- Friday Feb 22, 2008
Getting back into the groove of things is sure hard! Winter isn't helping any either, although it's starting to feel a bit warmer than it has been, which is really nice. So I sent a message to my Tai Chi and kickboxing instructor yesterday, explaining that I wouldn't be returning to classes until the start of March. I told him that I needed time to work on my classes, which is reasonably correct. On the other hand, I really just didn't want to be there. Clicking the send button was difficult, but I did it and I feel a little better about explaining my absence to him instead of having him wonder where I am all the time.
I did well yesterday, but the batch of chocolate chip cookies I made on Sunday is dwindling and it's all because I keep sneaking one every time I walk past the cookie jar. Why i'm *sneaking* them is beyond me - there's only the dogs there to see me do it. Other than that though, i've been trying to stick to fruits during the day and meat and rice with vegetables for dinner. Slowly I will get back to the place I was before leaving on holidays (which to be honest with you wasn't exactly the best place to be, but it was better than where I am now!). One day I will post my weight here again. One day when i'm feeling like succeeding instead of just scraping by. I must remember that I like to deliberately fail at things - misery loves company and all that. Maybe a new year's resolution should have been to work on sticking things out. Did I even make any resolutions this year?
Tonight I plan on studying. This weekend i'm *hoping* to get outside with the dogs and go to the gym to re-start my running routine in order to do a 5k run i'm going to enter again in August.
*I wonder if anyone here is entering any runs this year, or maybe, like, half-marathons and things of that nature* (perhaps this is an inside joke that not even the inside person will get... I was never good at wording my sentences properly)
- Thursday Feb 21, 2008
I've been pretty down on myself lately and i've made the decision to not go back to Tai Chi or kickboxing until March. I don't know if this decision was made out of laziness or if it is actually explainable, but right now I don't care. I just don't want to go. I really need to devote myself to getting in some study time with my management courses, otherwise I can pretty much kiss a good grade goodbye. I only have a few weeks left until the first seminar, and I have a TON of work to do. I'll never understand why I always leave everything to the last minute and then stress out until it's half-a$$ed done and wonder why I do so poorly.
ANYHOW, holy I can sure complain! I think i'm going to take your advice and map out a plan for the remainder of February, except I need to remember to leave leg-room here and there so that I don't go crazy from too much structure!
Things to consider: gym time, work, dogs, family and friends, study course, writing, leg-room.
When you take away Tai Chi and Kickboxing, it almost looks do-able. I must be forgetting something...
Total exercise for February is i'm not going to tell you. You win, HoP! But in March it may be a different story!!! :)
Thanks for all the comments and advice - I think the moral of the story here is that I need to quit enabling myself to fail and really start trying instead of thinking everything will just fall into my lap.
- Saturday Feb 16, 2008
Today i'm sick, and I know I always used to only venture on to this board and leave a message when I was sick, but it's not like that anymore, really!!!! I can't believe this week is already over and it's time to start thinking about going back to work on Tuesday. Ugh, i'm not looking forward to it, but I really like the money. What can you do? I have a problem, and maybe you can help:
I work Monday to Friday during the day and take exercise classes on Tuesday and Thursday nights. On Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays i've designated an hour's time to my management courses. This probably isn't enough time, so i'll have to up it to two hours and eventually get it to about eight hours a week. I clean, do laundry and visit friends and relatives on the weekends (this is where quality time with my puppies also comes into play). I really love to write, but i'm having so much trouble 'getting into it'. I also love to paint and draw, but I just don't have the time. My question is: How can I balance everything so that i'm not just doing the things I NEED to do, but also the things i'd like to do???? I really don't feel balanced and though it may not be a life-threatening thing, it matters to me, you know? I'd love to devote myself to art and creative writing, but money always gets in the way. How can I feel better about this?
Tai Chi and Kickboxing are definitely fun classes, don't get me wrong, but sometimes it feels more like a chore than a fun thing to do with friends. I know i'm supposed to suck it up, and I DO suck it up, but i'd really like to know when this business of loving life is supposed to start happening, 'cause i'm not there yet. And i'm getting older every day.
Total exercise for February - 3 hours. Yee. Haw. I think I made this same comment in January. Now i'm not only unfulfilled in life, but i'm also repeating myself as if I was drunk.
- Tuesday Feb 12, 2008
I made chicken fried rice yesterday for dinner and hit up my grandma's place for lunch - chicken, veggies and pie!! Oh well. Today I made eggs for lunch and croissants in the oven. Unfortunately, I ate about three too many. When you're on an all-inclusive holiday, all you have to do is walk down to the buffet tables and choose what you want. There is no cooking involved (heaven for me). Surprisingly, I didn't eat as much as I do at home. Now that i'm back, i'm finding myself slipping into the same routines of eating great amounts and then feeling guilty about it later.
I was in a bit of a mood yesterday, sad about being at home and wishing I was still in Mexico. I guess everyone goes through that, and i'll get over it sooner or later. Someone asked me if I was going to be the 'type' that goes on an all-inclusive vacation every year and I really had to sit and think about it. It was great, but i'm more of an 'experience it' type of person and all-inclusive is quite limiting in that regard, although you still could if you wanted to, it would just cost more. I have to say that I loved the feeling of security you get at a four star hotel - i'm a chicken when it comes to venturing out into unknown territory but I love the high you get when you've pushed through that fear. So, i'm still up on the wall about all-inclusives. If I go to Mexico (Puerto Vallarta) again, I don't know that i'll do the all-inclusive again. You never know though...
I'm taking the dogs out to the farm for a run this afternoon. Tonight is Tai Chi and kickboxing. Wow, it'll be a kick in the butt to get back into this thing called exercise!
Total hours for February - zero; Goal - 25 hours
- Sunday Feb 10, 2008
If I recall correctly, my total exercise hours for January was 26.5 hours. That's okay I guess. Not great, but okay. Not much I can do about it now, right?!! February is going to be scary because there isn't much left of the month and i'm at zero hours because i've been on vacation for most of it so far! I still have another week off, but I fully intend on getting straight back into the thick of things...
My vacation was totally wonderful and lovely! I can't believe the week has already gone by and even though i'm glad to be home in my own bed, it's going to be a bit of a cultural shock for the next few days. You mean, I can't just walk around outside in my bathing suit and sarong???! It was below 50 degrees celsius last night when we came in on the plane and we decided to stay one night instead of driving home. So, I got home this morning just before lunch and now i'm going to work on getting my stinky clothes clean again and finding something to eat for dinner! Adios Amigos!
Total exercise for February - zippo, zilch, zero
- Friday Feb 01, 2008
Finally i'm feeling better - that flu stuck around far too long in my opinion and totally wiped me out for the week. We leave tomorrow though, rain or shine - whether i'm packed or not! Thankfully, I am. I think it's all under control, but I could be missing something. Oh well. Passport. Money. Hotel voucher. Camera. Those are the main things. Everything else is expendable and replacable.
Talk to you all when I return in one week! A lean, mean, suntanning machine! Okay, skip the lean part...
- Wednesday Jan 30, 2008
I'm living on crackers, gingerale and orange juice. Would you believe I got sick only one week before my big trip to Mexico?? And I got a nice whacking stomach flu too, not just your regular everyday kind of virus. Unfortunately, it's knocked me out to the point where I can't even figure out the number of socks I will need while i'm gone. Which is also why I haven't logged on here lately. I don't really have much to say besides that i'm sick. So, I will try to get on here again tomorrow and actually let you know how i've been doing for the past few days, but right now? I'm just going to go lay on the couch and rest.
- Saturday Jan 26, 2008
I got to sleep in this morning until 9:00am, then got up and at it. I went into the city to visit my Dad today, as my birthday is coming up and he wanted to see me before I left on the trip. It's been a long day - I just returned home now. I only ate once today, my Dad took me out for lunch and I had a chicken and rice wrap with fries. I ate half the fries and half the wrap, and gave the rest to my Dad. I'm still full and we ate over 7 hours ago!
Anyways, not much to report as i've been very bad with exercise this past week and it wasn't any better today.
Tomorrow I tentatively signed up for a Belly Dancing class!!! I think I will take the half-day workshop instead of the full day, because my friend and I need to do some shopping in the afternoon for our upcoming trip. But still, that will be 2.5 hours of exercise. Finally, exercise! Yay! Then shopping, then packing and cleaning. Then back to work on Monday. Thankfully, I have this Friday off so I only work a four day week. I'm not counting down the days to the trip, just the days left of work!!! Four more!
Total exercise for January - 21 hours.
P.S. - sorry for my poutiness yesterday. I was feeling a little overwhelmed with everything I need to accomplish this next week. I just needed to vent, I guess. Thanks for your comments!
- Friday Jan 25, 2008
Need to walk dogs.
Still very tired.
Not much more to say.
Bad mood today.
I don't even want to add the stupid exercise hours part of my entry.
- Thursday Jan 24, 2008
I mean, *roar* or something equally impressive and intimidating. Not *rowr* like a cat's meow or something. No, *ROWR* like "Arg!", like "is this week over yet??".
I think i'm getting headaches because a)yes, i'm probably drinking too much coffee, but also b) I haven't been giving myself enough time to eat a proper lunch. For the last three days i've had two pieces of toast for lunch because it was all I could fit in due to meetings at work. I could stay at work and eat a much better lunch there, but then I would come home to dog-pee all over the house and probably have an even larger headache if that's possible. So I guess the positive here is that i've been eating under my caloric intake for the day. But again, alas, no exercise today. Can I move my butt and take the dogs for a walk? I probably won't, as I am having trouble keeping my eyes open long enough just to write this. I'm going to bed. Isn't that pathetic? I miss one night of exercise and it totally throws off the entire rest of the week! Okay, okay, so i'm working a lot and not getting enough sleep and things are stressful and I could just cry, but I could still try to fit something in. Why do I just not care? I should care, I mean, that's why i'm on this website right now, because I want to change and be healthy and be fit. Are you thinking that i'm a failure? Because that's what i'm thinking. Crappy crap crap. If ONLY...this and that and the other. Excuses, it's all just excuses for not forging ahead and claiming what's rightfully mine - my HEALTH.
Yes, I need some sleep. Goodnight all.
Total exercise for January - still 21 hours :(:(:(:(:(:(