- Friday May 09, 2008
Well, bad luck has crashed down my door, but I am still better off than most, so i'm not going to complain about it too much today!
I'm sick - AGAIN. At least this time I KNOW what it's from (TOM) and can more easily *handle* the pain. I'm still at work, which is also a good thing, and I even went for a walk last night with my boyfriend and the dogs. We made it about halfway along our usual path when I started to get cramps and everytime I leaned forward to ease them, my back would start to hurt! Honestly, I looked like a cripple trying to pass myself off as a dog-walker! Anyways, I feel pretty awful and i'm hoping it goes away soon.
Wednesday - walked to work, walks at morning and afternoon coffee break, walked home, slo-pitch game, walked dogs
Thursday - walks at morning and afternoon coffee break, walked dogs
I need to get back out there and run, but it's going to be tough going because of all the committments this weekend and Mother's Day being on Sunday. Oh well, somehow it'll get done.
- Wednesday May 07, 2008
I think i'm doing quite well, considering all the many little things that have proved to be obstacles in my way.
Tuesday night - jogged intervals for 15 minutes and walked the dogs.
Wednesday morning - I woke up, started eating breakfast then proceeded to throw everything up, plus what i'd eaten the night before, PLUS what i'd eaten at lunch the day before! Yikes! It was quite scary and I ended up in the hospital for the morning with an IV stuck to my wrist. Needless to say, no walk or jog THAT night! I'm hoping that when I go for my ultrasound at the end of June they will be able to diagnose something. I hate feeling sick all the time and not knowing what it is or if it's just in my head! I've definitely met my sick quota for the year and we're not even halfway through it...
Thursday - sick.
Friday - I had taken as a vacation day and was able to do my jogging intervals for 15 minutes, then we went to a friend's for dinner that night. Around 8:30pm, we took the dogs for a walk.
Saturday - We drove to the city in the morning to buy ourselves new runners (my boyfriend is thinking about running in the 5k as well), we walked the dogs and I worked on the garden beds most of the afternoon.
Sunday - We took the dogs for a walk before lunch, then had slo-pitch practice in the afternoon for two hours. Later that night I was feeling very sore and restless and decided to walk uptown to take back some movies. The walking helped, but my hip had started to give me some trouble during ball practice and I worried that it was getting worse.
Monday - Was a vacation day as well, and I did a lot of walking, probably close to 10km in total. Spent the evening at the farm so the dogs could work off some energy. I didn't jog today to give my hip more rest, although it was feeling much better.
Tuesday - My first day back at work. It was a long day! but I got through it without too much hassle. We went out for dinner (BLT sandwich, salad with ranch on the side), then I jogged intervals for 20 minutes while the dogs and my boyfriend played about behind me. My boyfriend also started running a bit during that walk. He is a runner, though, and can't keep my slow pace. It's either really fast or not at all! We've resigned ourselves to the fact that we probably will not be able to run together at any point in time, unless I can speed up, which I doubt will happen anytime soon!! :) The extra 5 minutes hurt believe it or not, but I felt so good afterwards. A runner's high...
I walked to work this morning, and my mother and I walked around our building at work during coffee break. I'm staying for lunch, then walking home after work. Tonight we have our first slo-pitch game and we're also hoping to walk the dogs after that as well. Dream Big!!!
- Friday May 02, 2008
I got sick on Wednesday morning and have been off work since then. My ribcage is very sore right now and i'm sort of... well, blah I guess. I was supposed to run today (Day 4 of program), but will have to wait until tomorrow or Saturday, depending on my strength. I did run on Tuesday night, did pretty well but I can tell i'm in terrible shape compared to last August and that's not saying a whole lot, lemme tell 'ya...
I'd been living off soda crackers and gingerale for the past couple of days, but tonight I managed to swallow a regular meal, although it wasn't the healthiest - a burger and fries. I'll take it over soda crackers though! I hope tomorrow i'll be in better spirits. I hate feeling so blah all the time and was trying pretty desperately hard to get out of it. I guess life hits you whether you're ready or not, huh?!
- Tuesday Apr 29, 2008
Well, i'm an idiot and just erased everything I had written here, so chances are this isn't going to be a very exciting entry because I used up all my energy writing the other one!
I'm pretending that I have the motivation and incentive that I need in order to start running again. I faithfully receive Runner's World monthly and have been reading it in an effort to get back into the mood. It may have finally worked. Yesterday I printed out hundreds of pages of paper, dated them until close to the end of August when my 5k race is scheduled, and wrote out a running program. I also left enough room for walking the dogs, playing ball (which starts next week), and of course working. This is the master schedule to end all schedules, dude. It's COM...PLETE. Okay, not quite; I still need to pencil in study time. I am pumped.
My muscles are sore from ball practice on Sunday afternoon, then two consecutive walks on Sunday and Monday night. I think i'm on a roll, but i'm not going to push my luck.
1 grapple (grape/apple cross-breed), 1/4 cup blueberries, 1 Oatmeal to Go bar.
1 flavored coffee
1 cup chicken breast, 1/2 cup green beans
1 flavored coffee
1 grilled pork chop, 1 cup brown rice, 1 cup green beans
1 slice apple crisp with 1/2 cup ice cream
walk dogs, running program (Day 2), and I need to buy some bottled water today.
- Friday Apr 25, 2008
I slept in this morning and although it felt good to be able to sleep that much, all I feel like doing now is sleeping. I managed to go for dinner with my boyfriend and some of his crew, picked up the mail and i've been going through it and paying whatever bills I can. The first coat of mud went on the walls of the bathroom last night, so two more and then I can paint. Hopefully one of those will be done tonight and the other in the morning tomorrow, but I guess time will tell if I will be able to paint this weekend or not. I hope so! I can't wait to see the sink in it's place and the finishing touches done! Right now, a friend drew a mirror on the wall where our medicine cabinet is supposed to go, and a picture of my boyfriend inside it, looking out at us and giggling. It's hilarious, but I can't wait to cover it up!
I would like to visit with friends this afternoon, but i'm not sure if anyone is at home. Maybe i'll just go back to sleep!
- Thursday Apr 24, 2008
What a crazy day it's been. But, thankfully, it's over and i'm at home now and I have tomorrow and the rest of the weekend OFF!!! Well, I mean I don't have to be at work. Officially. The boys are working on the bathroom walls, so I might even be able to paint this weekend! Painting puts me in a good mood, maybe because i'm concentrating i'm able to relax a little bit. It's not terribly thought-provoking stuff, so I can make my mind go blank and just... paint. It's great.
I was in a meeting for most of the day today, which is usually alright (i'm out of the office, etc, etc) except that the meeting I was in was in the same building I work out of, so everytime I had a break or could leave the meeting I went directly to my desk to check messages and e-mails and such. And there were a ton of them today! I can't believe how many there were. Once I got out of the meeting with two hours left in the workday, I spent the whole two hours just catching up on messages! That's GOT to be the worst part about an office job - the communication is terrible and yet we communicate with each other almost constantly! So I was running around like a chicken with its head cut off for the last part of the day. I'm glad it's all over...
Coffee, coffee, coffee today. I know, it's not healthy.
- Wednesday Apr 23, 2008
It's been a much better week so far, being out of the office so much in meetings I haven't really had to deal with the 'office politics' much. I'm grateful for any opportunity to be out of the office these days. I have taken Friday off, and next week am hoping for both Friday and the following Monday for an extra long weekend. I'm going to start using my holiday time (in the past i've felt too guilty about taking that much time off) because I really feel stressed and I need to find a way to calm down and be able to relax in my time off, instead of stressing about going back to work. Someday...
The tub and toilet are installed and in working condition in our bathroom!! It has been wonderful to be able to use the 'facilities' for the past couple of days!
1 whole wheat english muffin with peanut butter spread
2 cups flavored coffee
- Monday Apr 21, 2008
My boyfriend and I went out for dinner last night (surprise) with two friends of ours who are helping out with our bathroom renos. The girl is a writer, which both stimulates my curiosity and gets those envious veins flowing. Anyhow, a few years ago she went into business on her own in counselling and facilitating seminars. They are finally both on their feet and doing well after many years of struggle and compromise. I am proud of her for her achievements. She mentioned that this year she wants to build a special place for herself in the backyard of her office building, so that she will have a quiet place to write. I'm sure my face turned blue... or, I guess green, with envy. Or red. I'm not sure how I felt at that moment, if I was jealous, happy, angry, sad or proud. Later that night as I was sitting outside in my own backyard, I wondered to myself if it was going to take as much struggle and disappointment for me as well, to get to the point she is at now. And then I wondered if it was worth it. And then I wondered if I really had that much strength, to get through it all. And I probably do, but i'm not sure I really want to. Does that mean that i'm not determined enough, or does that mean that I need to re-vamp my objectives in life and maybe come up with something that is a little more manageable? Or should I stop asking all these stupid questions all the time and just DO something about it?
1 whole wheat english muffin with peanut butter spread
1 cup mocha
1/2 baked chicken breast
1/2 baked potatoe with butter
1 cup flavored coffee
Meetings all week, but i'm off on Friday so that's good. I was supposed to make a zillion appointments for myself for Friday (hair cut and color, optometrist, massage) but I haven't yet. My odds of getting in now are not good. Maybe i'll just sleep all day on Friday. I already feel like I could.
- Monday Apr 21, 2008
- Sunday Apr 20, 2008
We've been eating out so much the past couple of days that I can't even remember that i've been trying to eat healthy. Since when?!! Anyways, at the very least I am taking home parts of most meals so that should make a difference, though probably not the difference I was hoping for. This bathroom thing is still jumbling up my mind. I don't know why I can't just focus on something else, but the bathroom not being finished yet is really nagging at me! Although I have nothing to do with it and can't control when it gets done, I really, REALLY want it to be done already! Not only that, but then when it finally comes time for dinner there just isn't any energy left to make something healthy, and besides, I don't have any water to cook with anyways!! Last night we didn't eat until 9:30pm!! I hate that it was so late but there was no way I was gonna just watch my boyfriend eat while I had nothing at all.
2 slices whole wheat soy bread with peanut butter spread
1 bottle gingerale
1/2 grilled turkey sandwich on whole wheat (with red peppers; very good!)
1 cup salad with 2 tblspns ranch dressing
2 cups coffee with cream and sugar
2 slices whole wheat soy bread with peanut butter spread (while I was waiting for them to finish up so we could eat)
1 Oatmeal To Go bar (still while waiting)
1 cup salad with croutons
1/2 cup grilled chicken breast
3 tblspns ceasar dressing
1 slice garlic bread
Sunday brunch (I picked out healthy foods, but a lot of them. My dish consisted of at least 5 different foods, and i'm just too lazy to mention them all here)
2 cups coffee with cream and sugar
1 cup mocha
1/2 grilled turkey sandwich on whole wheat (with red pepper)
2 packages of those soup crackers (4 crackers in total)
2 slices whole wheat soy bread with peanut butter spread (again while waiting for those boys to finish up so we can eat already!)
I'm so hungry. I'm trying to think of other things to do so that I don't dig into the bread bag again. I'm very proud of myself for not taking any Advil yesterday or today so far. I have a tendency towards addictive substances like Tylenol and Advil, and coffee, etc etc etc!! I go hard for a while and then try to wean myself off. Stupid yo-yo affect in my life, not only in my diet but everywhere else as well!
I bought some powder-based formula today to help with well-being and prevention of illness. I tried a cup a little while ago, with pure water. It was disgusting, but i'm going to keep taking it (sans water, maybe will try juice instead). I also saw some vitamins with Omega-3, advertising for mood disorders. I was going to buy it and give it a try, but it was over $30 and i'm cheap like that. If I can't get myself into a better frame of mind with exercise and healthy eating, then maybe i'll consider paying that kind of money. Until then, no way.