- Thursday Jan 24, 2008
I mean, *roar* or something equally impressive and intimidating. Not *rowr* like a cat's meow or something. No, *ROWR* like "Arg!", like "is this week over yet??".
I think i'm getting headaches because a)yes, i'm probably drinking too much coffee, but also b) I haven't been giving myself enough time to eat a proper lunch. For the last three days i've had two pieces of toast for lunch because it was all I could fit in due to meetings at work. I could stay at work and eat a much better lunch there, but then I would come home to dog-pee all over the house and probably have an even larger headache if that's possible. So I guess the positive here is that i've been eating under my caloric intake for the day. But again, alas, no exercise today. Can I move my butt and take the dogs for a walk? I probably won't, as I am having trouble keeping my eyes open long enough just to write this. I'm going to bed. Isn't that pathetic? I miss one night of exercise and it totally throws off the entire rest of the week! Okay, okay, so i'm working a lot and not getting enough sleep and things are stressful and I could just cry, but I could still try to fit something in. Why do I just not care? I should care, I mean, that's why i'm on this website right now, because I want to change and be healthy and be fit. Are you thinking that i'm a failure? Because that's what i'm thinking. Crappy crap crap. If ONLY...this and that and the other. Excuses, it's all just excuses for not forging ahead and claiming what's rightfully mine - my HEALTH.
Yes, I need some sleep. Goodnight all.
Total exercise for January - still 21 hours :(:(:(:(:(:(
- Wednesday Jan 23, 2008
Thanks for the motivation and support about me going to that second class on Tuesday, although I ended up not going anyways. I was too busy and decided to stop in and see the friend i'm going to be travelling with regarding our all-inclusive vacation. We finally booked our vacation package and will be leaving Feb 2 to Puerto Vallarta, Mexico! It will be very much fun and I can't wait to hit the beach and stay there for a week straight. If anyone has been there before, give me some tips and hints on what to do/see/ where to go, etc. I would really appreciate the info!
It took a few hours tonight to book the trip, so that meant not getting in a workout. I'm two days in a row now without exercise and am drinking far too much coffee! I had planned to go with a friend after work, but again I worked late so had to cancel with her. I had a terrible headache by day's end as well. Tomorrow will not be much better. The faster the next two days pass the better, seriously. I will be so relieved when it's Friday. I never usually have the TGIF feelings, but this time it will be a great achievement to have made it to Friday without going bonkers!
Total exercise for January - 21 hours :(
- Tuesday Jan 22, 2008
Okay, now I can breathe. Unfortunately, I schedule myself so thick that I end up getting anxious over every second, and ultimately it's made me miss my Thai Chi class tonight. I should be there right now. Since i'm missing it, i'd hate to show up for kickboxing because it's taught by the same person and i'll feel terrible about missing the earlier class and won't know what to say to him. Argh! I could kick myself, but that wouldn't help the situation. I just know I won't be confident enough to go to that second class tonight. It's not about being lazy, just so you're all aware!! I really DO want to go, it's just complicated! Oh, I sound like a maniac.
Yesterday I went to the gym after work and had a really good workout. I walk/jogged on the treadmill for 40 minutes, then did a 15 minute ab workout with a friend, stretched and went home. It was great, I really pushed myself and i'm glad I did since I probably won't be doing much tonight. I still have to find something to eat for dinner and by the time I get through all the mail I picked up at the post today, it will be time to visit my friend, then go for coffee with boyfriend's sisters. You know, even without the classes tonight i'm wickedly busy. Why do I do this to myself?!!
Holy crap! What a day! I don't think i've even had time to breathe until now! Oh, I wish this week was over!
I will update more tonight (that is, if I have time tonight). My plans: 4:30pm - go home, phone travel agency, eat dinner (leftover rice, chicken and beans). 5:45pm - tanning (Yes, I am a tan-freak, but only at certain times of the year!). 6:00pm - Thai Chi class. 7:00pm - Kickboxing class. 8:30pm - coffee with boyfriend's sister.
Total exercise for January - 21 hours
- Monday Jan 21, 2008
Ho Hum. No, i'm not bored, i'm very busy actually, but you know, it's still sort of 'ho-hum'. I wish I were somewhere else kind of 'ho-hum'. So I was dreading last week and this week but now at least half of it's over and i've only got to go downhill from here. Let's hope it's downhill. I hope it's downhill. Fast downhill, a cliff-like mountain that I can just fall over and then - whoop - be at the bottom. Just like that. Among other things, I truly do believe I am starting to go crazy. I am a crazy-person. I should erase this whole paragraph, but i'm not going to because...well, these are my true colors. Like 'em or not.
I took my small dog for a walk on Saturday and then the rest of the night was spent watching movies in front of the tv. I don't know why I didn't take Chewy for a walk - he was the one most itching to go. My plan was initially to take both of them for individual walks, but I must've been tired. I don't remember now. Yesterday I took both dogs out to my boyfriend's parent's farm. They loved it there, but after a few hours they were ready to come home. Zoe was scratching at the door to come inside and when I let her in she just curled up in a ball in the porch and shivered. It was cold on Sunday, -25 degrees but -31 or something with windchill. A bit too cold for them to stay outside for three hours. Oh well, at least they got SOME exercise. When I got back home, I went to the gym with a friend. It was so hard to get into the workout. I tried the treadmill, but after the five mile walk I put in on Saturday, my calves were NOT in favor of this machine. So I switched to the elliptical trainer but I hate those machines and I lasted about 20 minutes before bowing out. Not a very good role model, am I?!! I finished off my pathetic workout attempt on the stationary bike, with 30 minutes of interval training. Then I stretched a bit and went home, defeated. I didn't eat dinner until 7:30pm and that I know will hurt me today.
I picked up a friend to bring her to the hospital this morning, so am running a bit late and feeling rushed. I am hungry. It's Monday and that doesn't make me incredibly happy. Ho-hum. The good news is that I fully intend to go to the gym after work today. Hopefully this time i'll remember to pack my clothes. And a hairband.
Total exercise for January - 20 hours
- Saturday Jan 19, 2008
The ice-cold weather has finally broken it's way down to a mere shiver this morning, and I am so thankful. Now I can take the dogs for a walk and they will love me again, instead of moping around the house acting like spoiled rotten kids that didn't get the brand new jetta for their sixteenth birthday. But I digress. I had a change in plans last night (as is usually the case when exercise is involved!) and ended up not going to the gym. A friend came over and we hammered out some ideas on all-inclusive vacations as compared to doing a road-trip type thing to the west coast in the States. Ah, it's all so expensive right now - neither of us were able to save what we wanted to save, and we're a little stuck right now about spending too much money on this trip. We'll figure it out, but i'm planning on taking vacation starting Feb 1st, for two weeks, so we need to figure this out sooner rather than later, and then get moving! Anyhow, after she left I played on the computer for a bit and went to bed. This morning I woke up with a little doggie on my head, trying to wake me up. Now my arm is covered in welts from her playing mean.
I went to the gym today though, to make up for yesterday, and spent two hours there. I did an hour and a bit on the treadmill with intermittent jogging spurts, then 20 minutes leg weights and 10 minutes stretching. Wasn't quite what I was going for, but I decided to start a new plan for the treadmill which involved walking five miles on it once per week and timing myself. So this week it took me exactly 86:50 minutes. Not very good, but it will get better...that's the whole point, right?! And besides, before I really hatched the plan in my head I had already walked 30 minutes at 3.0! So that time is included in my total and it shouldn't be hard to beat it next week. Fingers crossed!!
So tanning today, dog walking (I think I may try to take them separately again), and cleaning house. I should be cleaning house right now, actually. But I am here instead. Oh well. Maybe i'll take one of the dogs for a walk now and clean later. Do you really think the cleaning will get done?!!!
Total exercise for January - 18 hours
- Friday Jan 18, 2008
Uh-oh. I'm not feeling well at all today and am sitting here at my desk wishing I could just double over. I forgot to bring any advil to work with me so i'll have to suffer a couple more hours until lunchtime. I can't believe this - the first two days of my cycle were so good, and then - BAM! It just caps the week off so nicely...
I went to kickboxing last night, but again was unable to take the dogs for a walk. Last night with windchill it got to -50 degrees celsius - that's absolutely brutal and there was no way I was venturing out into it. Today is starting out much the same way. It's cold cold cold outside and I could barely start my car this morning. There won't be a walk today either if this keeps up. I really hope it will be nice enough on the weekend to let the dogs spend a few hours outside at the farm. If it stays like this, I won't let them stay out for very long and it will be a wasted trip. They're inside dogs, no matter how big or heavy or thick-coated they may look, they're too susceptible to the cold for me to leave them outside in -50 degree weather. Well, keep your fingers crossed for me because they sure need to get some exercise in!
So tonight i'm thinking about going to the gym, just trying to think of a good time to go when it won't be so busy and I can work on cardio AND weight training since I haven't touched weights for a while now. I'm kind of hoping there's a hockey game tonight so that I can go while the hockey game is on and then be gone by the time anyone arrives afterwards. If I go i'd like to stay and get a really good workout - say, two hours? One hour of cardio, 1/2 of weights and 1/2 stretching or cool down exercises. That would be my goal for today.
Thank God it's Friday. Thank You God. Friday. Yes. Please let the weekend go by incredibly SLOWLY.
Total exercise for January - 16 hours
- Thursday Jan 17, 2008
I stayed at home all night yesterday, with three movies to watch on the tv in my bedroom and snacks to last me all night long. I had waves of sickness here and there, but all in all it wasn't quite as terrible as I was thinking it would be. Today, it's just before lunch and i'm not doing too badly, considering the second day is usually just as bad as the first one.
So, no exercise yesterday and i'm really not too sorry about it to be honest with you. Like I said to my boyfriend last night, I think I needed a good break to just sit and do nothing. Although i'm not feeling the best today I do feel more refreshed and energized than I have in a long time. Maybe the dark cloud is clearing! If so, it didn't last all that long at all! Big'ups for improvements in that category!! (knock on wood). Tonight is kickboxing and I am going to try to be my most determined self and get my butt there no matter if no one will come with me, as is usually the case. Is it nice outside here? I should check and decide whether to take the dogs for a walk or not. I talked to my boyfriend's mother the other day and asked her if I could drive my dogs out to their farm for some extra exercise (not really extra since I haven't done much with them since Sunday). She said sure, so I think that's what i'll do. I feel so bad for them! Usually my boyfriend is here to pick up the slack when I get sick or decide I can't take them for a walk.
Busy at work today with meetings and follow up and preparation and blah-blah-blah. Of course it is busy, but i'm just being pessimistic today and I need to knock it off.
Total exercise for January - 15 hours
- Wednesday Jan 16, 2008
I should have known the reason for my emotional behaviour lately. It was pms! I hit my peak yesterday when my boyfriend called after work and in my great fury about having to work in such stressful conditions, I took it all out on him. Really, in retrospect, the condition isn't half as stressful as what i'm making it out to be, i'm sure it really isn't. I just like to exaggerate situations. Anyways, the conversation ended badly and I was sobbing my eyes out and feeling sorry for myself afterwards. The good part is that I did not turn to food to comfort myself. My boyfriend called back after about an hour and wanted to clear the air. He said that he 'didn't want to leave things this way' since he was so far away from home and stuff. I couldn't believe a) he had called back to talk things over, and b) he really was upset that I was upset. It made me feel a whole lot better and we had a nice chat after that.
I went to both Thai Chi and kickboxing classes last night, so I can add another two hours to my total exercise hours - Yay! I so wanted to take the dogs for a walk as well, but we had a bit of a snowstorm last night and we ended up staying inside. I know my dogs didn't like that one bit, but there isn't anything to do about it now. I don't know how i'll be feeling later today - I might not do any exercising at all today because I just know i'll be feeling a lot worse tonight because of my period coming!
Total exercise for January - 15 hours
- Tuesday Jan 15, 2008
I made an attempt to go straight to the gym after work yesterday. At lunchtime I ran home, ate a quick ham sandwich, then prepared my gym bag for after work. I had a pretty (okay, very) rushed day at work yesterday and by the time I got out to the parking lot at day's end, my hands were shaking so terribly with stress and I was on the verge of tears. For no apparent reason other than that it was just one of those days and it affected me more yesterday than it has in a long time. And somehow, I did it to myself. I know that. Anyways, I got into my car and phoned the friend I was supposed to go to the gym with. I asked her if she was ready to meet me at the gym and she said she was. So I left the parking lot, driving towards the gym and checking my bag all at the same time. Then I stopped abruptly and realized while looking through my bag that I hadn't put in any workout clothes!! Or hair elastics, for that matter. So, I had to call my friend back and stop at home for clothes. What a mess!
I worked out hard yesterday because I was so worked UP. I did 25 minutes on the treadmill, including 8 minutes of jogging. Not as much as before, but my calves started to hurt so I had to stop. I didn't stretch out right before I started, at least I think that's why it hurt so much. After the treadmill I went on the bike for another 20 minutes and pushed that hard. I did intervals, but towards the end of my biking even the easy rounds were incredibly hard for me to do! Some quick stretches when I got home and I can add another hour to the count...
I had about an hour or so when I got home and so I made myself another quick ham sandwich and checked e-mails and such, then went for coffee with some friends until 9pm. When I got home I called my boyfriend and chatted with him for half an hour, then practically fell into bed without prepping anything for today! I was so tired, and I didn't even get to take the dogs for a walk!
Today I have two hours of classes (Thai Chi and Kickboxing) and i'd like to take the dogs for a walk after classes. It's a large goal for the day, but I hope I can manage it.
Total exercise for January - 13 hours
- Monday Jan 14, 2008
I got up Sunday morning at 10am, with a headache and more aching muscles. I didn't have breakfast because I was in one of those moods. Yes, one of those low moods. What can I say? It was bound to happen sooner or later. Then, after i'd taken a shower and was feeling a tad bit better about myself, a friend called and wanted to stop over with another friend. Thinking that they would be at my house within an hour, I quickly got ready and cleaned the house like a madwoman. I can't believe how much I got done in that short amount of time! Anyhow, they didn't actually show up until a little later, so I missed lunch too. Don't worry, i'd been snacking all morning up until this point, and had layed out a nice array of dainties for my friends - picking at one or two of them myself while I was still alone.
My friends stayed all afternoon, so I didn't get anything else done on Sunday besides the odd load of laundry. We ended up going out for dinner, where I got a Swiss Club burger (grilled chicken, ham and swiss cheese - very good, but not great on the waistline) and an Orange Float. I was so full from dinner that I popped in a movie, layed on the bed, and fell asleep! It was a horrible day foodwise, horrible day exercise-wise (because I didn't do any!), but at least I got some housework done. I guess. Well, i'm not beating myself up over it because if you never fail then you'll never have really worthy accomplishments, right?!!
I'm tired today and i'm not looking forward to this week (or the next, for that matter). My new supervisor is starting on Wednesday and a co-worker will be on holidays for two weeks starting Wednesday and I will need to cover for her. It just doesn't look good when you add to that all the meetings scheduled in the next two weeks and all the work I already have piled up on my desk. I am not in a good mood!!! I want out!! I'm trying to not show my stress, but I think i'm failing. I can't wait to go on holidays.
Total exercise for January - 12 hours