- Thursday Feb 05, 2009
I gobbled down some crackers in the afternoon at work yesterday because i've been feeling very empty most days. It helped yesterday, but I think it may have slightly ruined my appetite for dinner. Oh well.
I made the homemade burgers for dinner last night instead of chili. The burgers were sounding more and more delicious the more I thought about making them, so by the time I got to the grocery store, there was no turning back. Burgers it was!!
I found the recipe for the burgers online, and grilled them on my Lean Mean Fat Grilling Machine. Couldn't believe the amount of grease that came off of them, but they were STILL juicy, even after all that had come out of them! Anyways, they didn't exactly stick together very well, but i'm not complaining one bit. They were absolutely delicious, and i'm glad I decided to make them! I ate ONE burger and was full. A glass of orange juice and some snack mix and that was my night, diet-wise.
ONE hour Vinyasa Flow Yoga. I've been out of yoga for a while, so this was hard for me, twisting my body around in various shapes and forms is not something I do on a daily basis... It will take some time for me to get back into it. I remember feeling so inferior after each class because of how incredibly INflexible I am.
1/2 hour treadmill at the gym. I didn't run because I felt that I didn't have enough energy to, so instead I struggled my way through a hill climb. The sweat was pouring down my back SO not cool! And then I ran the last minute. Just because I wanted to.
While waiting for my friend to finish, I added 10 push-ups on the balance ball, then 20 more on the floor mat and 20 crunches.
Needless to say, my legs hurt right now. So does my abdomen. And my shoulder blades do, too. Actually. Everything hurts.
2 eggs, 2 slices toast with margarine and peanut butter, 3 strawberries.
1 homemade burger, with bun and condiments.
crackers. only enough to wane my huge appetite until dinnertime. yeah right.
1 homemade burger, with bun and condiments. Unless my boyfriend wants to go out for dinner, since it is his birthday today! 29! Old man!
Um. Maybe the gym. We'll see. No promises. If not, PUSH-UPS!
- Wednesday Feb 04, 2009
Dinner yesterday was yummy!!
Chicken Cordon Bleu, potatoes, and mixed vegetables
One glass White Zinfandel
Breakfast this morning:
2 eggs, 2 slices whole wheat toast (margarine & peanut butter), 3 strawberries
2 slices whole wheat toast (margarine & peanut butter)
Dinner is going to be chili. Not "brrr" chilly, spicy chili... probably with potatoes as a side since everything else will be in the chili (I put every imaginable vegetable into my chili). Either that, or i'll make homemade burgers. I haven't really decided yet, but at least the beef is thawing!
Last night I curled for two hours. I'm getting really sick of this curling stuff. I'm so tired today, they go way past my bedtime.
If my friend does not call to go to the gym, I am going to do push ups again tonight. Heck, maybe i'll do them even if I do end up going to the gym.
- Tuesday Feb 03, 2009
Dinner was good yesterday, a little piece of pork chop, with potatoes, onion and red pepper, and a tall glass of milk.
4 slices whole wheat toast with margarine & peanut butter
For dinner I am going to make Chicken Cordon Bleu, with potatoes and vegetables.
To Do's: get gas, get mail, pay for plant arrangement, get groceries, make dinner, clean up dinner, curl at 9pm.
The friend I usually go to the gym with was very sick yesterday, so we didn't go. However, due to pressure from my boyfriend, I did drop and give myself 20 push-ups. Then I did 20 more. Then 2, just so that I could say that i'd done more than him, and prove to him that I could actually do a push-up! So, no, it wasn't the gym, but it was SOMETHING!
- Monday Feb 02, 2009
I was very sick for most of the weekend (TOM), and ended up visiting the hospital's outpatient department to get a shot of Gravol and Toradol. I was throwing up and when I start, it's too hard to stop! Anyways, Advil wasn't staying down, and without Advil the pain is too great. I decided that it wasn't worth suffering through any longer and got my boyfriend to give me a ride to the hospital.
This month, I am going to work very hard in order to not have this happen at my next scheduled period. I am going to work out as much as I can, start yoga training (for my core strength), eat lots of the type of food that will encourage immunity from painful pms symptoms, and try to lose a few pounds in the process.
I spent the day at a friend's place yesterday because I was in a horrible mood and didn't feel like taking it out on my boyfriend any longer. I am glad he is patient - I have not been on my best behaviour lately, as my last entry will prove (he really did nothing wrong) - and understands what I am going through.
Tonight is red meat, potatoes and lots of other vegetables. I've had so far:
2 slices whole wheat toast with lactose-free margarine and peanut butter
2 cups coffee, one cup with creamer (non-lactose-free)
2 slices whole wheat toast with lactose-free margarine and peanut butter
- Friday Jan 30, 2009
Last night wasn't a very good night. I guess I knew it was bound to happen, but I think we all hope that the good times will never end, right?! My boyfriend did some things that didn't make me feel too good about where we were at in our relationship. We are on very thin ice, and I feel that efforts need to be made to ensure we are building towards more solid ground for the future, and I felt that those efforts were only being made by myself. I couldn't talk to him last night (I wasn't emotionally stable enough), but plan to tonight, so here's to hoping that being able to stick up for myself even in the smallest of situations.
Not much else planned for today, really can't talk too much as it's Friday and i'm a little busy today. Hope you all have a great weekend!
- Thursday Jan 29, 2009
So I believe we've decided on what to do for our date night this week. I believe we are going to go rock climbing! Yay! That should be so much fun... followed by a nice supper out and comfortable conversation during the drive home (we have to drive into the city to do this, and it's going to be three hours of driving time altogether, but will hopefully be worth it).
I skipped the gym last night in leiu of driving into the larger centre closest to our town so that I could wash my vehicle. I took a friend with me, and we did our grocery shopping, then went to the car wash. As luck would have it, there was a sign in front of the car wash saying "Car Wash Temporarily Unavailable... sorry for any inconvenience". Well. Considering I had driven half an hour for the sole purpose of cleaning my vehicle, it was a bit of an inconvenience. I dreamed for a moment of walking into the station spouting obscene and vulgar words out of my mouth, but decided against it, as it wasn't really as big of a deal as I had initially let on. Anyways, we got our groceries and stopped for a bite to eat. I ordered a vegetarian pasta dish and scooped half of it into a take-away container right away. I ate almost all of my salad (until the waitress came to take it away from me, in fact) and the only bad thing I had was the pop I drank instead of water. I hang my head in shame for that, especially after promising that I wouldn't...
I'm really tired right now, just waiting out the end of the workday so that I can go home and... I don't know... sleep maybe?
- Wednesday Jan 28, 2009
Ok, so I managed to struggle through the day yesterday, and I guess it wasn't really all that horrible like I tried to lead you to believe. It was not bad, actually. I could have dropped the curling, but it did give me a chance to socialize a bit so i'm looking on the brighter side. And, as i've been reminded, there are people who are in a much darker place right now than I, so I will be grateful for where I am and what I have, and hold those who are less fortunate in my everyday prayers.
I had a wonderful breakfast this morning:
1/2 banana, 2 strawberries, 6 blueberries, 2 pieces of 60% whole wheat texas toast with light, lactose-free margarine and peanut butter, and 2 fried eggs.
Picked up a large mocha on my way to work, and drank the last 1/2 bottle of Pepsi (I promise I won't buy another one today).
Lunch will be leftover fish n'chips.
Then I am getting my hair colored after work, so I told my boyfriend if he gets home before me and is hungry he should throw the last frozen pizza in the freezer into the oven because that was my plan for tonight anyways. I will need to buy more groceries tonight: I need bread, eggs, milk, orange juice, and some other things I wrote down.
A full day, but that means it will pass quickly and before we know it, the weekend will be here again! I can't wait, as it's my turn to think of an outing for date night!!! Any ideas?
- Tuesday Jan 27, 2009
Well, I am still horking up a lung everytime I need to let out a little cough, and i'm still sneezing and sniffling and just generally forcing everyone to feel sorry for me. I did take Tylenol Cold & Flu, all weekend, and i'm sure it helped me to not be more sick than I was, but I was still sick. I tried to nap on Saturday, but that didn't work. I drank 4 litres of orange juice and the same in water. I ate lots of fruit. I sucked on throat drops and rubbed Vicks Vaporub into my chest at almost every opportunity. I've never been so hell-bent on getting over a virus. And now. I'm tired. I'm so tired from trying so hard to get over this "thing" that i'll end up giving in and letting it ripple through me, leaving catastrophic damage in its' wake. Yes, i'm so....exaggerating, but the end result is the same - i'm not getting better and this is going to be another terrible start to another terrible year. These are the things that go through my mind, people... paranoia really sucks.
If I could only breathe properly and think clearly, I could get back into the swing of going to the gym and watching what I eat. I'm so tired!! sob story.
You know what the icing on the cake is?? I have to curl tonight. My God, the pity-party just never ends, does it?
- Friday Jan 23, 2009
I have not been doing a whole lot lately. Let's see... on Tuesday we discovered that our plumbing was plugged up and we couldn't drain water without seeing it come back up into the basement. I took the whole evening off, I can't remember what I did, but it wasn't much. Wednesday the plumbing still wasn't fixed and my boyfriend was sick as a dog from this stupid flu virus that held onto me for a couple of weeks near christmas. My friend was also not feeling well, so we skipped the gym and I stayed at home and asked my boyfriend every few minutes if he was feeling better yet. Yesterday they finally came to fix our plumbing issues, and we were again able to drain water without worrying about where it was going. My friend still was not feeling well and I was starting to cough and sneeze. My boyfriend was feeling better and had started to move around and do a few things. I decided to skip the gym again and watched a movie laying on the couch instead.
This morning I woke up and really wished I hadn't. For some reason, mother nature figured me having the flu for two weeks just wasn't long enough. I have officially caught whatever my friend and my boyfriend had, and am sneezing about 10 times per minute, which isn't as much fun as it might sound like. I am also coughing and my throat is quite sore and scratchy. After work today I think I will drive straight to the drug store and buy myself some Tylenol Flu medication. Screw this riding it out stuff, I have things to do and I don't want to be sick this weekend.
My boyfriend and I are going out on a date tonight, we are going to go for supper then out to the movie "Yes Man" with Jim Carrey. I am looking forward to it and i'm hoping that my silly cold will not get in the way of all the hand-holding that could possibly be going on in the dark theatre... hahaha.
So. Lots of Vitamin C, orange juice, water, and Tylenol Flu after work. Flu, i'm going to beat you this time.
- Tuesday Jan 20, 2009
Is it ever busy at work today. I was off yesterday, so today i'm playing a game of 'catch-up' and, well, let's just say i'm not winning...
Chicken salad tonight for supper, maybe with some garlic bread but that means i'll have to hit up the grocery store after work and i'm TIRED, people. I could just crawl underneath my desk and go right to sleep. But I guess I should go because I need peppers and onions and cheese as well, otherwise it just wouldn't be chicken salad. Maybe I should grab a bottle of wine, too. A glass of wine with supper. Mmmn.
My weekend was good but not quite relaxing, especially when you've got two people (my boyfriend and his sister) who are very high-energy and are constantly either a) doing something, or b) worrying about doing something. Other than that it was great, even the aptly named 'sharing circle' over Sunday night dinner when we all aired our frustrations in a quick 60 minute conversation. Oh well. It's gotta happen sometimes, right?! At least this way, I knew that I wasn't the only one going through relationship issues, and my boyfriend's sister became aware that her big brother wasn't perfect. Although it wasn't my intent to have her find that out, I wasn't exactly displeased that she agreed with my arguments over some of the issues my boyfriend and I are having. Feels good to have someone on your side, you know?
I may go to the gym tonight, may do some tobogganing, may not do anything at all. I have the night off from curling (YEE-HAW!), so I might just take advantage of that and do my laundry instead.