Alright.

Where did I leave off? Well, i'll just start from Monday.

Monday: rice & cheese wrap for lunch and dinner, 1.5 hours aquasize

Tuesday: rice & cheese wrap for lunch and dinner, 11 minutes elliptical

Wednesday: rice & cheese wrap for lunch and a chicken burger with fries for dinner, 1 hour gym and at least an hour of mall-walking

Thursday: rice & cheese wrap for lunch and steak stew with a mean veggie dip and raw veggies, 1.5 hours volleyball

Friday: cheese wrap for lunch and ceasar salad with a slice of the boys' pizza. I skipped gym today because...well, just because. Of course, the night is not yet over...

Tomorrow: eggs and toast for breakfast, cheese wrap for lunch and grandma's cooking for dinner, 1.5 hours gym

Placed a bet with my boyfriend to see who could outrun who - but I have to work myself up to it on the treadmill first. I'm close to half an hour of running but I know he can do that too, so I have to go longer than that before I take him up on his bet.

Okay....can't remember my exact diet for the last few days, but mainly sandwiches for lunch and wraps of couscous and cheese for dinner. Exercise: Monday was 1 hour aquasize, Tuesday nothing, Wednesday 1 hour gym (ran for 14 minutes), Thursday 1.5 hours volleyball.

Today:

lunch: wrap with couscous and cheese, mandarin orange

snack: cheesies (oops)

dinner: 2 wraps with couscous and cheese

exercise: 1 hour gym

Plan for tomorrow:

lunch: wrap

dinner: christmas party with friends - buffet

exercise: 1 hour gym

Plan for Sunday:

lunch: wrap

dinner: 2 wraps

exercise: 1 hour gym

Friday night: 2 coolers, snack of cheese and crackers. Lucky me didn't even go overboard. Followed up at a christmas party later on with a couple beer.

Saturday: cheerios with milk, cold cut trio sub with mustard and lettuce, christmas party buffet of perogies, turkey, stuffing and salad. More beer. Lots of dancing and running around.

Sunday: had too many beer and pretty much slept all day. Was supposed to go to the gym but it didn't happen. cold cut trio sub with mustard and lettuce, dirty rice with a chicken burger, a glass of chocolate milk and a mug of french vanilla cappacino.

Today: banana muffin, ham and cheese sandwich, don't know what's for dinner yet.

exercise: 1 hour aquasize, although all I feel like doing is sleeping.

Hello all.

Tuesday:

1c cheerios with 1/2c partly skim milk, salmon salad sandwich, mandarin orange, 2 mugs coffee without sugar, subway sub cold cut trio with mustard and lettuce.

exercise: 8 min elliptical (kicked my butt again)

Wednesday:

1c cheerios with 1/2c partly skim milk, turkey salad sandwich, mandarin orange, 2 mugs coffee without sugar, subway sub cold cut trio with mustard and lettuce.

exercise: 1 hour gym - stepper 8 min, elliptical 6 min, treadmill 20 min (10 min running)

Thursday:

1c cheerios with 1/2 partly skim milk, chicken with feta and ceasar salad, 1 mug coffee without sugar, mandarin orange, french bread (3 cut pcs) with green onion, feta, mushrooms and cheddar.

exercise: 1.5 hours volleyball

Today:

1c cheerios with 1/2 partly skim milk, ham and cheese sandwich (note that all sandwiches and subs are with whole wheat bread), mandarin orange, 2 robin's eggs, french bread (3 cut pcs) with above dressings.

exercise: none today - xmas baking and party to go to - possible snacking likely to happen.

Weekend:

Saturday:

2 cup cheerios with 1 cup partly skim milk, free-meal burger with fries and a coffee without sugar, handful of nachos.

exercise: a little walking, about 1/2 hour.

Sunday:

brunch was eaten out - buffet with eggs, hashbrowns, macaroni salad, cheese and coffee with sugar; 1 cup spaghetti with parmesan cheese.

exercise: 10 min bike, 15 min elliptical (really had me panting and groaning).

Today:

1 cup cheerios with 1/2 sup partly skim milk, coffee without sugar, vegetable soup, dinner is still unknown but i'm getting hungry thinking about it.

exercise: 1 hour aquasize.

Today:

breakfast - 1 cup cheerios with 1/2 cup partly skim milk.

lunch - minestrone soup.

dinner - sweet potato wrap, broccoli and cauliflower.

exercise - bike 1 hour.

This week has gone by alright diet and exercise-wise. Very busy. Shorthand. Going nuts!

Today:

breakfast - 1 cup cheerios with 1/2 cup partly skim milk

morning - coffee, no cream or sugar

lunch - vegetable medley soup

afternoon - coffee, no cream or sugar

dinner - sweet potato garlic & herb wrap with lettuce, onions and Italian spread, broccoli and cauliflower

exercise - 1 hour aquasize

snack - orange

Today:

breakfast - 1/2 cup lf mousse, 1 cup ff smoothie.

morning snack - cinnamin bun.

lunch - ham and cheese sandwich on ww.

afternoon snack - apple slice, 1/2 slice white cake with icing.

dinner - 3 oz salmon, grilled, with 1/2 cup rice and 2 cups lettuce with 2 tblspn lf dressing.

exercise - bike 1/2 hour, volleyball 1&1/2 hours.

I've been sick so have not been eating well because I tend to say goodbye to watching myself when i'm not feeling well. It's a pessimistic attitude that I cultivated long ago and just don't have the strength to give up right now. Notice how it's so much harder to give up bad habits than it is good ones? Anyhow, I took my weight down and will update the next time I weigh.

Monday:

breakfast - 2 pc whole wheat toast with light margarine, 1 mug coffee with creamer.

lunch - 1 cup Thai rice, 1 mug coffee with creamer.

dinner - 1 cup Thai rice with chicken, green beans and bean sprouts.

dessert - 1 small pc apple pie with low fat whip cream.

exercise - 1 hour Aquasize. I hurt myself somehow during this time. I have a sharp pain in my chest today that just won't go away.

total calories per fitday - 1560

Today's Plan:

breakfast - 1.5 pc whole wheat toast with peanut butter, 1 mug coffee with creamer.

lunch - 1 cup Thai rice with chicken, green beans and bean sprouts.

dinner - ?

exercise - 1/2 hour shovelling snow (yes, it snowed last night). 1/2 hour walk with dog since i'll already be bundled up. 2 hours volleyball.

total calories planned - 1500.

Well. Get ready for a tantrum.

My cold/flu is getting worse. I've been in and out of the bathroom a couple of times this morning. I'm slowly but surely losing steam. Last night and the night before I slept much more than the required 6 hours - I almost doubled that last night. And I woke up this morning feeling fine, but an hour later not even being able to look at anything without it blurring out on me. I'm missing out on my fun activities (volleyball) and it's making me angry.

The situation here at work is repulsive. I've had to work more in one job because of co-workers being away, and in-turn am being forced to take a back seat with the other job I have. I'm trying to do both today. I am angry and I have a right to be! Unfortunately I don't have a say or I would have already said it. Hey legcramps, don't take so much on next time. One job is enough.

I have hardly spent any time with the dog because of illness, and he's so starved for my attention that it makes me literally depressed. I just can't go out in this cold and attempt any sort of playfulness. Maybe I should just HAVE TO.

I talked to my boyfriend about his ignorance of the other day, and he simply shrugged his shoulders and not a word came from his mouth. He expects this to fade from my memory like everything else but unfortunately for him, since i'm so stressed about things right now this instance is sticking in my mind like glue on paper. I laugh at your impudence, poor pitiful boy! I mean, I WOULD laugh but i'm not in the mood right now.

All I want to do is hide my face in the blankets and wish it all away. Since I know I can't do that, i'm struggling to juggle things this way and that. I MUST relax, calm down, and face things one at a time. I MUST learn to let things go. I SHOULD take up meditating. I WILL not accomplish anything today.