- Friday May 30, 2008
Thanks for the concern ladies. I am pretty sure that i'm not pregnant which is why being this sick for so long is driving me insane. If I was pregnant I would be okay with it, but I don't think there's much chance of that happening. I guess I should keep it in the back of my mind though, just in case...
Anyways, today i'm feeling better, although I still have a darn cough and stuffy nose syndrome and it's driving me bonkers. And right now, my left forefinger is twitching nervously onto my keyboard and making it actually quite difficult for me to type anything at any decent speed. It's freaking me out!! I stare at it without moving my hands and the finger doesn't move; then the second I lift my eyes back to the monitor, twitch twitch. Then it's silent again. Then, twitch twitch. Argh!!! It's wreaking some serious havoc on my mental state!!
My boyfriend and I got an early start on the day again by waking up around 5:30am. We headed out to the track and this time I managed to run for 2km instead of weaseling out by 1km. It took 15:35. Yeah, that's about average for me right now. Hopefully it will get better by the end of August! My boyfriend did 2km in 8:47. I don't know why I keep adding his times in my entry, but for some reason I just HAVE TO. The reason will open itself to me at some point in time, i'm sure.
I felt pretty good this morning, although mornings are never a really good time for me. I realized that this morning when I seriously did not want to wake up. I went to bed later than usual, and should have known I wouldn't want to awake that early, but my boyfriend didn't let me go back to sleep (actually, I didn't try very hard to stay in bed - I hate it when people are disappointed in me in any way). The good news is that I got to wear a brand new pair of sweats to the track and they didn't chafe or sweat too much or start unraveling because I caught a string from the bottom of my pants on one of the monkey bars at the playground 200 meters away. Not that that ever happened to me.
- Thursday May 29, 2008
Well, i'm going to say that yesterday was my rest day, from running anyhow. I had slo-pitch (we sucked BIG TIME) and after that I was just exhausted... not sure why. I got home and took a bath and practically fell into bed. This morning both my boyfriend and I got up early to do our runs at the track. We were both going for a slow 2k. I only made it to 1k, then had to speedily backtrack home and get my butt into the bathroom because I was going to be sick. Imagine having walked to the track from home, then realizing that - oops - you're really sick and you really need to hit that toilet, then trying to hike back home without having an accident. I kept thinking about the projectile vomit that came spewing out of my dog's mouth yesterday (I know, too much information) and I barely made it home. I *ran* to the toilet, ladies. I've never been so embarassed. Okay, yes I have, but this was pretty bad too. Also embarassingly, I managed to stay on the toilet for at LEAST ten minutes before feeling physically able to get off of it.
I realize this is a bad start to the day. I also realize that out of the whole month of May, i've been NOT sick for only five days. I'm at work today because my mind just refuses to process the fact that i'm sick again. No, no i'm not sick. NO I'M NOT. I don't think I even have any sick time left anyways, even if I WAS sick. Which i'm NOT.
I get to go shopping today after work. That's a lot more fun than running right now.
- Wednesday May 28, 2008
1k again last night, did it a lot slower in 6:41 than the night before last (5:52 or something like that). I started off a lot slower because I was thinking about kicking it in the last lap. I rounded the first lap totally in control of my breathing and without a care in the world. Second lap I was breathing a little heavier, but was still more than able to carry on a conversation - I knew I was going too slowly, but I wasn't in a hurry - I figured my speed could develop later on. Anyways, on the last 1/2 lap I was trying to decide whether to carry on for 2k or kick it up for the last part of 1k. Finally I decided to kick it up, but I was way too late and came in at 6:41. I should have gone for 2k instead, or even 1 mile, because I felt really strong and good. The kick in the last 1/2 lap depleted whatever energy I had left though, so I packed it in after that.
My boyfriend ran 2k last night in 8:39. That's pretty good.
Tonight it's slo-pitch, so no running although I will try and walk to ball. That never really works out, even with the best intentions I always have too much stuff to carry with me. So prolly a walk with the dogs later on - maybe i'll sneak in a run there...
Gotta get back to work.
- Tuesday May 27, 2008
We took the dogs for a walk yesterday and made our way out to the track where my boyfriend proceeded to run his regular 1k. He made it in 3:51. I then decided that since my legs felt so strong that day that I should try 1k as well, just to see where i'm at, 'cause i'm curious and all that. So I did. As I started off, I could feel that my pace was way too fast, but I tried to only use my legs and give my lungs a bit of a break off the start. It didn't really work all that well. When I rounded the last curve of the first lap, my boyfriend said he took one look at me and made a private bet with himself that I wasn't going to make it the entire 1k. My face apparently was so flushed and he said I was making such an effort to breathe, he couldn't understand how I actually kept going! I don't remember being THAT tired, but I guess I was... the second lap was a little harder than the first. I had started out at a good pace and it was difficult to keep it up and by the time I rounded the curve of the second lap I was 13 seconds behind the pace I set in the first lap and I was ready to quit. But I kept going, and made 1k in 5:52, which isn't bad, but i'll definitely need to keep this pace for 5k or it's not worth even running it. We'll see!!
Walking around building today with my mother; my boyfriend thinks he wants to go back to the track again tonight, so if that happens then i'll have a little more running in this week! Yay!
- Monday May 26, 2008
I didn't get anything accomplished this weekend, other than trying unsuccessfully to get rid of my cold. I did leave work early on Friday morning, and slept for most of the day and into the night. Saturday I was still quite sick and while my boyfriend helped out with a fundraiser for his fastball team, I lay at home on the couch feeling sorry for myself. Finally, in talking to a friend of mine on the phone who asked me why I was beating myself up by not taking any sort of medication besides Advil, I caved and took some major meds. Saturday night was a friend's birthday party and while I was a little irritable, I made it through the night and woke up feeling WAY better on Sunday morning. The head cold had cleared and moved down into my chest. So today i'm coughing a lot, but my brain is clear and fog-less so i'm incredibly grateful for that.
I'm not sure what I can do in regards to exercise today. I want to get back into my running routine but I don't wanna go overboard and hence continue to pick up colds and such because I haven't given myself enough time to fully heal. Perhaps I will try a walk and see how it goes from there.
- Friday May 23, 2008
This cold doesn't seem to want to break any time soon!!!
Thursday: 6:00am walk; walk around building for afternoon coffee break... that's it. My head was too full to contemplate doing anything else. I'm such a suck when i'm sick, but I would've ended up vomiting if I had made myself run.
Friday: No morning walk; I am incredibly stuffy today and won't be walking around the building either. It's like i'm on strike, except my picket-line sign says "feel sorry for me because i'm sick" instead of "feel sorry for me because I don't think I get paid enough" and i'm losing energy each day instead of money. I hope the strike doesn't last too much longer, I can't *afford* to lose anymore energy.
Actually, I think I might go home sick at some point today.
- Thursday May 22, 2008
Wednesday: walked around building at coffee breaks; slo-pitch game; walked dogs then decided I was totally exhausted, we turned around and walked back home then put the dogs into the jeep and drove them out to a field for exercise. Heehee, and we picked up coffees and hot chocolates and sat on top of the jeep while the dogs played around. Now THAT's a proper dog-walk!!!
Thursday: I've been in meetings all morning, so haven't done any exercise besides walking from one building to the next. I did wake up and do my 45 minute walk at 6:00am though, so good for me. And i'll probably walk around the building for coffee break this afternoon. Will I be running? If I can breathe without mucus blocking my airways and without having to sneeze every ten minutes, i'll be out there running. As of right now though, my odds are NOT good.
I'm ready for the weekend. Ready to lay in bed and not get up for 12 hours straight. Ready for a movie-fest type of day where all I have to do is get up to go to the bathroom. I might just do that on Saturday. Time will tell!
- Wednesday May 21, 2008
Tuesday: walked 45 minutes @ 6:30am; walked around the building at work during morning and afternoon coffee breaks; did an hour of gardening after work; ran 4k in 35:10 (that's a pace of 9:15, better than last time but still not great - not when it should be under 6:00!!)
Wednesday: did not wake up to go for a walk this morning because today is slo-pitch and I am thinking about walking to the diamonds and back home. Maybe walk the dogs after that. Will be walking around the building again today during coffee breaks.
I have a cold. We went for dinner yesterday and my throat was so sore I could barely swallow my food. It just came upon me all of a sudden, as things normally do I guess... anyhow, it sucks. I can't breathe. I am irritated at everything and everyone. I know, I know, i'll get better and it will pass. I am so sick of being sick!!! And, right now, I need a shot of Vitamin B12. Wake up, legcramps, you've got your whole life ahead of you...
- Tuesday May 20, 2008
Thursday: walked 45 minutes @ 6am; napped after work because I was totally exhausted; walked dogs; ran 400 meters in 2:33; ran 400 meters in 2:00. My boyfriend can now run 1k in 3:50...
Friday: run/walk 35 minutes; painted bathroom; walked dogs.
Saturday: painted bathroom; household chores - yuck :( hate them; no exercise besides that.
Sunday: I napped again this afternoon - can anyone say 'burnout'?!! no exercise; went to church then lunch at the farm; dogs got a lot of exercise.
Monday: ran the most pathetic distance of 3.5k in the most pathetic of times - 37:00 minutes. That's a pace of 10:57 per kilometer. Wow. Nasty. Oh well; bad day I guess...
Tuesday: Morning walk 45 minutes @ 6am. That's it so far :) back at work and trying to be pleasant about it... hehehe.
- Thursday May 15, 2008
Slo-pitch was slow yesterday. They had me playing first base, and I didn't get to run hardly at all except for when I was batting. We were so low scoring though that I only went up to bat three times! Crazy. A good game, but we lost by enough runs to make some of us a little ornery...
So, thank goodness I went for that morning walk, because otherwise I would've guilted myself into running and then probably hurt myself or worse - got sick of running so much. We took the dogs for a walk later last night too, so when you add it all together it doesn't look all that bad!
Was up again this morning at 5:30am to do 45 minutes of walking.
My boyfriend wants to go back out to the track tonight to test his 1k time again, so as long as he is still gung-ho about it, I will also be doing my running.
Can you believe this weight increase? Let me vent for a moment here... the scale is an absolutely ridiculous thing that should be outlawed. I'd like to take a hammer to mine, to be more precise, or chuck it out of a 80 story building. However, in the time i've had since weighing myself, i've been able to come to grips with the extra gain. I realize that what i'm looking for is not primarily weight loss, it's more about finding balance in life and being able to use running as a coping mechanism on those days I just can't seem to handle right now. And I am not weighing myself again until, like, July or something. So be prepared to see 153 for a long time.