- Saturday Feb 16, 2008
Today i'm sick, and I know I always used to only venture on to this board and leave a message when I was sick, but it's not like that anymore, really!!!! I can't believe this week is already over and it's time to start thinking about going back to work on Tuesday. Ugh, i'm not looking forward to it, but I really like the money. What can you do? I have a problem, and maybe you can help:
I work Monday to Friday during the day and take exercise classes on Tuesday and Thursday nights. On Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays i've designated an hour's time to my management courses. This probably isn't enough time, so i'll have to up it to two hours and eventually get it to about eight hours a week. I clean, do laundry and visit friends and relatives on the weekends (this is where quality time with my puppies also comes into play). I really love to write, but i'm having so much trouble 'getting into it'. I also love to paint and draw, but I just don't have the time. My question is: How can I balance everything so that i'm not just doing the things I NEED to do, but also the things i'd like to do???? I really don't feel balanced and though it may not be a life-threatening thing, it matters to me, you know? I'd love to devote myself to art and creative writing, but money always gets in the way. How can I feel better about this?
Tai Chi and Kickboxing are definitely fun classes, don't get me wrong, but sometimes it feels more like a chore than a fun thing to do with friends. I know i'm supposed to suck it up, and I DO suck it up, but i'd really like to know when this business of loving life is supposed to start happening, 'cause i'm not there yet. And i'm getting older every day.
Total exercise for February - 3 hours. Yee. Haw. I think I made this same comment in January. Now i'm not only unfulfilled in life, but i'm also repeating myself as if I was drunk.
- Tuesday Feb 12, 2008
I made chicken fried rice yesterday for dinner and hit up my grandma's place for lunch - chicken, veggies and pie!! Oh well. Today I made eggs for lunch and croissants in the oven. Unfortunately, I ate about three too many. When you're on an all-inclusive holiday, all you have to do is walk down to the buffet tables and choose what you want. There is no cooking involved (heaven for me). Surprisingly, I didn't eat as much as I do at home. Now that i'm back, i'm finding myself slipping into the same routines of eating great amounts and then feeling guilty about it later.
I was in a bit of a mood yesterday, sad about being at home and wishing I was still in Mexico. I guess everyone goes through that, and i'll get over it sooner or later. Someone asked me if I was going to be the 'type' that goes on an all-inclusive vacation every year and I really had to sit and think about it. It was great, but i'm more of an 'experience it' type of person and all-inclusive is quite limiting in that regard, although you still could if you wanted to, it would just cost more. I have to say that I loved the feeling of security you get at a four star hotel - i'm a chicken when it comes to venturing out into unknown territory but I love the high you get when you've pushed through that fear. So, i'm still up on the wall about all-inclusives. If I go to Mexico (Puerto Vallarta) again, I don't know that i'll do the all-inclusive again. You never know though...
I'm taking the dogs out to the farm for a run this afternoon. Tonight is Tai Chi and kickboxing. Wow, it'll be a kick in the butt to get back into this thing called exercise!
Total hours for February - zero; Goal - 25 hours
- Sunday Feb 10, 2008
If I recall correctly, my total exercise hours for January was 26.5 hours. That's okay I guess. Not great, but okay. Not much I can do about it now, right?!! February is going to be scary because there isn't much left of the month and i'm at zero hours because i've been on vacation for most of it so far! I still have another week off, but I fully intend on getting straight back into the thick of things...
My vacation was totally wonderful and lovely! I can't believe the week has already gone by and even though i'm glad to be home in my own bed, it's going to be a bit of a cultural shock for the next few days. You mean, I can't just walk around outside in my bathing suit and sarong???! It was below 50 degrees celsius last night when we came in on the plane and we decided to stay one night instead of driving home. So, I got home this morning just before lunch and now i'm going to work on getting my stinky clothes clean again and finding something to eat for dinner! Adios Amigos!
Total exercise for February - zippo, zilch, zero
- Friday Feb 01, 2008
Finally i'm feeling better - that flu stuck around far too long in my opinion and totally wiped me out for the week. We leave tomorrow though, rain or shine - whether i'm packed or not! Thankfully, I am. I think it's all under control, but I could be missing something. Oh well. Passport. Money. Hotel voucher. Camera. Those are the main things. Everything else is expendable and replacable.
Talk to you all when I return in one week! A lean, mean, suntanning machine! Okay, skip the lean part...
- Wednesday Jan 30, 2008
I'm living on crackers, gingerale and orange juice. Would you believe I got sick only one week before my big trip to Mexico?? And I got a nice whacking stomach flu too, not just your regular everyday kind of virus. Unfortunately, it's knocked me out to the point where I can't even figure out the number of socks I will need while i'm gone. Which is also why I haven't logged on here lately. I don't really have much to say besides that i'm sick. So, I will try to get on here again tomorrow and actually let you know how i've been doing for the past few days, but right now? I'm just going to go lay on the couch and rest.
- Saturday Jan 26, 2008
I got to sleep in this morning until 9:00am, then got up and at it. I went into the city to visit my Dad today, as my birthday is coming up and he wanted to see me before I left on the trip. It's been a long day - I just returned home now. I only ate once today, my Dad took me out for lunch and I had a chicken and rice wrap with fries. I ate half the fries and half the wrap, and gave the rest to my Dad. I'm still full and we ate over 7 hours ago!
Anyways, not much to report as i've been very bad with exercise this past week and it wasn't any better today.
Tomorrow I tentatively signed up for a Belly Dancing class!!! I think I will take the half-day workshop instead of the full day, because my friend and I need to do some shopping in the afternoon for our upcoming trip. But still, that will be 2.5 hours of exercise. Finally, exercise! Yay! Then shopping, then packing and cleaning. Then back to work on Monday. Thankfully, I have this Friday off so I only work a four day week. I'm not counting down the days to the trip, just the days left of work!!! Four more!
Total exercise for January - 21 hours.
P.S. - sorry for my poutiness yesterday. I was feeling a little overwhelmed with everything I need to accomplish this next week. I just needed to vent, I guess. Thanks for your comments!
- Friday Jan 25, 2008
Need to walk dogs.
Still very tired.
Not much more to say.
Bad mood today.
I don't even want to add the stupid exercise hours part of my entry.
- Thursday Jan 24, 2008
I mean, *roar* or something equally impressive and intimidating. Not *rowr* like a cat's meow or something. No, *ROWR* like "Arg!", like "is this week over yet??".
I think i'm getting headaches because a)yes, i'm probably drinking too much coffee, but also b) I haven't been giving myself enough time to eat a proper lunch. For the last three days i've had two pieces of toast for lunch because it was all I could fit in due to meetings at work. I could stay at work and eat a much better lunch there, but then I would come home to dog-pee all over the house and probably have an even larger headache if that's possible. So I guess the positive here is that i've been eating under my caloric intake for the day. But again, alas, no exercise today. Can I move my butt and take the dogs for a walk? I probably won't, as I am having trouble keeping my eyes open long enough just to write this. I'm going to bed. Isn't that pathetic? I miss one night of exercise and it totally throws off the entire rest of the week! Okay, okay, so i'm working a lot and not getting enough sleep and things are stressful and I could just cry, but I could still try to fit something in. Why do I just not care? I should care, I mean, that's why i'm on this website right now, because I want to change and be healthy and be fit. Are you thinking that i'm a failure? Because that's what i'm thinking. Crappy crap crap. If ONLY...this and that and the other. Excuses, it's all just excuses for not forging ahead and claiming what's rightfully mine - my HEALTH.
Yes, I need some sleep. Goodnight all.
Total exercise for January - still 21 hours :(:(:(:(:(:(
- Wednesday Jan 23, 2008
Thanks for the motivation and support about me going to that second class on Tuesday, although I ended up not going anyways. I was too busy and decided to stop in and see the friend i'm going to be travelling with regarding our all-inclusive vacation. We finally booked our vacation package and will be leaving Feb 2 to Puerto Vallarta, Mexico! It will be very much fun and I can't wait to hit the beach and stay there for a week straight. If anyone has been there before, give me some tips and hints on what to do/see/ where to go, etc. I would really appreciate the info!
It took a few hours tonight to book the trip, so that meant not getting in a workout. I'm two days in a row now without exercise and am drinking far too much coffee! I had planned to go with a friend after work, but again I worked late so had to cancel with her. I had a terrible headache by day's end as well. Tomorrow will not be much better. The faster the next two days pass the better, seriously. I will be so relieved when it's Friday. I never usually have the TGIF feelings, but this time it will be a great achievement to have made it to Friday without going bonkers!
Total exercise for January - 21 hours :(
- Tuesday Jan 22, 2008
Okay, now I can breathe. Unfortunately, I schedule myself so thick that I end up getting anxious over every second, and ultimately it's made me miss my Thai Chi class tonight. I should be there right now. Since i'm missing it, i'd hate to show up for kickboxing because it's taught by the same person and i'll feel terrible about missing the earlier class and won't know what to say to him. Argh! I could kick myself, but that wouldn't help the situation. I just know I won't be confident enough to go to that second class tonight. It's not about being lazy, just so you're all aware!! I really DO want to go, it's just complicated! Oh, I sound like a maniac.
Yesterday I went to the gym after work and had a really good workout. I walk/jogged on the treadmill for 40 minutes, then did a 15 minute ab workout with a friend, stretched and went home. It was great, I really pushed myself and i'm glad I did since I probably won't be doing much tonight. I still have to find something to eat for dinner and by the time I get through all the mail I picked up at the post today, it will be time to visit my friend, then go for coffee with boyfriend's sisters. You know, even without the classes tonight i'm wickedly busy. Why do I do this to myself?!!
Holy crap! What a day! I don't think i've even had time to breathe until now! Oh, I wish this week was over!
I will update more tonight (that is, if I have time tonight). My plans: 4:30pm - go home, phone travel agency, eat dinner (leftover rice, chicken and beans). 5:45pm - tanning (Yes, I am a tan-freak, but only at certain times of the year!). 6:00pm - Thai Chi class. 7:00pm - Kickboxing class. 8:30pm - coffee with boyfriend's sister.
Total exercise for January - 21 hours