- Thursday Jun 12, 2008
Not much new to report - yesterday slo-pitch was cancelled because it was raining fairly hard, so my boyfriend and I spent the night indoors watching t.v. At one point I left the house in search of a running magazine but after scouring our small town I came home empty-handed. Well, actually I picked up In Touch instead and read all about the star-studded beach bodies of today. I just wanted something to read while I took a bath anyways, who cares what it is?!
Eating is good, i'm not keeping track (and I should be), but i'm concentrating on getting outside and running right now, so the diet comes in second place for now and probably until the race is over in August.
Things got a little tense for me this morning at the office - but then I remembered to try and let things go, and I feel much better now. It actually works. I hate to say it, but I think i'm finally realizing that everything comes with hard work and effort and FOCUS.
So go on and FOCUS out there - and be your best today!
- Wednesday Jun 11, 2008
I managed to make it outside yesterday to run. Of my 4k in 30 minutes goal, I made the last half - the 30 minutes. I actually made it 3.5k in 30 minutes, and that was along with a whole lot of heavy wheezing and limping from severe calf pain. Fortunately, the calf pain went away during my run, but the wheezing did not. Oh, right, i'm out of shape. I forgot...
My boyfriend tried to pace me after the turnaround point of the run, and while I managed to match him stride for stride, it only lasted about 60 seconds. And, he bounces a LOT more than I do, so his strides are slower yet he moves further with each stride. I don't know, I guess I can't explain it because what I just said doesn't really sound right, but whatever. Anyways, I have this really funky-cool stopwatch that shows me what my pace is at all times. I couldn't check it while I was matching strides because I was using every ounce of energy I had just to put one foot in front of the other, but I checked it out on the computer once I got home. We were running at a pace of 4:41 minutes per kilometer. I'm sort of glad that I only made it for 60 seconds, because if I would have kept going at that pace, I would surely have ended up in the hospital...
Slo-pitch tonight, if weather permits.
Someday, if weather and the confines of my body permits, i'm going to just run and run and run. For like, 32 minutes or something CcRrAaZzYy like that.
- Tuesday Jun 10, 2008
I have been aching to get back to running and yet the procrastinator in me has decided that now is just not the time. Why? No reason, really. I took back my stationary bike on the weekend from my Dad because he doesn't have space for it anymore, so last night I set it up in the living room and jumped on for a quick 5k. At least I did something, right?!! And it wasn't all that incredibly quick, since I haven't been on a bike for a long time and it worked some muscles that still hurt today. Anyways, I needed to incorporate some cross-training into my schedule, so here it is! Today it is MANDATORY that I get outside and run (jog :p) so I plan on grabbing an energy bar after work and just doing it. That's right NIKE, Just Do It...
I will plan on 4k in under 30 minutes. That really isn't all that great, but whatever. I need to start somewhere. My stopwatch misses me and so do my runners. And my lungs? Well, they weren't liking the running thing all that much in the first place, so they'll just have to learn to suck it up. Literally.
Run, fatgirl, Run!!!!
- Monday Jun 09, 2008
The 5k walk was a lot of fun, even though the weather did not really cooperate with us. However, it WAS a nice cool day for the dogs which meant they did not overheat. We may have to work on Chewy's social skills a little more. He needs to learn that he doesn't have to go up and sniff EVERY dog that passes him, and he doesn't have to bark at them when he can't reach them!!! Quite a few times people passing us were looking just a little apprehensive when Chewy would bark and growl at their dogs. It's a constant learning process...
We all went for brunch after the walk, which ended around 11:30am for us. We could have stayed at the park and had hot dogs, but we were all craving breakfast, so hit up a buffet in the city. I ate way too much! We drove home, then had take-out for supper, followed by ice cream for dessert! I think I overdid it, just a tiny bit!!! I feel really bloated today - I need to remember this feeling so that it will stop me from bingeing like that again.
Chewy was angry with me on Friday because I took our other dog to get a haircut and didn't bring him with us. So, to get back at me he decided to eat a whole bag of whole wheat bagels I had sitting on the kitchen counter. I think that i'm angry with him because he ate a whole bunch of food that I could have eaten... in probably the same amount of time as he...
- Saturday Jun 07, 2008
I'm feeling much better and have delegated the day to cleaning since it is raining and dreary outside. I thought the saying was "April showers brings May flowers" but it's more like "May showers show a weary heart". I wish it would smarten up out there, but i'll practice patience and see where that gets me...
My seminar on Thursday was fairly smooth, considering I hadn't prepared for it as well as I did the first seminar. Only one more to go, then i'll have completed my certificate in Management Competencies. What fun. I learn more about myself with each passing day, but these seminars bring out the best in me. I really like the comraderie that comes with people from all walks of life coming together and pushing out our thoughts and opinions, making the world *hopefully* a better place. I wonder sometimes if I wouldn't do well in a facilitating position, opening people up and drawing out their strengths. In the third competency course some writing is required, and I am very excited about this. I love to write but struggle with making it a priority in my life, so i'm glad that I will be forced into it!
We are driving to the city tomorrow to partake in a Diabetes Walk with my Dad and his family. It's a 5k walk, gathering pledges and donations for the Diabetes Foundation, and since my Dad has been diagnosed with the disease, it is very meaningful to me. Another grand thing is that we will be able to take our dogs with us on the walk. How they will love that! Just another opportunity to socialize them with other dogs and give them another path to sniff out!
My boyfriend and I drove the 5k run that we will be participating in in August. I am amazed at how well I did last year, without divulging the length of time it took me! I actually made it a great distance without even once having to stop! I hope I will do just as well this year, even better with my boyfriend there to cheer me on. But I need to get my butt in gear healthwise and really start to focus on my goals. All it takes is a little determination.
- Wednesday Jun 04, 2008
I am at work today, a feat only possible through the administration of Advil at critical increments during a 24-hour period. I feel pretty bland, to be honest with you, but i'm here and working and that's what counts. Although, i'm in a really katty mood and people would probably rather I stayed at home.
Gosh, I just feel so crusty I can't even think about anything else to write about.
I didn't run yesterday. This is probably adding up to the reason why I feel so crusty today - period, no running... but I just couldn't bring myself to go. It was raining outside last night and all I felt like doing was laying on the couch. I am supposed to be playing ball today, but it's still sort of dreary-looking outside so I think it might be cancelled. Tomorrow, I have a seminar in the city all day. Friday I am off work (thank the Lord) and am hoping to feel much better by then and be able to go for a nice long run. I will have much to make up for.
- Tuesday Jun 03, 2008
So I ended up staying at home yesterday, even while my boyfriend RAN without me... I tell 'ya, that was hard for me. But I managed to do nothing at all besides sleep. When I got home from work, all I wanted to do was lay my head down and start dreaming of better places. I guess I have WAY more energy in the morning than I do in the afternoon, because I was so gung-ho about running when I wrote my last entry but once I was home running wasn't even a word in my vocabulary. I felt a slight jealous shock to my system when my boyfriend decided to run, although I don't think he did as much as he would've if i'd been with him. For some reason, that makes me feel better. Imagine that, him not doing as well without me makes me feel better about myself... how selfish can I get?!!
So I got a whole lot of sleep last night.
A whole lot.
I woke up this morning with my period and immediately took two Advil. I've been monitoring my Advil intake all day, and will continue to take it over the next couple of days until I am feeling better. I think I caught it right before it started, so i'm hoping the Advil will take effect and not give up on me - I will even continue taking it during the night, waking myself up every few hours to take some more. Believe me, this is the only thing getting me through these times of the month.
My boyfriend has a fastball game tonight, but I won't be watching him so I might try to get my butt off the couch and onto the track, but I can't and won't guarantee that. I wouldn't want to disappoint myself, but these things happen and I have to let it all go sometimes.
- Monday Jun 02, 2008
Well, I am now suitably burned from my elbows to my wrists, even a little bit on the tops of my hands, from playing ball all day yesterday. It was incredibly windy, and with the hot sun it is never a good combination. For some reason, I forgot all about the necessity of having sunblock when you are going to be outside for 8 hours straight. Needless to say, it wasn't long before I was wind-burned and searching for shady areas to rest my burning body. Then, not long after that I added insult to injury (or however it's said) by still refusing sunblock then going out and getting sun-burned. I was a mess last night, slathering creams and gels and sprays all over my arms and face. I think my ears are even burned. I tried my best to relieve the pain, but it is still going strong today. It looks REALLY red in this flourescent lighting at work. I probably look a little like a boiled lobster. Yesterday I compared myself with a radish. I say lobster today because tons more creams have been added and my arms are so shiney and slippery I actually look like i've just been picked out of the boiling water.
ANYHOW, boy do I like to go on and on, huh?
We didn't place too strongly in any of our games, although we did end up winning the first two. I'm quite sure that every game we played yesterday was a gong-show in some way or other. I'm serious! I won't go into details, because it'll just get me worked up again, but let's just say it wasn't as much fun as I was hoping it would be. Oh well, live and learn. When we lost our third game, our day was done and while most of our teammates stayed and hung out, my boyfriend and I started up the jeep and took off back to town. Being burned and tired and having looked after both dogs all day as well, we were exhausted.
I want to run again, it feels like my muscles are jumping out of my skin, or at least trying to. I don't feel strong today, but I know that I want to run.
- Saturday May 31, 2008
I had a bad sleep last night, tried to hit the sack early but my boyfriend came barging into the house around 11:30pm, waking me up. Then he proceeded to *do* things around the house, like stomp to the bathroom, turn on lights, give the dogs what you have to assume is the greatest treat in the whole world by the way they were scrambling along the hardwood floor to get to them. I got majorly pissed off. Me being cranky is seriously not a good thing at any time, nevermind at 12:30am. I stormed downstairs and shut off all the lights, then gave some crazied lecture about waking people up in the middle of the night and stormed right back up the stairs to bed. Of course, I was WAY too worked up to actually sleep...
I didn't wake up until close to 9am this morning. Actually, I woke up around 5:30am, but forced myself to lay in bed until 9am because I was still pissed off at my boyfriend and I didn't want him to think that I could still wake up so early even though I didn't get a lot of sleep. We went for breakfast and then I went out for a long run. My long runs are about 45 minutes long. That's not very *long* in any sense of the word, but it's enough of a workout to leave me exhausted and unable to move for the next few hours afterwards. I didn't do well today. I think it's a mixture of bad sleep, too heavy of a breakfast, and too congested a chest. I almost coughed up a lung out there, i'm so glad no one else was around to hear me. I hope I get better at this. It's not much fun if you're CONSTANTLY struggling to get from point A to point B. 4km in total, running intervals. Oh, it hurts to see that in writing. Terrible.
I need to get groceries today and clean up the house. I also have some classes I need to look over in preparation for this coming Thursday. I haven't even glanced at the books yet and I really should do that at some point today.
Tomorrow there is a slo-pitch tournament our team is entered into. Ball all day! Whoot! Ball was secretly my calling in life, it's what I REALLY should've done with myself, instead of entering post-secondary school in Business Admin. I rocked at ball. I love ball.
- Friday May 30, 2008
Thanks for the concern ladies. I am pretty sure that i'm not pregnant which is why being this sick for so long is driving me insane. If I was pregnant I would be okay with it, but I don't think there's much chance of that happening. I guess I should keep it in the back of my mind though, just in case...
Anyways, today i'm feeling better, although I still have a darn cough and stuffy nose syndrome and it's driving me bonkers. And right now, my left forefinger is twitching nervously onto my keyboard and making it actually quite difficult for me to type anything at any decent speed. It's freaking me out!! I stare at it without moving my hands and the finger doesn't move; then the second I lift my eyes back to the monitor, twitch twitch. Then it's silent again. Then, twitch twitch. Argh!!! It's wreaking some serious havoc on my mental state!!
My boyfriend and I got an early start on the day again by waking up around 5:30am. We headed out to the track and this time I managed to run for 2km instead of weaseling out by 1km. It took 15:35. Yeah, that's about average for me right now. Hopefully it will get better by the end of August! My boyfriend did 2km in 8:47. I don't know why I keep adding his times in my entry, but for some reason I just HAVE TO. The reason will open itself to me at some point in time, i'm sure.
I felt pretty good this morning, although mornings are never a really good time for me. I realized that this morning when I seriously did not want to wake up. I went to bed later than usual, and should have known I wouldn't want to awake that early, but my boyfriend didn't let me go back to sleep (actually, I didn't try very hard to stay in bed - I hate it when people are disappointed in me in any way). The good news is that I got to wear a brand new pair of sweats to the track and they didn't chafe or sweat too much or start unraveling because I caught a string from the bottom of my pants on one of the monkey bars at the playground 200 meters away. Not that that ever happened to me.