- Monday Apr 06, 2009
Oh for goodness' sake, if my head wasn't screwed onto my neck... I wonder sometimes if there's even one brain cell left in it. Okay, enough ragging on myself...
I, uh, cleaned over the weekend. Yeah. Oh, and I, uh, did some laundry. Yup. I remember one cup of coffee, but it wasn't warm when I drank it, it was already cold. Well, luke warm. I took a nap on Saturday afternoon... danced a little in the evening. Got my hair cut on Sunday. That's about it.
Whatever. I'm telling everyone what I did, but that's it. The weekend is over and there are no re-do's. And I won't make myself feel bad about it, I do enough of that already! I cleaned, and that was exercise. I danced, and that was exercise. I didn't over-eat, and that's very positive for me since the weekends are my bingeing days. I'm back at work today and back in the groove and that is what matters to me.
Gotta run today though. I don't care if I do it on the icy streets outside in the chilly -8 celsius wind. I gotta run, so if i'm too scared to go to the gym by myself, I gotta do it on the streets, in the rain and sleet and through the dangerous and dark neighbourhood. Under the overpass. Weaving around to avoid the nasty traffic congestion. Through the mice-infested junkyard in the middle of town.
Ok, so i'm kidding. It isn't raining and there's no sleet. The neighbourhoods are pretty decent, without any overpasses or traffic. Our junkyard is on the outskirts of town. But you WERE feeling pretty bad for me, weren't you?!!
- Friday Apr 03, 2009
I'm so glad the weekend is finally here...
BF and I ended up going to badminton last night. I have to say, at least it broke the ice between us, but it really wasn't all that invigorating for me. BF was sopping wet with sweat by the end of the night and I was jealous. Jealous of sweaty people! I got in a good workout, don't get me wrong, but it could have been even better had I been able to play something other than doubles games all night. Oh, i'm just complaining. Honesty, if i'm playing singles i'd rather be playing doubles and if i'm playing doubles i'd rather be playing singles. You just can't win with me!!
I'm going to a candle party at 7 and BF is jamming with his new band tonight. I hope it goes well for him, he needs to do something new but if it doesn't go well for him I don't think he'll ever try it again.
Plans for the weekend:
Clean house, go through kitchen cupboards, run saturday and sunday, drink lots of water, go to an auction on sunday morning.
Set up painting supplies, write more stories, take dogs for walks, drink hot coffee and warm eggs for breakfast, listen to good music, daydream.
I like the second list better...
- Thursday Apr 02, 2009
"All You" magazine. Sorry, just giving myself a reminder... thanks thin!
I got my period on Sunday, so i've been a little sick lately and haven't really been able to do much. I don't know what happened this time around, but my back REALLY hurts and it's been a little difficult to get around. I keep trying to relax, but I can't help but think i'm going to do something even worse to my back and just the thought makes me tense up. So i've been walking around like I have a stick up my arse! Plus I stayed home from work on Monday and the paranoid "ME" with the stick up her butt also thinks that her co-workers must think she only wanted an extended weekend.
So I bypassed the gym (RUN THREE, since I missed the weekend workout) last night to go for coffee with a friend, and ended up creating a Ukrainian Easter Egg. I brought it to work with me today and got rave reviews. I'm thinking I should go into business - sell the artwork... haha, just kidding. It wasn't bad for my first time, but there are so many cracks in that thing you can barely even tell that it's decorated!
Where was I? Oh, I bypassed the gym, so i'm starting to fall behind on my training schedule. I am actually three workouts behind. Tonight is badminton (if I decide to go), so I don't think i'm going to be able to make them up anytime soon. The good part about it is that this part of the program is pretty easy (knock on wood) so if I miss a couple of workouts it won't be terribly detrimental. Only to my weightloss, lol. I guess i'll have to live with that.
Busy, busy, gotta go. BF is banging around in the kitchen cupboards right now. God only knows what's wrong this time.
- Saturday Mar 28, 2009
The massage was great, and I really needed it. I was already feeling better after the last massage, but this one was the cherry on top. I made another appointment in three weeks' time, to try to go onto a regular maintenance schedule. It helps incredibly with posture, i've found.
I thought I was supposed to get my period yesterday, but it never happened and I feel fine today (knock on wood), so i'm not sure what's going on. Maybe my math isn't good and I didn't count it out correctly. Anyways, so instead of feeling crummy I actually feel pretty good. I should take this opportunity to go to the gym for RUN THREE today (supposed to be done on Sunday). Right now I feel like I could run a marathon. Haha, five minutes into a marathon maybe...
I continue to doubt my relationship with BF. I wish we were on better standing with each other, it would make things so much easier. One is wary and the other is paranoid. Neither of us are very trusting. It's almost like a bomb just waiting to go off, but we are too weak to do anything about it. Except complain, of course!
Well, I am thirsty so i'm going to get a bottle of water and start chugging! Have a great day!
- Thursday Mar 26, 2009
BF and I went out for dinner yesterday. I had chicken noodle soup, a slice of garlic bread, ceasar salad and 1/2 piece of honey garlic ribs. Very yummy - this is one meal I will definitely get again. I almost can't believe I enjoyed eating red meat that much. Aside from the homemade burgers I made a couple of months ago, I don't really eat a lot of red meat.
I hit the gym for RUN TWO last night. Walked 22 minutes and ran 10 minutes, just the same as last time. My next run is not scheduled until Sunday, but I might do it on Saturday instead. This time I got in 2 miles, so I increased by .1 of a mile, from 1.9 to 2! Still, an increase is an increase and i'll take it :o).
Badminton tonight. Massage tomorrow. Good sequence!
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." - Eleanor Roosevelt
- Wednesday Mar 25, 2009
Right now I am listening to two of my co-workers gossip to each other in an office doorway. It's so annoying. If I could wear earplugs I would. I don't even care that they are talking to each other, I just don't want to hear the pssts and whispering noises! It's very distracting when trying to work (except right now, when I am writing out this entry instead of working).
Well, my stomach and lower back are really hurting today, like a chronic gut-ache type feeling. My period is due on Friday, so i'm thinking that is somehow related to the way i'm feeling today. I am taking advil, started yesterday, so hopefully that will help a bit.
I've officially run myself out of breakfast food and I desperately need to go to the grocery store today. I stopped and picked myself up a cheese biscuit and a coffee this morning before work so that I could eat something, but we all know that I could have done better than a cheese biscuit...
Thinking about it now, I don't even think I have anything to eat for lunch. Oh boy. It's going to be a long day.
Yoga tonight - 1 hour
Gym RUN TWO - Walk 24 minutes, Run 6 minutes
- Tuesday Mar 24, 2009
I ate pizza last night for dinner. It was forced down my throat
So I wrote out a tentative plan for running during the next five months leading up to the 5k race. I say tentative because I love to re-do things and I am almost certain i'll end up re-doing this plan. But for now, it looks like it would work fairly well. I am following a couch-to-5k plan and even took a more conservative approach, considering I will have a lot of time to work on it (five months). It starts this week, today actually, with 6 minutes of running and 24 minutes of walking. I may not make it to the gym tonight, but I went last night and ran 10 minutes and walked 22 minutes. So I think that pretty much covers RUN ONE.
Today is a friend's birthday dinner, so I have to go to the flower shop after work and pick up a plant arrangement and a card for her, then home to let the dogs out and feed them, then I need to go to my grandma's to say goodbye to my aunt and cousins who are heading home tomorrow morning, then pick up my friend for dinner. At some point in time, it would be nice to get some groceries. I don't think that will happen though.
Major heartburn today - do you think it's because I eat lots of bread?
RUN ONE - Walk 22; Run 10 --DONE
- Monday Mar 23, 2009
I woke up on Saturday morning with a knot in my back the size of China. I managed to find a massage therapist who worked on it for a full hour, still not getting the majority of the knot loosened. I made another appointment for Friday to hopefully finish it off. It still hurts a little bit, mostly I think because now my back has been bruised and beaten! I think i'll then make regular appointments every few weeks for a massage - I know it helped when I did this before. Sitting at a desk all day sure can do a number on a person's back! Bizarre.
Took the dogs for a walk on the weekend. It is getting warmer outside and the snow is starting to melt, thank goodness. I cannot wait to see grass! It doesn't even have to be green!
Tonight is movie night. I'm not sure what we're going to watch - I think I might suggest Great Balls of Fire, or Across the Universe. Too bad I don't have The Sound of Music, I love that movie!
I now have yet another cousin wanting to run the local run we have here every August. The initial year we had the run, I entered the 5k. Last year (the second annual run), my boyfriend entered the 5k and my mother entered the 3k walk. This year, both of my parents want to enter the 3k walk, and my boyfriend and his cousin, two of my cousins and my gym partner want to enter the 5k. I think it's wonderful that it has caught on so well and I can involve my family and friends in such a healthy activity! I am so excited for everyone to do well - but also need to start getting into it myself. So, i've pulled out my 5k training program and will start at it full force in the next week or two. It will be so nice to get outside and RUN!
- Friday Mar 20, 2009
my arms hurt. bad. that was awesome.
- Thursday Mar 19, 2009
I am amazed at my incapacity to think the same way others think. Seriously. Why do I work for a huge organization where we're herded to our death like a group of buffalo to the edge of a cliff?! It takes me far too long to figure out what someone else's thought process is, and by the time I do figure it out, either the meeting is over or i've over-thought it and am now confused. I'm not kidding you - I live in an almost constant state of confusion. Imagine what we could accomplish as organizations AND individuals if we allowed ourselves to think freely instead of always feeling like you just have to get it done and not think about it at all. The simplification of life is my greatest goal, my greatest dream and my greatest obstacle. I wonder if other people are managing to do it, or if it only looks as such on the outside.
Anyways, i've been away for a while - nothing really exciting has been going on lately. I went to a concert (The Eagles), and... yeah, that's about it. I haven't been to the gym recently, but my bf has finally decided that the gym is not his enemy, so he has agreed to accompany me when I have no one else to go with. That is a HUGE change, and i'm very thankful he has made the decision to support my healthier lifestyle efforts. Now if I could just get him to stucco the house this summer...
Tonight bf and I are going to the local high school for drop-in badminton from 7:30 until 9:00. Hopefully we will be able to find our rackets but i'm told the school will have extra if we cannot find ours. I am extremely excited about this, as I used to play badminton in high school and have only been able to play on and off a handful of times. I can't wait, but I imagine my arms are going to HURT tomorrow!
My eating is going so-so. I still constantly pig out on bread and bread products, but I have to say that i'm eating less and less junk food every week, and more healthy alternatives (salad, fruit and yogurt to name a few). I'm so happy to be able to say that! My attitude has stayed quite even over the last few weeks as well; I have experienced only a few of the typical misfires and general irrationalizations I normally pollute my entries with! I think this is due in large part to my eating patterns, but also because I can feel spring trying to break through the hard winter ice in town. The sun is shining, the dogs are staying outside for more than five minutes at a time, and it feels as though a weight has been lifted. I must remember to load up on Vitamin D before next winter!