decision when I asked BF to go home after picking up his daughter on Saturday, rather than coming back to my place. I haven't seen him since (we should really face time or something, that would help). Anyways, they are at his place and I am at mine. I have kept myself busy cleaning but definitely missing them a lot.
The main level of my house is near sparkling it's so clean. All I can smell is Lysol.
I got sick with TOM on Monday, so I did have to run out and get some supplies. I wore gloves and wiped EVERYTHING that I purchased down once I got back home.
I still feel a little crappy today but i'm trying to just plug along. I haven't worked out since Sunday, so maybe tonight I will be able to get a workout in. I bought some jugs of water to use as weights, so i'm actually looking forward to that.
There will be a Zoom call this afternoon with the gym coaches and owners, and some of the members to discuss how things are going and what could be done in the following weeks to support members in their journeys. Since I am working, I will be missing the call. They might have enough work for virtual workouts so that one or two trainers could work part-time, but that will likely be all they can do. So I won't be required anyways, although I will definitely be following along and motivating all our members from the sidelines! In reality, it will be nice to have the extra time to myself, since the days at the hospital will probably continue to be stressful for a while.
- Thursday Mar 19, 2020
Of course as soon as I say we are business as usual it changes to a completely new normal.
It doesn't help that the number of COVID-19 tests in our province doubled in one day and our province declared a state of emergency... our numbers are still low, but some things are worrying me now. Especially the degree to which it can spread if we don't take some precautions right now.
Gyms are closed, so i'm assuming that means i'm done working there indefinitely, unless they ask me to start doing live workouts through facebook. I'm not sure I want to travel outside of my local area anymore though.
BF wants to pick up his daughter on Saturday, which means travelling about 4 hours each way to get her. She is coming from another province. It worries me that she's been in contact with COVID-19 and shouldn't be travelling at all - should be staying at home. Or I might be in contact with COVID-19 at the hospital and might be contagious. If her parents decide they will bring her, then that's what they'll do, but it won't stop me from worrying about it LOL.
I've been having trouble sleeping. I have a big workload right now, and it's been really stressful trying to keep up.
To all of you who are in more desperate measures than I - who are facing office closures, job closures, self-isolation, who are self-employed and facing a huge financial crisis - my heart breaks for you! Hang in there; hopefully we will see some normalcy sooner rather than later!
- Tuesday Mar 17, 2020
It has been so stressful and busy at work over the last couple of weeks because of COVID-19. It seems that our government has a new press release every few hours and every time we get a new one, we scramble to follow through with the new directives. We've progressed to closing the doors to visitors in a lot of our long term care facilities, and now even our hospital has a restricted visitors list. Schools have been closed, faith-based organizations, etc. So we are definitely seeing and feeling the effects of this world-wide pandemic.
My gym is still operating business as usual. I feel that, especially in times like these, we need to continue to provide healthy living options to those who may be feeling extra anxiety and concern. It is helpful to be able to still come together as a community, and my gym has always had very strict cleaning guidelines - it is well known for its standards of hygiene. We have offered virtual options for anyone who is under self-isolation or who choose not to attend in-person. I will continue to coach in the gym until such time they decide this process needs to change. I am confident that the owners are doing their due diligence in ensuring they are providing a safe place for people to workout in.
You never know what will happen next though...we do not have any confirmed cases of COVID-19 in our province at this time, but this could quickly change. I am grateful that our government is doing everything it can to keep our elderly and at-risk safe.
- Monday Mar 16, 2020
Apologies if anyone was wondering what the heck happened to me... I'm OK! I had been feeling a little off at the beginning of the month; really disconsolate actually. I hate being negative, especially here
It's been a little crazy, though, even for us in Canada. I work at a hospital. Enough said, am I right?! Anyways, today seems to be a little closer to normal, so i'm taking a few minutes to do an update.
I've been biking a lot this year, so on the weekend I attended a group training session. Boy, it darn near wrecked me LOL; It was pretty obvious that I haven't used the muscles in my shoulders for awhile. It was nice to get a little strength training in, even if I will feel it for a few days LOL.
Work today, coach tonight. Business as usual!
- Thursday Mar 05, 2020
Finally planning on getting back on the bike tonight. It's been a long week for sure and I think not having that as an added exercise has made it feel even longer. So back to the bike! And maybe we'll do something fun this weekend after work on Saturday. Really needing a re-set.
- Wednesday Mar 04, 2020
Hump Day, so glad. I don't know why this week is feeling so rough already, there's still a lot more of it to go LOL. I guess our perseverance must be tested from time to time.
Starting today with a slice of toast and a banana.
Coffee at work, and brought an orange for a snack.
Lunch will be a turkey sandwich.
Then maybe another coffee and lots of water this afternoon.
Meeting tonight where they will serve supper; thinking it will be soup and sandwiches.
Then home; laundry; dishes; not sure if I will get any exercise in today; i'll have had enough endurance practice just getting through the work day ;)
- Tuesday Mar 03, 2020
TOM these last few months has been really rough. I have been thinking about going back in for the depo shot (i've been off it for just over a year). They say that it gets better the more you exercise, but we all know how much I exercise and it has definitely not gotten any better. I feel that the depo shot is my best chance at being able to function through the first couple days of my period.
Coaching last night was a bit of a kerfluffle. That's the way it goes sometimes...I wasn't fully prepared and so I just sort of bobbled through it. The good thing is that I don't think anyone really noticed except for me. And if someone else did notice, they didn't say anything LOL.
After coaching, straight home. The highways were terrible yesterday, and I had to slow down quite a lot. It was a stressful drive. I ate when I got home, and honestly just wanted to go to sleep. Hoping today will hold more energy for me.
Well that was a whole lot of complaining, so i'll just stop there LOL. My eating was good yesterday and hoping for the same easy day of eating today.
- Monday Mar 02, 2020
Well, happy Monday!
The weekend went by so quickly. I was pretty sick on Saturday, but I made it to work at the gym at 8:00 and finished up around 2:00 that afternoon. I did my best to put on a happy face, and was grateful that it was super busy so I didn't have time to feel sorry for myself LOL.
After work I went out and bought some extra strength Motrin to try since the Tylenol had worn out its welcome (I was having trouble walking by that point, and was unable to eat or drink anything for fear of throwing it up). The Motrin really helped, and I was able to spend the rest of the weekend being relatively functional instead of sick on the couch.
On Sunday we went to a nutrition talk that lasted about 1.5 hours. It was good - nothing I didn't already know, but it was a nice refresher, especially when he started chatting about hormones, menstruation, and menopause and different nutritional needs during these cycles.
BF and I had big plans to food prep last night but by the time we got back home it was already pushing a late supper and I was HANGRY. So we did what we could. BF and I both have chicken and a carb prepped for the next couple of meals this week, and we had some leftovers from the fish we made for supper last night. So I guess we did prep a little bit! I also have a big bag of oranges to pick from this week for snacks. So I should just need to add a vegetable and i'm good.
Back to the gym tonight for a couple of sessions. I work the full week at the hospital as well, plus we have an evening meeting on Wednesday night. Then I work at the gym again Friday and Saturday. It will be a busy week!
As for exercise over the weekend, I am labelling it Active Recovery, but my calendar will show them as rest days. I was far too sick to do much on Saturday, but I did a LOT of moving while at the gym. On Sunday I took BF through the motions of a gym assessment - which got both of our hearts pumping a bit. Then we scoured the shelves looking for food for a good hour after that LOL. I am satisfied that I moved just enough over the weekend.