- Monday May 17, 2021
Well, I might have finally reached my limit with the 75 hard challenge. Today since I've been home from work it's requiring far too much energy even to move lol, so I don't know how I'll manage to get a workout in before crashing and going to sleep.
This week I start my third week of my new job, and I can tell you that the first two weeks were so, so hard to get through. Like, I don't actually KNOW how I got through them. Kind of like I just don't know HOW I will get through a workout tonight. It honestly seems impossible.
This morning was the worst so far in terms of how I'm feeling; I dreaded the drive to work, the actual work, and all of the "what if's" that might happen during the day. Operationally speaking, Friday of last week was probably the worst, so that might be why I was feeling so much dread today. There are constantly hard decisions to make, and not even a lick of support to make them. This is why healthcare suffers, you know? Because the people actually having to make the decisions don't have enough information, resources, time, energy, focus, or support to make them. And all the "support" people who should be helping make those decisions keep handing it off to someone else and that someone else keeps putting it off, and then it hits a critical point and they wonder how it could have possibly gotten to that.
So, a little defeated, to say the least. And already looking for another job! Well, I guess you don't know if you don't try, right?!
- Monday May 03, 2021
Well, my first official day of work as a Manager was today! Is it a bad sign that I feel a little like crying?!
I'm hoping it was not a normal day today, if all the days are like this I will be looking for something else pretty quick. It was a very long day and full of all the things that I still need to learn about. I know it will take time, I'm just feeling very, very overwhelmed right now, and without a whole lot of support.
Like I said, hopefully tomorrow will be better! Change is always so tough to get through isn't it.
I am still keeping up with the 75hard challenge, though it is definitely getting more and more difficult to ensure everything gets done in one day. I worked from 7:30 am to 6:00 pm today, so I still have half of my tasks to do. I will likely crash right away, or else I will stay up all night overthinking lol!
Ok girls, I need a lot of happy thoughts to come my way! Help me get through this week!
I may only be able to give quick updates for awhile, so for now I will stop giving a day to day count of my exercise. I hope you are all having a great week so far!
- Tuesday Apr 27, 2021
April 19 - yoga and walk; burned 234 calories
April 20 - step workout and hike; burned 332 calories
April 21 - bike and walk; burned 404 calories
April 22 - step workout and walk; burned 142 calories
April 23 - bike and walk; burned 380 calories
April 24 - gym and hike; burned 877 calories
April 25 - yoga and bike; burned 454 calories
April 26 - yoga and bike; burned 412 calories
Still moving forward with the 75 Hard challenge, slowly but surely. Have been busy either orientating the new person to my current job, or trying to orientate to my new job. Official start on Monday! After one orientation day to my new job, i'm feeling a little better about what my responsibilities will be; it was tough when I didn't think I would get any orientation, but thank goodness i've gotten one day so far. Hopefully one more will get me even further in my understanding of the job duties.
Not much else aside from that; this week will probably fly by. Today is really nice out, so I will try to get outside for a walk between the end of my shift and an evening meeting I have to attend. Then it might get cold again for a couple of days. Have a great week all!
- Monday Apr 19, 2021
April 12 - 75 Hard starts; yoga and shovel; burned 253 calories
April 13 - bike and shovel; burned 357 calories
April 14 - circuit workout and walk; burned 329 calories
April 15 - bike and walk; burned 562 calories
April 16 - walk and strength workout; burned 585 calories
April 17 - walk, bike and yoga; burned 265 calories
April 18 - yoga, gym workout and walk; burned 914 calories
75 day challenge is no joke! But i'm pacing myself and doing a lot of yoga and walking in there so that hopefully I won't get burned out.
Two more weeks at my current job and then the new one takes over; getting excited! (and still terrified). Orientating the newbie to my position this week, so it will be a busy one.
Have a great week everyone!
- Monday Apr 12, 2021
April 6 - REST
April 7 - WALK; burned unknown calories
April 8 - WALK; BIKE; burned 739 calories
April 9 - WALK; burned unknown calories
April 10 - BIKE; burned 2,108 calories
April 11 - REST
I didn't wear my heart rate monitor on my walks last week; they were quick, 20 minute walks while taking a break from work. But i'm counting them as exercise because they were, LOL, my co-worker walks so fast I can barely keep up to her!
Big bike ride on April 10th where I managed 65 kilometres on gravel roads. I cried a little bit on this one. No, really, I did. And then I got over myself and kept going. Until the last few kilometres, where I begged my BF to come back with a vehicle to pick me up! (He did, bless his soul). By that point, I was probably doing more walking than biking.
I slathered myself with all the lotion the rest of Saturday and all of Sunday, and i'm feeling pretty good today. Not like last time at all, thank goodness!
Today I am starting the 75 HARD challenge. You can google it if you want more information. I just purchased the software app for my phone and will do it that way. It's very straightforward - you do five things each day for 75 days. Not easy, busy definitely straightforward. 1 - Complete two 45 minute workouts, one has to be done outside. 2 - Drink a gallon of water. 3 - Pick a diet, any diet. 4 - No cheating, no alcohol. 5 - Read 10 pages of a book (preferably motivational).
This morning I did 45 minutes of yoga. I never get a feeling of accomplishment after doing yoga; I don't burn any real calories, but yet I feel like i'm working so hard! LOL, anyways, it did feel nice to wake up by stretching my body, and it was a beginner class that I found on You Tube and worked perfectly for me.
Second workout will likely be shovelling snow after work. It started snowing early Sunday morning and hasn't really stopped since.
- Tuesday Apr 06, 2021
March 29 - REST
March 30 - worked over 12 hours today; last gym shift!
March 31 - walk; burned 295 calories
April 1 - walk; burned 301 calories
April 2 - travelled 10 hours today to pick up BF's daughter for the weekend
April 3 - hike; burned 340 calories
April 4 - bike; burned 726 calories
April 5 - walk; burned 479 calories
A lot of walking done last week; it is still a bit too wet and muddy to hike, and a little too windy and cold to bike. My body is telling me today should be a rest day.
Well, I have some news! One of the recent interviews I was invited to participate in has payed off, and i've been offered a promotion into management! It will include a longer commute than the current 5 minutes it takes me to get to work ;) and a completely new environment full of all kinds of challenges.
If all goes according to plan, new job will begin in May and I will become incredibly busy trying to figure it all out. I am a little concerned that the scope of the job will be too much too soon, but there are kind people around me who think I have the stuff required to get the job done. So for now, I will choose to believe that they believe in me, and try to stop jumping on the imposter syndrome bandwagon.
In the end, it will be what it will be. At least I won't regret not trying, and if it doesn't work out then, that's okay, i'll figure it out. I have faith that I can take a risk and be strong enough to handle the outcome, whatever it might be.
I guess ending my weekly shifts at the gym was pretty good timing, huh?!
- Monday Mar 29, 2021
March 22 - rest
March 23 - worked over 12 hours; gym shift
March 24 - worked over 10 hours; evening meeting
March 25 - rest
March 26 - walk 1.5 hours; burned unknown calories
March 27 - dentist appointment; rest
March 28 - bike ride; burned 688 calories
I had a strange week last week; things were a bit chaotic in certain areas of my life and it led to me being pretty exhausted mentally and emotionally (not necessary in a bad way!). I took the time to rest this week and will hopefully be able to make it up over the next couple of weeks.
I have one more shift at the gym tomorrow evening. I'll sure miss everyone, but it is definitely for the best.
The transition to outdoor biking has been sporadic; the weather has been all over the place here - one day it's 14 degrees celsius and the next it's minus 7 and blizzarding. Yesterday it was warm, about 7 above (celsius), but the wind was brutal. It was so hard to catch my breath when cycling into the wind that I had numerous stops just to take a minute to breathe. We have been sticking to paved and gravel roads so I still haven't been out on the trails yet. If they are still too wet, bikes would rip them up and then no one would be able to enjoy them. But I am looking forward to being out on them as soon as possible.
I know I have been down to about one post per week here; i'm also trying to comment on everyone else's entries. I haven't had a lot of time lately. I'm not sure if that will change, but will continue to try to keep coming on at least weekly!
Prepped meals again yesterday; we made another batch of chicken stir fry for the coming week, and mangoes were on sale again so picked up more of those for snacks.
For supper yesterday I tried gluten-free macaroni, with hamburger meat and cooked green beans. Seemed to go over "okay", but i'll have it again for lunch today and then i'll know for sure if it makes my afternoon miserable LOL. I didn't try anything else new this weekend. I was feeling exhausted from the workweek and didn't want to possibly feel even worse physically, but I did pick up some gluten-free pretzel bites which I will try sometime this week. I still need to try tomatoes also; if tomatoes are okay that will open up a lot more possibilities for food choices. So I might try that this week as well.
- Monday Mar 22, 2021
March 15 - REST
March 16 - worked over 11 hours today; gym shift
March 17 - bike; burned 310 calories
March 18 - walk, bike, and strength workout; burned 1,061 calories
March 19 - gym workout and bike; burned 936 calories
March 20 - gym workout and walk; burned 737 calories
March 21 - walk; burned 165 calories
Another pretty big week of activity in the books. I sure felt it yesterday when all I could muster was a brisk walk, and even that felt difficult!
I was on the bike three days in a row, and I paid for it on Saturday. It will be TMI for you, so I won't go into it, but suffice to say I had to take a break from the cycling. Washboard gravel roads are not easy to travel on.
Two more shifts at the gym - the countdown is on :)
I could have tried to fit in another strength session this week, but instead I decided to focus on meal prep. I made a big batch of stir fry with chicken for the week, and dehydrated some mangoes to have as snacks.
I have been finding gluten-free options in the local grocery stores. This week I tried gluten-free pasta with beef meatballs, gluten-free sub sandwich with chicken and veggies, and turkey stir fry with gluten-free pad thai sauce. One night I also tried homemade deep-fried potatoes, and the next morning was not a fun one. Really, I knew it would happen, but wanted to try them anyways.
This week, i've decided to start a concerted effort to lose 10 pounds. Grabbed BF's scale from his house (I don't have one) and will do some regular check-ins over the next few months. End result is that cycling will not feel as sluggish as it currently does if I am 10 pounds lighter :)
- Monday Mar 15, 2021
March 8 - bike ride; burned 319 calories
March 9 - shovel snow; burned unknown calories
March 10 - worked over 11 hours today
March 11 - bike ride; burned 642 calories
March 12 - REST
March 13 - walk; burned 195 calories
March 14 - bike ride; burned 795 calories
Big week of riding, two indoor rides on the trainer and one outside that was very, very muddy LOL. Lots of fun.
Another job interview set up for tomorrow morning. Not too sure how I feel about the job itself, but will see how the interview goes.
So tonight will be research and studying for interview tomorrow, tomorrow night I work at the gym, and Wednesday night might be a bike ride with friends. Thursday morning I have another therapy appointment and i'm off work that day and on Friday, yippee! Four days off this week.
On my days off, I have been naturally waking up just before 7:00 a.m. since the sunrise has been happening earlier this last week. It has been nice to wake up feeling happy and refreshed as compared to my winter wake ups where I need the therapy light to help me get out of bed. I am just so grateful for the changing of the season.
- Monday Mar 08, 2021
March 1 - REST
March 2 - gym shift, worked over 11 hours
March 3 - evening meeting, worked over 11 hours
March 4 - REST
March 5 - day off; hike and strength workout; burned 902 calories
March 6 - hike; burned 655 calories
March 7 - REST
Had planned to do more yesterday than rest, but by the time we got all the laundry, cooking, cleaning, yardwork and general watching of tv done, it was 9:00 p.m. Where does the time go?!
I'm extra tired today after a night of little sleep. I even caught myself dreaming that I wasn't able to sleep. Feels like I have been holding my eyes open with toothpicks all night.
Last week was another low week of exercise. Work is just taking over, and it's been difficult to find motivation. Having days off really helps, but the days that I work I am just too wiped to do much else.
Four more gym shifts this month and then I have decided to put coaching on the back-burner. I need a break from constantly having to pretend everything is ok in the world.
What a bummer of a post! I'm not really that bummed... just listening to my body and soul and trying to give it what it needs. Sometimes we just have to keep doggy-paddling to stay afloat. It always gets better eventually.